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st-hedge · 4 months ago
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Not even a construction crew can fix this boy
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miniagula · 4 months ago
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how long do you think professor ji kept himself up at night when he learned the link between complex and madness was made worse by repression
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slashersweethearts · 1 month ago
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morgchie is such a severe mismatch of freak and it makes me feel so bad for morgan bc 😭 i mean she also thinks so but not in the way that it actually is! bc HER perspective on things Pre Literally Everything From The Moment He Showed Up At The Hospital With Sam Onward was like “damn. richie is so normal. cool of him to put up with me but why the hell is he doing that” and it’s like babygirl. you are a teenager w severe childhood trauma that left you feeling fundamentally shut off from your peers who likes holing up in ur room drawing silly little horror characters. that man is ghostface and he’s evil. YOU are not the worse off one in this r/s 😭
#like you know a lil too much abt fnaf and got samara morgan/slenderman/bughuul/ghostface painted on ur bedroom wall#sure.#but he is planning a massacre he got NO kinda room to think YOURE weird 😭#you have to understand that morgan’s metric of normal is like#can socialize w others and enjoys doing so. has a visible emotional range. generally seems to be having a Good Time#has not had their brain chemistry irreparably altered in a way that makes them feel alien around other ppl#so basically. the inverse of what she has going on 😭#so ofc she thinks he’s normal 😭#sure he may be a grown man obsessed w stab who is dating a high schooler#(well two. but she didnt know him n amber were a thing until WAAAAAY later 😭)#but he’s expressive + can talk to ppl & hold down a job + does not seem apathetic abt whether he lives to see tomorrow 😭#and comes from a seemingly stable bg off what she knows abt it which is. not an insane amount but enough to know it was Not like hers!#so shed say he’s still significantly better off than her 😭#id say babygirl were gonna get u some better self esteem but this like. isnt even#a thing she beats herself up over. to her its just kind of a fact#water is wet. the sky is blue. richie’s gotta have other options better than a very troubled 17 yr old n she dk why he isnt pursuing Them#thing is he sorta kinda doesnt?? given his track reco-*i am SHOT*#— ♡ 𝘫𝘶𝘴𝘵 𝘢 𝘱𝘩𝘢𝘯𝘵𝘰𝘮 (𝘯𝘰𝘵𝘩𝘪𝘯𝘨 𝘢𝘵 𝘢𝘭𝘭) // morgan fox.#— ➴ 𝘨𝘪𝘳𝘭𝘴 𝘺𝘰𝘶𝘳 𝘢𝘨𝘦 𝘬𝘯𝘰𝘸 𝘣𝘦𝘵𝘵𝘦𝘳. // morgchie.#— slasherverse posting.
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chooey · 2 years ago
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just finished breaking bad
#spoilers ahead so! tread lightly#breaking bad#bc i binged a lot of this show some episodes do not stick out to me like i cant tell u what happened on which episode or even which season#the naz!s were so left field like i think the story would still be the same without the hooked cross tattoos#it was surprising how the drug cartel or whatever didnt have much involvement in s5. like why did i think for sure theyd relocate to mexico#a follow up wouldve been nice is all im saying#OK. characters! my fav were mike jesse gus skyler and saul. hated walt literally since day 1. didnt change much up until the end#listen i can understand the concept of characters being morally bankrupt egotistical narcissistic abusive and manipulative#but walt was just . not charming enough a character to do it sorry he is what he is. sorry to him but i cannot stand him#i can appreciate some of his monologues though! fly (episode) was great for that the show needed it at least in my opinion#i like that all the characters are fundamentally flawed ! walt is at his core insufferable but he makes a good tragic story👍🏼#hank was so stupid like? 😭 when lab equipment from walt's school were stolen i thought that'd be it lollll#it was well written for the most part i think!!!!! some parts needed suspension of disbelief but whatever yk#what matters to me the most is whether i cried or not and yeah. yeah i did cry!!!!!! so what!!!!!!!!!#THEMES. obv theres change/corruption... power and abuse of power. toxic masculinity? and family. living life to the fullest if ur insane#also!!! just finished el camino and i liked it! simple story but i like the themes in it. this man's been through so much#jesse was point blank a victim of abuse and im glad he gets to leave the past behind and move forward with his life#owned up to the choices that gotten him up to this point. had control over his life again and building a new future for himself#very cool. also the ending of brba? i think it's good enough i mean i cant think of anything more fitting#but man did he do some incredible... maybe irreparable damage to his family huh. midlife crisis things <3#i hope they heal <3 somehow <3#wait about the themes too in brba!! one is reaching ur full potential... again if ur insane#idk maybe sometimes it's ok to flop. just as long as ur enjoying ur life and ur happy... i think that's fine! walt u and i will never agree#izza💭
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hannieehaee · 8 months ago
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Imagine workaholic gf!reader of equally workaholic bf!woozi where they both take a few days leave to enjoy each other and book a luxurious honeymoon suite hotel room thinking they will have a lot of sex with their days off but instead end up with cuddling and lazy make out sessions because their exhaustion just swooshes over them owo
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content: workaholic!woozi x workaholic!reader, afab reader, heavy mentions of smut, making out, very suggestive, etc.
wc: 1262
a/n: i can really picture jihoon dating a fellow workaholic lol anyways thank u for requesting<3
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"fuck, finally," you sighed in relief, letting yourself fall backwards onto the cool bed in the luxury hotel room jihoon had reserved.
after endless weeks of equally endless work, you finally had a week off, which jihoon had strategically coordinated with his own time off.
the two of you were extremely hard workers – to a fault. when jihoon bad first met you, he worried that maybe his addiction to constant work would eventually drive you away, yet somehow it had continued to keep you right by his side. you preferred that he was a workaholic, you had once told him. there had apparently been a few prior relationships in which your heavy workload had led to irreparable issues. jihoon being equally as busy as you allowed you to work without feeling guilt of leaving your partner behind – jihoon felt the exact same way.
despite the unspoken agreement the two of you had in regards to the dynamic of your relationship, it sometimes still got to you when you'd realize how little time you were able to spend with your boyfriend – once more, jihoon felt the exact same way.
your individual lives were already difficult to navigate, but making time for each other was even more complicated. your exhaustion was a whole different issue. working as much as the two of you did, it was understandable that you'd spend the lulls in your schedule resting as much as you could rather than with each other. it was a sad truth, but still remained a truth.
it wasn't as if you spent no time together, though. you'd always either see each other in the mornings (either through call or in person – depending on whether jihoon was in the country at the time or not) or at night, always making sure to love on one another as a reminder of the thriving affection in your relationship. you'd also dedicate one night per week to have a stay-at-home date night. everything was perfectly tailored to your relationship, and the two of you were more than happy with it.
these past few weeks had been the issue. as jihoon had a comeback and you had an important project at work, it was virtually impossible for you to see each other as of late. it got to you in all the worst ways, making you moody, irritable, tired, and even sexually frustrated. not only were you physically exhausted of the constant work, but you had been deprived of your daily dosage of jihoon. you had not slept together in weeks, nor had you even had a meal with each other. cuddling? completely out of the question with the insanely packed schedule you'd been having.
it all went like this for the both of you for a few weeks, up until everything managed to reach a standstill. you had a few days off, and jihoon had the ability to move some things around to match your time off. without so much as one word from you, jihoon had decided it was the perfect time to whisk you away on a private getaway at some luxury hotel of your choice.
jihoon wasnt really one to go out much, unbeknownst to you, but jihoon had been feeling extremely pent up from the last moment he got to have you all to himself. the short glimpses of you he managed to catch throughout the busy weeks were the only thing that had kept him going. the singular thought of the next time he'd he'd get to have you was the only thing occupying his mind. renting out a room for the week was the most obvious of choices to jihoon. he would finally get to explore the sheets with you.
upon arriving to the hotel, jihoon chuckled at how pleased you seemed with the place, immediately letting yourself loose on the bed and sighing in contentment. putting down the suitcases, jihoon joined you soon after, still fully clothed as he laid next to you, staring up at the ceiling.
"are you as tired as i am?", you asked him.
he hummed in affirmation, "yeah. what do you wanna do first?"
the unspoken agreement to utilize the week on sex had filled up the room before you had even arrived, so it was obvious what he was referring to.
"i'll take a quick bath first, okay, baby?", you said as you began to get up, stretching your muscles in the process.
"sure, baby. i'll head down to the gym for a bit to unwind then. i'll see you in about an hour, then?"
with a sweet peck, you bid your boyfriend goodbye, giddy to get yourself relaxed and perfumed so your boyfriend could help you destress under the sheets.
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the bath had been a huge success in terms of getting you relaxed. after an hour lying in the warmest, bubbliest, comfiest water imaginable to man, you felt like a brand new person. accompanied by a lavender-scented bath bomb, a glass of wine and your favorite netflix show playing in the background, you got out of that bath in the best mood you'd been in in weeks.
the one downside was how incredibly relaxed the bath had gotten you. you were so relaxed, you could've fallen victim to endless slumber in that bathtub. as much as you needed jihoon to fuck you to sleep, you weren't sure how well you'd be able to perform if you tried to return the favor.
luckily for you, that would not be an issue.
upon walking back into the room, now donning some comfortable pajamas, you were met with the sight of a fully-asleep jihoon, cocooned between the sheets as he snored softly. the sight had you swooning with affection for the boy. he was the softest, most relaxing thing you had ever seen.
you couldn't help yourself in making your way to him, somehow maneuvering yourself into his arms and under the sheets, feeling more relaxed than ever.
before you could even close your eyes, the boy shuffled behind you, mumbling against your ear as he cuddled further into you.
"baby?", he mumbled.
"sorry, baby. did i wake you?"
"hmm, no you're fine. i meant to stay awake for you, but the bed's just so damn comfy," he chuckled breathily, "i took a quick shower downstairs to prepare for, you know, but fuck, i'm just so tired," he whined.
you turned around in his arms, facing him, breaths almost intertwined due to the proximity.
"that's okay, hoonie. 'm so sleepy. maybe ... we could leave it for tomorrow? just sleep in and then we can have some fun tomorrow?" you suggested, pressing a soft peck to his lips.
his arms tightened around your waist, not allowing you to pull back all the way, "only if you kiss me some more," he murmured, eyes stuck to your lips.
"i can agree to that," you giggled, pressing a languid kiss to his lips as he stuck his tongue in your mouth, softly intertwining with your own in a wet kiss.
the rest of the evening was spent softly making out under the warm sheets, legs tangled up together and fully relaxed in each other's arms. sex was the last thing on your mind as you kissed each other every so often, mostly focused on holding onto one another and finding your slumber together. however, this exhaustion did not stop you from waking up the following day, claiming your highs from one another time after time throughout the day, ready to recharge at night and continue the pattern day after day.
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glittergoblinzz · 3 months ago
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Dunno if this has been done or not yet but I got to thinking....Alpha!Nikto who had the scent glands in his neck irreparably damaged when he was tortured by Zakhaev to the point where he can't give off any of his pheromones to attract an Omega.
That, along with his disfigured face, make every Omega he tries to impress pass him up for a fully functional Alpha. This causes Nikto to become incredibly depressed since the only thing he's living for at this point is just his military career and that's all. (Or a reverse scenario with an Omega!Nikto who's scent glands were damaged AND can't go into heat anymore so he's not desirable to any Alphas now)
Reader is an Alpha/Omega (depending on which version of Nikto we wanna go with) who's also been through Hell and have scent glands that basically don't do shit as well so no one wants them either. The only time either Reader or Nikto even get a hint of what the other is is during a sparring match, when they're both insanely sweaty and their glands are working overtime. Their scents are still barely noticeable, but when one pins the other to the mat, then they both catch wind of the other's scent which sends them both spiraling into a Rut/Heat
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yanderismo · 11 months ago
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Yandere Platonic Superman Concept/Idea (?)
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BRO, BRO, I DON'T KNOW IF I LOVE OR HATE MY MIND FOR GIVING ME IDEAS THAT I'LL NEVER START OR FINISH. But okay, I have an idea for a platonic yandere Superfam, maybe it involves Batfam or the entire DC universe. I think this is more platonic yandere Superman. Let's go. (using the translator, be kind to me please 😭) 
— Imagine that you are originally from the Injustice universe. You were a neutral young/teen heroine who wasn't at all interested in siding with Batman or Superman. Well... that neutrality of yours had consequences, and now, somehow, Superman and Batman were in a bloody tug of war to get you on their side. And you are the cable they are selfishly pulling. And one day that cable would break, and that's what happened to you, you broke it. So broken that I would consider it irreparable. 
— But luckily for you (bro, are you lucky?), after so much physical and mental suffering, you ended up in a way that I won't explain, in the original DC universe. In other words, no superheroes is crazy tyrants. Too bad you don't know that (yet).
— You were living as if the world was a danger to you (just like it was in Injustice). But you discovered that you were REALLY in a different universe or timeline when you met Lois Lane, the woman who drove Superman insane after her death. And it shocked you, you thought maybe you had gone back in time. And as reckless as it was, you felt hope that you could stop the future of Injustice from happening, stop Lois Lane from being murdered! After all, you were still a hero, even if you had probably lost half of your original universe's neurons.
 — So you made a decision. You decided to protect Lois Lane! You practically become her protective shadow. Being noticed wouldn't do any good, and for SO FEAR of being confronted by Superman/Clark for apparently stalking his wife, you stopped watching her when Clark showed up and you went back when Clark left. (In your head, this Superman is the same Superman from Injustice, just before Lois' death happened). You were wary as hell of all the heroes. Anyway, a lot of trauma caused by Injustice.
— And I believe that Lois, even if she was a civilian, would notice that she was being watched (or maybe you're just not very good at stalking because you're a very young heroine). Whatever it is. Lois noticed and she became cautious (she is a journalist, there are many people who may not like her to the point of committing atrocities), as you could be a threat to her life. Although you haven't revealed yourself as any threat so far.
 — But let's suppose there were events in which she was in danger (actually, it was just something like shelves falling, preventing her from being run over, preventing some rabid dogs from biting her, small things), events in which you managed to remain hidden, however Lois knew it was You, her strangely protective stalker. Lois was trying to know your intentions and work it out for herself, so she didn't say anything about it. If this is something much more than she can handle, Clark can always lend a little help. 
— But on another one of those times when she was in danger, you desperately saved her (the situation was quite dangerous, more than normal), asking if she was okay and everything. Lois was surprised, you were surprised. Before you know, the idea of staying in the shadows went down the drain. You were almost begging (you were begging) her not to tell anyone that you were persecuting her (protecting her), you didn't want her to report you to some authority (that would only hinder your mission) or worse, report you to Superman. You said, stammered, that you were just protecting her. Wanting to make sure Lois didn't feel threatened and report you. 
— The desperation, the panic in your voice, seemed too young for Lois to feel comfortable. You were like a scared child, you looked very much like just a scared child, and that made Lois uncomfortable but at the same time... motherly. If you wanted to hurt her, you would have done it already. You at least accomplished one thing: making Lois not feel threatened by you.
 — The other thing you couldn't do was stop Lois from telling Clark about you. Look, I'm sure Lois didn't mean it, it's uncomfortable to be watched almost every day, but also, since she discovered you, she's been quite worried about you.
 — And Clark is all worried, like, "What?? My wife is being stalked??? Oh wait, my wife is being stalked and protected. Well, that's still very worrying, I'm definitely going to check it out for myself." Furthermore, Lois insisted that he be gentle when approaching you. And Lois saying this to him made him even more intrigued. 
— He tried to approach you just as Clark Kent, just to know how you would react around a seemingly civilian person, think of it as a method to read your character (he didn't want to confront you as Superman in a careless way. After all, who wouldn't Does he act nice or change to a more pleasant personality around Superman?)
— Needless to say, Clark was surprised and confused when you looked at him like he was the greatest terror of your life before simply running away from him. He recognized that look, only villains who were traumatized after a confrontation against him have that look (but the you look was much, much worse than that). That day, you didn't chase Lois.
 — Clark suspected you knew his secret identity. There is no longer any reason for you to have reacted like this. 
— lol, that day Lois noticed the absence of the feeling of being watched and scolded Clark for scaring you. Although it wasn't his fault, he apologized. He really didn't mean to scare you ;( You were gone for a few days after that. But of course, you still had to protect Lois in her everyday life. Even if you were scared. 
— Anyway, it didn't matter how softly, friendly Superman approached you next time. You ran, or at least tried to run. Do you really want to bet on who is the fastest? He easily caught you and held you by your forearm. And that was enough to make you scream, cry, struggle and finally, shrink as much as possible.
— And Superman was all confused, he wasn't even hurting you or squeezing you hard. His voice was also friendly. If anything, it made him even more worried. Add the fact that you appear to be very young and his paternal instincts kicked in. 
— To his surprise, you pulled out a knife. Something like that couldn't hurt Superman, of course not. But who said the knife was meant to hurt him? Let's say you picked up the knife and tried to slit your own throat as a last resort escape. (What did you go through with Superman from Injustice to the point that you tried to commit suicide just to escape him?) 
— Superman was surprised and then horrified. He immediately knocked you unconscious before you cut deeper into your throat. Now with you unconscious, you seemed more vulnerable and fragile than you should have been. Now he understood why Lois was worried about you. (You know, if Batman can adopt multiple children, why couldn't Superman...? You seem like a good kid and even Lois agrees with that. Conner and Jon would definitely like to have a sister) 
— Superman wondered what happened to you that made you reach the point where death was a usable route. He wanted to question you personally, but the moment he confirmed that you knew his identity (you acted the same way when he approached you as a civilian. He was the only one to receive this reaction from you and no one else), this matter became the subject of the Justice League. Discovering the identity of a superhero and pursuing someone close to that superhero was not going to be taken lightly. Who's to say you don't also know the identities of others? Although Superman wants to deal with you alone, he doubts he'll get any information out of you with you yelling and screaming. So he took you to the justice league. 
— Batman can definitely help you solve this.
(Imagine the anguish it would be to probably have to get used to people having the same appearance and the same voice as your captors in Injustice. Imagine them acting all soft after finding out you come from a universe where the heroes are corrupt and broke you😩)
Notas: I leave the rest to you. Or to any author who wants to use this idea (I beg you, some author write a Yandere platonic Superman/Superfam fic😭 They could even add other platonic Yanderes like Batfam, it would be so interesting 🙏😭)
(I just realized that the one who acted the most Yandere was Reader herself, lol)
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n0thingbutlov3 · 6 months ago
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need you now | 2 |
in which readers true feelings are revealed.
pairing: spencer reid x fem!reader warnings/tags: angst again (whoops) miscommunication (it’s short dw) fluff, reader is hungover lol, spencer is handsomely disheveled (moans) mentions of blueberry muffins being readers favourite type of muffin (sorry for not being vague but also if you don’t like blueberry muffins??? why) some tears, some swearing, some kissing, suggestiveness at the end of you squint (WHOOPS *evil smirk*) no use of y/n!! wc: 2.1k a/n: call me slim shady because i am back!!! i procrastinated writing this because i was scared everyone was secretly judging my writing and actually hated it and a second part would be a stupid idea but THEN i realised that was a little bit silly so im here B) part one got over 1000 notes (INSANE) all the support has been so so lovely—every note, reblog, and comment means the world to me, thank you!! i hope this part is okayy, feedback is always appreciated :) i hope you enjoy it you choose to read!!! <3 p.s kissing scenes are so difficult to write, i think i done absolutely awful!!!so let’s ignore that…. if you haven’t already and you’d like to, you can read part one here!
Your eyelids twitched as the early morning sun filtered through your bedroom. What was usually a calming wake-up call now felt like being blinded.
You burrowed your face into your pillow, squeezing your eyes shut in an attempt to dull the throbbing in your head. This is why you didn’t drink often.
Asides from the obvious headache and nausea, you always seemed to wake up with a sense of dread; ‘hangxiety’—a friend had called it once. It was creeping up on you now, and even though you weren’t sure exactly what you had done, you knew it was bad. You flipped onto your back, fixing your gaze to the ceiling as if it could tell you what irreparable mistakes you had made last night.
It couldn’t, of course. The only thing you had realised is that you should probably coat it in a new layer of paint soon.
“How’re you feeling?”
You shot up, eyes widening at the sight of a man in your doorway. A man whose sleepy voice and disheveled hair threatened to make you melt, but a man who should not be in your doorway, nonetheless; Spencer.
Your brain was quick to supply you with information then, your memory coming back in hazy remnants. You were upset so you…called Spencer for the first time in months. Yikes. He didn’t answer so you turned to a bottle of high end whiskey instead—yikes, again—and passed out on your couch, only to wake up to your ex-boyfriend in your apartment. Cue more sobbing, a pathetic attempt at asking—no, more like begging—him to get back together with you, and that was it. Well, mostly. There was also the promise of discussing your breakdown in the morning. The morning, which was now.
What the fuck.
“Like I’ve been napalmed.” You weren’t sure you were just referring to your raging hangover.
That prompted a raspy kind of chuckle from him and Jesus Christ—you really shouldn’t have called, because it was going to be infinitely harder to watch him leave when he inevitably told you you were sad loser who needed to get a grip and move on—except, he’d be a lot nicer than that, wouldn’t he? Because even if things were over between you, he was still the sweetest person you had ever met and he’d never say anything to intentionally hurt you. Maybe things would be easier if he did. If he wasn’t so sickeningly perfect—if he just insulted you in the way you were certain you deserved, then maybe you’d get over him quicker.
“So, I-ah-uber’d breakfast—“
Your inner turmoil came to a screeching halt at those words.
“You uber’d? You?”
He scoffed, a light blush dusting his cheeks.
“The team’s been very into it lately and I always finish my paperwork first so it only makes sense that I—stop laughing! I can uber!”
“Sorry! I just can’t imagine the great Doctor Reid stooping to the levels of a fast food delivery app. Do you ever order to the wrong place?”
“No.” he said, unconvincingly. “Well, only once—“
You were laughing again.
He whined, turning on his heel.
“Just take your aspirin and hurry up!” He grumbled petulantly as he left the room, but you could hear the smile in his voice.
After a quick freshen up and taking the pills placed on your bedside table—as per his request—you padded through to the living room, joining Spencer on the couch.
You gasped delightedly as he pulled out muffins from a brown paper bag. To be more specific, blueberry muffins; your favourite.
“Did you know that blueberries are good for fighting hangovers? They’re rich in vitamin C, which helps break down and metabolise blood alcohol. Muffins too, they—what? Do I have something on my face—“
“No! No, sorry,” You had been caught staring—ogling, more like. “I just missed…that.”
“What? My incessant rambling?” He was joking, but you could hear the insecure twinge in his voice—the one that told him he was too much. Over the course of your relationship, you had showed him that he didn’t have to think like that around you—that he was never too much; he was perfect in your eyes. You hated that he doubted that now.
“Yes, actually.” You tried to keep your tone light, unserious. But there was nothing unserious about just how badly you had missed the man sitting beside you. How you could hear his voice in your mind when you drove late at night, giving you statistics on accidents. Or how on other late nights, you swore you could feel his hands ghosting over your skin—only to find out it was your imagination.
If he could see how truthful you were being, he didn’t acknowledge it, turning his attention back to the coffee table.
“I’ll, um, save you the facts on how beneficial coffee is for hangovers, anyway.” He smiled awkwardly, shuffling a paper coffee cup to where your muffin sat.
“Thank you,” you mumbled, “for the coffee, not the withholding of information—i’m a real fiend for coffee facts…especially when they’re related to curing hangovers!” You said a little too cheerily, trying to alleviate the awkward tension. Although, that only seemed to make it worse.
Spencer just huffed out a little laugh in response, taking the wrapper off of his muffin.
The rest of breakfast went by in silence. Not the comfortable silence you always seemed to have with Spencer—when you were together, you reminded yourself—but a strained one. The kind of silence that occurs when there’s something left unsaid, and you’re just waiting for someone to spit it out.
Spencer broke first.
“So we should probably talk…about last night.”
You finished the remainder of your coffee, setting the empty cup down before turning your whole body to Spencer, tucking your legs up underneath you.
“Right, yeah…”
A beat passed, Spencer’s eyes darting around your face—assessing you.
For someone who had imagined this conversation in your mind countless times, you certainly weren’t saying much.
“I—uh…was very drunk.”
Something in him shifted, like he was putting up imaginary walls.
“So you didn’t mean…any of it?” His brow furrowed, his nose twitching slightly.
“Well no, but I—“ You what? Meant every word you said and more? You couldn’t just say that. You had just got a small part of Spencer back and you didn’t want to ruin it by coming on too strong.
He waited for you to add something, anything, to show him that maybe, maybe there was a tiny part of you that still wanted him as badly as he wanted you. But you didn’t. You just sat there, playing with the fabric of your—his—t-shirt.
He couldn’t do it.
He was so tired of loving people only for them to leave like he had meant nothing to them. Was that all he was to you? Someone you could call when your inhibitions were lowered, looking for comfort? He would do anything to be back in your life again, but he couldn’t be a person of convenience; someone you only wanted when you were lonely.
He ran a hand through his hair, swallowing down the tightness in his throat.
“You were drunk and you got carried away, I get it. I think I better go though—“
“What? No, I—“ You bobbed your mouth like a fish, trying to find the words necessary to keep him here. There were too many of them and yet none at all. None except for three. Three words that you wished you had the courage to say months ago, or weeks ago, or last night. But you never claimed to be a courageous person, and you weren’t about to spill your heart out again only for it to end up in rejection.
Spencer stood, making his way to your bedroom to grab his shoes and coat. He didn’t care about his other clothes, he could buy more—he just needed out before he broke.
You sat dumbfounded on the couch, willing yourself to do something, say something. It was like you were frozen. And you stayed frozen. As Spencer shuffled around your bedroom, as he returned to the living room—completely avoiding your gaze—even as he searched for his keys. You hadn’t realised he had driven over here. He didn’t usually drive unless he had to get somewhere urgently. Were you someone worth seeing urgently to him?
He picked up his keys, heading for your door and only then did you realise how dire the situation was. If he left now you weren’t sure he would ever come back.
“No—wait, Spencer!” You stammered, lunging off the couch to try and stop him. He unlocked the door, moving to leave when you grabbed onto his jacket sleeve.
“Please don’t—I love you!”
“What?”
He turned to face you and you noticed just how wrecked he looked—not at all dissimilar from how you had for the last few months. Had he looked like that the whole time?
You must’ve been staring because when you came back to your senses he was calling your name exasperatedly.
“Do you mean it?”
You were fed up living like this; harbouring so much love for someone and not being able to express it. Even if he didn’t love you back, even if he was over you, you couldn’t go another moment without at least telling him how you felt.
“Yes,” you heaved, “I love you—I never stopped loving you, I was just…” You knitted your brows together, unsure how to phrase what you were feeling.
“I’ve never loved someone the way I love you and that’s…terrifying. I thought the way I felt was wrong, like—when you were on cases, I missed you so much, more than I thought humanely possible and—well, I never wanted to be the kind of girl to base her happiness on another person because that’s how you get hurt. So, I thought the only way to combat that was by…distancing myself. I thought if you weren’t in my life anymore then I’d be able to get a grip and become more independent—“ you huffed, trying to stop the wobble of your voice. “but it didn’t work, because then I was just missing you twice as much, except I couldn’t see you at all—“
“You could’ve answered my messages, we could’ve—“
“So you could return your key? Then things would actually be over. Why do you think I ignored your messages?”
“Why do you think I kept messaging? Angel, I was never going to return that key—at least not willingly—I just wanted to see you, to see if you were doing just as horribly without me as I was without you. You know, I couldn’t even focus on cases—Hotch even suggested I take some time off.”
You frowned, your voice impossibly small. “I’m sorry.”
He took a step toward you, cupping your cheeks in his hands.
“Don’t apologise, you were dealing with your emotions in the best way you knew how. I just wish…” he swallowed, his adam’s apple bobbing. “I wish I hadn’t let you go so easily.”
His eyes were shining and—God, you wished you could take it all back. All the pain you had caused him, caused yourself, just because you were too scared to talk about your feelings.
“I wish I hadn’t left.” You blinked away the tears that were threatening to spill from your eyes. “Y’know, I read a book on astrophysics because it reminded me of you. I didn’t understand any of it but I couldn’t put it down. I still—“ you let out a watery chuckle. “still have it in my bedroom somewhere.”
Spencer smiled, swiping under your eye at a tear that must’ve escaped.
“Yeah? Maybe I can read it to you—help you understand it.”
“I’d like that.”
You didn't know much about celestial bodies or the ultimate fate of the universe, but you could've sworn you'd seen the stars pictured in that book in Spencer’s eyes when he looked at you.
“Say it again.” He mumbled, tilting his head down so that your faces were just inches apart.
“I love you.”
And then his lips were on yours, impossibly soft and everything you had been missing since you had broken up. He kissed you like you were the oxygen he needed and all you could do was sigh into him because you knew the feeling.
He leaned back all too soon, resting his forehead against yours.
“Well, I should probably go—“ He smirked, but you cut him off before he could continue his teasing.
“You’re not funny.”
He narrowed his eyes, sucking his teeth.
“I don’t know, I—“
You pressed a firm hand on his chest, bunching the cotton of his t-shirt into a fist.
“Stop. Stay—we can have a pyjama day and maybe for dinner, you can show me just how tech savvy you’ve become and uber us some food—“
He rolled his eyes, kicking the door shut before pressing his lips to yours with more force this time.
“Stop talking.”
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deadsetobsessions · 1 year ago
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He doesn’t know how they got here, but Jason’s thankful for it. It’s not often that he speaks to Cass, when Jason’s passions are words and righteous murder and Cass’s passions are distinctly not that, but when they do speak, they manage to get along. Somehow.
“So, why don’t you kill?” Jason leans back on the couch, his favorite mug filled with Alfred’s hot chocolate.
Cass is curled against the arm of the sofa. She looks at him, head tilted. Jason knows she’s reading him, but he’s not sure what she’s finding. It’s humbling, and intimidating, to know she sees more than what he allows to show.
“I can see,” she says. “That one time… I killed. I saw. Pain. Fear. Desp- des- not wanting to die.”
“Desperation?”
Cass nods. One of her fingers fiddle with the material of the couch. Jason knows she’s allowing him to see the motion. He knows it’s her silent way of showing him trust.
“There is more. To dying. Like… like they see their lives-They think- remembers. Loves. Their life- regret, love, everything. It goes through-” Cass taps her temple.
“Their lives are flashing through their heads?”
“Yes. Good. Bad. Everything. I see.” Quieter, Cass adds “I know. I know them, then. I killed a life that I know. They love. Everyone, have something they love. I kill, I kill that love.”
“That must suck.”
Cass leans back. She nods, neck releasing their tension and eyes less hunted, more accepting.
“Yes. I don’t want to- I don’t want to be the end.” Cass swivels her shoulders towards him, now. “Why… why do you?”
“Me?” Jason… hasn’t thought about it for a while, nor too deeply. But this is Cass. And her honesty deserves an honest reply. “I kill because some people shouldn’t be left alive to hurt and kill others”
“Not about… Bruce?”
Jason took a sip of his hot chocolate. Cass settled more into the couch, her eyes clear and watchful.
“It used to be,” he admitted. “About him, I mean. It used to be about vengeance. But then I came back to Crime Alley, and then I saw the kids getting hurt instead of being protected. They’re innocent. And then, it wasn’t about Bruce anymore. Killing is just the means to an end now, for me.”
“Do you- not regret?” She makes a gesture at his leg, where on a normal day, his holsters would be.
“I try to make sure I don’t kill people I’d regret, no. Like, you know how sometimes you guys arrest muggers?”
Cass nodded.
“Sometimes,” Jason said, remembering the days of digging through trash for food and the lingering hunger that rumbled through his younger self’s stomach. “They mug people because they’re desperate. I don’t kill those guys. But people deal to kids? Who hurt sex workers? Rapists? They’re doing irreparable harm, with full knowledge of their actions. For profit, mostly. If they’re willing to ruin lives, then they should be ready for their own to be ruined. It’s justice, for people like me.”
Cass studied him. “Justice…?”
“The only kind us Alley kids could ever appreciate. Arresting an abuser, a threat, and having that stick is for the privileged. Having that threat removed completely is relieving.”
“Can’t trust the world to be fair. But death, is fair.”
“Yeah. I think if I saw as much as you do, it’d be harder to do. But I think I’d still kill, because one person’s suffering after a life of being evil is worth the safety of so many others. To know… well, I guess I’m glad I don’t know what that’s like.”
“I see.”
“I know you do,” Jason grins at her. “But not killing is an act of courage too. Even if B makes it seem like it should come instinctually.”
“Yes. He does not connect, with Damian. Does not understand, fully, how hard. To unlearn.”
“Yeah.”
They sit in silence for a while after that, listening to the sounds of their family clambering around in other rooms.
“Hey, Cass?”
Cass turned back to him.
“I would kill David Cain for you.”
He would. It makes the Pit seethe when he thinks about how much David Cain and Lady Shiva hurt Cass for her to get this insanely good at reading people. He hopes she sees the pure honesty and sincerity he feels at that declaration
Cass puts a hand on his shoulder and squeezed once. Twice.
“Okay. Thank you.”
“No objections?”
“… would not feel too bad.”
Jason snorted.
“Yeah. You and me both.”
He doesn’t know how they got here, but he’s thankful for it anyways, because he understands his sister just that much more now.
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frodo-in-a-fez · 1 year ago
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tolkien was literally so insane motherfucker wrote the most tragic, heart-wrenching ending for a frodo ever that was such a novel way of showing how trauma changes you in irreparable ways only to hide the silly goofy lil detail that like 70 years after this happened his gayass husband gets to go hang out with him in elf land forever and ever in the middle of fucking appendix b and its still such a uniquely melancholy way of ending things. god bles
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agirlandherquill · 14 days ago
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the thirteenth day of writemas
day 13, a rather superstitious number, and some may say i tempt fate by favouring 13 as my lucky number, but it's my first official day of christmas break, i'm home, and in a very eager writing mood - so i'll be joining you all alongside today's prompts with my own entry, whether it comes minutes after this post goes live or an hour later, we shall see, but for now i'm looking forward to seeing what you all come up with!
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Prompt List:
Dialogue Prompts:
"On your knees. You will bow to me, you will kiss my boot, or I shall find reason not to spare you."
"Why did I do it? Why does anyone do anything? Simple. Revenge."
"I wished on my beating, broken heart for a way out of this. I wished, and my salvation never came."
Setting Prompts:
A vehicle
A dinner
A rooftop
Narration Prompts:
They cursed, they swore, they damned, but each word bounced harmlessly from her mind. She paid them no heed. What good were words when she had knives?
He drove his fist into the ice, desperate, he beat and he beat against the frozen barrier until it was bloody, but even then, the ice would not break.
The damage was done. The ruin irreparable. It would leave scars and plenty of them, but at least, along with the pain, there remained a story to tell.
Feeling Prompts:
The heat of a stare
The ache of longing
The burn of poison
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swiatloanjo · 4 months ago
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It's so interesting to think that Henry technically lived for William.
(even if it's to kill him)
And the reason is that he had nothing left. The only thing that kept him there breathing and living is William. The guy who started it all, the guy who was once his partner, coworker and best friend, the guy who destroyed his life irreparably, the guy who killed innocent children and the guy who until then never died... I truly believe that If he didn't learn about the ''paranormal'' he would probably end up like TSE! Henry.
I suppose that William was missing and no one had heard from him because he had died, but Henry still believed that William was somewhere, It's been 30 years and he still trusted his instinct that it was still necessary to look for him or be alive to stop William from doing something stupid.
He was just waiting, just like Michael (but Michael is a living dead man), wanting for some sign of 'life' that William was back. And when he showed up, Henry simply put the plan into action.
My point is...
HOLY SHIT. These two are crazy, insane and I'm almost this 🤏 to say that they deserve each other but I won't go out of respect for Henry. Imagine living more than 30 years of your miserable life to hunt down someone you don't even know is alive so you can end all this shit and finally kill yourself in the process.
In The Silver Eyes, it is mentioned that William has personal diaries about Henry that ranges from jealousy to near-worship AND I assume it's canon that William is in fact the same way in canon (If not, Charlie's death would have no motivation at all)
The research and quest for immortality that William was after comes from his obsessive envy of Henry and his desire to create something for himself, and he technically died because of it.
And Henry spent years and years chasing William to kill him once and for all, he literally lived for William.
He lived all this time just to kill William.
Henry lived for William.
William lived a good part of his life solely to satisfy his obsessive envy of Henry. He KILLED because of it and then they killed him because of that.
One died because of his obsession.
And the other lived by his obsession.
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thought--bubble · 11 months ago
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Let's Work it Out
Ettore X (Indifferent Crewmate Reader)
Warnings after the cut
Based on THIS request
Word Count: 1979
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"I hate this fucking ship." This is the thought that runs through your mind on a constant loop.
When you agreed to take this mission, you had thought it would be a good alternative to prison.But after months of floating around on this metal hellscape, you know you should have just stayed on earth.
Trapped in a tin can with a bunch of arseholes. At least in prison, the population was bigger. You had a better chance of finding people you could stand.
But here? Misery.
Boyse was fucking annoying with her constant bitching "this isn't right", "she can't do this", you know she's right but fuck, you can't change it and neither can she, so at least she could do you all a favor and just shut the fuck up.
Then there's Monte. The high and mighty one who thinks he is too good for the box. He walks around as if he is somehow morally superior to the rest of you, as if he wasn't a murderer too.
"You wouldn't be on this ship if you weren't asshat. Calm down."
Then there is the absolutely insane Dr. Dibs, who is apparently the only other person on this ship that is allowed to touch you and not in a fun way. Doing her freaky experiments knocking all the women up one by one and accidentally killing them off like some fucked up version of Russian roulette.
Then there is Ettore. He doesn't bother you as much as he bothers all the other female inmates, which actually makes him amusing in a way. He's definitely got the creepy staring guy role down, but who could blame him? There isn't much to look at on this stupid ship. Everything looks the same.
There are more irritating, annoying inmates, but you couldn't be arsed to learn their names. Fuck every single person on this ship, as far as you are concerned.
Most days, like today, when you have "free time," you just lay in your bunk. Trying to daydream and imagine you were back on earth before you irreparably fucked your life up.
Nansen is up on her bunk doing the same thing. She doesn't bother you much as she's quiet, and at the moment, Ettore is hanging off her bunk, literally sniffing at her.
"He's so fucking weird" you think as you watch him, trying not to laugh at the fact that this is what passes for amusement around here.
Nansen clearly gets fed up with him sniffing around her like some deranged dog and finally shoves him away.
The frustration on his face finally does you in, and you start laughing, no not laughing, cackling. He responds quickly with a flash of rage before quickly exiting the room.
"Thanks for that, that was actually fun," you yell over to Nansen before you roll onto your side, still chuckling to yourself.
Time moves slowly here and after what felt like hours Nansen left to go do something or other leaving you in the room alone still laying on your side and staring at the wall as if willing it to bring you some sort of escape from this place.
Your eyelids get heavier and heavier as you stare at the wall before they finally slide shut. Only the slight humming of the ship and distant voices can be heard as you feel yourself slipping into unconsciousness.
Until you hear it. The door closing. You open your eyes but don't move. Normally, it wouldn't be weird to hear someone enter the room. It is a shared space, after all. But no one ever closes the door. It's always left open.
You wait a few minutes while you continue to pretend you're asleep. Maybe one of the girls are douching after a visit with Dibs or puking up their sleepy time pills? Best to pretend you are asleep so they don't try to kick you out of the room.
So you wait. For movement, noise, or anything, but you are met with silence.
What feels like eternity passes with your heart thumping in your chest when finally, you turn around to see Ettore sitting on the floor next to your bunk, some of your long loose hair between his fingers.
You instantly jump back.
"Piss off!" You yell while pushing back with your feet towards the wall.
Ettore grips your ankle and drags you across the bunk and onto the floor.
"Arse!" You howl as your back makes contact with the harsh floor. Ettore stares down at you, a predatory look in his eyes.
"Don't you touch me, you prick!" You snarl at him, slowly rising to your feet.
Ettore doesn't say a word. Just slightly tilts his head to the side as his eyes scan you from top to bottom.
This guy isn't a dog, he's a fucking wolf and he is sorely mistaken if he thinks you're a lamb ripe for the slaughter. Yet you can't help but find him oddly enticing, the piercing blue eyes, his fill chest, and the fact that he keeps his mouth shut is a nice bonus.
As he moves toward you, the decision is made, you tackle him, wrapping your arms around his midsection, bringing him to the ground with a loud smack, and straddle his hips.
"Don't fuckin move you prick!" You hold his hands up by his head and are surprised when you see no anger, only unbridled lust.
And then you feel it. He is rock-hard beneath you, and suddenly, the fact that he isn't fighting you off makes sense.
Against your better judgment and any rational sense, you decide to tease him. It's been so long since you have been touched. Why not indulge for a moment?
"You like being under me, don't ya?" You tease as you rock your hips against him.
"Yea, nice place to be" his words are dripping in lust as he pushes his hips against yours grinding his cock against your cunt.
This boy is desperate.
You chuckle to yourself and grind back against him. His eyes roll back slightly as his jaw drops open.
He's so responsive, so much so that it drives heat straight to your core.
"You want me to apologize? For laughing earlier?" You continue to grind against his cock a sensation he loves, if the look on his face is anything to go by.
"Don't care," He grunts as he moves his hips a bit faster against you and closes his eyes.
"What if I said I would apologize by riding that big old cock you have stuffed into those scrubs huh?"
Ettore's eyes flash open, and he stares up at you, licking his lips.
"Would you like that?" You tease as you again roll your hips against him, but you make the mistake of closing your eyes and when you do Ettore wastes no time breaking out from the grips you have on his wrists and flipping you over onto your back.
You grunt at the impact. "Fuck, thought we were getting somewhere?" Your grumble in pain.
"Collectin my apology." He sniffs up the side of your neck before reaching down to pull off your scrub bottoms.
You want to correct him. Maybe explain. What riding him means, but again, you couldn't be arsed.
You push your scrubs down the rest of the way and bring your legs up around his hips.
It's been far too fucking long since you've been fucked and he's weird yeah but he's also hot and is most likely gonna fuck you silly.
Ettore leans forward to capture your mouth, but you turn your head to the side.
No fucking kissing dipshit.
Luckily, he is quick on the uptake and goes for your neck, seemingly unbothered by the subtle rejection.
He brings his hand to your heat, sliding his digits into your leaking wetness.
"Mmmmm" He groans eyes closed as he hovers above you, his fingers finding your clit and rubbing small precise circles on the nerve.
You close your eyes and lean your head back, your climax getting closer as he continues his ministrations while gently biting at your neck.
You feel your body tense as you climb that hill, wanton moans slipping from your lips as Ettore slides a finger into your canal, his fingertips exploring, looking for the magic spot that makes a girl go wild.
You take a deep breath in and rock your hips against his hand, your labored breaths, and sounds of pleasure gradually growing in volume, and he knows he's found it.
Ettore gets to work rubbing at the spot deep inside you as he pulls back to watch your face contort in pleasure.
It's so primal. Emotions aren't necessary. Just basic physical need and gratification, one of the driving forces behind Ettore's every move.
He quickly removes his finger from you and grips your thighs tightly, pulling you up to him, and plunges himself inside you in one swift thrust.
The only thing he feels.
He audibly groans at the sensation, jaw hanging slack as his pace quickly increases.
He has tunnel vision. He wants that sensation and needs that sensation, and there is not a thing in heaven, on earth, or this damn ship that is going to stop him now.
In just moments, his pace is punishing the hard smack of his hips against your skin and the delicious mixture of pleasure and pain have you reeling.
"Fuck!" You bite your lower lip nearly breaking the skin as he bullies your insides, hitting all the right spots with each violent thrust.
He watches himself entering you memorized be each movement. He is practically drooling seeing your fluids building up on the base of his cock. Dampening the short blonde curls that grow there.
He can't help but think to himself how much better it is when they want it.
He brings his thumb to your clit working the nub in small circles wanting that clench he knows you can give him.
"Fuck, fuck, fuck, fuck!" Your eyes fly back open as you hit your peak temporarily going deaf, body numb to all feeling other than the overwhelming pleasure.
Ettore smiles, not a happy smile, more of a victory smile. It's time to chase his peak, to take what he wants needs.
As you begin to float back down from your high, Ettore is climbing his. Every thought in him consists of reaching that goal. That euphoria.
His grunting grows louder, and his legs begin to shake as he pushes his body to its limit, determined to have the most intense experience he can create.
"If you ever want to do this again, you'll pull out." You don't know if he will heed your warning. He doesn't care about you. Why should he? You do hope that his needs in the future will outweigh his wants right now, but only time will tell.
He says nothing, his eyes closed as he groans loudly, you feel him stiffen, and just as you think he is going to ignore your warning, he pulls out shooting his spend onto your quivering thighs.
You both stay put a moment before you reach into your laundry and snatch up a shirt that's meant for washing, wiping yourself down.
Ettore watches you intently before finally opening his mouth. You see him debate with himself whether or not he should say whatever it is he is planning on saying.
You watch the gears move in his head moderately, amused as you start to put your bottoms back on.
"Good grief, just say it." You can't help but lose your patience. He is back to being the weird, staring guy, and it's irritating.
"Again?" He finally mutters.
You chuckle as you realize he is confirming that this is going to happen again.
"Sure" you shrug "Need something to do on this fucking ship"
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starlightseraph · 6 months ago
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no one will ever convince me that house isn’t a truly good person. he’s not nice, but he is (often) kind. he has a net positive impact on the world, but a lot of the people around him loose sight of that when he does something particularly insane. they decide that he was never actually good, that he was just using everything as a means to an end, and they say that he’s ruined them and corrupted them and that everyone is worse for having been exposed to him.
foreman worries he’s become house, that he’s lost his sense of humanity and morality. cameron leaves because she’s convinced that house ruined chase and destroyed him irreparably. cuddy does believe in him, she thinks he’s ultimately good, but that he’s not good enough to be loved or to love well. dominika loved him, but house was so afraid that she’d leave that he ended up holding on too hard.
and then there’s wilson, who loves house unconditionally. he never stops believing in house, that house can be better. he gets angry, he tries to help house change, but when he ultimately fails he still stays. he always, always loves him. he sees that house is a good person, regardless of his defensive tendencies and emotional repression. he accepts house as he is, and that’s enough for him.
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thinking1bee · 7 months ago
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You Haven't Failed Part 6
Requested by Anonymous
Pairings: Wanda Maximoff x Reader
Tags: Spidey!Reader, Venom!Reader, So Much Angst, Fluff, Established Relationship, Graphic Depictions of Injuries, Blood, Violence, Explicit Language, Explicit Sexual Content, Smut
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“So,” Nick began as he laced his fingers together on his desk. “I saw the news.”
He reached under to grab his bottle of tequila and a shot glass. You winced as you watched him pour a shot. Normally, when he drank, it was for something funny because one of you did something stupid, but you couldn’t call this a funny moment. He topped the glass off and put the bottle down, but to your surprise, he moved the shot glass towards you.
“Are you okay?”
His gaze was kind, the brown in his eye softening as he regarded you with care. Your suit was ruined beyond repair, and it had to be disposed of, so as you sat in Nick’s office, you wore a shirt and a pair of jeans. You gladly took the shot and downed it. The alcohol settled heavily in your empty stomach, and you let the burn occupy your mind instead of the nightmarish thoughts that haunted you since last night.
Nick refilled the shot glass and drank one himself. You took a deep breath and rubbed your cheek.
“I’m still trying to figure that out.”
He nodded as he shuffled some paperwork on his desk. “Don’t worry about anything, okay? I’ve taken care of everything on this end. Take the next few days off if you need it. I gave the same proposition to Wanda. Spend time with each other.”
You nodded. You should be grateful to have this time with your girlfriend, but the beginnings of apathy were starting to replace everything else.
“Is Peter here?”
Nick nodded. “He should be in the gym.”
“Thanks,” you said with a small smile as you stood up.
You were almost out of the door when Nick stopped you.
“If you need to talk,” he began. “About anything, my door is always open. I don’t care if it’s about the weather. You’re welcomed in here.”
You nodded, offering him a weak smile, and headed towards the gym. Peter was inside, doing an insane sprinting circuit on the treadmill. When he heard you enter, he took off his headphones and gave you a smile.
“Y/n, hey!”
He easily jumped off the treadmill even as the belt still moved at a rapid speed. He jogged to you and used his shirt to wipe sweat off his head.
“How are you-?”
You wrapped your arms around him and crushed him into a hug. Peter wasn’t able to finish his sentence as he froze against you. You owed him. You owed everything to him. If he wasn’t there, you would have made an irreparable choice.
“Thank you,” you whispered, your eyes filling with tears. “Thank you for stopping me.”
He hugged you back, his arms encircling your entire being as he pulled you closer. You didn’t care that he was sweaty. Peter had to know just how much he saved your life.
“It’s okay,” he whispered. His hug tightened. “You’re going to be okay.”
After, you paid a visit to Tony.
“Hey, Stark,” you greeted when you entered his lab.
“Hey, what’s up?”
He was in the middle of repairing something, so when you walked in, he was wearing a mask while wielding a blow torch. Once he heard your voice, he stopped what he was doing and lifted the mask from his head.
“Would you be willing to make me a new suit?”
He shook his head. “No.”
“No?” you echoed incredulously. As many times as Peter and Tony hounded you to come to the latter to get a suit, you were surprised to hear his answer. It was his prerogative, but it was still very unexpected. He immediately cracked a smile.
“I’m just bullshitting you,” he chuckled. “Of course. I thought Petey and I were going to have to beg you.”
You laughed, his personality a welcome reprieve in your day.
“Was there something specific that you wanted?”
“Well, I was hoping to get something akin to the Iron Spider.”
Tony practically squealed and rubbed his hands together. “That is some of my best work, and I’ve been working on more upgrades. I’ll need your phone though.”
You quirked an eyebrow. “Tony, I don’t want any nudes or dick pics in my photos.”
“Oh, please,” he scoffed. “You can’t handle any of this.”
You watched, in horror, as he dragged his hands down his body in an attempt to be erotic. You dry heaved, your hand covering your mouth as you turned away.
“Oh, god. Pepper has the patience of a saint.”
Tony cackled and you watched as he uploaded blueprints to a hologram. He interacted with it, adding and trashing things as he went.
“Also, can we keep the suit low key?” you asked him.
“Low key? What does that even mean?”
“You have a habit of making things overly...ostentatious.”
He gasped dramatically, his hand clutching at his chest. “Et tu, Brute?”
You laughed. He must have heard this before, then. “The Iron Spider is great, Tony. Truly. But blue, red, and gold?”
“It’s called having taste, kid.”
You smirked. “We all can’t be rich assholes.”
Tony sat in his seat to begin working, but when he heard you, he spun around and pointed at you.
“Touché.”
You laughed and left him to his toys. The next few days were spent with Wanda. An air of domesticity filled your home. You spent the days cooking and cleaning with her. You shared kisses with her, watched movies with her, and played games with the team when they had the time. At one point you were on the couch, and Wanda was in your arms as she cuddled into you. Today was the day for the press conference, and though Wanda reassured you multiple times that you didn’t need to watch it, you told her that you did. You needed to know how the world perceived you now. Were you a friend or a foe? You watched Nick as he regarded the city. Flashing cameras highlighted his face as he spoke regally.
“After conducting a thorough investigation, we have decided that the Avenger involved in the incident a few weeks ago had a right to self-defense. They were fatally stabbed, and the pain and blood loss temporarily blinded them to their rage. We have noted the incident and taken care of the prisoner and his family.”
Reporters clamored around the podium, and they all raised their hands to get Nick’s attention. He pointed at someone as he began to take questions.
“How can you claim self-defense when that prisoner wasn’t armed? From the looks of the video, he’d already surrendered.”
Nick stared at him blankly. “He was armed. He had a machete in his hand. Besides, have you ever been stabbed?”
“No?”
“Okay, go get stabbed and let’s see how you react. Next, please.”
He pointed to another reporter.
“Isn’t there a power dynamic between Spidey and the prisoner that we’re ignoring here? Someone with powers just tried to kill a regular person who did not have any powers. Therefore, he did not have the means to defend himself.”
“Why are we ignoring the simple fact that up until that moment, Spidey hadn’t done anything wrong. That prisoner could just as easily surrendered before stabbing them,” Nick countered. “Why are we not talking about that? He decided to put another person’s life on the line to avoid going back to prison. He tried to kill them. The intent was clear and yet I’ve heard nothing about his actions so far. The Avengers are people too, with hopes and dreams and everything in between. They happen to be people who come with extra baggage. Every single one of them have lives and people who love them.”
“Well, they know that sacrifice comes with the job, correct?”
Nick stared at him for a second, incredulousness radiating from him as he absorbed the question. Then, he laughed humorlessly.
“Oh? So, should they lay down and die for you?” he asked him. The reporter went to respond, but Nick kept talking. “Are the Avengers your personal doormat now? Every time they wear their suits, should they not think about the lives they’ve put on hold to save your sorry asses?”
“T-That’s not what I was trying to insinuate.” The reporter’s eyes were wide, his cheeks red from the embarrassment of having Nick hammer him with questions.
“Oh, I think it is,” Nick said with a dry chuckle. “You want to talk sacrifice? Do you know how many Avengers put their lives on the line to defeat Thanos? Do you know the hell they went through to ensure that the population he dusted was brought back?”
Nick got louder and louder as he talked. Passion bled into his voice as he held eye contact with the crowd.
“I’m not saying that what Spidey did was morally justifiable, but the Avengers are not saints that are sworn to uphold an impossible ethical code. They know what the job entails and the values that they need to embody. The prisoner attacked Spidey, and Spidey defended themselves. That’s it. Was excessive force used? I’ll leave that up to the experts. That’s not my job nor do I care, but if that person had stabbed me, I personally would have put a bullet between his eyes. Let’s thank god I’m not out on the field.”
Nick faced the reporter as he said his next words.
“The Avengers are not droids. They are human beings with exceptional gifts who do what they do because they want to protect their home and the people who live in it. As human beings, they are susceptible to every human emotion on the spectrum, including, getting a little angry every now and then. Now sure, we can sit here and argue, and split some hairs, to point out that not everyone in the Avengers Initiative is human. That does not mean that they should be treated any differently. For you to say what you said lets me know that you have a certain level of audacity that many others may share with you. So, I will speak for our heros, and I will tell you right now that they are not here to clean up petty messes. What happened a few days ago, only happened because protocol was not being followed.”
The crowd murmured.
“Oh, yes, I looked it up. If someone had done their job correctly, this wouldn’t have happened. The Spiders chose to help. They were not ordered to. They aren’t here at your beck and call to stand by your side and do everything you want them to do with the snap of your fingers. They’re here to save the world, which they have done again, and again, and again.”
Nick stood up straight and clenched his jaw. “No more questions.”
Both you and Wanda were shocked speechless. To see him defend you so vehemently...tears were already gathering in your eyes.
“Wow,” Wanda breathed. “I didn’t know Nick cared about us like that.”
That was fair. He isn’t a very open individual, but you didn’t answer. You held Wanda closer to you and rested your cheek on the top of her head. She held your hand in hers, and you let yourself think about Nick’s words.
Part 7
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quinn-of-aebradore · 1 month ago
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the blame falls on jayce's shoulders because he's the one that combined viktor with the hexcore at the beginning of season 2! and then when he comes and then tells jayve he's going to leave, jayce is going to say "i never asked for this" YOU were the one that combined the hexcore with viktor. i know they're both victims but the way people try and act like viktor wasn't being manipulated by the hexcore this entire time annoy me so bad, especially the comments about it i see on tiktok.
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Alright anon, I generally agree with you and I am very exasperated with Jayce for blowing a hole in Viktor’s chest, but as with all things. Nuance.
Firstly, regarding Jayce combing Viktor with the Hexcore; there is no way in hell Jayce could’ve known what was going to come of that. Which, obviously, means maybe he shouldn’t have done it if he didn’t know the outcome, but also the second the Hexcore registered that Viktor was in the room, it started gravitating towards him. Jayce tried to hold it back with those tongs and it was stronger than him. I give him grace for that whole situation because desperation and adrenaline are some insane fucking drugs and also because the moment Viktor was back in that lab, his fate was sealed, regardless of Jayce coming into contact with the Hexcore or not. Firmly believe that even if Jayce had set him there and left to go find help, he would’ve come back to find that the Hexcore had merged with Viktor anyway. I think it’s also worth noting that Viktor started this process on his own in Season 1. Viktor was the one who chose to feed the Hexcore his blood and Shimmer, though yes, he was doing so out of desperation. But still, that was his choice, not Jayce’s.
Secondly, about Viktor being manipulated by the Hexcore; absolutely! I 1000% agree with that. I do not think that whatever is appearing to him as Sky is actually Sky, that is Something Else, in a way that’s very parallel to the fake Kino we saw with Mel in episode 5! Viktor does not have the full picture of what he’s been doing with the Arcane and we only have a handful more tiny pieces than he does!
And third, on whatever Jayce saw in his missing time; I am getting the feeling that he witnessed/lived through multiple alternate timelines in which things went Very Wrong, likely at the hands of a heavily corrupted and possessed Viktor, who Jayce could not bring himself to kill. That’s why he’s so adamant about not failing again. I don’t think this perception is 100% accurate to the state of things in the core timeline, but I also don’t think Jayce’s perception of the Arcane as whole is entirely accurate. He’s been exposed to the worst of it, the mind-rending and reality-shredding horrifying potential it contains, whereas Viktor has only been exposed to the best parts of it, the good it can do (even if that’s not exactly what’s happening with him in reality). We don’t know exactly how long is between Act 1 and Act 2 this time around, probably a handful of months, but I am very much willing to bet that Jayce was gone for a lot longer than that from his perspective and came back not only with run-of-the-mill PTSD (as to be expected) but also some seriously magically inflicted psychic damage. I don’t think Salo!Viktor was being metaphorical when he said that the Arcane took Jayce’s mind. His perception of reality has been irreparably altered and I wonder if it’s part due to the lack of this alteration that led to him potentially sparing alternate timeline Viktors who otherwise should’ve died. He almost killed a child, again. Something isn’t right when it comes to both him and Viktor.
Jayce is to blame for a whole lot—the entire end of episode 6, obviously—but I don’t blame him for Viktor’s initial transformation. Whatever comes next, however, does fall on his shoulders. That I won’t dispute for a second, though there is without a doubt more going on there and I am SO excited to see what’s going on behind the curtain with all the weird magic shit.
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