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sleepytownez · 11 months ago
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An excruciatingly long slow-burn fanfiction could fix him. (Debatable)
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hilacopter · 4 months ago
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no babe you can form your own opinions you've just learned to automatically check what other people think and form them in accordance in fear of having the "wrong" ones and have hindered your own critical thinking as a result
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this-should-do · 2 months ago
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me when i meet with my colleges first out trans teacher who is like a celebrity with me after one of my teachers puts me in contact with her again (i had interviewed said trans teacher 4 years prior and hadnt met with her since) and she tells me tjat my teacher had so many positive things to say about me, about how i was one of her brightest most well spoken students and that she (within like 5 minutes of having been talking) immediately sees exactly what my professor had been talking about and so many super implied positives about me that i would never had known about and i dod everything in my power to avoid prying for more details but even what i heard was soso nicies
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#iwillspeakincessantly#god it felt so nice to meet with her again#talking woth someone whos been so influential at my school and the whole state as far as transgender and queer policy making and has#so many connections amd experience and is also trans and historically a teacher bfor she retired#genuinely makes me feel so much better about my life and where im going#and less worried about if ill ever be able to live a peaceful life as a trans twacher when she personally knows#multiple other transmen tbats shes taught who are now teaching IN MY STATE#safely and happily#ough#we said wed meet more in the future and she encouraged me to join the cities pride group that she had founded and is the head of#and maybe tjis time ill actjally go#she even gifted me a book that she had had that she thinks would give me solace and comfort in my life#tbat was also written by a trans man sinxe she thinks im easily intelligent enough to get the humor and referwnces in#god she said i was well spoken and articulated even tho i feel so stupid and inarticulate sometimes#since i ramble a lot and lose my thoughts and i feel like my speaking vocabulary is so lowbrow and cheap often#no matter how many times other peope say i always sound so intelligent when i speak#ARGH#been super steessed about a lot of things in my life and if ill make it out alive but just this short hour and a half convo over a food#has made me feel so mich better and happier and hopeful#argh argh ougj i love finding out that people talk immense amount of positive things about me#god#i was rlaking about how often i struggle woth socializing amd making friends and she aas like really? ive been having a wondefful time#walkimg with you youre so intelligent and well spoken and its like thank you my issues ckme from group settings#and unclear un familiar subjects and ettiqutes of my fellow youths#but it made me feel so good about myself#im gonna implode :333333 positive
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thebisexualwreckoning · 7 months ago
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maybe this is just due to my upbringing but everyone knows that no matter what YOU DO NOT START A WAR AGAINST THE HOUSEKEEPER, they will win and they will make your life hell while you do it
I have watched 5 minutes of season 1 of bridgerton and I know I shouldn’t expect much and I was ready to let go of them not wearing chemises but why on earth are they wearing corsets with an empire waistline? What is the point of it?
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autopsytableromance · 4 months ago
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Trying so hard to not just fucking hate my comms class but my professor is making it real hard
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potassiumcyanides · 6 months ago
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no matter how bad of a driver you are there will always be a man with a truck who is worse. remember that
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chris-sya · 3 days ago
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my take on what color human! Grimmjow's hair is: it's blond but like. it never really is. he bleaches it, dyes it with a box dye and, like, he uses gloves if they are in his immediate proximity when he decides to dye it again. So each month he will have blue under his nails for a couple of days.
and his ends are just hay bc of all the shitty dyes and bleaching, and his roots are constantly outgrown cause he has better shit to do than dye his hair regularly🥺🥴
and his eyebrows are normal person sized but since they're blonde they aren't really visible anyway so he shaves a good chunk off for funsies. He tried using the hair dye on them once and almost lost his eyesight
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eebie · 4 days ago
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When school starts back up again im gonna search for people who will want to hang and watch movies
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#twirls mustache thiughtfully#i need to get better at being comfortable with doing mundane things#hanging out makes me anxious Like i gotta show up with my best#i gotta chill out#whenever im hanging with someone new the same 3 things go through my head#1 Is this person getting bored 2 Do they think i dislike them or 3 the worst one that haunts me Do they think im just some clueless twerp#i hate the thought of coming across as clingy or childish#i feel like it;s so obvious when i like someone or want to be around them and That means i need to be shot or something#i feel like#the people i want to hang out with the most are the most likely to raise an eyebrow at the fact#i saw a group of people with skateboards heading out late one night and was like god damn i wish i could go#i know that the ​the only one stopping me is myself#but idk. i feel like i’m not cool enough for most people#so just being Me isnt enough to convince someone to want me around#kinda had a cool experience that night my roommate invited me to hang with her friends#it chipped away a little at that fear#because i thought everyone in there was so cool and they seemed to like me just as much#and i was just being myself. certain things made it a little easier#they told me i had a bed whenever i wanted it And to come over whenever i wanted to#the guy who intimidated me the most ended up coming to the park and feeding ants with me and it was great#i saw him again later that day and he went eebieeee!! and he sounded so happy to see me#i feel like i’m being socialized from square one. i’ve been such a recluse up till the last couple of years#IM BAD AT SMALLTALK TOO. ABNORMALLY BAD. i feel like im reading shit off of a card#can we just skip all that#i miss my friend from highschool who tried to sell me on cannibalism when we’d barely spoken#here i stand 5’4 psychologically naked and trembling in my jesse pinkman ass getup#does anyone want to fix me#even after trimming ghis down it still feels crazy vulnerable. whatever#i’ll probably just delete this all later anyways
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the-voice-of-night-vale · 7 months ago
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social anxiety can be really funny in retrospect bc it will have you saying shit like 'is it weird to call a doctor's office and schedule an appointment?"with 100% sincerity and panicking about it as if that's not the silliest thing in the world
#this is a personal post about my own experiences having grown up with a debilitating social anxiety disorder#that is more or less under control thanks to meds#if you are scared of calling doctors offices or ordering subway or Being In Public i am not mocking you#anxiety disorders are disorders BECAUSE they are debilitating phobias that lacks logic#(hence why CBT for anxiety often talks about thinking through anxiety with logic)#mostly it's remarkable how far i've come in just four years (i was looking back through old personal posts) and i'm making a joke about tha#bc it feels silly from the other end! but i also remember being that person. i remember how fucking horrible it was#and the thing about anxiety is it does look silly or baseless or stupid from the outside#and sometimes we even see that. but that doesn't change the fact that our brains and bodies are working against us#social anxiety really fucks with your perception of reality. i don't want to say like.. to the level of delusions but it will have you#Making Shit Up. felt extreme social anxiety getting food at a buffet as a child. like to the point where i didn't want to do it if i didn't#have someone else with me bc i thought doing anything Alone was Weird. including. walking#my brain was just gaslighting me to the point of paranoia and of course anyone who's been gaslit or otherwise manipulated#feels stupid once they have the benefit of hindsight. especially when the call was coming from inside the fucking house!#because it seems 'obvious' now. but that doesn't matter!#which is why i'm saying like. if you are the person feeling Wrong being alone in public or making phone calls#i Have Been There. I was there for most of my life lol. i spent more time constantly anxious than i have spent with controlled anxiety#i Remeber what it was like. so this is not me saying “git gud” it's me saying “damn getting better and having hindsight will leave you#thinking about the past in a different light!" which is just how the progression of time#and character development works lol#anyway#the queen of trash has spoken
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bigbihatemachine · 9 months ago
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Mum: I don't understand why the council would treat you, a disabled person, so poorly!
Me: well yeah it's disgusting but their reasoning is none of this is support needs so I can go off my meds, that's not their problem, never leave the house, etc etc, none of these count as support needs-
Mum: stop! This is too upsetting to hear!
Me, who is currently living it as and as a direct result of my mother making me homeless: sure it def is upsetting
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sawruhh · 1 year ago
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Boy do I have updates
#I had my first experience with an arranged marriage type situation#Checked off all my boxes but I felt absolutely nothing#it was agonizing to try and process my feelings when our parents had spoken and everyone was so excited#so i sent a nice little message about how I’m just not feeling enough of a connection to move forward#and he said he wasn’t feeling it either but thought flying out to meet me would help#and that was ofc a major ick for me#if we’re not obsessed with each other I don’t want it!!!#so anyway I’m so relieved so glad I followed my heart#and now ofc everyone is acting like they agreed with me all along#but I feel so free and like I can really trust myself#this morning I went to this lecture series on world religions at this church nearby#it was open to everyone and it was in the university’s religious life newsletter#it was hilarious being the only nonwhite person under the age of like 70#todays talk was about Buddhism and the chaplain from the meditation groups I’ve been going to was the speaker#so they gave me a lil shout out when talking about the university’s activities#and thennnnn at 1 I had my first date with Andrew#he lives an hour away but he drove all the way out here#we got ice cream and sat outside and talked#he is so handsome omg#tall and a thick beard and fit and suuuper well dressed but in a very understated way#a super deep voice and a bit of a southern accent which truly had me swooning#also he paid for my ice cream without me knowing which was so sweet#he’s from a suuuper tiny town but did his master’s here in the city#and one green flag is when he was talking about some friends’ bachelor parties he mentioned all these super wholesome activities#he laughs a lot#I had a really nice time#and I’m realizing that I’m so much more confident now#I can talk to anybody and really keep a conversation going#I took a Power Nap but I gotta get back to my homework soon phew#remember
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freutsch · 1 year ago
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There's probably something interesting to be said about how when british trans women on tiktok are doing their 'man voice' as a joke, they often also switch accents to MLE.
There's something there about the accents people choose to depict certain characteristics and the hypermasculinisation of men of colour in our society.
I don't wanna deep this, this is not having a go at any of these women. It's almost definitely a subconscious choice. I just think it reveals something interesting about out attitudes towards certain dialects, and the communities that use them.
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sleepygirlthing · 1 year ago
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its sooooo fucking satisfying seeing some cocky sub that was just teasing you moments ago moan desperately while you push their head into the mattress >:3c
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geekwiththegoggles · 2 years ago
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supercantaloupe · 2 years ago
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“but sasha you just spent like the past hour complaining about having to talk to other people in french why would you want to go back to europe” easy. i don’t speak german or italian or spanish. and the awkwardness of being an english speaker in austria or italy or wherever is far better than trying to speak subpar french to a french person
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isekyaaa · 5 months ago
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Tbqh the only reason why I don't write original fiction is because I don't feel confident in writing a realistic man. Which is funny because I can write men in fanfiction, but like.... Tbh, I don't think they're very realistic men either. People don't talk like men from games, manga, etc. Which I suppose someone can say, "Well if fictional men don't sound like real men, then why do you need to worry so much?" And I suppose that's a valid point. But still, regardless of how logical it is, I want to write a realistic man.
#rambles#i think i overthink it#i start diving too deep#'what does it mean to be a man?'#'what does it mean to be a woman?'#'what separates a woman from a man?'#regardless of my opinions on gender i've always spoken like a woman#before one of my online friends found out my ethnicity she thought i was a white girl from california bc i talk in a valley girl sort of way#and i think i let that bother me too much? when it comes to writing i mean#i cant talk like a guy#so if i can't talk like a guy does that mean i wont be able to write a realistic man?#but again what does it mean to be a guy? what does it mean to talk like a guy?#i already know that men are not necessarily more logical than women#and women are not necessarily more emotional than men#but still#the theres the whole psychology of men (specifically amab men)#i dont understand manly pride#i dont understand the desire to be respectedo#i dont understand the desire to protect and provide#nb and trans men may say that desire isnt built into being a man but it sure is for amab men#if you want my personal opinion that my brain believes but every other fiber of my being does not....#other than biological definitions there is no true definition to any of the two binary genders#if you believe to 'feel' like a man or a woman you are basing it purely upon the what society defines to be male and female#there is no true gender experience#you are you#and yet though i believe that i still believe that i can't write a believable man#terrible
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