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the-voice-of-night-vale · 6 months ago

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social anxiety can be really funny in retrospect bc it will have you saying shit like 'is it weird to call a doctor's office and schedule an appointment?"with 100% sincerity and panicking about it as if that's not the silliest thing in the world

#this is a personal post about my own experiences having grown up with a debilitating social anxiety disorder #that is more or less under control thanks to meds #if you are scared of calling doctors offices or ordering subway or Being In Public i am not mocking you #anxiety disorders are disorders BECAUSE they are debilitating phobias that lacks logic #(hence why CBT for anxiety often talks about thinking through anxiety with logic)#mostly it's remarkable how far i've come in just four years (i was looking back through old personal posts) and i'm making a joke about tha #bc it feels silly from the other end! but i also remember being that person. i remember how fucking horrible it was #and the thing about anxiety is it does look silly or baseless or stupid from the outside #and sometimes we even see that. but that doesn't change the fact that our brains and bodies are working against us #social anxiety really fucks with your perception of reality. i don't want to say like.. to the level of delusions but it will have you #Making Shit Up. felt extreme social anxiety getting food at a buffet as a child. like to the point where i didn't want to do it if i didn't #have someone else with me bc i thought doing anything Alone was Weird. including. walking #my brain was just gaslighting me to the point of paranoia and of course anyone who's been gaslit or otherwise manipulated #feels stupid once they have the benefit of hindsight. especially when the call was coming from inside the fucking house!#because it seems 'obvious' now. but that doesn't matter!#which is why i'm saying like. if you are the person feeling Wrong being alone in public or making phone calls #i Have Been There. I was there for most of my life lol. i spent more time constantly anxious than i have spent with controlled anxiety #i Remeber what it was like. so this is not me saying “git gud” it's me saying “damn getting better and having hindsight will leave you #thinking about the past in a different light!" which is just how the progression of time #and character development works lol #anyway #the queen of trash has spoken

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