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had a massive realisation last night. easy for you to say is an anger song
#and it’s parallels to being a more unprocessed extroverted version of close my eyes#can you guess what 5 playlists I’m making rn??#official efyts post#5sos#5 seconds of summer#spiralling in close my eyes#5sos5#boy ep#luke hemmings#ashton irwin#calum hood#michael clifford#ttpd playlists#somehow this irons out everything that’s in my head perfectly idk how to explain it
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Needles peak before I post the whole thing 🤭
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#yeah I had to throw in the grifters bone and spiral and closed eye patches what about it#he looks like a pierced up joker ngl#my art#the magnus protocol#tmagp#needles#needles the magnus protocol#tmagp needles#needles fanart#tmagp fanart#the magnus protocol fanart#ink5oul#<<theyre on the right lol#podcasts#rusty quill#horror
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Naruto has a multitude of characters where their writing is heavily based in queerness and queer experiences. From the devotion two characters have for one another to a point where they would trust each other with their lives, to feeling like the other one is the only person who truly to their core understands them and accepts them for who they are despite their flaws and issues they’ve done in the past.
Naruto as a series is so queer in its writing that the writer - whether intentional or not - made the main two characters always run after each other even if one of them fell into darkness, saying he’d shoulder the pain he’s holding just so he can be near him and you’re saying you think… Obito is gay?? The guy who literally lost his mind over a girl??
Edit: I’m talking about canon btw. Hc if you’d like I’ll always support that, but he’s not canonically gay or bi. His character is rooted in his love for a girl and the only reason he saved kk was to have time alone w Rin because he didn’t want him interfering. He’s in love w Rin and only Rin in canon🙇♂️
#Obito Uchiha#anti obkk#anti obikaka#Sasuke Uchiha#naruto uzumaki#hashirama senju#madara uchiha#Maito Gai#rin nohara#kisame hoshigaki#Itachi Uchiha#sasunaru#sns#we have lost the plot#Obito wouldn’t kiss a man even if his life depended on it#out of ALL of the characters ALL of them… it’s him??#I just don’t understand how you can see his spiraling beginning with Rin’s death#and then say he’s absolutely in love w kk…#I’m not saying you can’t enjoy the aus or the fanfics#what I’m saying is y’all who say it’s CANON that he’s in love w him are stupid#there’s just no way y’all read this shit w your eyes closed…#please don’t debate me about this idc I just wanted to share some thoughts on my blog#and I know I’m right. Obito would choose Rin over kk any day and y’all are maaaad#sins posting
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I bet königs name is some silly shit like Karl
Cuz we got two Johns, KYLE 😭😭😭😭😭 and fucking Simon 💀💀💀
Bet König thought it was funny since they both start with the letter K
I CANT STOP LAUGHING MY GOODNESS literally on my knees heaving
(i faked moan the name karl to see if its sexy and, personally, it isnt!! no wonder he changed it to konig)
or or. imagine: kurt
ok but if his name doesn’t start w ‘K’ i think itd lean towards something biblical too atp. so i raise u konig whose potential real name could be: josef.
(on top of josef, jonathan and gabriel are my other brainworm which, i fear, im also liking)
#anon#ask#konig#ive closed my eyes and said ‘josef’ out loud and actually was able to imagine konig#oh anon this is sick im spiralling
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THERE ARE LEECHES IN MY EYEBALL!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! grug can you hear me grugg grugg where are you grugg the DRILL grugg get the DRILL GRU-
#grug get the drill#migraines shouldn't be allowed to last for more than 3 days what IS THIS BULLSHIT!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!#:'D#im going to fight the sun#with my eyes closed bc light. ew. but i fhink we should brng the heatdeath of the universe tonigh#pack it up boys it's all over this is it#TRIED TO STAND UP BAD IDEA ABORT MISSI9N#this is my life now. everything's spinning. why the fuck did i think drawing spirals all over the place was a good idea#im going to either go back to sleep or ascend wish me luc#k#luck#luuuuck#that's all from me today ok bye good morning bye#delete l8r fuck this#lmaooooooooooo
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my little guys ^_^
#eye guy art#drawings#ocs#flight rising#eye guy plays fr#yippee!!#shop is closed rn for health reasons BUT once i finish the imp base i want to open it up again#i was able to work on these guys after all#i'll probably just put a notice up that it might take a lil longer depending on how im feeling#but Anyway. look at my wonderful spirals
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It's the way Harvey closed his eyes and opened his mouth before his lips touched Donna's.
#This is on .75x speed#There are 21 frames to this GIF#And Harvey closed his eyes 5 frames before their lips even touched!!!#I COUNTED OK?#just finished my binge so naturally i'm on a darvey spiral#darvey#donna paulsen#harvey specter
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im falling asleep but god i wanna be broken so bad! want someone to slip something into a drink or show me a spiral when im not prepared and watch as i get stupid for them. need someone to make me their stupid little pet just a dumb cat that needs to be fucked
someone show me spirals and erase any notion of autonomy from my mind
#meows into the void#im so 🥴#just thinking abt it man..#i need someone to make me dumb so bad#show me spirals until its all insee even when I close my eyes#fill my brain with your words#i need to be a dumb little trancy pet
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the thanatophobia be thanatophobiaing aaaaaaaaa
#my anxiety always flares up during migraine attacks but this is ridiculous#I’m so tired but when I close my eyes I just keep fuckin worrying everyone I love will die#makes me feel sick but that could also be the migraine#it is so scary. my head is killing me and this is not helping#I need to just think about wholesome fun things or else I will spiral#I LOVE it when my ocd makes me imagine in great detail what would happen if people died#tw mention of death#cw mention of death
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laying here, with my second? covid infection, mourning my life. watching instagram videos of people in crowds at festivals packed in right together and thinking about how I'll never be comfortable enough to do that. i went to two restaurants last weekend and now i have covid so im like??? am i going to stop going to restaurants?? i dont know what the rest of my life is going to be like if im too conscious of covid to go where people are. am i never going to meet new people now
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bc like. sumire yoshizawa. and everyone in her life is telling her different things. ill do it for you. you dont have to do it. do it for me. then youve got mean angry akechi in the corner, who sees where these things lead, who says, not looking at her and not being nice about it, do it for yourself. if you even care.
#i need to work on/finish one of my sumillion sumire false reality wips. there are good concepts in here.#like im deeply curious about how the happiness spiral works. like. the people closest to the epicenter - maruki - get first priority in#happiness. and how does that apply the further and further you push it? akechi drives with her eyes closed. sumire demands the shirt#off a mans back and he just gives it to her. bc maruki wants ppl to be happy but ultimately he wants THESE ppl to be happy. =#if that makes sense. the body and the tags of this post do not correlate at all.
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Sometimes I really fucking envy the selfish assholes who just don't engage with the news/learn an current events. Like god it must be nice to live in your little bubble, only living in 'the moment' and the 'here and now' around you. It must be so peaceful to be able to see a YouTube short ab current events and say "hmm that's sad" and just scroll onto the next video without giving it a second thought. Must be so fucking peaceful being oblivious. Sometimes I want that. I want to be selfish and self centered, I mean I know I don't but... yknow??
#marquilla#my dr doesnt watch the news and she always responds to my anxiety ab current events to well stop watching the news#BITCH IT DOESN'T MATTER IF I WATCH IT OR NOT ITS STILL THERE its still on my feed regardless it's still existing and i KNOW#it's still existing and me being the fuckinh person i am i cant just turn a blind eye to this shit!#id LOVE to not know what the fuck is going on politically (god help me i wanna die so bad) id LOVE to not know what happened to that poor#little girl who was so fucking close to being saved but was essentially bait to lure in more needless casualties#id love to not know what the fuck is going on with climate change and with nato and with the un. ID LOVE TO BUT I CANT#limiting my online time isnt really an option bc again i cannot step away completely#i can try to limit my access by blacklisting tags and then choosing to hit show anyway on my own terms i can try watching something else#when the news is on i can try limiting how much news i watch BUT IT DOESNT HELP ME#i want to be oblivious i want to be selfish i want to be self centered. i want that fucking peace of mind these assholes have#i know i dont want to be that type of person i just want that mindlessness that illusion of freedom#but how do I obtain it yknow????#the trigger as usual is learning ab project 2025 and working myself into a spiral knowing its more than likely gonna happen and theres jack#shit i can do ab it and just AUGHHHH
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#peach prc#this song makes me ball my eyes out#like it hits too close to home#and i cant stop listening to it#like damn it sends me down such a spiral#it is not okay#and you've settled down and now its permanent#and now you dont call or miss me at all#;-;#how can a song describe my experiences so well#stays haunting the house with the angels we made 🎶#touchy subject#song#p#rambles ignore me#l#e#Spotify
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i miss myself.
#im spiraling. its fine. i’m gonna take 20 minutes to close my eyes and then get back to work.#but :^(((((#i miss my passion and my creativity and my Connection.#i’m so tired of going through the motions. forever and ever til i die.#izzy.txt
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the other day i was cleaning out my stuff again to declutter again and I found a really old list of reasons why I wanted to stop smoking back in like. 2018. it was so sad. i didn't take picture and it was actually a few weeks ago but it was just so clear it had such a hold over me and still kinda does
#im getting better thooo#i only smoke a few times a day. maybe three at most#most days i forget to#esp on the weekends#i just completely forget#and also when i smoke at night now I just feel so sick#so so fucking sick#i close my eyes and it feels like Im spiraling downwards out of control#i literally live out my real username#it hurts so bad#besties i grew up with sotmach issues my whole life and with headaches and nausea all the time#i hate it#and it makes me like that#when i close my eyes#as im trying to sleep#but if i dont smoke before bed then i staay up till 4-6am#but i do that anyway#idk#it ruins yourlife actually
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do you ever feel like you're trapped inside of a simulation and that everyone is watching you so whenever you're alone you scream as loudly as you can so they might let you out but they never do and so you're essentially stuck here forever or. is that just me
#random thoughts#help me i don't know what emotions are. colors? we have colors. colors can be emotions#i can't close my eyes when i'm alone anymore because i don't know what they'll do to me. /srs or /j? not sure anymore#spiraling? spiraling#this isn't a vent i'm just very confused? wow i can't believe it. i'm? alive? am i? i need confirmation#i don't feel real half the time! more than that actually. i feel like. a camera#but when there is no-one to photograph where does the camera go? when i am alone i do not exist#i become nothing. hello there? can you see me? hello? hi?#look at us. so far away. with tears in my eyes i look up and there is a ceiling. take me back i can't do this#where are you? where am i? where will we be? i'm falling over and falling apart#they've stolen my organs and my baby teeth and donated them to someone who needs them more. please#donnez aux enfants ma couronne faite en papier. je souhaite qu'ils ne la déchiront pas
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