#source: i know him personally /hj

[scatterpatter]

Between Wood, Quick and Metal, is Cutman just the protagonist of a dating sim or what?

Yes.

[dreamescapeswriting]

Petals Of Love ~ HJS

WORD COUNT: 2.9K

GENRE: Non idol, college au, established friendships, unrequited love, jisung blind to his feelings, reader almost dying, mentions of coughing and blood, hanahaki disease [Hanahaki disease is a fictional medical condition often depicted in anime, manga, and fan fiction. It's characterized by the symptoms of coughing up flower petals or blossoms due to unrequited love. ]

PAIRING: Jisung X Fem!Reader

⤜Copyright: © DreamEscapesWriting - April 2024

⤜MASTERLIST

In the bustling city of Seoul, cherry blossoms painted the streets pink, and everywhere you went petals fell down and showered those around them creating a beautiful scene, but you hated it. 

You had once loved the flowers but now they simply reminded you of the one person you could never have, the one person that was killing you slowly on the inside and didn't even know it. Your best friend. Jisung.

You'd always loved him but you hadn't realised the depth of your feelings until recently. It had started subtly, with you admiring his infectious laugh or his giant smile. The way he stored food in his cheeks or his passion for music. Everything about him drew him in. He even had a remarkable ability to see the best in people and bring joy to those around him mostly you.

"Dear? Is there something I can do for you?" A voice brought you out of your daydream as you slowly turned around to face an elderly woman who was staring at you. You took in her appearance, silver hair that cascaded down her back in gentle waves and she was dressed in a headscarf adorned with cherry blossoms. You'd been reading about her all week long, she was supposed to be the best herbalist in all of Seoul and you figured she'd be able to find a way to help you.

"I...I need your help," You stuttered, your voice barely above a whisper, and your hands were trembling.

"I have this... this illness. It's called Hanahaki. I'm in love with my best friend, Jisung, but... but he doesn't feel the same way. I'm coughing up petals, and I don't know what to do." Tears sprang to your eyes as you finally admitted it out loud to someone else. Ever since you'd started coughing up the petals you'd done everything you could to hide it, not wanting anyone to see you. 

The herbalist listened attentively, her expression softening as she heard your plight. With a gentle touch, she reached out to comfort you.

"I'm sorry, my dear," the herbalist sighed, her voice heavy with regret. 

"But there is little I can do for you. Hanahaki is a curse born of unrequited love, and its remedy lies not in herbs or potions, but in the depths of your heart." Your heart sank at the herbalist's words, your hopes dashed against the harsh reality of your situation. Tears welled up in your eyes as you realized the gravity of your predicament. 

"But... but there must be something!" You pleaded, desperation lacing your voice. 

"I can't just let this disease consume me. Jisung... he means everything to me. I can't lose him." The herbalist's gaze softened, her eyes reflecting your anguish.

"My dear child," she murmured, her voice gentle yet firm. 

"Sometimes, the greatest remedies come not from external sources, but from within ourselves. Only by confronting your feelings and expressing them honestly can you hope to find peace, whether it be in love returned or in letting go." With those words, the herbalist offered you a comforting embrace, a silent reassurance that you were not alone in your struggle.

"Confess your love and hope for reciprocation or face the consequences of a love unspoken." She told you softly as she rubbed the small of your back, the weight of everything pressing down on you as you began your walk back to your shared apartment with Jisung. 

No matter how much you adored Jisung there was always someone else for him, someone he liked more than you. The thought of it made your throat close up until you coughed a little, petals falling into your hands, the beautiful pink in stark contrast to the blood red that covered them. 

As you stepped into the apartment, you were instantly greeted by the scent of your home and Jisung running around excitedly, his energy infectious as it always was. The thoughts and problems of your day melted away instantly as he grinned in your direction,

"You're back!" He exclaimed, his eyes bright with excitement.

"I have some exciting news!" Curiosity piqued you set your bag down on the floor and walked toward him,

"What's the news?" You smiled.

"I met someone, her name is Emi and she's incredible! You have to meet her!" Your heart skipped a beat, a pang of longing shooting through you as you processed his words. It honestly felt as though it was going to be anyone but you at this point and your chest tightened, your throat burning as you felt the flowers making their way up making it feel as though you were going to choke. Forcing a smile onto your face you nodded,

"T...That's wonderful, I can't wait to meet her," You lied, doing your best to mask the ache in your chest as you spoke. It would be a while before you'd ever have to face her, Jisung was always slow when it came to relationships and never wanted to rush anything. 

"Great! Chan is hosting a party tonight and she'll be there! I can't wait for you to meet her," Your smile faltered as you stared at him, this was faster than any of the past relationships he'd had. 

"Tonight? But-" You didn't even have time to come up with some kind of excuse not to come. 

"It'll be fun, I heard Lix is going to be there." He wiggled his eyebrows at you, he'd been trying to set you up with his friends for a while not catching that you weren't into them but rather him.

"Sounds good," You lied through your teeth, you could think of a million different places you wanted to be rather than at a party where you would watch him with someone else, hell being one of those places. 

"You're the best, this is going to be so much fun!" He told you, embracing you in a tight hug as you squeezed your eyes shut, enjoying the fleeting moment of being so close to him while it lasted. 

"Why not me," You whispered to yourself as he walked away from you, going to plan an outfit for the night and you coughed into your hand throwing away the petals into the bin.

The party pulsated with energy, its atmosphere electric with excitement and anticipation. Held in Chan's college house adorned with twinkling fairy lights and draped with cascading cherry blossom garlands, it resembled a scene straight out of a fairy tale. The sight of the garlands felt as though they were torturing you though, as if they were there to remind you of your unrequited love.

The air was alive with the sound of laughter and animated conversations, mingling with the rhythmic beat of music that reverberated through the room.

"This is exciting, right?" Jisung asked from beside you, the two of you went to almost all of Chan's parties and this one certainly felt more extravagant than the others that you'd been to in the past.

"Yeah it's nice," You whispered, letting your eyes linger on him for a second enjoying the way his eyes were lighting up at the sight of the party. 

"Might be his best party yet," Jisung chuckled, nudging you softly as you nodded at him but you were in complete awe of him not to agree with everything he was saying. You forced a smile on your face, your heart pounding as you followed Jisung through the throng of partygoers. You tried to focus on the lively atmosphere, the music to try and drown out the whispers of doubt in your mind. 

"Hey! Yn! Jisung!" Felix waves at you both and you smile, hugging him softly and relaxing as he whispers in your ear,

"Missed you little one," The two of you were close with one another, not in a romantic way but still close nonetheless.

"Have you seen Emi anywhere?" The mention of her name had you choking up as you stared at Felix, 

"She was with Chan last I saw her." Without a second thought, Jisung left you and Felix alone, your eyes staring off after your best friend as you swallowed the nervous lump in your throat. 

"She's the girl of the week then?" Felix teased softly, it was no secret that Jisung fell in love with a new girl faster than anyone else but it was something you found endearing about him. 

"I guess so," You mumbled, reaching for a cup from a nearby tray and downing it instantly trying to forget everything that was going to happen tonight.

The two of you fell into casual conversation, catching up with one another as you walked through the party, your eyes finding Jisung instantly as you noticed just how close he was to Emi. Their hands linked with one another as you stared at him a sharp pang of pain shot through your chest, causing you to gasp for breath and clutch onto Felix.

A delicate petal, stained with blood fluttered from your lips, a cruel reminder of the curse that plagued your heart. Felix's eyes widened in shock as he stared at you,

"You okay?" He asked, his voice laced with worry as he pulled you to the side, trying to get you out of the crowded party. Your cheeks were burning with embarrassment as you tried to compose yourself,

"I-I'm fine," You stammered, your voice trembling a little.

"It's nothing." You lied, but Felix's eyes remained fixed on you, his eyes filled with understanding as he realised what was happening.

"You're in love with him, aren't you?" He asked as you stared at him, your breath caught in your throat as you nodded silently, unable to find the words to express the depth of your emotions.

"You can't tell him," You begged, your hands clutching onto Felix's forearms as petals began to fall from your lips faster than before, more blood coating them with each falling petal.

"Yn, it'll kill you if he doesn't know." Something you already knew but even if you told him and he rejected you, you were going to die, you were fighting it as much as you possibly could.

"It'll kill me faster if he knows and rejects me," You croaked out, tears streaming down your cheeks as you shook your head. You'd thought about confessing a million times before, you'd written songs, letters, and poems but nothing was ever going to work because you knew he would never love you back.

"But-"

"There's nothing I can do Lix, either way I die." You mumbled, wiping the corners of your lips to remove the blood from them, sighing a little as you shrugged your shoulders.

"How do you know he doesn't love you?" You scoffed a little and shook your head, there was no way Jisung returned the feelings you had for him,

"He would have said something." You mumbled a little, looking down at the floor as Felix stared at you,

"Like you have to him?" He had you there but you just shook your head, 

"I'm going to get some fresh air, keep him distracted...I don't want to meet Emi," You admitted as Felix nodded, always having your back no matter what.

The moon cast a gentle glow upon the garden, its silvery light dancing among the cherry blossoms like ethereal spirits. You stood at the threshold, your heart heavy with the weight of unspoken words and unrequited love. Each step felt like a burden, and your chest constricted with the pain of the Hanahaki disease.

With each laboured breath, you coughed, delicate petals stained with blood escaping your lips like crimson tears. The air was thick with the scent of cherry blossoms, their sweet fragrance mingling with the coppery tang of blood—a haunting reminder of the curse that plagued your heart.

As you stumbled forward, your vision blurred with tears, and the world around you seemed to spin, a dizzying whirlwind of colours and sensations. Your strength waned with each passing moment, your body growing weaker with every faltering step.

But still, you pressed on, driven by a desperate longing to be alone with your thoughts, to find solace amidst the tranquil beauty of the garden. Each petal that fell from your lips was a silent plea, a silent prayer for forgiveness and understanding. Darkness began to cloud your vision as you leaned up against a tree, trying to catch as much breath as you could but it was as though there was a filter to your lungs, stopping any viable air coming through.

In that moment of quiet surrender, you finally found peace—a fleeting glimpse of serenity amidst the chaos of your suffering. And as the night stretched on, the garden whispered its mournful lament, a solemn witness to the beauty of love unspoken and the tragedy of a life cut short.

"Have you seen Yn? I figured we'd go home together," Jisung said as he joined Felix in the kitchen but he shook his head,

"She was going for air the last I saw her," He admitted, he hadn't seen you for at least an hour now and he figured you'd gone home. Jisung smiled weakly and began to make his way through the people, his date with Emi couldn't have gone worse, it turned out she had a crush on Chan instead of Jisung and all he wanted was to go home and watch bad movies with you.

"Yn?!" He called out to the party, sighing a little at the thought of you going home alone. The two of you always went home together, dates or not. As he walked through the party, a hushed whisper reached his ears, a rumour that someone had been found unconscious in the garden. Panic built inside of him as he dashed toward the garden, his heart pounding with fear.

As he burst through to the garden his worst fears came true, you were lying on the floor surrounded by cherry Blossoms as people simply stared at you in awe. You were frail on the floor, a halo of petals surrounding you like a mournful shroud.

"Yn!" He cried out, his voice trembling with anguish as he rushed to your side, his hands trembling as he brushed bloodied petals from your chest. Your eyes fluttered open, your gaze clouded with pain as you struggled to breathe,

"Yn," He whispered, his voice choked on emotion. Tears welled in Jisung's eyes as he took in the sight of your frail form, the severity of the situation finally sinking in.

"Oh, Yn," Jisungwhispered, her voice choked with emotion, the thought of all of this happening to you.

"What happened? Why didn't you tell me?" He pleaded with you, the sound of distant sirens blasting through the air, your response was a weak cough, a delicate petal stained with blood escaping your lips—a silent testament to the depth of your suffering. 

Realization dawned upon Jisung like a bolt of lightning, illuminating the darkness of his ignorance. He'd been blind to your silent struggle, oblivious to the agony hidden beneath your friend's smiles and laughter.

"I'm so sorry," He murmured, his voice trembling with regret as tears streamed down his cheeks. 

"I didn't know... I didn't realize..." With each passing moment, your strength waned, your breaths growing shallower as the petals threatened to suffocate your fragile lungs. 

"I wrote a letter and threw it away, 'cause god just knows that I'll never say I think about you every day...I-I know you'll never see me that way." You coughed out before everything faded to black, Jisung's hands shaking you as he begged you to come back to him. 

"Yn...Yn, can you hear me?" The voice was gentle yet urgent, pulling you back from the brink of oblivion. With a faint groan, you stirred, your eyes fluttering open as you squinted a little.

"Jisung?" You mumbled, your voice hoarse from how dry your throat was. 

"You're in the hospital, you collapsed," Jisung whispered, his hands griping yours with trembling hands, you stared at him and took in his appearance, it looked like he'd barely slept and his eyes were bloodshot.

"What...What happened?" You thought for sure you would have died right then and there, it had been the only reason you'd admitted your feelings to him.

"You were coughing up blood...petals...Yn, why didn't you just tell me?" He squeezed your hand and you shook your head, looking back on it, it all seemed silly not to tell him the truth.

"I was scared I was going to lose you," You admit as you slowly sat up in the bed,

"And I nearly lost you," He choked, kissing your hand softly as you watched him,

"How am I-"

"Alive? After you passed out...I finally realised I love you, I always have and I just cried into your chest," He laughed nervously and wiped the tears away from his cheeks.

I've loved you for as long as I can remember. I just didn't know how to tell you." He admitted as you stared at him in complete shock,

"You saved my life," You whispered as you swallowed and for the first time in forever it didn't hurt, it felt pain-free as you finally didn't feel the urge to cough anymore.

"I love you, Jisung." You whimpered a little./

"I love you too, Yn," He whispers, leaning down and kissing you softly as you wrap your arms around the back of his neck bringing him closer to you.

In that moment, amidst the sterile walls of the hospital room, you felt a weight lift from your chest—a burden lifted by the power of love and the courage to speak your truth. And as Jisung leaned in to press a gentle kiss to your forehead, you knew that this was exactly where you belonged—in the arms of the man you loved, your heart finally at peace.

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tbh there's also something a loooot of ppl need to learn calling "setting realistic expectations." i personally wouldn't want eddie back without an on-screen conversation between him and CHRIS about what CHRIS wants, otherwise his entire plot in texas would feel kinda moot with a throwaway "yeah chris is fine with coming back to LA :)" since this plot was big enough for eddie to drop everything to go finally make things right with his son. i didn't expect for him to show up for the two-parter. meanwhile, everyone i saw who was momentarily disappointed bc no tommy was like "ah well, we know we're almost definitely getting him next episode bc of leaks" and went on to enjoy the episode as a whole

its genuinely fine to go "aw no eddie? :(" its Not fine to review bomb an episode and repeatedly bitch about the director not putting ur favorite man in the episode when it makes 0 sense for him to come back so quickly and without showing us that he IS still working on being a better dad to chris. hell, go write fanfic about it where eddie IS back instead of review bombing!!! that's probably a way more fun use of time than review bombing!!!

honestly, these fans make me dislike eddie more and more ngl which isn't even the actor or the writers faults at all. if he leaves the show then it's not going to impact me that much unless his ending is fully unsatisfying, and that'll be more of a "cmon, writers, you knew this was where this was going, do better." i have never watched the show only for eddie like these people have. came into the show expecting to love madney + henren and ended up very emotionally invested in bathena while enjoying buck and eddie as well. i'm on the same page as a lot of ppl who have been here longer than i have been: we love the entire show rather than just eddie. honestly, i think half of these people don't even like buck. i already know most of them don't give a shit about the rest of the show from insulting ravi over him distracting buck with tommy to turning josh into the "number 1 b*ddie cheerleader" to ignoring henren unless they can use them as a "gotcha!!! you don't actually care about queer rep!!!" like.

@ BoBs: do YOU? because every time there's queer rep that threatens ur fanon ship, u actively get homophobic about it down to, what, 600? of you PROUDLY admitting you would commit a hate crime to make your stupid ship canon--including both real men and fictional characters like josh and tommy in your "i'd hate crime for them teehee!" bullshit.

idk queso its just wild to me how often i also see the "eddie diaz pretty pretty princess who wants to paint his nails!!!" like. painting ur nails isnt gendered, the fuck? BoBs see anyone gender non-conforming and goes "wow, inherent sign of queerness, i am very smart :)" while feeding directly into toxic masculinity with the idea that if you don't adhere strictly to what's deemed masculine, then clearly you're queer. even if you say you're straight and know you're attracted to women and only women, you're gay because you (checks notes) have emotions and cry over your friends and did ballroom dancing when you were younger.

anyway if im being petty then i kinda hope that eddie leaves to focus fully on chris and making a life for the two of them in el paso and ravi takes his place on the team so that we get indian rep permanently on the show for a bit! i think he could bring some new life into the team (regardless of whether the show goes on for one season or more) and it'd be nice to see buck in a mentor position to him. plus i'd love to see his dynamic with the rest of the team <3 i am still available to play his love interest who is there for a single episode before being relegated to one-off mentions <3 /hj

Yes to alllllll of this, Annie!!!

What's ironic to me, based on something you mentioned, is the nail painting. They want sooooo hard for RG to actually be gay yet an actor who does paint his nails (for self-harm reasons) they call a slur and tell him to die.

Like???? Wtf are we doing???

(I know your ask is about the characters but that shit will always rub me the wrong way about Ryan stans)

[lohotine]

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Hey I got inspiration from this other anon's ask and...gotta ask:

Same traits question...but for...well Royal margarine, clotted cream, shining glitter, cherry blossom, dark choco (after he redeemed himself), butter roll, red velvet, Caramel arrow and finally...cream unicorn.

If it's too many cookies at once...surprise me with who you choose from the List lol! (Sorry for so many...I simp for a LOT of cookies! Just picked a few from the list of cookies I Simp for.)

AN: I don't know some of these characters that well, so sorry if they seem a bit wonky-

Multiple x Reader CRK

Headcanons

Warning: Some of these characters may be OOC, not proof read

Royal Margarine

First and foremost, Buttercream has to like you

If they don't, you're automatically out (sorry)

It shouldn't be that much of an issue as long as you are a halfway decent person

Since he's kind of a wimp, he'd definitely appreciate someone who can fight rly well

A person to take care of him when he's drunk

Oh, and you have to be able to handle his constant flirting

And he probably won't mind someone who flirts back as well

Starts blushing and kicking his feet at the thought /hj

So, someone outgoing and bold

Clotted Cream

Knowing his profession and all, his day to day life is very stressful!!!

Therefore, I think he'd like someone who can help him wind down a bit

Someone who is always put together and organized

Like housewife vibes, even if that's a bit stereotypical

A person to just help his life become a little easier and a little less dull

So, someone detail oriented and calm

Shining Glitter

Since music is such a big thing in her life, she'd enjoy someone who can create music with her

Or even just dancing along to her own would be enough

Someone who appreciates everyone's art

A person who never gives up on their dreams

Or a person with a lot of ambition and ideas

Since it reminds her of herself <3

So, someone determined and creative

Cherry Blossom

100% you need to go on picnics with her daily

Bonus points if you know proper tea-party etiquette

She gives off nice aunt vibes but gossips a lot

Probably enjoys someone who she can gossip with

Not only that, but I'm sure someone who can bake would do her some good

After all, you must bring plenty of snacks to a picnic

So, someone who always listens and is easy to talk to

Dark Choco

Enjoys a person who will always love and accept him, despite his past

It would be a sun an moon kind of relationship

He seems rather touch starved, so a cuddly partner will definitely serve him well

So, someone understanding and kind

Butter Roll

He'd like someone who appreciates and is interested in his work

A person who always listens to his rants and what-not

An upbeat person to match his sunny personality

And perhaps someone who can notice small details and point them out

Someone who's dedicated to their craft

So, someone focused and upbeat

Red Velvet

I think he'd be interested in someone who is very kind and gentle

Since he has a lot of dogs, (cakes?) He would appreciate someone who can help him take care of them

Not only that, but I think he'd enjoy someone who he can just rant to

I don't know why, but I feel like he has a lot to say

So, someone gentle and caring

Caramel Arrow

She would be attracted to a person who always looks out for others

A person who fights to defend those who can't defend themselves

Even if they have to defy authority

You two would share that struggle

So, someone who looks out for others and has integrity

Cream Unicorn

Though they are very kind, they are actually rather calm

Therefore, I think they'd need someone a lot more extroverted to be with

A person who always tells them about their day

They just find you so interesting

A person who is kind to everyone

Someone with lots of energy

So, someone who is energetic and loves to talk

[ghostly-writes-stuff]

So this is a request from one of the discord servers I'm in so anyways...

Cloud, Aerith and Sephiroth with a Fem! Reader who has ADHD and Anxiety

Cloud

Cloud suffers from anxiety himself so he can help with that, however he's at a loss for ADHD

He would try his best but he knows he's not the best

"Um... if I can help let me know."

If your feeling anxious in public, he'd first try to find the source and help from there

Crowded? He found a empty spot for you to relax at. Strangers talking to you? He'd help with the conversation

If your anxious in private... welp prepare your self for cuddles and a lot of taking from him (a lot in Cloud standards)

If you have ADHD, and you feel hyper all the time, he'd try to get to you train with him.

If you have a hard time focusing, Cloud will get frustrated at first but later he knows better.

He'd remind you of the details later. He remembered them for you!

Aerith

Sweetie pie.

She is like the best person for this

Anxious? Around her? Suddenly you are given a flower meaning lesson.

Got Adhd? She'll let you run around her garden when you get hyper.

There's a small path around the flower beds so you don't trample her flowers.

Can't focus to save your life? She's got your back. She'll keep you on track and keep you updated.

Sephiroth

So he's... a pick.

"You're quite a unique one"

He's always watching you tbh so good luck trying to keep your anxious thoughts from him

Somebody make you anxious? Lol they gone.

Something make you anxious? He'll help you make it less stressful.

If you got adhd... good luck/hj

You'll be running around and his eyes will watch you run. Kinda creepy.

If you get distracted easy, he'll go "welp. You on your own" or give you a very simple recount of information.

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(Sorry this took so long!!!)

[flonbowe]

MAJOR BROTHERSHIP SPOILERS, ESPECIALLY RELATED TO ZOKKET!

You have been warned

So they’re like, a toxic relationship right?/hj

OK JOKING ASIDE These two are very interesting to me, and since we've known about Zokket longer, I'll be talking about him first in this thread of reblogs and posts

Zokket

So to get the elephant out of the room, I earnestly don’t believe he is just Cozette brainwashed

Like Aside from small details like the body shape being larger than she is, Zokket's voice sounding very much so different in not just the voice bleps, but in his actual grunts and noises (Especially so before his boss fight), there's things like Zokket's personality, behavior, hell he's even flat out referred to as a separate person a couple times.

Cozette after being freed only ever mentions being under Reclusa's control, and putting on a mask to become Zokket. A mask that breaks once Zokket is beaten.

The way Zokket is defeated, the way the Glohn energy flees off of Cozette's body, coupled with the fact it was specifically a mask Cozette said she donned to become Zokket, tells me outright that Zokket isn't exactly brainwashing, but instead a type of spirit or possession used to carry out Recluse's will. Now All this to say Zokket is his own person, and a very interesting person. Unlike most other Mario characters, he's a very flat character. Intentionally so don't get me wrong, that's the point. He's focused more on numbers than people. He doesn't "misremember" names, he actively doesn't care. His first proper scene is him misnaming the Extension Corps multiple times, with him getting more aggravated the more they try to correct him. He visits Shipshape a couple times through out the game, and most of those visits usually end with him mocking the idea of having connections and overall being very bitter. He's a cold cold man, and even during his boss fight he revels in making the bros hurt each other. There's also some interesting extra details via hidden logs from Cozette while being possessed, and Zokket writing his plans through her body. Quoting from those logs "The egg says its name is Reclusa. Yes, it told me its name, and that makes sense. The egg speaks directly to my brain. The egg has also shared this important truth. Loneliness is sublime . The egg only SEEMS not to move. But it definitely speaks in my brain. I now know my only calling: the resurrection of Reclusa. Loneliness is sublime . All connections will be severed. Reclusa will rule a new era of isolation. Once I have completed my task, I, too, will know the bliss of isolation. Loneliness is sublime . Approximately 284 hours, 56 minutes, and 29 seconds until the resurrection. "Beyond the Glohmatic Ray" "I have distilled the isolate energy from Spite Bulbs. That will be the source for Glohm. I can then focus and amplify it through the Great Lighthouses..." "The So-Called Extension Corps." " I met these buffoons on Slippenglide Island and employed them as generals over my army. They are intensely incompetent but loyal. Do they seek glory, or are simply afraid? They will be superfluous after the rebirth. I will need some means to dispose of them" "Building an Army" "My soldiers, my hands in the wide world, are simply junk repurposed and rebuilt. I gave them language so they might cooperate., but it is absurd to see these junk piles speak. I cannot imagine a place for them in the new world after he is reborn. They will suffer. They may rebel and become ungovernable. No matter--they are ephemeral things." after Recluse was revived, Zokket intended to torture the Zok Troops, his minions, of which HE created. Zokket doesn't just hate bonds, but seems to actively wants to break them. He strayed from his goal of reviving Reclusa by using some of the Glohm to make handheld rays to make people miserable and hate each other, instead of just using the Lighthouses for Reclusa. He threatens the Corps when the revival is almost complete, which would have come to fruition anyway had they succeeded. Zokket seems to fully understand bonds, and despises them. He's not apathetic, he's actively resentful... Except For Reclusa Excluding voice clips, the only time he laughs, is here.

His only use of positive language, and its when he's dying, where he should be at his lowest. Instead, he gets excited, happy, happy to see his Great Inspiration finally return to this world. For a man who hates bonds, he seems to have a great deal of care for his master. A master he was willing to die for, who he was destroyed for. Not even Connie, who he can't forget because of Cozette's lingering consciousness, all Zokket can muster for her is remembering her name, unlike Reclusa. So Who is Zokket? Zokket is a very cruel, bitter person. He's distant and calculating, planning and very exact, very precise ways to revive his master. But he's also sadistic, planning misery for anyone and everyone involved in his plans, for the goal of isolating the world for his master, Reclusa. a master, who he has a deep level of fondness for, the only person he actively shows happiness towards, a person who he spends his alone time with, his purpose, his great inspiration. That's Zokket (At least, my thoughts as to who Zokket is)

[mintsuwu]

Midnight Mysteries AU Q&A!

Hello! I´ve been opening asks on Twitter recently and a bunch of people asked stuff about the AU. So I thought it would be fair to share the information here as well to keep everynyan updated! I´ll also take the chance to reply to asks that I have pending in my inbox as well.

Which Midnight Mysteries characters would be magical fellas, like "madoka magica, smile precure"?

Probably Poppy or CraftyCorn, the latter was a unicorn after all 👀

Detective Bubbaphant looks like he needs serious therapy /aff

Oh trust me, HE DEFINITELY DOES.

Every single Critter in that AU needs therapy. That´s partly the reason why Rosie (Bobby) became a psychologist /hj

Can I give Officer Kicks a hug?

Sure you can!! Don´t approach him when he´s angry though.

Do you allow OCs/Fanfics or such for your AU?

Yeah, I absolutely do and it makes me so happy that people would like my AU that much! 😭🙏💖

Does CatNap have a tragic backstory or personal goal or is he bad just for funsies? :00

He sort of has a tragic backstory, not too much, but he definitely has his motives... And even though his intentions could be sort of good, his ways are not the right ones (?

Chat, what happens if Officer Kicks is angry?

Dear user, I pray that you never encounter an angry rooster in your life because one nearly attacked me when I was little and it was... Quite the experience-

That aside though, he has an awful temper and can even get violent at times. Kickin´s character development simply hasn´t kicked in yet.

Are LoolaLamb and CatNap dating or does he just like messing with her?

They have been engaged for years. They married out of convenience and their relationship isn´t fully romantic, but CatNap actually cares about her in a way and is kind of possesive of her.

How did you come up with the Midnight Mysteries AU?

Funny enough, the idea simply came to me one day in which I was listening to the Spy X Family openings, and since my previous hyperfixation was The Great Mouse Detective my mind suddenly thought "What if I made an AU inspired on both things?" That added to the fact that I always kinda imagined Bubba as a detective and knew I had to draw it sometime.

Does CatNap just manipulate or make deals with the Sugary Scoundrels to cause trouble?

Sort of! As those two grew up in the orphanage that he runs, it´s more or less their way to repay him the favor, even though they spend most of their days out on the streets roaming around. But they are also lowkey intimidated by Catnap... Though, Bunzo has it worse with Mistress LongLegs in comparison. PD: The girls, specially CatBee, really admire Loola! And the latter is quite fond of them too.

Will the Midnight Mysteries AU have a similar story to Poppy Playtime, or does it only have the characters in common with the original source?

It will most likely have a slightly different route as PPT´s story is not done yet, but there will be events of the AU based on it! For example, The Hour Of Joy took place as well, but the motives behind it will be different.

What year does the Midnight Mysteries AU take place in?

Historically wise, it would take place around 1930-50, I don´t have an exact year but I know it would hace to end in 5 given how Poppy Playtime takes place in 2005.

What was MM Catnap´s childhood like?

I still have to think better on it, but he was a wondering performer! Perhaps specialized in acribatics.

What sort of things did Huggy and his siblings do before working for the railroad? What were their parents like, were they even around?

Their parents died when they were still yound, so Huggy had to raise his siblings by himself. They were later taken into a circus, but things weren´t very nice in there... After leaving the circus he took part on several crimes, being the brute force of the villanous gang while his siblings were unaware of their brother´s felonies. But when he took part in The Hour Of Joy, Huggy decided to change his ways from then on and did his best to leave the past behind along with his family.

What are Angel´s pronouns in the AU?

He/They!

Is Angel close or affiliated to any of the characters from the AU (DogDay for example?)

Yeah! He is allies with Poppy, Kissy and DogDay. Angel shares a parent-son relationship with the latter as they practically raised the poor dog after he had gone through a negative moment in his life.

Is CraftyCorn in the MM AU, or does she have yet to be revealed?

... She used to be(?

Is Billie actually a boy looking for his dad, or a kid playing innocent to help CatNap?

He´s mainly looking for his dad! But I love that twist ngl...

Did DogDay get that scratch from CatNap or something else?

Yes, he got it from CatNap in a fight.

Is Billy´s mom, by any chance, Mistress Long Legs? Does she know?

Yes, she does know but perhaps she wouldn´t recognize him at first as she didn´t raise him and Billie wouldn´t even know how she looks like. Darwin tried not to tell him much about her and her deeds, or at least he wanted to wait and tell him until he was old enough.

How did Darwin go missing, did Billie witness it?

He got kidnapped, and Billie did witness it. He caught sight of the kidnapper but couldn´t catch up to them when he tried to go after his dad.

What happened to Angel?

Many things...

Does Angel have the ability to die and revive in the past before they died? The Angels from the other universes are able to do that too.

No... Or at least, they haven´t tried out yet, so who knows!

"Traitor"? Did Angel used to work for the Prototype before rebelling against them?

Indeed, Angel betrayed their comrades in a very critical moment and since then they all have been searching for him... CatNap mostly. Which is why they usually remain hidden, outcasted and only keeping contact with selective people.

[canines-alter-creation]

can we have an dsmp subsystem? You can choose all the characters ^_^

HII! So Sorry this took us AGES and AGES we just needed some time with it! But I present to you: The Syndicate subsystem!!

There's a few collective faceclaims of them, I hope that's alright!

> Name(s): Technoblade, Techno, Blade, Emery, Emory, King, Kinge, Singe, Dagger, Protesilaus

> Pronoun(s): he/it/stab/blood/red/singe/wrathe/fire/arson

> Age: Ageless, Adult presenting, maybe early 20s

> Gender: genderbloodstained, bloodgender, torngender, killic, rabidpredator, axegender

> Sexuality: aro/ace sex and romance repulsed, but has a sort of queer-platonic relationship with Phil

> Role: Internal Anarchist

> Source: Syndicate, Dsmp

> Sign-offs: 🗡️,⚔️,🧨,🩸,👑, 🐗,🐷,🐽

> Front triggers(pos/neg/neu):

Primarily an internal alter, meant to cause anarchy throughout the system, but may be front triggered by source or actual depictions of anarchy. May also be fronted by punk things. 

> Likes/dislikes:

+ Justice, Anarchy, 

- order, monarchies, dictatorships, other forms of ruling classes, people who are controlling over other alters to make them “good”

> Personality: Protesilaus is a leader, blood started this Syndicate with Philza, and is good at keeping everything together. He doesn’t consider himself the elected leader of the Syndicate, as he views all of them as equal and works with ALL of them to create what they’ve always dreamed of. He’s a good leader, confident, but kind. Blood works well alongside everyone, and has formed close bonds with them all. 

> Ways they do their role: it will do anything to keep innerworld peaceful and safe, and that means breaking up and destroying any form of government. Blade hates anyone who tries to enforce power over him. They will take down anyone who swears themselves to a hierarchy, either through overthrowing them, or some other show of force. Blood may send in someone else first to talk to them but if they won’t step down peacefully then he will handle it personally. 

> Inner world occupation or behavior: He may prefer to spend time exclusively with the rest of the syndicate. May not like being alone because that makes the voices worse. May have a study or meeting room where they all meet together frequently, 

> Possible outerworld behavior: May not be much of an external alter, but if they are fronting or seen externally, may prefer to be outside, and away from people in general. May clash with authority figures. 

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> Name(s): Ranboo, Boo, Lethe, Memory, Amnesia, Ender, Solstice, Eclipse

> Pronoun(s): he/fog/they/white/black/end/void

> Age: 17-19ish

> Gender: endergender, comfnoctic, everspiral, all the genders, just. All of em (/hj)

> Sexuality: GAYYYY gay boy, we got a gay boy here he’s gay as hell, gay gay gay

> Role: Memory holder

> Source: Syndicate, Dsmp

> Sign-offs: 💜, 🟣, 🖤, ❤️💚, ⬛⬜, ◼️◻️, ◾◽, ▪️▫️, 

> Front triggers(pos/neg/neu):

Lethe may not have very many positive or neu triggers, and may only come near front to collect memories, either negative ones to protect the system, or just ones that it likes. Lethe may keep a journal, and may front most often while the body is sleeping. 

> Likes/dislikes:

+ Having memories, collecting memories, knowing what’s going on, daydreaming

- Having memories taken from it, being told not to take a memory, being left behind or alone for too long, forgetting. 

> Personality: Lethe may be very quiet, almost shadowlike. You may not even realize that voi was in the room until you feel your memories slip away. Outside of their role, Ranboo is a good friend, and interesting to talk to. They have a great sense of humor, and are deeply loyal to those they consider close to them. 

> Ways they do their role: His job primarily centers around remembering things and helping others remember things, he may also do the opposite, stealing memories that others don’t need to remember and hoarding them to voidself. This can either be a protective measure to limit traumatic reactions, or an unconscious desire to have the most memories. 

> Inner world occupation or behavior: May spend most of their time with their friends or alone, doesn’t like new people, doesn’t like strangers. Likes to lurk in the shadows unseen. Prefers to be ignored or to go unnoticed. May have a private place where they store their collection of memories

> Possible outerworld behavior: May be quiet and keeps to themselves, doesn’t like to be interacted with. May ignore friends or loved ones as a preference to be more alone. May spend a lot of time in front daydreaming, due to being overloaded with memories. 

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> Name(s): Philza, Phil, Zephyrus, Crow, Flight

> Pronoun(s): he/crow/feather/flap/fly/flight/bird/beak

> Age: ageless, very old entity but presents about late 20s early 30s

> Gender: avianic, crowgender, corvidgender

> Sexuality: Bisexual? Primarily straight but has a qp relationship with Techno

> Role: Host

> Source: Syndicate, Dsmp

> Sign-offs: 🕊️, 🐦‍⬛, 🪶,  🛡️

> Front triggers(pos/neg/neu):

+ heights, rollarcoasters, crows or birds in general, specific sourcemates

/ his job, people messing with Techno, people needing someone to step in and be a better fronter

- Being comapred to source, being called a bad father, Tommy’s in danger, his subsystem members in danger

> Likes/dislikes:

+ heights, feeling like flying (driving fast, rollarcoasters etc), fronting and handling situations

- people who treat him like he’s below them, people that hold him to source, being underground, feeling trapped

> Personality: Philza is a kind man, but not one to be trifled with. He likes showing kindness, he likes caring about people, he likes being there. That doesn’t mean you should take advantage of flaps kindness. If you step to Phil, don’t expect crow to back down, they aren’t afraid of you, and they aren’t easily cowed. He isn’t going to walk away from a challenge, especially one made just to prove a point

> Ways they do their role: Phil is the host of this subsystem, and therefore fronts the most, he’s the front facing of the Syndicate, the point of communication between them and the rest of the system. Phil will do anything to protect flaps sysmembers. 

> Inner world occupation or behavior: May prefer somewhere with some open space, he has wings and likes to fly. The meeting room of the Syndicate may have open ceilings or a large sun window so that he is able to fly around comfortably and appropriately. 

> Possible outerworld behavior: may be somewhat paternal, very kind. Flap might lecture your friends on taking care of themselves and making sure they spend adequate time meeting their own needs. May prefer being offline and out in nature. 

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> Name(s): Niki, Nikita, Vivica, Nemesis

> Pronoun(s): she/blood/maim/kill/hurt/cake/sweet/fruit/bread/dough/bake

> Age: early 20s, 22 ish

> Gender: pastromic, softpancakic, muffingender, pumpkinpimcgender, groggymorningic, bloodgender, bloodangelic, rosegore

> Sexuality: bisexual, fem preference

> Role: Soother

> Source: Syndicate, Dsmp

> Sign-offs: 🍰, 🎂, 🍒, 🍓, 🥧, 🩹, 🏥, 🩷, 🗡️

> Front triggers(pos/neg/neu):

+ baking especially sweet treats, loves source, enjoys talking to and interacting with Puffys and may have a maternal relationship to Fundy’s

/ Her job, people needing soothing, her subsystem members, depictions of the syndicate

- her friends and loved ones being hurt, burnt food or baking going poorly

> Likes/dislikes:

+ the holidays, baking, gingerbread, sweets, taking care of people

- getting hurt herself, her food turning out poorly

> Personality: Niki is very kind, at least to those she deems deserves it. Niki is a soother, and takes care of doughs sysmates. That doesn’t mean it likes or cares for everyone, just particular people that matter to fluff. If you get in between Nemesis and her family, fruit will not hesitate to destroy anyone and anything that stands in the way. Though soft voiced and kind-hearted, Niki has beaten even Techno in battle, pies not afraid to beat you too. 

> Ways they do their role: Niki is a sort of healer, primarily working in fixing up any damages that come to her family, and then hunting down however did it and beating the shit out of them. Niki may like to make healing potion infused food in the innerworld. 

> Inner world occupation or behavior: May own a bakery or other place to do cooking, prefers to work there during the day or during their downtime. They may sell these baked goods in inner, and in fact, the back end of the bakery may be like a portal leading into the syndicate hideout. 

> Possible outerworld behavior: May like cooking and baking, and because of that, may LOVE the holidays. (especially if you have trauma surrounding it, fruit may front for the holidays and make them easier).

[einsatzzz]

Can we have Hibakana crumbs? They are my otp and best oc couple🥺

Hi Anon!!! Thank you for being aboard this ship with me 🥹💜✨ And of course! I treated this as a part 2 for Jojo's TsunaRumi ask, so I filled up the same ship chart for them🫡🫡💜✨

I'll give you a song that fits them too! This time, it's more on Hibari's POV - Sol/ar Sy/stem Disco.

Ship Chart Notes

Hibari's age was never really revealed in any official source, but a good hint to it was when Tsuna&co moved up a year, they thought he already graduated. So he's a third year while they were first years. He should at least be a year older than Ryohei, so I estimate around 16-17 would be a reasonable guess. Also forgot to put their TYL ages, just imagine their +10 ages there lol

I'm gonna be honest, I had a bit of a hard time on this one since I know the chart is leaning more towards a more definite romance. But, they're freaks, your honor! (affectionate) 😭

How It Happens? - Does it even happen? What exactly will happen? In terms of fighting, it's at first sight for Hibari. Or rather, it's ON sight, his tonfa is always ready. In terms of the more complicated feelings, they both take a lot of time for it as expected with their personalities. Kana is the one who takes the most psychic damage from this.

Confession & Proposal - Such formalities are never really needed between them, they both know that and find comfort in that. They won't even bother with labels. Please refer to the "Relationship Attitude" box 🥴✨

Handling Conflict | Apology after a fight - This is certainly talking about the non-physical fights...I don't know, I'm scared 😰 /hj They'll fight out the apology phase physically. They implicitly reconcile after they're both lying on the ground all injured & beat up.

Cooking | Housework - I don't see them moving in together permanently in one house, there's no reason to. For now, they'll both just stay peacefully in their own residences. The respective housework are handled by Kusakabe (more on management/delegation of it not the actual housework itself) and by Rosa (can be management too, but she happily does it for Kana).

Overprotective - The thing is that, they have this unyielding mutual trust in each other's strength, skills & abilities and that the other would survive no matter what battles they encounter on their own. Anyone who somehow wants to trigger some sort overprotective instinct from one of them must really want that any% death speedrun achievement so very very bad.

Designated Driver - Kana can drive too, but she lets him drive if they're in a car together.

Penmanship - Hibari wins by default. The bar is in hell with Kana's shit handwriting.

Dies Protecting the Other - They are both willing to die to protect the other. But I chose Kana on the basis that she has suicidal tendencies = higher chances, you know?

[emilydorp]

What recent ig posts confirming GD's tryst with Tabi???!!!! Omg i missed a lot of things here.

Hello anon! :)) Ummm, join me in my tunnel vision :D I'll be doing some storytelling cuz this was a trip tbh. When I say tryst, I am not sure if it's an in person tryst tho, but I believe it isn't delulu to think Tabi contacted GD again. I'll do this in two parts btw :))

It was the night of the second of April, and my algorithm that was so faithful to GD's was thrown off course COMPLETELY. Like, COMPLETELY. I even made a screen recording out of confusion and shock. I'll share some of these random likes cuz whaaaaat was my algorithm. Over the course of several days, he liked some content I'd deem pretty romantic and Tabi coded and sappy. I wouldn't be able to share like everything (cuz my Insta is being annoying) but yeah, it's veryyyyyy... I don't even know what exactly to think tbh except that he was in a romantic mood.

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He liked TWO different posts about 'Luther' (which is a GTOP song, fight me).

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Normally him liking a Justin Bieber song ain't too deep, but it's like the fact that he liked a post about Tabi in the middle of his break up; the timing and choice of post is interesting to me personally :))

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He liked a LOT and I mean a LOT of posts about old and emotional pop, but here's one that clearly states that it's about the nostalgia (since GD is old enough to be a parent (and should be one! Whyyyyyy?! ToT))

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This is SUCH a romantic like imo, oh lordddd

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This song's meaning is too much for my DAMN heart ANON why did you make me go through my feels again ToT /lh feel free to ask anything lmao

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AND ANOTHER SONG IN CASE YOU WEREN'T DEAD ALREADY

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Btw Tabi really admired Kanye (before he lost his mind and stuff) so idk, I wanna be extra delulu and think that GD remembered that :))

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OKAYYYYY SO THERE'S A VID LIMIT??? BRUH??? SMH I NEED A PART TWO???? WHATEVERRRR TOT

His pinned post about his tour ends with the lyrics that he wrote for Tabi and his post about the space mission has him extending his pinky, and yes I am so delulu I think it's for Tabi, especially since he confirmed that the video he played that day was made for Tabi.

So then he posted this on the same day as Tabi posted:

And then posted this later with the part about sleeping with someone playing in the background (like..that's the moon??):

And GD could be wearing his silver ring again?

Then he posted this (statue carrying the rainbow clock, smiley face tattoo recreation, lyrics in the background.. idk, could be Tabi)

Then he posted 'Take Me' which he so OBVIOUSLY wrote for Tabi like-

Then he posted this selfie with tears in his eyes:

Then he posted himself being out and about (it's still up so you can see it, he looks cute and totally had a cry session and decided to shave and go out instead /hj)

So like, this is part one, in part two I'll tell you more about my feeeeels (cuz rn idk if my opinion is clear + I have receipts I haven't added yet) and other opinions on other thingsssss but like I suddenly got busyyyyy so it'll take a day or two sorryyyyy but feel free to ask anything I will respond eventually :D

[diceroll-selfshipping]

🎫🎫🎫 Grins

Thank you Sara!!! I hope you got the tickets I sent you, too ^_^

This is gonna be kind of a long gushing post, feel free to skip unless you wanna hear about my love for BJ.

Tl;dr: I'm gay. Oops! /silly

Chat. Chat I fear I love him.

We haven't seen him nor gotten new content for him in seven years and I feel like a yearning housewife who's husband is out at war. /silly

The last time we saw him was the Resident Evil: Survivor review back in 2018, and he appeared for a good ten seconds as a faceless side-character with two lines. But even still, I love him.

We only knew him for six years. Six short, unloved years from 2009 to 2015. In that time he was barely utilized outside of his source and was not explored as a character as much as he could have been. He's probably never coming back, his creator has stated he has ideas for a reboot, but nothing will ever come of that. I'm not holding my breath about it. Hell, I could go ON about how a reboot would ruin the magic of the core series-- but GOD I'd love to see him again. He's been so unloved and forgotten by the main fandom since and he hasn't been mentioned in God knows how long. The finale turns TEN this year (on December 4th, y'all should celebrate with me /hj).

I have cried thinking about him before on multiple occasions simply because of how much I love him. The mashup of all the songs made for the show at the end of the Nightmare Finale fills me with genuine grief for him-- what was and what could have been.

I've heard people say the series is written pretentiously-- and I agree to an extent-- but nevertheless I find myself loving how unnecessarily deep it goes and how well I (hope I) understand it. I love this character, I love who he was written to be-- and while I don't condone nor defend his previous actions-- I find myself being curious about eho he once was and falling in love with him, too.

And how can I not be intrigued by him when THIS is the latest appearance of him, and THIS is the only peek we get into his original life?

Girl who ARE you. Who WERE you. Who were you MEANT to be. We'll never know, probably. And truthfully-- with the way his source's channel's been for the past few years-- I don't want to know (unless Rolfe's notes on him get leaked plsplsplsplspls- /hj)

Anyways.

Board James as a character is just so interesting to me. As someone who can relate to clinging onto nostalgia to a level greater than most, I can almost see myself in him. I see someone who, growing up, didn't have many friends to share his interests because they "didn't understand them/him." He was different and didn't know why, but always did to make friends the best he could despite his differences. I love how that was conveyed through his character-- and how he held onto that into his adult life. He barely has any friends and doesn't understand why. Why do they not love him as much as he loves them?

And his contrast with The Nerd? There's so much to love there, too. His interactions with other characters besides Bootsy and Mike are limited, sure, but they're so important to understanding him and how he connects with people. His personality is a contrast to The Nerd's as seen every time they've interacted. He's different, and he knows this.

I wish he was real. I wish he was real so I could scoop him into my arms and whisk him away from all that has and will hurt him. I wish for us to have a soft place to stay-- one without toxicity and explosive anger. One where we can be with each other, planning out our lives with each other and talking openly when things go wrong. I wish to keep him safe and sound, and to love him forever.

I love him in every form he's ever taken. I love him regardless of his doubts or insecurities. I love every version of him, becausd they're just that-- him. There are nine versions of him to note (maybe more if the vague ending is to be built upon), and every version is not exempt from how I feel about him.

He's appeared in my dreams so many times and while I know that's literally only due to me being so obsessrd with him and having a good chunk of my time dedicated to consuming his media, I can't help but feel connected to him even more. I've made so much physical media for him as well in order to strengthen this connection-- plushes, shrines, drawings, paintings, etc. It all helps me feel so much closer to him. I also have every piece of merchandise related to him

To my knowledge, I've consumed every piece of media there is to consume when it comes to BJ-- everything within public access, at least. I even have some more rare photos of him, shown below.

(These are behind-the-scenes photos!!)

There's so much more I want to say but I simply can't think of the words. He is my whole world and I love him with every fibre of my being. He is my love, my life, my world, and I look forward to waking up every day and going to bed at night because of him.

He is my soulmate, my forever, and I love him to the very core of my being.

Have some of my favorite screenshots as a closer:

[wordy-little-witch]

Can we know about Atlas or Buggy Seraphim idea you have. Are they smaller than S-Hawk and S-Crocodile? What are the reactions of Buggy, Crocodile, Mihawk, and everyone else?

So I actually don't have like. A STRICT idea for S-Buggy, all in all. But what I DO have is this:

• he is, indeed, smaller than the rest. My personal thought process is that while they ARE made between cybernetics, lunarian and sourced DNA, they also have to.... idek I guess like INCUBATE. So if they got the DNA for Buggy during Impel Down, growth would be a lil closer to the rest. Still notably OFF but not quite so... teeny.

If it was only after he was named a Warlord, then I can see Atlas being visibly MUCH younger than the others.

Let's say for these purposes the current seraphim are around 10~. Atlas would be, on the older end, about 7-8~. On the lower end, he could be from 2-5~.

• he's semi or nonverbal! He either prefers to or can only speak in sign. Buggy has stints where he goes semi-verbal, and he was a late talker himself, but for Atlas it's. A constant thing. Words are hard.

• his wings are disproportionally tiny compared to the others and the tips of his feathers are white-grey.

• he wears a cat ear beanie!! Loves cats!!! Loves all animals actually. Give that boy an animal encyclopedia and he's RIVETED for HOURS

• his Haki is.... very strange. His range for Observation is outright NUTS and nobody expected to have a nonverbal cyborg baby going into a sensory overload every time he tried using his Haki. ((His abilities there are currently disabled btw))

• loves music

• kind of clingy all things considered. Atlas is real hesitant about trust but once you've gotten into his I Trust You Group, he's following you like a duckling.

As for reactions -

Buggy

• this is... it's complicated, okay? He's doing his best but seeing the kid initially gives him.... so much anxiety. On the one hand, the carefully cultivated persona he's crafted is now going to inevitably implode. It's already well past salvaging as is, but smth about having the final nail in the coffin makes his chest knot up.

• is very patient and doesn't treat Atlas any differently from any of the other seraphim. That's a kid, they're ALL kids, and Buggy's a clown - making kids happy is literally in the Code.

• he will forget sometimes that not everyone knows sign language so he and Atlas will be absolutely going HAM about something and get really confused and/or offended when someone interjects or asks what they're doing.

• he absolutely calls Atlas smth like "my little mime" or "mime of mine", and it makes people melt. Carries him ((and the others as needed)) around, usually on his hip, can and will pepper faces in kisses and swing them around to get squeals and laughter.

• mama buggy supremacy need I say more /hj

Mihawk

• was certainly not expecting this. Like. At all. Hawkeye Mihawk was blindsided.

• ngl was very hesitant on having ANOTHER vulnerable party on the island, especially one so.... small. His own seraphim and Crocodile's seemed so intimidatingly tiny and then this little guy just.... proves everything wrong there. Holy fuck.

• when he realizes Altas's Haki is so sensitive, he asks Buggy what he does to cope. When he finds out Buggy always just.... locked it down, he's flabbergasted. Makes it his MISSION to research oversensitive oberservation haki. His spouse and tiniest child deserve better.

• is very good with Atlas's sensory needs and winds up also encouraging the other seraphim to be more open as well. None of these bitches are neurotypical.

• if asked, he will deny getting a little choked up when Atlas, Birdie and Angel each called him some variant of father. He did though. He absolutely did.

Crocodile

• he's too big and cool and wealthy for feelings (/j). But if he did have them, he'd be extra soft with Atlas. Angel and he click due to many reasons. He and Birdie are decently close. He and Atlas are... a little different. For one, the tiny little clown lunarian is so.... well..... tiny. And quiet. He likes small, cute, quiet things.

• he spoils all of the kids absolutely, but if anyone asks, he'll gut you. Stop. He has a reputation damn it.

• considered getting an AAC book, not only for Atlas but definitely considered heavily with the kid's presence and needs.

• was a little concerned with all the little red flags from all the kids, but ESPECIALLY from Atlas - especially because he can see the red flags now in Buggy too, now hidden under layers upon layers of masking. Reptile man is doing some math here.

• sometime the world gets a little too Much for Atlas, and Crocodile will never admit to the Emotions that come up when the kid creeps up to him, tugs on his pants leg, and signs 'hide, coat?' He let's the kid take as much time as he needs and does NOT stop to think on the ramifications of being considered a Safe Place for him ((He thinks it a lot))

BONUS REACTIONS

Angel

• the Oldest of the seraphim because he came out first so OBVIOUSLY he's the biggest and oldest. Takes his role as Big Brother VERY seriously

• weird mix of VERY protective and Cain Instinct. He'd never ever ever hurt Atlas but sometimes his baby brother is just........ so very.......... smackable.............

• learned sign in the lab a little later than the others, uses it far less, but knows most of the swears.

• complains about how ANNOYING having brothers is but if anyone else complains about his brothers, he'll throw hands.

Birdie

• still thinks he should be the oldest since he was STARTED first and only came out after Angel due to technical issues, but whatever

• still deciding on his name but is very tempted to follow Atlas's example and pick something Cool and Mythical. Is debating Avalon but isn't sure he wants to commit to the accidental A-theme they'd have going on.

• he learned sign the first after it turned out Atlas couldn't or wouldn't talk. Played it off as a useful skill to have anyway. Secretly a big softie.

• he's the type to wordlessly take Atlas's hand in a crowded area to make sure he "doesn't get lost or kidnapped", tries to play it cool but always flutters his wings that little bit more when a smaller hand holds his own just a lil tighter.

• preens the others far more, but absolutely keeps any spare feathers bc he knows Atlas likes them.

• milder Cain Instinct but he can and will bite with and without warning. Not even always aggressive either. Sometimes he just loves someone so much he just noms

• usually keeps Atlas company when he's overwhelmed and needs to decompress - he's either a cuddle buddy or a silent sentry if protection. Anyone who tries to interrupt gets stabbed

[the-s1lly-corner]

C, E, F, H, I, J, K, M, N, S and Y, for masky please

Fluff alphabet w/ Masky!

but with these letters :3!! I was gonna do these last night when I first saw you sent this in but im all achey and sore, i still am, but like yk

C (CUDDLES)-

very awkward with cuddles I think- Im kinda revamping how I write for Masky but in general I think he can be stiff in terms of giving or receiving affection in general so this post is going to be interesting! i feel like he might let you cuddle him, but he'll be really stiff in your arms. it won't really be until you guys have been together for a while, and he'll only really pull you into his arms after you've gone to sleep. tends to be the big spoon, doesnt matter if hes taller than you or not (he's 5'7 in my eyes)

very comfy to cuddle with, not too hard not too soft and he's fairly warm

E (EMOTION)-

very collected in nearly every sense of the word! sure you know he loves you but he can.. express it differently than others; usually through acts of service and making sure nothing can get close enough to harm you. in terms of like, actually being emotional

i mean he can get passionate and intense, i always saw him as the one whos more likely to snap between him and hoodie, but!! yeah!! doesnt verbally express his affections, or really in general

the fact he constantly wears a mask certainly doesnt help

F (FAMILY)-

i feel like that's something he would have been interested before he came into contact with slenderman and became a proxy- same goes for marriage, really- like im still torn on how i want to write the proxy dynamic thing but like, i dont want it to be all. "it works out for everyone" you know

ponders

i feel like in the present day, given that he works for a demon, he wouldn't want to bring a kid into the world out of fear that they would become a target, you know?

were this any other timeline or au, then i feel like he would like at least one kid

H (HARSH)-

he can get intense about things, especially when it comes to you and your safety, so that could be a potential source of arguments. masky has set some hard and harsh boundaries to make sure you dont get too entwined in whatever is going on with him

the type to storm off, he doesnt like being around people in general but that gets more intense when hes actively pissed off

you probably wont see him for a while, a day or two. three, even

like he'll still show up you just won't see him or notice he's still watching over you

kinda just. reappears. noticeably distant compared to before

stray cat energy/hj

its gonna take some time before things go back to normal

if he did anything on his end that warrants an apology he'll actually verbally apologize and try to make it up to you, though!

I (INJURY)-

he gets injured a lot, so you're more likely to be the one tending to him. that is if he lets you- he insists to work on it on his own but if you're as stubborn as him he might back off after some badgering

if you're the one hurt all hell breaks loose. he cant help but blame himself since he prides himself on being able to keep watch on you and protect you. unless its like a really normal or mundane injury (ex. a basic fall, cutting/burning yourself while cooking, ect) then he's just. normal about it and tries to help. god forbid someone actually hurt you, though

J (JEALOUSY)-

very jealous, the type to get distant and cold me thinks. already plotting ways to get your attention back. but if someone actually makes you UNCOMFORTABLE?

yeah no its over for that person

insists he doesnt need reassurances or really anything but he doesnt protest if you do it anyway

K (KISSES)-

he rarely takes his mask off, especially not around people, but every now and then he'll lift his mask up a bit and sneak a kiss

LOVES kissing you on the cheek

loves when you kiss him on the forehead

M (MARRIAGE)-

similar reasoning for F, but i feel like he's more willing to go through with something in place of a wedding or commitment to you

very modest ceremony, if there is one, its just you two. no guests, no one else, secluded area me thinks

probably steals some rings that semi match each other

N (NO)-

doesnt like loud or messy people. like he can forgive some mess, sometimes life gets ahead of you or mental health can stand in the way. he knows that first hand. but if you actively/purposefully dont clean out of genuine laziness then thats a deal breaker

also doesnt like pushy people; again its one thing to advocate for your needs but if you consistently push boundaries then its not going to work; especially since a lot of his boundaries are to make sure you dont get hurt

S (SHH)-

oh this man is riddled with secrets. lots of them. obviously this version of masky leans more towards the creepypasta version, but i do want to somehow weave in some traits and ideas from MH as a little nod (and because i love both versions of the character, though im still figuring out how i wanna write him and hoodie, nearly a year later- meshing two opposing characters can be hard!! but hey maybe thats another post for another day when i finally rewatch MH; its been literal years so im a bit rusty on lore and characterization)

very secretive about what he does for work, even if you're like. aware of whats going on/if you're a kriller/monster/ect in universe he simply doesnt like talking about it

Y (YEARN)-

deals with separation pretty well all things considered! sure he might have some worries about if you're keeping out of trouble or staying safe, but i feel at some point he would have some level of trust in you

[aliasrocket]

omg for a fic idea or fluff imagine maybe taking rocket to an earth amusement park/fair and he absolutely hates it XD

Omg omg okok I’ll do an imagine bc sadly I’m super bad at fluff (if you notice from my ao3 acc I have never touched the tag in my LIFE/hj)

Also warning you guys now, this imagine gives vol. 1 Rocket vibes (bc I’ve rewatched all 3 gotg films a normal amount to realize Rocket’s personality is always slightly different/more lighthearted with each sequel)

Also, the amusement park I picked was Universal Studios, enjoy :)

gif source <3 / masterlist!! / request stuff <3

“What the fuck are we doin’ here?”

Yeah, that was Rocket’s initial reaction when you both stop at the huge oscillating globe with the gigantic title of ‘Universal Studios’ wrapping around it.

You laughed, because he literally had no reason to look this grumpy at an amusement park but it was something you were used to by then.

“It’s an amusement park, Rocket.”

“Well I’m not very amused, you see,” he quipped sardonically.

This only made you snicker.

“Is my unamusement amusing you, humie?”

“That’s not a word!” You laughed.

“Fuck if I care.”

You and Rocket walk in eventually, and not even a minute of walking and Rocket starts getting bombarded for photos.

“No! Look lady if you don’t—”

“Everyone!” You yelled, holding out your hand in front of Rocket as if to protect him. “He’s not an employee here!”

Most people backed off, but there were some others that were still insisting that Rocket’s ‘cosplay’ was hyper-realistic.

Rocket at this point had more ‘important’ matters to attend to so you both decided to simply run off, Rocket scrambling on all fours as you book it to catch up to him.

“I don’t need you to protect me.”

“I know.”

“Then why did you put your arm over me like I was some wounded animal?”

“Because I was concerned for their safety, not yours,” you chuckled.

And, to your surprise, Rocket joins you in your laughter.

“Damn straight,” he remarked with a contented grin stretched across his face.

You guys eventually arrive to your first ride, and it’s the mummy ride. Rocket had already begun to scowl when he entered the area.

“What’s this?” He asked when you grabbed his hand and dragged him into the queue.

“The mummy ride. You’re not scared, are you?” You teased.

“We live in fucking space. Ain’t no way I’m gonna be scared of—”

Rocket screamed and practically cried non-stop on the entire ride, and when there were stops, a long, thundering string of curses were launched from his lips making parents with their kids glare at him after the ride was over.

You, on the other hand, were nothing but entertained.

“Oh my god, you should have seen your face! You were so fucking scared you couldn’t even—”

“Shut up! Fuckin’ hell you’d think they’d have windshields for that shit what the fuck was that?”

You laughed some more, but he didn’t stop you at all or comment on just how amusing this all seemed to you. He simply stole glances every time you laughed and you pretended not to notice for his sanity.

Next up; battlestar galactica.

The ride was outdoors so both of you could see the blue and red tracks very loosely intertwining with each other and having insane drops and loops. Every ten seconds was just another group of people lost to the thrill of the ride.

“Nu-uh. Nope.” Rocket was about to walk away but you hold him by the shoulder pad.

“You’re riding this with me, no exceptions.”

“Like fuck I’m doin’ that,” Rocket cursed.

“Oh come on! If you don’t come with me I can’t go!”

“What are you talking about?”

“I … I …”

Yeah, you didn’t wanna admit it but you had some of your own fears yourself. Any rollercoaster was doable as long as you had someone to wrap your arm around. You were kinda surprised when Rocket said nothing about you squeezing his arm for dear life in the mummy ride but now, there was probably no escaping it when he was looking at you so intently, eyes dragging all over your body as if he was searching for an anomaly in one of those inventions.

“Oh my,” he began teasingly, “you’re scared too.”

“No! I can do it I just—I can’t do it alone, come on Rocket.”

He grinned. It appeared it was his turn to be amused.

“Admit it, humie. You need me.”

You bit your lip.

“Rocket, stop being a dick and come with me.”

“Not until you admit that you can’t do it without me,” he repeated, your name falling out of his lips like he knew your legs grew weak at the way he says it.

You clenched your jaw, finally relenting with an audible, drawn out groan.

“Fine! You win! Rocket, please oh please I need you on this ride, please just ride it with me!” You said over dramatically, clamping your hands together before dropping them and slumping your shoulders in annoyance.

He couldn’t help but give a smug grin at your response.

He ambled in with his chest puffed out, hands shoved into his pockets as his ego had just been filled.

“Damn fuckin’ straight, humie,” he remarked. “You coming or what?”

You chase after him for the second time that day, not even realizing you were frozen in your spot.

Even after all that, it didn’t make him any less scared of the ride as he continued to scream and scratch at the shoulder restraints of the ride. By the time the ride was over, he was panting, his eyes darting around at the various workers who’s eyes widened at the sight of all the blackened claw marks on the seats.

“We gotta run.”

“Huh?”

Third time you chased after Rocket that day with the staff tailing both of you about the damages caused on the ride.

Needless to say, that was your one and only time going to an amusement park with your favorite trash panda.

He would never tell you this, but if you ever asked to go again, he could never gather the strength or courage to tell you no.

[the-transcribed-scrolls-of-baihe]

got so so excited to see transformers as a request! may i please get a transformer fictive whose job is to front to act? (in theatre, ren faires, reenacting etc) the rest is dealer's choice. thank you!!!!

- @dinonuggets-bah

The Scrolls speak of great people.

This Scroll Speaks of Starscream.

Firstly, however…

🐾 who wrote scrolls, Bai He, wishes for you to read 🐾s following message:

‘Agh! This request is going to be so fun to make! Since you didn’t specify what character you wanted though, I went with the most dramatic one I know, Starscream (Specifically from Transformers: Prime. Also, you’re my first request so yippee!’

Name(s): Starscream, Astrit, Aconite, Viper, Eserine, Astrayn, Noxiel.

Age: Equivalent age of 24

Pronouns: He/him, it/its, act/acts.

Gender: cybertronigender, theatergender, boything.

Role(s): masker, advisor.

Personality: cunning, smart, ambitious, a tad cowardly, flamboyant, dramatic, intelligent, patient, calm, collected, a bit arrogant and self-important.

Appearance and Apparel: A… lankier silver build of Cybertronian with a red ‘horn’ on his forehead and purple with a slight red tint optics OR a silver F-16 Fighting Falcon (alt-mode)

Kins: robot, crow, snake, poison

Typing Quirk: replaces “o” with “0” and “i” with “1”, uses “thou/thee/thy/thyne/thyself” instead of “You/you/your/yours/yourself”. Example: 1 have n0 t1me for thy tr1cks, surrender n0w. 

Hobbies: acting, researching historical costumes/plays, watching plays.

Appreciates: good acting, well written plays, theater, musicals.

Abhors: bad acting/writing, Megatron.

Two Images:

Starscream’s cunning and always puts the system before outsiders. He can be quite dramatic and takes pride in that fact. It will, however, always acquiesce to its “superiors” or anyone it thinks has more power than it out of self-preservation. Doesn’t stop act front plotting against them though.

Starscream usually fronts in any situation the system has to “preform” (That includes masking to a certain extent). He’s also pop into front to give advice but that’s about it for him. 

Internally, Starscream’s portion of the headspace is a surprisingly simple cottage. Though it noticeably has a lot of metal in the design. Nearby is a lovely looking outdoor theater/stage where it performs with it’s crew (either NPCs or other headmates if it can convince them).

Starscream’s source isn’t too different from canon. But it’s important to note 1. Acts hatred of Megatron was totally valid and born mostly out of preservation instincts and 2. Act didn’t particularly care about the war or held grudges against Autobots. At most they annoyed him. It wanted power, sure, but that’s more because it wanted security than anything else.

Bai he has left the following message about “conceptualization”, feel free to skip:

‘Allspark, this pack was so fun to make! I’d like to not, no shade to any Megatron fictionfolk reading this, this is just how this Starscream’s source is. Also, seeing as “front to act” doesn’t seem to have an official role name (at least none on pluralpedia), I added “masker” as one of his roles. It’s up to debate how well it can actually do that though /lh /hj. If you want to reach out and let me know how act’s doing once act’s formed, it’d be appreciated but definitely not required in any way /srs! Bye now!’

[evangelistofmurder]

Why can't I get over this?? /Hj

TLDR - I'm kinda just typing this out bc my source memories are stressing me out and I can't find a proper outlet to cope

(Source memory venting under the cut)

Feel free to ask more since I don't mind talking about DMs

Everytime I get extra content, it's just bittersweet. (dramatic irony at its finest I guess?) Honestly my existence in source is just a sardonic joke. Like I want peace, I get my peace and it's taken away from me.

I mentioned this in a previous post but the novel really hits the nail in the coffin for me.

Waiting for Yuma was FOUL for this:

"If someday. If someone were to appear who could give Vivia some peace. If only someone could bring him out into the light when he was stuck in the dark. '...It would be pointless to hope for something like that.'"

The DLC ties into this with:

"Perhaps the peace I desire can be found there."

I don't even want to quote Chapter 4.

All the peace I thought I could find in death is gone. If I died someday it be lonely without Yakou if anything, and dying means losing him. I don't want that to happen. I think the only person in source who would understand my grief would be Yuma considering the labyrinth and conversation about the letter. We all saw how that turned out considering Yuma's also just gone (he left on his own accord) but still the one other person you could rely on for support not being there is also just devastating.

I'm upset that the other detectives thought I didn't care— I understand why so I won't fault them for it. I just stood there doing nothing and then the one thing I did do didn't even matter anyway.

In source postcanon, I kept visiting him in the restricted area. It takes me out mentally everytime but I did it anyway since I just wanted to see Yakou. I have no idea if he took the dlc pill or not, plus I wasn't told about said pill in the first place.

I'm under the impression that everyone else moved on and I can't move on at all and it's really getting to me.

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I honestly don't know why I'm posting this but I don't think anyone's up right night so I didn't feel like bothering someone this early in the morning as of writing this. I'm sorry (I feel guilty writing this somehow).