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baby i’ve got half finished wips you couldn’t even imagine

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“Many people seem to think it foolish, even superstitious, to believe that the world could still change for the better. And it is true that in winter it is sometimes so bitingly cold that one is tempted to say, ‘What do I care if there is a summer; its warmth is no help to me now.’ Yes, evil often seems to surpass good. But then, in spite of us, and without our permission, there comes at last an end to the bitter frosts. One morning the wind turns, and there is a thaw. And so I must still have hope.”

— Vincent Van Gogh

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stop ignoring yourself. fix your posture, get a fresh haircut, drink water, take care of your skin, eat food that gives you energy, declutter your space, take time to rest, workout, do mindful meditation, fix your sleep schedule. when you feel/look good, you do good. invest in yourself, put the effort you deserve.

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friends

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NEVER LET YOURSELF BE STOPPED BY WHAT IT WOULD HAVE BEEN LIKE IF YOU STARTED EARLIER!!!!! THE ONLY TIME WE HAVE IS NOW

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many of the ppl who are good at something have practiced copiously. practice copiously!!! you do not have to be naturally talented at something to do it well!!!!

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Another commission drawn by BumiBabes (on Twi//tter)! This is a commissioned artwork from last year, but I only remembered to post this now.

It feels like I'm a rando Namichuu student who forgot my pencil case under my school desk. But when I ran back to the classroom, I stumbled upon a ✨sacred✨ moment of peace(?) between the Disciplinary Committee Leader and the Student Council President instead. They're usually in conflict but why do they seem to be getting along here?!😌💜✨

It's so sacred that even Hibird had to fly away to mind his own business and give them privacy. And considering that this pair have pretty good instincts, I'm quite sure that they'll be able to sense it really quick if someone's watching them. By then, my random self-insert namichuu student character will be (as one of my streamer oshis would say) cooked, battered, golden brown, deep fried even.

In terms of timeline, considering that Hibird is here and the cloud ring on his finger, this should be around after Varia arc but before Future arc! Maybe Hibari's fighting spirit is much more tamed here because of the sakura petals flying around hehe or maybe something else...? 🤭

This is kind of a skeb-like commission, I say "kind of" because I got updates in between but I did leave the full composition of it in Bumi's hands. She gave me three sketches to choose from actually (all with the idea of a "private moment" in them), and this is the one I chose. If I were rich, I'd have the other two be made into full color art as well 🤣💖✨ Maybe I can get back to it someday!

The main thought she had behind this is that their relationship may comprise a lot of fighting, but she's pretty sure that they have moments like these where it's just ✨THEM✨. And I'm like OH HELL YEA, YOU GET IT. Even though I often draw them fighting because it's funny lmao, private moments likes these too are so precious and is a nice change of pace for them! (appropriate considering the timeline as well!)

Lastly, wanna put a chat that Bumi sent me here of Hibari being a certified bastard sjdhvfsdfghfds

kana: *i dont want 2 look at u* hibari: *looks at u*

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been a while ✌️ ive been inactive since my health hasn't been so good, so i'm unable to keep up with a LOT of things right now (even though i want to!! i miss yapping abt ocs!! 😭😭) also, january is my work's busiest busy season, so yeah i needed to lock in with the little energy i have.

anyway, the last few weeks, i've become even more low energy even if i'm actively trying to switch to a healthier lifestyle. i'm consuming significantly less to barely any sugar and avoid inflammatory foods when i can. ive been walking 0.5-1km on the walkpad and doing daily stretches too. i've also been taking supplements to balance my hormones. isn't that just strange????? i'm trying to be healthy but end up even worse????

for every little/few things that i do, i'd be so tired i'll need to lie down and nap (or i'll risk it getting worse). the constant body pain is affecting me even more than i can usually tolerate and it's seeping into my work efficiency too. honestly, wtv this bitchass illness is, it can seep into my hobbies but work is the last straw!!! i need my money, i love financial security while being able to fund my delusions, i don't want to underperform in my job. my usual meds don't seem to be working anymore too, be it paracetamol, ibuprofen or tylenol. salonpas, oils or heat pads are also not working.

fortunately, i've been able to recently consult with a psychologist/therapist and an internist (finding this internist took some time! the ones before i found this one cancelled on me 😅). all of them are online consultations thankfully, so i won't have to go outside for it and suffer from painful wait times. but what i do have to go outside for is the handful of lab tests that i need to do dshfvghvfd

i can go tomorrow, but my health insurance expired so i still gotta take care of the renewal for it this week if i wanna save money (and pay the premium...not installment btw...). or maybe i can just say fuck it we ball and go???? im so desperate to have some form of relief from these physical symptoms at least.

the doctor did prescribe me new pain meds. i'm gonna have it delivered today, i hope it works (please please please).

the bottomline is that i can make therapist jokes now. my therapist will be hearing all the yapping that i've done in this post, that's all thank, bless. i might start playing la/ds soon too, i need my otoge emotional support. and yes, despite everything, i'm still somehow making slow and steady progress with my projects yippeeee

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People liking your personal OCs is still such a crazy feeling, I've been doing this for years and ppl asking about them still fills my entire heart with warmth and idk how to handle it

You enjoy this fictional guy I made up for fun?? Whose only content is random artwork or writing made by me and a handful of other artists at most? They have no show/book/game with a large fandom, it's just one person with an art blog?? I love u

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How strange. All this is like a dream.

Jorge Luis Borges, The Encounter

originally published 1969

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Thinking about how the creator of mouthwashing said that a huge part of the horror is meant to be that every player will identify in some way with Jimmy, relate to him on some level, and realize that they share some traits with such an awful person, with that being what "I hope this hurts" was meant to mean. The point is that Jimmy is someone you are going to feel a connection to and that should hurt, that should cause you to reflect. Anyway I think the mouthwashing fandom really missed that because there is a truly awful self righteousness problem that no one is doing any self reflection on. I actively avoid the fandom for this reason every post I see from the mouthwashing fandom is people talking about other fans the same way Jimmy talks about the other members of the crew (esp Curly and Anya) with 0 self awareness lol.

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i think im just not worth getting close to

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kurumi becomes religious when kana is involved

i can imagine this is also something rinko prays for ryuuka as well. nine generations apart, but rinko and kurumi have the same problems. i saw this post the other day and laughed so hard when my first thought was kurumi praying like this.