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#it’s hilarious bc they’re mad that it’s not true and they’re mad at her for saying it#like. ITS NOT TRUE AT THIS EXACT MOMENT IN TIME BUT ITS ALSO NOT LIKE ITS NOT ROOTED IN FACT#HE DOES HAVE A LONG SIGNIFICANT TRACK RECORD OF EMOTIONAL UNAVAILABILITY#THE PROBLEM IS THAT LIV IS CITING THAT AS THE REASON FOR HER RELATIONSHIP STATUS#LIKE GIRL. OKAY GIRL. OKAY
its so funny. sorry the art of nuance has been lost on you. sorry that you're so used to media spoonfeeding you with characters saying their exact emotion, singular, because only one thing can be true at a time therefore everything else is false and a lie and is bad morally because its a lie. Sorry my dudes, this is the "Cops are good and can protect rape victims sometimes" show, its a fantasy. Leave your morals at the Dun Dun. There's not only one correct answer.
SHDHRJDHD in their defense svu Has honestly been doing exactly that - spoon feeding us the singular views and emotions of each character - for a lot of seasons (s19 and s20 off the top of my head are the very worst about it) and there’s definitely been a tonal shift this season i think bc of the writer switch and maybe the directing style? a little more moody and mysterious re: characters internal monologues. which i LOVE. but like admittedly in recent years liv has just either plainly stated her exact feelings or just gaslit people (amanda) or avoided dealing in emotions altogether. irl i’ve been calling svu the mcu of tv in that it’s meant to hold your attention and not actually make you think too hard (especially 2.0) 💀
but i do think this is a ridiculous thing for people to be up in arms about LOL like i said elliot has definitely been emotionally unavailable in significant ways and liv isn’t really wrong for saying it now but it’s another very funny Liv Thing to me where she gives such a random description of her feelings about elliot that it’s almost MORE intense than just saying she loves him. the main one for me has always been when she tells amanda “no one looked out for me the way he did” when elliot first comes back and while of course that’s true i think it is SUCH a random description of their dynamic to someone who has no idea what benson and stabler actually were. that being the thing that liv emphasizes in the middle of all the chaos when elliot comes back is really :( to me. like she feels responsible for looking out for Him in rotps and she’s thinking a lot about who had her back 20 years ago. screams.
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if anyone seeing this post is under the impression that not attending university lectures is fun and edgy. let me paint you a picture. you are going to look at your calendar one day soon and realise your final is in 38 hours and you still have 17 and a half hour long lectures to watch and take notes from.. and while this is possible to achieve it's not exactly relaxing. yeah i'm still fine-tuning my academic skills what abt it
#aha. ahahaa. ahahaaa.#no okay HEAR ME OUT. this is actually the best position i've been in all year academically 💔 i've taken every final so far this year w/o#having seen any lectures... & in my defense i wasn't skipping bc i thought it was fun or edgy. the real reasons are just too fucked up#to explain. i still wish that i had been better this term. i wish i had been able to make things turn out differently. i am always wishing#but now the only thing left to do is try my best with the time i have left and start again next year#anyway here is an insight into the strange and terrible grief that is my academic life.#so far it is a life mostly full of mistakes. but i will not give up.#it will continue. things will improve.#🐝#SORRY ABT THIS RANT. DIDNT MEAN TO SAY SO MUCH#this was ... supposed to be a joke post#DONT WORRY ABT ME I HAVENT FAILED ANYTHING YET AND IM NOT INTENDING TO START NOW
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Basically every single character has commented on Cristina being a robot or inhuman or emotionless and such .
So many of them think she doesn't. Love.
But it's so ridiculous because, love interest wise, she's the only one actually loving the other person.
The greatest thing any of her love interests did to her. The only thing that was made with genuine love for her.
Was Burke leaving her.
At the altar, in the dress.
#burke and cristina are one of them straight couples i stare at the ceiling at 2 an thinkinh about#like he was a dick and fuvkibg ruined her#but its so#idk man they loved eachother but he wanted someone else#and she conformed. because cristina just loved him so much#he wanted cristina but he wanted her different#but its stil like AGH he had to leave because despite all of that he cant work with her without it . ruining them#its like . the bs owen and cristina had but actually good#because Burke didnt cheat and tell her she killed their baby#sorry all posts turn into owen h*nt hate posts#the greatest most loving thing a love interest ever did to Cristina was leave her and i think about that a lot#and you should too#ugh girl why are you a tragedy#cristina yang#preston burke#greys anatomy#grey's anatomy#pzyii rants#greys anatomy rambles#burktina#burketina
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my dad and brother are watching through the clone wars for the first time and I’m watching some with them and
i cant stop thinking about how the war traumatised bariss offee and how it traumatised her in such a different way from ahsoka
like i know weapons factory is supposed to show anakins inability to deal with attachment and loss
but it’s also about how luminara is too easily detatched
bariss needed someone to see her and see her struggling and luminara was too willing to let go and let bariss operate on her own. she trusted bariss to the point that she couldnt see when she needed help when she needed support because she thought she was prepared enough, trained enough
ahsoka was trained enough. she was a child far too good at playing soldier, being supported by someone who would do literally anything for her, even if it meant destroying everyone in her way. and that was wrong of anakin. and she never stopped playing soldier. after the republic fell, she worked as a spy for the rebellion because thats all she’s ever known, she was prepared to be a soldier.
bariss was trained but that doesnt change the fact that she wasnt a soldier. she was a healer playing a soldier with a teacher who couldnt see her desperation. she needed someone to see her. and luminara couldnt do that
yeah i know this isnt a new take. all of this has been said before and all of this will be said again, all of it repeats itself, the story will never end
#this isnt a critique of luminara entirely i dont think she was a bad person#same with anakin i think they were both trying their best#i believe they both had flawed understandings of a lot of things#bariss offee#hadestown ass vibes sorry#to know how it ends and still begin to sing it again as if it might turn out this time#ahsoka tano#star wars#clone wars#anakin skywalker#luminara unduli#luminara and barriss#clone wars au where anakin is bariss’ master and it messes them both up in a different way from canon but she’s better??? maybe not#sorry for the rant but not really this show has me fucked up
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Did christian linke actually do anything wrong beyond saying he didn’t see jayvik as romantic or are you guys just losing your shit over a difference of opinion?
#dex rants#genuinely I can’t tell cause you guys are acting like he shot someone’s dog#seriously yall are saying his name like a curse or smthing#unless he actually did something wrong you gotta fuckin calm down#people are gonna disagree with you especially on something like this so what#unless he’s harassing people I don’t see the issue#however it seems like a lot of you guys are starting to harass people instead#I must ask is it really appropriate to turn someone into the enemy over something so harmless?#people view character relationships different all the time due in part to opinion and personal experience#personally I’m jayvik crazy I think of them as painfully annoyingly and frustratingly gay for each other however my friend sees them as an-#extension of his close friendships and how he’d go that far without any romance holding him to it#this doesn’t hurt me nor does it hurt him for feeling that way#but it does hurt to harass someone incessantly and twist words into daggers#you need to learn to move on#take a nice deep breath and say ‘we disagree’ and instead focus on enjoying yourself with the people who agree#christian linke#arcane#arcane spoilers#every year that passes I realize people are so quick to anger#often times they make themselves the most upset with their own feelings#it’s kinda frustrating liking popular mlm ships because so often people resort to arguing over actually enjoying themselves#jayvik I’m so sorry they’re doing this to you#and before you say ‘well what if you held this opinion on [serious matter]???’ we’re not talking about anything else we’re just talking-#about shipping okay?#different situations have different nuance#anyways I’m gonna go make a jayvik playlist and kick n my feet and giggle looking at these fuckin 30 year old men /gen
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GRAAAHHHH I HAVE TO TALK ABOUT THE MINECRAFT MOVIE I HAVE TO I HAVE TO!!!
(Small disclaimer: I don't blame any of the underpaid and overworked writers & animators. They deserved better than this slop, I'm sure of it.
like the general public, I too despise the trailer. Let me just start with the trailer itself.
1.) Love how you can tell where the fucking green screen is. /sarc. Also the line "This guy is such a toolbag" they give her feels not only millennial, but fucking stupid jesus christ. You could've made a block joke there like. "...This guy is such a blockhead." "Yeah everything's made of blocks here." Or something AT LEAST TRYYY GUYYYSSS...
2.) The artstyle I know everyone talks about it but the FUCKING ARTSTYLE OH MY GOOODDDD IM DYING why has literally no one talked about the wolf though LIKE???
why is the wolf's body literally discord shaped. Why is Built like That. What the fact did they do to you??? Like, I just... I hate the combination of the realism and the blocks like??? JUST MAKE IT FULLY BLOVKY???? WHAT THE FUCK IS THIIIISSSSS GOD it's so fucking uncanny I hate it. I hate it so.
3.) Love the whitewashed Steve /sarc. Fr though, are we surprised? I hate that Jack Black of all people is playing him like guys that was a joke people was making. Are y'all able to understand jokes? Or understand what a pos Jack Black is? Jesus fuck gamers he's not only ableist (supports Autism Speaks) but a zionist as well. But besides that Steve feels like. Hold on.
Look at Steve. If he actually existed in the real world, I have a feeling he would be muscular (because he mines, builds, + farms like all day), and probably somewhere around his 20's-30's. You're telling me that Jack Black, an actor + musician who's in his 50's. Like, this isn't to say that Steve wouldn't have some tummy fat at all, he probably would! But like... Jack Black just doesn't... feel like Steve at all. Jack Black is like the exact opposite.
There's just like this... massive, icky vibe about the entire trailer that makes me hate it. I think it's a mixture of the live action "isekai" shit with the like... blocky textures that makes everything uncanny and gross to look at. And it feels like rather than taking the concept and saying "Hey, since the experience is so varied, let's take multiple characters and storylines and take proper care of each to tell a different story of the same game" (like Fallout the Show) they're just like, "Eh... I mean... I'm sure the Isekai trope will work again."
Not only that, but like over all it feels like rather than looking and seeing this game and being able to "laugh with" Minecraft fans (side note: I wouldn't mind Minecraft being comedic, admittedly, a block world is a fucking ridiculous concept. But, I'd still say keep the same sentiment that the game has which is, "You can build your own version of the world from the ground up, you are the master of your destiny") they're looking at it like that one mom from that AITA post and saying, "This is ridiculous and childish. Why do you like this? It's stupid. It's just some game about blocks."
I'm not gonna sit here and pretend that fans can't be picky about videogame movies/tv shows at all. Because I enjoyed the Mario movie, despite some fans hatred of it. I can't ignore the fact that videogame movies tend to be 50/50 on how fans will react to them. But still, really? This is what you guys have to show after 10 years? This is what we get? It feels like a punch in the gut, dude. I hate so much. I can't stop thinking about it.
#minecraft movie#minecraft trailer#minecraft#rant post#chicken noodle s0up#AGAIN!!! NOT TO BLAME THE WRITERS OR ANIMATORS! its not their fault things turned out this way.#i also just want to say im sorry mcsm#we had no idea what we had until it was gone#but yeah in my opinion minecraft should just be fully animated and instead of a movie it shouldve been a tv series#exploring the lives of like steve and alex or hell maybe include herobrine and shit into the mix#exploring the different paths and places minecraft can take you.#i feel like minecraft is one of those games that makes it difficult to make into a movie or show#but still#put in the fucking effort ffs#ok im done finally weeee
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One thing that has deeply annoyed me about the response from Americans/Westerners about this week's events in Korea is that a lot of them, including people I like and respect, are like, "The protesting civilians and lawmakers who barged into the National Assembly would've been shot if this were the U.S./this would've never happened in the U.S. because people are too afraid of being shot." There's some truth to that, at least with regard to state violence, but I'm fed up because it doesn't account for how frightening this could have turned out to be had it not been for how much of an inept flop dunce Yoon Sukyeol is. It minimizes the courage of those who showed up.
Sure, it was likely that the military and riot police wouldn't have done much (again, YSY's self-coup wasn't thought out well, and there's more evidence of that as military officials and soldiers are speaking up about the lack of information they received, but I'll refrain from talking about that to avoid making this even longer than it inevitably will be, knowing myself), but let's not pretend there haven't been issues with them in recent years. They pepper sprayed and used water cannons during an anniversary rally for the Sewol ferry victims (x) (x) (if you don't understand how unbelievably cruel that is, look into the horrific Sewol ferry sinking). They tear gassed crowds (Korea has a gruesome history of this) and sprayed water cannons, and citizens have been injured and killed during the 2015 protests and 2016-17 Park Geunhye impeachment protests, notably Baek Namgi, an elderly activist whose death caused global outrage (x) (x). Park Geunhye was going to enforce martial law during those protests according to a leaked document, with hundreds of tanks, thousands of soldiers and special force troops! (x)
Not to mention, there are decades of extreme state violence that have scarred an entire country and are still super fresh for a huge percentage of the population. Again, check out that tear gas history piece. Look up the April Revolution, Gwangju massacre, and June uprising and see just how bloody they were. Thousands of civilians were tortured and killed. Look at how many protests were going on year after year during the 1980s. That isn't that long ago! All those older people who ran to the National Assembly to stop the coup? You bet a lot of them were college students who protested during that time or knew people who did. All the younger people? They may not have experienced what it was like living under martial law, but as I said, state violence still occurs, however much it's dwindled over the years, and you have to account for generational trauma. I don't think I'll ever forget the way I felt when I saw the breaking news alert about the martial law declaration on December 3. I've never experienced that, at least to that degree.
Instead of viewing the response from civilians and elected officials through the framework of police brutality in the U.S., it should be contextualized using Korea's own history. Thankfully most of the serious discussions are doing this, but like I said, even people who are smart about reading up on things have reflected on how this wouldn't fly in the U.S., not because of the difference in protest history, civil movements, and public engagement with both in the two countries but because of the military/police response. There's an insinuation there that Koreans would be more reluctant to do what they did if they knew what it's like to live in fear of violence instead of living in such a safe country like Korea...and I want to yell.
It was monumentally brave of everyone to do what they did to stop the coup. We're all laughing at how stupid the coup was and there's a reason why people were more furious than scared because of the political history of Korea and the laws set in place to protect the democracy and neutralize coup attempts, but this could have easily become a disaster. It's not alarmist of me to say so because there was no way for anyone to be 100% sure of how the military would react—especially when no one knew what the hell was going on.
#i am...not vibing with these posts about how people are like 'omg those poor soldiers/good on them for dragging their feet'#yes mandatory military service means being there against your will#and i DO believe a lot of soldiers probably were super shaken or confused by what was going on#especially with the news coming out that soldiers weren't aware of what their mission was#to find out your orders and see your people look at you with rage disgust and maybe even fear especially as a young person...#i get that it's upsetting and you can tell that a lot of them didn't want to be there!#but lol are we forgetting there are people who weren't conscripts involved?#are we forgetting that people will follow directions if it's drilled into them to do say especially with the threat of retaliation?#are we forgetting that mandatory military service goes back decades#and amazingly soldiers and police still committed atrocities against civilians during previous protests or what?#idk i think it's your moral duty to engage in weaponized incompetence malicious compliance insubordination etc.#when you're asked to do something evil so i don't really want to praise people for being decent#even if i'm glad they did and i'm relieved they did it you know? but that's just me#omg sorry i'm ranting. ANYWAY! history in every single country has shown#how easy it can be for things to go south rapidly so while there were things that made the coup expire as quickly as it did#and it's HILARIOUS and i'm enjoying myself...it could have turned out very different#just a few wrong turns—just ONE wrong turn—and it could have been bad#rules and orders are good and all but if someone wants to commit violence they will do it#i'm just relieved i didn't have time to worry myself sick over this before it was all over lmao#so i can just feel a lot of pride and admiration for everyone doing their best to exercise and protect their rights#and do it with great panache and fun. the protests are like concerts! the protest songs are so funny#the signs!!!!! i'm dying over them. the number of people paying for food and drinks for the protestors#enough that businesses in the protest areas had to stop taking prepaid orders!#the older people who said they have to get to the front that night to protect all the young protestors with their bodies#in case the military tries to attack civilians! 😭 that part made me almost cry#the ajusshi who (drunkenly?) shouted how much he loved all his friends who came out to protest like the old days#democracy is fragile and we have to protect it#and i think korea right now is a shining beacon of the power of the people
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PERSONAL SPACE, PLEASE.
Quick rant doodle based on a REALLY annoying experience today while clearing the darkness in Golden Wasteland.
#fanart#quick doodle#Sky: Children of the Light#Sky: CotL#Sky Kid#OC#Sky random#eventually realized that they wanted to turn their red candle into a white one#I guess to melt the darkness faster??? tbh I didn't see much of a difference#but what annoyed me was the fact that they constantly kept jumping in front of me#like they were trying to burn stuff before I could?#MY DUDE. THIS IS NOT A RACE#I'd understand if they were trying to get it done faster because some of it was in Krill patrol paths#but this felt like a toddler or small child saying ME FIRST! ME FIRST!#PROBABLY WAS A KID FOR ALL I KNOW#but it was just SOOO annoying. no one else ever acted like this#sorry. ranting#not really bothered about it anymore anyway#but good excuse to try and doodle my new OC! :D#no name for him yet
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ugh i have so many thoughts rn
#abt mouthwjashing.... specifically abt the interesting difference in attitude abt#anya n curly shipping and jimmy n curly shipping#both very ''problematic'' ships but one is more okay than the other#why is it that shipping a woman w someone who was complicit in her abuse is cute and sweet#but shipping a man with his long time friend turned abuser is somehow a hundred times worse#i understand wanting to see anya happy but if youre pairing her up w someone for cute fluff make a nice oc or smth#she deserves much much better than curly#txt#oh and like i dont mind a problematic ship but i dont enjoy the idea of making anya n curly a cute perfect couple#sorry for ranting abt mouthwashing so much today#everything regarding anya just gets me heated i love her so much and curly sucks ass (in a fascinating way)#and i hate hatr hate how we still ship women w men that dont care about them
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i feel like slightly younger than marius mael is the best just for flavor reasons lol. reeaally curious to know what you think
I think I usually land on slightly younger but not like a baby. Like early 30s maybe. BUT I'LL TELL YOU SOME THOUGHTS OF WHY I LIKE EACH OR WHY EACH COULD WORK:
Under 30: First of all because of Jesse's chapter in QOTD--Maharet was turned around age 20 I think? And for Jesse, I'm sure there's that sort of uncanny thing where your mind fills in blanks and makes excuses, like, her "aunt" has been around her whole life so like gee golly I guess she just looks young for her age! Except that there's like the vampire uncanniness too, so whatever you judge as an age doesn't super matter. So like, Mael blending in as one of her guy friends in his early 20s would make sense. Jesse DOES also clock him as not being human, so again I think the uncanniness might not make her peg either of them as a certain age.
I do worry if this clashes with the idea that he could properly be a priest? Caesar said that it takes 20 years to train a priest, but A) A lot of what Caesar said is like anti-Keltoi propaganda and might not be accurate since the Druids famously never left anything in writing, so there's very little first hand information about them. B) MAYBE IT'S OKAY BECUASE IN VC-VERSE TESKHAMEN IS REAL AND MAEL WAS REALLY COMMUNING WITH HIM SO IF THERE WAS LIKE MAGIC AFOOT IN THE COMMUNITY MAYBE HE GOT FAST TRACKED OR RESPECTED AS BEING SPECIAL IDK. I can work with it and make excuses lol.
I LOVE the idea of him being like a young man because of how much madder that would make Marius, plus the way he likes to mentor young blonde men lol. But it might like hurt him even worse if the author of all his misfortunate is like SOME KID.
In his 30s: Personally I usually land here because I DO wonder how long it takes him to gain status in his community and become a priest (in his 30s is still fast tracking it but maybe feels more plausible LOL) and I enjoy the idea of he and Marius being sort of similar to each other. Like, Marius often gets used as the example of Turning an Older Guy and what it means for his temperament and the way it translates to his immortality. I like imagining Mael as around Marius's age for that reason, like I want to remove all his excuses why Mael is a young stupid kid or even an old salty jerk--it forces Marius to confront that Mael is ALSO someone who is chill and smart and has had enough life experience. BUT WHILE THERE'S A WINDOW WHERE THEY COULD BE SIMILAR IN AGE, OR MAEL COULD BE A TAD OLDER, I ALSO STILL ENJOY MARIUS BEING LIKE "HE'S YOUNGER THAN ME I HATE THIS!" BECAUSE HIS AGE AND SELF-PERCEIVED WISDOM & EXPERIENCE ARE IMPORTANT TO HIS IDENTITY AND HE FEELS BELITTED LOL.
In his 40s: Makes sense for the above reason! But I like to skew younger personally just for the Marius ageism dynamic lol. Also there's something about him being a foil to Marius where like, if they're very similar in other ways it can kind of emphasize how their atheism/religion contrasts each other and affects them as people.
Over 50: ALSO POSSIBLE and it's hilarious bc in the audiobook the narrator reads him like such a grouchy old man lmao. I could see this causing a lot of resentment because Marius likes to be the oldest and wisest in the room. I could see him also being younger because Marius insults him every chance he gets and I just think he would've told us that Mael is like an old hag if it were true lol. Anyway wondering how this effects Marius's barbarian kink and how he submits to men.
#btw ive been meaning to write a post when i have a minute about like the experience of transformative fandom#and how like if youre a person who sees the source as sort of dynamic and malleable that you wonder things like this#vs only ever seeing the source as a static topic that needs to be discussed like a literary essay#and how there's friction when people don't allow both types of fandoming to exist in the same space#because ive been seeing some bullshit lately with people taking the source too literally and not allowing anyone to play with it#like none of this stuff is in the books but im trying to write a fanfic so what do you fucking want me to do LOL#sorry i guess ill be boring and not develop any of these dynamics because canon didnt give me an answer lol#and wahts INTERESTING is that many versions of the text can co-exist when you ask questions like this#like rereading Mael scenes and imagining him as 20 or imagining him as 60 makes the scenes very different!#and that's cool and we should talk about it!#anyway sorry i feel like i blew my load with that post by turning it into a tag rant but if i can articulate myself later ill try LOL#mael#marius/mael#marius de romanus#deep ass thoughts about vampires
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What did I do wrong what did I do wrong FOR FUCKS SAKE TELL ME WHAT THE HELL I DID TO PISS YOU OFF SO MUCH
I WILL NOW BET MONEY HE DELETED MY SHIT OFF HIS COMPUTER
#sepiasys.txt#I checked to see if I could turn on his ps5 while his comp was idle sleeping. yes. my profile is gone.#I want to fucking murder him.#FUCK. AND NO HATE TO B WHO CAN ONLY SAY SORRY. I GET THAT. BUT FUCK#I'm genuinely never talking to him again if we can fucking remember to.#The irony is yes I downloaded shit without asking but because he's 'non-confrontational' he wont say shit#JUST FUCKING TELL ME#'hey; could you not download stuff without permission? or Atleast all next time?' and say it without being passive aggressive you fuckhead#THERE'S A GODDAMN DIFFERENCE BETWEEN NOT BEING CONFRONTATIONAL AND FUCKING COMMUNICATING YOUR BOUNDARIES???#Early move in me was right to want to say 'feel free to say if you're uncomfortable with anything'#too bad we fucking didnt out of fear#UGH I WANT TO KILL MYSELF BUT I ALSO WANT TO GUT HIM#vent#rant
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Happy one year anniversary to my ex-best friend who got married 5 minutes away from my home and didn't invite me. I thought we were still chill and good enough for wedding invites but, I guess not. Still hurts, hope y'all are happy tho.
#ohp its me again#gender#anyway#still love her dearly. still wish her the best.#but um. turns out she Was lying when she answered my question 5 years ago.#turns out guys: if you ask your friends (that are deep in snotty christian circles) how you can be a better friend to them- they just lie#they just lie and then back off. and you will be left with the hope you'd grown for them. and you will forever almost wish they could takeit#shoutout to best friends who like. will discuss issues and hard things. shoutout to friends who give truthfully the criticism you ask for#shoutout to caiah too honestly. i thought we were kindred souls with the same neurological differences. turns out you didnt want that#sorry ig#anyway. rant over i miss my friend but i dont miss the person she has chosen to be. and i hope she takes care of herself.
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you guys ever get tired of friends who only talk about themselves? how do you respectfully tell them off?
#personal#like i love them but also im sick and tired of hearing them talk about themselves#every conversation feels like im interviewing them bc i leep asking them questions and they just answer#but there's no turning the convo back to me#it's like 'hey how r u?' and they're like 'oh im not doing so well like life sucks'#and I'll be sympathetic and ask them why and then they start ranting about 70 different things#AND IT'S ALWAYS A VAGUE RESPONSE SO I HAVE TO KEEP ASKING QUESTIONS#and they act like they dont want the attention but it's obvious they want it#and even once they're done with their storytelling they dont even bother to ask me how i am or anything#and it's pissing me off these days bc i feel like i dont even matter to them; im just some person they can talk to about themselves#it's like they don't give a shit about me at all#if i ask them what their fav colour is theyre gonna tell me it's purple and then move on from that topic#at least ask me what my fav colour is!! instead of not even caring...am i even ur friend or what#im so sorry for the rant guys but... if anyone knows to politely tell these kind of people off please lmk#i need to tell them respectfully before i lose my mind and start yelling at them
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though i think with newer games the slimming down of rpg (playing a character) and rpg (fiddling with stats) mechanics kind of happens simultaneously... so even though idrk about choosing attributes if i see there arent any it's like hmmm not sure how good the other aspects of the rp are going to be here
#best example: tes games... morrowind making different characters is fun but mostly bc you do quests differently#as different characters... a big clunky warrior will struggle in the thieves guild#meanwhile skyrim they dont gaf ive gotten into the thieves guild as my first quest with 0 lockpicking skills#and if you kill everyone at goldenglow they literally dont care. why even ask me to sneak in then!!!!#sorry. this just turned into a skyrim rant again. its fun i like picking flowers
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My life is a comedy.
I'm on a business trip with my superior, so I've been spending a lot of time with her even outside of work hours. Today, during a casual conversation, I let slip that I have a huge crush on that other coworker I've written about in the past.
To be perfectly honest, I thought everyone knew by now. The women, at least. I've been doing my best to be subtle, of course, but I've been on the other side as well and I know -- hiding something like this is impossible. Even if you don't do anything in particular to make it obvious, there's the way your eyes literally shine when you look at that person, the adoring expression, how you blush and/or stutter when you interact... Every person is different in how they react to this, of course, but from the outside, you can tell when there's such a strong interest.
...except apparently, I've been doing a much better job at hiding my feelings that I thought for my superior was flabbergasted.
Her first reaction was a gasp, followed by, "You're jocking, right? You must be jocking!"
Feeling rather foolish at that point, but thinking I was too far in to back down, I assured her that no, unfortunately, I wasn't jocking. Nevertheless, I'm definitely able to keep up a professional relationship and pretend my feelings don't exist.
Turns out that wasn't what my superior was concerned about. Apparently, what everyone has been noticing and commenting about behind my back is that he is completely smitten with me. He has never explicitly denied when confronted about it, either, just veered the conversation to a different topic. Which -- is not a denial.
Not to mention, it would be completely understandable if he didn't want to make a move without knowing how I felt about it -- after all, I'm much younger than he is and he's also technically one of my superiors, even though I'm not directly under him. Being the sensible person he is, he is aware the situation would be quite uncomfortable for me if I didn't reciprocate his interest.
...but I do. And I can't believe this is happening, but it is. I don't know if this will turn into anything concrete, still... Wow. Moreover, my superior is absolutely thrilled about this and she said that as soon as we're back, she'll make sure he somehow gets the input he can make a move.
#about feyna#sorry for the rant but I'm so happy I'overflowing#I *needed* to talk about this but all my close friends are busy today lol#on a different note#turns out I wasn't just imagining things and I actually *can* read people#I had noticed he often seemed to be staring at me#and then there was that time he got behind me when saying goodbye before leaving#and he was clearly about to touch my shoulder then froze for an instant#and touched the back of my chair instead#which means thar gesture had a meaning for him -- that touch carried a certain weight#not thoughtless#otherwise he wouldn't have frozen and waited a moment before reconsidering#but I thought it was impossible that somebody like him could like me back#so I just thought I was overthing everything lol
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I’m just so… I don’t want jaehyun to eventually alter the way he acts or presents himself due to backlash from fans (in and out of the bonedo fandom) regarding his “loudness” and energy. it doesn’t cause harm to him or his band members. he’s relatively good at reading the room and adjusting his seriousness (like sometimes I think people think they chose the bonedo leader willy nilly lmao) and he’s not oblivious or unaware of his bandmates and others. like anyone else, I’m sure there’s moments when he might need help refocusing or w/e, but I have yet to see anyone who is warranted to have an opinion (ie: knows him irl) react negatively to his personality? like he’s not the first idol to be talkative. he’s not the first idol that might run around a bit. he’s not the first idol to make a lot of jokes or flirt with half his bandmates. it’s not a new personality. it’s a little different than what we see in other leaders but again, it’s not “new”. loud people were not invented in 2003. and over time, maybe he’ll mellow out a bit. it happens. or maybe he’ll remain as he is, that’s cool too. and as a leader, I kind of hope for the latter bc the industry will work them and burn them out and I hope they’re able to maintain their youth and softness towards the world. that not everything is a battle or a fight, that the job while a job, can be one they continue to enjoy to do.
#to delete probably#from behind the door#like i don’t know to explain how i feel protective of jaehyun’s personality and those with similar ones#example is j@ckson w@ng (sorry i don’t want this in his tags) and how he outward personality has sort of#shifted in more recent years to be less known as the more loud and goofy kind of guy#to this cool guy or whatever#and that’s a bit… generalizing LOL but it’s an example#mark and bb discussed it i believe#contrasting.. you have mj#who is still the same mj imo#and like personally have whatever opinion you do yknow?#like it gets annoying? that’s fine it happens#hell I do not think I’d survive a day with jaehyun#love him to bits but that would be a lot#and guess what? I don’t have to lmao#i’m not in bonedo LOL#AND NETIRHR ARE YALL ON THE INTERNET#like just step away#take a break#turn off the volume#like… it’s one thing to be like he’s loud and it’s another thing to use it as something inherently negative#like ‘your personality is cringe’ like noooo don’t tell people that#idk how to explain it…. i guess it’s really on my own upbringing of#if you don’t got something nice to say don’t say it#y’all can comment on your group being quieter than other groups and how you love that#without dragging in some other name to say they’re annoying and the opposite#actually i take back what i said in a previous tag#you can probably address a person being loud or talkative or just… a different energy level#without calling them annoying i think#WHY DID THIS BLOG TURN INTO ME RANTING
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