#sorry this turned into such a different rant

[nobodycaresabt]

I need to talk about Ness and how much and how unexpectedly I love him.

I think it’s one of the best paced character’s introductions in bllk thus far and I am amused how he turned from a level’s boss’ sidekick to such an interesting character.

At first we meet him as a Kaiser’s +1 and tbh from his design he doesn’t look like a lot. Other guys from BM are even more interesting.

Then he is more of a comic relief with “yellow cards” and “Kaiser’s boy toy” until it all becomes pretty ugly.

With the drink thrown at him, that lip-biting panel we all remember (and want to forget), knee sliding for Kaiser’s goal I was going back and forth between feeling sorry for him and being borderline disgusted.

But then his backstory drops and it turns out to be such a beautiful story. Not only was he an adorable little boy, but he was imaginative, creative, sensitive and so lonely. I like how his backstory has very little to do with football, but with his longing for magic, emotions, acceptance, wonderful things and how football was the first wonder that he found irl. That words “unexplainable feelings, unexplainable sadness” did something to me 😭

It seems like Kaiser represents all this magic he was longing for and their relationship seems sincere and genuine at that point.

Then his profile drops and i feel even more sorry for him. Aside from Kaiser nonsense he wants to go back to his younger self and tells him it’s okay to be himself. Gosh… And his favorite movie is a love story.

His backstory and his profile show him as a beautiful well rounded person with a lot of interests who is different from all other characters. It also provides with space for head canons.

Ok, and then Kaiser’s backstory drops and we learn that from his side it was all bs from the very beginning and that he used Ness dirty. Thank you. Ness, my poor boy.

Thank you for listening to my rant. I will be okay. 🫂

[lesbenson]

#it’s hilarious bc they’re mad that it’s not true and they’re mad at her for saying it#like. ITS NOT TRUE AT THIS EXACT MOMENT IN TIME BUT ITS ALSO NOT LIKE ITS NOT ROOTED IN FACT#HE DOES HAVE A LONG SIGNIFICANT TRACK RECORD OF EMOTIONAL UNAVAILABILITY#THE PROBLEM IS THAT LIV IS CITING THAT AS THE REASON FOR HER RELATIONSHIP STATUS#LIKE GIRL. OKAY GIRL. OKAY

its so funny. sorry the art of nuance has been lost on you. sorry that you're so used to media spoonfeeding you with characters saying their exact emotion, singular, because only one thing can be true at a time therefore everything else is false and a lie and is bad morally because its a lie. Sorry my dudes, this is the "Cops are good and can protect rape victims sometimes" show, its a fantasy. Leave your morals at the Dun Dun. There's not only one correct answer.

SHDHRJDHD in their defense svu Has honestly been doing exactly that - spoon feeding us the singular views and emotions of each character - for a lot of seasons (s19 and s20 off the top of my head are the very worst about it) and there’s definitely been a tonal shift this season i think bc of the writer switch and maybe the directing style? a little more moody and mysterious re: characters internal monologues. which i LOVE. but like admittedly in recent years liv has just either plainly stated her exact feelings or just gaslit people (amanda) or avoided dealing in emotions altogether. irl i’ve been calling svu the mcu of tv in that it’s meant to hold your attention and not actually make you think too hard (especially 2.0) 💀

but i do think this is a ridiculous thing for people to be up in arms about LOL like i said elliot has definitely been emotionally unavailable in significant ways and liv isn’t really wrong for saying it now but it’s another very funny Liv Thing to me where she gives such a random description of her feelings about elliot that it’s almost MORE intense than just saying she loves him. the main one for me has always been when she tells amanda “no one looked out for me the way he did” when elliot first comes back and while of course that’s true i think it is SUCH a random description of their dynamic to someone who has no idea what benson and stabler actually were. that being the thing that liv emphasizes in the middle of all the chaos when elliot comes back is really :( to me. like she feels responsible for looking out for Him in rotps and she’s thinking a lot about who had her back 20 years ago. screams.

[anarcho-astromech]

my dad and brother are watching through the clone wars for the first time and I’m watching some with them and

i cant stop thinking about how the war traumatised bariss offee and how it traumatised her in such a different way from ahsoka

like i know weapons factory is supposed to show anakins inability to deal with attachment and loss

but it’s also about how luminara is too easily detatched

bariss needed someone to see her and see her struggling and luminara was too willing to let go and let bariss operate on her own. she trusted bariss to the point that she couldnt see when she needed help when she needed support because she thought she was prepared enough, trained enough

ahsoka was trained enough. she was a child far too good at playing soldier, being supported by someone who would do literally anything for her, even if it meant destroying everyone in her way. and that was wrong of anakin. and she never stopped playing soldier. after the republic fell, she worked as a spy for the rebellion because thats all she’s ever known, she was prepared to be a soldier.

bariss was trained but that doesnt change the fact that she wasnt a soldier. she was a healer playing a soldier with a teacher who couldnt see her desperation. she needed someone to see her. and luminara couldnt do that

yeah i know this isnt a new take. all of this has been said before and all of this will be said again, all of it repeats itself, the story will never end

[thefirstlioveyou]

you know i have never really been all over willel the way the fandom is. i find interest in their obvious supernatural connection (this post won't be about that), but i never saw this sibling bond that the fanbase pushes so much. i just see people comparing them to the mystery twins or seeing them as close as jonathan and will, and i just Don't get it. Acknowledging it as fanon is fine, but canon... I don't know about that. Thankfully other users recently have perfectly put it into words why i get this feeling from the writing. It is true that they're just not as close as people think, emotionally at least - and for good reason.

canon willel isn't this straightforward thing the way people treat it. this relationship brings out the complexity of will. fanon willel erases that

to say he feels one way towards her, and that way only being positive.. yeah you're kidding. and boring. it's canon that will is jealous and holds resentment, it's something vecna targets him for in the VR game. he feels terrible for it, which is why vecna goes for that. so don't worry, he's not this malicious being.

we see will call her 'some stupid girl' knowing very well she is not just some girl, and especially not just some girl even to himself.

now. obviously. he doesn't actually hate her or think of her this way. he still values El and loves her as a brother. he still sees who she is outside of this. he's simply speaking from hurt emotions. for once, he wants something so badly that isn't his. this challenges his trait of selflessness, making him not some one dimensional character that only feels and acts one way no matter the circumstances. it doesn't suddenly erase who he is at his best - he's still a sensitive and giving person that keeps to himself because of his consideration of others. but even so, even he isn't immune to the effects of jealousy.

there are some noticeable inconsistencies even in s4, which @heroesbyler has explained why vecna will use them against will to torture him. (really great read and makes me want s5 now even more!!)

i take most note of the bullying scenes. at school, we see will stand there watching, only running after her once it's all over. (this shows us he struggles to stand up for others against bullies because that would ultimately mean he has to stand up for himself. this is a notable flaw.) he goes over and tells her 'we'll fix it together.' there is no doubt here he cares about what happened, he feels hurt for her! i'm not implying he's watching and not doing anything out of maliciousness in this scene, but i think this scene is set up to prepare you to question the NEXT bullying scene.

will stands up as angela and her friends take el away. we see that he knows something is most likely gonna go wrong, but the confrontation is too much to do anything until it's too late, and that's when he finally decides to tell mike.

but here's where it gets weird. will doesn't do anything. he doesn't even move or run after her when she's on the floor, not like the way mike is. not like the way he did at school (you know, back when it was just the two of them. back before the third wheeling). we no longer even see will.

there are also two minor inconsistencies that have been noticed. will scolds el for lying to mike, knowing it'll make him mad. yet, he decides it's fine to lie to mike later himself. he does it for selfless reasons and out of love, but in the end of the day it's lying - mike doesn't like that.

then we have the 'we'll fix it together' line, but we only see el fixing it alone. what stopped him from walking into that room himself to comfort her? or even at least help fix it? why didn't the writers have them fix it together if they truly have this loving sibling relationship where nothing is wrong between them? to further proof there is this weird tension on his side, they show us will looking upset when mike decides to get up to give el her breakfast and talk to her about what happened.

yeah. jealousy is a bitch isn't it? it isn't cute and pretty the way the fandom paints it out to be. it's hurting will and it's straining his relationship with el. he's acting in ways that holds him back to show up for el. it's realistic. imagine being in love with your friend for years and to lose him to somebody he knew in one week, and now that same person becomes your sister? this isn't even considering the context of everything else. that's FUCKED up. i UNDERSTAND why will feels all these things, we all do.

and this makes his hug to el in the end hit even harder. this takes place after he gives up the painting, wanting both for his best friend and his sister to just be happy. he finally understands he can't have what just isn't his. that hug almost feels like an unsaid apology that's really mostly for will's peace of mind. he knows the feelings of resentment he's been harboring of her.

despite will hugging el and beginning to overcome this journey of jealousy, this isn't gonna stop vecna from torturing will with it next season and using against him, or maybe to tempt him??? (but we all know he won't ever do something evil. despite all this, he's still a great boy at heart.)

but anyway. this proves will is more than this fanon image of him that's this sweet soft boy that loves everyone and has never had negative thoughts about people other than himself. this selfless character is being tested. he is battling with feelings of jealousy, which is an inherently selfish feeling. this put him in a very uncomfortable position because he knows it's wrong. he knows he shouldn't be feeling this way, but the fact is he does.

it's much similar to mike, who is meant to be this character that preaches honesty and loyalty and is hurt when lied to, but turns out has been lying all along and it's killing him inside to keep it up. he ends up acting in ways that hurt him and hurt others.

will has flaws as much as the other characters do, his flaws being the resentment he's facing, his avoidance of conflict and struggling to stand up for others and himself. and no. don't worry. it doesn't make him a terrible person. it's what makes him interesting. we're gonna watch him overcome all these next season

[fins0up]

GRAAAHHHH I HAVE TO TALK ABOUT THE MINECRAFT MOVIE I HAVE TO I HAVE TO!!!

(Small disclaimer: I don't blame any of the underpaid and overworked writers & animators. They deserved better than this slop, I'm sure of it.

like the general public, I too despise the trailer. Let me just start with the trailer itself.

1.) Love how you can tell where the fucking green screen is. /sarc. Also the line "This guy is such a toolbag" they give her feels not only millennial, but fucking stupid jesus christ. You could've made a block joke there like. "...This guy is such a blockhead." "Yeah everything's made of blocks here." Or something AT LEAST TRYYY GUYYYSSS...

2.) The artstyle I know everyone talks about it but the FUCKING ARTSTYLE OH MY GOOODDDD IM DYING why has literally no one talked about the wolf though LIKE???

why is the wolf's body literally discord shaped. Why is Built like That. What the fact did they do to you??? Like, I just... I hate the combination of the realism and the blocks like??? JUST MAKE IT FULLY BLOVKY???? WHAT THE FUCK IS THIIIISSSSS GOD it's so fucking uncanny I hate it. I hate it so.

3.) Love the whitewashed Steve /sarc. Fr though, are we surprised? I hate that Jack Black of all people is playing him like guys that was a joke people was making. Are y'all able to understand jokes? Or understand what a pos Jack Black is? Jesus fuck gamers he's not only ableist (supports Autism Speaks) but a zionist as well. But besides that Steve feels like. Hold on.

Look at Steve. If he actually existed in the real world, I have a feeling he would be muscular (because he mines, builds, + farms like all day), and probably somewhere around his 20's-30's. You're telling me that Jack Black, an actor + musician who's in his 50's. Like, this isn't to say that Steve wouldn't have some tummy fat at all, he probably would! But like... Jack Black just doesn't... feel like Steve at all. Jack Black is like the exact opposite.

There's just like this... massive, icky vibe about the entire trailer that makes me hate it. I think it's a mixture of the live action "isekai" shit with the like... blocky textures that makes everything uncanny and gross to look at. And it feels like rather than taking the concept and saying "Hey, since the experience is so varied, let's take multiple characters and storylines and take proper care of each to tell a different story of the same game" (like Fallout the Show) they're just like, "Eh... I mean... I'm sure the Isekai trope will work again."

Not only that, but like over all it feels like rather than looking and seeing this game and being able to "laugh with" Minecraft fans (side note: I wouldn't mind Minecraft being comedic, admittedly, a block world is a fucking ridiculous concept. But, I'd still say keep the same sentiment that the game has which is, "You can build your own version of the world from the ground up, you are the master of your destiny") they're looking at it like that one mom from that AITA post and saying, "This is ridiculous and childish. Why do you like this? It's stupid. It's just some game about blocks."

I'm not gonna sit here and pretend that fans can't be picky about videogame movies/tv shows at all. Because I enjoyed the Mario movie, despite some fans hatred of it. I can't ignore the fact that videogame movies tend to be 50/50 on how fans will react to them. But still, really? This is what you guys have to show after 10 years? This is what we get? It feels like a punch in the gut, dude. I hate so much. I can't stop thinking about it.

[angrybatart]

PERSONAL SPACE, PLEASE.

Quick rant doodle based on a REALLY annoying experience today while clearing the darkness in Golden Wasteland.

[rnaeborowski]

ugh i have so many thoughts rn

[monstersinthecosmos]

i feel like slightly younger than marius mael is the best just for flavor reasons lol. reeaally curious to know what you think

I think I usually land on slightly younger but not like a baby. Like early 30s maybe. BUT I'LL TELL YOU SOME THOUGHTS OF WHY I LIKE EACH OR WHY EACH COULD WORK:

Under 30: First of all because of Jesse's chapter in QOTD--Maharet was turned around age 20 I think? And for Jesse, I'm sure there's that sort of uncanny thing where your mind fills in blanks and makes excuses, like, her "aunt" has been around her whole life so like gee golly I guess she just looks young for her age! Except that there's like the vampire uncanniness too, so whatever you judge as an age doesn't super matter. So like, Mael blending in as one of her guy friends in his early 20s would make sense. Jesse DOES also clock him as not being human, so again I think the uncanniness might not make her peg either of them as a certain age.

I do worry if this clashes with the idea that he could properly be a priest? Caesar said that it takes 20 years to train a priest, but A) A lot of what Caesar said is like anti-Keltoi propaganda and might not be accurate since the Druids famously never left anything in writing, so there's very little first hand information about them. B) MAYBE IT'S OKAY BECUASE IN VC-VERSE TESKHAMEN IS REAL AND MAEL WAS REALLY COMMUNING WITH HIM SO IF THERE WAS LIKE MAGIC AFOOT IN THE COMMUNITY MAYBE HE GOT FAST TRACKED OR RESPECTED AS BEING SPECIAL IDK. I can work with it and make excuses lol.

I LOVE the idea of him being like a young man because of how much madder that would make Marius, plus the way he likes to mentor young blonde men lol. But it might like hurt him even worse if the author of all his misfortunate is like SOME KID.

In his 30s: Personally I usually land here because I DO wonder how long it takes him to gain status in his community and become a priest (in his 30s is still fast tracking it but maybe feels more plausible LOL) and I enjoy the idea of he and Marius being sort of similar to each other. Like, Marius often gets used as the example of Turning an Older Guy and what it means for his temperament and the way it translates to his immortality. I like imagining Mael as around Marius's age for that reason, like I want to remove all his excuses why Mael is a young stupid kid or even an old salty jerk--it forces Marius to confront that Mael is ALSO someone who is chill and smart and has had enough life experience. BUT WHILE THERE'S A WINDOW WHERE THEY COULD BE SIMILAR IN AGE, OR MAEL COULD BE A TAD OLDER, I ALSO STILL ENJOY MARIUS BEING LIKE "HE'S YOUNGER THAN ME I HATE THIS!" BECAUSE HIS AGE AND SELF-PERCEIVED WISDOM & EXPERIENCE ARE IMPORTANT TO HIS IDENTITY AND HE FEELS BELITTED LOL.

In his 40s: Makes sense for the above reason! But I like to skew younger personally just for the Marius ageism dynamic lol. Also there's something about him being a foil to Marius where like, if they're very similar in other ways it can kind of emphasize how their atheism/religion contrasts each other and affects them as people.

Over 50: ALSO POSSIBLE and it's hilarious bc in the audiobook the narrator reads him like such a grouchy old man lmao. I could see this causing a lot of resentment because Marius likes to be the oldest and wisest in the room. I could see him also being younger because Marius insults him every chance he gets and I just think he would've told us that Mael is like an old hag if it were true lol. Anyway wondering how this effects Marius's barbarian kink and how he submits to men.

[afriendofmara]

Happy one year anniversary to my ex-best friend who got married 5 minutes away from my home and didn't invite me. I thought we were still chill and good enough for wedding invites but, I guess not. Still hurts, hope y'all are happy tho.

[cosmic-ships]

lol I get really really annoyed by the fucking K.y.lo fans because a lot of the time it would be a different movie (Like 65 for example) and they would be "Oh it's just ben solo! He didn't die!" or "this is kylocoded etc" They do shit like that with Jude, Mills, Phillip, and Charlie (probably AD other characters too) and can you just fucking not? NONE OF THEM ARE THE SAME PERSONALITY WISE, like NONE of them!!!!

Just because it's the same actor it isn't the same fucking character, they're all very very different characters and it just makes me sad and irritated if I'm being honest..

[soonhoonsol]

you guys ever get tired of friends who only talk about themselves? how do you respectfully tell them off?

[kirkwallguy]

though i think with newer games the slimming down of rpg (playing a character) and rpg (fiddling with stats) mechanics kind of happens simultaneously... so even though idrk about choosing attributes if i see there arent any it's like hmmm not sure how good the other aspects of the rp are going to be here

[feynavaley]

My life is a comedy.

I'm on a business trip with my superior, so I've been spending a lot of time with her even outside of work hours. Today, during a casual conversation, I let slip that I have a huge crush on that other coworker I've written about in the past.

To be perfectly honest, I thought everyone knew by now. The women, at least. I've been doing my best to be subtle, of course, but I've been on the other side as well and I know -- hiding something like this is impossible. Even if you don't do anything in particular to make it obvious, there's the way your eyes literally shine when you look at that person, the adoring expression, how you blush and/or stutter when you interact... Every person is different in how they react to this, of course, but from the outside, you can tell when there's such a strong interest.

...except apparently, I've been doing a much better job at hiding my feelings that I thought for my superior was flabbergasted.

Her first reaction was a gasp, followed by, "You're jocking, right? You must be jocking!"

Feeling rather foolish at that point, but thinking I was too far in to back down, I assured her that no, unfortunately, I wasn't jocking. Nevertheless, I'm definitely able to keep up a professional relationship and pretend my feelings don't exist.

Turns out that wasn't what my superior was concerned about. Apparently, what everyone has been noticing and commenting about behind my back is that he is completely smitten with me. He has never explicitly denied when confronted about it, either, just veered the conversation to a different topic. Which -- is not a denial.

Not to mention, it would be completely understandable if he didn't want to make a move without knowing how I felt about it -- after all, I'm much younger than he is and he's also technically one of my superiors, even though I'm not directly under him. Being the sensible person he is, he is aware the situation would be quite uncomfortable for me if I didn't reciprocate his interest.

...but I do. And I can't believe this is happening, but it is. I don't know if this will turn into anything concrete, still... Wow. Moreover, my superior is absolutely thrilled about this and she said that as soon as we're back, she'll make sure he somehow gets the input he can make a move.

[triglycercule]

i want to headcanon the mtt having absolutely terrible hygiene and struggling to keep themselves clean (this MAY... just QUITE POSSIBLY.... only in the SLIGHTEST bit be projection) but i think it would be too gross and man EVEN I dont wanna think about that

also killer canonically smells good and i actually really LIKE that idea so oh shit there goes that idea out the window. horror and dust youre my only hope please let me make you smell bad for reasons you won't understand

[boynextdoorcoverpoison]

I’m just so… I don’t want jaehyun to eventually alter the way he acts or presents himself due to backlash from fans (in and out of the bonedo fandom) regarding his “loudness” and energy. it doesn’t cause harm to him or his band members. he’s relatively good at reading the room and adjusting his seriousness (like sometimes I think people think they chose the bonedo leader willy nilly lmao) and he’s not oblivious or unaware of his bandmates and others. like anyone else, I’m sure there’s moments when he might need help refocusing or w/e, but I have yet to see anyone who is warranted to have an opinion (ie: knows him irl) react negatively to his personality? like he’s not the first idol to be talkative. he’s not the first idol that might run around a bit. he’s not the first idol to make a lot of jokes or flirt with half his bandmates. it’s not a new personality. it’s a little different than what we see in other leaders but again, it’s not “new”. loud people were not invented in 2003. and over time, maybe he’ll mellow out a bit. it happens. or maybe he’ll remain as he is, that’s cool too. and as a leader, I kind of hope for the latter bc the industry will work them and burn them out and I hope they’re able to maintain their youth and softness towards the world. that not everything is a battle or a fight, that the job while a job, can be one they continue to enjoy to do.

[matchaflavored]

re: your last post, so real man... honestly the least they could do is censor the ship name if they're going to be really vocal about their dislike for it. also seeing someone call treyrid... too mother-son coded to ship? help girl

Oof, yeah. I think people can dislike whatever they want, whatever their personal relationship is with how they interpret and consume media is beyond my control (WITHIN REASON...!!!). Which is also why I'm like sure you can express that dislike... that is human... but at least be considerate about it haha.

A lot of what people dislike about ♣️🌹comes down to personal taste or straight up projection because that is an insane thing to claim lol. 'Coded' lost all its meaning to a lot of people who really mean 'this is what I want their relationship to be'. In general I don't like to box relationships into certain labels (mother-son... really man...) because I feel like it can be pretty restrictive to how you approach nuance like how do you look at Trey and Riddle and go oh their relationship is the epitome of nuclear family dynamics, actually.