#sorry im so depressed lately

[gladosluver]

how to live a less strange and eventful life no glue no borax

my life is so boring excluding the bi-weekly brushes with death and the random shit that im always somehow dragged into. i hope i never experience another event or situation ever again

i will admit that some of my worst flaws are being too brutally honest, apathetic, and violent. UGH i dont really care for my emotions and always chose logic over them but the MOMENT you put someone who loves me on the line and i will BEAT A BITCH'S ASS SO HARD. PULL THE PLUG ON EM DIE BRU DIE /ref. i am very short-tempered and get fed up with people quickly as well.. i really need to work on that but damn. its hard to be patient when you're constantly surrounded by people with -17 IQ.......

also i was i was joking about the mbti. ive taken this test several times over the past few years. fuck my stupid intj life

[aether-weather]

SAGESUNE MIKU >:DDD

[surreal-duck]

nui shenanigans

[angelpuns]

Just saved a note to myself in my drafts so here's ANOTHER note to myself:

JAMIE YOUR DRAFTS!! YOUR DRAFTS JAMIE!!

[definitelynotshouting]

In the least possibly pressury way, as in feel free to ignore this if it isn’t something you want to do, this is just purely bc i reread the hunger au and am hungering for more - do you have any updates on how the next chapter is going?

Also (this is the same anon who asked how Impulse confronted Grian a little while ago btw in case ur seeing a slightly pattern) would you feel like expanding on how the other hermits or non hermit lifers felt when they found out Grian made the life games? Or how they feel about the state he’s ended up in? (tho i completely get that that is probably a thing ur going to explore anyway im just having thoughts)

Anyway this is such a good au, ur writings fantastic and im loving what ur doing. As a writer myself I may be taking some notes on how u r writing these characters because the way you make us feel exactly what they r feeling is incredible!

I wish i could give more updates on hunger au's progress but to be completely honest with you anon, my irl life kinda uh 😅😅 just completely imploded right as i was getting back into the groove of things. I am making progress still, but its slower than i'd like-- by necessity ive had to emergency pivot my attention to more pressing matters going on rn 😭😭😭😭 trust me when i say its probably frustrating me more than anyone else at this point

I appreciate the compliments a lot tho!!! All of yalls encouraging words mean the world to me and make getting through these difficult situations a little bit easier❤️❤️❤️ i wish i could say more about how the hermits reacted, but thats actually MAJOR spoilers that im very excited to show you guys in-fic, so for now all i can really say is that you'll have to see :]]

[thebirdandhersong]

Lol

[seealandraw]

[crazylittlejester]

I love to sometimes be like "haha, it's Jes bullying Wars again!" but I am absolutely not innocent in that regard

Even though my angst is set on torturing Artemis, Fable, Sky, and Sun, as well as Wars, MY GOD WARRIORS DIES IN SO MANY OF THESE SCENARIOS! I MADE UP A WHOLE SCENE IN MY HEAD OF ARTEMIS BASICALLY GOING

(Tbf, the scenario usually has a redub of the What Am I Fighting For scene, usually the Lucas Gilbertson version because it's longer. I do actually perfer Johnny Yong Bosch's version of the line but he didn't dub the whole scene)

i've never met a single Wars fan or person who writes about him that let him be completely happy, every single one of us has beat him up AT MINIMUM once or twice (and some of us are me and have 45 fics tagged with "Warriors (Linked Universe) Has a Bad Time" akjhdlkdj)

[agoraphobia-anxiety]

I hate it when people push you to communicate until you trust them enough to, then switch up and make you feel ashamed for telling them what’s wrong.

[ninkaku]

they didn’t need to go this hard in the stage play i fear like the director said “take five” and these two heard “ruin lives”

“you big into exploring the effect that oda’s limitless friendship had on dazai and how it shaped him as a person?”

[thedrotter]

not-yet-dead-person

silly comic of a conversation in-game i thought was too funny not to make something proper for instead of a doodle ww

(timelapse + wip images (thus silly process commentary in read more if you like artist commentary :3)

i think the sketch looks silly and goofy and funny so i find it important to share with you the mere presence of the faces i drew on it. i drew it on top of the boxes without staying inside its borders because i find my proportions can get wonky if i draw them cropped in a restricted space. and I feel trapped otherwise and i will draw BAD!!! give me spaceeeee to go wild!!!!

the head circles are there for emotional support

very low res speedpaint because truth is the canvas was much bigger than the space where my comic was placed. i didnt account when exporting my timelapse in 720px that that tiny space would look so pixelated ... but it's able to be percieved, so its okay.

(i will now comment on my process and it is not brief sorry)

usually i would try to clean up my sketches and figure out what goes on top before jumping into linework, but since there are multiple panels and drawings i chose to jump into inking right away for the sake of brevity. i just went in with a brush that uses pen pressure and drew what was needed. i added extra line thickness and contrast in areas around the face because it helps direct your eyes there more easily that way.

according to her equipment rei has a chain belt but i only remembered it existed once I was going to color, and i did not like that discovery... I chose to ignore it to maintain my peace. i already have the color palettes for these characters figured out, and i didnt really want to think about a new element at the moment www I tend to overthink those things a lot so i skipped it

the rest is rather straightforward! not that anything else wasn't, but in here i could turn my brain off and sing. linework and sketching require mumbling so i cannot turn my brain off. just block in the characters with a solid color so i can have a mask (something along those lines,) where the color can stay inside. then just color in !!!

Base colors just had slight cell shading on the skin, and for the hair i airbrush a bit of the skincolor in low opacity near the forehead... I'm not sure what it means, but i can look at the faces easier with it somehow. i like the gentle subtlety it adds even if you cant really tell. it makes things look nice.

background was just me blocking in the color of the wall and floor, shade the wall a bit, then slap a noise and free use wood texture on top. work smarter not harder ! yet it took a bit to make it look stylistically fitting with the characters, and even now i think bottom middle panel looks odd. whatever!!!

for the middle panel i thought itd be funny if the background was a solid silly and colorful one to contrast the next panel's sketchy black one. a contrast to how the word widow is seen. on that note my handwritting is not pointy. i gaslighted my hand into thinking that it was indeed pointy in that moment so i could write "not-yet dead person" in letters that didn't seem cute. my hand did not fall for it but it complied anyway

that's basically it! I'm not sure what else i could say that doesn't feel barebones because it really is that straightforward. if you're curious I used clip studio paint for this. only special brush used was for linework (a brush named Lemon Brush), the rest used were just the default. my computer gets the least credit. it was trying to convince me a 20mb file was going to nuke it all the time and hardly let me save multiple times so i do not appreciate it

[musingsofthebrokenhearted]

my absence would create no voids, leave no silences, break no hearts, evoke no screams, and bring no tears. the world will be left a little brighter.

[br1ghtestlight]

how long do u have to be depressed for before your doctor will up your medication dosage 🤔🤔⁉️

[soap-ify]

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[caffeinatedopossum]

I was born to sleep under the stars and sing by the fire with my loved ones and admire fireflies and breathe in deep the scent of ozone during a rain but instead I can't even leave my house and fireflies are going extinct and rain doesn't smell good anymore and you can't see the stars and it's too hot for fires

[datapacks]

alright, im going to try to get some work done finally