#this is not a vent btw

[autisticenbydonnie]

[TW blood and self mutilation]

yall ever just wanna-?

[wingedarchivist]

I am angelic

I crave to watch people, to help others, but to be unperceptible, just to aquire and amass knowledge and use it for others. I was meant to be to be mysterious and unfamiliar, unknown but comforting. I have a strong sense of justice, but my moral code is not shared by many humans. I want to be kind, but my kindness is alien to them. I should not be percieved, for my unnatural self soon is exposed any time it happens

I am Lawful Neutral because I am equal selfish and selfless, my code is unyielding. Everything has to be according to the divine plan.

I am robotic

I am governed by programs, algorythms. For daily life, for conversations, for existing. I am unnatural and weird. I am literal and logical. I don't comprehend tone, only plain words. I need clear instructions in order, or else my whole program breaks down. I am Lawful Neutral because I care not for selfishness or selflessness, just for everything to be how it is supposed to be, for everything to be according to algorythms.

They are intertwined at its core, as in me being a robot is deeply engrained in being an angel. Both are slaves to something greater than them, both cannot function 'properly' in human society.

They complement each other, I would not be the same angel without being a robot and I would not be the same robot without being an angel

[meitoscringe]

yes I'm trilingual 😎 (I can't speak any of the languages I know)

[honkifex]

EDGEF1SH TIME LETS GOOOO

little bit of story behind this, i was experimenting w music making and accidentally made a 15 second cover of #8 regret that made me picture strong emotion so i drew it :thumb up:

[emotional-moss]

every now and then i realize i genuinely don’t have a personality of my own. its not necessarily a bad thing because im around people most of the time so i just absorb and mirror their personalities, and when im not around people im watching videos with people in them or thinking about characters etc etc etc. but it’s disconcerting to realize cause i watched like a 3 hour play through of class of 09 while doing my homework yesterday and then had a conversation with my mom and realized i was speaking and talking and thinking like Nicole? and i was like damn i don’t wanna be like Nicole! but yea it’s weird, bpd is weird

[jamiesgotchu]

HI JAMIE so i just wanna ask a queshun... i am NOT trying to pressure you, you do not owe us anything, bht i was just curious about the jason and skunk asks thing, im wondering if youre still doing it

if you dont wanna answer thats totally ok but im just rlly curious, okay bye ❤️

hi anon!

I DO plan to do this in the future!!

Unfortunately, right after posting the intro, a big wave of depression I had been avoiding hit me all at once. I couldn't find the motivation to draw anything at all, and I couldn't bring myself to do it☹️ I figured I'd put it on hold to take some pressure off for the time being, until things got better.

Thank you for asking!! Honestly I'm genuinely super happy people like to see my content, especially skunk and jason!! And I'm super honored that people are participating!

I received a lot of asks, and don't worry, i haven't forgotten! Once things smooth out, I'll be right back to your regularly scheduled QnA!

[laulo821]

it's so interesting that now, when i live through trauma, i can sense my brain just pushing those memory slip away, out of my skull by reflex. it can be retroactive (which is pretty tiring) but i can also be living the moment and i just feel i won't remember this after tomorrow afternoon. because my brain knows whatever is happening is malevolent for my integrity and won't retain it

[chlbita]

late night thoughts idk why 

but i feel like i have no idea what people think of me on here, or on twitter

i dont really post like TOO much about myself and even if i kinda do i always limit myself from actually being like...argh idk how to explain it 

i just wonder if people think i’m weird in a bad way for my fan art, i feel like i have to put a disclaimer on everything i upload cuz idk what ppl will think X_X 

[cassyapper]

im beginning to feel like a trapped anxious animal which is what happens when i spend the weekend in my dorm and dont go anywhere and well anyway i feel like im gonna start scratching the walls and crying

[peaceandlove26]

everything is funny & i love being alive

[azoosepted]

Hi guys who wants to see me punch my negative self worth in the face

[lucindaspartnerrealandtrue]

I have a. Weird situation with my relationship status with someone ever since i started this school year. I don't know if we're divorced or not.

[prettieinpink]

I AHGE eating junk food but lols don’t care it’s so tasty in the moment but then post eating it I feel so sick

[femmepire-butchbiter]

I'm starting to understand why many lesbians, but ESPECIALLY black lesbians are just straight up mean. If I have to hear another gaggle of people try to redefine stud/stem again, somebody is catching a femme-coded fist to their solar plexus. Like, tighten tf up.

[temeyes]

brotherly embrace

[whats-this-mustelid]

This is BARELY related to this blog but I just saw a post in a local fb group from someone who hired a pet setter, and while they were out of the country she intentionally let their indoor cat out, didn't tell them when it went missing, and then when they found out and confronted her she argued that keeping their cat indoors was cruel. I am filled with homicidal rage.

The cat was last seen three days ago please send good vibes

Edit: the cat is home safe, and back indoors!