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scrapped john dory and branch
#soup scraps#dreamworks trolls#trolls#trolls branch#trolls john dory#this was made alongside 'john dory and branch' piece#got a little embarrassed and backed out eheh#it's messier than usual but i still hope yall like it :)#btw jd is holding bitty b’s glasses inside his vest#Branch is definitely taller than jd.#he just exudes shorty energy sometimes#both of em do tbh#so maybe... pretend this is an au where branch is younger? maybe jd came back to a gray branch pre trolls movie#he'd be more angry than sad though imo#tried a slightly different style#they've got them bishonen eyes lol#sorry i haven't been able to work on any new pieces this week#hopefully it'll be different next week :)#excuse the messiness#trolls fanart#my art <3
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in your most recent tyson post, you said something about leo being distinctly autistic-coded and I was wondering if you could elaborate on that? it sounds really interesting (sorry if you've already posted something on this, I couldn't find anything though)
Of course! I do have a specific tag for talking about Leo's autistic-coding/traits - [here], and [one for Nico as well].
The main aspects with Leo being autistic-coded actually have a lot to do with Nico being autistic-coded, because it's the comparisons between the two that most clearly indicate Leo is autistic-coded rather than it just being his ADHD or etc.
So with Nico being autistic-coded, it's very clear in the Titan's Curse that he's intended to be autistic. First, the first series has a repeating pattern of secondary characters being very distinctly neurodivergent-coded in different ways (Annabeth's adhd/dyslexia, Tyson's down syndrome-coding, Nico's autism-coding). With Nico's introduction, he's pretty stereotypically autistic and we're given a lot of descriptors about him that are notably not attributed to him being ADHD, like it would be for other demigod characters. He doesn't register social cues such as people getting annoyed at him, he's asking/making inappropriate or impolite questions/comments, he gets particularly upset about change (such as Bianca joining the Hunt) and generally gets emotional, and one of his most notable traits he's introduced with is the fact that he has a special interest (MythoMagic) - and we're shown that this special interest particularly colors how Nico navigates the world. While ADHD has hyperfixations, we don't really get much acknowledgement of hyperfixations with demigods usually - Annabeth gets a little, but most others don't and it's not nearly as focused-in on as Nico's is.
Then as the series continues we see these traits stick with him and him start to show or voice more traits that similarly indicate he's autistic: He regularly mentions how he doesn't understand living people and prefers the company of the dead (social issues). He has more notable stims than other demigods (twisting his ring, fiddling with bones, etc). He's indicated to have strong sensory preferences (usually wearing mostly black/aversion to bright colors, usually wearing layers/his coat, multiple times he's described as wearing loose/baggy clothing or clothes too big for him). He has specific comfort items (his ring, likely his jacket(s) as well). We later get even more information about his special interests (Mythomagic/mythology/history and an older interest in pirates - the latter he specifically notes likely heavily influenced his feelings towards Percy). He struggles with emotions and facial expressions and tone. He struggles particularly with ostracism and feeling like he doesn't fit in and has something distinctly different about him from the people around him (who notably, all have ADHD, which indicates it isn't the ADHD that's making him feel that way), and other characters regularly describe him as being off-putting because of his strange behaviors - again, different from specific ADHD traits they recognize. And that last point is kind of notable because we have Hazel and Bianca for comparison - we know people are off-put by both Nico and Hazel because of being children of Hades/Pluto and their powers/aura, but other characters get past that general feeling of discomfort way faster with Hazel. And even after characters get past the death stuff with Nico, there's a second thing that they aren't moving past that isn't a factor with Hazel (Nico's autism).
So that brings us to Leo - Leo is paralleled to Nico a lot. And there's some very specific traits about him that we know are autistic-coding because of how they're used with Nico: He similarly struggles with social cues/etc, and in a very similar parallel to Nico describes how he prefers the company of machines to people because machines make more sense to him. He has similar types of clothing/sensory preferences (again some stuff with layers but also - pockets! He likes having pockets and things to put stuff in! He's even introduced as having a jacket with lots of pockets), and he has a distinct special interest (machinery) that we specifically know heavily influences how he views and navigates the world (constantly comparing things to machinery, describing things with machinery metaphors/terminology, etc etc). He even describes his entire general worldview to Hazel and it's a machine metaphor. He also similarly struggles with ostracization like Nico does, the only difference being that Leo specifically puts on a persona to compensate for areas he knows he's lacking in and very explicitly describes it as a means to make people like him, because without it he normally struggles to fit in (He's masking!). We also see notes of characters describing that similar discomfort with Leo's behaviors that they do with Nico, except without the aura of death this time. And when we're in Leo's POVs we see a very stark difference between his masking and his actual personality/behaviors such as his internal dialogues or how he behaves when he's alone. Also, like Nico, he stims more than other demigods, though for Leo it's more attributed to his ADHD. Leo also, more often than most, similarly struggles with tone and reading the room, such as making misplaced jokes/comments or etc.
But yeah! It's really interesting. Also it's just a fun thing that ADHD/dyslexia and autism have comorbidity, so it makes sense that we see demigods who are also autistic. It's also really fun to look at how other characters are coded in the series, what coding looks like in the riordanverse specifically (usually it's tied into the mythological stuff - like Chiron being in a wheelchair but he's actually a centaur, Grover being introduced as having a muscular disease but he's actually a satyr, demigods having adhd/dyslexia, Tyson being coded as having down syndrome but he's a cyclops, etc etc - it's a lot of specific metaphor stuff that I've talked about a bit before), and to look at how characters are compared to one another.
#pjo#riordanverse#leo valdez#nico di angelo#autistic nico#autistic leo#autism#analysis#Anonymous#ask#long post //#woof sorry that got long#im very passionate about this topic#re: characters being paralleled#Ms. ''Constantly Neutral - No Emotions'' Reyna looking at Nico stimming in the exact same way she does (twisting ring)#and internally going ''We have a lot in common. I don't know how I feel about that.'' is one of my favorites.#like. reyna. ma'am. you might be autistic. good luck with that.#with the pattern of coding in the first series i do suspect Rachel has some coding as well but i haven't been able to pinpoint what it is#I think it may be the whole seer thing and the fact that she could see the future#even before becoming the oracle/despite being a mortal rather than a demigod (who just get rare prophetic dreams normally)#and in BoTL her entire thing is that she's able to see things that no one else can and that's how they navigate the maze#particularly also with how the labyrinth is treated/how it affects people within it (see: Chris)#and how the only other seer in the first series - May - is characterized and her coding compared to Rachel's#also something something the seer traits become more prominent once Rachel meets Percy#something something metaphor about only being able to recognize neurodivergency traits once you're familiar with them#so Rachel meets Percy = introduction to the community > Rachel recognizes her own traits/symptoms > gets a support system (oracle)
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YO-TOBER DAY 10....A DAY LATE: PISTACHIONYAN
....Plus a little message!
(The Rongo Swirll was an idea from a friend aidjoekf)
But anyways, just gonna say that as much as I wanna, I'm not gonna have time to do it every day as I'm sure you've noticed (* ´ ▽ ` *)ノ thank you for your understanding!!
Under cut there'll be the usual alt as well as a small doodle dump!! ^u^
Alt + sketches for my favorite day of yo-tober so far 💔 I love the Tough Tribe!!!
Heres this little shading practice I'm kinda proud of! I had fun drawing the eye :)
A LOT of squid stuff.....and I still have more. I'll post them on SpaceHey tho!! (@squ1dcurry btw -u-) one of those is a goofy different outfit inspired by the puni puni event fit + his original!
And timidevil!!! He's a cutie pie ^u^
anyways, I'll be off for now!
#I know it doesn't matter that much but I was really hoping I'd be able to do this one#I just feel kinda guilty bout it i suppose. plus i haven't been having time to/even if I do kinda ignoring my messages#Ghhhghthghjgf sorry for the random vent here basically! It's been a bit more of a struggle than usual w depression but I'll push through +□#if I don't really interact with other's posts for a while#I've been staying off social media except when I post stuff!#If you want me to see something in particular it's best to tag me wahaha#Anyways enough yapping ahdioeof see you next time!!#●posts from yomakai#□ yolo watch 2!#yokai watch#Yo-tober#Yotober#pistachionyan
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I'm so normal about Him
#Trigun#Trigun Stampede#vash the stampede#hand farts#this took me 3 goddamn hours and made my chronic arm pain so much worse but I HAD TO I LOVE HIM!!#I literally haven't been able to hold a pen for more than 5-10min w/o significant pain for like... 5+ years now. I can't draw anymore reall#this is the first full drawing I've done in well over a year at least#but I've had this picture in my head for weeks and finally had to get it out!! shitty arms be damned!!#sorry for the inaccuracies for his prosthetic arm and bracelet thing. i simply couldn't handle adding more details if I wanted to finish it#all of the hearts are freehanded btw! i just like doing space fillers#this has been a post#i couldn't figure out how to do his crossed fingers in this simpler style either so feel free to stone me or w/e#tristamp
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I started on a little lake today hehe
#then i got too exhausted lol – i haven't been able to do much on my island because irl stress#im free much more in june now though so i look forward to working on my island!#also sorry for being so slow on replying on asks<3#mine
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hi hello gals and gays. Here is a rare wav from me struggling with the flu. The virus has mainly been in my chest but my entire body is so wrecked I was able to induce super easily. No talking bc I’m literally unable to 😭 Do not listen if you can't stand harsh coughing because it gets a bit rough. If it sounds a bit weird the first half of the recording is from yesterday and the second half is from today, bc the coughing is so much worse in the second half lmao. Ok that's it thankkk you for feeding me so good lately tumblr love u all <3
also personal rant about ableism and intentional contagion in the comments :///
#ok like I haven't been this sick in literal years and cuz im disabled i'm super mindful of spreading germs to others.#and i've had some family staying with me so I was like great leave me here to rot in my cave guys#my partner has been rlly attentive and is like i don't care about germs tehe so yesterday he comes into my room#and gives me a bunch of kisses on my head then swoops in and kisses me ON THE MOUTH#like im sorry i've been lying in a pool of feverish sweat for days and can hardly breathe what part of that makes someone go ooo gimme?#like ya hes just trying to love me but i put so much effort into being clean and now i will feel really guilty when he gets sick#sorry not sorry intentional contagion is not cute or sexy at all its just irresponsible#like i would love to live the life where my body works so well that I don't give a second thought to KISSING someone with the flu#i just feel like able bodied people never think about what its like living with a disability or a chronic illness#or have the slightest inclination of how privileged they are#my partner isn't even a fetishit he is just a dumbass#but ya i just wish he and the general population would think more :/#snzblr#snz#illness kink#snzfucker#snz wav#snzzzzz#snz blog#anyway thats all do what u want with my horn post
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HI GOOD MORNING EVERYONE!! Happy Monday!! I hope the weekend treated you all well and let's make the most of this week!!
#nina rambles~✦#by the time you're reading this i've been at work since 5:45am#so like a bit over 3 hours ago#SIGH#my writers block is being cured from ace smut#aims and i were talking and she mentioned riding a character and idk#something snapped#so im writing ace#hehe#i do hope to be more active this week#but work has me in a chokehold and I haven't been able to do much lately I'm so sorry yall
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Chapters: 2/2 Fandom: Dead by Daylight (Video Game), Dead by Daylight: Hooked on You (Visual Novel) Rating: Teen And Up Audiences Warnings: No Archive Warnings Apply Relationships: Asakawa Yoichi/Ji-Woon Hak | The Trickster Characters: Asakawa Yoichi, Ji-Woon Hak | The Trickster Additional Tags: in-universe, In the Fog, Entity's realm, Out of Trial, Event: Winter Solstice | Bone Chill (Dead by Daylight) 2022 Summary:
When the two people in the Entity's realm are left to brave the elements with just shorts, how will they choose to warm up? It might not be as easy as you think sitting by the campfire.
A festive Trickster gives in and moves closer to the campfire where he meets a semi-festive Yoichi alone. This is where a test of resolve is given. The brilliant Marine Biologist is left baffled, flustered, and mildly annoyed at the K-pop Idol's antics... and just a bit charmed. The two may just inevitably end up closer than expected.
================================================ Penned with @askyoichiasakawa An upload of an RP that took place. It’s one of our favorites so we decided to share for those who are into this rare-pair.
Callback to this post:
https://www.tumblr.com/idol-trickster/705104732838117376/no-context-the-man-who-makes-kimchi-fried-rice?source=share
#Fanfiction#Yoichi Asakawa#Trickster#Ji-Woon Hak#Dead By Daylight#DBD#Ji-Chi#Yoijiun#starfish#hakakawa#||#Old as heck#But finally got around to uploading it#Merry Christmas in June/July#💜✨ Hope you guys are doing well out there#It's been a couple years now#I still think fondly on all of you and I'm so sorry I haven't been able to be on blog any more#Life sure gets busy 😭#But hopefully this writing can be enjoyed by you guys 💜
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Some quick thoughts on the current news letter!
According to Toby, chapters 3 and 4 combined are longer than chapters 1 and 2, which is ABSOLUTELY insane like we are getting SO MUCH in the future. And console ports... no wonder this is taking as long as it is!
(For good reason! Game design from what I've seen is a long process...)
Also! I'm very interested in the new game maker changes to the chapters, Toby said to keep an eye on the official twitter account for updates on that, I think i might have to replay the first two chapters just to see how it works. (I hope my laptop can run the new versions at least...)
There's some unique stuff happening and honestly even if we still have to wait I glad things are getting closer for the next chapters!
That's all I wanted to say. I leave you all with the cute and fun sprites from this newsletter!
#deltarune#utdr newsletter#rambles#sorry theres not much for me to say rn.#as much as we all want more chapters. im honestly glad we keep getting updates on the chapters by toby being transparent enough#while still being able to focus on making the game!#i am slightly relieved that the chapters probably wont release this year#i want to still draw the undertale 9th anni drawing and also do other art related things like setting up commissions#who knows! i might post more theories and analysis stuff! its fun!#oh and because of the theme of this newsletter. happy summer to utdr fans in the west!! hope you stay cool and stay safe!!#sorry i haven't been active much here. been doing art fight stuff!
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1) do you sometimes answer non-anonymous questions?
2) are you pleased to see art from other subscribers:3?
and is it difficult to view all the people who mentioned you?
and sometimes some wait about a month.. :|
yeah hey, i'm sorry i take awhile to get back to people / reblog fanart but please don't do this
#anonymous#inbox#i KNOW who this is by the way. this is your second time doing this. don't do this to people#i genuinely appreciate everything sent my way & made for me & i'm sorry i haven't been able to reblog it sooner#but reminding me in this way isn't going to like. speed the process up#i'm going to !!! i promise !!! i intend on addressing everyone who has ever made me anything ever god willing but i'm slow & i'm sorry 4 it#lots of life stuff happening + i want to give everyone the best response i can & i just haven't had that energy lately#i super appreciate the stuff you've made for me too & i want to give that a worthy shrieking paragraph when i'm in the headspace for it so#*ask for a little patience more please#i'm sorry
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please take as much time as you need to rest and recover. burn out is so hard and takes so much to heal from. your art and your supporters will still be here when you get back :) take care <3
Thank you very much
Unfortunately, my situation doesn't really allow me to take the time I need. I've got a ~two month hiatus scheduled for my midseason, but much like my first hiatus I'll most likely be working double time during it...
It's unfortunate because I could really really use a bigger break!
Having the time and flexibility to work on other projects really fires me up and keeps me going, and being able to take a guilt free day off for family and friends is necessary to my mental health, and I've been having to turn people down lately...
This is a very kind message, and I'm sorry to vent in response! But I just feel transparency about the pressure I'm under is necessary and important. I'd love to take the time I really need, but due to deadlines and that pesky "needing money to live" I can't.
But, once the series is over I intend to take a pretty big break before I start whatever I'm doing next! I've got so many short stories and projects planned that I want so badly to get to, I can't wait to really get to truly dive in to them!
#im so sorry to take a nice message and respond like this! but just... trust me haha i know my supporters are genuinely here for me <3#but webtoon... not so much unfortunately. i mean im sure i could take a longer break but theres the looming anxiety#that ill get in trouble or itll ruin my chances of working with them again etc etc#i took this week and i genuinely took it off. sort of? i flew to a convention which was exhausting#and i did paintings that i hope to print eventually#and i. started planning and prepping for a Kickstarter. for time and time again...#so ive still been working the whole time. but i love working!#i just... like to be able to work on things OTHER than time and time again...#and unfortunately for a few months. more than a few months. i haven't been able to do anything outside of it.#even all of my paintings have been for it cause i cant afford to switch my mindset!#my first hiatus i moved. worked on a pitch for my next series. and then i made two episodes a week the entire time#and i still ran out of episodes...#i dont know if im just not fast enough or if something is wrong with my brain that i have to fight to get it to focus but.#yeah i mean ive been burned out! been really burned out for like a year now#i can tell by how much better i feel after literally 1 week of doing anything else#and how tired i feel explaining this and knowing ive got another 3 months before i get another break#ok sorry i vented a lot more in the tags. it's hard to explain all of this eloquently and i like my posts to be somewhat professional#asks#anon#vent#delete later#and also how often my brain keeps wanting me to like. beg for 'nice words' from other people#(i always stop myself from asking people for compliments and stuff because otherwise i get very carried away and do it too regularly)#(people are very nice to me all the time. the kindness is endless and i need to let myself recognize and appreciate it rather than seek more#(its sort of a mental health thing I've been trying to like... force myself to do)#(for myself and my longevity but also for others sake lol. ive been bad about it in the past)
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I don't know... horrible things happen all around the world and it's not a competition
Atrocities are committed against multiple groups in multiple parts of the world at the exact same moment, and none of them erase each other. They all matter, all the people in this world who are being brutalized matter. There shouldn't be any line you draw where one group doesn't actually matter as much as another
You're welcome to prioritize your energy towards helping one group or another, but what's not ok is invalidating or dismissing people who are actively being harmed
Same goes for trying to figure out which social group has things worst (and lets be honest, always using a US lens)
Like... maybe the important thing is to prop each other up and help everyone get on their own feet rather than trying to... pick fights about if physical disabilities or mental illness are less respected (I'm trying to pick a more absurd example but sadly I've seen exactly that argument happen before). Maybe it doesn't really matter and what matters is helping who we can when we can
I'm tired of it, I'm just fucking tired of it. Support people, champion them when the world is just brutalizing them, but you don't need to throw a single other person under the bus to do that
Which seems to be an absolutely impossible lesson for people to learn
#I won't say anything else on this; but I will say that to me one of the groups that it feels like is most forgotten is Syrians#including by me if I'm honest#I don't know what's currently happening in Syria... but... my understanding is it still hasn't really gotten better#assad is still brutalizing people last I had heard#so rather than saying anything else I'd prefer to simply focus on some people it feels like were forgotten back during Obama#and... and have remained forgotten#and I'm sorry I can't do more to help with the suffering in the world#but... you notice what I'm not having to do here?#I'm not having to throw a single other person under the bus#I'm able to just focus on how much I wish for Syrians to be ok (which is a hollow gesture on my part in many ways I think)#and I can keep all the focus on Syrians rather than throwing anyone else under the bus or doing any whataboutism#and that's literally all I'm asking of you fucking people#don't downplay human misery to try and make your thing seem more important#they're both fucking important... they're all important#there's so much suffering I can't even keep up with it#there's so much of it that I can only name without knowing the details; Congo; I believe Sudan is still suffering; Haiti#I don't know how things are in Ethiopia right now... I can't keep track#and none of these situations and the horrible things they're dealing with; things I haven't even been able to follow#none of it detracts from and of the issues I am following more closely#I don't need to compare them and say 'well it's not as bad'; because... bad is bad and any is too much#and nothing I say here will do a damn thing; no one'll hear and even if they did they'd ignore it or get pissed#that's what my evidence shows me about how people behave#but suffering isn't a competition; the correct amount is zero#and... perhaps I'd have more tolerance if I hadn't watched how you behave with stuff#...the worst part is the person I adore who... man... I wish I could just get them to really think through their words#they mean well; they're coming from a place of love; but I just haven't been able to paint the picture for them of the harm#and I'm flawed; I don't have all the answers; I could be wrong here#but... can you at least see why I feel that maybe we shouldn't pit misery against each other#that the people suffering have more in common with each other than opposed and... maybe westerners aren't fucking helping#eh... too fucking drained thinking about this; end of tags
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this is. not the worst episode ive gone through but im sure its making me evil unfortunately. self isolation is not only the relationship killer it also kills every aspect of you that makes you human. i am something that can only be described as 'other' :')
#txt#i don't know how to start being a person again and despite trying i am clearly not doing well enough#on top of the depression there is this thick fog looming over me which is making it difficult to gather my thoughts and be legible#where do i begin to apologize for for my absence#''i haven't been able to function because my body has been failing on me more rapidly with the coming years and it's made it hard to stay i#- touch. i am beyond sorry for everything''
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I really don't like our brain's ability to jump from "I'm going to organise all this stuff and catch up with a bunch of tasks" to "it's time to get stuck in an increasingly distressing thought spiral for several hours, accidentally trigger yourself, then feel like shit because you haven't done anything but also haven't managed to rest".
like please can we maybe have like a nice middleground where we do a few things and then rest for a while and don't experience the full range of human emotions over the course of about 3 hours
#personal#thoughts#🍬 post#vent post#the thing is that we were feeling pretty good and actually got some stuff done today#and then someone asked how we were doing and we mentioned this#and their response was to interrupt us to be like ''wow it must be nice to not feel like shit all the time''#before going on a rant about a bunch of stuff including topics that this person knows are triggering for us#so then we got frustrated and triggered and that threw us off and then we got stuck in a spiral over a bunch of stuff#and now we're exhausted and have no motivation to do anything and our brain is still trying to spiral more and we can't focus on anything#sorry for wanting to celebrate actually managing to do stuff after struggling with way worse executive dysfunction than usual all month#and by ''do stuff'' I mean we caught up with some journaling we'd missed#then added a handful of tasks to our to-do list so we'd remember to actually do them later#so a couple of things that are a big deal for us because they help us stay organised but take a lot of focus so we struggle with them#but at the same time they're tasks most people probably wouldn't view as any sort of actual achievement#part of it was also that we woke up with enough motivation to actually do what we'd planned to do today#but so far we've only done like one task from it because then all this shit happened and we haven't been able to do much else
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"Back by unpopular demand:"
"Us!"
#[*trips and falls to the ground like that one pepe frog meme but dramatically explodes into a million pieces instead* hi hi]#[i'll start by apologizing and thanking y'all for your patience bc wheew its been almost 2 months since my last post holy shittt]#[mental health along with intrusive thoughts and stuff have been absolute ass and still are right now]#[not gonna go into much detail bc i'm dealing with tons of bad stuff and negativity but yeah]#[at this point i aint even going to say 'im back!' bc everytime i do some even more terrible shit happens irl so naw]#[i also can't promise thread replies today bc i already know i'll likely not be able to finish any]#[but i will try to at least start working on some of them ;v;]#[other than that please feel free to send in stuff if you wish!]#[i haven't been around in so long that i feel completely rusty and out of the loop rn]#[but i think i'll start with the few asks i was unable to get to last time]#[if you guys who sent them see this: i'm sorry for the super looooong wait and thank you so much for your patience!!! <3]#[hope everyone's having a lovely day/night!!! <3]#;ic#(?#;ooc#(??#[the world will never truly know *x files music plays*]
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not me and brina wanting to quit our jobs so we can just chill and write valenfield all day lmao
#y'all i don't like working at all i wish i were rich and didn't have to do this every day </3#anyways yes I've been mostly on disc replying to brina#my brain capacity has been low super low so haven't been able to do much more than that#sorry guys 😔#( ☠ ) bibis rambles. | ooc.
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