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starscelly · 7 months ago
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i could fall in love with seider very easily but we do not have time for this i’m Locked In on other things rn
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ew01z · 28 days ago
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weird i feel like some force is compelling me to ask,,, what are your thoughts on krisnix and langworth during the 7 year gap with endgame narumitsu ?? the masses need to know
something crazy is happening ...... apologising in advance cause i think about this sooo much but have never articulated any of my thoughts on it but THANK YOU FOR ASKING this lives in my mind rent free
BASICALLY between the original aa trilogy and phoenix being disbarred, we know miles goes travelling, canonically he is a prosecutor in several jurisdictions but because i'm self indulgent i think he also took up lecturing at universities (unrelated, this concept just itches my brain)
at this point in time he knows he's in love with phoenix and has been for a considerable amount of time HOWEVER. because he catastrophises everything, he absolutely would have convinced himself that either phoenix is straight (looks left looks right) or he doesn't deserve phoenix or both. in the midst of this hardcore yearning, he meets lang Often. lang, who is actively trying to get into miles' pants quite brazenly (although i imagine miles doesn't notice at first)
they end up having this weird fwb situation wherein they sleep together, probably go on dates that aren't dates (sometimes case related, sometimes not) and imo end up like way more soft and intimate than the original fwb arrangement. but because miles is still yearning like a motherfucker, he's extremely emotionally unavailable. which would be fine except lang has definitely at this point caught some feelings
i'm imagining angsty shit like lang trying to hold miles' hand while they walk somewhere and miles just Not having it. or like wanting to cuddle/spoon after sleeping together and miles is like Nope. but because miles has developed some degree of care for lang, he feels super guilty about it so now he's brooding Even More. that being said, they still keep hooking up as the rules of toxic yaoi would dictate
on the OTHER hand we have krisnix which i saw someone describe as psychosexual warfare and honestly i can't think of a better way to describe it. phoenix definitely knew something was up with kristoph almost immediately. the issue w this is that unfortunately kristoph is also sexy so this posed a problem.
phoenix, who was undoubtedly extremely in love with miles, who didn't know if he possibly could or would ever confess this (especially now that miles is prosecuting abroad), originally got involved with kristoph both like professionally and in a sexy way because he was extremely intrigued with kristoph's terrifying vibes.
phoenix gets disbarred, adopts trucy etc etc, but as we know phoenix keeps kristoph close in order to try stop him from Literally Killing People and because he knew kristoph had a hand in the forged evidence that got him disbarred. however this Also ends up slightly more intimate than anticipated. phoenix hates kristoph's guts and yet .. they have toothbrushes at each other's apartments?? know how each other like their eggs in the morning?? i imagine even though trucy is young and extremely perceptive, she was also somewhat won over by kristoph too. in short, waaaay too in each other's orbits for either of their likings.
while all this toxic yaoi is going on, miles and phoenix have kept in touch sporadically. miles offering to fly home in a heartbeat because he knows phoenix is innocent and phoenix having his weird complex about accepting help. not wanting to tell miles too much because he knows kristoph knows Everything.
however, miles flies phoenix (and trucy too sometimes) out to wherever he's based to try covertly prove phoenix's innocence by looking at the evidence again, other case documents etc. during this time, i think they realistically both realise they're in love with each other but ultimately can't act on it due to distance and the kristoph situation. it would be at this point that miles halts the fwb situation with lang (angst likely ensues, although i imagine lang saw it coming to some extent and knew miles was truly in love with phoenix). however it's more complicated for phoenix, who has to keep up the appearance of normality so kristoph doesn't suspect anything. the more emotional aspects of his relationship with kristoph like the toothbrushes in each others apartments etc etc stops and the fwb situation dies down, although its less eloquent and more messy than the langworth situation (which i imagine was more of an actual cut and dry breakup)
but eventually miles does come back to japanifornia and the events of aa4 take place. phoenix gets his badge back, gay kisses miles and realises that if shi long lang has no haters then he's dead. miles and phoenix are definitely both aware of the relationships the other had before they were together, however phoenix wright is jealous and a bitch so now he hates lang's guts despite having never met him.
the end!!!!! i'll honestly be really surprised if anyone reads this all as this was Very self indulgent. this is just how my head filled the blanks in canon in the messiest, gayest way possible and i'm so glad i had an excuse to post about it
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darlinguistics · 10 months ago
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'its just IMPOSSIBLE to not be addicted to your phone nowadays its UNREALISTIC-'
heres some advice to being less chronically online. for gen z (and younger??) who dont even know how to start thinking about it and have only heard shitty advice from older adults who just genuinely do not get it, from a fellow gen z and my experiences so far.
*these are personal and may not all 100% resonate but its still good prompting to start thinking about things! PLEASE feel free to add your own stories/advice in the notes! support your fellow humans, dont gatekeep what youve learned, lets have these conversations! and no negativity/pessimism please <3
first thing is to make it a less scary thought, a more concrete idea and not a hypothetical. it doesnt have to be all-or-nothing, cold turkey, a huge announcement and a fundamental shift in your personality. the internet will be in your life for the rest of your life, this is an ongoing relationship you are trying to make healthier thats all! and it takes one step at a time and some self-compassion, but a true effort nonetheless. 'dont you think thats a bit too serious-' if youre my age you quite literally grew up and developed online, it is literally part of your psyche the way your childhood is, it IS serious, you deserve to treat it seriously.
dont save your login info/dont stay logged in for social media accounts, having to manually log in when you want to go on like youre on some elementary school chrome book is a really healthy and clear boundary to have between being logged off and logged on.
-> bigger challenge - uninstall it on your phone in general, only log on on your laptop/pc if applicable for you!
if youre motivated to, try to work on your posture too. i only say that because most of our bad posture is at least partially related to being on our phones a lot, and when i started wanting to fix my posture, completely separately and unrelated from trying to break my phone addiction, it made it easier to lose interest in my phone since i didnt want to ruin my progress with my posture. it made me start to have a mindset like 'well if you cant do this on your phone with good posture then dont do it' and 'if youre on your phone so long your posture starts to cave in, youve probably spent too long on your phone anyway'
listen to music more. its easier for me to kinda write off my phone and do other things if i just open music or a podcast or long youtube video on it. i know we all love long video essays, but i recommend music more specifically for me at least because im less inclined to pause music or scroll while listening to it for some reason? whereas using a show or video or podcast for white noise, im way more likely to also be scrolling on my phone and that is my activity lol. music for some reason i dont want to interrupt and instead of being on my phone i can clean or do something productive on my computer etc
this one is sooo hard but try to fall asleep with some distance between you and your phone, even just a couple feet. mine stays on the desk next to my bed which isnt that far but its better than on bed like it used to be. when you wake up you probably wont feel like reaching for it right away if its far and even better if you have to get up for it because then at least you stand and move your body first thing instead of looking at your phone first thing. and try to get more and more of your morning routine done before touching your phone over time.
-> for me, i started by just trying to at least wake up a bit in bed before touching it, then stand up before touching it, then stand and stretch, then going to the bathroom first, making coffee first, feeding the cat first, etc. its surprisingly helpful to have a specific chore/task in mind that is The requirement so that everytime you do it you get a lil dopamine rush for unlocking your phone from yourself lmao. when the weather was nice i used to make my Requirement being outside first before going on it and i LOVED that. esp as it got easier and i started doing more and more before going on it and finally walking outside with coffee and my phone felt like such a pleasant little reward.
find a hobby that uses your hands. example: i really need to get back into knitting because when i did it regularly so much time that wouldve been on my phone was spent knitting with music/podcasts/shows/(even online lectures! when i felt productive lol) playing. its the same amount of physical relaxing - barely moving lol - but uses a longer attention span and a much better dopamine hit than scrolling, i literally MADE things.
-> you might be thinking, 'but mindless knitting isnt better than mindless scrolling is it?' but that mindless feeling on your phone is just that, mindless. the mindless feeling you get when doing something like knitting is actually closer to a flow state, which is actually incredibly good for you, like a fulfilling nutritious meal as opposed to 'empty calories' or whatever
get a widget for your homescreen that shows your screen time. i have one and of course it doesnt always stop me but seeing that time go up all day the more i use it and the pride of keeping it low is really helpful
practice grounding. in general.
spend more time on anonymous activities and have more privacy and less attachment with your 'persona' - what i mean by that is, i consider things like scrolling through tumblr (for me personally!) to be relatively harmless because i dont try to like,, brand myself here. if youre a tumblr regular you know the jokes - 0 follows, 0 notes, screaming to the void, moots you dont talk to, blorbo pfp and urls, fake names everywhere, and we're having fun! basically targeting the 'everyone is famous now' thing with this one - embrace being a nobody with no personal stakes here
-> personally ive never kept up with having social media accounts that are actually just, me irl - like a facebook or main instagram, like a locals account yknow? but i think it goes for that too - stop spending so much time trying to further personalize your online presence in the hopes of it representing you perfectly - because it never will, and it shouldnt, and you shouldnt aspire for that. your social media presence is lighthearted and incredibly surface-level, treat it like that! thats not me bashing social media either, having that mindset will make it more enjoyable bc youll be using it as it should be used!
do following/followers or camera roll/files or app purges. this is also a soft launch type of way to practice easing into a better mindset. aside from just literally getting rid of junk, the process of trying to judge whether or not you need something is good practice in mindfulness! even if you dont delete everything you feel like you maybe should, thats fine, youll do other purges in the future too. eventually youll get better at parting with things and realizing when things that feel good in a moment are actually bad for you. and it forces you to regularly check in on your more long-lasting parasocial relationships online and how theyre serving you or not
speaking of parasocial - for actual friends, if theyre irl, think about how much you interact with them online vs in person and why you think that is and how it affects you. maybe youll wanna see them more irl if possible (i promise its better for your friendship), maybe youll realize you dont need to keep tabs on them anymore (old high school acquaintances lookin at you). for celebrities and fandom things - try to think about the bare minimum content from them you could do with. you dont have to unstan all your faves and stop enjoying things - but do you need their notifications on? do you need to have a stan account? do you need them on all the platforms? do you need to have all that saved content of them? are there aspects of this that you love that could be found elsewhere?
if youre of the genre of online where you just cant help yourself from getting involved in big discussions or discourse and arguments - i recommend journaling when you get upset by something online, articulating your feelings without the idea of someone ever reading it and without the goal of 'winning' or being the most correct and logical or even the most sympathetic and morally good. take away every audience aspect of it. what is this really about for you, and why would strangers online deserve to hear your personal well-thought out opinions? why would your thoughts deserve to be simplified and misconstrued and underappreciated the way they would be in this discussion? is there even an outcome to this where you feel truly satisfied? are their people who are more worthy of hearing your thoughts who arent part of this audience? is this a conversation that is best held online where so much communicative nuance is inevitably sacrificed?
in the end these are all just practices in remembering how in control you are. and that goes for if any of these are scary or too difficult sounding too! these all become less scary if you remember that as soon as anything becomes too uncomfortable or painful, you have all the power to stop doing it, make a change, and try again later. so much of advice for quitting bad habits can be intimidating because the pressure and the shame that would come from failing scares you out of the possible benefits of trying - just go ahead and kill that shame from the jump. of course youre going to fail! you are going to have setbacks! thats part of it! you have agency in this, always. the internet is not inherently or completely evil nor good. build trust in yourself to make the calls on when it is serving you and when it isnt on a case-by-case basis, and then give yourself permission to learn through trial and error.
and remember you are worth all of this effort. i believe in us <3
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mask-of-prime · 9 months ago
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TLK: Bianka
Since I headcanon the Strange Lion's father is the Selfish Lion, I figured he had to have a mother, too.
Say hello to Bianka, the mother of the Strange Lion (Nyoka), and wife of the Selfish Lion (Choyo). She is a scorned rogue lioness from Mohatu's time as King, kickstarting a chain of infamous events throughout the history of the Pridelands and the Outlands.
She is a distant descendant of Mwanzo, leader of the Evil Lions of the Past. Like her forefathers, Bianka possesses Tsavo lion genes. Nyoka gets his Evil Lion heritage from his mother (yep, that means the Selfish Lion is actually married into this family rather than the heir, I came up with the idea of Bianka being the one with Evil Lion blood based on the vibes I got from the features I gave her).
Her restless desire to overthrow King Mohatu was brought on by the mystery of her ancestry, and the full story of her forefathers' legacy went unfinished, and even began to fade generations down the line. She recruited Almasi (a rogue from a far-away pride searching for her destiny), and Choyo (Mohatu's former business partner who was meant to help grow the pride after a massive loss to a devastating outbreak of rabies and drought-induced disease) to help eliminate the royal family that occupied Pride Rock by means of integration and deception. She would also groom her son into her plan to take over by integrating him into the pride to marry Princess Uru. This never carried through as Uru fell in love with the riff-raff pauper, Ahadi, and Nyoka had ultimately been banished for threatening the pride in a crazed state from receiving his Mark of Evil.
Her husband, Choyo, was not truly interested in her, and was even less interested in having a child. He only wanted the benefits that came with ruling a prosperous kingdom, such as all the food and water he could possibly mooch off of, and he can only achieve such things in an alliance with the conniving Tsavo lioness.
Bianka's disregard for animals other than her own kind had eventually been the cause of her downfall. Not long after her cohort Almasi had perished from dehydration and other complications from the drought (tragically just before Mohatu had found a luscious water source at the Oasis), Bianka had been trampled during the herds' race to said water source. She died while Nyoka was still very young, making him not so different from Princess Uru in that way, which he would often bring up in an attempt to court her. But his nightmare never ended there: His only living parent, Choyo, had been exiled for violating the delicate balance of the Pridelands' ecosystem for hogging limited supplies for himself, and for threatening other animals with violence. Mohatu, believing a child to not deserve to live with such a parent, combined with knowing about Choyo's reluctance to care for his only cub, had taken Nyoka in and raised him in his slowly growing, recovering pride.
Her untimely death at the hooves and paws of the Pridelanders followed by her husband's exile are what ultimately fired Nyoka's very own restless journey to finish what his ancestors started, and he would eventually go to carry out his plan to reclaim the kingdom as his own by continuing the cycle of taking over the royal pride through convoluted schemes of trust and persuasion (which ironically came to fruition posthumously after his protégée Scar killed him). Nyoka, unlike Bianka, made an effort to piece together his legacy through direct contact of his ancestors by performing a seance with the help of his cobra friend, Kuuma (will elaborate in future art).
(I know she and Almasi look like they could be sisters, but if they were, that would've made Scar and Zira, like, first-cousins-once-removed or something. I don't like using relations like that as a plot element sooo... I had them be a coalition of unrelated lionesses who just happen to have similar design elements lol. I based their friendship off of the fact that they've got similar designs, I thought juxtaposing their designs in the top sketch would help distinguish them.)
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mamawasatesttube · 3 months ago
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AUGH i had an idea, so you were thinking about throwing tim in the blender day and i also saw the idea of sickness related blending getting thrown around.
Ive been reading naveahs tim sick fic (NEED to get my comment written. It will happen. Eventually) and then thought about your kon sick fic, and how tim and kon were plague buddies before they even met. (Sickfics my beloved)
Tim getting horribly ill again, the agonies of your body (your highly trained body, your best weapon) failing you. The kon agonies watching of your friend fall horribly ill and the uncertainty of if he'll pull through (hes strong but illness doesnt care about strength, you learned that early) (youve never seen him look this weak before), tim losing his grasp on reality/fever dreaming a la clench style, if its contagious would anybody be allowed near him? Would kon be the only one allowed due to lack of interspecies transmission?
Sort of unrelated but kon would be horrified to learn that tim got a plague that made him bleed from every oriface (tim would likewise be horrified about kons clone-plague nearly breaking him down on a cellular level)
The vision. Do you see it? Am i going insane in your askbox unannounced?
YEAH!!!!!!! SOOOO TRUE!!!!!! sldkfjkdls okay tim being out sick and absolutely miserable and then getting upset about learning about the clone plague so retroactively would be so in character and also so funny. sorry tim but i do have to laugh at your agonies. he's like KON NEARLY DIED!?!??! and kon's like you didn't even KNOW me back then idiot. and tim's like BUT STILL!!!!! (cough. wheeze)
but yeah yeah no thats definitely all sooo true. tim being upset about his body of all things betraying him is honestly a very good point and very ripe for "ways to put him in the centrifuge"... AND the way fever can fuck with the head too. just absolutely miserable all around. sooo true so true thank you hehe <33
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raitobie · 2 months ago
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HII! I've been reading your blog the past few days there's sooo much lol. Idk I feel like I relate to the way you care so much about how your s/i fits into your au and having a backstory that seems so unrelated to the source material LMAO I did that too and it was something I felt silly about but I liked seeing someone else doing it so I don't have to feel so weird. I kept thinking she just like me fr lol I just think ur blog is neat :•)
So I doodled a little RAITOBIIEEE I hope it's not too ooc or something lol I thought maybe it could be like a cheeky lil publicity photo shoot like look who's FUCKING MARRIED YALL AAAAAAAAAAAAA ahahaaa well idk how public would they be about it? Well it could be whatever lol
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🤍🩶AUGHH…! AAHHH 🥺🥺🥺…AHH!!!! 😭😭😭 WAAAUGHH AAUUUUAAAHHHH!!! SNNNFFGHH ahhhhAHHHHHHH!! 💕💕💕💕
NOTHING IS WRONG WITH IT!! IT’S PERFECTION!! ITS GOREGOUS, STUNNING, BREATHTAKING, PHENOMENAL!! omg omg 🥺🥺🤍🩶
You are the sweetest person EVER, thank you so much for drawing us!! We look so hot it’s crazy AND YOU GAVE LIGHT A NECKLACE AND SOME CLEAVAGE I’M SPITTING UP AND SHAKING GAAAHHH BARKBARKBARKBARKVARKVARK AWOOOO AWOOOOOGA
okay I’m done being unhinged LMFAO but so seriously, I’ve been having a meltdown all week and this seriously touched me so deeply, I NEEDED it you don’t understand how much I appreciate it. Even foaming at the mouth in text isn’t enough to express my gratitude, like???? Your art is amazing and you captured us beautifully, EVEN IF IT WASN’T IN CHARACTER HELL IT IS NOW, TF!! IT’S SO VKEI I LOVE IT I LOVE IM CRAZY IM GOING CRAZY ALAKSJDSJSJHSSHJAAJ
I’m so happy that you relate to me and my art and that it inspired you! That’s all I can ask for when I post, and it means so much to me! 🫶🏾🫶🏾 I love that you gave me a tele even, you are so great at drawing I love it, I LOVE IT I it’s my wallpaper now and I’m putting it EVERYWHERE, seriously I can’t thank you enough!! 😭😭💕🫂
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8-rae-rae-8 · 10 months ago
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Tysm to feral anon for the side dish,,,, delicious 🙏🙏 ily (/p)
Back w unrelated hcs tho so strap in
I think tiny ghost would just call price “p’ice”- like I think the other boys would call him dada and papa or bubba, and stuff while small, but I think ghost would just call him price with a soft little lisp because he’s a silly who won’t brake his fingers out of his mouth to talk. Is there really a reason? Not sure, but I think he’d just be too traumatized for familial names tbh- like he’d also call the others SOOO many things other than just their names, like soap is “Johnny” but also “‘oap” and “bubble” and anything related to soap and maybe even a random little nickname like “strawberry” just bc he gave him strawberries Once™️ and little si thinks it funny-
And then gaz- gaz is a hard one for lil Si to say, so it sounds like “gas” a lot, but he does try, so there’s “gaz,” and “gazza,” and occasionally “gabbsss!” But also some silly ones like “bunny,” or “nibbly,” bc gaz reminds him of a bunny for some reason or another-
(Please take no offence to the contradictory hcs right after your post of hcs, I had thoughts bc of it and was just spinning bc I’ve always heard baba used like dada and papa and then immediately thought about Si’s family trauma-)
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No offense taken!!
OH MY GOD BUBBLE.
That's so fucking cute 😭
THEY'RE ALL ADORABLE. Awwww!!!
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emiensr · 2 months ago
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IF YOU’RE STILL DOING THE ASKS THEN COPICS & ERASER? :00
HI ngl i forgot i'd posted anything lol . ok sooo ^^ Copics: what is this character's most expensive habit or hobby? Do they ever feel guilty about the money they spend on it?
hmmmmm . the characters with the most expensive hobby would definitely be Noel and Madi. Musical instruments are expensive. good thing their parents are rich! only one of them benefits from that though. guess who . ok tbh he doesnt actually own most of the instruments he uses in his shows. When Noel plays multiple instruments at once , he summons them similar to deuce summoning cauldrons .except Noel sends them back to where they came from once hes done. however ! he DOES own his trumpet and violin . theyre his favourites . even though hes kind of a dick Noel does feel super guilty every time he has to spend his parent's money, which is why he chooses to "borrow" the instruments he uses in his shows (he's not as evil as i make him out to be i promise 😭). oh my god how long ago did i start writing this . i thought i'd posted this months ago. anyway im gonna finish it now.
Eraser: what's one way this character has changed over time? Either over the course of their story, or over the course of designing them as an author.
theyve all changed sooo much . originally everyone was a seperate character with no links . i almost scrapped madi once, made him transfem for about 2 months and then forgot he existed. then i made noel seperatelyy andddd decided to make them related :3
Asken was a brainworm that attacked me while i was at work once (i've had 3 jobs since then. huh) , designed , was told that his anatomy was wouldnt work and then left alone for ages (UNRELATED TO THE ANATOMY THING i just had no interest in him)
Lyn was also an abandoned character who i gave story relevance when i made Stian. Stian and Noel drove everything for the rest of these guys they would have no relevance otherwise oops .
tldr they were all irrelevant / undeveloped until Noel came along <3
IMSORRY FOR TAKING SO LONG WITH THIS ONEEE ahh?? u sent this in probably may or june and i just . forgor. ermmm m. here u go <3
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sillygoofyqueer · 3 months ago
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Finished reading the latest chapter of losing hope and if you’ll excuse me, I just have to…. *distant squeals of happiness*
I’m SO happy you took some of my suggestions!!! When I was reading I kept being like “OMG!! THEY DID THE THING!!! THE THING I MENTIONED!! AND THEY DID IT PERFECTLY!!!!” Like, the LWJ and JC rivalry?? Immaculate. Perfection. Could not be done better. (Though I am a little curious as to why LWJ scares JL) also Wwx in his natural habitat of teaching the small children? Adorable. I Want To Hug Him So Bad.
Also seeing Nie Huaisang get properly introduced??? I’m in love??? Huaisang is my fav character aside from Wwx so I’m happy to see him being a scheming little shit who is Scary while still retaining his whimsy as an artist who still enjoys his hobbies. Him planning the Jin clan’s downfall with his favorite advisor as he watches the Jin clan’s propaganda? Iconic. I do love the little tidbit of NHS planning to break WWX out tho. Very sweet and makes me smile. (Slightly unrelated but it’d be funny if he’s in the middle of painting when shit starts going down because I SWEAR TO GOD that people ALWAYS need me for SOMETHING whenever I start painting so it’d be cool to see a character share the struggle)
Can’t wait for Jiang cheng to realize that all his struggles are still from his shixiong. (Why do I feel like he’d going to have an aneurism when he finds out?) in the meantime I hope Jin Ling is ok and that his uncle (JC. Not JGY) helps him through it. Especially as he can relate with wwx leaving for Reasons and Not Really Saying Anything. It is nice to see Jiang Cheng parenting JL tho. Even if every time Wwx is mentioned in his pov it is Heartbreaking. Also… *sniff sniff* is that XiCheng I smell??? Maybe I’m just crazy bur that seemed sus…
As always LWJ getting *concerned* is both heartbreaking (pain over Wwx getting hurt) and a little funny (the mental crisis of your crush being alive after 13 years).
As always, thank you for writing Four and please remember to take breaks and overall take care of yourself. I wish I could give more kudos <3333
Hi, hello, I'm dead again, you've killed me, you have to now wait three business days for me to be raised from the dead. I'm so glad you think I pulled off your suggestions well!! I was biting at Jiang Cheng and Lan Wangji rivalry and I could not rest before I dropped it in, and I'm so going to make it a running thing - it's going to be soo funny because you have the idea of Jiang Cheng and Wei Wuxian like "you?? Oh god no" and then Jiang Cheng and Lan Wangji like "I come armed with spice!""Oh yeah? I have this flour that I'm going to drop all around the castle!" Madly in love with the fact that you like Nie Huaisang, because I love him sooo much, he's so iconic. He gets dragged into everything when he just wants to affect the plot from the sidelines like any normal schemer! On the topic of the Jin Clan propaganda play that Nie Huaisang was watching I (and I'm not afraid to admit this) was listening to "Shia LaBeouf" by Rob Cantor and was like...well, now I have to have a little nod to this. It's my life. Soooo, Jin Clan propaganda. It was so funky, and I need you to understand how stupid the play is in that regard - it was why Nie Mingjue liked it so much. There was no hidden messages (apart from the propaganda). Also, keep an eye on Nie Ziyi...he's going to be fun to play around with. I can't wait to write Jiang Cheng's reaction to Wei Wuxian, but that's for later on teehee. He's going to have SO many emotions, and we all know how he reacts when he's feeling emotional. There's going to be so many tears. SO many. He and Jin Ling are both going to be infuriated at Wei Wuxian, and Wei Wuxian's just like "man, I can't catch a fucking break, can I?" after trying to hide from them for a long time. Wei Wuxian, mentioned in Jiang Cheng's pov? Nahhhhh, I don't know what you're talking about, it's just an unnamed shixiong I swear (/j of course). Also Xicheng? In my fanfiction?.................................ANYWAY Lan Wangji is really going through it, alright? He is both concerned but also HIS BBG IS BACK AFTER THIRTEEN YEARS?? HOW IS HE SUPPOSED TO REACT? I like the idea of the juniors watching Lan Wangji trip over himself when Wei Wuxian laughs or something and just going "Ohhhh, he's down bad, I see..." Once again, I'm vibrating intensely with the love you show my fanfiction and I'm dead. On the floor. Sobbing screaming etcetera. You motivate me and it makes me lose it.
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octoariadneeeeexoxo · 1 year ago
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[redoing my intro post!!]
౨ৎ⋆ ˚。⋆[ 𝐰𝐞𝐥𝐜𝐨𝐦𝐞 𝐭𝐨 𝐦𝐲 𝐛𝐥𝐨𝐠! ] ౨ৎ⋆ ˚。⋆
“ heyo! its me, ariadne! im sooo glad you guys came to check on my page! now, lets start by getting to know me ! “
basic info;
- my pronouns are she/her (mainly), but you can call me whatever you like! you can even call me dookie!! .. NEVER CALL ME DOOKIE!/ref
- im a minor!! so if your being creepy im gonna block you<33
- im a filipino:0
- im a hellenic polytheist (hail hestia and aphrodite<3)
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“ now that you know all of that, its time for me to tell you the fandoms im currently in! “
- LMK (lego monkie kid)
- murder drones
- kids show fandoms! (disney jr, nick jr, etc!! oh and i also do korean kids shows)
“ fandoms are not your thing? dont worry!! thats not just all i focus on! here are some of my favourite music artist, and my fav songs from them! “
(psst! i may or may not post about them:0
“ getting bored? well, here are more facts about me!” (thatll probably convice you that i am a cool person and that u shld follow me/j)
- im an artist!
- i also write, just not so often;))
(wattpad is; Liii_Cheryll
(ao3 is; ririadnee_xoxo
- im working on my own oc story!! (itll be called the guardian of constellations!! ill be linking the side blog here once im done with the first pages)
[both my ao3 and wattpad are inactive atm]
- im a HUUGE [not]mayor fan, and i will never shut up about him if you bring him up
- the ceo of making nextgen ocs
- im also on tiktok! (@meiandmayorkisser) <- inactive ;(
- and ive got an art insta!! (@/ririadnee_xoxo, yes its the same as my ao3 user but we dont talk about that)
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“ i feel like ive said too much … anyway! before you move on, here are some things i highly encourage you to do while on here! “
- honestly i dont really care if im being made fun of anymore, but it is a lot more nicer to be kind
- no being creepy! pls! especially if your over the age of 18!
- personally, i have no age limit on my blog:) anyone can interact!
- no venting/ranting about serious stuff on my page, my dms and my discord (nottraveller.melo) is always free if you wanna talk!
- read the room people, dont talk about serious things on a lighthearted post, youre free to discuss any politic/serious topic on a post related to that:)
- absolutely NO discrimination on my blog, please! this is a positive space!!
“ and thats all guys! i hope that you guys enjoy my content!” (i only post once in a blue moon, or when i remember that i have tumblr downloaded on my phone..)
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(tags below are unrelated, just used to find my audience<3)
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consumed-by-fandom · 10 months ago
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MY ARGUMENT FOR WHY LOOK WHAT YOU MADE ME DO BY TAYLOR SWIFT FITS OSWALD COBBLEPOT A LITTLE TOO WELL
So people seemed quite interested in my thoughts on this sooo here ya go! :p
Spoilers for Gotham (2014) obvs
For context the song fits with Oswald’s Season 3 Arc, where he becomes mayor of Gotham and is taken down and killed by Edward after Oswald kills Ed’s ‘weird ass totally-a-clone-of-his-dead-ex’ girlfriend, Isabella. Oswald survives because of course he does, and plots his revenge against Ed for the rest of the season. AND HE FUCKING GETS IT BECAUSE HES OSWALD FUCKING COBBLEPOT
Anyway lets get into the lyrics shall we?
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First off, Riddler is known for his games and puzzles, and in particular his whole revenge plan might have been seen as a game to both of them, with Ed seeing it as a strategic game to destroy Oswald, and Oswald seeing it as a childish game played unfairly to Ed’s own agenda. The tilted stage also ties to Riddler’s showmanship and love of being in the spotlight, as well as how, to Oswald’s perspective, he’s putting himself up on a pedestal while criticising Oswald despite everything Oswald has done for him (I think Oswald definitely saw Isabella’s murder as an act of kindness or love, the latter might be canon too?) Oswald being forced to play the fool is pretty self-explanatory, he was thrown through the rings of Ed’s deception and tests none the wiser to Ed being the culprit.
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I think even Oswald would have to admit that Ed outplayed him, using everything he knew about Oswald, all his weaknesses and vulnerabilities, to completely ruin his life and prove a point (even if that point got disproven because he accidentally proved Oswald WAS capable of real love lmao) And how Oswald, as paranoid and wary as he is, still did not believe for a second that Ed would betray him. (This is unrelated but Oswald’s trust issues is so sad to see because as the show goes on he gets increasingly more distrustful of others and by season 5 it doesn’t take much for him to go “YOUVE BETRAYED ME I FUCKING KNEW IT” poor lad). Anyway Ed is a pro at shit eating grins, and has no qualms lying to others, something I think hurts Oswald even more because he always believed that they’d be honest with one another (even though he went behind Ed’s back… hes a bit of a hypocrite guys) But Ed is also one to gloat and mock, perhaps even more than Oswald, and he definitely rubs it in Oswald’s face when he reveals that it was his plan all along, that he was behind everything. Stretching a bit with the gun here but I like to think that Oswald believed they were always on the same page, that Oswald would always call the shots so to speak, that he was the one in control. Ironically it was the shot that Oswald took that pushed Ed to take a shot of his own (i am NOT sorry for the wordplay >:] )
Speaking of wordplay. “Isn’t cool” Ahahah. Get it. Cuz. Cuz ed gets… anyway.
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What does Oswald Cobblepot do best when wronged? Plan an elaborate revenge scheme of course! He learns from his mistakes, learns more about who Edward is as a person, and also learns not to let love weaken him :,). His revenge against him does what Ed initially did to him - use his flaws and characteristics to his advantage. And Oswald PLAYS HIM LIKE A FIDDLE by practically leading him to his doom, right until the reveal by the pier. Him escaping death is also surprisingly common for him, surviving from the pier not once, but TWICE by this point in the show. Not to mention all the other murder attempts on his life. The list of names would relate to Oswald’s growing enemies, his revenge hitlist so to speak, with Ed being at the very top for obvious reasons.
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I think Oswald would definitely blame other people for his behaviour. Like “you made me this way, you provoked me, you forced my hand.” No dude you just love murder and vengeance get over urself. I MEAN he probably knows he’s ‘just like that’ but he’d still blame people anyway lmao.
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When Ed got shipped to Arkham for girlfriend strangling and cop killing Oswald eventually got him out so he could be by his side as he campaigned for mayor of gotham, and he was pretty dedicated to being there for Ed as Ed was for him, even including him in paintings and promoting him to chief of staff. He loved him so much, and would do anything for him (even if it meant doing what he thought was for his benefit. Like killing girlfriends.) So naturally Ed ruining his life and then going off and making a name for himself as the Riddler would absolutely piss Oswald off, because to Oswald he had been so generous and a good friend/potential life partner, and this was the thanks he gets? I could also see Riddler’s rise to prominence as something Oswald would be jealous of, because thats his crime spotlight he’s stealing dammit!
Also. Also Ed stole the keys to his heart ahahahAGUGHUGHUHGAHGHH
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Gotham is full of drama all day everyday 24/7, I have to imagine even Oswald gets sick of it after a while lol. Anyway he’s very good at losing himself to his own plans and thoughts driven by his emotions, pushing the rest of the world aside so he can solely focus on his revenge. He never forgets a grudge, he always gets what’s “deserved” to him (and he’s actually really good at getting revenge too, using Ed’s eventual sentence as an example). Ironically that also fits with how Oswald got his punishment for Isabella’s death, but now he’s paid the price, its Ed’s turn (and anyone else who Oswald had a vendetta against at the time. Which was probably a lot of people idk Oswald makes a lot of enemies in the show)
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Again, Oswald has MAJOR trust issues and this paranoid only grows as the show goes on and more people betray or leave him. He’s also pretty sly himself, and if his plans include completely screwing you over for whatever reason, you better bet he’s going to do it.
As for the latter lyric…
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Do i even need to explain this one?
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There isn’t much I can link for this it just seems like something Oswald would say lmao
Aaaaaand thats all! I didn’t go over repeating choruses for obvious reasons, but that’s my own brainrot explanation for why this song fits him soooo well. Now if you’ll excuse me i’m going to daydream about the animation that would go to this that I’ll probably never do.
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servampaddict · 1 year ago
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Pandora
i'm sooo sorry for not posting anything recently, I have been really busy, I still haven't had time to write about ch 131 but I Will try to do it asap
There is a Greek myth about a woman named Pandora who was created by the gods. The gods were planning to use Pandora as a form of punishment towards Prometheus who gave humankind fire. During the creation of Pandora each of the gods gave her something, and they also made her very curious. The gods gave her a box and told her that under no circumstances she must never open the box, but being made to be curious, she did and inside were disease, war, hunger ,ECT. She managed to shut the box but all that remained was hope.You probably are wondering how this relates to servamp right? With the translations of ch 130 out, and knowing how strike has references to other story's I have came up with three random theories of how these relate. First as shown in the past using the Pandora wrecks havoc where ever it goes, similar to how if Pandora from the Greek myth were to open the box terrible things would be released. Next the box should never be opened ever, which I think means that the Pandora should never be used, even if it seems kind to bring someone back to life. (someone like kuro who had a whole life ahead of him) Last and probably the most complicated, once the Pandora goes through the gate I believe that hope is returned to the vessel in the form of the demon(core), so that the soul get to hope again and have another future.
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I think the vessel,blood and spirit also play a part in this. The vessel already exists, but the blood no longer gives life, and the spirit has left the body after death, as explained by tsubaki when asking kuro if he would save mahiru's uncle. I think that the jinn and the blood become one to give the body life, and the demon brings the spirit back to vessel and then the jinn is sealed Inside, that's why the servamps still have there old memories they still have there souls.I believe that the whole process of creating a servamp is pulled off by the sake of hope the only thing left inside of Pandora's box. I see the Pandora as the one collecting the jinn and once it's through the gate it the demon and the soul are put back by the that tiny skeleton thing and the thing on the counts necklace. I also see this whole concept of hope is also pointing towards the demon.The sins have always been hated I wonder if it was hope for the demon to be accepted as well as for the dead.One thing completely unrelated did the count discover this or did someone teach him? Were there any failures before kuro? Why (besides he didn't like death)? What is his goal? Everything about the count is mystery.(and my writing to lol)
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frecklystars · 3 months ago
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Fic anon if you are out there,,, idk if you will see this but I was wondering if you were still down for an art trade 🥺
So I um,,, I wanted to ask for a Driver fic for months now but I’ve held back because I was worried it was too stupid. But then I remembered you’ve written me mostly hurt/comfort and you haven’t treated my ptsd like it’s stupid at all, so ;-; I thought I’d throw this post into the void. But you don’t have to write anything if you don’t want to!! This is entirely your decision, and ofc I will draw you anything in return if you were up for it.
So um here is the thing,,, I love Driver sooo much but I’ve struggled for almost a year now with feeling kind of. scared of him. The reasons for it are dumb and I won’t bore you with it, but like. So Damn Much has happened in the last two years and self shipping is so difficult for me. The trauma I’ve gone thru that gave me cptsd in the first place ruined self shipping for me just in general, and then I started to feel better after the Barbie movie started healing me. But I still don’t feel safe with my F/Os every day, it’s an on and off experience, and I’m always going to fear them in the back of my head even on my good days. But out of all of my Ryan F/Os, I’ve felt the worst around Driver... which breaks my heart because he’s my second favorite Ryan F/O tied with K!! He is sooo dear to me. I don’t engage with fics in the Ryan community because there might be some ppl who don’t like self shippers engaging with their content, and I’m always too afraid to step on any toes. but I wonder if reading something rly soft and gentle with Driver might make me feel better.
I was hoping if you were down for it, if you could write something rly comforting and soft with him? It doesn’t have to be anything in particular. It could be a romantic date without any angst, or it could be a hurt/comfort thing full of angst, it could be anything you are comfortable writing.
Sometimes I feel comforted thinking about how maybe he’s rly worried about me when I don’t visit his dimension for a long time, and he knows it’s because there’s something about him that scares me. Well - it’s not him, it’s just… some incidents I associate with him. But still, I do draw some comfort from the idea of him being really devastated that his own girlfriend flinches around him or avoids him entirely every so often without warning. Sometimes it’s nightmares related to ptsd, sometimes it’s a flashback of something else, sometimes it’s just paranoia/anxiety, but any time these things happen, he gets a little nervous that it’s his fault somehow. He knows it’s not his fault, he knows she’s got a lot of trauma and has been through way too much, but it hurts him to know that out of every guy in that room, he’s probably the one she’s scared of the most. Sometimes I’ll draw comics with Ken holding my star form, and Driver sees it, immediately pivots and walks away because he’s afraid she’s had a nightmare about him or something. And Ken rushes to say “no no, wait, the nightmare wasn’t about you/she was triggered by something unrelated to us” etc, he turns back around and Ken’s like “here, you should hold her.” And Driver shakes his head and steps back because he doesn’t want to make it worse. And Ken insists “dude, you’re her boyfriend, you need to show her you’re there for her” and he reluctantly takes the star and just. hugs her.
Like… it’s sad to think about stuff like that, but it does make me feel better, to think he cares about me that much that he’d want to still be considerate of my boundaries. Or that he wouldn’t hate me for being so… jittery and broken. Or I’ve drawn some other stuff too where she’ll jolt awake from a nightmare and he immediately keeps his distance, and when she calms down he asks “are you scared of me?” and if she says no then he asks “can I touch you?” And tells her it’s ok and holds her. And then takes her out for a drive since she won’t be able to fall back asleep again. Gets some apple pie at a diner, gives her his jacket. Thinking about that makes me feel better ;-; I think my biggest worry is always that my ptsd is “too much” for my F/Os to handle, or that they wouldn’t love me when I’m like this. And then feeling unsafe with my F/Os on top of it just,,, it’s just a bad time all around, so I was thinking maybe reading someone else’s perspective on them still being loving and gentle w/ me despite everything would be something good for me to focus on when I’m having a bad day.
You don’t even have to write a hurt/comfort thing if you don’t want to, you can write any scenario you want, or you don’t have to write it at all!! If this is something you don’t have the energy for or you’re just not feeling it, that’s totally okay. If you are up for it, I will draw you anything you want in return. I’m tied up with commissions at the moment so I’d only be able to do the simple art style with the little dot-eyes, but I’d color it and add my sparkles and make everything look nice and pretty just for you. And you can be as specific with your request as you want.
Also I love you and hope you’re doing well, giving you hugs and sending you stars 🌟✨🌟✨🌟✨
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a-slight-disparity · 1 year ago
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A theory/prediction
Sooo.... I've been thinking about what might happen in vol 2 of CCCC, because holy shit am I both excited and very very scared. And something that I noticed was that each of the segments in the first volume begin with "C", much like the abbreviation of the title itself. Calamity, Cacophony and Concord. I think in vol 2 there will be a fourth one as well as the intro to Calamity and Outro from Concord. (I mean it could also only be three because there's three sides but-)
I was looking up the definitions of the words and something that I noticed was that only 2/3 were related to music. Calamity is just a disastrous event. So maybe the fourth word will also be unrelated to music as well? I was thinking something like "Clarity" since it goes beyond simply agreeing to stop fighting and actually trying to understand each others' point of view etc. Another reason is because it is like the calm before a storm. Before Calamity. But what exactly is Calamity? I can't be 100% certain, but after looking at some other people's posts and the Q&A with the man himself... it points in a direction that I don't think anybody's going to like.(I mean, other than for angst reasons lol).
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Are you still reading?
Okay, ermmm. Judging by some of the lyrics, I'm very much leaning towards the idea that Soul will probably die in Calamity or something. Or well, "die". After reading this post:
It made me remember the lyrics for time machine (reprise). Aand correct me if I'm wrong but it would seem like in the very beginning its only Heart and Mind's voices screaming out to stop it, which is followed by who I assume to be Whole telling them that he's not listening. Given that the next album is almost certainly a part of the loop too, I think what might've happened is that after the events of Clarity, instead of wanting to be Whole again, they want to remain separate despite getting along. And one way or another Soul pays the price for this.
You see in the Q&A I got the impression that Mr Jash wasn't entirely sure what to do with Soul, or what he represented exactly aside from his role as a mediator of sorts. However I have seen him being compared to the ego/self of the three frequently enough, which imo makes sense because all he seemingly wants is for them to stop fighting whilst at the same time considering them to be parasites. Ever heard of the phrase "killing your ego"? Perhaps that's what the other two accidently achieve by straying too far from him, causing Whole to eventually reset the loop since he doesn't want his sense of identity to remain "dead"(he probably just got absorbed by the other two if that's even possible).
It's just a theory, since there's always a chance we'll get introduced to entirely new characters and external events which will be a catalyst for the plot. But given the numerous instances of a duality theme in Tallyhall's second album, I get the feeling Heart and Mind will be pretty important. So yeah.
Also Soul rhymes with "toll".
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kamiversee · 5 months ago
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unrelated but favorite non anime shows or characters???❤️❤️❤️
You’ve triggered my yapping ^.^ sorry this is so long
Anything & everything Marvel. My favv from the MCU is Dr. Strange & Spiderman 🙂‍↕️ though, if I continue to list characters, I will have a yap session the length of my shortest chapters….
Moana, Tiana, & Rapunzel are my fav Disney princesses ^.^
I love, love, LOVE the amazing world of gumball, steven universe, & teen titians. (Darwin, Garnet, & Starfire were my favs from each show)
I’m also a zombie fanatic (to some extent at least) so a lot of my favorite movies/shows surround that, for example I have rewatched twd START to FINISH, like four times. ITS SO GOOD 😩 (Michonne, Daryl& Glenn are my favs) Glenn is so fine too. UGH I also loved the movie wwz, just anything zombie related I enjoy
I like alien-based movies too, & horror movies tht don’t include paranormal shit (ghosts & demonic shit terrify me.) sooo I rlly loved the movie Nope & I’m obsessed w all the Quiet Place movies
I’m watching bridgerton currently sooo I don’t really have any favs yet even tho I’m in season two… I kinda just like everyone for the most part so far 😭
AVATAR THE LAST AIR-BENDER IS ONE OF MY FAV SHOWS OF ALL TIME. Toph is my fav. Azula is my fav villian. Zuko was like my first crush, bye. Sokka is lowk my comfort character. Appa is so CUTE UGH. Katara pmo most of the time but I love her ig… & Aang is Aang, I love him ofc!
Yk tht moment where you get asked abt your fav stuff & lowkey forget every ounce of entertainment you’ve ever consumed…. Yeah that’s me rn 😭 There’s a lot more I wanna add but I can’t think so if I rmb, I’ll come back & edit this!
Ty for askin such a wonderful question tho! <3
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aidsyouinthinking · 27 days ago
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Inktober drive
Subject: A letter, of purpose influx...
I do not need you,
If there is anything in relation to you, that I need;
It is the lack thereof–
But even so, I'm inclined,
all parts of me have an ideology– coinciding;
With the fact "you are useful".
I could journey for person new and pay them pretty penny too,
But we know what I'm going to do follow nose through fires true.
I suspect guilt- and fear you'll rue: tapestry built gives plenty clue,
But my circumstance, it accrue; willpower wakes– perverse in me.
I see glint in well.
We fear not being pulled in,
as shared webbing bind our souls with others above.
In well with wall made from sin, you sail down slow so you don't go–
Thinking "love... (kind of?)" :
No matter what parts think;
that sandwich,
it was eaten under extreme duress.
A stoic judgment must be met,
at bottom of the well where a window shattered lies,
But I admit; I do abet–
The concept; to confide: together all pried with eyes–
knowing all the keepsakes we kept;
A motivation intellectual bites bullet– dead; now lies.
Schrodinger's blank; Lies, Motivation....
The aim of this is to process: to ultimately assess:
Lonely surgeon can't operate on themselves,
So commits their surgeries to others;
One to burn judgmental books,
Another to fashion rhymes from flesh.
A Jazzy Metronome buzzes to blinding Blur,
As feet Follow, lefties swept off and concur!
A parasite clings to Coattails in own blood it stir;
As taken down a peg and leg and waist– it prefer!
A now pool of blood wishes your tempo-ed trampling to incur~
It's such a rowdy bunch you know?
And like mothers meeting…– in library,
to rightly complain of pressures underserved
Unrelenting; omni present and structural.
I desire to confide,
Even if I should be against it,
Mothers don't put their lambs on plate.
But mama bear does grow hungry.
We're confused, but not pained.
We fear not heaven nor hell, but limbo lacking.
We, nervous system, are. our. own. greatest enemy.
I want you, if you'll have me...
in accordance to our dewy decimal system.
If there's a chance –Without pain– to make this work,
Well all of me, (astoundingly) would feel amiss not to try.
Here's to phoenix cauterising lacerations
and bridges' ashes smoothing shards
on which I'll pace;
From, A moment slowly dying.
Subject: Ps side note
It must have been and continues to be, surreal...
To have a feed –though creatively distorted– of my ever frank externalised internal dialogue... like a neurology case study with a person missing their brain pan... I don't know why I feel no need to censor this format, regardless of your's and other's potential eyes.
But I'm glad, We censor ourselves too much – even from ourselves.
Subject: Pps More of the same
I am compassionate.
I wish you well.
But I don't have magic.
A Two time:
Beautiful poison or prickly friend.
A problem I need to defend.
Subject: ppps Limbo Lacking Lurks Lavishly | unread
Subject: pppps Nvm bad idea see you never | unread
Subject: ppppps Ae drunkard is sorry | unread
Subject: pppppps Omg philosophy tube!~ | unread
Subject: ppppppps Dw my poems are Über hyperbolic, you'll just have to talk to know my real thoughts | unread
Subject: pppppppps Also yes very meta of me | unread
Subject: ppppppppps I will tell you anything you need to know to just say yes or no, I suppose like me it is so; that forever this can go | unread, unread, unread, unread, unread, unread, unread unread
New Email!
Subject: It's becoming my life again, isn't it?
After further processing— thanks to poetry, I/We/me/myself now appreciate this “intellectual endeavour” as bacon wrapping the bullet, for the same puppy idolising potentialities of camaraderie, I fancied myself as Kim, but I’m much more a harry. Two of those a functional duo does not make, at least not likely. Perhaps this polarisation of the self would make good surgery, but best not do those in unsterilised room. I still need disinfecting since last.
At this point it is my issue, and I will do my best… sooo…
In for a pound, drop like a penny!
Heads or tails, you better hold steady >:}
Wait and see, emergency!
Break the glass, for choice bypass~
Drum roll
lacking toll
of pesky free will!
The crowd
they shout loud
with ambivalent shrill!
on floor what’s in store shows through that metal spill!
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Pop goes the cherry weasel and coin!
Suppose we’re giving an honest go to rejoin.
Note: Of course, All over the place, makes sense...
Subject: Final one, ... I hope
I read your spilled writing. Please keep it up, it’s a really useful tool.
I've steeped myself in old playlists to remember how it all felt.
As much as I might feel I need someone who I can actually confide in about this.
I don't think you are a good candidate. We'd burden each other, it'd be helpless.
And I know half of me just wants to greedily learn every drop of what forged you,
to feel less alone as I've always and ever felt, Stuck with no company but myself.
I hope your luck holds true, but I will not let my ever-growing guilt from that five year old, puppeteer me into stringent dance on the fringes of the echo of the trail of spiders and company,
I don't know you, I'm not competent enough-- in-right-mind enough; for that or for any of this.
I'm a being of impulsivity a non-sensical wraith prowling for beggars to take coin from.
I will not block you, I should, but the coin, and so I will disregard it but pay it this favour.
The favour; the opportunity, to say after all that- trying to scare you away “we can still hang sure, yeah.”.
I wished to do better, I long for better, for the chance to know,
but these learned behaviours like webbing echo,
emotions estranged into void deep,
which gurgle and bellow; feelings creep,
unrequited but deserved.
You are a mirror and reminder that I am not whole- unfinished- fractured- overflowing- How ever anyone or everyone would put it!… I want you to know,
but It’d be talking to the blistering sun while coughing up the blistering cold.
This is bare truth, pay it in turn, pay it no mind, bloody hell, pay it disgust.
Signed by AIdan&Co
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