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ah, yes, a dose of generational trauma i didn't think id be the black sheep breaking it while rebuilding myself
#tower cards instills fear in many#it just tells me that i gotta break some things down#sometimes myself#sometimes foundations around me#even the 'comfort zones' that no longer were#i was just holding onto them with hope that was already gone#stubborn little shit
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got lipgloss for the first time today :]
#i have weirdly specific feelings abt wearing makeup#i wear a bit of eyeliner and eyeshadow sometimes#but ive always had. really weird feelings abt stuff on my lips?#not just as a sensory thing but like. idk. it changes my face so much it lowkey freaks me out sometimes#i had a phase around 16-17 i did tons of weird creative makeup including clown looks but even then i only did it in a super specific way#and only ever black lipstick and ONLY on days i was doing weird shit with my eyes or cheeks#but since t and top surgery a lot of my body dysphoria is like. basically gone?#and i feel a lot more free to play with makeup and fashion and stuff#so im dipping my toes in#i dont think i'll ever become a Makeup Person#like. foundation makes my skin crawwwwl#but i can at least have fun making my lips look shiny
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I didnt know if i should send this ask or not but you responded to my ryudori brainrot post and im entering the epilogue rn. And i just. EVEN MINAKO KNOWS THERES SOMETHING GOING ON BETWEEN THE TWO
The fact that 2/3s of the rest of the 6.5 cast constantly ask/bother these two about them possibly dating will never not be funny to me honestly. Minako especially feels like the kind that would wanna know every detail of it
#if my memory doesn't fail me i think Midori leaves right away after she starts asking this?#idk it's been a long while since i last watched this#also I'm so sorry for fankid rambling that's not what you're here for#but when i think of them i think of Akira and her following these two around the foundation as a kid#Midori because Minako chats with her often so whenever she was being looked over by her grandma there she'd be with midori too#and from being with Midori she meets Ryutaro and sorta sticks to him as well. whenever he is at the facility at least#so you have this kid that follows these two around sometimes when her mothers are busy#and when she grows older and Ryutaro and Midori have kids of their own those kids follow Akira around like she did with their parents#not that i have any Ryudori fankid tho. i just think it's a cute idea#+ i have a feeling they would have at least one kid in the future if they got together#dra#danganronpa another#ryutaro Maki#midori yamaguchi#hyena ramblings
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⧠I wonât really write descriptions for these, but see original post tags for explanation/commentary on the song snippet â§
#beepo tag#silly.. I've been doing more improvising random nonsensical lyrics in english rather than just gibberish languages recently. I think maybe#because I've been feeling kind of sick so when I do get the chance to sit down and record a bunch of little 10 min of effort#snippets in a day - my main goal is less experimenting with sounding interesting fantasy choir stuff (what#I used to do more often.. like thinking about layering lots of voices and sounding like an elven lullaby or something)#and more just 'I feel bad I just want to mess around and make myself laugh' etc.#I do still have some more Serious Fantasy Choir drafts saved and such but I've been gravitating more towards#like 'old man singing about cheese' just because it amuses me ghbj#ANYWAY.. if all of my goofy song snippets seem to just be silly shitpost type stuff more recently.. this is why perhaps#In my Goofy Era... (also my Kazoo era still.. though is it really an era if it's foundational to my being? (which kazoo is))#though at the end of the day I will still always love a little elven choir... sometimes one simply must get silly with it
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ngl I can't really watch LoK and draw fanart of it at the same time because I really give myself whiplash with how I draw/portray the characters [*coughs* Baatar] compared to the show lol like I have indeed deluded my brain into perceiving my AU as the canon.
#LoK Thoughts#[ I will own up to the fact that my versions of Baatar and Kuvira could be called OOC#but i mean that's the fun of fictional people#but I will be the first to admit I am the biggest âhe wouldn't fucking say thatâ re: Baatar that exists LMFAO#in my defense I did build my AU versions of them off of the foundations that were present#I just gave them more personality/more to do I feel#but of course in ways I like most#someday I want to get around to maybe posting some of the writing I've done for my AUs of them#because I do really like how Baatar and Kuvira talk in my mind lol their dialogue is very fun to me#they never shut up#I have a comic I want to do of them that showcases that like they talk A LOT to each other#idk where all this came from lol sometimes I wanna talk about LoK at random times but don't know where to take it all XD ]
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Sunken Cost Relationship
Vox and Valentino have been together for almost 50 years, on and off. They had their issues when they got together, like any couple, growing pains and the like. People always say not to mix business and pleasure, but when your business is pleasure, that gets murky. For the first 15 years, things were good. They rarely fought, and certainly never anything an apology couldnât fix. It felt like a dream in Hell, something Vox had never dared hope for.
The first time they break up, Vox honestly believes itïżœïżœs the end. Fifteen years is a good run, longer than most peopleâ sure itâs not that long when foreverâs on the table, or even those happy marriages where people have been married almost all their lives, but this is Hell, thatâs just unreasonable.
And for three weeks that holds out. And then because their businesses are so extricable, they have a meeting that ends with them making out on the desk. Itâs easy enough to say that breaking up was a mistake. And maybe their relationship is a little more fraught after that, but they move past it. Theyâre the Overlord power couple, itâll take more than that to break them up.
Theyâre good in the 1990s, honestly. Sure Val breaks his screen for the first time, but itâs an accident. (And it is the first time, the second time itâs harder to defend, but he still does... and the third, and thr fourth). Itâs all private, the only people who know that maybe something is amiss is Hellaina and some of Valentinoâs employees. To the rest of Hell theyâre just as united as they ever were.
Vox honestly canât say when it changed, when the relationship started going âon-again off-againâ, or when the off agains started getting longer, and more frequent. When it became a challenge to see who could post about Voxâs broken screen first. Probably just after it became public instead of private. A screaming match at dinner, a snippy comment at a party, forgotten dates, a missed anniversary. That one star of Valâs who looked at him like she was sorry (and that, try as he might, heâs never been able to forget).
Now, Vox brings flowers and apologies and holds onto the better times, like itâs a rough patch. Twenty-five years is a long time, but not when foreverâs on the table.
#tw: abuse#*personnel file (hc)#Vox & Val and the sunken cost#of I have been with this person for 50 years#neither of them are willing to leave fully#but also it is increasingly toxic#Like there is no part of me that thinks they can ever go back#sometimes you need to burn everything and start over#And at this point#I think Vox is getting to that point#like he's starting to realize all these smaller things#that he's been ignoring for decades#have built up around them#like the house where it's beautiful but the foundation is all rot#but he hasn't quite made the leap from that#to actually leaving#and I mean 50 years of business is a lot to unpack#Val is Vox's ONLY long term relationship#and it's scary to leave when the good is good and the bad is...#the reason for the yo-yo at all#or the continuation of I have thoughts about this relationship#I wouldn't say I ship it exactly#but it's so complex-- like it had to be good once#there has to be a reason for Vox to keep going back#and I do think Val cares for him#it doesn't stop Val being abusive#I'm rooting for Vox to leave him#sooner rather than later-- but like permanent#also almost this whole hc was written to Taylor Swift's#we are never getting back together
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are we seriously still doing the whole 'art needs to have meaning to be real art' thing? i thought we covered this with the 'you should only get tattoos that mean something' debate
#sometimes you just want a pretty picture#meaning is something we put in ourselves#regardless of what medium we use to make art#you'd think this is pretty simple#but to people that also argue you need to suffer for your art for it to have actual meaning i guess not#turn around again and tell me how u believe disabled people dont need to suffer to 'redeem' themselves i definitely believe thats an actual#part of your moral foundation not a thing you heard on tumblr by osmosis and decided its pretty enough to repeat
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For anyone who doesn't understand, I'm going to just break it down:
That executive chose the worst possible example to criticize their clients and I hope the company he worked for is freaking the fuck out now, because screw them.
In most cases epilepsy is believed to be less of a disorder and more of a symptom
We still don't know what the fuck causes grand mal or mini mal seizures because there's literally so many different possible reasons why someone can have a seizure varying from poor nutrition, brain swelling, dropped a lot, flashing lights, dehydration, low blood sugar
and most fun of all-- brain tumors.
One almost killed my twenty seven year old friend last year and caused her to have multiple seizures-- including one that broke out while she was driving. She went in and out of surgery for months to get every single piece of her tumor removed because it turns out tumors are just completely shit for your brain and a pretty life threatening condition.
Brain surgery is also super rough on young adults in the prime of their lives who are more than capable of understanding what they're going through and the risks associated.
Before she entered her first surgery, and every single time after (partially because people going in and out of brain surgery sometimes don't have the best memory), they gave her a packet on alternative methods of treatment and approaches that they would likely take if her cancer were to reappear. Proton therapy was considered a future option because it creates less damage to surrounding cells than radiation, which was considered a pretty pressing concern considering the fact that it was her brain.
People use their brains to, you know, think and stuff. Also walk and talk and breathe and smell-- all of that ordinary shit that makes precise and effective treatment all the more important. People tend to be pretty careful with treatment options when it comes to the brain and its many ailments, because awful things can happen when you're not.
Proton therapy was also presented as a possible future method of treatment to my parents when I was first diagnosed with epilepsy as a kid and they sat in the er following me bashing my skull in on the sidewalk outside of my school. Curiously, because it is a targeted treatment meant to destroy tumor cells, my parents were informed it was only really an option if I had brain tumors.
Because believe it or not, doctors are not nor have they ever been really strapped and ready to fire lasers at everyone and everything. Especially knowing that a treatment like proton laser therapy can cause damage to surrounding cells.
To the shock and disbelief of many, despite the fact that lasers are objectively cool, they're typically only used when the benefits outweigh the risks and a doctor has a well documented and argued case for using them. You know, like finding a tumor in a CT or MRI. (And boy do you get a lot of CTs and MRIs when you have epilepsy)
Now, I'm no fucking healthcare executive, but I am uniquely qualified in being a former epileptic and a former child epileptic with emotionally present parents, and to be frank?
Seizures of any kind are terrifying experiences for a child. They pose a massive risk for injury and death, paired with an emotional toll that does not fade away. My grandmother choked on her tongue and dentures during a seizure and passed away while I continued to be a child actively having grand mals. My friend with the tumor had a mini mal (what doctors consider the less severe option) and drove off the road, nearly injuring herself and others. When I had finally passed the seizure-free threshold to have a shot at being a non epileptic adult, I had to wait six months to drive for the very first time.
And when I was twenty two and received a severe concussion after years of being seizure free? They still sent me through a tube and then put me in the rubber cap with wires everywhere so they could read my brain activity. All because we never did find out why I had seizures, so I get to live the rest of my life like this, worrying about every brain injury and constantly waiting for the next one. It's super fun and I definitely recommend it.
If someone had told my parents that I had a condition that indicated a need for proton laser therapy and that it had a very good chance of stopping my seizures all together or even slightly lessening the chance of me having seizures, they would have done anything to get it--
And it would have been fucking worth it, because of the life I would have had as a result of that. A life that so many other people deserve to have regardless of how it slightly lowers quarterly profit margins.
So
Fuck Cigna, fuck united, and fuck the us privatized health insurance scheme. Fuck that executive in particular and every single high level employee who wants to go crying to the press about how people don't want to pay their companies to watch them fucking die.
Survival shouldn't have a premium.
It is really disturbing how people can lose their humanity and threaten you just because you *checks notes* sentenced their child to death :'(
#also fun fact about epilepsy charities#I learned when I was an adult and my parents felt like I was finally cool and mature enough to know about these things#that a lot of them actually don't help you afford treatment or advocate for your quality of living at all#A few well known national ones actually just have little camps (that you pay for <3) where you go to meet other people with epilepsy#but they do this once a year#and you might be wondering what they do for the rest of the year and let me tell you#avoid taxes :)#Also two very large organizations that were working together to fight epilepsy... let's call them savers and the epilepsy foundation#because it was savers and the epilepsy foundation#basically they just like dicked around and laundered money together and once a year they would have a pizza party in our area#where they would take all of the money that they raised from a year of fundraising in our area#and give seven epileptic kids one slice of pizza each#also not every child could have pizza because some had allergies but those bitches would be damned if you had a second slice#anyway the point is sometimes insurance companies will deny epilepsy treatment and be like have you tried a charity to help you#âwe can deny you because there's charities for this sort of thingâ#and then you would go to the charity and they would be like yeah keppra's expensive but all we can do is give you these packets#and then the packets are literally like âwhat is a seizureâ âwhy is my child convulsingâ#genuinely dehumanizing
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my family is fucking addicted to macgyvering and it's becoming a problem. every time something in this house breaks, instead of doing the sensible thing of replacing it or calling someone qualified to fix it, we all group around the offending object with a manic look in our eyes and everyone gets a try at fixing it while being cheered on or ridiculed by the rest.
it's a beautiful bonding activity, but the "creative" fixes have turned our house into a quasihaunted escape room like contraption where everything works, but only in the wonkiest of ways. you need a huge block of iron to turn on the stove. the oven only works if a specific clock is plugged in. the bread machine has a huge wood block just stapled to it that has become foundational to its function. sometimes when you use the toaster the doorbell rings. and that's just the kitchen.
it's all fun and games until you have guests over and you have to lay out the rules of the house like it's a fucking board game. welcome to the beautiful guest room. don't pull out the couch yourself you need a screwdriver for that, and that metal rod makes the lamp work so don't move it. it also made me a terrifying roommate in college, because it makes me think i can fix anything with enough hubris and a drill. you want to call the landlord about a leaky faucet? as if. one time my dad made me install a new power socket because we ran our of extension cords
#this post was inspired by me using a screwdriver to take the broiler off the wall because the warm water stopped working#while my dad went well there is only cables in there. who are we if we dont find our ways around some cables#damn right!!!!
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Started replaying sonic frontiers and have been having a blast but also why is the switch version so fucked
#ramblings#the graphics......#i forgot just how bad they were. how did they fuck it up so bad for this version specifically#bc i KNOW the other versions don't look like that#it's baffling#sonic frontiers is my favorite 3ds game#i mean it's not that bad. there's worse looking games on the switch. probably#i am also playing on a switch lite#but still other games still look wonderful on my switch why is frontiers specifically Like That#sonic also feels really finicky to control sometimes but like that's a problem with most sonic games so. whatever#i might need to just adjust my settings or something#still. aside from that. been having fun :]#i needed to see sonic just interacting with his friends again#and running around the islands doing random stuff#it gets me thinking about what future games could be like. bc looking at sonic x shadow gens#it really feels like they're building upon frontiers' foundation. at least with how their making the main hub an open zone#makes me excited for when they make a new standalone game#i hope we get news for something like that soon. not rushing for them to pump out a game right after sonic x shadow gens but y'know#like an announcement that they're working on something. a teaser maybe#i wanna feel the same insanity i felt when frontiers was first teased basically#tho it might still be a bit too soon to ask for that#aghhhh i wanna know what comes next so baddddddd i wish i wasn't so impatient#wow i went completely off topic. anyway
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Networking/Knowing A Guy: A Guide
This is the autism website. Now, as an extension of the power of love and friendship, there are few things more useful than Knowing A Guy. Knowing A Guy means you have a support network. Knowing a plumber, or a tax accountant, or just that one dude that's really fucking good at finding the information you need when you're really overwhelmed, can be the difference between being able to pay rent and having a fun party with friends to fix your shit.
How does one end up Knowing A Guy? It's a skill you can develop called Networking and it is one of the foundations of society. Unfortunately making those connections with people is fucking hard and nobody makes a tutorial for it. So, here you go:
The golden rule is you scratch my back and I scratch yours
It is necessary for survival to seek out useful people
Great news! Everyone is useful in some form or fashion - including you! When given the opportunity to learn about someone, do it! Extroversion does not come naturally to some people and that's okay. Just take whatever falls in your lap.
Types of usefulness: trade skills, connections of their own, personality you jive with, pleasant to talk to, niche interest in shared hobby, security - the list is pretty much endless. I know a guy that lives in the metro area - no job, no major hobbies, inoffensively annoying to me personally, kinda ignorant, not attractive to me, but you know what? He knows how the fuck to get around the city by foot. My rural-raised ass APPRECIATES the guide.
Remember important information: general personality, background, skillset, likes and dislikes. You can find this information by making smalltalk about their life. There is no such thing as pointless conversation. (Yes, even the annoying smalltalk)
The more people you know, the higher the likelihood that one of them will be useful in a given situation - or will know someone who is.
It is overwhelming. In a given clique/community/workspace/whatever, there is A Guy Who Knows The Other Guys. This Guy is a shortcut. Find them. They're often elderly, extroverted, a little bit annoying, a secretary or in some otherwise forward-facing position. Look for people that are gossipy/talk about other people a lot but not in negative ways. If they constantly talk shit, they'll talk shit about you too. They're still useful but be careful with the information you share
You do not have to like someone for them to be useful.
You do not have to like someone for them to be useful.*
If you have low self esteem, you're going to feel like you're using people. You're not. That's the devil talking. People like feeling valued and the connections you are making are the threads holding community together. Recognize people for their talents. It's only a problem when you're taking advantage of people
So: don't feel scummy about it. You're an animal. You have to claw out your right to survive and people will respect you more for it.
Luckily mutualism is the name of the game in the animal kingdom. Offer something back. The foundation of a Know A Guy relationship is Mutual Benefit
Sometimes that Mutual Benefit is just spreading news of the The Guy far and wide. My plumber friend is my actual friend and I love her to death, but I'm maintaining our backscratch relationship by pimping out her plumbing business to anyone that'll listen
Food is a good Mutual Benefit. People across cultures for all of human history have bonded over food. I have good success asking people for a favor and then offering to buy them lunch in return **
General compensation is also good. Offer a service in return and always do your best to offer financial compensation as appropriate. Having your plumber friend take a look at your drain: doable with a case of beer. Having your plumber friend redo the pipes in your entire house? You need to pay for that.
Being transactional is not necessarily a bad thing. I would advise against keeping an itemized list of things owed, but fish don't seek out cleaner shrimp just because they enjoy their company. Everyone gets something
Unfortunately being extroverted and generally personable is a huge benefit here, but that's the value of the Guy That Knows A Guy. There's someone out there that has consolidated All The Guys so you don't have to be the local expert. Always remember nobody can do everything and you don't need to master every skill
* This is the foundation of a functioning community. I have many acquaintances that I find incredibly annoying. They include doctors, welders, artists, social workers, lawyers, construction crew and random fuckers at the grocery store. I do not hang out with them. I do not have to in order to maintain a civil Know A Guy relationship. I can drop them useful tidbits and fuck right off so I don't have to spend any more time than necessary with them
** People may assume romantic intent. Be prepared for that. I generally denote that it's a friendly/work lunch by calling them bro at some point if they're my age. Otherwise my general demeanor is sufficient to show that I do this with everyone
Source: personal experience, mother's teachings of crime, booth vending and poverty
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the art & science of parenting 101 â p. js
âł summary ââ the art & science of parenting 101 (PSY1009): in this interactive course, students will explore the psychological, social, and biological foundations of parenthood. through a mix of theory and hands-on practice, you'll master the art of raising a simulated babyâaka the 'robot child'. late-night feedings, tantrum taming, and crisis control are all part of the deal.  what you didn't expect to be part of the deal? getting paired with jay parkâthe last person you'd trust to raise, well, anything. youâre pretty sure he couldnât even take care of a pet rock. now, youâre stuck co-parenting this robot baby together for 40% of your final grade. warning: sleep deprivation is guaranteed. and maybe, just maybe, some unexpected feelings for your disaster of a partner. good luck!Â
âł pairing ââ jay park x y/n [ft. enha members!]
âł genre ââ e2l!au, college!au, (fake)parenting!au, he-fell-first, she-fell-harder type beat lolz || fluff, crack
âł âá°. 20.5k [ONCE AGAIN -- this was not intentional..if you know me i just have too much fun writing sometimes & get too attached to the characters...]
âł contains ââ mentions of parenting & parental neglect (sorta, only a smidge of like five words), crack! bc if you know me i self indulge in crack whoops, jay & y/n being opposites & school rivals, jay's annoying smirk like a million times, reader & jay are psych majors, jay's also a photographer, cheesy ass kisses, jay & reader are awkward! so awkward! thereâs SO much tension . but in a cute awkward crush way
âł addie's â .á ââ omg itâs finally done. tell me why it took me so long to finish, i promise i didnât mean to but lifeâs been busier lately :â) aNyways! ugh i luv writing e2l!jay for some reason,,,he fits the trope so well in my eyes heh but i hope you all like him & the characters as much as i enjoyed writing them !!! as busy as i am i love indulging in my crack x enha writes :P hope u enjoy & tell me what you think <333
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Welcome to PSY1009, The Art & Science of Parenting 101! Throughout the next 12 weeks, weâre going to dive deep into the wondrous world of parentingâdirty diapers and all. To kick off our course, weâre starting with our campus-famous project: raising your very own robot baby for the first half of the semester (with the help of your assigned partner, of course). Before our first class, we ask that you complete this pre-project questionnaire on your current views and opinions about parenting. No pressureâthere are no right or wrong answers (maybe only judgements from your future robot offspring)!
Q1 â The Art & Science of Parenting 101 aims to apply different psychological approaches to parenting. What theories and methods do you believe are important to parenting?Â
Y/N's Submission [8:25AM, September 18th]:
"I strongly believe that effective parenting revolves around a strict routine, which can be reinforced through the principles of operant conditioning, as developed by B.F. Skinner. Proper feeding schedules, consistent nap times, and regular development check-ins are essentialâI think a structured timetable would ensure a baby's needs are met efficiently and consistently. With a set schedule and a focus on developmental milestones, I believe we can maximize a child's growth potential, even if it's just a robot baby.â
Q2 â What do you expect to learn and gain out of this co-parenting experience? Â
Y/N's Submission [8:29AM, September 18th]: Â
"I expect to confirm that a well-organized system is the key to successful parenting. I want to test my hypothesis that if you follow a set structure, yes, even with a robot baby, things will run smoothly. I am hoping that this experience runs smoothly with no unnecessary surprises.âÂ
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Satisfied with your answers, you click 'submit' and close your laptop, feeling a wave of satisfaction as you settle into your seatâcenter of the second rowâas you wait for the 9AM lecture to start. Â
It's 8:30AM. Â
You're the only one in the room. Â
Yeah, you're a little early. So what? One can never be too prepared. You've waited for this course forever, and you're determined to not only ace it (like you do with every class) but to dominate. So yes, coming early is characteristic of you, as you want to ensure you get the best seat in the classroom: center of the second rowâcenter to get the best view of the professor's podium, and second row to be close enough to show you're engaged, but not close enough that it screams, Look at me, I'm a tryhard! Â
It's clear you've come prepared. Plus, this class isn't just any ordinary electiveâit's the elective to take. Only the top students majoring in psychology get in, available only through direct invite by the professor. If you were invited to PSY1009, it meant you were the crĂšme de la crĂšme of psychology students. The best of the best. The elite. TheâÂ
Your train of thought is derailed when an all-too-familiar figure strolls into the room with that signature smirk. Backpack slung lazily over one (1) shoulder (as if two straps are too much effort), hair clearly still bedhead status, wearing whatever clothes he fished off The Chair (you know, the oneâwhere all questionable, semi-clean laundry lives).Â
He strolls past youâof courseâand plops down right in front of you.
Front row. Â
Try-hard.Â
"Y/N, fancy seeing you here," Jay Park spins around, a knowing look plastered on his face, eyes gleaming. "I missed seeing that frown of yours all summer."Â
"What are you doing here, Jay?" You roll your eyes and scoff at his comment. "Don't tell me you got into this class. It's for serious students."Â Â
Jay's grin only widens to your despair. "Contrary to your deeply misinformed opinion, Professor Kim actually loves me. I'm a great student."Â Â
âI donât believe it,â you deadpan back. âYou never turn your assignments in on time, and quite frankly, I'm surprised you were even able to find this classroom."Â Â
Jay shrugs, unfazed. "What can I say? Professor Kim doesn't just look at deadlines, she looks at talent. Guess that says a lot about me, huh?"Â Â
You mumble something under your breath about âtalent for procrastinationâ but before he can fire back, Professor Kim walks into the room, cuing the silence of all the students who've filled up the class. Â
"Good morning, class! I'm so happy to see so many familiar faces."Â Â
Jay turns his head back towards the front of the room, as you instantly straighten up, flashing your favorite professor a smile. This is officially the fifth course you've taken with Professor Kim. It's no secret youâre one of her biggest fansâthe countless early mornings you've spent waiting at your computer, finger hovering over the âenrollâ button the second registration opens so you can be one of the first students to sign up for her classes have proven that. Challenging but rewarding, her classes are always worth the effort.
And yet, for reasons beyond your comprehension, Jay ParkâJay Freaking Parkâsomehow always ends up in the same classes. Every. Single. Time. Itâs like a curse. Â
A loud, messy, procrastinating curseâŠ
âŠthat just so happens to have a side profile almost as annoyingly good that it only pisses you off more.Â
You wonder if heâs actually here to learn or if heâs just here to spite you. Because, honestly, the amount of classes youâve shared with him is no longer a coincidence. Five semesters in a row? Suspicious.Â
But realistically, and unfortunately, Jay does study the same major as you, which means those last five semesters? Oh, those were five long semesters of endless debates on discussion boards, in-class duels over psychological theories, and the infamous showdown for the TA position in Professor Kim's Intro to Psychology course. And the worst part? Neither of you got the job because Professor Kimâin a diplomatic twist that made zero sense to youâdeemed you both 'equally qualified.' So, the job went to the third best candidate instead. Tough luck. Â
You open up your laptop again, opening a perfectly organized Google Doc, ready to take notes on whatever pearls of wisdom Professor Kim is currently bestowing about your upcoming projectâwhich, in hindsight, you should really be paying attention to. You should be. But something so ridiculous, so blood-boiling, pulls your attention elsewhere. Â
Jay's desk is completely...empty.Â
No laptop. No notebook. Not even a measly little pencil. Did he bring an empty backpack? Or did he just walk in here like he's casually waiting for someone to present him his grade on a silver platter? He's just sitting there like this is a casual hangoutâprobably expecting his robot baby to parent itself while he simply supervises. Â
Before your self-induced inner monologue spirals into complete rage, you suddenly hear your professor's voice cut through the class, breaking you out of your mental rant. Â
"Y/N and Jay."Â
Wait. What?
Your head snaps up so fast it's a miracle it didn't pop off your neck and roll away.
You blink. You must have misheard.
"Y/N and Jay," Professor Kim repeats as if she could read your confused expression, voice too nonchalant for the life-wrecking news she's about to deliver: "You two are partners."Â Â
The words hit you like a bus. No, not even. The words hit you like a bus driven by a T-Rex that flips over, crashes into a building, and explodes into a million ashy pieces. And there you areâstanding right in the middle of the wreckage, somehow (and unfortunately) still alive to suffer through every second of itâwhile Jay, smug as ever, whips around in his seat to face you. Â
And of course, there it is: that look of his that screams 'This is going to be so much fun for me, and so much pain for you.'Â
"Guess we're parents now, Y/N!" Jay chimes, his voice dripping with so much sarcastic enthusiasm you swear he just got handed an Oscar for Most Annoying Human. If that tone were a substance, you'd bottle it up and use it as insect repellent. On him. Repeatedly. Â
You blink at him, you're sureâyou're prayingâthis has to be some elaborate prank. Maybe Jay bribed Professor Kim with his rare attempt at turning in an assignment on time just to mess with you. Or maybe the universe just hates you and this is your karma for stealing your roommate's last ramen packet that one time a year ago. Â
But no, Professor Kim keeps rattling off other pairs like it's business as usual, as if your entire academic career and sanity isn't currently being flushed down a metaphorical toilet, while you sit there, paralyzed, your brain rapidly melting into a useless puddle from the sheer thought of being paired with him. Â
"What's wrong, Y/N?" Jay teases as he leans over the back of his chair towards you, puppy dog eyes on display. "You don't want to play house with me?"Â Â
You narrow your eyes at him, mentally wielding your imaginary bug spray like it's a holy weapon.Â
"I donât," you reply flatly. "In fact, Iâd rather perform open-heart surgery on myself with a plastic spoon than co-parent with you."Â
Jayâs eyes light up as his hand goes to his heart. "Aw, you really know how to make a guy feel special. This is why I like our little relationship, you know?"Â
"Relationship?" You scoff loud enough to make the people sitting three rows behind you to glance in your direction.
You bring your voice down to a whisper, leaning towards him. "The only thing we have in common is a shared oxygen supply."Â
"See, thatâs the spirit," he says, turning back to face the front like he didn't just ruin your life.
And somehow, that pisses you off even more. Is it his voice? His stupidly perfect hair? The fact that he has the audacity to breathe in your general direction? At this point, he could literally sneeze, and it would still feel like a personal attack.
Is it too late to switch majors? Or schools? Maybe even countries? Surely, restarting your entire college career as a super senior would be better than spending the next six weeks parenting with Jay. Jay Park, who has probably never held anything more fragile than a Red Solo Cup. Â
Jay Park, who is just sitting there, all calm and collected, clearly loving every second of your misery. Â
While you're frozen in pure, unadulterated horror. Â
Your grade? Plummeting as we speak. Your robot baby? Probably going to need therapy by day two. And you? Â
You're screwed.
Q1 â The Art & Science of Parenting 101 aims to apply different psychological approaches to parenting. What are your current theories and methods that you believe are important to parenting?Â
Jayâs Submission [10:09AM, September 18th]:Â
"I think babies need more freedom to explore and make their own choices, even if that just means grabbing random things. Bowlby's attachment theory leans towards a secure attachment, but I don't think that means hovering over them 24/7. It's about being there when they really need you, not scheduling every second of the day. I also believe letting babies learn through their own experiences is key. Strict behaviorism, such as Skinner's, sounds exhausting and I don't think a rigid system is what makes a good parent. Babies are messy, and that's okay."Â
Q2 â What do you expect to learn and gain from this experience?Â
Jay's Submission [10:12AM, September 18th]: Â
"I'm hoping to learn how to be a responsive, yet flexible parent without overcomplicating it. The goal is to find balance between being hands-on without hovering. And, I think this whole robot baby thing will teach me how to handle unpredictable situationsâbecause no matter how much you plan, life is going to surprise you. And also, being able to say I know how to change a diaper under 30 seconds sounds pretty cool :)"Â
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Jay's screwed. Â
Like, completely, utterly, hopelessly screwed.Â
He was already kinda skeptical heâd make it past his 40s if he kept living the way he does, but now? Now, heâs not even sure heâll survive the next 24 hours. Why? Well, todayâs the first official meeting with youâas co-parentsâat the campus coffee shop at 12PM sharp.Â
It's 12:17PM. Â
He's late. Â
Seventeen whole minutes late. To your meeting. And you're basically the human embodiment of an atomic clock. Youâre probably sitting there, checking your watch every few seconds, calculating his absence down to the millisecond. Jay can practically feel the murderous vibes youâre radiating from halfway across campus. Â
And while Jay sometimes finds your need for punctuality weirdly endearing (but don't tell anyone that), he also values not getting scolded on a Saturday morning (12PM is still morning to him, don't judge), especially when he could be sleeping in.  Â
As the cafĂ© comes into view, Jay considers just throwing the towel in. Maybe he could fake a sudden illness, or better yet, skip town and maybe fake his own death or something.Â
There's no point. Knowing you, you'd probably hunt him down for sport. Â
With a sigh, Jay pushes open the door to the cafĂ©, bracing himself for impact. Â
And there you are. Exactly how he imagined. Â
Seated at a small table by the window, papers perfectly aligned, laptop open, and two different colored highlighters placed meticulously side by side. Your foot taps in perfect sync with the café's background music, your eyebrows knitted together in focus, and your teeth chewing your bottom lip as if you're about to crack the Krabby Patty secret formula. The window next to you allows the afternoon sunlight to spill through and reflect off of you, making you look...dare he say it...almost pretty.
If Jay wasn't fearing for his life, he might have actually stopped to admire the view. Might have. Â
When Jay finally reaches your tableâ17 minutes and 46 seconds late (but who's counting)âyou look up, meeting his gaze with a look that's somewhere between not surprised but definitely not impressed.Â
"Well, well," you say, quirking your mouth up ever so slightly that Jay thinks he might see you smile for the first time in, like, ever. "Look who finally decided to join us! Must be nice living on Jay Standard Time." Â
Jay flashes his usual, unbothered smile as he pulls out the chair across from you.
"Oh, c'mon, Y/N. Seventeen minutes is nothing in the grand scheme of life."Â Â
"Yeah? Tell that to our future robot baby when you're seventeen minutes late to feed it and its batteries die."Â Â
"Yikes. That got dark quick," Jay's mutters, grin wavering. "But hey, glad to see you're finally accepting the fact that it's our future baby!"Â Â
"Future robot baby," you peer your eyes at him from above your laptop. "Anyways, did you read the guidelines?"Â Â
Jay rubs the back of his neck as he leans back into his chair. "Uh, define 'read'."Â Â
Without missing a beat, you slap a packet of papers down on the table.
"Here's the breakdown. Feeding schedules, emotional development tracker, diaper changes, mood swingsâthe whole shebang. We're going to have to approach this strategically."Â Â
"Woah, okay," Jay's eyebrows shoot up, his brain trying to catch up with the words you just spewed at him. "First, how the heck is a robot going to develop emotionallyâthat's a little scary if you ask me. Like, dystopian, Black Mirror, scary. And second, since when is parenting just following a spreadsheet? Isn't part of it, you know, winging it?"Â Â
At the words 'winging it', your eye twitches so violently, Jay half-expects you to reach across the table and strangle him with his own hoodie strings.Â
"Winging it?" You shut your laptop and lean forward. "Winging it is exactly how we end up with a malfunctioning robot baby that starts a fire and fails us. Parenting is all about structure, consistencyâ"Â Â
"âand having a little fun," Jay cuts in, mouth quirked with mischief. "I mean, what's parenting without some chaos?"Â Â
"Chaos," you mutter, narrowing your eyes at him, "is what you bring into my life on a daily basis."Â Â
"Yeah, and yet you secretly love it," Jay shoots back, leaning in to meet you, as if daring you to disagree. Â
You stare at him, unblinking. It's either you're plotting his slow and painful demise or seriously considering what he just said. No in-between. Â
And yet, somehow, Jay almost finds it endearing how you can look like the world's most innocent golden retriever while also simultaneously sending him six feet under with just one agonizing glare. Almost. Â
Finally, you sigh, "This isn't a joke, Jay. This is 40% of our grade."Â Â
"And I'm 100% ready!" Jay shoots back with a wink, to which you respond with a full-body eye roll. Â
"Oh yeah? Alright, Mr. Ready-for-Anything, what's your brilliant plan?"
"Hmm," Jay leans back in his seat, folding his arms behind his head as if he's got it all figured out (he doesn't). "Well, for one, I was thinking maybe...shifts. We split responsibilities based on our schedules. I'll take the baby on certain hours, you take it other hours, and we'll spend our free days together. And if we're not together and there's a baby crisis, we stay on call."Â
In complete honesty, that came from out of nowhere. Jay didn't even know any ideas were subconsciously cooking up within him until the words tumbled out of his mouth before he realized it. But there's no way he was going to tell you that, not when you don't immediately tear his idea to shreds. In fact, you actually look...impressed?Â
Or so he thinks. Jay definitely needs to get better at this whole 'reading your expressions' thing. Â
"Huh," you murmur to yourself, fingers tapping against the table. "That's...not the worst idea you've ever had."Â Â
Jay feels elated. Validation? From you? Phew, this means his life is spared. Thank god. Â
Jay flashes you a satisfied smile and while you don't return it, he hopes you're secretly softening. Just a little. Behind that straight face, you're probably low-key impressed, but no way are you letting him see that. Â
"Don't get too excited," you say, as if you've got some sixth sense for whenever Jay throws a mental victory parade. "This is only day one. Of, like, 42. We've got a long way to go."Â Â
"Okay, okay," Jay raises his hands in surrender, though there's no hiding the smirk on his face as he still mentally takes the win. "Message received. Let's just figure out our schedules?"Â Â
You nod, pushing your laptop aside to make space for a sheet of paper you've already preparedâbecause of course you're prepared. It's like you're about to whip up some elaborate high-stakes legal contract that probably involves blood signatures.
"Okay," you say, clicking your pen, picking a bright blue that basically stabs Jay's eyes by simply existing, but whatever makes you happy, I guess.
You write 'Jay's Schedule' at the top, neatly highlighting it with a pink highlighter that somehow hurts even more. Jay wonders if this is a secret ploy to blind him into submission. He wouldn't put it past you. Â
"What's your typical weekly schedule like?"Â Â
Jay squints, clearly thinking hard, as he tries to remember what a 'typical' week looks like for him. Mostly it's a mix of spontaneous decisions, power naps, and gym sessions sprinkled between classes. Â
"Uh...well," Jay rubs the back of his neck. "I usually sleep in until like 11...sometimes noon, depends on the vibe, you know? Classes after that, gym a couple times a week, maybe? And, um, naps are non-negotiable. Make sure you pencil those in too."Â Â
Your pen freezes mid-air, hovering like you're considering whether to throw it at his face or not. Â
"Naps? Non-negotiable? For someone who wakes up at 11AM? We're raising a child, Jay, this requires commitment!"Â Â
Jay raises a calm eyebrow. "Hey, sleep is very important for brain function! You wouldn't want me underperforming as a parent, right?"Â Â
Your eye twitches. "No, Jay. That's already my biggest fear."Â Â
But instead of escalating the snark, you bite your lip, clearly restraining yourself from unleashing a full lecture on time management. Jay struggles to stifle his own laugh at your reaction. If looks could kill, you'd have him buried under six feet of color-coded charts and to-do lists by now. Â
Finally, you sigh, accepting your fate and jotting down âJayâs naps: apparently crucial for survivalâ in your notes with a frown drawn next to it, while Jay gives you an approving nod from across the table.Â
"Alright, my turn," you flip the page over with dramatic flair, carefully writing 'Y/N's Schedule' in the same stab-your-eyes-blue and pink highlight combo as Jay mentally braces himself for what's to come. Â
"So," you continue, starting with that no-nonsense tone that's clearly meant to be seriousâbut to Jay, there's something almost charming about how strict you are. "I wake up at 6."Â Â
Jay's brain immediately short-circuits. Forget charming.
Youâre downright crazy.Â
"6? As in AM? On purpose?"Â Â
You blink back at him, as if he's the one saying something ridiculous.
"Yes, Jay. On purpose."Â Â
His mind reels, purely amazed, yet utterly horrified at the thought. 6AM? Who does that? He's seen 6AM before, sure, but only when he's stayed up all night, probably cramming for an exam. His mornings start at 10AM at best, and that's very, very rarely. There are birds chirping at 6AM. Who wants to live in a world where birds chirp you awake? Â
When he doesn't respondâstill in pure shockâyou keep going, undeterred by his obvious existential crisis.
"I usually have class at 8AM until 1PM, then I try to pick up a shift here," you gesture around the very cafĂ© you two are in, "and thenâ" Â
"Wait, wait," Jay holds up a hand, needing a mental pause button. "You work here?"Â Â
"Yeah," you nod, like it's the most casual thing ever. "Why, is that surprising?"Â Â
Jay squints at you. He's never considered the idea of you pulling espresso shots and dealing with caffeine-deprived college studentsâhe's always pegged you more as a 'quiet math tutor for third-graders' type. Or maybe someone who sells cute stationery at the campus bookstore, organizing pens in rainbow order or something. But now that he's picturing it, yeah, it kind of makes sense. Maybe that's why you're so uptight all the timeâtoo much exposure to coffee fumes. Or, more likely (and evidently), you're just an insanely busy person. Â
He likes the coffee fumes theory better. Â
"I guess not," he admits, then surprises even himself by adding, "that's kind of impressive, though."Â Â
He gives you a genuine smile, and you blink back, as if searching for the hidden jab that's usually lurking beneath his words. But it's not there this time...oddly. Slowly, your expression softens, and you give him the tiniest of smiles.
"Thanks? It's alright, I guess."Â Â
It's nothing bigâno, not at allâbut Jay feels a weird sense of accomplishment at your reaction. Better than nothing.Â
He leans in over the table, all faux-innocenceâeyebrows raises, large puppy eyes and all.
"Does this mean you can get me a free coffee?"Â Â
You lean in too, mirroring him, and he's not sure why his heart skips a beat at the close proximity.Â
"Yeah...no. Nice try."Â Â
Jay groans, throwing himself back in his chair dramatically. Worth a shot. Â
"Anyway," you continue, totally unfazed, "I usually work here until 5, then Mondays I have a study group for Econ 301, and club meetings scattered throughout the week."Â Â
Jay's head spins for maybe the nth time since he's sat down. Honestly, you lost him way back at 'class until 1PM.' Your schedule is like some kind of twisted Sudoku puzzle, except much more intimidating. Â
"So...you're, like, busy...all the time?" he asks, the words tumbling out of his mouth as his brain tries to process how anyone can function like this. Â
You give him a look that almost convinces Jay himself that he's the crazy one here.
"Yes, Jay. I am."Â Â
"Wow, okay. So why did you even take this class? What happened to being committed? You don't even have time to breathe."Â Â
You narrow your eyes, and he swears you're about to launch into some motivational TedTalk.
"It's called efficiency, Jay. Also, I like to challenge myself. That's what parenthood is about, after all."
Jay stares at you like you've just self-declared yourself a cyborg.
"Oookayyy," he drawls, dragging out the word because, honestly, he's 99% sure you've completely lost it. The remaining 1%? Â
It's slightly impressed by your sheer, terrifying level of commitment. He's over here winging life, including this conversation, while you've practically mapped out the rest of your entire existence.Â
"Do you even, like, sleep? Or is that optional for you?"Â Â
"Sleep is for the weak," you shoot him an amused glance, half-joking, half-serious.
Jay raises an eyebrow. "Good to know I'm weak, then."Â Â
You stifle a laugh, but Jay catches the brief twitch of your lips before you quickly compose yourself. Heâs known you for so long, and yet, this might be the first time heâs seen even a hint of your guard slipping. Itâs subtle, barely there, but he notices. And for some reason, it makes him smile. Youâre always so put together, so seriousâbut this small crack in your armor? Jay canât help but appreciate it. Â
Maybe, just maybe, he could get you to soften up more if he tried hard enough.
And yeah, heâs definitely going to try.Â
But before he can try to tease you more, you snap back into business mode, instantly scribbling down more notes.
"Alright, so letâs just split the baby's care based on my work schedule and your...nap schedule, apparently."Â Â
Jay leans back in his chair, catching that flicker of amusement in your voiceâdespite the serious look on your faceâand he fights the urge to push a little more. There's something about that side of youânot the one behind the cold wall you've built of color-coded schedules and deadlinesâthat he wants to see more of. Somehow. Â
"Works for me,â he shrugs and grins at you, âbut if the baby's anything like me, it'll nap a lot. You might have it easy."
"And if itâs anything like me,â you mutter, barely pausing, âthen itâll easily get annoyed by you.â
Jay catches the ghost of a smile on your face, barely noticeable unless you were looking for itâwhich he definitely is. Itâs enough to keep him intrigued. He leans forward, resting his chin in his hand like heâs watching some fascinating show.Â
You donât notice him staringâor maybe you do, but youâre too busy pretending you donât. Either way, thereâs a small, almost imperceptible shift in your body language that Jay senses. Your shoulders arenât as tense, and you donât look like youâre mentally calculating how many minutes you have left before you can escape this meeting.
Jay decides to take advantage of the moment. âSoâŠdo you think our robot baby is also going to be a superhuman genius? Like in a you way?âÂ
You finally let out a laugh, to his surprise, and he feels so satisfied he has to bite his lip to hold back a smile. âDefinitely, but also part crazy. Like in a you way.âÂ
Jay chuckles, mentally declaring this conversation a victory. Your laugh fades but for a split second, he catches you studying his face like youâre trying to figure out what his deal is. And he doesnât mind it at allâbecause, for once, youâre not giving him the usual death glare that sometimes seems permanently reserved for him.
Then, just as he starts to settle into this very rare, almost⊠pleasant vibe between you two, you suddenly snap back to reality, capping your pen and standing up.Â
Jay frowns as he watches as you turn towards the coffee bar, not ready for this conversation to end just yet. Â
"Wait, where are you going?" he blurts out, sounding more tragic than intended.Â
You pause, turning back with a look that sends his pulse tripping.
"Do you want a free coffee or not?"Â Â
The following Monday, at exactly 9:55AM, you and Jay are handed your robot babyâJisoo, as Jay somehow convinces you to name it after his favorite celebrityâat the end of your class. Â
You didn't even try to put up a fight. The moment Jay's eyes lit up at the idea, you knew you'd already lost. After three whole minutes of bickering and one PowerPoint titled 'Why Our Baby Deserves to be Named After Star Quality,' you realized there was no saving it. He had arguments. He had fan chants memorized. For a robot baby. Your robot baby.Â
"Admit it, Jisoo has star quality," Jay beams, proudly looking down at the robotic baby in the baby carrier that came with her. Â
You look from Jisoo to Jay, then back to Jisoo, unimpressed. "It's a robot, Jay. Not your bias."Â Â
"Bias or not, she deserves only the best," Jay just shrugs, unbothered.
He glances down at the robot, which blinks its eyes open and closed with a soft whirring noise, its chubby plastic arms flopping lifelessly by its sides. Â
There's a beat of silence as you both stare down at it, unsure of what to do next. Â
"It's kind of creepy, right?" you finally mutter, breaking the knowing silence between you two. Â
Jay snorts. "Not even 'kind of.' A lot."
He leans in to inspect it, his brows furrowed, "So, does it justâŠsit there?â Â
"No, it's on schedule. It says here it won't eat for another three hours and it has a clean diaper, so everything should be fine. Babies are predictable once you understand their needs, Jay," you huff, already pulling out the meticulously detailed notes you took during class.
Jay lifts an eyebrow as he turns to face you, "Right...because in real life, babies are totally like robots and are totally predictable. Got it."Â Â
You open your mouth to respond, probably with something unnecessarily snarky (you don't know what yet though, you haven't gotten to that part yet), when a loud, high-pitched wail shatters the air, cutting through the now-empty classroom you two are in. The robot baby's face contorts into an exaggerated crying expression, its mechanical arms flailing (which you didn't even know was possible) like it's preparing for takeoff.Â
"What theâ" Jay instinctively jumps back like Jisoo is a grenade on her last few seconds.
"Why's it doing that? What did you do?"Â Â
"I didnât do anything!" You snap, panic slowly rising as you flip through your notes quickly. "It's not supposed to be crying! It shouldn't be hungry, and it's definitely not tired yet!"Â Â
The wailing intensifies, vibrating through the room as the cries echo louder and louder, Jisoo clearly not caring about your carefully crafted timeline. You glance down at your schedule. Why is it crying? Â
You groan and snatch Jisoo out of the carrier, awkwardly holding her in a way that's probably not safe for any life form, real or otherwise. The wailing doesn't stop. In fact, it gets louder, as if Jisoo's personally offended by your existence. Â
"Hold her!" You quickly thrust her into Jay's arms, a horrified expression written all over his face. "You deal with it."Â Â
"Deal with what? It's a robot!" Jay stares at the baby in his arms like it's going to explode. "Oh god, are we even sure this is safe?"Â Â
"Yes, Jay! It's a baby!"
You're sure you're borderline going insane from the combination of the screeching baby and Jay's apparent lack of brain cells. Â
Jay's eyes widen as Jisoo practically vibrates with the force of its cries. He tries to mimic the way you were holding her, cradling her against his chest like she's made of glass. It doesn't help. Jisoo keeps wailing, and now Jay looks genuinely distressed.Â
"Uh, shh, little buddy, it's okay...Should I, like, burp it? Sing to it?"Â Â
âSing?â You give him a look like heâs completely lost it, but Jayâs already humming off-key under his breath.Â
The baby, predictably, continues screeching.Â
You both just stand there, staring at the baby, then at each other, the panic palpable in the room. Jay continues bouncing it lightly, as if this will magically solve everything.
âDoes it have an off switch?â he asks, glancing at you like you've parented a robot baby before.Â
You continue to frantically flip through your notes, pages rustling in a blur. âNo, Jay! We canât just turn off our baby!âÂ
âWell, I donât know, Y/N, but Iâm pretty sure babies arenât supposed to sound like theyâre summoning a demon!â Jay retorts, his tone climbing the ladder of panic. "Maybe she's hungry or something."Â Â
âIt canât be hungry, it's not supposed to be!"Â Youâre still too busy scanning your notes as you shake your head in disagreement.
Jay just shakes his head, gently cradling the baby even though he's sure it's about to lift off into space from how much it was shaking right now.Â
âSometimes you canât schedule everything, Y/N. Maybe it just needs a bottle, like, right now.âÂ
The idea frustrates you. âBut itâs not time yet. If we feed it off-schedule, itâll mess everything up for the day.âÂ
The babyâs cries reach a shrill pitch, like itâs protesting your protest. Jay looks at you, then back at the crying baby, then back at you again.Â
âI think itâs already messed up, so maybe we just... feed it?â he says, half-grinning, half-exasperated.Â
You hesitate. It feels wrong. Babies are supposed to follow patterns, stick to a routine...or so you thought. You let out a frustrated sigh, your brain bleeding from the sheer sound of the glass-breaking screams. Â
âFine,â you mutter, grabbing the bottle from the supply bag. âBut if this throws off the whole schedule, itâs your fault.âÂ
Jay grins, but thereâs something softer in his expression behind it as he watches you struggle with the bottle...and your need for control.
âDeal.âÂ
You hand the bottle to him, and he places the nipple into the babyâs mouth. The wailing stops almost instantly. The sudden silence is deafening, and both of you are stunned for a moment, looking down at the baby whoâs now peacefully drinking.Â
You let out a small gasp of relief and turn your head up to look at Jay, who's widened eyes meet yours. Â
Jay lets out a held breath. âWell. That was traumatic.âÂ
You roll your eyes, though thereâs a slight twitch at the corner of your lips as you mutter, âI think I just lost three years of my life."Â Â
Jay watches as you carefully take Jisoo from his arms and place her back into the carrier, making sure everything is in order. Heâs still catching his breath, but he glances at youârelaxed, for once, after the panicâand it makes him feel something weird. He almost laughs.Â
âI dunno,â he says, a little teasingly. âI think we handled that pretty well.âÂ
âGreat, now just five weeks and six days of this left." You give him a look, but thereâs a tiny, fleeting smile this time. "I just don't understand why it was crying. It's not supposed to need food untilâ"Â Â
Jay cuts you off with a chuckle. âY/N, itâs a baby. Real ones donât run on algorithms. They just... cry when they need something. Like this little gal. I mean, you can't exactly schedule crying, right?âÂ
The silence stretches for a moment as you watch him, realization dawning a little slower than youâd like to admit. âI guess,â you mutter reluctantly, earning yourself a content-looking Jay. Â
"Look at usâteam effort," Jay says, as he beams a smile to you before glancing at Jisoo. "We're naturals at this whole parenting thing."Â Â
"Yeah, okay," you roll your eyes, but the smile on your face says differently as you reach out to unnecessarily fuss with the small blanket in Jisoo's carrier. Â
Jay's eyes light up at your response.
"A smile? The Y/N gave me a smile? Admit it, we make a great team, huh?"Â Â
You scoff, but the look on your face proves there's no bite to itâJay knows there's no bite to it. Â
Maybe, just maybe, he has a point. Â
You'd never admit it to him, though.Â
Not yet. Â
To your pleasant surprise, the past two weeks have been...weirdly smooth. Like, suspiciously smooth. You and Jay have somehow managed to fall into an actual routineâdropping off and picking up Jisoo like two semi-functional adults who almost know what theyâre doing. You still wouldnât call it 'seamless', as Jay himself struggled with having a consistent schedule for once in his life, but at least youâve gotten through the weeks without major incidents or spontaneous combustion. So far.
That doesn't mean you'll admit to anyoneâleast of all yourselfâthat you and Jay might actually make a decent team. His parenting methods are still objectively abysmal...to you, at least. I mean, just the other day, he almost put Jisoo's diaper on upside down. Upside down. You didn't even know that was possible, but leave it to Jay to surprise you more and more. Â
Despite his questionable approach to baby care, Jisoo's still alive (you think), and somehow you've managed not to explode at him yet (key word: yet). So, that's...something, I guess. Â
Today, though. Today is a different beast entirely. Â
It's Sunday, and miraculously, you've managed to give yourself the evening off. No cafĂ© shift, no emergency club meetings. The stars have aligned, and for once, you have free time. And what did you decide to do with this rare gift from the universe? Â
Spend it with Jay. Parenting. Together. In his apartment. Â
You blame Professor Kim for this cruel twist of fate. Something about submitting photographic evidence of co-parenting. After all, this is a partner project. Â
Teamwork, she called it. Â
You like to call it pure suffering. Â
Which brings you here, standing outside Jay's apartment with a tote bag of baby supplies on one shoulder, Jisoo's carrier on the other, and a silent prayer on your lips. If this apartment is even half the disaster you're imaginingâfrat house, landfill, or some unholy combination of bothâyou're fully prepared to turn around and run for the hills. Â
You take a deep breath, bracing yourself for whatever horrors await behind the door, and knock three times. Â
Precisely five seconds later, the door swings open, and...yep, there's Jay. His hair is a mess, his clothes are rumpled, and you can't tell if he's been a) napping, b) playing video games, or c) all of the above. Â
"Hey," he greets you with a lazy grin, eyes half-lidded like he's still half-asleep. Â
It's 6PM. Â
You stare at him, deadpan.
"You look like you've been hit by a truck."Â Â
Jay snorts as he raises an eyebrow.
"You should see the truck."Â Â
Before you can fire back with something equally sarcastic, you catch a glimpse of his apartment over his shoulder, andâyou blink, confused. Wait. Wait. Â
Well this can't be right. Â
You were expecting a disaster. Maybe a few pizza boxes, a stray sock on the floor, some suspicious stains on the couch. But no.
Instead...it's clean. Like, really clean. Â
The floors are spotless, there's a shelf with neatly stacked books, and are those...framed photos on the walls? Like, actual art? Your own apartment doesn't even have actual art, just print outs from Walgreens of photos you thought were cute on Pinterest and your Justin Bieber posters you got from a magazine back in high-school. Now you're starting to feel ashamed. Â
You do a double-take, your brain struggling to process what's happening, as Jay still stands in front of you, confused at your gawking.
"Y/N? You good?"Â Â
You snap your mouth shut, as you spot a vacuum neatly tucked in the corner of the living room.
"I...I'm just surprised you even know what a vacuum is."Â
"You'll learn I'm full of surprises, Miss Y/N," he says, casually leaning against the doorframe as he looks down at you, his gaze making you shift in your stance in front of him. "Come on in."Â Â
You step inside cautiously, like you're waiting for something to jump out at youâmaybe a camera with someone saying 'You've been pranked, this isn't Jay's actual apartment!' Â
But nope. His apartment is just...nice. It smells like eucalyptus and citrus, for crying out loud. Â
You set Jisoo's carrier down on the couch, the robot itself still fast asleep, as your eyes scan the room, still half-expecting to find a hidden mess somewhere. But instead, something else catches your attention. Â
On the wall, next to his kitchen, there's a collection of professional-looking photographs, all framed neatly. This is what caught your eye earlier from the doorway. You find yourself slowly walking closer to get a closer look: landscapes, city stresses, a few candid shots of peopleâall in the same style, same camera quality, same angles. You tilt your head, intrigued.
Jay comes up behind you to see what you're looking at and you turn to him, "Are these...yours?"Â
"Oh," he scratches the back of his neck, looking almost shy. "Yeah. I do some photography sometimes. Just a hobby."Â Â
You blink up at him. Jay Park? A photographer? This was not on your Jay Park Bingo card.Â
"Huh," you say, before realizing how dumb you sound. "I didn't know you were into that."Â Â
"Well, there's a lot you don't know about me, Y/N. Full of surprises, remember?" Jay replies, his head tilting to match yours with a cocky smile, whichâugh, okay fineâmakes you feel just the tiniest bit flustered. Not that you'll admit it. Â
"Oh, really?" You raise an eyebrow. "And here I thought your only hobbies were napping and showing up late."Â
"That's just the surface level," he says with a wink, walking over to his coffee table and grabbing his laptop. "I was actually editing photos before you showed up."Â
Intrigued, you follow him to the couch and sit beside him as he flips open the laptop. You squint at the editing software on the screenâfull of layers, sliders, and all sorts of professional-looking tools that immediately make your head hurt. Jay scrolls through the images, and honestly?
Theyâre good. Really good. Like, if you didnât know better, youâd think some of them could be in a magazine. And not the kind of magazine you got your Bieber Fever posters in. Â
"Wow," you say, nodding, genuinely impressed. "Thatâs⊠actually really cool."Â
Jay freezes, his head snapping toward you with a look of disbelief. He stares at you, eyes narrowing like youâve just broken some unspoken rule.
"It's been ten seconds...you just gave me an actual compliment without a sarcastic follow-up."Â Â
You let out a small giggle, "Geez, you always make me sound like some soulless witch or something."Â Â
"I mean⊠soulless witch might be a bit much. But, like⊠emotionally unavailable overlord? Hmm, maybe," Jay grins, leaning back in mock thought.
You burst out laughing before you can stop yourself, the sound catching Jay off guard. He looks at you, wide-eyed, like heâs just witnessed a rare phenomenon. And maybe he hasâbecause even you canât remember the last time you laughed this freely.
"Wow. I should annoy you more often," Jay smirks, clearly way too satisfied with himself. Youâre not entirely sure if he meant it to sound that smooth, but your brain certainly processed it that way. Heat rises to your cheeks before you can stop it, and you quickly clear your throat, a small, flustered smile playing at your lips.Â
You try to gather yourself, praying your voice doesnât betray you.
"Donât push your luck, Park," you manage, but the teasing edge in your voice is softer than usualâway softer. And, of course, Jay knows it. You know it. Youâre still smiling, andâunfortunately for youâso is he.Â
Jay suddenly clears his throat as he shifts in his seat, "So...should we order like a pizza or something? Are you hungry?"Â Â
And because lately the universe apparently has a personal vendetta against you, your stomach chooses that exact moment to let out a soundâone that resembles between a whaleâs mating call and a frog being strangled.Â
Jay stifles a laugh, trying to act casual but failing miserably, "Okay⊠pizza it is."Â
âShut up,â you mutter, giving him a playful shove thatâs just enough to make him fall back into the couch cushions.Â
"No, you tell your stomach to shut up," Jay snickers, grabbing his phone to place the order.Â
Youâre about to fire back with somethingâanythingâbut a soft wail interrupts you from the baby carrier.Â
"Someone needs attention," you say, scooping Jisoo up and cradling her in your arms. âItâs about time for her to eat anyway.âÂ
As you juggle Jisoo with one hand and dig through the baby bag for her fake bottle of milk with the other, Jay watches you from his spot on the couch, a curious look in his eyes.
âWhile you feed her, Iâll take care of the pizza. Iâm guessing youâre more of a plain cheese type, huh?âÂ
You freeze for a second, then whip your head around to give him a mock-offended look.
âFirst, you think Iâm a soulless witch, and now boring? I at least add pepperoni and sausage. Give me some credit.âÂ
"Okay, okay, noted," Jay lifts his hands up in surrender, "So adventurous. I'll remember that next time you call me irresponsible."Â Â
You roll your eyes at him as you adjust Jisoo in your arms, holding the bottle steady at her mouth. Itâs quiet for a few moments, the only sounds being the soft hum of your fake baby and Jay tapping on his phone.Â
Suddenly Jay puts his phone down, turning to you with an unreadable expression. âYouâre really serious about this whole parenting thing, huh?âÂ
You blink, still rocking Jisoo in your arms. You're thrown off by the sudden shift and sincerity in his tone. Â
âWell⊠yeah. I think itâs important, you know? Responsibility, structure⊠thatâs what makes people feel safe. Especially kids. They need to know theyâre taken care of.âÂ
Jayâs expression shifts as he listens, a more thoughtful look settling on his face.
âYou're a strong believer of that, aren't you? Structure and schedules and all that?"Â Â
His voice is a lot quieter now, lower, and you realize you've never really had a serious conversation (that wasn't a class debate) with him beforeâat least not long enough to hear this version of Jay. The serious Jay. And if you're being honest, it's making you a bit flustered. You hesitate, hoping your voice doesn't crack or something equally embarrassing. Â
âI mean⊠I guess so. I was raised that way. My parents always had everything planned out. It was like...nothing ever went wrong because there was always a system, a backup plan.âÂ
Jay raises an eyebrow, leaning forward a little in his seat.
âBut didnât that feel, I donât know... suffocating? Like, what if things donât go according to plan? You canât control everything.âÂ
Your first instinct is to scoff, but something stops you. It's a valid question, and for some reason, you donât feel the need to throw up your usual defenses for once. That's new. Â
âMaybe sometimes,â you admit. âBut I donât know any other way. It just feels like if youâre not prepared, things fall apart. And thatâs the worst feelingâlike watching everything crumble because you werenât ready for it.âÂ
Jay is quiet, studying you with an intensity that feels new. His teasing smirk is gone, replaced with something more serious.
âYeah, I get that. I didnât have a lot of structure growing up. Parents were kinda⊠there, but not really. I think thatâs why I donât plan much. Life happens whether youâre ready or not.âÂ
You blink as you sit back in your seat, absorbing his words. Itâs the first time youâve really thought about Jay outside of his 'laid-back' image of him you've had in your head, and honestly, youâre surprised by how heavy his words feel.Â
âButâŠyouâre actually good with Jisoo,â you say, almost cautiously, unsure if youâre diving into uncharted territory. âYouâve been handling this project better than I thought you would.âÂ
Jay laughs softly, shaking his head as he looks at Jisoo in your arms.
âItâs just a robot baby, Y/N. No big deal if I mess up.âÂ
"Itâs not just about the robot baby,â you counter, realizing you're saying more than you intended. âYou actually care. Youâre not graded on how well you change diapers or keep her entertained, but youâre still putting in effort. Youâre trying. And that matters.âÂ
There's a beat of silence as you see Jay pause. For once, he doesn't have a comeback. Instead, he's just looking at youâreally looking at youâlike he's trying to figure something out, and you feel the heat slowly creeping back onto your face. You're sure you're turning an unflattering shade of red under his gaze on you, and part of you, no, all of you, is begging for him to say something immediately before you combust. Â
Then, with a suddenness that almost makes you jump, he leans over and nudges your arm lightly.
âOkay, Dr. Phil. Don't go getting all soft on me now."Â Â
You let out a playful scoff to mask your relief, thankful for the release of tension in the air. But something about the conversation lingers in the air, hanging like a question neither of you is ready to ask. And despite the teasing, your mind canât help but circle back to how Jay had looked at youâserious, curious⊠something else.Â
Before you can dwell on it too long, the doorbell rings. Saved by the pizza gods. Jay springs up from the couch to answer the door, and you gently place the now-snoozing Jisoo back in her carrier. The conversation still swirls in your head as you watch Jay grab the pizza, too caught up in your thoughts to not even question how suspiciously fast it arrived.Â
You let out a breath you didnât realize you were holding, watching Jay at the door from your spot on the couch, your thoughts too heavy for someone who is literally holding a pizza box.Â
For someone who sure likes to plan everything out, you definitely werenât prepared for Jay Parkâand how he's quickly becoming the exception to every rule you've ever made.Â
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The first thing that jars you awake is a piercing screamâJisoo's, of course. Your eyes shoot open as you squint into the dim light, your eyes adjusting and blinking your way out of the accidental nap you fell into. You're trying to make sense of your surroundings through your blurry vision when...it hits you. Â
This isn't your room. You're still at Jay's apartment, wedged into the corner of his couch, and apparently, you fell asleep. Post-pizza-food-coma style. And also apparently, your mutual robot child has decided now was a perfect time for a meltdown. Â
The second thing you notice is the faint background noise of Harry Potter and the Goblet of Fire still playing on Jay's TV in front of you. Your memory jogs back to when you two finally came to a consensus on which movie to watch over dinner, and naturally, the deciding factor ended up being 'young Robert Pattinson,' and no, it wasn't your deciding factor. You didn't expect Jay to even have an opinion on this, but apparently, his love for Cedric Diggory is a hill he's willing to die on. Â
And then...that brings us to the third thing. A sound from the other end of the couchâJay's soft snores. You two must have dozed off at some point during the movie somehow and of course, he's still passed out cold, totally oblivious to the screams of robotic despair coming from the baby carrier seated between you two. You glance over at him, out cold with his head tilted back, looking completely unbothered by Jisoo's increasingly offended screams. Â
But even through all these realizations, what really slaps you awake, more than Jisoo or Jay or Cedric Diggory, is the smell. It hits you like a rogue sock to the face, and for a moment, you're convinced that Jay definitely has some biological-grade garbage decomposing somewhere in the apartment after all. The smell is like a powerful, radioactive wave, and all you can think is, What in the world is this guy hiding in here? And why is it now coming to life? Â
You sit up from your spot, still half-asleep, and follow the foul scent in horror until you realize the source. Â
Jisoo. Â
Sure, you have changed Jisoo's diapers plenty of times over the last two weeks, but before? There was no smell. At most, you get these weird, vaguely sticky robotic poops in her diaper that barely registered. Now? Now itâs like Professor Kim somehow remotely gave Jisoo a software update and coded her to emit a scent so pungent that it feels borderline illegal. You're convinced this is Jisooâs final boss formâpeak realism unlockedâsolely just to spite you and your nostrils.
While youâre here on one end of the couch, one button away from confirming an Amazon Prime order to ship over a bottle of bleach for you to dip your nose into, Jay is still in blissful dreamland, not even flinching. You stare at him in disbelief, hoping your sheer mental outage might magically wake him up. No such luck.Â
You grab the throw pillow that's wedged under you and chuck in right at his face. Â
"Jay!" You're still half-asleep, so your voice comes out like a strangled whisper, somewhere between pleading and passive-aggressive murder. Â
Jay jolts, sitting up with a sleepy yelp, blinking in confusion.
"Huh? What happened? Is Cedric okay?" His panicked gaze darts around the room wildly before they finally settle on you, across the couch.Â
"What happened?" You raise a finger to the screaming, stinky, betrayal-machine between you two. "That happened, Jay. Jisoo happened."Â Â
Jay blinks slowly, squinting at Jisoo, his brain clearly struggling to boot up, and then makes the fatal mistake of sniffing the air. The realization suddenly dawns slowly, and you can see the look of horror hit.
"Oh my god, how is she even capable of...of that?!" His voice breaks three octaves as his hand shoots up to pinch his nose. Â
"I don't know!" You squawk, equally traumatized. "She's never done this beforeâI didn't even know she could!"Â Â
Jay groans and rubs his eyes, hoping this is all a bad, bad dream. No such luck, yet again. He glances around helplessly. "So, uh, who's changing her?"Â Â
You shoot him a glare as you get up from the couch and start looking for the baby bag.
"We're changing her, Jay."Â Â
"We?" Jay winces, inching towards Jisoo with all the enthusiasm one has when approaching a radioactive waste barrel. He slowly reaches down to take Jisoo out from the carrier and he starts muttering to himself.
"Great. Fine, this is fine. Just another bonding moment with our adorable robo-daughter." He finally picks her up, reluctantly holding her at arm's length like she's a ticking time bomb. It's so ridiculous that, despite the war-crime-level smell permeating the room, you can't help the small laugh that you let out. Â
"What?" Jay glares at you, though a look of amusement tugs at his lips. "You think this is funny?"Â Â
"No," you say, barely stifling your giggles. "It's justâyou're holding her like she's about to explode."Â Â
Jay gives you a doubtful look, "Y/N, I'm not convinced she's not about to explode."Â Â
You shake your head, still giggling as you shuffle the carrier off the couch and lay out a blanket, turning Jay's couch surface into a makeshift changing station.
"Alright, c'mon. Lay her down and hold her legs up. I'll handle clean-up duty. And maybe...brace yourself."Â Â
Jay exhales like a man about to face his greatest fear. He gently lays Jisoo down and lifts her legs up with the tips of his fingers, his face still contorted as if you're both dealing with a toxic hazard. At this point, it probably is. Â
"Oh my god," he breathes. "This is it. This is how I die."Â Â
You crouch down in position so you're at level with the couch and say a mental prayer before you pull open the tiny diaper. The moment you do, the both of you immediately recoil as a scent that should not even be allowed to exist wafts up and fills the room. Â
âOh god.âÂ
The scent is so ungodly it feels like it came from the depths of hell itself and punched you both right in the face. It doesnât just waft upâit attacks. Youâre pretty sure you lost at least another three years off your life from one breath alone.Â
"That's not legal," Jay chokes as he flings himself back at the sight, dropping Jisooâs little toes in the process, flailing around as if the air itself betrayed him. "There's no way that's legal."Â
You freeze in sheer horror, staring at the scene before you: Jisooâs somehow realistic poop smeared across every surface of her bottom it possibly could spread to, the stench intensifying with every passing second.
Jay starts pacing the room, spiraling into an existential crisis.
âNo, no, no, this isnât normal. This isâthis is a crime scene! This canât be right.âÂ
âJay,â your voice is muffled as a hand tries to cover both your nose and mouth from the contaminated air, âJay, focus!âÂ
Jay looks at you from across the living room, wide-eyed and pale, like a deer caught in headlights.
âYou expect me toâin this economyââÂ
âGrab. The. Wipes.â
Jay groans and he stumbles back towards you, hesitantly rifling through the baby bag. His hands finally find the pack of wipes and he peers over your shoulder from behind you, as if youâre his shield.Â
âAre you just gonna stand there, or are you going to help?â
âI am helping,â Jay protests weakly, waving the pack of wipes like theyâre a magic wand that might save you both.
You roll your eyes and turn back to Jisoo, âOkay, grab her legs again. Iâll wipe.âÂ
His eyes watch in horror as he reaches over you to take hold of the robotâs feet. With a deep breath, you start furiously scrubbing Jisooâs little body, trying your best to breathe as minimally as possible, sticking your hand out towards Jay whenever you need a new wipe.Â
âI signed up for fake parenting, not surviving a biohazard. This isnât bonding; this is trauma,â Jay incoherently mumbles, placing a wipe in your hand.Â
"I think this trauma is exactly what we're supposed to be learning and 'bonding' from," you retort, carefully tossing a soiled wipe into the designated waste bag. Â
"Oh, so Professor Kim is forcing us to bond over mutual suffering? Very sweet," Jay deadpans as he hands you another wipe.Â
"Exactly. Parenting at its finest."Â Â
Finally, after you definitely lost three years of your life, the horror show is over. Jisoo is cleaned, diapered, andâsomehowâactually looks peaceful for once. Like she didn't just commit a crime against humanity.Â
Jay exhales, looking at her with a newfound joy. "Well. She's definitely...less terrifying when she's not screaming and emitting toxic fumes."Â Â
You plop yourself on the couch and cradle Jisoo like she's a tiny, innocent angel instead of the cause of your collective suffering.
âIâm genuinely afraid to know what they put in her system for this to happen.âÂ
Jay collapses onto the couch beside you, visibly relieved, "Whatever it was, we did it. We survived. We did that."Â
You can't help but laugh, still a bit punch-drunk from the adrenaline and exhaustion of it all, "We better get an A+ on this project."Â Â
Jay chuckles, leaning his head back against the couch. The room falls into a brief silence, just the two of you sitting there, basking in the weird accomplishment of it all. Then, as if on cue, you both start laughingâa deep, exhausting kind of laugh that two people only share after a 'you had to be there' type moment. There's something about the whole ordealâhow ridiculous, how hilariously awful it wasâthat just makes it impossible to not laugh. Â
"Now do you think we make a pretty good team?" Jay grins, nudging your shoulder with his. Â Â
You roll your eyes at him, "I don't know...depends."Â Â
Jay raises an eyebrow, "Depends on what?"Â Â
"Depends on whether you can make it through the rest of the project without crying again," you quip, lips twitching into an amused grin. Â
Jay gasps dramatically, clutching his chest. "Excuse you, I did not cry. My eyes were sweating from Jisoo's toxic fumes. A completely normal biological response, thank you very much."Â Â
"Sure, Jay," you deadpan, shaking your head. Â
"Besides," he continues, leaning back smugly, "I did all the heavy lifting. Literally. I held the live grenade."Â Â
You snort, glancing down at Jisoo in your arms before handing her off to Jay, "You're unbelievable."Â Â
"And you're stuck with me, partner," he grins back, rocking Jisoo in his arms. "You too, Jisoo."Â
You lean back into the couch, watching Jay coo at the now-peaceful baby. Somewhere between his flair for over-the-top dramatics, his secret love for young Robert Pattinson, and (for some reason) endearing passion for photography, you realizeâŠmaybe Jay Park isnât the complete disaster you thought he was.Â
"Yeah," you murmur, a small smile tugging at your lips. "I guess I really am stuck with you."Â Â
And for the first time since this ridiculous project started, you don't mind that as much as you thought you would. Â
Jay would like to make a few things clear.Â
First of all, none of this is his fault.Â
He hopes you understand that, as his thumbs fly over the keyboard of his phone like his life depends on it.
Because, in a way, it does.Â
Jay [11:32 AM]: âi swear itâs not my fault, but my friend, jake, his entire load of laundry is now the color of strawberry milk. and apparently iâm the only one that can help him. can i drop jisoo off with you for like⊠an hour? tops?âÂ
He stares at his phone, waiting for your response like you hold the key to his survival.
Because, in a way, you do.Â
He hears Jisoo coo from her carrier, like even she knows how dire this situation is. Finally, his phone lights up with a buzz.Â
Y/N [11:33 AM]: âiâm volunteering at a dog adoption event on campus, but sure, drop her off here :)âÂ
Jay blinks at his phone. A dog adoption event. Of course, you'd be saving puppies on a Saturday. Of course. Like some kind of unreasonably perfect human. And here he is, about to save a fully grown man from having to wear solely pink t-shirts for the next week.
Fantastic. Â Â
With a sigh, Jay turns to Jisoo, who blinks back a stare that can only be described as the (robot) baby equivalent of good luck, bro.Â
By the time Jay reaches campus, he's bombarded with the sight and sound of...dogs. Dogs everywhere. It's as if he's entered the chaotic lovechild of a Disney movie and a petting zoo, complete with wags, barks, and the smell of kibble. And then he sees you.Â
You're smack in the middle of a fenced playpen, laughing, surrounded by every breed of fluffy chaos imaginable and passersby cooing 'aww' at the sight. And what a sight it is. Â
You look ridiculously happy, and for some reason, that makes something in Jay's chest feel weirdly tight. He wonders what it must feel like to be able to make you smile that widely, that brightly. It's unnerving. He's not used to seeing you so relaxed, so contentâor maybe he's just not used to noticing how good you look when you're not glaring at him. Â
"Y/N!" a voice calls from the volunteer tent, snapping Jay out of his daydream. Jay watches from the distance as you haul a golden retriever pup into your arms and walk over to the tent, naturally falling into conversation with your friend and immediately organizing papers. Meanwhile, Jay stands there, dumbfounded at your unbothered, graceful rhythm that you seem to fall into like second nature.Â
Jay thought he had you figured out, filed neatly in his mental drawer of uptight-control-freaks-that-happen-to-smell-like-roses-and-have-perfect-smiles, but now? Something about the way you lookâso confident, so caring, so...naturalâcatches him off guard.
Now, you're like some serene multitasking goddess in the middle of pure chaos. Â
That brings us to the second thing Jay would like to clarify (more so to himself): he definitely doesn't think you look good in, like, an attractive sense, or anything insane like that. Absolutely not. He just is simply impressed at how you seem to manage and carry yourself quite elegantly. This is pure admiration. Admiration, okay? Â
But...while he's here, staring in 'admiration', it suddenly hits himâyou're not just good at taking care of Jisoo. You're good at taking care of everything. Â
And that makes his heart do a weird flip. Â
The realization that he's been staring for way too long jolts him back to the present. Focus, Jay. There's a Jake somewhere out there, lost in a sea of pink underwear. Â
Jisoo carrier in hand, Jay manages to push his way through the dog-packed crowds until he reaches you, but the second you turn around, flashing him that wide, carefree smile that he's still not used to, he's back to stumbling over himself. Â
Heâs 99% sure he audibly gulps.Â
âOh, Jay, you made it!â you say, shifting the puppy to one side of your arms to free a hand to grab Jisoo's carrier immediately. Your smile is disarmingly genuine. Jay thinks he may need to sit down. Â
âUh, yeahâum, thanks for taking Jisoo," he swallows, his voice barely steady as he's unsure what this feeling is that came over him. He doesn't know if it's the fact that he's seeing you in a completely different light right now, carrying both a live, adorable puppy, and a (not-so-live) baby, but something is different, and he's at a loss for words. "You look prettyâuhâŠbusy.â Â
He curses himself. Busy? Really?Â
âOh, no biggie,â you give him an easy, encouraging grin, one so casual that it really shouldn't make his knees feel like Jell-O. "Honestly, I'd be out here every weekend if I could. But you of all people know my schedule."Â Â
Of course, you'd say something like that. Jay tries to think of a normal response, but his brain is spinning with all sorts of not-normal things about youâlike how you look so aggressively pretty right now.Â
And itâs a little infuriating.Â
"Yeah, no, totally," Jay clears his throat, scratching the back of his head. "Because who doesn't want to be covered in dog hair and slobber for fun?"Â Â
You roll your eyes, smiling. "Says the guy who's about to be knee-deep in a laundry crisis. Isn't that a little messy, too?"Â Â
Jay huffs, feeling himself return just a little bit back to normal. âListen, Jakeâs a special case, okay? You canât just leave him in that pink laundry disaster and expect him to survive.âÂ
"Right..," you laugh, rocking back and forth on your feet, your smile lingering as a comfortable silence falls between you. Â
Maybe it's the way you're looking up at him, or the fact that a literal golden retriever is currently nuzzling into your neck, but Jay is doing everything in his power to keep his cool. You're looking at him in a way that isn't remotely judgmental (for once), and it's throwing him completely off-balance. Â
Before Jay can pull it together and say something else, another voice calls your name, waving you over to a different table. You turn back to Jay, giving him an apologetic glance. Â
"Do you mind watching Jisooâand, um, this puppyâfor a sec?"Â Â
Before he can answer, or even process your words, he's standing there with an actual puppy in one arm, and Jisoo in her carrier in the other, and his life has become a circus he never auditioned for. Â
"Sorry! They just need me real quick!" You say with a grateful smile as you hurry off. Â
As you rush off with another apologetic smile, Jay's brain, for better or for worse, decides that grin of yours is now his mental screensaver. He watches you go, dumbly smiling before he catches himself.Â
Not attraction, he reminds himself. Totally not attraction. Â
He looks down at his armsâone occupied by a carrier with a robot baby, the other holding a wriggly puppy. Â
"Bet no one's ever been in this situation before," he mutters, awkwardly standing there as he waits for your return. Honestly, Jay has never felt so awkward or nervous before. Right now, he feels like the epitome of the standing emoji, just simply existing and there, waiting for your next command and hoping he doesn't screw it up. Â
Jay tries to hype himself up. You can do this, Park. It's just a dog. And a baby. And you. You've got this. You totally have everything undâÂ
Before he can finish his mental pep talk, the sound of your laughter rings from across the event, making Jay's head snap over in record time. He tries not to lookâhe really doesâbut the sound is too angelic to not. But right when he does look over, he immediately wishes he didn't.Â
You're standing there between two of your friends, and you're giggling. With some guy he's never seen before. And this guy, is nudging your shoulder and making you laugh so hard you're practically doubling over. He feels a distinct twist in his chest.Â
Jayâs definitely not jealous. Nope. Not even a little. It's just...curiosity. Pure, innocent curiosity about what that guy could possibly be saying to make you laugh so hard. Because Jay has never seen you laugh like that with himâever.
And suddenly, the longer you continue laughing with that guy, Jay feels something hot and uncomfortable bubbling up inside. Â
Fine, itâs jealousy. Â
Definitely jealousy.
He scowls at himself. Now heâs basically a bitter standing emoji, clinging to Jisoo and a puppy while glaring from afar.Â
And there Jay stands, bitterness levels maxed, holding both a puppy and a robot baby, while across the way, your roommate Esther gives you a knowing smirk while you're recovering from your giggling fit. Your giggling fit which was caused by Heeseung making a comment about how he stepped in dog poop more times than the average human-being accidentally should. Â
âYou didnât tell me that was Jay Park,â Esther says, trying not-so-subtly to sneak a glance at the bitter standing emoji himself, awkwardly shifting his feet in the distance, avoiding to look in your direction. âYou said he was annoying, lazy, and a pain to be around. You didnât mention heâs a total cutie.âÂ
âHe was annoying, lazy, and a pain to be around,â you scoff, though you're clearly not thinking that right now as you catch a glance of him trying to balance both the puppy and Jisoo. "But...I don't think he's so bad anymore."Â Â
You definitely don't add that he's a total cutie. Okay, maybe you think it, but saying it out loud is a whole other thing. Â
âOh, so you totally like him,â Heeseung snickers from your other side, nudging you again. Â
You make a sound that's half out-of-tune trumpet, half hiccup, before breaking into a laugh to cover your sudden panic.
"No, I don't!" You clear your throat, trying to stay cool. "We're justâlook, we're just stuck together for this project. That's all. Even if I did like him, which I don't, he definitely doesn't like me back. We're probably just going to go back to bickering with each other to no end." Â
âRight,â Heeseung chimes in, giving you a look that says he's clearly unconvinced. âJust saying, thoughâsomeone who doesnât like you wouldnât be staring at you like that, and looking at me like I just committed a first-degree crime just for breathing in your direction."Â Â
You follow Heeseungâs gaze and, sure enough, you catch Jay trying to look casual while bouncing the puppy and acting like he totally didnât just get caught. Your eyes meet, and he does a 180 so fast he nearly launches Jisoo into orbit.Â
You quickly turn back to your friends, heat rising to your face as you catch Esther and Heeseung giving each other a knowing look before smirking at you. You roll your eyes and grab the both of them by the back of their shirts, turning them in the direction of the event, "Okay, okay, enough with the delusions. Shouldn't you guys be signing off some puppies or something?"Â Â
"Don't say we didn't tell you so!" Esther calls after you as you turn on your heels towards Jay, furiously convincing yourself that they're so wrong. Â
There's no universe in which Jay Park, the Jay Park, would ever be into you. The Jay Park, who can get any girl he wants, the Jay Park who's just too different from you, the Jay Park who you proclaimed your school rival (self-proclaimed). Absolutely not. Â
When you get back to him, Jayâs desperately trying to look naturalâso, naturally, heâs scratching the puppyâs belly while Jisoo clings to his chest like a tiny koala. Your heart gives a little traitorous squeeze, but you ignore it. Get a hold of yourself, Y/N. Â
âLooks like he likes you,â you say, trying to sound casual as you nod to the puppy, who's squirming excitedly under Jay's attention.Â
âHeâs adorable,â Jay replies, blushing faintly as he shifts the puppy around.
âSo, uh, everything okay over there?â he asks, totally not imagining a deep, romantic conversation to explain your laughter.Â
Youâre caught off-guard, blinking, wondering if Jay somehow became psychic and caught onto your previous train of thoughts about him, until you realize what he meant.
âOh! Yeah, they just⊠needed help with paperwork.âÂ
Jayâs expression hardens ever so slightly as he tries to imagine a world where paperwork could possibly be that funny.
âCool, cool,â he nods stiffly, side-eyeing Heeseung in the distance whoâs still chatting with Esther.Â
"Well," Jay shifts awkwardly as clears his throat, "I should get going to Jake. He's probably in tears by now, honestly."Â Â
You frown at that, and Jay instantly self-identifies himself as the worst person on the planet. He barely resists the urge to apologize for everything he's ever done, from breathing in your direction to any other crime against humanity he's committed in your eyes. Â
"Aw, come on," you say, teasingly, though even you're not sure why. It's just...fun having him around. "Stay a little longer. For the puppies!"Â Â
Jay opens his mouth, fully ready to decline when he catches sight of your expressionâthose big, pleading eyes that make it impossible to say no.Â
And that's it. He's doomed. Right then and there, Jay knows he's doomed. Â
Is Jay currently surrounded by more puppies than he ever thought could physically exist in one place?
Yes.Â
Does he think your puppy eyes are somehow cuter than all the puppies combined?
Annoyingly, also yes. Â
And so, Jay would like to make some new things clear, for the record:Â Â
First, there is no way any of this is his fault. If Jake ends up crying over outfit choices and demands to know why Jay ditched him for puppies, Jay has a rock-solid explanation. Heâll explain the situation, which obviously couldnât be helped. Hanging out with you? Totally justified. Perfectly valid. Â
And second, wellâJay would like to clarify that it's official now. Whatever he was feeling before?
Yeah, definitely attraction. Â
Your fingers drum against your blanket. You stare blankly at your bedroom ceiling. You let out another deep sigh. You toss and turn, adjusting your position for maybe the hundredth time. It's no use.
You're bored. Â
And that, in itself, is a shocking revelation. You're never bored. Your schedule is usually packed to the brimâbetween assignments, club meetings, work shifts, and impromptu Save the Puppies campaigns, there's hardly room for boredom. But today? Â
Today, life has gifted you a rare stretch of free time. No assignments to finish, no midterms to study for, no dog adoption events or cafĂ© shifts. And apparently, you have no idea how to handle that. Â
You turn to look at Jisoo, who's chilling in her spot on your bed next to you, not having a single ounce of consciousness for you to share your boredom with. Â
With another sigh, you grab your phone and scroll aimlessly through your apps. You eventually land in your Photos app and swipe through mindlessly until a recent picture stops you in your tracks. Â
It's a selfie Jay took of the two of you, Jisoo sandwiched between your faces. The infamous day of the pizza-night-turned-accidental-nap-turned-godforsaken-poop-incident. You'd submitted the photo to Professor Kim as proof of your co-parenting efforts, but now, looking at it again, you can't help but smile. Â
It's strange. The memory should be traumaticâokay, it is traumaticâbut in hindsight, it's also...kind of fun. The chaos, the banter, the way Jay somehow managed to make everything feel less overwhelming just by being there. Â
Funny enough, that day was also the last time you remember having any sort of free time, and you remember complaining that you had to spend the day with Jay of all people. But now, looking back at it, you honestly did have fun. Being with Jay was...fun. Â
Your thumb hovers over the screen for a moment before it unconsciously drifts towards the Phone app. You hesitate, realizing with a jolt that you're one tap away from calling Jay. It's like your brain suddenly shut off and something took over you. What's gotten into you? Â
You blink at Jay's contact on your phone, your thumb still hovering over his name. Â
No. Bad idea. Â
You don't need Jay to entertain you just because you're bored. You're perfectly capable of having fun on your own...obviously. Obviously, even though the last hour of groaning and ceiling-staring suggests otherwise. Â
Besides, Jay's probably busy doing...whatever it is Jay does at 4PM on a Saturday. Napping, probably. Â
And what would you even say? Let's hang out? Like some middle schooler asking out their crush? Not to mention, you already have your 'Jisoo' plans in two days, so it's not like you have an excuse to see him. Â
You sit up abruptly, shaking your head as if to clear the fog of ridiculous thoughts. Seriously, do you even hear yourself right now? Looking for an excuse to see him? Since when did you need excuses for anything, let alone something as absurd as spending more time than necessary with Jay Park? Â
This has to be some kind of stress-induced meltdown. It's the only logical explanation. All those late-night study sessions, midterm panic attacks, Jisoo diaper changes, and endless extracurriculars must've finally fried your brain. And now, here you are, teetering on the edge of reason, actually wanting to see Jay Park. Â
Great. Now you have a new problem. Â
Because as much as you try to convince yourself otherwise, the truth is glaringly obvious: you want to see him. And that, more than any amount of free time or boredom, is the real problem.Â
You've officially lost it. Â
I've officially lost it, you chant in your head as your thumb hovers dangerously close to Jay's name on your screen again. Â
I've officially lost it, the words grow louder, taunting you, as you hover over the call button.Â
I've officially lost it, your thoughts scream as you give in, pressing down and watching in horror as your screen shifts to Calling Jay Park.Â
And now, your heartbeat picks up with every ring. You can't decide what's worseâhim answering or him ignoring the call. Maybe if he doesn't pick up, it'll be a sign from above that you're better off leaving this madness alone. Maybeâ
"Hello?"Â Â
Your train of thought screeches to a halt. Â
"Y/N? Are you there?"Â Â
"I'm here!" You blurt out, your voice jumping two octaves higher than usual. Real smooth, Y/N. Â
"Hi...what's up? Are you okay? Is something wrong?" His voice is soft over the phone, a little concerned, like you're about to tell him Jisoo had another diaper emergency. Â
You falter for a moment, staring at the ceiling like the answer might be written there.
"No! Nothing's wrong! I justâuhâ" Quick, think of something normal!
"I was wondering what you're up to."Â Â
"Me?" He sounds genuinely surprised, and you can practically hear the smile in this voice. At least, you think. Or, once again, you've officially lost it. "I'm at the campus gallery, setting up for my photography showcase. It's tonight."Â Â
The campus gallery. His photography. Â
You blink, this is news to you. You vaguely remember Jay asking if you could watch Jisoo tonight, and he hadn't given you a reason back then, but this is why he couldn't be on Jisoo duty today. Because of his showcase. Â
"Wait, really?" You ask, hoping the interest in your voice doesn't show too much. Â
"Yeah. I didn't mention it? Guess I forgot," he chuckles lightly. "It's not a big deal, just a student showcase. I'm just setting up now, making sure my pieces are hung straight and stuff."Â Â
You swallow, a sudden wave of curiosity washing over you. You find yourself smiling to yourself, feeling a wave of endearment wash over you for some reason. The idea of Jay being completely focused and serious about a passion of his is...it's nice. Itâs hard to reconcile the carefree, sarcastic guy you know with the thoughtful perspective he must have to capture the kinds of photos he does.Â
"You should come by," he says suddenly, breaking you out of your thoughts. His voice is casual, but you think you catch a small, hopeful note in it. "If you're free, I mean. No pressure."Â Â
You hesitate, your mind racing. Go? Don't go? It's just a showcase. It's not like it means anything. Right? Â
"I'll think about it," you manage, trying to sound nonchalant. Â
"Cool." There's a smile in his voice again. "Let me know. I'll save you a front-row seat."Â Â
"Front row seat? For a gallery?" You deadpan, rolling your eyes as if he can see if over the phone. Â
"Hey, I'm just being a good host."Â Â
"Hmmm," you smile to yourself again. "Maybe. We'll see."Â Â
But your decision was made the second he suggested that you should come.Â
It doesn't mean anything. Friends come support each other all the time, right? Waitâ
Are you and Jay even friends? You shake your head, trying to dismiss the warmth starting to spread in your chest. Â
It's just photography.
It's just Jay.
Nothing to overthink here. Â
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âOkay, Jisoo, in and out,â you whisper to the robot baby in the carrier that's perched in your arms as you stand frozen outside the campus gallery doors. "We're just stopping by to say hi. Two minutes max. Like ripping off a Band-Aid. Nothing dramatic."Â Â
Jisoo stares back at you, wide-eyed and unhelpfully silent, which you take as strong moral support.
"Thanks, Jisoo," you mutter, like a lunatic seeking validation from a robot. Â
Maybe you shouldn't even go in. It's basically the end of the event anywayâwhat are the odds he'd even notice you didn't show?
Slim. Probably. Right? Â
It's not like you didn't have a valid excuse for your lateness. You did have to change Jisooâs diaper before you left, and that was a whole thing. But let's be real.Â
The real delay?
The real delay was you standing in front of your closet for a solid half hour like a contestant on America's Next Top Existential Crisis. What do you even wear to casually drop by someone's photography showcase? Something that says, Hey, I'm effortlessly supportive, but I totally don't care if you notice me (yes I do). Â
Spoiler alert: that outfit does not exist. Â
And thenâbecause clearly, you love to torture yourselfâyou spent another thirty minutes pacing around your room trying to figure out why you cared so much in the first place. Â
It's Jay. Jay. The guy who thought sticking googly eyes on Jisoo's bottle would make her drink faster. Why are you stressed? Why are your palms sweaty? Â
But despite all that, you somehow made it here, standing outside the gallery with your stomach doing flips like you're about to walk into your own trial. You made it all the way here, so might as well go in, right? Â
You swallow hard, adjust your grip on your emotional support robot baby, and push the door open.Â
And there he is. Â
Center stage, right where he belongsâor at least where he seems to thrive. Standing in front of a massive wall of his framed photographs, the studio lights catch his profile just right. It's almost unfair, like he's been personally photoshopped by the gods themselves. He's surrounded by a small crowd, gesturing animatedly with his hands as he speaks, his smile so bright you're convinced it's starting to hurt your eyes. Â
But his eyes? There's this sparkle in them. Not the usual playful glint you've grown used to, but something deeper, softer. You've never seen him look so alive, so utterly in his element, and it's doing weird things to your chest.Â
You can't help but wonderâwhat does it feel like to make him look that happy? Not that it matters, obviously.
It's just a thought.
A completely useless, irrelevant, go-away-right-now kind of thought. Â
If you weren't busy trying not to trip over your own feet and accidentally drop Jisoo, you might have stopped to take it all in. To admire the way he looks standing there, talking about something he clearly loves, like he's found this magical pocket of the universe where nothing else matters. Might have. Â
But instead, your thoughts screech in a halt, jolting you out of your daydream. Â
Abort mission. This was a terrible idea. Â
Why did you come here? Why is your face hot? Can Jisoo smell fear? Â
Before you can think of a single coherent reason to not turn around and bolt, Jay glances up. And he spots you. Â
His eyes light up even moreâif that's even physically possible. "Y/N?" He calls out, grinning widely. Â
Great. Now you're here. He's happy to see you. You're standing in the middle of his gallery with a robot baby that can most definitely smell your fear. Â
Fantastic. Just fantastic. Â
Jay's voice cuts through your existential spiral, "Y/N!" He's waving you over as he calls out your name again, like you're a long-lost friend who's just returned from war.Â
Well, to be fair, you are fighting a warâagainst your own dumb feelings. Â
"Hey!" You croak, trying to sound casual but ending up somewhere between a dog's favorite squeaky toy and a rusty car horn. You internally flinch at your own voice. Â
"Wow, you came," he says, his sweet smile still on display as you shuffle over to where he's standing. "And you brought Jisoo! My biggest fan."
He reaches out to cup Jisoo's cheeks, and you almost smack yourself in the head for feeling jealous over your own robot baby. Â
"Yeah, well," you start, trying to sound nonchalant. "I figured, you know, project partners should support each other...teamwork and all that."Â Â
Jay raises an eyebrow, clearly trying to stifle a laugh, "Right. Teamwork. Totally."Â Â
You shift your weight from one leg to another, awkwardly looking up, eventually landing your eyes on the wall behind him, scanning the photos on display. Each photo is so himâa little chaotic, a little bold, but somehow...strikingly beautiful. There's a photo of a rainy city street, the light catching every droplet; a close-up of a sunflower against a brilliant sky; a candid of a kid laughing, his face tilted up toward the sun. Â
You suddenly feel a weird, warm pull in your chest. Itâs one thing to see Jay cracking jokes and making sarcastic comments during late-night baby meltdowns. But this? This is a side of him youâve never seen beforeâone thatâs thoughtful, intentional, passionate.Â
You donât realize how long youâve been staring until Jay speaks up, his voice softer now. âDo you like them?âÂ
You blink, startled, and then nod a little too quickly. You hope he doesn't notice (he does). Â
"Yeah. I mean...these are really good, Jay. You'reâ" you cut yourself off, realizing you're about to say something embarrassing.
''âtalented," you finish lamely. Â
"Thanks," Jay tilts his head, looking almost shy. "That means a lot, actually."Â Â
His voice is so genuine that it throws you off. You weren't prepared for this level of sincerity. It makes your stomach flip in a way that's both exciting and mildly terrifying. Â
Jay gestures toward the wall, his hands shoved into his pockets like he's trying not to fidget.
"I wasn't sure if this was your kind of thing, thought you'd be busy and stuff, but I'm glad you came. I, uh..," he scratches the back of his neck sheepishly, "I was kind of hoping you would."Â Â
Oh. Â
Oh? Â
OH. Â
Your brain immediately short-circuits. He hoped you'd come? Like...in a we're-in-this-together-as-project-partners way, or in a please-let-this-mean-something-more-than-project-partners way? Is this what cardiac arrest feels like? Should you call someone? Should you call him? No, wait, you're already talking to himâfocus!Â
You clear your throat and try to channel every ounce of chill you simply do not possess.
"Well," you say, attempting to keep your voice steady and failing miserably, "I'm here."Â Â
It comes out barely louder than a whisper, and you immediately regret every life decision that's led you to this moment. But then Jay smilesâsoft, something smaller, more privateâand it's like the world shifts slightly off its axis. Â
"Yeah," he says quietly, his eyes meeting yours with a warmth that makes you forget how to breathe. "You are."Â Â
And just like that, the noise of the environment dissolves, and the rest of the world shrinks to nothing but the space between you and him. The moment feels impossibly big like it might swallow you whole, and yet so small it could shatter with the slightest breath. Â
You're pretty sure you're about to combust. Explode. Turn into a human firework fueled entirely by sheer tension and whatever it is that's happening right now. God, why does he have to look at you like that? Like you're not standing here internally unraveling? Â
You break eye contact to glance down at Jisoo, and you're positive she's giving you a look that screams, Stop being weird, you two. Â
"Anyway!" You blurt out, desperate to break the tension.
"Which one's your favorite?" You gesture to the photos, your eyes darting anywhere but his own.Â
He laughs, and the sound is warm and unguarded, "C'mon, I'll show you."Â Â
He grabs your free hand without thinking, tugging you toward the far end of the wall. And just like that, you're helplessly following him, heart racing again, wondering how the hell you got hereâand why you never want to leave. Â
So much for in and out. Â
Jay pulls you towards the far end of the gallery, his hand wrapped around yours like it's the most natural thing in the world. Â
It's not. Â
Your brain is in full-blown meltdown mode. Red alerts, sirens blaring, a voice screaming, "WE'RE HOLDING HANDS, PEOPLE!"Â Â
But there's no way you're about to let him see how much this is affecting you, so you shove the chaos down, pretending like your hand isn't currently experiencing the touch equivalent of fireworks...and hoping that it isn't sweaty. Â
"This one," Jay says, stopping in front of a photo that's somehow both ordinary and magical. It's a simple shot of your campus football field, taken from the bleacher stands. You've stood in those very bleachers too many times to countâfor school events, games, the occasional half-hearted attempt to pretend you like sports. But somehow, in this shot, the field looks...different. Â
The grass glows like it's soaked in liquid gold under a sky caught between dusk and twilight. The field is empty, yet it doesn't feel lonely. There's something about it that Jay managed to captureâlike it holds a thousand stories and secrets, quietly hopeful in its stillness. Â
"It's beautiful," you murmur, the words slipping out before you can catch them.Â
"Yeah," Jay lets out a breath. "It's my favorite spot on campus. I go there a lot when I need to think or just...get away a bit."Â Â
You glance at him, startled at the sudden vulnerability in his voice. Jay never strikes you as someone who gets lost in his head; he always seemed too confident, too effortlessly sure of himself. But right now, he's not looking at youâhe's staring at the photo, like he's seeing something beyond it. Â
"I took it on one of those daysâI was just overthinking a lot about life. About who I am, I guess," he continues. "I didn't think it'd turn out good or anything, but...I don't know. It felt right."Â Â
Your chest tightens. There's something so raw in the way he's speaking, like he's letting you see a side of him he usually keeps hidden. It makes you wonder how many other layers Jay Park has, and why it feels so important to uncover them all. Â
The silence between you stretches as you watch Jay continue to study his own photograph. There's a softness in his gaze, a quiet vulnerability that makes you feel like you're seeing him a way few people ever do. Â
But then he blinks, breaking the moment, and suddenly he's looking at you. You stiffen, panic bubbling up at the possibility that he might've noticed you staring at him. Â
"Sorry," he says, his voice carrying a self-deprecating chuckle. "It's really cheesy and stupid."Â Â
You find yourself shaking your head before he even finishes his sentence.
"No! Not at all, really," you blurt out, the words stumbling over themselves in their rush to escape. You feel the heat creeping up your neck, mortified at your sudden intensity. Â
Jay raises an eyebrow, amused, but doesn't say anything, so you clear your throat and try again, softer this time, "I mean it. You have a good eye, Jay."
You mean it more than you've meant anything in a while, and you hope he knows that. Â
For a second, he just looks at you, like he's taking note of something, his head tilted ever so slightly. And then, slowly, his lips curve into that small, genuine smile that makes your chest feel annoyingly warm.
"Thanks, Y/N."Â Â
Your heart does a little somersault. Oh great. There it goes again. Â
And as if Jisoo can sense the moment might be getting too serious, she lets out a cry. You stumble back, jump scared enough by the loud and sudden sound, and Jay reacts instantly, steadying you with his hands on your shoulders. Â
"You okay?" He asks, his face so close that you can now confirm there are literal, actual flecks of gold in his eyes. Of course there are. Â
You blink. I've officially lost it. Completely, utterly, hopelessly, lost it. Â
You nod, your voice stuck in your throat. Am I okay? No. No, you are not okay. You are decidedly not okay. Â
Jay clears his throat, stepping backâthough his hands linger a beat longer than they probably need to, but still a second too short than you should probably want to.Â
You want to scream into the void. Â
"Looks like it's time for Jisoo's dinner," he says lightly with a small chuckle.Â
You fumble for words, your brain still offline.
"Uhâyeah. I left her bottle at my place, and I should probably get going anyways," you manage, your voice a little too breathless for comfort. Â
Jay glances at his watch, pausing for a moment before looking back at you, something hopeful flicking in his eyes.
"I'm pretty much done here," he says, tilting his head towards the door. "It's late. Let me walk you home."Â Â
You hesitate, torn between insisting you're perfectly fine on your own (you're not) and letting him (you want to). But the way he's looking at youâlike it's no big deal, like he simply wants toâmakes the decision for you. Â
"Okay," you say, quieter than you mean to, and before you can second-guess yourself, Jay's already taking Jisoo's carrier from your arms, effortlessly shifting it onto his own. Â
"Let's go," he says, flashing you a small smile that feels like a punch to your stomach in the best way possible. Â
And just like that, you're walking side by side into the cool night air, your breaths visible in the chill, easily falling into a comfortable rhythm as you walk through the quiet campus, the streetlights above casting long shadows ahead of you.Â
Thereâs something easy about walking with him like this. It shouldnât feel this naturalâyour heartâs doing somersaults and pirouettes like itâs auditioning for a circusâbut it does. You steal a glance at him, and heâs focused on the path ahead, his profile calm and soft in the glow of the lights.Â
"So," Jay breaks the quiet as he stuffs his hands into his jacket pockets, "Can you believe the project's almost over?"Â Â
You let out a small laugh, tilting your head, "Honestly, no. Feels like just yesterday I was praying you'd drop the class."Â Â
Jay laughs, a sound that seems to echo in the quiet environment.
"Wow, Y/N. I thought we were bonding."Â Â
"We were," you tease, turning to him with a barely concealed smirk. "I just also thought you were going to be a disaster of a partner."Â Â
He scoffs, giving you a mock-offended look, "I proved you wrong, right? I was amazing since day one."Â Â
"You handed Jisoo to me like she was a bomb, Jay," you remind him, unable to stop yourself from laughing. Â
"I was assessing the danger!" Jay protests, his grin widening. "And excuse me, I've stepped up. I've made bottles, I've cleaned her, I even know how to put on a diaper the right side up!"Â Â
"Jay, the fact that you had to learn which way was right side up is concerning in itself," you manage to let out with a giggle.Â
"Details, details," he waves a dismissive hand. "Point is, I'm practically father of the year."Â Â
You roll your eyes, but you're smiling. A sharp breeze suddenly hits the both of you, and you visibly shiver from the lack of warmth your outfit provides. All that time choosing an outfit, and you still couldn't pick a weather-appropriate one. Stellar, Y/N. Â
And of course, Jay notices immediately. Before you can so much as form a protest, he's shrugging his jacket off and draping it over your shoulders, your body immediately stiffening as his hands brush against you lightly in the process. Â
You open your mouth to say somethingâanything, even just a whispered thank youâbut Jay beats you to it, sparing you the effort of finding actual, coherent words.Â
âSo,â he says casually, like he hasnât just sent your brain spiraling, âwhat do you think youâll do when itâs over?â
"Uh," you blink, still needing a second to reorient yourself. "Sleep, for once."Â Â
Jay laughs again. "Fair. You deserve it. But you'll miss me, right?"Â Â
"Not even for a second," you deadpan without hesitation. Â
"Liar," he teases, bumping your shoulder lightly. Â
You reach your building all too soon, the doors looming in front of you like an unwelcome reminder that this walk, this moment, is about to end. You stop just before the steps and turn to face him, rocking on your heels. Â
"Okay, maybe a little," you admit, shrugging. "But only because you make me look like the competent one by comparison."Â Â
"Wow," Jay shakes his head, but there it is again. The smileâthe small, amused one that makes his eyes crinkle just enough to be unfairly attractive.Â
You glance up at him, wishing the walk had been just a few blocks longer. Or a few miles. Â
"Well," you say finally, forcing your gaze away from his own. "Thanks for walking me. And for carrying Jisoo."Â
You reach for Jisoo's carrier, and Jay hands it over without hesitation, but not before shrugging like it's no big deal.
"No problem," he says. Then, as you're adjusting the carrier on your arm, he adds, "And thanks again, Y/N. For coming tonight. It really meant a lot."Â Â
Your heart does that stupid fluttery thing again it's been doing all night, and you're starting to think you need a medical consultation. Â
"Yeah, well," you clear your throat. "Partner support, you know?" You sound dumb, Y/N. Dumb. Â
Jay smirks, but there's something gentler in his expression now, a flicker of something you can't quite name.Â
"Goodnight, Y/N. And goodnight, Jisoo," he says, giving a small wave to the baby carrier, making you giggle slightly. Â
He takes a few steps back, his hands slipping into his pockets, and gives you one last smile before turning to walk away. But before he gets too far, something bursts out of you, unwarned. Â
"Jay!"Â Â
He stops, turning on his heels, his brows lifting in surprise. "Yeah?"Â Â
You step forward, closing a bit of the distance between you, suddenly hyper-aware of how your voice wavers.
"Um, I was wrong. You're...not all that bad." Why am I doing this? "I'm sorry if I've been...you know, intense. These past few years."Â Â
Jay blinks at you, his surprise turning into something softer. You take a deep breath, pushing through the self-inflicted awkwardness.Â
"You've been a really good partner," you add, offering a small, genuinely smile. "And well...you're pretty cool."Â Â
His studies your face for a moment, the look longing and careful, like he's piecing together something fragile. A faint smile tugs at his lips, and there's a warmth in his expression that sends heat rushing to your cheeks.  Â
For a moment, the two of you just stand here, caught in the glow of the streetlamp. The world around you feels distant, like someone's hit the mute button on everything but the sound of your heartbeat. Â
Jay's smile widens ever so slightly, and he nods, his voice quiet but firm, "I'll see you around, Y/N."Â Â
He takes a few steps backward, his gaze holding yours until he finally turns and starts walking away. You watch him disappear into the night, the outline of his figure fading with the streetlights, and only then do you realize you've been holding your breath. Â
As you step into your building and climb the stairs to your apartment, the night replays in your head on a loopâhis laugh, his smile, his everything. Â
When you finally reach your door, you lean against it for a moment, his large jacket still wrapped around you. Your thoughts crash into you all at once, and two things become alarmingly clear:Â Â
You are completely, utterly, hopelessly in like with Jay Park. Â
You're in so much trouble. Â
âCongratulations, everyone!â Professor Kim clasps her hands together at the front of the classroom, a wide smile on her face. âYouâve survived six weeks of parenting. Hopefully, youâve learned something usefulâand that it hasnât scared you off from actual parenthood one day. Each baby had a monitor tracking its status, so Iâll be extracting that data, combining it with your progress reports, and factoring it into your grade.âÂ
Jay leans toward you from his seat next to you, his breath warm against your ear.
âThatâs a little creepyâŠsheâs going to take Jisoo apart? The poor thing.â His smirk is half-guilty, half-amused, and you have to bite down on your lip to keep from laughing out loud.Â
This is new. Six weeks ago, he was Mr. Front-Row Enthusiast, and sometime between then and now, youâve somehow managed to convert him into your next-row-back partner. Heâd grumbled at first when you insisted about your theory that the front row screamed try-hard, but since then, he doesnât even glance at the seats up front anymore.Â
âGrades will be out soon! Iâll see you all next week,â Professor Kim announces. âAnd donât forget to submit your reflection posts!âÂ
The shuffle of bags and jackets fills the room as students thank her on their way out. Slowly, the lecture hall empties, until itâs just you and Jay lingering at your seats.Â
âWell,â you say, slinging your bag over your shoulder as you stand. âThatâs it. No more parenting lessons for us.âÂ
Jay heaves a dramatic sigh, his lips pulling into a pout thatâs far too endearing for your peace of mind, âI canât believe it. I already miss Jisoo.âÂ
You chuckle lightly but feel an odd tug in your chest, âRight? I got so used to carrying her and her baby bag everywhere. Itâs weird not having her around.âÂ
And it is weird. You never thought youâd feel this way about a glorified hunk of plastic and wires, but now, without Jisoo, something feelsâŠoff. Â
Or maybe itâs not just Jisoo. Maybe itâs the fact that this project, unexpectedly enough, turned into an excuseâa reason to spend so much time with Jay. Now that itâs over, what happens next?Â
The thought hangs between you as the two of you head out of the building. The campus is alive with the hum of students, the energy buzzing around you as everyone heads to their afternoon classes. You both stop outside, standing awkwardly side by side as the silence stretches.Â
No more 'Jisoo days' to plan for. No more excuses to text. No more shared tasks or inside jokes.Â
Will he go back to his front-row seat, forgetting these last few weeks? Or will heâwill youâpretend none of this ever happened?Â
Jay shifts beside you, rubbing the back of his neck. His eyes flicker to yours, then away again, as if heâs waiting for you to say something first.Â
âWell,â you finally say, breaking the quiet because itâs just too heavy to bear. âI have to head to my next class.âÂ
âRight. Yeah,â Jay says quickly, too quickly, his hands both fidgeting with the straps of his backpack. âMakes sense.âÂ
He hesitates, his mouth opening like heâs about to add something, but then he stops. You notice the way heâs looking at you, like thereâs a thousand things he wants to say but canât figure out how to start. You feel that familiar heat creep up your neck, the same one you tend to get whenever youâre around him nowadays. Â
âAlright,â you finally say, shifting on your feet. âSee you around, then?âÂ
Jayâs lips turn up in a small, almost longing, smile, âYeah. See you.âÂ
He doesnât move, though. Neither do you. Itâs like both of you are waiting for the other to take a step away first, and the pause grows longer and longer until you can practically hear the universe screaming at you to just go already. Itâs getting unbearably uncomfortable for all of us, Y/N. Â
And when you finally start to turn, before you can even take three steps, his voice stops you.Â
âHey.âÂ
You glance back over your shoulder, raising an eyebrow. âYeah?âÂ
Jay scratches the back of his neck, looking like heâs fighting some kind of internal battle.
âUh, you were also a really good partner. You know, with Jisoo. I mean, you were kinda terrifying at first with all your color-coded schedules and spreadsheets, butâŠâÂ
His smile softens, and his voice drops a little, âYou were great. Really. I think I learned a thing or two from you.â Â
Your stomach flips in a way thatâs both infuriating and addictive.Â
âThanks,â you say, trying to sound casual even though your brain is short-circuiting. âMeans a lot from someone who had to Google which way a diaper goes.â Â
He laughs, the sound bright and warm in the cool air, âOkay, one time, Y/N. Let it go.âÂ
âNope.â You grin, turning fully toward him now, your nerves settling under the familiarity of teasing. âYouâll never live it down. Itâs my parting gift to you.âÂ
Jay presses a hand to his chest, feigning hurt, âWow. I pour my heart out, and this is what I get in return?âÂ
âExactly.âÂ
He chuckles again, shaking his head before finally stepping back, breaking the invisible bubble thatâs been holding you both in place.
âAlright. Iâll see you, Y/N.âÂ
âBye, Jay,â you say, forcing yourself to turn and start walking away. Â
You make it a few steps before you hear his voice a second time, softer this time, almost hesitant.Â
âY/N.âÂ
You glance back, your heart skipping a beat.Â
Jay looks at you for a moment, his expression unreadable, before his lips curve into a small, lopsided smile.
âText me when you get home later tonight, okay? After your day is done.â Â
You blink, caught off guard.
âWhat?âÂ
âJustâŠso I know you got there safe,â he says, shrugging like itâs no big deal. But the way his voice dips at the end betrays him.Â
Your chest tightens in a way that officially feels dangerous. But you know you never want to get enough of this feeling.  Â
âOkay,â you manage to say, the word quieter than you meant, but it was the most you could muster up with the bubble stuck in your throat. Â
Jay nods, his smile widening just a little.
âGood.âÂ
And this time, when you turn away, you canât stop the smile that sneaks onto your face.Â
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By the time you get home, itâs late, and the apartment is quiet. Esther is nowhere to be foundâprobably out with Heeseung or at the library pretending to study. You toe off your shoes and drop your bag by the door, the routine feeling strangely empty without Jisooâs carrier on your arm and her baby bag strapped to the other. Â
With a sigh, you find your way to your room and collapse onto your bed, scrolling aimlessly through your phone. Jayâs parting words have been echoing in your head all day, barely letting you focus during the rest of your classesââText me when you get home.âÂ
You hover over your messages for a second longer than necessary, typing and deleting a draft once, then twice, then a third time, before finally hitting send:Â
Y/N [8:52PM]: home safe đÂ
You stare at the screen for exactly three seconds before flinging your phone across your bed. You roll over, face buried in your pillow, half hoping he doesnât reply so you donât have to overanalyze the significance of a thumbs-up emoji.Â
But, of course, your phone buzzes almost instantly.Â
Jay [8:53PM]: good đ sleep well.Â
A small, ridiculous smile tugs at your lips. You really shouldnât be this giddy over such a mundane exchange, over a thumbs up emoji, but somehow, here you are.Â
And thatâs when you start going insane. You shoot up from your spot in bed. Â
Why did he tell you to text him? Does he say that to everyone? Or was it justâŠyou? And why does he keep looking at you like that? Youâve never been the kind of person to spiral like this, but lately, everything about Jay has you unraveling in ways you donât know how to handle.
Clearly. Â
You groan, flailing your arms like a toddler throwing a tantrum.
âGet it together, Y/N,â you mutter to yourself, but itâs no use. Every little interaction from the past six weeks replays in your head on a loopâhis laughter, his stupid jokes, the way his eyes crinkle when he smiles.Â
Your thoughts are interrupted by a sharp buzz from your phone. You glance over, half expecting a random notification (the other half hoping Jay double texted you) but instead, itâs the one youâve been waiting for without realizing it:Â
Professor Kim: Final grades are posted!Â
Your heart leaps. Practically fumbling with your phone, you open the grading portal, scanning the page with a held breath. And there it is, staring back at you in bold letters:Â
Semester Project Grade: 100%Â
âYES!â you exclaim, punching the air like a successful cartoon character. Youâre grinning so wide your cheeks hurt, practically bouncing in bed. Itâs the kind of happiness that makes you feel like youâre going to burst if you donât share it with someone.Â
And thereâs only one person you want to share it with.Â
Before you know what youâre doing, your closet doors are wide open, your hands rifling through. Your hands land on his jacketâthe one he lent you after the showcaseâand something about it feels right. You shrug it on, ignoring the way it smells faintly like him (and comfort), and grab your keys without a second thought.Â
By the time you realize what youâre doing, youâre already halfway to Jayâs apartment. Itâs not like you had a planâjust this overwhelming need to see him. Â
Because somehow, heâs become the first person you want to share everything with, want to experience every moment with, want to feel every feeling with, and that thought is both exhilarating and terrifying all at once. Â
But youâve never been so sure of anything else before. Â
Your breath hitches as you reach his familiar door, hand raised to knock. You hesitate for a moment, suddenly aware of how ridiculous this is. Who shows up at someoneâs place at this hour, unannounced, just to tell them about a grade? What if he already saw it and didnât even think twice? You look insane, Y/N. Insane. Â
But then you think about the way he looked at you earlier, the way he smiled when he said âgood job.âÂ
And you knock. Â
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Jay doesnât know whatâs happening. One second, heâs on his couch editing photos, and the next, someoneâs trying to break down his door. At least, thatâs what it sounds like. The pounding is so aggressive it makes his mug of tea tremble slightly on the table.Â
Heart racing, Jay tosses his laptop aside and scans the room for a weapon. Nothing. Great. In a flash of panic, he grabs the TV remote because, sure, itâs sleek, ergonomic, and maybe intimidating in the right light.Â
Bracing himself for certain doom, he yanks the door openâÂ
âOh.âÂ
Itâs you.Â
At his doorstep.Â
Unannounced.Â
In his jacket.Â
Jay flatlines. All he can do is stare at you in the oversized jacketâhis oversized jacketâlooking like you walked straight out of one of his dream scenarios. The rational part of him is trying to keep it together, but the feral part of his brain is screaming Sheâs in my clothes. Marriage now.Â
You tilt your head, studying his expression.
âJay? Are youâŠokay?âÂ
He blinks, realizing heâs been standing there for a good five seconds with his mouth slightly open. Â
âUh. Yeah. Totally. Uhâwhatâs up?âÂ
âWell first, why are you wielding a TV remote like itâs a sword?âÂ
Jay glances down at the remote in his hand, then back at you.
ââŠI thought you were a robber.âÂ
âA robber?â you repeat, struggling not to laugh. âWhat kind of robber knocks?âÂ
âI donât know, maybe a polite one!âÂ
You let out a giggle and shrug, âFair enough. But anyway, Iâm here becauseâdid you see?âÂ
âSee what?â He frowns, confused, and still recovering from his adrenaline rush.Â
âProfessor Kim posted our grades! We got a 100%!âÂ
Jay stares at you for a second before the words sink in.
âWaitâwhat? We got a hundred?âÂ
âYes!â Youâre practically bouncing, a bright smile lighting up your face. âA perfect score, Jay!âÂ
He laughs and steps forward, grabbing your shoulders in his hands.
âNo way. We actually did it?!âÂ
âWe did it!â You beam back, jumping up and down. âWe crushed it!âÂ
Jayâs grinning so hard his cheeks hurt, but he doesnât care. Thereâs something about seeing you this happy, standing in his doorway like a whirlwind of energy, that makes his chest feel way too full, too complete. Â
And for a moment, the two of you are just standing there, caught up in the moment, smiling at each other like idiots.Â
When the excitement dies down, Jay notices the way youâre still slightly breathless, like youâd run all the way here. Â
âWait,â he squints. âYou couldâve just texted me, you know.âÂ
âOh,â you shift your weight, suddenly looking a little shy. âYeah. But I justâŠwanted to see you.âÂ
Jay blinks. His brain is once again malfunctioning. Â
âOh.â Â
Oh?Â
OH. Â
âYeah. SoâŠhere I am,â you add, failing miserably to conceal the wobble in your voice. Â
âHere you are,â he repeats, his voice back to that soft tone that knows how to make your heart go into overdrive. Â
His eyes flicker to yours and stay there as the air between you suddenly feels heavier. Charged.Â
âIs that all?â Jay asks, his lips twitching into a teasing smile.Â
âUh,â you clear your throat, looking anywhere but at him. âI guess.âÂ
Jay leans against the doorframe, studying you with that stupidly charming smirk of his, âWell, then.âÂ
âWell, then,â you echo, fingers fidgeting with the hem of his jacket like itâs the most fascinating thing youâve ever encountered (spoiler: itâs not. That would be Jayâs face. But weâre not admitting that just yet).Â
Neither of you moves. Not even a millimeter. The silence stretches so long that youâre pretty sure somewhere in the world, a Netflix show just autoplayed its next episode.Â
Then, suddenly, Jay watches as your face cycles through the emotional Olympics: panic, resolve, regret, and whatever it is that makes your eyebrows do that cute scrunch thing he secretly loves.Â
âI should go,â you say, finally breaking the silence, your voice quieter now. âSorry for barging in like this.âÂ
You look down at your feet, hands still mindlessly playing with the sleeve of his jacket. Jayâs stomach twists at the sightâat the quiet, unsure way youâre suddenly retreating. Â
No. Absolutely not. He doesnât know where his bravery is coming from (he suspects itâs sheer desperation), but he refuses to let you leave like this.Â
Before you can fully turn away, Jay reaches out and gently grabs your sleeve, tugging you back like youâre his favorite person in the worldâwhich, spoiler again, you totally are.Â
âWait,â he says, pulling you close enough that you bump into his chest. Both his hands find their way to your waist, steadying you with an ease that feels practiced. Like itâs where his hands were always meant to be.Â
And that's when Jay knows for sure: he likes you. He likes you bad. Painful highlighters, confusing spreadsheets, and all. He likes the way you carry your stubbornness like a badge of honor. He likes the way you chew on your pen when you're deep in thought. The way you turn his every sarcastic comment into a competition he's somehow thrilled to lose. Â
âYou forgot something,â he murmurs, his voice soft and low as his eyes search yours, then your lips, then your entire face. Â
Your heart stumbles, your brain short-circuits, and youâre pretty sure your face is now the color of a stop sign.Â
âOh, uh, the jacket?â you stammer, looking down at where he grabbed your sleeve, grasping for any logical explanation. âYouâre right. Sorry, I almostââÂ
But before you can finish, Jay does something both incredibly bold and incredibly reckless. He leans in and presses his lips to yours.Â
For a moment, you freeze. This isnât real. Is this an alternate universe where Jay kisses you instead of just driving you insane?Â
But then, the realization sinks inâJay is kissing you. Like, actually kissing you. And wow.Â
The first touch of his lips sends a rush through your entire body, like every nerve has suddenly woken up all at once. Heâs hesitant at first, almost like heâs giving you the chance to pull away, but when you donâtâwhen you finally let go of all the confusion, overthinking, and denialâyou lean into him, your hands both instinctively reaching up, gripping the fabric of his shirt to ground yourself as you kiss him back, now realizing how much you desperately wanted this. Â
And thatâs all the encouragement Jay needs. Â
His hands tighten on your waist, pulling you flush against him, his fingers brushing the hem of the jacket youâre wearingâhis jacket, you remember with a strange, fluttering thrill. The kiss deepens, gentle but insistent, a slow, breathtaking unraveling of all the tension thatâs been simmering between you for weeks.Â
Itâs like the air shifts around you, the space between you collapsing into nothing. You feel his breath, warm against your skin, and the faintest hitch in it when your hand moves up to lightly curl against the back of his neck.Â
Heâs so close, and everything about this moment feels rightâhis familiar scent, the steady warmth of his hands on your waist, the way he tilts his head slightly to meet yours like heâs memorizing the shape of you.Â
Your heart pounds, the world spinning just a little too fast and too slow all at once. Itâs electric, and dizzying, and somehow everything and nothing like you imagined (because, yes, youâve imagined itâso what?).Â
Jay pulls back just slightly, his forehead brushing yours as he grins, his voice a playful mumble against your lips, not wanting to break the kiss, âYou can keep the jacket.âÂ
Your laugh bubbles out before you can stop it, your forehead dropping to his shoulder as you clutch at his arms for balance.
âSeriously? Thatâs what youâre thinking about right now?âÂ
âIâm a multi-tasker,â he replies, deadpan, his lips turning into a teasing smirk as he leans in and steals another quick kiss. He starts to pull back again, but you don't let himâyour hand catches his sleeve as you dart up and chase his lips for one more peck, light and fleeting, but enough to make him smile like a fool.
You're completely, utterly, hopelessly obsessed with him. Â
"Besides," he adds, the words smug as his arms tighten around you, "I've already sacrificed my jacket. Might as well give up my dignity too."Â Â
You roll your eyes, âYouâre still an idiot.âÂ
âAnd yet, Iâm the idiot you kissed back,â Jay fires back, brushing a strand of hair from your face. Â
You shake your head, your voice soft and teasing, âYouâre soââÂ
The words trail off as you meet his gaze again, and before you can even think about stopping yourself, you tilt your head up, close the remaining distance between you, and kiss him first this time. Â
Jay freezes for a second, caught off guard, before he fully melts into the kiss again, one hand instinctively curling around your waist to keep you as close as possible. There's no hesitation now, no teasing, no holding backâjust the two of you in the quiet of his doorway, and the overwhelming certainty that neither of you wants to let thisâthis moment, this feelingâto end.Â
When you finally pull back, Jayâs eyes are sparkling, his gaze holding an undeniable warmth.Â
âYou know,â he starts, voice light but tinged with something deeper, âif you keep doing that, I might start thinking you actually like me or something.âÂ
You raise an eyebrow, leaning in just close enough to make him squirm, your smirk playful.Â
âAnd if you keep talking,â you murmur, your voice low and teasing, âI might change my mind.âÂ
Jay blinks, momentarily stunned, before letting out a breathless laugh, his arms instinctively circling your waist again, pulling you just a little closer.
âNoted. Say less. Iâll shut up forever. Youâre stuck with me now.âÂ
Stuck with Jay? As in a more-than-project-partners kind of way?Â
Yeah, you think, meeting the smile heâs giving you.Â
You donât mind that idea one bit.Â
Now that the six weeks of parenthood is over, we ask that you write a reflection post in response to your pre-questionnaire answers we asked you at the beginning of the project. Were your expectations met? Exceeded? Any surprises along the way?
Y/Nâs Submission [11:15AM, October 30th]:
Parenting, even with a robot baby, turned out to be nothing like I expected. Iâve learned that no matter how much you plan, babies (and life) have a way of completely ignoring your carefully crafted schedules. It was frustrating at times, but it also made thingsâŠunexpectedly fun.
Speaking of unexpectedâletâs just say my partnership for this project caught me completely off guard, in the best way possible. Turns out, some surprises are worth breaking the plan for :)
Jayâs Submission [11:30AM, October 30th]:
Honestly? I expected surprises, but I wasnât ready to lose three years of my life over a diaper changeâor nearly go deaf from tantrums. Safe to say, I learned the hard way that being a little prepared isnât such a bad idea.
But hereâs the thing: turns out, babies (and certain project partners) have a way of growing on you. Who knew spreadsheets and sleepless nights could actually beâŠkinda great? I guess what Iâm saying is, sometimes the best things arenât planned. And also, I know how to change a diaper in 30 seconds now. The right side up :)
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Hooking rugs that look like dogs
Here's how I do it:
The process I use is called rug hooking (not latch hook or punch needle or tufting, though it is the forerunner of the latter two techniques). Rugs are hooked by pulling loops of fabric strips or yarn through the holes of a base fabric with a coarse open weave, like burlap, or linen, or rug warp. The loops are pulled through the fabric with a squat-handled hook whose business end is shaped like a crochet hook. There are no knots and the loops aren't sewed down in any way. The whole thing stays put just by the tension of all those loops packed together in the weave of the foundation fabric.
This isn't a true detailed tutorial but a walk-through of my particular process. The same information is on my web page, emilyoleary.com .
I hook with yarn, rather than with cut strips of wool fabric, which is what many rug hookers use. I can get a looser, more organic distribution of loops with yarn than I could with wool strips, which are hooked in neat lines.Â
Mostly I use wool yarn. In terms of yarn weight, I can use DK, worsted, or Aran. If I'm using thicker yarn, I leave more holes un-hooked; if I'm using finer yarn, I hook more densely or double up lengths of it. I particularly like using single ply yarns (like Brown Sheep Lamb's Pride or Malabrigo Worsted). I don't keep count, but I think I usually use around two dozen types and colors of yarn per dog. Â
This is my yarn wall in my apartment. Mostly brown and gray yarn!
I start from a small drawing in my sketchbook, then I head to FedEx office to use a copy machine, blowing up the drawing repeatedly and experimenting with how big the dog rug should be.Â
After transferring the image onto my linen, I immediately go over it with Sharpie, because the Saral is really difficult to see and really easy to rub off.
The rug is held taut by a PVC quilting frame that I set on my lap.
I push my hook down through the fabric with my right hand and my left hand stays below the fabric and guides the yarn while I pull it up and through with the hook. Not every hole in the fabric is hooked. Hooking every hole would make the rug too dense. I do hook pretty densely, though-- If you pick up one of my rugs youâll see they have a slight curl to them, which is because theyâre hooked pretty tight. I'm using all different weights and types of yarn, so it's a challenge to keep the overall tension even.
I hook my loops at varying heights to create a very low relief. Sometimes I trim the loops to make them fluffier or wispier or to shape a particular part. I look at a reference photo while I work and pull out and redo sections a lot.
My q-snap frame can accommodate the growing dog rug. I have extenders to make it bigger and I can clamp around my hooking.
The back of a rug looks like lines of little stitches. The lines are little worm trails snaking around because lines of hooking are not supposed to cross over each other. It's important to start a new length of yarn rather than cross over a stitch you already made! I read this when I first started and took it to heart. It makes it much easier to undo and redo hooking if you have to (and I redo sections A Lot). It also keeps the back from getting too bulky and resulting in uneven wear on the back of a functional rug that gets floor use.
When Iâm done hooking everything I turn the rug over and brush watered-down Sobo glue on the edges of the dog, making sure to get one or two of the outermost lines of hooking. I do a couple coats of this thinned out glue. I'm careful not to use so much that it seeps to the front of the rug. When the glue is dry I cut the rug out, but I don't cut so close that the loops don't have any linen to keep them in.
â It generally takes me at least several months to finish one dog rug. My hooking frame and yarn bag are very portable (though bulky) so I can hook out and about at coffee shops or the library or a brewery if there's enough space and light.
Hooking in the wild makes me an ambassador for making things in general and rug hooking in particular. I answer people's questions and always emphasize how relatively easy it is to get started hooking. Sometimes I get anxious that other people will hook rugs that look like mine but better, but I think that working in a traditional medium means you should share your knowledge for the good of the craft.
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feels like home - tyler owens x reader
Request: nope Pairing:Â tyler owens x reader Summary:Â after years, tyler is back in his home town. so much has changed, yet everything is the same Warnings:Â some swearing, mentions of a slight panic attack, there's a tornado (surprise!), some angst, thats it I think?? Word count:Â 2.5K A/N:Â I know nothing about tornadoes. I do know if glen powell asked me to go storm chasing with him I wouldn't hesitate. also running on literally 7% left of my battery but fuck it we roll!! enjoy!
Itâs spring. Tylerâs favorite season. During this time of year, itâs peak tornado season. Itâs when heâs in his element, doing what he loves.
Heâs driving across the U.S. with his loyal crew, chasing the tornadoes wherever they go. And always, inevitably, he ends up in his hometown. Itâs a small town, right in the middle of tornado alley.Â
Over the years, the people had started building their homes with stronger foundations that could withstand tornadoes better. Every year, there was still a lot of damage, but less than before. Most families had lived there for generations, and didnât have any plans to move.Â
When Tyler pulls up to the local bar, his crew is energized and happy. Theyâd just finished chasing a rather intense tornado, and everyone is still high on adrenaline. Theyâre going out for drinks before going to bed, as tomorrowâs weather forecast showed good chances of another tornado.
Little did Tyler know, someone he knows very well has also picked tonight to go out for drinks.
Youâre sitting at your usual table with a friend, blowing off some steam after a long day. You like the bar. Everyone knows each other, the bartenders know your drink order and always have it ready for you before you can even order it.
Itâs one of the things you missed the most while you were away; the kindness of the small town. You know everyone here, and you always help each other out. Especially during tornado season.
When Tyler steps in the crowded bar, he instantly spots a few familiar faces. Old neighbors, childhood friends, friends of his parents. Then his eyes land on you. His breath hitches in his throat as he watches you laugh at something your friend says. He had no idea you were back.
You look up when you see a group of people approaching you from afar. Thatâs when you see him. Exactly how you remember him, only a little older and with a belt buckle that says âtornado wranglerâ. But youâd known him long before he called himself that.
You and Tyler had dated all throughout college, when you were both studying meteorology. Everyone knew you and while most couples broke up during college, you and Tyler stayed together.
But then Tyler started chasing tornadoes and you moved to a bigger city to enroll in an advanced PhD program. You agreed to part ways. It just felt too difficult to still be in a relationship when the two of you were always away.
But you never stopped loving him. You still watch all of his videos. And you donât know it, but he reads all of your research articles.
Heâs walking up to you now, and you forget youâre in a crowded bar with a friend. You donât pay attention to the people he brought with him.
You smile warmly at him. âHey, Ty.â
âOh, I wouldnât do that, lady.â says one of Tylerâs friends. âHe hates when people call him Ty.âÂ
He looks at Tyler, expecting him to say something snarky or mean to you, but heâs got a soft smile on his face.
âHey y/n.â he says. âStill around, huh?â
âStill around. I moved back after graduation. Even though people in a small town can be a handful sometimes, with everyone knowing everything about everyone, itâs still home.â
âYeah, it is.â says Tyler.
Suddenly a few women approach Tyler, stealing him away from your conversation. Apparently, word got out the tornado wrangler is in town, and everyone wants to talk to him.
Tyler waves at you before taking off.
Youâre looking at him as he walks away, and your friend nudges you.
âI thought you guys broke up?â
âWe did. He went to go storm chasing, and I wanted to study more. It just wasnât practical to stay together.â
âBut you still love him.â
You turn to look at your friend. âI never said I stopped loving him.â
âSo⊠kind of like right person, wrong time?â
âYeah, I guess.â
âWhat are you waiting for then? Heâs here now, go talk to him!â
âNah, heâs too busy with his crew. It was nice to see him though.â
You spend the rest of your evening chatting with your friend. You try to focus on the conversation and to not let your mind wander off to Tyler. He really looked good. And his crew looked like they are fun to hang out with.Â
When itâs getting late, you walk over to the bar to pay for your drinks. You say goodbye to your friend and head out to the parking lot.Â
You see Tyler and his crew standing around his red pick-up truck. Theyâre laughing and sharing a drink. Tyler spots you and waves at you from where heâs sitting on the hood of his car. You wave back as you get in your own truck.Â
âTell me, who is she?â says Boone, pulling Tyler from his throughs as he watches you drive off.
Before Tyler can answer, Lilly starts listing off possible answers. âSecret fiancĂ©e? High school sweetheart? Admirer? Girl you went on three dates with and then left?â she counts on her fingers.
âNo, none of that.â says Tyler.
âDefinitely looks like a high school sweetheart. Sheâs your age, from around here. I bet you two grew up together.â
Tyler sighs. Theyâre not gonna let this go. And since theyâre all going storm chasing tomorrow, theyâre probably going to annoy him about it until he answers them.
âWe did grow up together. She was not my high school sweetheart, more like my college sweetheart. We broke up when I became a chaser.â
âLet me guess, she always called you Ty?â says Boone.
Tyler smiles at the memory. âShe did.â
âOhhh my boy is whipped!â says Boone, giving Tyler a playful shove.Â
âOh, fuck off, Boone. Thatâs all in the past. She probably has someone waiting for her at home.â
But you didnât.
You hadnât really dated anyone after your breakup with Tyler.
Sure, youâd been on a few dates people had set you up with. But somehow, it never felt right. It never felt like it did while you were with Tyler. Loving Tyler was just so easy. Like you were always meant to find each other.
When he walked in that bar earlier tonight, he looked different. Older, sure. But also very handsome. You could tell he loved being a chaser. You wish you couldâve talked more with him, just the two of you.
The next morning when you wake up, itâs much earlier than you would have liked. You didnât have any plans today and wanted to sleep in. As you lay in bed, you hear the rain slam against the window. Youâre used to it, and it usually doesnât wake you up.Â
But as the rain starts to get heavier, you hear the wind is picking up as well. You knew there was a tornado warning for this morning, but it wasnât for your town. The tornado was supposed to move away from you.Â
Thatâs when you hear the siren. Itâs almost part of your routine, itâs so familiar. Youâre quick to get out bed, grabbing your phone. As you race downstairs to get to your shelter, you pull up the weather map. Which shows the tornado going straight for the main street of town. Fuck.
You hastily pull on your boots and open the backdoor to your garden, which is where your shelter is. You run toward it, the wind whipping in your face and the rain soaking your clothes in seconds.Â
It takes a lot of strength to open the shelter doors with the wind threatening to slam them closed again. Finally, you make it inside after nearly falling down the stairs. You close the doors and bolt them.Â
Now all thatâs left for you to do is wait until the tornado is gone. You switch on the tiny light and pull out a blanket. Thereâs not much here except for some canned food. If Tyler saw this, you just know heâd immediately go to the store to get more supplies âjust in caseâ.Â
Thinking of him, you pull out your phone. Youâre thinking about calling him, when you notice you have no service. The tornado must have already done a lot of damage.Â
Meanwhile, Tyler is in the of the storm, near the tornado. Theyâre ready to get some great shots, but something changes.Â
The tornado was supposed to head east and then die out, but itâs too slow. Tyler squints his eyes, looking at it. Itâs almost as if itâs getting closer again.Â
He realizes whatâs happening at the same time Boone yells âItâs turning around!â
And heâs right. The tornado is heading west again. And Tyler knows whatâs there. His hometown. Your hometown.
âOh, fuck.â he says. He prays that youâre safe. He knows youâre smart, youâre probably inside the shelter by now. But he still worries.
They wait out the tornado before driving back to the town, prepared to help in any way they can. Debris is scattered throughout the streets. People walk around, helping each other or trying to salvage whatâs left of their possessions in the rubble of the houses.Â
Ever since they got back, Tyler has been trying to call you. Youâre not picking up. Heâs desperately telling himself you know the protocols. Hell, youâve lived in tornado alley your entire life. Youâre probably taking inventory of the damage on your property right now.Â
Meanwhile, youâve been listening to the storm outside. Itâs all quiet now, you donât hear any rain or wind, or sirens. You climb up the stairs and push open the doors. Except they donât open. You check all the hinges, which are all still secure in place. Then why wonât the doors open?
You walk back down the stairs as you slowly start to panic. Thereâs probably debris blocking the doors. You have no cell service. Everyone is busy with their own houses. How long would it take for someone to find you?
Youâre trying desperately to stay calm. People will find you eventually, right? But soon the tears are streaming down your face. Youâd been in this shelter before, but itâs terrifying when you canât open the door and all you have is a dim light, some canned food, a blanket and a phone without service.
Tylerâs crew is helping the people in town. But he gets increasingly more worried when you wonât pick up a single of his phone calls.Â
Lilly notices his worried glances at his phone while sheâs handing out food to people. âTyler.âÂ
He looks up at her. Lilly jerks her head to his truck. âGo see if sheâs alright. You know where she lives, right?â
Tyler nods.Â
âGo. Weâve got it here.â says Lilly.
He takes a quick look around. Lilly is right, his crew can handle it here. He just really needs to know if youâre okay.Â
Thereâs too much debris on the road, so Tyler ditches his truck and walks the rest of the way. He could walk this route with his eyes closed. The longer he walks, the more destruction he sees and the more the uneasy feeling in his chest grows.
What if you were somewhere buried in the rubble of your house and he never got a chance to ask you if you wanted to try again? To see if you still had that spark you had when you were younger? He knew you wouldnât let him go that easily. It had hurt you both when you broke up. And seeing you again, it reminded him of all the time you had spent together during college.
When he finally gets to your house, he sees itâs mostly still intact. The walls are still standing, but the roof needs fixing. Most of your windows are broken and a tree had fallen on your truck.
Tyler rushes to the front door, which is hanging off its hinges. He quickly enters your house.
ây/n? y/n! Where are you?â
When you donât respond, he tries calling you again.Â
âCome on, pick up, pick up.â he mutters. Still no answer. Damn it.
Where would you go during a tornado? Heâs forcing his mind to stop spinning out of control so he can think logically. Then he remembers you have a shelter in your backyard. How could he forget? He even helped you stock it in case something like this happened.
He runs through your messy living room, pieces of broken glass crunching underneath his boots. When he gets outside, he sees your shed â or whatâs left of it â on top of the doors to your shelter.
ây/n!â he yells again, running toward the shelter.
You faintly hear a voice yelling your name. You briefly think youâre actually going insane at that point. Your panicked mind is making this up because it knows Tyler gives you a feeling of safety. Tyler isnât here, heâs most likely outside still chasing the damn tornado. Thereâs no way heâd be here.
ây/n are you in there? Give me a shout if you can hear me!â
But thatâs unmistakably his voice. You hear sounds outside near the door.
âTy?â you say quietly.Â
âCome on! Are you in there?â
âTy!â you say, louder this time.
Outside, Tyler lets out a big sigh of relief as he continues to draw away the debris from the doors of your shelter.
Finally, he can see the handle of one of the doors and yanks it open.Â
You squint your eyes at the sudden sunlight. Your eyes are quick to adjust, and they land on Tyler.
Standing there, breathing heavily, looking at you and holding out his hand for you to take.
âTy..â you say softly. Fresh tears start to run down your cheeks as you take his hand and allow him to pull you out of the shelter.Â
He pulls you against his chest, one hand coming around your back and the other on the back of your head, holding you against him.
You allow yourself to get lost in the familiar feeling. Tyler still wears the same cologne, and you still fit perfectly in his arms. God, you missed him.
âI was so scared.â you mumble.Â
âI know, sweetheart, I know.â says Tyler.
He pulls back slightly so he can look you in the eye. âAre you hurt?â he asks.
You shake your head. âI got to the shelter as soon as I heard the sirens, like you taught me.â
Tyler smiles at you. âYou did good.â
âI brought my phone but there was no service and then I couldnât open the door and I-â
ây/n.â says Tyler, cutting you off. âYouâre alright. I got you out.â
âThank you.â you say, burying your head in his chest once more.
The two of you stand there for a while. You both need this right now.
âTy?â you say.
He hums in response.Â
âPlease donât leave again.â
He presses a kiss to the top of your head.
âIâm never leaving you again, sweetheart.â
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I would LOVE a makeout sesh with Kate! either hcs or a little smut fic either works đ€Ș
kate martin x fem!reader making out hcs
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* â§â kate martin making out with her gf,,
â there is no such thing as space when you and kate are making out
- she holds you so close itâs actually insane
â sheâs so whiny and needy for you
â hands are gripping your thighs, kneading them and keeping them pressed against her body
â lowkey kinda sloppy but she canât help it
- like sheâs so obsessed with you
â loves to french kiss the hell out of you
- constant battle for dominance
â will make out with you absolutely anywhere in your apartment
â sheâs so out of breath but sheâs not a quitter
â if you pull away sheâs immediately kissing somewhere else
- neck, jaw, shoulder, collarbone you name it
- will give you an insane amount of hickeys on accident
â the make out sessions start as soon as you put on her favorite chapstick
â can never make out in one position for too long
- will go from sitting down to flipping you on your back
â ESPECIALLY LOVESSS when you straddle her during make outs
- will help you grind on her lowkey
â it always starts out fast and passionate but ends up so slow and languid cause yall have been at it for so long LOL
â refuses to answer the phone during a make out sesh
- âkate, your phone is ringingâ
- âitâs fine, just câmere.â
â if her hands arenât on your thighs theyâre probably up your shirt ngl
â itâs her fav pre-game pastime!!
â will literally beg to take your clothes off cause she just wants to be close
â likes when you tug on her hair
- especially if itâs in a ponytail
â she literally wants to make out at least once a day
- âno kate, i just finished my makeup.â
- âplease?â
- ââŠfine.â
â sometimes she does ask but most of the time is just happens naturally
â loves loves loves her early morning make out sessions with you
â makes jokes about how easily she takes your breath away
- literally only because she wonât let you pull away
â walking around with your lipstick all over her mouth afterwards đ€
â will start off by giving you little pecks or kissing your neck to get your attention
â sometimes gets your foundation on her nose too LOL
â itâs like tradition now honestly
â âbabe, wear that strawberry chapstick today, itâs my favorite.â
- âi thought the lemon was your favorite?â
- âi just said that so youâd kiss me.â
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* â§â
kate and reader are my fav cutie pies tbh
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â đđ ËâĄ. â KATSUKU BAKUGOU. setting powder.
about. whilst getting ready to meet your new boyfriendâs extended family â you learn that he knows a thing or two about doing makeup.
warnings. minors, blank and ageless blogs do not interact! sfw, fluff, characters aged up to 20s, enemies to lovers, meeting the family, new relationships, brief mention of injury and hospitals, reader wears makeup and dresses, pro hero!bakugou, nurse/doctor!reader.
âweâre gonna be late, sweetheart.â
leaning against the door frame, bakugou crosses his arms over his chest â his perfect lips pulled into a suave smirk as he watches you finish your makeup for tonight.
âwhaâŠhuh? you said i had twenty minutes?â youâre still half dressed, your boyfriendâs baggy hoodie from an old merch collection draped over your sweet little dress to protect it from your foundation, your hair is tied back and away from your face so it doesnât get in the way and though youâre still trying to blend your cream blush in with one of those sponge things â katsuki thinks youâre the most adorable thing in the entire world.
pushing himself off the door frame, he sits behind you on the bed â still watching you work at the vanity whilst he fixes the cuffs of his dress shirt. âthat was twenty minutes ago,â the blonde rasps affectionately and grasps your at your jewellery laid out on the bed. the rough pad of his thumb traces over the âKâ on the silver heart locket heâd gotten you for your birthday before he undoes the clasp and places the chain around your neck â being mindful of your hair in the process. âyâsaid youâd be done by then.â
you catch your boyfriendâs vermillion stare in the reflection of your mirror â his subtle smile when he sees his initials dangling from your neck. it feels you with warmth to know that no matter what, katsuki will always find you beautiful and will always love you. even with how chaotic your makeup looks when half done. âi think i spent too long in the shower ân underestimated how long this look would take,â you sigh, reaching for your lip gloss next. youâll have to put it in your purse, do your lips in the car. âdo you think theyâll mind if weâre any later than this?â
âmy parents wonât. neither will inko. deku â i mean â izuku will, but heâll pretend he ainât bothered,â bakugou prattles down the list, making a note of tonightâs attendees. it was tradition that the bakugous and the midoriyas had a monthly dinner together, it had been going on since the two pro heroes were children. only now, their partners were invited since they were family too. family included you.
you hadnât gone to U.A and you certainly didnât know katsuki until he became an up and coming pro hero. the first time heâd saved you, by the sidewalk of the hospital you worked at, you thought he was brutish and stuck up. youâd hated him and heâd hated you. but over time, and more frequent trips to A&E after saving civilians or sometimes after being wounded in villain attacks â youâd come to appreciate bakugouâs brooding personality and observant nature.
heâd come to like you too. how much you cared for others and wanted to make the world a better place. you reminded him a little bit of izuku, in a strange way.
so one night when you were on call, katsuki brought you flowers instead of a stomach wound that needed stitches and youâd given him a kiss instead of berating him about being careful, over vanilla and chocolate pudding cups from the hospital cafeteria.
signing impatiently, you bring katsuki back to present day. âi wanted to make a good impression on your aunty and on your best friend,â rubbing your arm nervously, you cast your gaze over the mess on your vanity â expensive products splayed across them in organised chaos.
âyou will. theyâre gonna love you. they already do,â bakugou stands behind you now, rough palms smoothing over your shoulders. âizuku says youâve made me less bitchy at work. whatever the fuck that means.â
you giggle, eyes sparkling in delight as you look at the blonde in the mirror. âreally?â
âreally,â he nods sheepishly. the way you look at him makes him feel so loved. itâs new to him. nice to him. ânow, whaddya need help with sâwe can hurry up ân hit the road.â
you begin to ramble on, perking up at the idea of katsuki helping with the rest of your routine.âwell⊠iâve done my lashes, my eyes, my base and blush⊠i can do lips in the car. aside from putting on earrings and fixing my hair all i need is to set my face withââ
âsettinâ powder,â bakugou grabs the little pot from your vanity as if he knew where it was all along, picking up a little face cushion as well as he prepares to get to work. âgot it.â he dips the cushion into the translucent powder, rubbing the excess off on the back of his hand before leaning in real close to dab at the areas he thinks you need it. like your t-zone.
your boyfriendâs touch is like magic on your face, perfectly setting your makeup while making you feel like a pampered princess. âwho taught you how to do this?â comes your shy mumble, his proximity to your face causing you to grow flustered and squirm in your seat. âh-how are you so good at it?â
âkeep still, iâll be finished faster if yâstop squirminâ sweetheart. donât wanna mess up what youâve done already,â pausing his actions, katsuki gives you a toothy smirk â revelling in how bashful youâve become under his touch while he helps you with your makeup. ââŠgrew up behind the scenes of fashion shows ân shoots. so i picked up a thing or two i wanted to make sure i could still do it so i watched a couple of videos on it too. ân i noticedâŠyou always put so much time ân effort into your makeup. wanted to help make the process easier for you.â
you feel as though you could melt at katsukiâs kind words and gesture as he dabs at your face a little more â tongue caught between the tips of his pearly white teeth as he sticks it out in concentration. heâs so cute it makes you want to scream. âyouâre sweet,â you coo appreciatively, stilling yourself to let him finish before he pulls back â satisfied with his work. âi love you.â
itâs not the first time youâve said it to one another, but the three words are still new to the both of you. âi uhâŠi love you more,â a pink, rosey hue rises on the surface of bakugouâs tanned skin and his red, loving eyes dart away from your face bashfully. ââm gonna get your shoes ân jacket ready by the door while that sits. donât forget your settinâ spray after you brush that shit off â oh ân donât take my hoodie off until youâve done that. donât wanna ruin your dress, kay?â
âokay,â you respond fondly, hiding your smile at his very specific instructions. âiâll be down in a minute.â
katsuki nods hesitantly, standing up as he gathers your belongings and outerwear â ready to load them up in the car, when he suddenly pauses in place. âyou look beautiful tonight, sweetness. you always do.â he adds as one last parting message, before disappearing down the hall.
leaving you wondering how you ever lucked out with such a man. one whoâs not only kind and gentle and loving, but a pro hero and a makeup artist at that.
ê° end. â all rights reserved © tteokdoroki 2024. do not copy, repost, translate & recommend elsewhere.
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