#some positive

[thepinkwaffle]

[plumrat]

Just kinda curious

Y’all should totally share your experiences if you’re comfortable

I feel like it’s an important aspect of the aro/ace experience that isn’t talked about enough

[ssreeder]

Nothing scarier than ssreeder doing research /lh

I agree, it’s a terrifying thought - imagine being me. I KNOW what I’m researching haha.

[scuttle-buttle]

Listen, imma have to take a break from your fic because IM ADDICTED BUT IM ALSO IN DISTRESS PLZ LAZLO WHY KAREN WHY WHY.

Love you.

If it makes you feel better the extreme angst is very close to being over 😅😅😪

But in all seriousness you do what you've gotta do to stay mentally healthy okay. Laszlo will still be here when and if you're ready 💙💙💙

[vishnu-flynn]

TL;DR

I don't post here much often but reblog art.

My brain is still a war zone against myself.

Having a full fridge and not being compeltely broke is nice for once.

I'm even better at Fighter Z than last year ( yay me <3 )

Hoo, boy. Time for the negative shit.

I honestly need to stop doing drugs. I'm trying really hard, but I'm so fucking depressed constantly, I just can't stop. I feel like a burden to everyone in my life, and asking for help is above my pride. And I hate it. I hate my stupid pride. I also can't help that it's free. It's handed to me like candy. From someone who's incredibly toxic. He doesn't come around as much anymore, so that helps a lot, but I'm not gonna say no when my brother hands it to me.

My mom wants me to come back home. But I can't let her see me this way. She's trying her best to reconcile with me, and maybe I should just stop being such a stubborn dick.

Also big shout outs to Yami. I can't believe I had the fucking privilege of seeing your name again.

You really did a good job at making me hate myself. No, no. No welcome needed. All that manipulation you did to me really did have a nice after effect. Thanks.

[knifewaifu]

I just wanted to pop in and say, It always brightens up my day when I see your art on my dashboard ❤ It's awesome, and I wanted to compliment you on it ;w;

omg I needed that today, my entire plan for today have been crushed by all of this. Your comment brightens up my day too!

[amandaj718]

I Need to Write This Out

Just need to leave my conscience under the ‘keep reading’ line. 

Today is my grandma’s 85th birthday. We took her to get something to eat at her favorite cafe (it's her favorite because of the homemade ice cream). She has come so far. This time last year she wouldn’t eat, her pills weren’t just right yet, and she was despondent and thin. Now she eats like it's her job, her meds are helping out, and she has gained 10 pounds since she went to the nursing home.  We also got to see my uncle, so that was nice.

For five minutes everything felt...normal. Everyone was happy. Generally healthy (my mom has a cold) and we were remembering the old times. For five minutes I felt warm and maybe some Christmas spirit. 

Then my mom and I decorated the Gingerbread house, and that warmth grew. We couldn’t stop laughing as we screwed up so many ways but it turned out ok.

I had that warmth, and then I decided to check out Tumblr, answer emails and write the second chapter of my fanfiction.  Saw a few tax-related posts that put water on that warmth. 

Yes, the real world is complete shit right now. I wish I could stop letting that crappy real world ruin my quest to find Christmas spirit before its too late. 

Also, I feel bad for other reasons. I need to reply back to a few people. I still haven’t been on Twitter for three weeks now. I’m sure everyone I talked to on their thinks I’m a flake when I’ve had to leave for my mental health. 

Sigh. For two days I want to pretend everything is ok. I feel guilty for that but for my mental health...I need to pretend. 

I sound crazy. I always sound crazy. 

Anyway, now that my mind grape has been squeezed (if you get that we can bump elbows) I need to answer everyone and then I plan to write my little heart out so I can update my little story. 

[prideandperdition]

I feel like a happy today and so should you 'cause you're beautiful and talented and I'm proud of you

[pasteldrich]

ftr as a word of warning dont talk to me about tf2 unless youre ready for a barrage of Opinions

[andjustforthismoment]

I have to be honest, when I first watched this episode live yesterday, my emotions were all over the place. There were things I did not like and I wished I could burn it from my eyes and brain. I ended up focusing so much on what I didn’t like that I missed some moments that were actually good.  Now this morning, while lying in bed, not feeling the best, I decided to watch it again and I actually found much more that I liked.  

Like THIS moment right here.  We got a cute flashback scene and the red pen, but that is not why I enjoyed this moment.  I was drawn to this scene because it shows how much Oliver & Felicity are connected or as we say sometimes, in sync.  They shared the same memory.  They were in two different places. Talking to two different people and they both had a flashback to the same moment that ends up sending Oliver to battle with Prometheus. How cool is that?

Now, I am probably reading too much into this but this is what popped out at me and just wanted to share. 

[bokutos-art]

[ciel-noir17]

And yet, my depression is coming back. As soon as I have time to sit and think at all, it hits me like a ton of bricks. Again, for those of you who know me IRL, you know that my mother died in June of 2013, what some of you might not know is that she was born in November. This month has special meaning between my mother and I, her birthday, of course, which is rough after a recent passing, but also, we used to spend Thanksgiving with her family and then go to a convention on that weekend. So, it's kind of rough.

This is also the time of year that I had a falling out with my best friend. While we are talking again, we are friends again, and I feel our friendship is actually stronger, it's still that time of year. It's still relatively fresh. The memories of it still sting a little. 

I don't know... I feel I need someone to lean on, but I feel like shit about that. I don't want to be clingy... But, I'm not so sure I can just power through this. I'm in such a weird place. In the mornings, I'm happy, and up. I see myself in the mirror, and like how I look, but then the weight of this month, this time of year, starts to pull me down... I don't know. 

Anyway, sorry for ranting at you guys, any of you that read this anyway... I just felt like getting some of this off my chest.

[nemosland]

Feelings tonight:

Mild irritation over minor things

Loneliness in both a physical and emotional sense

Anxiety over final draft of history paper due on Thursday

Annoyance that I probably won't be able to write something original for the Writers' Cafe Halloween special tomorrow due to time constraints and I'll just have to tell that drabble I wrote last Halloween

Wondering what it's like to not have anything stressful in my life whatsoever. It just seems like I'm trading problems for problems here.

Honestly thinking I might never be in a real, proper relationship because i...well fuck. I don't even know. That's an entire post in itself.

Positive stuff though!: 

I just took a shower for the first time in a while and I've got finally got fresh laundry.

I feel like I'll be able to make some good headway into my final draft tonight, get some good sources, fill some gaps. I can spit out at least three more pages by tomorrow night.

I took a nap earlier, so I actually feel refreshed, especially after the shower.

Except for the paper, I don't actually have much else to do this week except for some easy math HW. 

[prideandperdition]

Goodmorning rays of sunshine, I hope most of you have a great day on this dreadful monday 😊

[mnemehoshiko]

Lol stop tagging your hate.

*sigh* Opinions are not hate. Hate would be "OMG THESE SHIPPERS ARE THE WORST PEOPLE EVER" and furthermore, the only reason I tagged it was because AN ANON ASKED FOR MY OPINION. And like if I really wanted to hate I would used like ALL THE VARIOUS HAYFFIE TAGS THAT EXIST