#so...yeah im not well rn
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I sure love when im making vent art but get frustrated cause im not in the good head space or skill level to make it look good >:[[[[[
#anyway im not fineeee#i hate school i am overwhealmwd overstimulated angry and mean#everything is wrong and it sucks and no one gets me gets me#also having feels about being trans and queer and a teen and losing intrest in a thing i live#and i was forced to clean my room and do homework and it fucking sucks#so...yeah im not well rn#gonna get some sleep and get better but its not awesome rn#oh also existential dread of a world where i will have to work till i die or close to it with basiclly no breaks and im already exhausted rn#so it feels like its only gonna get worse with time
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in spite of everything, I had fun <3
#my art#jujutsu kaisen#jjk#jjk fanart#jjk spoilers#jjk manga spoilers#jjk leaks#yuji itadori#fushiguro megumi#nobara kugisaki#itafushikugi#jjk 271#well we made it :'>#im kind of ignoring a lot of the tag rn ghsdff ik people are upset#if u follow me u know th full extent of my thoughts on the wrapping up of the series but tl;dr the caption says it all#this series meant a lot to me and im working on a bigger tribute to fully express that love and gratitude#but take a redraw 2 tide u over for now#im just so happy. its bittersweet but those r my kids n theyre tgt and theyre okay#i think the return to normalcy is good fr them. i say let them rest n b together n process everything in time#/i'm/ satisfied with what i got out of jjk as a whole and that's all that matters to me#however ik that not everyone shares tht sentiment n thats valid!#regardless of how u feel abt the finale i hope that u at least take time to remember things abt the series that brought u joy#thats all i can say#oh yeah anyway i lightened up megumi's expression his face is so funny in that panel i can't believe he really said -_- until the very end#still tho i think megu deserves a content lil smile
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i listen to fog lake too much
#falls through the ceiling with a mighty crash hello#it's been what...8 months?#I was too busy w uni and being mentally ill#thank u everyone so much for the tags on all prev posts.. i re-read them oaccasionally 💗#they make me v happy thank u for giving me a moment of ur time#that means so much#anyway! vashwood!!#i hate them so much#i want to eat them#i want to ugly cry#i want an ideal world where they could've had something for a little bit#im eating drywall and pacing around the room in a cold sweat#so trimax-atypical overt intimacy it is#more coming...in maybe another year#It's a big project!#to me. yeah#my dream is to be put in a terrarium for a while#if only u knew how many wips I have w vashwood..#maybe i'll get tired and pile them into one post all unfinished and no less ok for it yk#whatever u r doing doesn't need to be perfect to make someone happy#didn't u experience a positive little zap from my imperfect colored doodle rn?#what a speedrun of a drawing that was#(<spent 10h on it. that's the minimum for anything ever)#hope today is treating you well! so long stranger!#vashwood#vash the stampede#nicholas d wolfwood#trimax#trigun#tzarrz
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Just because you don't love yourself it doesn't mean I will stop loving you.
#my art#goro akechi#persona 5#shuake#p5r#ren amamiya#persona 5 royal#akeshu#for some reason i wrote a dif caption on all socmed#i like them all#u know me and my poetry and shuake i cant stop coming up w lines so oh well collect them all#twt tumblr and bsky#twt and tumblr are similar#oh right i have never told ppl i have either of those here#tumblr is my true home so i forget#anw enjoy my tablet pen is dying and replacement is 350 euros cause its a wacom display tablet from 2013-17 and yeah. fuck me :)#cant even say i will do comms to pay for a new one cause its maddening to draw on it rn#idk how i managed to draw this one - passion for shuake ig#ok thats too much rambling even for me oops#its been a bad week lots of expenses for someone who quit her job to do a post grad on my savings lol#im getting better though
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was gonna do a full post with more designs, but it's already taking me way too long to post these, so whatever. here's some of my uu designs. <3 they're very basic, and i will do a more detailed sheet with different arcs (?) in mind, but it will take me way too long, i fear. so you can have those for now. ^_^ they're all from like... a month ago? maybe more.
#☆ my art .#unstable universe#i don't have many like notes to list about my designs because i can't put my thoughts to words very well#plus i wrote out some initial ones that i had so yeah#still figuring out what to do with dean#i like the thought of him jsut being a guy.#like everyone is some type of creature or a hybrid#and dean is just... a guy.#i think it's silly#i'm gonna do other relevant characters like ken wato minute luigi etc too#i just cant promise when or how soon#might add more things when im more coherent#i have a slight fever rn uhh.#parrotx2#wifies#deanthebean9#wemmbu#eggchan#princezam#spokeishere#mapicc#planetlord#i think thats all of them
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gukgak specifically from my typing (man w/ three jobs & a creeping sense of dread)
#fantasy high#riz gukgak#I think u guys will learn very soon that if I see a child character Im imagining them Making It To Adulthood#I looooove doin future designs. simply what I do#(this is specifically for the fic Im writing yes but if the fic werent a thing I'd still do it lol)#(its enrichment. for Me)#truly I cherish the part of riz that is both deeply un-self-aware and A Bit Much#Im still figuring thea out as I write this but I think the star thing abt her is that shes cool with a suspicious amount of weird shit#shes kind of a pollyanna rn but also whenever anyone says something insane shes like haha me too#riz's jobs in this one are 1/city council treasurer (intentionally depowering this position by occupying it while goblin)#2/private investigator 3/[REDACTED]#yeah so uh. thats happening. slowly. Im prioritizing this gotdamg comic rn I want it Done but well. always good to have things to#fiddle with while on break
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My comic is so pretty...
The hiatus is letting me take a little extra time on these episodes, and I'm definitely putting it to good use!!!
#almost done with my 8th episode... which will give me. two weeks. of buffer...#id really like at LEAST a month... but to be more comfortable id like two#which means 2-6 more episodes before I come back!#I've got about 7 weeks so its possible. but i do still have to finish book 4#so much to do ..........#I decided for my next comic im doing 3 updates a month.#having 10 days instead of 7 to make an episode is such a huge huge huge difference...#difference in quality and in my health!#anyways the comic is really pretty im really happy with the work im doing rn#the environments especially. im getting to spend a nice amount of time on them and theyre turning out so nicely#its nice to be able to write with a lot of different environments and not have to redo panels when I get to them cause of time#cause every time theres a wild angle? you need a new background...#so sometimes. often actually. there just isnt the time to make the backgrounds for those and i have to make them more flat...#which is fine. it doesnt really affect anything narratively. but. idk. it's kinda sad right?#anyways yeah! 10 days will be much better.#36 episodes a year is about what ive been uploading with my hiatuses on the weekly schedule anyways!#so might as well cut out that super stressful middleman and just commit to that#52 a year is just such a huge difference and i have to accept its not possible to me#i will hurt myself trying to do that. and i want to make comics my whole life!#so i cant push myself that hard now and sacrifice my future. we're gonna go slower after this...#anyways yeah cant wait to come back but also time. if I could get an extra week like a secret one just for me#where theres no chores no nothin just me and my work#thatd be great! so go ahead and do what you gotta do to give me a little pocket dimension#me: ugh i want to return right now...#the more logical me: NO we need the time to finish everything!!!!!! NOT right now!!!!#time and time again#ttawebcomic#comic panels#hiatus stuff#adam and steve
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…well its better than the alternative
#Is it really a proper Thursday without Arthur angst ??#This was not at first meant to be arthur#i have been drawing him too much recently and every man i try and draw becomes him#Never the less the song fits so well#will wood#malevolent#arthur lester#arthur malevolent#arthur lester malevolent#traditional art#pencil art#malevolent fanart#malevolent podcast#limb posting#malevolent pod#the normal album#yeah tags#OMG I FORGOT FAROE#faroe lester#faroe malevolent#I heard the song had a vision and proceeded to loop it for about an hour#i did not use a ref for arthur so my bad if he looks a little off#arthur lester fanart#malevolent arthur#my art#Yeahh im just putting off posting this rn
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you won't fucking believe what im working on again
#my art#described in alt text#crocodad au#'you need to rest' well yeah ok sure. laid in bed sick. then bored. then annoyed then incredibly pissed. i Have to do smth & fever seems#sort of down rn so i got up and stared at my laptop what do? watch smth? animate smth? write smth? saw a notication of someone#wheezing on that luffy and mihawk meeting comic and went YOU KNOW IVE HAVENT DONE YET???#i forgot how long this comic was and its the crocau 1y anniversary soon sooo#if i cant finish it im still posting it as a sketch cause fuck it. will try to clean as much as possible!!#omg i forgot to eat
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ngl im fucking terrified of how the fandom will act when the asian ccs get added and they are confronted with asian customs such as honorifics, asian cultural norms, and the language itself (ie words that are common in one language that sounds like a slur in another) and i know most of the fandom will be open and welcoming but idk im probably being way too pessimistic as someone who is asian and has seen the bs that people can spew esp regarding things like stereotypes
#qsmp#im being really negative rn cause im just really scared#im excited to see asian representation and i really hope to be proven wrong in my pessimism#but i will dropkick anyone who purposefully tries to misinterpret or villainize or sexualize or whatever my culture#its on fucking sight for those kinds of people#even people that just associate one thing for one culture ie japan with anime or korea with kpop#like i swear these countries and cultures are more than just that so please be open to learning more and not just make assumptions#also i am so very scared when it comes to cultural norms esp because qsmp is so damn western ethics and morality focused#i have many thoughts about this in particular but theyre way too complex#but yeah i really hope this event goes well and the new members feel welcomed
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As densely packed as I could tolerate making it- Roxie doodles! (Vast majority of these are from several weeks ago I'm not gonna lie,,)
#there will be more roxie today rest assured... well. I'm INTENDING to post more roxie at least#idk why i like it so much but the top middle might be my favorite rn idk#spto#sp comic#spvtw#art#fanart#roxie richter#spto roxie#spvtw roxie#roxy richter#roxanne richter#kim pine#ramona flowers#lisa miller#(yeah i couldnt help myself...)#im not putting this in my ship stuff tag BUT:#ramoxie#roxim#lisrox#roxkimona#scott pilgrim roxie#scott pilgrim fanart#spto fanart#spvtw fanart#happy roxie day everyone!! and neil banging out the tunes day.....#(no promises but i has a silly little idea that i might sketch related to that)#((top left doodle- i think it would be funny if rammy and roxie were like ''hey kim!! skate date!!'' and kim agreed but was too embarrassed+#+to admit she has no idea how to skate... idk it's cute to me. they can teach her [unsuccessfully /j]))#(had to sacrifice a tag. L. anyway roxie is wearing Kim's stfu shirt in the kneeling doodle there. also lisa was a last second addition-)
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Tickletober DAY 8: Death Spot
Decided to do this with my new oc :’D
#im gonna have a breakdown school is making me fall behind on this#i really wanna do it but i have to focus on school as well and it takes up so much of my time 😭😭#little vent but yeah im not very happy rn#anoms art >:]#sfw tickle community#sfw tickles#sfw tickling community#tickle art#tickletober 2024#motleys stupid ocs
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its entirely possible this element may come up again in the second half of the show, but as of the first half of agatha all along i think the choice of opening with a vaguely psychological crime drama agathas (own?) delusion is simply great.
while it is also played for laughs (the accent, the over-acting, the cliches etc), the genre conventions are used to quickly establish agathas emotional relation to her pain re: her powers and nicholas right off the bat.
for almost a full episode, before the show becomes a full-blown spooky fantasy with gothic undertones, we follow agatha in a genre that strives to be "more real" than reality: cold, hard, damp, gray, somber and most importantly violent. 'agnes' - like many modern detectives' - lives entrenched in violence, but from a particular position of power: she follows the violence when it (often) manifests itself around her, she neglects her personal life and well being in favor of searching its culprits while she herself perpetuates it by abusing suspects and being a shit to other people. but of course the original trauma that keeps her both obsessed and distant is the mystery that is the loss of nicholas - who by the way is a complete negative image, only existing as an absence, an empty room, a tear and a scar for agatha. it all fits with what we later discover about agatha: she doesnt fully control her violent power, which both fills her with a perverse glee and keeps her perpetually isolated from the rest of humanity, causing her to want to learn more and more even at the cost of trampling those who stand in her way or, worse, those who love her. what happened to nicholas is a case yet to be solved, just not by agatha.
the show writes and stages all this with the realtively dry and un-glamorous crime drama gravitas that is culturally synonymous with "unspeakably deep-rooted pain that dictates an entire existence" in television: dull colors, perpetual rain or darkenss, no close-ups and no camera movement unless 'agnes' is alone or something off-genre is happening, longer shots and moments of silence. it all immediately feels depressing, before the audience even discovers the half of it. so when the pieces of the puzzle are later unveiled we're alreayd primed for the emotional punch even if the tone got sillier and melodramatic, because we have seen agatha in a conventionally 'realistic' way that serves as a (literally) grounded baseline for the later reveals
#is it a shortcut? well yeah. but is it used well? i think so#its also just extremely hot. there i said it.#btw im assuming that rios suggestion is correct and that this is agathas subconscious kicking in after wanda “died” and not billys doing#speaking of rio this goes for her professional as well as personal intrusion in agathas purgatory but we know too few deets about that rn#and billy too of course#agatha harkness#agatha all along
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love it when a character that's hard to read intuitively for you has like a dedicated fandom interpreter who can just glance at their blank face in a panel and then give you a 3k word essay on their innermost thoughts & desires & fears and neatly tie it back into the themes & whatnot as if it's the most obvious thing in the world
#im talking about griffith btw#guts i feel i get intuitively - maybe because i have some personality traits in common with him#and we get more about his life concretely told to us in canon. so he is a bit easier to pin down as a character and feel attached to for me#but whenever i was reading the manga i just kept wanting more insight about griffith's actions and feelings#like ok yeah its fun to have mysterious antagonists and suspense /tension etc but its also fun to feel like you deeply understand them too#and i felt like that was a bit missing from him for me in canon#so reading about him in analysis and fics is the most fun for me rn#he always felt kinda half unreal to me- which maybe was the point of him - but i wanted a bit more about his childhood or something?#and wished we had more stuff explicitly from his pov in the story to read or explanation about his transformation or wtv#and now he's so much more closed off to me even than he was in the golden age. i keep waiting for him to explain stuff and he does not#ANYWAYS all this rambling to say some people out there are very good at interpreting him and making his like. insecurities#more obvious to me bc i didnt really get that side of him from canon intuitively well#also im really enjoying reading the first few berserk fics ive read#there may not be a ton of them out there but there is def writing talent in the fandom#i'll share some recs once i'm done sifting through most of what's out there to read#also (not to tie everything back to death note but it IS my home fandom after all)#i feel griffith is obvs the more light-like character here and L maybe a bit guts-like? but unlike berserk in death note#light is the one you get to know best and L is the mysterious / unreal one you don't get a lot of concrete insight into#and in the DN fandom I can read the more mysterious character intuitively but had to warm up to the less mysterious one instead#and the mystery of L makes sense to me and doesnt bug me as much due to like - he HAS to hide a lot about himself or else he will die lol#so some similarities there but also some opposite feels as well#berserk spoilers#p
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calling bruce jason's 'father figure' should be illegal. jason is his son. he was literally even legally adopted. "father figure" my ass that's his dad ???
#my dc posting#jason todd#dc#bruce wayne#i find the redhood&batman conflict most interesting and well-done when there isnt any question abt the father/son dynamic#like 'yeah that's my dad. batman. why the fuck didnt he avenge me fuck that guy'#and 'oh my son is back from dead. he's a murderer now. what the fuck jason'#what next. calling bruce damian's 'father figure' ???#nothing wrong w father figures ofc but its just. not what's going on there imo#jason&bruce being father and son before being batman and robin is everything i love abt them#(not 'before' as in chronologically but 'before' as in in importance)#(batman didn't lose robin. bruce lost his son. yknow??)#also im having so many constant thoughts and opinions that i've resorted to scheduling posts for a later time lmao#this is more abt fanon than whatever we're considering canon in the comics rn. just as a disclaimer
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a fox's gratefulness?
#based off that one scene from the first j.shk chapter#yuzuru fushimi#tori himemiya#midoyuzu#midori is there in spirit#enstars#ensemble stars#god i need to practice more w manga screentones this sucked#need to. do some studies too fr#and for some reason the bell pepper's is not loading rn as im typing this so we'll see#phones n screentones don't get along very well#comic#art tag#also yeah the text is crooked let's pretend it's not. how do you rotate text in ms paint
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