#so the relationship has its problems

[chrollohearttags]

I hate toxic relationship tropes but….i need sneaky link ace worse than oxygen atp

[3rutc1p]

@octdl-lee

Random captive TDL au lore dump and some behind the scenes stuff since you asked so nicely :]

Dark in captivity

victim did use dark as a way to train and get the mercs and him used to the box

victim and agent (i would probably explore their dynamic in this au also, mitsi would haunt this narrative because yes)

some behind the scenes things

additional art

[bitchfitch]

I had a shrink appointment today and while I could not see it I knew my doc was going through the five stages of grief while I explained my fool proof strategy for doing my t shots despite a crippling fear of needles: By abusing my vastly more crippling fear of being an inconvenience.

My mother and I play phasmophobia together every week. she usually has a pretty limited time to do this bc she's like. a doctor and a college professor whos always busy. So I asked her to just. hold me to doing them. We don't start playing until the shot is done. so my needle fear doesn't matter because now it's Wasting™ her time and I have to do it quick. Using one neurosis to defeat another.

It's a horrible coping mechanism because it's feeding the inconvenience fear, but it is definitionally a coping mechanism.

[tacagen]

one of the things that fascinate me about thawne: yes, he CAN be normal with kids! surprisingly normal!

((not at all times, though. his mental illness still spills through and as usual he, in trying to manipulate or hurt others, spits out at them the exact stuff that would hurt him (or have in his childhood/barry's rejection interpretation) the most in the first place lmao))

but at the same time. his like second instinct when doing his bullshit is FUCK THEM (as) KIDS

(and, well. whatever this classifies as)

[pespillo]

he opens up about a crush and instead of being talked outta it it takes a turn

[lesbiansforeddiediaz]

Where my Eddie meta differs from the popular fanon is I don't think all his problems are because he's gay and I don't think kissing a man would heal him or really benefit him much at all. (He is gay but that's not important right now)

[pleasedontcareaboutme]

It's missing my father hours rn so imma just dump a bunch of pictures here and cry

( sorry i don't know the source of anything I just had them on my phone)

(also dont read the tags i just need to let it out lol)

[majimaisms]

i think my biggest problem with the pirate game is majima's absolutely unhinged emotional sheltering being presented as like. a good and healthy and normal thing. which. like. i SUPPOSE the only acceptable situation to do that in is with a child youre responsible for. but its still not acknowledged at all that its unhealthy..? but then again this is how kiryu saga has been for years too. youre just supposed to look at it and know better. they dont really spell it out. at least they didnt until infinite wealth

[devotedlystrangewizard]

my friend and i have a little joke thats the "law of yuri" where i analyse the quality of hoyoverse story arcs based on how much yuri potential/bait/implications they have. this is not to be taken seriously but it IS funny and accurate

[alhaimeownya]

going insane at yandere wanderer thought again...

[opens-up-4-nobody]

...

[nexus-nebulae]

so. for A Long While now we've considered officially pursuing converting to judaism. and we've finally really started the whole research process and getting familiarized with the religion and everything and. does anyone have tips on how to feel comfortable in a new religion when you've been so harmed by specific religious groups in the past (especially when the religion you have bad history with is so close to the one you're converting to, like being another abrahamic religion)

[sankttealeaf]

some band au ruetash thoughts bc i am obsessed with their fucked up dynamic :3

they have matching tattoos. rue has little rue flowers along her collarbones. gortash has a little flower where ever i can remember to draw it (its looking like his upper arm or maybe behind his ear. somewhere hidden)

rue also has gortash's handprint on her arm and he has hers somewhere else on him, a little bit smaller and more hidden away. dont look too deep into the meaning of that

hooked up a few times weeks before rue signed up to be under gortash's management. and then a few months into that professional relationship she moved in with him (it was cheaper than paying rent for a shitty studio apartment when she could use that money to put back into her singing career)

she has his card details memorised. want pizza? no worries, it's on gortash

rue also has a few songs she's written about gortash (some nice, some not so nice) that will never see the light of day because theyre "too vulnerable"

gortash was in a band in his 20's. he has scrubbed all knowledge of that from the internet because if anyone found out he would be cancelled so many times

(also fits the lyric from motion sickness by phoebe bridgers "and you were in a band when i was born" bc unfortunately... age gap ruetash in this and thats a song i think rue would sing in this au)

rue jumps between genres a lot. gortash tells her its a good idea to do early in her career so she can see what performs best and use that. she enjoys showing off how she's good in any genre she sings in

in some of her early songs recorded under gortash's management she gets him to do backing vocals. its kind of sweet, actually

rue has a draft of what she would post if she and gortash were to ever break up. lines include "he took advantage of me at my most vulnerable" and "i am so upset at how i was treated, both as a client and as a partner". she's unsure if she should drop this as a notes app message or film a video using it as a script so she can pretend to cry to really sway public opinion into siding with her

on the opposite side, gortash has several emails drafted and ready to send to big magazines and news outlets documenting rue's anger issues and her treatment of workers/techies/the general public, so he can smear her name and ruin her career

they love each other really :)

[entering--hyperspace]

Cannot imagine whatever is going on through Mr Leonard Echowatcher's head. You spend your life yearning for a world where you lived differently, where the day wasnt soaked in war, blood, and battle. Where you could envision a future where you have a partner and a family with friends to live gracefully with. But then you are given such opportunities only to find you were never taught to be gentle, you have a gentle, empathetic nature and yet the physicality of it is a stranger to you. You are expected to raise a child with gentle hands so that she saves the world, What does that even mean? How can you accept your growing love for your friend when you were never taught how to love, that intimate love is a luxury best left forgotten, there are no need for such things in war. He has to learn to become the things he wanted bc he grew too old to develop it naturally. He becomes a father to taimi fumbling his way into learning how to care and parent, he is defensive of Aurene bc he is from a culture where they arent expected to raise their own young and yet has to do so with a dragon. It feels like a test, He has to prove both to others and to himself he is capable of being a father, of nuturing, that calloused, stained hands can still be gentle. He has to accept that love is a terrifying leap of faith in vulnerability in order to gain a partnership that is considered a rarity. I love the idea that he spent 30 years yearning for things he thought he would never have and when he is actually given those opportunities (albeit admittedly through unusual circumstances) he has to learn how to actually live in them, becuase they were always just Concepts until now. Ohhhh my god Mr. Leo you are my everything

[lokh]

it was easy to imagine what laios might have been like in that au because i too know the resentment that ends up brewing when you're an adult and living with your parents

[commander-gloryforge]

so, Nona and Rytlock, right?

they've got an interesting relationship. after all, that's Tribune Brimstone. He may be Blood, but he's still supposed to be the one to give her orders, and she's supposed to obey him. He feels so distant from her, he's lived a life so different, so unrelated to hers. He's Sir, he's Tribune, but he sure as hell is not a friend.

And yet Rytlock himself doesn't seem to share that sentiment. He not only sees her as a soldier, an ally, but something more. And he's addressed her as a friend before, like they've ever truly talked about anything that isn't missions and ghosts and broken warbands.

He writes her letters and asks her to come along to see his weird old friend group, he stays in contact with her even when she went so far away from home to join the Order of Whispers, and in fact, he encouraged her to join the Order. He encourages her to become greater than Just A Legion Soldier.

He sees something in her. Rytlock Brimstone sees something in Nona Blightsoul, and he wants her to fight by his side, he wants her to rise, he wants her to believe in herself, he wants her to be more than just a tool of the Legions.