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Jock Blonde with Big Boobs gayly making out with a shorter autistic babe.
Bumbleby or StephCass?
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I love both ships.
#stephcass#bumbleby#i follow fans of both#so sometimes i get the two confused#rwby#batgirl#dc#rwby dc
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Another silly
#an art#Fuyuhiko kuzuryu#Hajime hinata#I once again feel so much better after talking to a friend#Sometimes after a while without close friends I feel like some sort of invasive organism into human life#Like I just cant connect to other ppl at all. I'm like a marionette. BUT.#Talking to my friend who gets me makes me remember I DO have a rhythm with someone and they do get me#Intellectually. I have other friends who get me socially. Another who gets me emotionally#Both very important. I am more confused about how to portray it maybe#But conversation. Those two exclusively do that. Someone you can talk to forever without having to pause to explain#Very valuable.
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“uh … it’s a bit girly … no?” javier examines himself in the reflection of his knife’s blade, looking this-a way and that, the dark blue of a large silken bow now peeking sheepishly around his neck as it sits gently in his hair. next to him, kieran clams up a smidge, hands still held close to his chest nearby his completed ribbon project on javier’s head. he finds it in himself to wring his hands a time or two rather than immediately undo his work as javier seems to continue to formulate his final opinion. “you … think so? look at me?” kieran asks, politely as a mouse. javier easily complies, turns at his hips and looks behind, up at kieran where he sits on the stump above him.
kieran, as he peers over, can’t help the meadow of flush that blooms over his neck, then his ears, then his nose and his cheeks. he can tell javier is deep in thought by the look on his face, mouth twisted just a might sideways, cocking his mustache awry, and the deep wrinkle sat between his brows. the ribbon he used matches javier’s vest perfectly, and the shine of the silk warms bright in the sun, just like every piece of jewelry and metal javier has adorned himself with. with this ribbon, javier’s hair sits lower on his head, ponytail draped down his nape and more hair framing his face in his bangs. kieran resists an urge to tuck one side back behind his ear.
kieran thinks that he looks like a painting, a muse, a love letter so heartbreakingly full of adoration that the only language it could be written in is bright swipes of pigment on a canvas. as he makes eye contact with the silk squinting around the red of a necktie, he thinks that javier may be right, if ‘girly’ could sum up ’poetry written in effeminate reverence’.
kieran always did think women made better art, wrote better books- found a better way to love. softer. warmer. prettier. like javier.
the world sounds like it’s underwater.
“i think … it’s very pretty. it suits you real well.”
earnest to a fault, the look in kieran’s eye dances gingerly with javier’s internal voice. it dips and sways him, and javier, despite his instinct, finds himself charmed by its rhythm.
“-b-but! i could take it out! if you don’t-“ javier looks down at himself in his knife again, the sunlight filtered through the leaves glinting a yellow green around his dark features, and kieran hands him patience on a silver platter. a rich blue makes friends with bright green quite easy, javier thinks. this is how he must look through kieran’s mossy lens.
“pretty … yes. you know, i think you may be right. i’ll keep it. gracias.”
#oizy asked me at some point to write about the exchange that happens when kieran first gives javier his first big ribbon … i think#and i’ve been thinking about it this whole time :’] and i’ve been wanting to write them for a long while now too so i thought it would be fu#n to just jot it down :’] … this could have been written better but i fear if i don’t post it now i never will LOL i’ll just overthink it 🥲#i have a few more writing drafts started that i hope i can finish soon …. writing is very fun for me ! i just … run out of steam easy and th#en never pick drafts up again 💔💔💔 i’m kinda the worst creater ever LOL#anyway ! yeah i think javier initially was very put off by it but kieran with all of his autismo wisdom simply does not gaf about gender#gender* roles. he just thinks ribbons and bows are so pretty and javier walks around like a little peacock so kieran thinks that he (literal#ly) deserves a big pretty bow on top !#this is still in horseshoe overlook actually. right before they move though. in the cusp of that time where javier begins to get curious abo#ut kieran and kieran begins to feel just a teeny weeny bit braver when it comes to … having a personality around the other gang members LOL#and at this point kieran’s attraction to javier (at the very least physically) has been fully realized. javier never really did like him (or#so he thought) but he’s left him completely alone for the past month or so and so kieran thinks he’s got enough emotional berth to try and#give him a gift. that’s why they’re so awkward and weird lowkey LOL javier is still a bit spiteful but i think towards the end of horseshoe#he has moments where he’s able to be very very calm about kieran and try to empathize with him. especially in the moments where kieran is so#kind to him that javier simply cannot find it in himself to think that it’s an act of some sort. it was immediately after this that javier w#ent hunting and gutted a rabbit so hard on accident that he ruined the meat by puncturing the intestines. he confuses even himself sometimes#pining ! but in a really weird and subtle and calm way ! i do think they have their moments where it’s like a wildfire in them and they just#get completely burnt up by it … but sometimes they also pine like the wax and wane of the ocean lapping at the bank. easy. calm. warm. love#unrealized yet but ever-present still. they carry the weight of love in their hearts around every day. these two are burdened by it. but whe#n they are together … this weight … the pits in their stomachs that they cannot rid themselves of … when they are together all of the sudden#it seems as though the world around them slows down. and it’s easy to feel … calm. like they belong there. like they’re okay and safe and ..#free.#anyway. i like them a normal amount :) and sometimes their dynamic is really complicated to me ! and they contradict themselves sometimes !#and that is really fun to me !!!#rdr2#red dead redemption 2#kieran duffy#javier escuella#javieran#hero more like shakespeare
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nothing funnier than knowing neopets has made me spell certain things the uk way
#luci is lollygagging#listen doughnut and faerie are some of their best spellings#i dont usually care that much but i love those and i have been spelling them this way since i was a kid#i remember my teachers thinking i was a fucking lunatic spelling it doughnut and not donut i think#once i got a mark on a spelling sheet for it and i was confused#bc i didnt realize it wasn't counted as the American spelling#there's a few other words name things like spelling armor as armour#but i always change it depending on context and sometimes#i type colour instead#i dont do it as much as alike. -ize and -ise and that's bc i like ize better i think z is a cool ass letter but#sometimes i forget that there's two spellings so i'll use both on accident#like getting confused that my AC is saying im mispelling it bc i randomly used -ise instead bc i just think that's the only spelling for a#sec#i also do it a TON with anyhting that can be 1 or 2 L's#but idk if that's neopets fault bc im also just bad at writing/spelling and shit like that
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casey is obvs funny with this rivalry stuff because on the one hand he's very 'well I don't care who I beat' (lie) and 'I don't motivate myself using my rivals' (also a lie) and then he's also repeatedly emphasising that valentino was ONE of his biggest rivals and he only competed against him a few years... like a lil side quest in the story of his career. Those Few Years where valentino was his big rival. whereas dani and jorge were his cohort so he did compete with them for a greater span of time... and this is technically true and does MATTER but it is also extremely noticeable in his output which rivalry he has the most thoughts about. and yes casey would say that this is because everyone ELSE cares the most about That One Rivalry the most and also his opponent being an annoying dickhead means it's the one he has the most complaints about... but at a certain point, it doesn't really matter, because there's still one rivalry you're talking about way more than any other. you can tell that he's at least given jorge's interiority a bit of thought, kinda went 'well he was arrogant but also Learnt From The Error Of His Ways and was maybe misunderstood so' -- but also he's not going beyond that, he's not examining jorge's soul, and he's not even doing any of that with dani. it's very much a rhetorical commitment to those other two rivalries. ultimately the point is that he's doing what he can to not talk up his biggest rivalry TOO much, because, you see. he Did Not Care That Much. (lie.) now objectively speaking this kind of framing literally does not matter, who cares which one of these was the most meaningful rivalry, but it's interesting that it matters to him!! casey's problem is that he is extremely sensitive and cares deeply about what other people say about him, but one of the things he's most sensitive about is the idea that he could let himself be mentally affected by ANYTHING, worst of all his rivals. they cannot be granted that much power over him. and all of this has kinda funny consequences in that he has pretty rigid patterns in how he talks about this stuff that are at times quite convoluted because he has to simultaneously emphasise that a) none of his rivals massively mattered to him, b) That Rival didn't matter more than the others, c) what That Rival did to him was completely beyond the pale, and d) none of that affected him mentally whatsoever. at most one of these is true. there are so many things casey wants so badly not to care about but it keeps spilling out of him anyway, this oozing sludge of resentment and repressed hopes and desires and frustration and longing and bitterness. he keeps giving himself away... he cares so much and he can't stand it
#i do feel bad sometimes using a clip from when he was like. eighteen as my smoking gun piece of evidence for the prosecution#but come on. that valencia 2003 clip is insanely telling. like yeah right you loved beating a guy sponsored by the circuit#it's kinda like dyke!vale tormenting his first gp rival into throwing in the towel. those are the Key Character Traits they're exhibiting#//#brr brr#//ht#i do also think there's some interviews where there's like. some real retconning. like casey that was Not You#that one interview where he was going in HARD about how jorge/dani were confused about how happy he was for them winning#and like casey buddy there's an element of truth to but you could be a notoriously sore loser!! mr 'a podium this far off isn't worth it'#and it's partly stuff he's talked about before with how self-critical he was... but of COURSE it could come across as unpleasant#i am doing my best not to get repetitive so this is the LAST time i am airing this complaint for a couple months at least#but the problem is if you have the starting point of him as like. a straight talking straight shooter or whatever#you do automatically miss a lot of the nuance with which he's constructing his own image#it's honesty based on vibes rather than literal honesty. u can be blunt and calculating idk what to tell u#im so fascinated if the jorge wheelchair story is true... i recently remembered it was also in the broadbent book#and that ducati pr people had like. gotten mad about it. which does fill one or two gaps and makes me think maybe it DID happen#idk there's something quite revealing about it!! casey isn't just a dickhead in the classic athlete mould. he's got a *nastiness* to him#all the aliens are occupational dickheads. only two of them i'd say have a real inclination towards nastiness
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tell me why I just got attacked multiple times in my inbox from allegedly a Larrie who has just now unlarried (apparently bc of me?) and is actually losing their mind and is probably an anti in disguise? I’m on here being truthful with yall, I don’t actually have to be here doing this. damn wtf is happening rn
#girl said “you said this and that and 1d aren’t reuniting at the Brit’s so im deleting my blog because of you and ur vile and ugly#Wtaf just happened#I’ve been drama free on here for SO long#and then just get the most chaotic attack with multiple different reasons that are not accurate?#im so confused#this blog has been watching me for a while#and bc I responded to like two messges they have obvs decided#now is the time to try and ruin this larrie’s life#like im not letting this negatively affect me#im just so confused#talk to me like a normal human#I don’t get this fucking fandom and how people are sometimes#they’ve truly lost the plot#anyway soz for being MIA#will be back as soon as I can#love yall and our little community#ur all always welcome to the show x
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Hey! in your bio it lists es/sein as alternate pronouns, but there not in your intro post. Is one of them out of date? or is it a different language? <3
ps. if it is the former, could you maybe explain the connotaions of es/sein too me? No pressure ofc, but ive never seen them before and I like knowing stuff
es/sein is just it/its in german (my native language), tho thinking about it im actually cool with them being used as english neopronouns as well. thanks for asking!
#german doesnt have a “they them” equivalent animate gender neutral general pronoun unfortunately (i probably still wouldnt use it but yk)#also interesting to know that es/sein is identical to er (he/him) pronouns in two of the four grammatical cases so it can sometimes get#confusing#shrimp shrieks#asks#neopronouns#german stuff
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just found out that non-aromantics actually have feelings towards the people they decide to have a crush on. Apparently it’s not like, “hmmm should I consider this person for dating? what are the pros and cons here?” Or like, “I want to be really close friends with that person” But it’s like an actual emotional response or something? An emotion that is different from the “I wanna be really close friends” emotion??
also I just figured out that I’m aromantic
#I’m also ace but I already knew that#Shout out to Jaiden Animations#Never would have figured this stuff out this quickly otherwise#asexual#aromantic#aroace#My first “crush” was Carmen San Diego#I was 18yrs old and that “crush” lasted 2 days#Turns out she wasn’t as pretty when she wasn’t wearing her signature outfit#I didn’t actually have a crush on her I just really liked her outfit#I think I just decided that “ya know I should’ve had a crush on someone by now kinda weird that it hasn’t happened yet”#And then I just picked the first pretty girl I saw#She’s animated so I guess that made it less weird than having a crush on a random stranger#But like there were no actual romantic emotions there#Didn’t know that there were supposed to be any but oh well#The whole “I wanna be really close friends with that person” thing really threw me off for a while#Cuz I thought that was what romantic attraction was#But apparently it’s not???#Too confusing we should just get rid of romance#Honestly my idea of the “ideal romantic/queerplatonic relationship” should have tipped me off sooner that I was aro#It was “a close friend who lives in the same house as me but we have separate bedrooms and sometimes we cuddle on the couch but not…#… always and we don’t hold hands or kiss or anything but we just act like really good but close friends because that’s what I think a…#… romantic relationship is two people who are really close friends”#might delete later I dunno just kinda rambling and I’m really tired
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Not every gay ship needs to have someone "wearing the pants". It isn't a requirement that one party must wear a suit. Or a dress. There doesn't need to be a "dad" in a two parent dynamic. Or a "mom". The butch doesn't have to become a husband they can. Both be wives. Two men can both be husbands. The men can both wear suits. There doesn't have to be a bottom/top dom/sub seme/uke dynamic at play in every. Single. Ship. I promise guys. I thought we were past this
#the genderfuckery is so much fun and it's honestly supper affirming as a nonbinary person#up until it gets to the point where it feels like some of you simply cannot ship without putting the characters into male and female boxes.#sometimes the man is a malewife and the woman is girldad and that's all well and good#LOVE that!#but sometimes people will take two very masculine men and turn one of them into a femboy twink because gay people scare them :/#or take a lesbian femme for femme ship and make one of them into a butch boyfriend for some reason#THIS IS WORSE WHEN THAT WOMAN IS BLACK.#cough cough. wicked. cough cough. arcane.#aaaanyways.#stop this madness#words#shipping#not gonna fandom tag this because I don't want the confusion 🚶🏾♀️
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" just...come here. just sit here with me" (...that one scene from princess momonoke, click for better resolution)
#tw death mentioned for the tag rambles!! (sorry)#meme redraw gone wrong (high effort). don't ask me how i did this- i don't know either. consider this perhaps an AU of the pyre scene?#or more accurately just my internal wonderings visualised. sometimes the vibes from the implications don't pan out the same way#i also lost the original sketch somewhere in my papers. alas. i vaguely recall thinking this would be haha funny and then somewhere down#the line it turned to angst. other quotes that inspired this from the show were 'ily. i'm sorry' and 'i will always be so proud of you'.#smth smth they met on the roof!! vincent stops quincy from jumping off and then. vincent tries to die + eventually quincy kills him on the#very same roof. anyway the quincent death scene was spinning around for a bit in my head and out of the miscellaneous sketches this won out#wanted to play w the strong blue lighting + bg + silhouette things that you get w stage lighting // replaced the knife w vincent's scalpel#quincy is kneeling bc poses + idk why it's fun staging for him ;-; // also the proximity + intimacy.. // the pyre is also in the bg#but it's silhouetted behind quincy. i think the last quincy post made me associate symbolism (help??) bc as i was painting i was thinking o#angel wings ksdjfh // not to mention the halos. halos are always fun to paint.. shiny stuff...#and from the last vincent art. i guess the star and eye imagery carried over. hm. tried to get the quincy halo to match so its like a#rounder less spiky star? which hehe aligns w the sun vibes (that i??can't explain??) but more importantly here i was thinking about#binary stars for the glowy parts. two in orbit in pull to one another.. tension.. ue. also the glow for vincent goes to stabby eye so like#behind the face shown to viewer. meanwhile for quincy it goes in front of the face#and of course u have the downward linking implied line from quincy's tears +scalpel + glowy eye.#this is supposed to be rotatable.. in landscape form u can have either quincy or vincent upright (pov) + it should work both ways#//bonus stuff is vincent holding the skask w bloody hands + shadow looks like blood spatters. like it would if quincy did the stabby.#hhhh this is the most. confused i have been making a piece lately.. just toss in a lot of fun visual stuff and mix..#if the rambling analysis here seems pointless and confused i think that's why. this is why u should plan out your essays o.O..#oh. stuff i just remembered: the whole impetus for vincent planning his own death was so quincy would be happy / it's already#mentioned before quincy kills vincent that he's severely injured- vincent says it's fine- ig u could intepret it as a finishing blow?#hastened over the phaethon announcement- when they make the second announcement quincy looks up smiling until the admin gives it to#beatrix-he didn't know.. // <- so for this it's possible to infer that vincent wasn't very attached to living anymore.. hence why they look#more accepting above. while quincy is looking very angsty and conflicted. yeah.. // tldr! don't look into it too deeply it's a meme redraw#adamandi#quincy cynthius martin#vincent aurelius lin#tw knife
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i do wish i was better at communicating with people online and through technology. i wander into conversations and make new ones all the time irl with random people and its fun but im like hyping myself to type out a single response to a Post. and to say nothing of how difficult it is to get me to say something in a discord server
#or even video or audio calls are becoming hard for me rn. i used to be better at this#i used to be sooo good at talking to people online. maybe. or maybe not actually#now that i think about it ive always been a little outside of everything in both irl and online communities ive been in#you know i was part of the mods for a deviantart species a long time ago. i was pretty bad at my job i was always too slow to actually mod#and one day i came home from school and like the entire modbase imploded because of drama on a discord or smth they had that i wasnt in LOL#tbh i was a bit older than all of them and busy with final year of highschool stuff so i wasnt super present. i think they just had me on#because while i wasnt particularly popular as an artist i did have some eyecatching polish on my art. but it was wild i was like#whats going on. who are you people. where am i. i have to apply to ouac rn i dont know whats happening#wait random ass deviantart drama i was vaguely adjacent to but still dont really know what happened aside. i would like to chat more#i think the easiest way to converse with me is commenting on my posts like theyre forum threads. or dming me. sometimes#im so bad with group chats. especially if they have multiple channels. the only group chat ive stuck with is a tiny one with like#two other friends and we just write thoughts and about our day and pictures of animals and whatever#i get confused and scared in discords. i get so confused and scared#i used to be okay with discord calls but even with that ive been struggling. am i scared of the computer#am i scared of the computer. the machine. whats happening
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now that I'm done imagining a jar of peanut butter, can I just say that I love that Shane and Ryan have shifted away from traditional true crime to just shootin' the shit about weird-ass mysteries?
I always liked the "let's talk about weird mysteries" aspect of buzzfeed unsolved, but being real with you, I'm uncomfortable with true crime and the culture surrounding it. like... as someone who lost a loved one to a violent (and temporarily unsolved) crime, I've seen firsthand how internet theorizing can make a traumatizing time even harder and like. it's fucking rough, man.
I get that it makes money and all (which... is a whole other can of worms) but when you view human suffering as entertainment, it's so easy to forget about the real people who will actually be affected by what's put out there on the internet.
so I'm happy that Shane and Ryan seem to be leaning a lot more into "wow, some unhinged shit happened! how fucked up is that?" on mystery files. more of this, please!!
#watcher#mystery files#also like... anyone can make money off true crime if they're charismatic enough#which means that often those narratives end up mirroring real-life prejudices#I remember when my friend died people online were accusing his wife of doing it#solely because she was an immigrant#people kept talking about her shady accent and how she probably married him for his money and to get a green card or whatever#and how her wording was sometimes confusing so she must be lying#what money??? number one#she was ESL number two#but also this woman literally watched her husband bleed out and people all over the world were accusing her of murdering him#they figured out what happened later (shocker she was telling the truth the whole time) but it was so heartbreaking to watch#I hate that people feel entitled to the worst moments of strangers' lives y'know?#and to make MONEY off that...#bruh if someone ever tries to fucking make money off my murder while putting on makeup or whatever#I will haunt the fuck out of them#I don't even know if I believe in curses but I'll find a fucking way
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The Gender Crisis™ is still Gender Crisising™ but I don't have time for that right now lmao.
#my ramblings#considering genderfluid to be honest but i also still don't know if i want to label it lol#it's hard because i literally cannot pinpoint it and sometimes i get overwhelming feelings that switch so often that they confuse me so idk#like i fully don't know if i don't feel gender at all and am sometimes attatched to presenting myself different ways void of gender#or if i only don't feel gender sometimes and the other times i do feel gender#lol idk#to be honest sometimes i do feel a strong pull to different genders and then the next day i'm repulsed by the thought of it#and then two weeks later i'm back in the fucking building and then i'm like oh okay#and it's becoming a pattern now so i could very well be genderfluid lmaoooo#but i still don't knowwwww#because i still feel very agender a lot of the time#and then sometimes i'm like no wtf i'm a woman#and then other times i'm like no wtf i am not a woman#and then sometimes i'm like what if i woke up as a guy tomorrow huh wouldn't that be so great actually#and then three hours later i'm like no wtf i am not a guy#and then sometimes i'm like oh well i'm certainly a gender#yep#don't know which one though#and then i'm like nah i'm just a woman#and the cycle continues#bro if i am genderfluid i switch so often that it's honestly annoying but also kind of funny#anyway thanks for coming to my ted talk
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the only people that say that comic books arent hard to get into are the people that have been reading them since they were a kid. and the only people that say that comic books are too hard to get into so you shouldnt try are the people that have never bothered opening a comic book.
#as a bitch that got into them like 2 years ago. its fuckin hard#especially if you dont like not knowing things#however its not as hard as some people want u to believe#like one of the first books i read was batgirl 2000. fantastic entry book#first of all its amazing second of all you dont really need a lot of prior knowledge to understand it#but even then. it gets confusing.#since i didnt know a lot about other big events i didnt know what was going on in any crossovers#like ok um why is bruce wayne being convicted of murder rn.#like when i was getting into comics i had wikipedia open for like half the comics i read#i think the hardest part is finding a starting place#then continuing to expand from there. like there’s so much and it’s HARD#and sometimes saying ‘just use a reading guide for a character you find interesting’ um. does not work#my rose reading guide is my baby but it is NOT a good starting point for people that haven’t read comics#anyways i’m sorry this is not meant as a slight to anyone#i just love to give my two cents all the time
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Wait does anybody actually like. Get off to fanfiction?
#i had a friend once in school who saw me reading fanfic in class#and was like 'looking for what to get off to tonight lmao?'#and i brushed it off cuz like. no?#but now#like two years later#im like wait#do people DO THIS#????#do ppl read and jack off at the same time is that something people do????#im asexual i dont know these things i camt conceive of them#like yea i read smut#i read a LOT of it#sometimes its really hot#but get off to it?#why would i??????#i just dont get ut#im so confused
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31 Days of Dick (Grayson)
Day 12. Nightwing comic artist
Dan Jurgens
Nightwing (1996) #126
Phil Jimenez
Wonder Woman (1987) #165
This two are tied for me because both draw Nightwing in a very similar manner, lol. I love that while Dick is drawn to look pretty, they still give him an air of maturity
#31DOD#Two other artists that I love how they draw Dick are Jim Lee and George Perez (unsurprisingly)#Dan and Phil´s NW drawings are so similar lmao#Sometimes I get confused which one did what comic#dick grayson#nightwing
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