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long-lost-soul · 7 months ago

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have been attempting taxidermy for the first time and am going to be checking on a duck wing im trying to preserve tonight.. wish me luck

#got it from a biologist taking a wing survey #so scared im Doing it wrong LMAO #also got to go kayaking today YIPPEE #personal

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bunnyboy-juice · 6 days ago

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#bunny rambles #i was “cleared” to go back to work yesterday but she told me i could use the rest of the time also if i wanted/needed #and im using it. but the little corporateanxietybot who lives in my head and tries to make me be a Good Worker[tm] is SCREAMING HER HEAD OFF #cause she thinks my boss/Dad is gonna scream at and hit her for being Lazy #this is a trauma post also um. didnt expect to name her rn but she's screaming and i cant scream back cause she sounds like alarms and those #scare crustywhitedog so i have to calm that one so i don't meltdown #my wife submitted the RTW date for me so like. its okay im actually taking the time and ik this is necessary also bc. it is clearly unwell #that its freaking out because it's gotten a more than a 2 day break for the first time in a year #ik corporateanxietybot has protected me in some ways but. i gotta kill her so bad. maybe H can help me reformat her somehow .....#i also hate her is the thing. she cant hear me rn bc she's just looping in circles alarming but anyway. i hate her. like Me. she's so #capitalismcorebootlicker and i hate that about her and i hate that she exists and i hate that she exists bc my dad raised me to be an #Employee instead of a person 🙃🙃🙃🙃#im not elaborating or explaining any of this. this is a diary entry now #i wish i could click her to kill her like the drones in hardcoded lmao it'd be so much easier. ik she like. lives in the work mode mask as #well which is also HARD bc if im not actively thinking Of work or At work she's nonexistent #but shes so LOUD 🙃🙃 like shut up. we're not gonna explode n die from taking an extra week off you're being dramatic our boss isnt Dad #like he LITERALLY isn't Dad. not even close. he's like the most docile man in the world come on ik they're around the same age and both hve #held authority over u but boss checking in wasnt a trap ur not ab to get caught doing wrong ur fiiiiIIIIIIINE #(also corporateanxietybot is not an adult. she's 15 and terrified but she integrated to my work mask which is the problem cause she makes me #a “phenomenal employee” and also makes me work myself sick when she is given the reigns. little devil on my shoulder except the capitalist #system we live under treats her as a positive thing so she gets positive reinforcement at work which only makes her more anxious 😭 i gotta #talk to H about this next Friday huh. also wow. parts work has made it a lot easier for me to acknowledge these behaviors so i can confront #them easier. weird. strange even. so many parts have gotten names this past month n im realizing also why its been so hard to process stuff #but it also has made me kinder to myself. anyway she turned off (her batteries are low since she's been home for a month too) so im gonna #clean myself up and get some food in me and then get some cleaning done

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persy-r-bozo · 6 months ago

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Jazzercise.

#I was gonna add red and yellow in the back but i realized they'd never do this lmao.#Red would be too lazy and tired. and i feel yellow would join in but get distrscted then do his own thing. then duck would get mad bout it.#“YOUR DOING IT WRONG! YOU HAVE TO STRETCH AND DANCE THE WAY THEY DO IT!”#somethin around that line.#so i did the other two duck colors we've seen!. the red one and the bigger boys color.#dhmis #dhmis duck #digital art #dhmis fanart #drawing #dont hug me im shit posting #dont hug me i'm scared #dont hug me im scared

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yappacadaver · 2 months ago

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oh no not people falling for propaganda abt the shooter's alleged politics and handwringing about violence when this one guy and his action have done more to bring people together against the ultra rich ruling class and make them fear working class power than any number of peaceful actions and lukewarm philosophizing in the past 5 years

#violence bad :( well ok people are dying either way #u seriously think courts and cops are going to help us?#ohhhhh the guy is not on my side of the political sports circus :((((#ok well he did more for us than most on “our side”#you read the news stories and you can see those up top are TERRIFIED for how we all backed this guy up #they're not scared of soup cans thrown at paintings or even of dudes setting themselves on fire.#what they are scared of is being directly involved #fucking christ man #can't believe what im seeing on my dash sometimes #aint no way #anyone know off the top of their heads why we have labor laws in this country lmao.#if the american people weren't so cucked we'd be rallying way harder behind this guy im just saying #couple days ago i was seeing people trying to prove/disprove the handsome smiler was the guy like. you love doing the cops jobs for them hu #what is actually wrong with people jkdgkdj

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izzy-b-hands · 4 months ago

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Was doing okay holding back all of the fear re: the potential election outcome until literally this second what the fuck to my brain lmao

#wherein lmao means I'm so scared and i cant stop crying rn #no one should have to fear this. not me nor anyone else nor the ppl who have already had to flee their homes worldwide #a person shouldn't have to worry abt violence being enacted upon them bc of who they are which like #obvi isn't a new concept to myself and most ppl but i feel like the folks who'll vote Trmp don't care for it #won't affect them in theory after all so of course they don't care #Housemate and I are trying to figure out where we could go and how in case of the worst #and it's not even the first time I'll have had to leave a place bc of safety reasons (two nickles on that already in my life)#but it doesn't make it any less daunting #i just want to live my life in our little house with Housemate and the cats working my shit job and trying to enjoy whatever i can #none of this matters and im shouting into a void full of equally terrified ppl dealing with this themselves if not worse #these tags don't make sense entirely and i don't care. i have things I should be doing and I'm sitting in my room #paralysed by fear over all of this #i should distract myself but with what? at what point do i accept the distractions can only do so much?#maybe I'll just take a nap again. idk. feels weird and wrong to play a video game or nap ordo anything that isn't trying to research options #i need to stop rambling here like im hoping time will pause while i type im out again lmao

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teenagefeeling · 9 months ago

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started yet another sims save file because im deeply fucking depressed and this time around i made my own sim (named pat, which was a random name lmao) and he's a famous artist and he's extremely chill and pretty much only cares about painting and his wife, dina caliente. and of course if u know sims lore ur aware that dina has a sister and a mom she's close with so they hang out a lot and i just had pat, dina, and nina (sister) all go to the gym and fuckinggggg nina just started hitting on pat and it pissed off dina and they're currently in the middle of a catfight and pat still has not noticed that anything is amiss. he's happy because he's running on a treadmill and he likes fitness. sims 4 game of the year forever

#who wants to give me like $5000 so i can actually afford some expansion packs???#yeah that's correct ive been playing the base game this much. 0 expansions im literally just going insane playing virtual barbies #in real life i had the off-brand dollhouse and half my barbie clothes were homemade (and half my barbies were not actually barbies)#i guess mods would be the equivalent of that in the sims but idk how to do that and im scared i'd break my game or something #.....i suppose i could ask my friend who's literally a game dev to help me if something does go wrong lmao #maybe i should just get mods because the expansions are fuckinh ridiculously expensive and there's SO MANY #but i wanna do fun shit too :////#or maybe it's for the best that i don't get more shit for the sims because that would just make me play morw #more*#anyway!#bri babbles #sorry but edit: dina yelled at pat and he just responded by flirting with her i've created the biggest himbo of all time 😭😭

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treemice · 2 months ago

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I know teen girls are stereotyped to self diagnose with all kinds of personality disorders ("OMG I'm so bipolar" kind of vibe) but do they actually do that? And when they do do they actually believe that they have it? I'm asking this AS a teen kind-of-girl

Because on one hand if they actually believe it I'd understand because idk estrogen makes me gen feel like I'm going fucking insane sometimes. I'm not really a mentally healthy person, I'm prone to depressive episodes and I've been passively suicidal for most of my life, I've had OCD since I was like 7 and I've struggled with SH, so maybe it's just my autism brain thinking that everyone's being literal about that. But idk I've felt like... like a danger to myself before just on the basis of "I'm not normally in this good of a mood, my blood feels like it's dancing, if I jumped off the school balcony i bet I'd survive" and while I know that that's not true and I'd DIE i feel like i have 2 brains, the irrational emotional one, and the logical "you will die don't be a dumbass"/"you're being paranoid relax" one. And when I'm feeling irrational I get scared because I dont feel like i can trust myself to not do something dangerous.

But on the other if they don't mean it its caused me to think a lot of "phases" is normal. Like I was actively suicidal when I was 12 and when i watched a movie about a 12 year old girl that was depressed and a doctor said "being 12 is just one of those ages" I assumed it meant that being suicidal was a normal part of growing up and it'd go away in time.

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undefeatablesin · 1 year ago

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Mfw it took me✨30+ ✨ attempts to defeat Lies of P's chapter 6 boss

#sin speaking #(hi im artblocked something chronic again and i thought a new game would be a gr8 way to refresh my brain)#(WRONG!!!! I HAVE KNOWN TRUE TERROR AND PAIN INSTEAD)#(im level 86 and still struggling am i just bad at this??? MAYBE SO)#(i am very oonga boonga oriented i am not quick enough to block parry dodge very well lmao)#(bloodbornes raw aggression playstyle was a natural fit for me but oh boy LIES OF P HAS BEEN TESTING TF OUT OF ME)#(im still having fun. most of the time. until a boss appears and i cry)#(I GOT PAST THE CHAPTER SIX BOSS THO. EVENTUALLY.)#(now i am just plain ol scared of the horror ambience in the current level. I do not do well in dark decrepit buildings LOL)#(i have complicated emotions about this game. but i will say definitively the music is incredible. divine service? ✨big favourite)#(should i draw lop fanart will that wake my brain up to draw again who knows)#(i desperately want to get back to dark thunder and altar but my brain is like just circus music rn)

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girl-bateman · 10 months ago

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Yay !! Im gonna talk about it with my friend today !! I think this is gonna help me not go completely insane !! I love love <3

#yeah i still feel super shitty #and its gotten like progressively worse too ?#i cant eat normally. i just chew ?#and im scared to go to sleep bc that means i have to lay in the silence #so i havent been sleeping well ? (at least that means no nightmares lol)#and the shivering and head jerks havent stopped either #ive been trying to pack and do all the practical stuff im supposed to #but i end up having to stop bc? idk? i either start breathing weird or zoning out #look im not an idiot. if this was an objective psych case file id have no problem coming up with a solid idea of whats wrong #unfortunately tho im a real person and i cant exactly be objective about myselt #i also cant focus for long enough to actually properly THINK about it ya know?#but honestly this is so dramatic for no reason lmao sorry for the melodrama #i just feel so awful i need to complain a little 🙏#but talking to a friend will for sure help ! 🙏💗💗💗#yay friendship !

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the-2nd-random-kid · 2 years ago

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So i heard that the orv movie is real

#im excited for the movie dont get me wrong but like #yeah these are just my thoughts on the matter #im happy that even more people will see it but like #yeah #god i literally took the screenshot so i didnt have to type about it all over again wHY AM I DOING THIS TO MYSELF GKJFFJF #but yeahhhhh #its been a while since ive read it so its a p good time to catch up #orv #omniscient reader #omniscient reader viewpoint #theres also like-- this really good twitter posts that puts my thoughts into better words #thats basically just-- the movie has little to no chance of upholding expectations and that the story and meaning of the og work could get #muddled and misinterpreted like many failed movie adaptations #and ive also been out of the fandom so long that what i say and my own thoughts doesnt even really matter in the larger scale of things #but like #as a person who really deeply cares about this piece of work #or at least-- cares for it but had a much deeper love and appreciation for it a long time ago #im scared for the movie-- both for selfish reasons and 'righteous' reasons #righteous being 'please dear lord dont fuck it up- dont ruin this beautiful complicated story that apparently i never even got halfway thru #ill link the twitter post in an rb lmao

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dandyshucks · 1 year ago

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it works out well that i draw late at night bc when i commit art crimes then i can post it when the dash is dead bc everyones asleep so nobody (or less ppl) sees it,, i get to scuttle around the place and then hide in the morning

#this is half joking #mostly joking. maybe.#i am very silly but very anxious and it's not a good mix LMAO #im always terrified im going to say smth wrong but !! we stay silly !!!#i think the thing abt less ppl immediately perceiving me is why i prefer this account over my main original account now fjfkdl #on my main first tumblr account i have ... over 1k potential ppl who can see whatever I post and thats so scary fnfkdl #over here i have like 50 and thats still a little scary but soooo much better than the other number fhfjdll #im just a lil guy !!!! a very scared little man DBHDKSL #I KEEP NOTICING I KEYSMASH SO MUCH. im trying to do it less bc i use it like punctuation these days wtf 😭#i think Guz would tease me mercilessly abt it LMAO (i wouldn't mind it though)#dandy.cmd

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skhardwarevers1 · 1 year ago

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lmao not the 69th post on CYBR being that last rb

#Am I allowed to send hate to my son. I don’t know I don’t care I might #Idk I’m tired and Im too scared to ask people to do things so I just do it myself lmao #I’ve done it b4z….on the old blog. He would do stupid shit and id be like “stupid fucking idiot wtf is wrong with you. Bastard”

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llycaons · 1 year ago

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my last dentist place sucks so I'm going to the dental school bc its covered by insurance and ngl being in this massive room with rows of white stalls listening to the sounds of dozens of drills is a little freaky

#good thing im not already scared of dentists. even so im a little nervous #also my student dentist texted me and got thr time wrong and was all jumpy. girl I get it but confidence is key #also they sent me to the wrong floor initially lmao #as long as they can do something abt this tooth pain idc. the last place was useless #cor.txt

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todayisafridaynight · 2 years ago

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i want to share my silly little masato and aoki drawing i made on paper but im terrified of sharing my art to strangers bcz its not that good and im afraid ill get ultimately slandered LMAO

when youre scared of being criticized for a drawing but still want to share it its best to do what i do and throw it on the internet and then dodge the website for the rest of the day :)

#snap chats #over time you just. stop giving a shit and post and proceed LMAO BUT tbf ive been doing this for years so easier said than done #but i mean lifes too short to care about what other people say right #if you really wanna share something just share it #there's a thing in psychology known as the imaginary audience and it's when we're harsher on our image for no real reason #like of course we want to impress our peers and yk. be cool to them #but at the same time and as a result we heavily criticize everything we do if it's not 'perfect'#honestly a phrase that's saved me a lot is 'if theres no problem theres no worry'#like if theres nothing wrong going right now dont act as though youre in the thick of it yk #idk i cant make you post what you want but i guess over the years i get sad seeing people say they wanna share something #but ultimately get scared of doing it even though i know they can make something phenomenal #and yk. i just wanna see that and i wanna see people be enthusiastic about things they love #thats why i do art anyway- its because i get to be enthusiastic and share my passion with people #idk im rambling and this is preachy #tl;dr share it motherfucker 🔫 thats the tone we're all used to from me LMAO

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opens-up-4-nobody · 2 years ago

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#ok. i just need to express something that is genuinely v funny to me #i was having dinner with my family and idk my sister asked my parents who their fave kid was and they were like idk we have no fave #and my other sister heard this like: oooo r we comparing whos the favorite? and of us 3 i think she things shes the best #bc her ego is huge and shes v self involved so i was like: y do u think u r the favorite? and she said: i make the most money. im the most #successful. im the best looking. im thr fastest. i have the best social skills #and thr fact that she listed being thr fastest runner as a reason she should b thr favorite kid is extremely funny to me. like is this a #physical race lmao???? also i dont think she has thr best social skill my youngest sister has lots of friends and is a teacher for small #kids. i think her social skills r better and shes wayyyyy nicer. and i pointed out that shes an abrasive person to b around and she was #like: well yeah i dont treat my friends like i treat u guys. which is extremely true. everyone things shes so nice. but its like. if u kno #ur being horrible to us y do u do it??? like i change my behavior to avoid being made fun of by u??? u make me think the world is a worse #place bc ur point of view is so judgemental. also u r extremely bratty and entitled and i dont understand. u r the only one of us 3 like #this??? all my negative self talk sounds word for word like the things u say. and after this trip ill probably add *baby voice* whats #wrong? r u too scared? to the list. idk i really dont get her. she didnt even kno i was starting my phd in the fall. i dont think she #initiated any conversation with me this whole trip #also she makes like 60k a year routing trucks for pepsi which is fucking unhinged to me. like bro it does not sound hard at all and in the #fall ill b making a barley livable wage busting my ass as a grad student. the work to pay ratio is way unbalanced #whatever. she isn't a horrible person. she is very funny. both my sisters r tbh and no one makes me laugh like them #which just makes me sad that we dont connect. anyway. im done bitching for now. ill have positive things to say later once i get back #into the swing of things #unrelated

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pinkopalina · 2 years ago

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why am i having a panic attack before work

#i worked 10 days in a row and then had 2 days off to go to a concert #its monday which is usually slower and im closing today and i was doing fine before but im so nervous rn idk whats wrong #i guess im just scared cause its. different #im aaaaaaaalways nervous/anxious before work no matter what...#when i dont have to do reception work i think ill feel better lmao at least having a closing shift means i dont have to be in the office rn #ugh but please i hate being nervous #feels like i cant breathe geels like i dont know anything..... its only been a couple weeks....#maybe ill get tips....#ivjnijnijnijnfojnwjor

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