#so please dont be too judgemental lol

[charleemoon]

seeing tgirl apollo is such a complicated feeling for me because it makes me happy to see myself so beautiful but it also triggers dysphoria but also like. i am so inherently transgender that if i was a woman in another life i would still be trans. and also being transmasc means there's always a part of me that yearns to be happy in femininity and to grow up belonging to womanhood and tgirl portrayal fulfills that something missing. and also i love love love beautiful woman and i love being beautiful but also i am not a girl but also

[flowered-mp3]

y'all ever just watch someone self-sabotage themselves to the point where it's hard to watch

[spider-man-2o99]

Just wanted to say that I have been thinking of you and pre-emptively empathizing with the nonsense you are no doubt being flooded with and the psychic damage it must be causing. Keep stanning the king ignore the weirdos <3

thankg u.,, i feel like ive been trapped in a fuckign . Torture Labyrinth these past coupl days . but. wwe will. We Will Yet Persist onwards w/ our hand on the left wall till we;re either out or at the center i swear 2 fucking GOD,

[whole-circus]

Creepypastas and small things they would do for you when you depressed!

➥ Jeff the Killer, Homicidal Liu, Eyeless Jack, Masky, Ben Drowned, "Ticci" Toby Hi, please dont be scared to get help if you feel like you need it - obvious thing but your feelings valid and you matter so much! And my DMs are always open! >:)

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☆ Jeff the Killer

Okay, Jeff isn't the best when it comes to comforting people, even if he really cares about them. He feels lost and has no idea what to do, but seeing you all miserable makes his heart break. Thats why I think he would do small acts of service. Don't expect a lot from him - he loves you, but he really is so awkward.. Thats why he brings you meals (he can't cook for shit), open the window in your room and let some air to it, he even clean around! Jeff also loves to spoil you! He know that he isn't the most affectionate, so he gives you a lot of small gifts! Maybe nice looking rocks, flowers, jewlery stolen from his victims....all romantic! Also things that reminds you of him! The one based on your personality, likes and stuf!! And dont even try to say that you dont deserve all that.. because deep down you mean everything to Jeff! Come on, there is a reason why he keept you alive, huh?

☆ Homicidal Liu

Absolute sweetheart when it comes to comforting you! You had a rough, long day? Even worse than normally? He is right here with you, doing his best. You just wanna seat in silence? Too tired to talk? Liu will be here. No sign of judgement on his face, just his typical soft and full of compasion smile. If you feel okay with him touching you, he would hold your hand or offer you a hug. No worries, you can stay in his soft embrace as long as you need it - its just you both agaist the world. He just want to make sure that you know he is here for you. Liu would talk about all things you are worried, trying to find solution if its possible, but he is also not too pushy when it comes to that. And no matter how you feel now, or if you will yell and cry, pushing him away - he is always here to got your back.

☆ Eyeless Jack

Jack is just another person with this comforting aura. At the end of hard day, you can't help but want cuddle to him and sob into his arms..And Jack is a great listener, always wanting to make you feel that your suffer is visible and heard! Thats why he is the best person to come vent to, or maybe just stay in his presence if you are too tired to talk! He doesn't talk too much, but he can if you want. Always ready to say something to cheer you up, and he doesn't make this stupid comments like "you dont look depressed" or "yeah same lol"! You are his everything and if you need a bit of help? Thats what relationship is all about, he doesnt mind at all! Just cuddle to him, tell him every thought of yours while he caress your head and gently rock back and forth!

☆ Masky

If Masky really does care about you (no worries, he does) he will be great when it comes to taking care about your body. Depression suck and we all know that well. Sometimes it takes away all of your energy and motivation, and its harder to take care of yourself. Thats why you have him! Masky would look after you a lot! He would check if you had eaten - you haven't? He will make you anything to eat, even for you to take small bite becasue you dont have appetite! Have problem with keeping yourself clean? Would help you shower or just clan with wet tissues, brush your teeth and wash your hair. And if your room gets too messy? Has no problem with helping you or just cleaning it by himself. He also keeps an eye on your sleep schedule! Masky doesn't judge - he knows how hard you already have it, and he just want to help. And needing help doesn't make you weak!

☆ Ben Drowned

Listen, Ben is such a dummy and cutie..he would try to make you laugh so bad..! He isnt doing it in this insistent, annoying way - he just do everything he can to make you smile! Cracking more jokes than usually, doing silly faces or you two could watch some silly video with cats/dogs...doesnt matter, he just try so much! He is also good person to stay in home with. He totally gets if you dont feel like socializing and going out, he already made you both a place so you could either play with him or just watch him play. Doesnt matter if you wanna talk, or if small-talk makes you annoyed and you just prefer to seat in silence. Big cuddle bug, so if that makes you feel better then he couldnt ask for more! Ben literally wants to make you feel even slightly better, but he also understand what you are going through and will always be by your side!

☆ "Ticci" Toby

As I said many many times, Toby is curious one - always ready to explore and do some fun stuff. And that makes him the perfect guy to make your days a bit brighter! Toby wants to be here for you, trying his best to get you out of bed and try new hobbies with you. When you are depressed its so easy to get into a routine, and just suffer from sadness and bad thoughts, laying in bed all day and starring at ceiling! And Toby doesn't want that silly! So no matter what is it- baking, cocking, some sport or artsy stuff - he loves that! But no worries, if you dont have that much energy, he will gladly stay with you in home, cuddling and watching movies. Its hard to be bored around him, he has some calming aura around. He understands that he won't make your deprresion dissapear, but Toby wants to make your days even a bit better.

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[sadstrever]

ok i’m sorry i contemplated not posting this because it’s almost meanspo so just don’t read it if ur triggered. it’s also just bad advice, don’t starve yourself and don’t be an (vodka) alcoholic.please recover love you i guess

first off i wanna preface this by saying FUCK YOUUUUU. if ur a little fat baby piggy no friends bitch i don’t want ur advice or opinions on my alcohol consumption while i fast😭😋!!! i’ve lost like 40lbs since i’ve started being an alcoholic and it’s had absolutely no impact on my weight, cuz just to irritate for the 100th time on this account: I NEVER EAT HOE! anwyays sorry maybe i’m just too drunk but that really pissed me the fuck off. like GOD OKAY RUIN THAT FOR ME TOO. like ok i never get any calories in except for alc but sure fuck it yk, because YOU said that alc has calories(you don’t think i know that bro?) i’m just gonna suddenly stop being an alcoholic. and now i just feel like shit because i consume calories from alc and someone thinks thats a “judgey” thing to say to me. now i feel fat so thank you. like if i could stop drinking that easily i WOULD and if i could start eating without gaining weight every time i do I WOULD. ur so dumb. ugh. i hate myself i’m sorry i’m so mean i love you people and i hope ur healthy and happy. i just need to put my anger out on someone lol. BUT also genuinely liek you guys do piss me off tho cuz you think it’s some crazy impressive thing to not eat for a week or eat like a grape a day…like guys… it gets worse and you will see and you’re gonna hate ur life. if ur ed is at that point PLEASE RECOVER AND RECONSIDER IT GWTS SO MUCH WORSE UGH. AND NO ONES GONNA LISTEN BECAUSE I DIDNT EITHER. i want to save you guys so bad. like i hate that people still get to romanticize it without all the pain and suffering every single waking moment of the day. also i’m officially underweight so someone send me a 0 calorie cake in the mail😝🙏

anyways this is somehow too related and will sound so fake but i swear on my whole life and my mamas and my brothers and my papas this is a TRUE STORY!!! i saw an old friend today and the first thing they said was “oh my god you lost so much weight” “like ur arms, face, whole body damn” BASICALLY LIKE THAT OBVIOUSLY I DONT REMEMBER WORD FOR WORD. but bro i have never felt so fucking seen in my life. like finally someone besides my family or best friend noticed my weight loss damn. AND SHE ASKED IF SHE SHOULD BE WORRIED FUCKKKKK. like no you shouldn’t cuz i’m never gonna get better but like fuck thank you bro. no one comments on people’s weight anymore and it pisses me offfff like i know it’s rude but i needed that comment to make me wanna keep starving!

am i a piece of shit? like genuinely did the eating disorder make me a horrible evil miserable person? i have this thought that even if somehow i recover physically(i pray to god i never get fat[by my standards] again ) that i’ll never recover mentally. i’ll always have this fucked up judgement of right and wrong that revolves around the stupid idea of being thinner. does it even matter? no. no it doesn’t. but it’s my whole world. my whole world is how skinny i am and it’s so tiring. the highlight of my day was being called worryingly skinny by an old friend who doesn’t care if i live or die. the second highlight of my day was the fact that i got 28k steps and burning 800 calories at the gym and bought another bottle. i’m tired of being a bad person. im tired of being annoying and stupid and dumb. such a fuckup. i’m sorry if i’m a bad person and you had to read this and feel like shit because you had to sit through reading my awful terrible judgment and thoughts.

LAST POINT:

tomorrow i have to eat my first meal in months(for real this time) and i am so scared and upset. it’s like a piece of myself dies everytime i eat. without starvation i am nothing. i am a shell of a person and when i eat i just become a shell that feels fat. i’m gonna take laxatives obviously and do some workouts but it’s never enough. i’m gonna make sure the meal that i’m forced to eat is as low calorie as possible because i’ll be drinking alcohol too and APPARENTLY i should just kill myself because it’s a crime to still be an alcoholic when you’re starving yourself.

also alcohol most likely won’t make you gain weight unless it’s beer or seltzers and it especially won’t if ur always drinking on an empty stomach. vodka on an empty(for months) stomach plus working out excessively won’t make yoh gain weight. shut up shut up shut up shut THE FUCK up you bitches piss me off.

FUCK YOU.

[thesweetestdevotion]

Does Irene actually hate men like ppl say😭

My first Irene ask and its this one PLEASE 😭 lets do it. These tarot readings are for entertainment purposes only btw!!!

How does Irene generally view men?

(Im literally crying typing this plss)

Dice: 10th House, Jupiter, Pisces

Tarot: Five of Wands Reversed, Four of Cups Reversed, The Devil, Six of Wands, Six of Swords, Seven of Cups, The World, Three of Cups, Judgement, Knight of Cups

Guys… she’s beating the allegations!!! For the most part. I think she’s someone who is aware that men make up most of her fanbase, and are a big part of the reason why she’s so successful. She’s the type to classify people in her life, friend, fan, partner, boss, family, etc… and act accordingly regarding the relationship, so in public she may not seem that warm or sweet towards men, probably because the men she’s interacting with just aren’t that close to her, mostly professional stuff you know? I think she has generally neutral feelings towards men, but she does have a soft spot for a kind and chivalrous type. I think for other kinds of men… she’s not so tolerant. I just feel like she’s easily annoyed, and finds a lot of men act overwhelmingly intense towards her, so she likes when a guy can act normal and kind towards her, and just be in good company with her and not be weird about it. The devil tells me she meets many men who are… ugh i dont know? Too much? Obsessive? Intense? Creepy? And she’s just fed up lollll. I think her general feelings are good though! She appreciates her fans, loves them and their support whether they are male of female, but she does understand that her popularity with men can bring her success. I just think guys need to be more normal towards her cuz wtf. She’s honestly pretty optimistic considering the intensity of the energy I’m feeling towards her. I feel like i’d be way worse in this situation, full on misandry lol! She’s just chilling and she wants men to chill out too! She likes being seen as a person before she is an image or an ideal, and i think men have made her feel like she can’t be seen in that way. There’s mostly just slight annoyance, appreciation, tolerance, detachment, and a bit of disinterest here. She’s not some evil man hater hehe, her rbf is what holds most of the blame. But it’s like she wears her emotions on her sleeves especially annoyance haha.

Hope you like it!! Xxx

[awfulwriter123]

Rhea Ripley x Gamer!/Streamer! Reader (Headcanon)

Okay, first time for everything right? God idk why im nervous, guess its just how i am...fuck...

Criticism is okay, just dont be too harsh please? and of course tips on how i can improve would be appreciated ❤️❤️now please enjoy!! (also quick little tip here st/n is streamer name had to come up with something)

. When you two got together, Rhea already knew u were a gamer, she just never knew you were a streamer.

. When asking you "why didn't you tell me?" All you said to her? "you never asked babe."

. Nearly smacked you upside the head for that one.

. Anyway, She always tunes in and watches whenever she can, and she loves every second.

. Watching you focus as you try and get pass a hard boss on a game, or watching while you play Call of Duty from time to time (and try not to rage at it) She finds it cute.

. When she made a Twitch account just to chat in stream, it was funny cause of her name, too say the chat made fun of you a bit for it would be a understatement.

. St/n's_MAMI: Don't rage too much babe, don't want you braking a controller....again.

. You wish your chair could swallow you whole out of embarrassment after that, and the chat was having fun at your expense.

. (Random Username): oh st/n in a mommy's girl!? 😏 St/n's_MAMI: It's MAMI, but yes, yes she is!😊🤣

. When you decided to make Rhea a mod in your stream (which u knew was probably a bad idea off the bat but oh well) you knew she'd be a good mod....and a bit overdramatic at times.

. (random chatter) has been banned by st/n's_MAMI.

. Y/n: Babe, why did you ban them?

.St/n's_MAMI: they said u were trash at the game

. The chat exploded with LOL's and LMAO's and BRUH's, rhea was a GREAT moderator in there eye's.

. When rhea introduced you to the boys of the judgement day, you and dom hit off as he is a big gamer.

. When you and him along with priest decided to play some fun party games on stream together, it was blast and you were dying of laughter.

. So much so that rhea eventually walked in and sat down and watched as you and her friend's had a blast.

. After the stream was over and you said bye to priest and dom, rhea asked if you could show her some games you could get her into and that you guys could play together.

. You decided to not immediately throw rhea in the deep end and deiced to start small, with a fun puzzle game called portal 2.

. Y/n "RHEA!!! I swear to god if you move the portal above the water so i die again, i will hit you!"

. Rhea "Awww, but its hilarious.

. Y/n "NOT TO ME!!!"

. Alot of different clips were made that day of you raging and rhea dying of laughter

. You know, maybe throwing her in the deep end probably would've been a good idea.

[rayroseu]

Another Silver kinnie moment.... I always recommend cakes for celebration too bcs it has fond memories ✨✨✨

AND WAAAHHH Lilia celebrating his child's first big accomplishment 🥲🥲💞💕💖💕💖💕 I WOULD LOVE TO SEE IT AHDHAJDH SILVERS FACE BRIGHTENING UP KNOWING HIS FATHER PUT UP A LITTLE PARTY FOR THE EFFORT HE MADE.... JUST LIKE HOW GEPETTO WAS LOOKING FORWARD FOR PINOCCHIO TO RETURN FROM SCHOOL HE COOKED A FEAST FOR THEM 😭💞💕💞

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LMFAO PLEASE SEBEK IS EVEN CRYING.... AKDHAKD HES SO FUNNY PLEASE SEBEK NEVER CHANGE 😂😂✨✨

KKKKKSHAAAAAAAAA 🦇🦇🐊🐊🐉🐉LETSGOOO THATS MELEANORS GENERAL 💪💪💪✨✨✨✨🗣🗣🗣🗣🗣

I would love to see General Lilia defying physics on the hanging bar lol

Also The 2nd line reminds me of whats happening the Playful Land event...

"strong leadership by unifying a large group and orchestrating them to put on a show"... Meleanor is so amazing...✨✨She's an organizer of calisthenic demonstration too??? MAYBE????

Just like how Fellow honest is controlling the NRC students to put on a show... Also she views the humans as stupid and weak, just like how Fellow views NRC as stupid boys lol

I guess she really does act as the Puppeteer as the Highest Commander of Briar Land's soldiers... But also it COULD imply that she can manipulate several people yk (IM OVERTHINKING ABOUT THIS AJFHHA)

Every Silver Owls said that they successfully lured Meleanor into their trap but what if that was never the case?

Lilia's dream rn is far from its end... We don't even have concrete evidence that she was defeated by Knight of Dawn... Maybe I'm hoping too much bcs I don't really want her to die lol🥲 but what if all this time she was orchestrating a fake death to initiate a more sinister end for the war between faes and humans??

or Idk maybe she really died.... 😭😭😭 she DID plotted that Malleus is going to be harmful to humans. Which if we think her single purpose is to destroy humanity

(reffering to her line smth like: Weak, fragile, and stupid. The humankind is begging to be destroyed. If that is so, I shall bring it upon them. With the thunder of judgement!")

then Malleus is making her wish come true that the Dark Faes will reign supreme than humans because he overblotted and planning to spread its curse across the world lol

But i dont like that this theory implies that shes involved of Malleus Overblot I dont think Mother Meleanor will do that 😭😭😭💔💔💔

Also literally why tf did my brain jumped from this??? I think im doing mental calisthenics... Lilia literally is just discussing an Old briar valley tradition and its never even brought up again 😂😂😂💥💥💥

[verathena14]

riku kh & silver twst comparisons

am i only on book 3 of twst? yes. will this stop me? no.

(please for the love of all that exists do not spoil me on anything past book 3)

(i havent taken my adhd meds in over a week someone please save me. im descending into brainrot madness.)

first off, they're near identical (especially with riku's weird horseshoe crab-lookin hairstyle. it looks fine here but it's weird when u see it from behind lol)

only glaring difference (appearance-wise) is the eye color

i mean look at them. ripped? yes. gorgeous silver hair? yep. popped collar? indeed.

look at them! theyre so pretty!

besides appearances, we've also got their connections to maleficent. (silver is in Diasomnia, the dorm dedicated to maleficent; and maleficent all-but adopted riku in kh1)

they're both good at wielding swords (riku is a keyblade master, silver's icon is a sword and one of his quotes is about sword training)

they both have connections to sleep/dreams (silver is always fighting off sleep and i believe i've heard smth about his signature spell relating to dreams but i have not seen that personally yet; riku is sora's dream eater which is a WHOLE other thing that i will go insane if i think about too much)

and theyre both light-coded (ive heard that silver is supposed to represent aurora and/or prince philip but again i dont know for sure; RIKU IS THE LIGHT!!!!! boy is the sun, given SO many halos in-game and in official artwork, nomura when will you reveal your secrets)

they both act tough but they're actually really caring (i know this for certain with riku, but it's just a feeling i have that may or may not be supported for silver)

also i have a major crush and/or gender envy for both of them so. that one's more of a personal judgement but whatever.

[goldenharmony]

tumblr user goldenharmony im. head in hands. i am losing it over click link or whatever that show was called surely i dont remember. im fine (hello) please tell me you experienec with this show i neend to talk owiwiuwewiwijedhwejd.

LOL OK 😭

Idk how you discovered Link Click (or mentioned it in your reblogs), but I use MAL a lot and noticed that s1 was pretty high on the rankings during its airing.

Then later that year, I watched Gigguk's vid on Link Click since he's an anituber I like. I do laugh at the fact that I read the title and was like "Nah, it's not better than Steins;Gate :) " since that's MY favourite anime (and a time-travel one), and he basically implied that it wasn't as great as Steins;Gate when handling certain aspects LOL (although still is praising the series throughout this review). Fun Fact - his vid on Oshi no Ko is the whole reason I checked out the OnK manga eventually since I read Aka Akasaka's Kaguya-sama and wanted more but the premise of "simp doctor reincarnated as his idol's child" sounded rlly sus LOL.

It's why I was also kinda confused when later on MAL, I saw that Link Click had a s2 but didn't hear any hype for it despite hearing a bit for s1. I guess that was cause of Gigguk's influence on the anime community since I don't think he watched s2 so there was no big anime influencer hyping it up sadly.

Eventually late last November, someone in the AquaKana server was being very vocal on wanting to push the Link Click agenda soo I decided why not - its been a long time since I watched a time-loop series. She was also a huge fan of Steins;Gate so I trusted her judgement.

Watched ep 1 in original before having to switch to Eng Dub after cause I was not clicking with the show due to being distracted by a new language that I wasn't used to hearing yet 😭But after that, I watched a few eps per day, binged s1 ep 7-11 in one sitting, and then binged s2 in one sitting as well LOL. I was also was waiting for CFE results to see if I passed - my major career-defining exam and watching Link Click actively helped me not stress on the days leading up to it because my thoughts were preoccupied by it.

S1 gave me a Vivy/Violet Evergarden feel with its short stories, and S2 reminded me more of Death Note with it being a suspenseful murder mystery involving supernatural powers. One thing I loved is finding some stuff that Link Click does unique compared to other time-loop series. For example - actively trying to NOT change the past, and instead using the looping to understand how to resolve issues in the present. I also like it leaning into the thriller aspect more compared to other time-loop series I've seen.

CXS and LG also fall into the 2 looper categories that most loopers do. CXS being the impulsive and emotional type and LG being the stoic and serious type who has gotten jaded from all their looping.

Also I am pretty fine with how QL has been handled so far, since its not a "female character" thing to me in how she isn't as prominent as CXS and LG but more of a "character who isn't CXS and LG" thing considering the series has a lot of characters but we don't dive too deeply in most of them. Plus she's been handled much better compared to other anime series that have the set-up of "2 male leads in a suspenseful thriller show, with a girl as an almost secondary character". Thinking of Misa from Death Note and Lisa from Terror in Resonance, who are disappointing in their roles.

I also like how the fight scenes are actually well-animated since most non-action anime included fight scenes are....not great LOL.

[sunflawyer]

I really adore your blog and your OC is so adorable! You're really the one that got me kinda interested in self shipping, so could you please tell me how you got yourself to just... do it? I'm really afraid to be cringe or recieve judgement if I do something like that, along with breaking the canon kinda scares mr. I would appreciate some thoughts/tips on how to get over yourself lol! Have a great day. ૮₍ ´• ˕ •` ₎ა💗

AHHH anon this is super sweet!!! thank you for liking my blog and abby!! (⁠ ⁠◜⁠‿⁠◝⁠ ⁠) I'd be more than glad to tell you my story!!! 🧡💐

first of all: cringe is dead!! selfship is supposed to be enjoyed by you and yourself only. thats why its called 'self'ship!! you dont have to worry about what others might think of you. because here in the selfship community we're supportive of each other!! 🧡 id be more than happy to help you too!! <3

also, canon means nothing here! i know there are selfshippers out there who follow the canon storyline for their selfship, but there are others who dont! (like me!) i know it can be very scary to do that, especially if people from the fandom discover you and ask you stuff like "why is this like this!?" and believe me, it happened to me too. but!!! dont listen to them!!! it might sound hard, but if you believe in yourself (and all the people who support you) you'll eventually feel less scared! (｡⁠•⁠ ⁠ᵕ⁠ ⁠•⁠｡) its your story and your universe after all — nothing and no one can stop you!

i know there'll be moments of doubts, but trust me, if it makes you very happy and you want to do it, just go for it! you can start slow and do tiny steps, and i'll be here to accompany you always anon (⁠ ⁠◜⁠‿⁠◝⁠ ⁠)⁠♡ you can always go to my inbox to rant and ask me stuff!

and always remember! your f/o loves you lots and lots and lots and they'll guide you in every step of the way too!! 🧡

[velvetvexations]

youve talked abt this before i believe, and i dont want to come across as patronizing and if it sounds that way please don't take it to heart and feel free to ignore/shut it down

i think queer discourse has an addictive quality in the way that anger is addicting. i struggle with anger issues myself and this was something that was and still is really hard for me to balance. how much of my engagement in queer theory is actually in the theory vs how much of it is getting into arguments that are bad faith from the beginning with people who do not respect [insert discourse topic du jour here] as real theory or real people to begin with.

and that like. drags you fucking down, you know? i get anxious, all the time, and my partner has to be like "you need to take a break" for it to hit that im developing an unhealthy relationship with theory on tumblr, specifically. and that's even with me ACTIVELY AVOIDING tags related to t/ransandrophobia and exclusively engaging w it via people whos opinions i respect directly. it's way harder when you actively trawl those tags.

what im getting at is that to other people that trawl those tags the same way, the aforementioned Bad Faith Argument Havers, when they see you there frequently you get a reputation as someone who is looking for fights to get into. which is kinda shitty tbh on their end to then be like "i know who you are" all judgemental and shit when they at the Very Least also follow people that actively stir up shit in the tags on purpose. which isnt really what you do, you respond in kind, i think? or thats my perception of it, at least.

i guess tldr it may be good to check in w people who care about u every so often who can help pull you back when it's taking a serious hit to your health -- maybe you already have measures in place its not like i would know lol. but the people that have u preemptively blocked likely just dont want to see those arguments all the time (in which case they should unfollow the people Starting those arguments lmfao but what do i know)... i dont think its indicative that youre a Bad Person or whatever, its just a symptom of The Wretched Disk Horse

Thank you. <3 It just struck me as weird since they seem to have the same opinions about me on those subjects, I was going to reblog posts about them, so I just got really curious about what might have prompted it from two different people who seem to otherwise be on my side in the Discourse Trenches. It really could be something totally unrelated.

But earlier today I did get just a little self-conscious and start worrying about the way I talk or engage with things, that I was doing it in a way that annoys people or something, and I had a small narc crash over it. But that happens every other day, so no big deal there really. I'm definitely making way too big a deal about it either way. I'm just going to assume they disagree with my acerbic opinion of the Buu Saga and forget about it lol.

[pinkmoondoll9shihtzu]

how are you able to celebrate spirituality without feeling omniscient judgement of your every action? i realize that sounds like an accusatory question out the door LOL but i definitely don't mean it that way. it's moreso like...i spent so much of my life until recently feeling like i wasn't allowed to enjoy or be myself in my own privacy without feeling like i was being watched and weighed. i don't actively practice or pursue spirituality at this time, but i was raised into some incredibly unhealthy christian dynamics, which i think can definitely find relation in my prior mentioned struggles. even so, when it feels healthy and of your own volition, do you feel as though this is a struggle?

i love this thoughtful question, thankyou..putting under read more due to my lengthy answer x]

for me, ive mentioned before but i was raised by atheist parents. so as i built my own opinions about god, i was never set on the heaven/hell dichotomy, i never felt that god has this weirdly specific list of things u can and cant do. i feel that god wants us to be imperfect & make mistakes so that our souls can grow n expand towards our highest purpose thru many lifetimes of lessons.

that feeling of surveillance, i actually started to worry about it a lot after my dad died, even tho i had no real concept of spirituality at this point cus i was a kid. I just like, started to perceive that he saw everything, and since i was being rebellious teen at the time i felt a lot of guilt for years. Altho once i started learning more i began to feel that angels will never judge you, only love & understand.

Still i try rly hard to live with integrity. and im no angel but i strive to be the best version of Me. & a big part of that, imo, is acting "right" behind closed doors. for example, if someone is talking badly to me about a friend behind their back, am i going to stand up for them? or just let it slide because they're not there to hear it? small things like this may seem like nothing in the moment but they cld blow up in ur face later n u wish u just did the kind thing. i believe small lessons like this will keep repeating until ur soul learns.

one time many years ago i withdrew like $100 from an atm then just totally spaced out & walked away before i grabbed my money. the next person ran after me like "oh my god you forgot your money!" , i was so stunned. like this stranger fully couldve just walked away with a free $100 & i wldnt of even noticed until later. there was no prize waiting for them by doing the right thing. he just did it w no apprehension.

it shldnt be about trying to appease god, but earnestly trying to help & empower your fellow man. not out of guilt or shame, or fear of punishment, but out of the kindness in your heart, pure love. to me, god is just love, the trials are for the purpose of love, so i dont stress too much abt feeling watched. it makes me feel less lonely in a way.

thanks again for the question and i'm sorry about the trauma from your upbringing :( i hope u can heal and please dont put too much pressure on yourself to be perfect, there is no punishment coming for you, whatever you're doing right now is exactly where you;re supposed to be. <3

[thesweetestdevotion]

do u think trump will ever be assasinated or taken out the way other presidents were? like whats his outcomes going to be like for this coming year and was his attempted assasination a distraction / hoax or preplanned to take him out? thanks v much again!

Trump General Reading for 2025:

(ive been wondering this too, so im glad you asked lol)

Assasination:

Was it planned?: The Lovers Reversed, Seven of Swords, The Empress Reversed, The King of Cups Reversed, Seven of Coins

Immediately I’m getting that it wasn’t planned, or at least not in the way suggested here. I see an energy of displeasure, unhappiness, of a promise broken. the perpetrator came out as the king of cups reversed, and this tells me that there was a deep discontented feeling within him. Especially when the lovers and empress also came out reversed. there was something that made the perpetrator feel betrayed, maybe a decision made by trump? Or something that trump promised that did not pan out in the way this person wanted. I think this led him to sneak around and plan out this whole thing, but it was definitely on an individual level. I dont see this person being connected to anyone else. actually its almost like he’s severed form others, I see him as a figure standing in a dark room, alone. I think he was someone who was extremely angry and felt betrayed, it may have had to do with his ideals differing from trumps at some point, and also trump disappointing him. Though i see that this attempt inadvertently led to benefits for trump, what with all the fanfare and attention he got from it.

Will it happen again?: Ten of Swords Reversed, Ten of Cups, Knight of Pentacles Reversed, The magician, King of Pentacles Reversed, Four of Cups reversed

I don’t think something like this will happen again, at least if it does it wont be in the same way that happened in the past. I see trump has been strengthened by not just his survival, but his win of the presidency and the support he gained due to it. Trump right now is very well protected by those around him. If you ask me i think he may be safer than he was in his first presidency. though i see this protection is conditional. I think trump has promised many people many different things and if he fails to act or does something that displeases the people around him he will be more vulnerable. I see right now he’s like a valuable pawn, that is not acting on his own interest but rather the ones of the people who have supported and protected him. I see him being pulled in all sorts of directions, which i don’t think he minds. trump seems like the type of person to not necessarily be personally invested in a specific outcome, rather he follows where the money and power is. I think he’s happier this way, doing the things other’s want from him and in turn benefiting from their power and influence. He feels very empowered right now that’s for sure.

His outcomes for the next year (2025): The Hierophant Reversed, Two of Coins, Queen of Cups, Five of Wands, Eight of Swords, Judgement reversed, Seven of Wands reversed, Ace of Wands

I see him reaching a stalemate at some point?? It’s like he’s gonna have trouble balancing two sides at once, and this will lead him to be a bit stuck. Someone, probably a woman but mostly a feminine energy will step into the picture, and this will lead him to be conflicted in a choice he needs to make. I think this will lead him to be heavily criticized by some people and it could even lead to a battle between the interested parties of this situation. I think he wants to please too many people at once, especially this queen of cups, and I see him taking a route that is not ‘traditional or just doing something that is out of the bounds of normality for a president to do. That being said this is something trump does quite often so its not too strange coming from him. I just see him being able to win whatever battle this is, he somehow always comes out on top its actually insane. But i also see him not doing the things we expect him to do, or backing out of certain plans? In nit sure what those are because i feel heavy all of a sudden and my neck started to ache. I think whatever this future looks like its heavily protected at this time. Though i think he’s gonna surprise a lot of people, on both sides of the political spectrum, this year.

I really want to o see what this energy is. Perhaps ill do a follow up reading after some months pass by! I hope this isn’t too messy, or looks like I’m a trump supporter or something 😭 i like to remain neutral when I’m doing my readings, but i hope i dont come off as sympathetic bc I’m literally not lmao 💀 lmk if you have any questions!

[destinyc1020]

'And I think Tom already gets enough of that as is. So, forgive some of us as fans if some of us are just sick and tired of the nitpicking.'

yessss destiny!! also i just am a little sus that some of your anons pretending to be 'concerned' fans might be antis (or that one JE fan, which lmao it's totally fine to like him!! but just dont put tom down to be a fan of him cause that is silly and vice versa!), so it is just pretty exhausting when anons come in wanting to condemn him for something that hasn't even happened yet. like sure if we get more info, then make judgements, but nitpicking stuff from so little information is just kind of tiring.

Thanks Anon for your input. 😊

Yea, I'm just not really too keen on judging a film TOO harshly before we've even seen a trailer yet....before the film has even started FILMING yet! Like GEEZ! 🥴 Can we please not?

We don't even know all of the facts with the FA biopic, and some "experts" can't even agree on whether or not he actually had that clause in his will.

I say we just all chill and wait until we at least get more info about this movie. So many fans were foaming at the mouth and jumping at Tom's neck to berate him for taking the TCR project, and it ended up being so TOTALLY DIFFERENT from what they originally assumed it to be. 😏

So I just think it's always better to wait until we have more facts before judging a project so harshly.

RE: JE....

Yea, I mean people can go ahead and like JE if they want. It's not a big deal to me lol. I'm not the "fandom police". 😅 Like who/whatever you want to like! Why would I care?? 🤷🏾‍♀️ But we don't need to put down Tom in order to lift up JE.....and vice versa.

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do you think hfboards is a good/accurate source for finding information about prospects? i've only used it so far wrt semi-niche prospects (european non-superstars) because there's not really much public discussion in english or sometimes any language anywhere else, and i've seen you mention it here and there favourably and unfavourably, so i thought i'd see if i could get your thoughts on it

ough . um!! this is going to be very scattered im sorryyy i am lost in the sauce this morning and don’t want your ask buried in a draft forever !! <3

caveat, i can’t say i’m a great source to report on the Full HFBoards experience as i’ve only been a reader and not a contributor and i haven’t been around that long. my material experiences with HFBoards is very limited to scrolling back through old threads + my friends showing me some of the worst most cold takes imaginable from the meanest people i ever seen </3 anyone else out there who has been around longer please feel free to chime in!!

i try to keep in mind these are people who’ve gone out of their way to log in to a hobby forum to discourse about some kids who may or may not play professional hockey one day so..??? we can assume, like any forum, we will have many honest, enthusiastic, kind people who are posting out of love for the game. and we will also meet people who’ve been marinating way too long in the same circles + take this shit too seriously + treat their forum like a fiefdom where they need to win an argument to maintain power?? like it’s . yknow. the internet. use your best judgement i suppose?? <- i realise this is a little unhelpful sjdjdhjf

personallyyy with prospect talk i try to steer clear of people who make it into a horrible little spectacle for their own gain, like where they write in order to burn some kid/humiliate them for clout. does this make sense? not limited to forums either, amateur scouting outlets pop up in my feeds occasionally and i sniff around and can i just say some people are DEMONS 😭 here’s a deeeeeeply embarrassing sample from this past draft.

And to put my poor mans philosophy hat on a sec what are we even asking for when we say “good and accurate information?” there are things like height and weight and speed that are measurable of course!! but then you get into the weeds of good puck touches, zone entries…. do we trust these people to make fair judgements on if (x) prospect maintains a good gap, if they have “good vision” and then it’s like… what about the intangibles? <- which im sure everyone has a great eye for <3

i find people value very different things when they watch hockey!! of course there are your game breaking talents that everyone can recognise, but some people genuinely are just all about physical tools >>> hockey sense and softer skill, or the other way around. some people see poor skating (which i have no idea how to evaluate LOL) and to them it’s simply less weighty than having a really good shot + being able to throw hits. just imagine every combination of traits under the sun and every armchair analyst weighs them different — this is how you get some huge discrepancies w scouting boards.

(huge fan of passers/playmakers and love to watch competent defenders, personally!!)

so with forums i guess you’d have to figure out what you value and think is good + find people who are actually watching the games and have a consistent set of principles on evaluating players?? my process is, I’m more inclined to trust someone when they list real things I can watch for that prove their point (the player spins off checks, they find wacky scoring angles, they drive the middle of the ice <- i dont need to be an Expert in ice hockey to recognise patterns!!)

I’m sorry if this isn’t a very helpful answer 😭 I’m still finding my own bearings wrt sources and i consider myself kinda hockey-stupid… i’m not suuuper hard up for like, Accurate information down to the finest details… I’m v much here for the vibes!!

to leave you with something a bit more helpful here’s my personal list of prospect people i follow on twt… worth digging through their tweets with advanced search. (I’m not like, vetting them each for accuracy or nothin, i just see that they work in scouting for a publication and hit the follow + add to list buttons. but it’s something!)

are you after info on a particular player? if so, perhaps we can scrub our brain cells together and make fire… <3 im happy to help if u need a hand!!