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OK NOW I CAN SLEEP I HAD TO RUSH THIS OUT. MET PAV. proceeded to die horribly from poison. oh well!
#my art#my posts#fear and hunger termina#fear and hunger#termina liveblog#levi jordan#fear and hunger levi#fear and hunger abella#fear and hunger pav#pavel yudin#pavlevi#i suppose?#so many character tags god damn
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Familial relationships in rise getting confusing? No?????? Well worry your pretty little head no more! For I have created a ✨helpful chart✨!
also i can't take full credit for the "nightmare blunt rotation love triangle", that goes to MNMC
#rottmnt#rise of the tmnt#rottmnt fanart#tmnt#rise of the teenage mutant ninja turtles#myart#what do i even tag this with#like every character? thats too damn many#also im a little mad that basically all of this is just... canon. like fanon brain has influence here for sure but its not by a lot#this family is so weird#good god why did i make this#the 4 am brain worms have been given to much power
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I need the people who look at posts talking about Wyll's treatment in both the actual game and especially the fandom and respond with "but i don't like him and I think he's boring" to know that shutting the fuck up is 100% the better option 100% of the time. Him being the only origin character to not have at last 10 hours of content and the existence of mods that literally whitewash him and his dad - among everything else wrong with how Wyll is treated - are not suddenly okay because you, personally, as an individual, don't find him interesting, and your personal individual feelings about him are irrelevant to the issues surrounding his treatment in the bg3 community at large, so like. Stop barging in with your unwanted, unhelpful opinion
#not 3h#wyll ravengard#being daring today and using a non FE main tag because holy shit is this one of the most annoying things fucking ever#had to rant about this because it happens ALL THE TIME in the bg3 fandom i swear to god#person (usually a black person or someone otherwise nonwhite): I think Wyll should have been given more content individual to him#some fuckwit: but he's boring!#person: I think Wyll should have been given more autonomy as a character and not have everything about his arc be up to the player#fuckwit: but he's BORING!!#person: I think it's strange how antagonistic we the player HAVE to be towards Wyll many times especially compared to the other companions#fuckwit: BUT HE'S BORING!!!#person: I think it's problematic that Wyll is constantly connected to his abuser in promo material when no one else is connected to theirs#fuckwit: WYLL IS BORING THO!!!!#person: I think it's unfair to people who like Wyll that bugs that have been around for multiple patches are only now getting patched#(while characters like Asta/rion get even more content on top of already having a shit ton)#fuckwit: BOOOOOOORRRRRRRRRIIIIIIIIING!!!!!#person: I think the fandom treatment of black Wyll fans who want more Wyll content is racist#fuckwit: HE'S SO BORING!!!!!!#person: People making mods that turn Wyll white/have you beat up *only* Wyll/give Wyll's content to white characters is racist#fuckwit: BUT HE'S SOOOOOOOOO BORING!!!!!!!#like holy SHIT shut the fuck up. that is SO not the damn point.#Fandom Be Normal About Characters of Color Challenge (IMPOSSIBLE) (FAILED) (I ENDED UP BEING RACIST???)#go back to eating Asta/rion's toe jam or whatever the hell his fans do jesus fuck
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#started up a from ground zero replay of hi3#because i decided i wanted an account that was from my hoyolab one and not steamlocked#means my seeles and fu huas are gone :( but i did get himeko and sakura pretty quick#i would normally tag every character in these but I CAN'T THERE'S TOO MANY TO COMPLY WITH OTHER TAGS I DO#so I'll just tag games and ships#honkai star rail#honkai star rail memes#hsr starch#hsr fenhang#hsr himepaz#hsr kafhime#hsr sampard#hsr renheng#hsr servasha#genshin impact#genshin impact memes#that new update stream slayed. so did star rails today but god damn. women.#honkai impact 3rd#honkai impact 3rd memes#she really is star wars. iconic tbh.
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he's just confused as to where you even found wrapping paper honestly
and a silly doodle i drew really small because i'm trying to force my handwriting to be legible (in case you cant read it: "if you don't like it that's ok-" (interrupting) "I'M KEEPING IT FOREVER AND YOU CAN'T STOP ME." "OK."
#tagging AM because he helped me draw this :-) and gave many compliments even though he drew part of it. heheeh#mine#am ihnmaims#ihnmaims#i have no mouth and i must scream#allied mastercomputer#VERY proud of his lil expression. it takes fucking skill to make a faceless character emote. god damn#what did you get him for christmas? he's never gotten a present before so make it good! (or something terrible if you wanna be mean. lol!!)
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Scug doodles!!
#uhm#so many#im choosing to call arti riv and hunter naval mine because thats what i think of when i draw them#good god this is a lot of characters to tag#also how did rymin sneak into this post#damn it#rain world#rw rivulet#rw hunter#rw artificer#rw saint#rw nightcat#rw inv#rw survivor#rw nomad#i dont think i will tag min and ryan#rw bathbomb#rw artihunter#uhmm whats the riv hunter ship name?#maybe i should tag the polycule too#rw naval mine#sure whatever#shipping
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Haiiii I made headcanons for all of the Dragon Age Origins and Awakening Companions :3 (Note: Oghren doesn't get one bc. he makes me uncomfy.) Origins:
Alistair: Abyssinian; Extremely energetic and athletic, like observing people and need a lot of attention
Morrigan: Siamese; incredibly intelligent, mischievous cats. Not great in groups unless well trained
Leliana: Scottish Fold; Adaptable, friendly, family cats who get along great with most other cats
Sten: Persian; Curious yet quiet, very solitary cats that can take a lot of time to warm up to people, tend to bond best with a single person
Wynne: Russian Blue; Elegant and intelligent, somewhat aloof and affectionate cats, adapt fine to groups but prefer to be one-on-one with people
Zevran: Somali; Very chaotic cats unless very well trained, energetic, intelligent, and need a lot of attention and playtime to keep entertained
Shale: Manx; High prey-drive, affectionate, talkative, and tend to bond best one-on-one
Awakening:
Anders: Bengal; Curious and adaptive learners, tend to be good therapy cats, very talkative
Nathaniel: Bombay; Mischievous, sneaky, and outgoing, do well in homes where they get to be the center of attention
Justice: Sphynx; Curious, social, active cats who like to be apart of whatever activity is happening, tend to mimic what people do
Sigrun: Burmese; Small, athletic, and friendly, they tend to get along well with other cats and loves to play
Velanna: Toyger; highly intelligent and energetic, require a lot of attention and are very talkative when they want something
I plan on doing this for the DA2 and Inquisition companions when I get there :3
#dragon age#dragon age origins#dragon age awakening#alistair theirin#alistair#morrigan#leliana#sten#wynne#zevran#zevran arainai#shale#anders#nathaniel howe#spirit of justice#sigrun#velanna#da#dao#daa#erm i hope this isnt cringe#my post#so many fucking characters to tag god damn#special thanks to Jamie my beloved for enabling me to ramble abt cats#it means the world 2 me
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i need to mutter into the void so i’m going to post under the cut the trials and tribs of my current clegan fic writing experience so no one including (especially) me has to make eye contact with it. it’s basically a diary entry. god bless anyone that reads it lol. love and light 🫶
goddamn writing this fic is kicking my ass. it was just meant to be an angsty gale introspective. then i started another and that was meant to be them just fucking absolute nasty style. now i fear they have combined, morphed, metamorphosed, and it’s becoming a monster. goddamn. what does one do in this situation? it would be my first time posting in this fandom and my second time posting fic at all. i’m shaking in my boots about it. there is so much wonderful fic being posted for this pairing and so many approaches and styles. i would love to get mine out and see it amongst those works. i’m just not sure how to go about constructing this fic and how to post about it. i’d like to post some bits and pieces and maybe someone will see it and tell me it’s worth it to finish it but first and foremost i’m really writing this for myself, because it’s the type of fic i love to read and also i feel like i need to be writing it so my mind is creating something. and it would feel like a waste to me and a let down for myself if i never post it. also i’m projecting very hard onto it and onto gale as a character, so it feels kind of personal in some parts? which can’t totally be avoided but because of that and because the way i write is also very personal to me it’s making something that should be fun to post about feel quite daunting. but i want to push myself so badly because it’s been years since i’ve done that, maybe i’ve never done that. and Of Course it’s wwii yaoi that’s gotten me to this point.
anyway, y’all ever think about gale identifying as a more feminine being than is expected for a man like him in the time he’s in, thus manifesting itself into years of repression he’s not entirely aware of until he meets and grows closer to bucky, and how he comes to terms with being awakened in such a way that has laid dormant until he’s in the literal u.s. military, and eventually in one of the least survivable theatres of the war, and in suffocating proximity day in and day out with one john bucky egan? and how he navigates his bond with marge, now in contrast to how he feels for john? and how even his childhood and the lives of his parents is being pushed forwards in his consciousness in relation to his sense of self and his place in the lives of others? oh and also how absolutely Biblically he wants john, in the most unconventional and all encompassing ways? all while he has no context for queerness and sexuality as it relates to himself? i dunno what freak would be into writing or reading that 👀 🚬💀
#like how the fuck am i gonna pull this? with my fic writing history? i’ve really done it now.#it’s gales pov which i Did Not see coming. i’m a bucky girl. he bewitches me. but gale… gale….#so here i am#up to my neck in the gale and marge of it all and gale’s identity and sexuality and how that fits into canon in a way that i can stay#as true as possible to the show because it really does already almost have it all#and i love gale as a character so i would hate to twist that out of shape#just for the sake of some down and dirty queer lust and feminisation kink#but i know what the fuck i want#and that is for gale to ride john into the damn ground#also my writing style appears to be built kinda different and there’s nothing i can seem to do about it so it’s all very… very? prose-y?#god this is too many tags. i don’t know what i’m doing.#if you’re reading this i’m sorry 🫶#how do i even tag this?? do i even want to tag this lmao#clegan#clegan fic#forgets fic#?? i guess that will do so i can find this post later and kill it with fire
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I need to draw all my favorite characters having a good CRY. Just a moment to fucking CRY. Ugly cry. Let it all OUT. Cause GOD FUCKING DAMN do a lot of them NEED THAT SHIT.
#I’m so dead ass#they really do need it#they just need to cry#especially Spider-Man Noir#that fuck#peter benjamin parker#just needs a good god damn cry#and Kurt Wagner#and Wolverine#and literally any Spider-Man tbh#and rouge#and Moonknight#and spawn#and jinx#and vi#literally any of the arcane characters#and rocket raccoon#and Nebula#god any of the fucking Guardians of the Galaxy#and the avengers#and Optimus prime tbh#and the Mandolorian#and who else#fuck I know too many characters that won’t fit in these tags#but god damn I’m gonna draw some of my babies just having a big cry#BECAUSE THEY NEED IT.
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(abt my last ask) thank you for the answer, your understanding of charas is trully stellar!
I wanted to ask, what's your take on recovery!au (unless you intend to cover it in your fic)? In the universe, where Jimmy happens, but the crew somehow survives. Everyone is traumatised, Anya is pregnant, Curly is disabled (could he even be able to afford disability aids? Pony express in no more, would they even be paid a sufficient compensation?). There is also a question of p*lice investigation (or whatever agency is responsible for space crimes), even more trauma... Man, it's bleak.
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I like them sad but for emotional and physical recovery reason rather than all the actual legal stuff that would ensue.
I like when Swansea relapsing is explored and Daisuke losing a little bit of his light. I am clearly a big supporter of Anya and Curly remaining close friend after but I think exploring the unhealthy dynamics of the trauma bond they’d develop should be played with way more. I think it’s a bit annoying when people are on the nose about Anya telling Curly he should’ve done more, especially when he’s struggling through recovery.
I feel like people really want her to be a character to rub salt into wounds, just to give her something cathartic, but it’s just OOC for me. It’s not a kindness thing but I don’t think she wants that sort of guilt to stay with him like that? He did not do what Jimmy did, he could’ve done more to stop it but she would not intentionally try to direct what she can never take out towards Jimmy at Curly. At least when they all make it out. This is not to say she doesn’t think he shouldn’t have any remorse but she understands that no one else could have foreseen Jimmy crashing the ship or getting that bad.
I like when it gets psychoanalytic in fics with the crew. Talk about Curly finally opening up on details on how he and Jimmy were friends, have the others realize how bad Jimmy was to even Curly, not a lot of people realize that they don’t know how Jimmy was to him. Have Anya be angry and snippy, have her worry she’s becoming like Jimmy even though she could never be like him, it’s that fear though, that she is owed that cathartic release and may take it out on others in some selfish subconscious desire to reclaim control for herself. Have her actualize-herself, is med school the only option? What does she want now? Does Swansea divorce his wife, give up on the life he created because he was just following the path of a good man, one he didn’t believe? Or does he stay and use the time he has left to make it something he believes in. How is Daisuke? Is he more mature or does he lose a little light? What are his new aspirations if any? His relationship with his parents?
Ultimately, I think a recover au should really focus on just them actually getting to know each other and filling themselves. So much of their interactions were likely based on coworker dynamics first. With that out the window they are now people who can’t really move on from each other but need to move on in life.
#ngl I’m a baby and do like recovery aus where jimmy dies and Curly is injured but not as badly#mainly because the theme of characters not getting what they desire both as like a reward and improper punishment hurt#like that should’ve been Jimmy in the damn cockpit like again wtf is wrong with curly cause he was just no fear or plan willing to risk his#life like again he would’ve eventually done the right thing and had to live with the guilt of not doing it sooner cause mans effectively#killed himslef with that stunt idk he’s an odd white fellow#I want Anya to be happiest in these aus because no one talks value the fear of becoming like ur abuser in a way like she’d be stuck on so#many ways he affected her and not know if she was like this before or he brought it out of her like would she feel like she gave curly to#him to abuse the bruises has to be obvious to a nurse did she really think they wouldn’t get into the med bay#was she being merciful to curly or not caring anymore like Jimmy wouldn’t? it’s not fair to her to have these thoughts#her attempts at doing the right thing were not misguided by selfish delusions but god she thinks they are for a bit Polle haunts her in a#different way as she realizes none of this was her burden and it shouldn’t be anyone else’s#idk post aus are fun but I just hate when people make it about punishing a character or overly pessimistic like damn get rid of that fix it#tag if nothing is resolved and everyon still wants to die 10 chapters in im trying to cry tears of relief i will be back for chapter 11#mouthwashing#ask#💀 anon
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With the heavy caveat that I know people put their heart and soul into this show, having watched 6 seasons of this shit now, The Dragon Prince is just this to me
I root for this show as if it was my child’s little league team playing against the Dodgers. Like, they have the spirit, certainly. Can they actually hit a fastball going over 100mph? I think not.
#ok tag rant kiddos get ready#tdp in the beginning was cute- competent- passable kids media that was genuinely entertaining if silly to watch#like yall it was endearing at first but now— i don’t think they know WHY things worked in avatar#and don’t get me wrong#it has SO much potential#i WANT it to be good#it THREATENS WITH A GUN to be good#and then it trips on itself#which is so sad because all the pieces are there- then they make the most BAFFLING plot/character decisions#i pity the crew making it because 1) bts coming outta there kinda sounds like hell#and 2) making the netflix-style release schedule show is so deeply challenging and detrimental to its shows#idk i’ll rant more coherently later but damn#i hate to see so much passion squandered or lessened by just a top-down lack of ability to organize and execute#am i 24 and watching this? yeah. but not as a mere fan: im peer reviewing#this is such a late 2010’s-2020’s show like damn#there’s just too much going on#but god dammit if there aren’t so many talented people OBVIOUSLY pouring their all into it#some of whom I’ve followed for a while!#i just wish the show had the chance to live up to its potential#and didnt parrot avatar’s flirtation with darker themes in children’s media without understanding why it worked or what lines you cant cross#also rayla and callum are like… kinda gross imo. but that’s just me I guess#this is my new game of thrones if they wanna name an episode where no one dies ‘the red wedding’
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U know especially for someone who hasn't consumed JJK in awhile, that's really accurate. I'd really love more details if u want but not only is that super accurate but man what a fucking fun character that would be. Idk even know who I'd want to see them interact with the most because I want to see them interact with everybody. The stuff like doing insane things to win arguments and caring so much about how they look is such a perfect way to combine their traits too
Little rushed comic I thought I could do of their interaction with Mr. Stanford Pines himself!
Further explaination under the cut :]
Some other fun things I thought of regarding Nopher that aren't specifically related to Ford/anyone:
Nopher (which I'll say is the fusion name), definitely will have a hard time getting used to the body first. If you think about it, it's just Sukuna & Itadori in Season 1 (which btw, IF my art block doesn't attack me, i MIGHT draw an interaction btwn them). Simply not pleasant LMAO. Ford doesn't really know what to do with it because Nopher isn't much of a threat for the moment. Another thing to note is that Nopher kinda just showed up to to Ford's doorstep (thanks Bill) and while Ford DOES immediately recognize Bill in Nopher, he does not recognize the physical body he inhabits. Ford doesn't know Nobara, and Nobara doesn't know Ford. Only connection they really have with each other is Bill. I feel like Ford would be VERY intrigued by how Nobara, who likely doesn't have much knowledge on Bill, is able to withstand brief periods of possession per say? I'd like to think that although Ford really doesn't want to do anything with Cipher At All, he can't really ignore the fact that he got a "random" person involved. Obviously Nopher's capable of pretty much the entire arsenal that Nobara & Bill have (except Bill's powers might be a teensy bit limited but they don't know that).
Don't ask me where they get the money from but they do enjoy clothes shopping/shopping in general for the trendy stuff. One of the very few things they "enjoy"/have in common.
Nobara within the mindspace once in awhile will get excited to see the things they have around Oregon, same with Bill when they meet the JJK gang in Tokyo.
Bill ABSOLUTELY gets really confused over the idea of being able to see Curses. The creatures released during Weirdmageddon couldn't leave the confinements of the town, so it's a shocker for Bill to find that there are actually other worldly beings residing in a place outside of Gravity Falls. Freely too! (If they aren't killed)
On the contrary though, Nobara will always see the weird stuff happening in Gravity Falls as a threat. She's been trained that way to never let her guard down and she's BRUTAL with it. I think during these times, Nopher's general "crazy" really starts to come out.
Regarding the past 2 bullet points, it's a just whole new struggle for Nopher: Nobara needs to continue protecting people from Curses that normal people can't even see, whereas Bill always wants to try and make allies with them. It's tough.
That's probably all I'm gonna come up with for now!! I do have a semi-large project I'd like to get started on & finish before the end of the week so story-building Nopher may not be prioritized for now. I do hope you enjoyed my ramble though, anon!
#gravity falls#jujutsu kaisen#oc#oc art#<- this is practically an oc of mine now... just not one thats fully developed at all LMAO#pigkiku#can we also disregard the fact how much “detail” i put in the first 2 panels like cmon it wasnt my intention to make ford look THAT good LO#btw anon if you do read these tags i need you to know that my OC making brain is covered in spider webs and dust#its been such a long time since ive ever attempted to even develop a backstory for an originally made character cuz all i do is design then#move on LMAO im tellin you now i got too many ocs with nice designs but almost NO story behind them#even more so ocs that are related to fandoms like Nopher might be my first one that's deeply connected to 2 fandoms at that#btw someone PLEASE for the love of god tell me why side profiles are so damn hard#i mean yeah okay i can draw hands. faces. clothes. blah blab but SIDEEESSS is where i draw the line#*ahem* looks like i have smth i need to work on later :]#im gonna kiss myself goodnight i just realized i put 4 fingers on the 3rd panel okok
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not to sound like a cunt but i swear like 2 jokes about something will get passed around and then a load of dipshits will start twisting that everyone is so Utterly Vacuous... god forbid if every post you post to your tumblr blog is not an indepth reflection of your thoughts and feelings. for your tumblr blog is reflective of your Inner mind and soul and you must summon yourself to the Calling of crafting the most perfect and eloquent analysis of the video essay that dropped 2 fucking days ago .
#egg.txt#this is about the hbomberguy shit soirry lol#like i see one or two jokes abt haha he took them out )#and then suddenly its like: THE WHOLE CONVERSATION IS JUST ABOUT THIS!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! YOU MISSED THE POINT#DUDE its like a 2-3 ppl on tumblr who made joke posts that got traction#not to mention yes: ive seen MANY ppl posting abt how sad and unfortunate this all is#but those posts arent gonna get traction bc theyre quiet fuckin reflections on a topic for now#as such yeah bro the tag is dominated by jokes that really arent that serious.#idk ugh sorry to be such a twist im just soooo sick of the vibe everyone brings of like:#i see lighthearted jokes in this tag. HOW DARE YOU ALL DO THIS. YOU ARE ALL SO FUCKING STUPID AND YOU TAKE NOTHING SERIOUS.#like yes its a serious topic but again .... TWO GOD DAMN DAYS AFTER THE VIDEO DROPPED NO LESS... the thing thats gonna ALWAYS float to the#top of a tag is quick jokes.#and besides its like if you WANT to have those conversations thats great??? like cultivate them bro??#WHY not cultivate them instead of dominating the conversation with how stupid everyone is and how above them you are?#idk man its not just abt this#its abt sooooo much with the fuckn culture some ppl foster on this website#its the exact same with sillier shit like media#where some ppl think that u reblogging jokes abt a show / sth is like THE ONLY THOUGHTS YOU HAVE ON SOMETHING#blah blah blah you have such a superficial opinion of the characters and so forth#like relax. i just prefer to have discussions abt things not on my blog#jesus wept some ppl are desperate to think everyone is stupid
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actually an insane time to have a story where the debate is essentially: is it okay to wipe out a civilisation because you perceived that a fraction of them pose a threat to you.
#this is not going in the tag#i was talking to someone about how brutal the beginning of episode three is#and how it really brings into focus how allegiance to character is often wrought by pov#you can't really watch the scene with cassida and not feel her horror and not understand what is going to happen#and the tragedy of the thing is that it looks like selena damns them to the inevitable#but she didn't#there was still a choice but that choice just got made already#i found the dichotomy of having character alignment and being confronted with so many npcs being like#but we're in the right of this#was so good#and that's what will feed into the main campaign#but actually looking at it from the surface#fuck no!#but then i am not convinced that turning it back on the gods is any better
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head in hands. trying to look through the yjtv tag. i KNOW the show has its shitty moments i KNOW it has moments where it kinda sucks and is Weird towards the source materials but PLEASEE.E PLEASEEEE SO MUCH OF THE TAG IS FULL OF HATE
#i dont even know if filtering out 'anti yjtv' would work because so many of the posts. arent even tagged with ANYTHING.#i promise i KNOW ITS FUCKING WEIRD ESPECIALLY IN SEASON ONE but let me read through my tags please. PLEASEEE. PLEASE#batman alone is 83 years old. every single fan has THEIR own canon and yeah some of them are 'worse' than others but thats OUR CANON DAMN I#as a kid i refused to touch most super hero media because i understood (somehow) that every show. despite featuring the same character-#didn't exist in the same universe or was a continuation. so it made me upset and i didnt watch it. god i should've kept up with that#because YES creators will change things and characters will be replaced and some of it will be BAD!! and we will hit them with a hammer but#that doesnt mean the WHOLE thing is bad. if you fuck up a screw in one place that doesnt mean you have to throw out the whole board.#yeah i couldnt think of a metaphor how could you tell#yjtv#mika-posts
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ANYWHO goodnight tumblr i'll be back on the art grind tomorrow i think 🙏
#haunted ecosystem#i'll take a burst of creativity in a different form than usual than the burnout slump i've been in for a few months#<- part of why my fandom stuff has taken a smidge of a backseat#dont get me wrong i am still very excited about my fandoms im just having fun off in oc hell (affectionate)#its nice to just be able to create and not really worry about perception. and also i feel Less bad about just throwing ocs into the wringer#((blame the fact i've been REALLY interested in whump recently and i have been. fixated. on one of my characters.))#and ALSO i've been! rekindling my flame for wtds. i've been putting off thinking about it since that fic got.#nothing bad happened? but it was still very devastating that somebody who i considered a friend from that fic just. evaporated.#but i'm gonna finish that fic for him :) even if it takes a year. even if it's the one thing i finish ever. it'll be wtds.#for where its gotten me and the fact its what got me out of my shell and is the reason i trust that my writing is good!#i used to really hate rereading my work. i catch flaws that are obvious to me. but that fic. i just think about how *good* the story is#that story means. a lot to me? as a person? like the main character is not a good person. but people care about him anyway.#and there are so many little things. so many sentiments. so much that is a love letter to people who've done bad but learnt to do better#because. god knows i wasnt a good person even just a few years ago. and maybe i see myself in him a bit.#he came from a place of paranoia and fear and pain. and maybe its a good thing that i've found it difficult to write him recently.#because god. i've been HAPPY. even with the rough moments and bad days. i've been happy. i mean fuck.#my birthday's what. ten days away? god damn man. i'm going to be 18. that's an achievement.#i want to look the kid who thought it was over at half my age and tell him we fucking made it. and there are more years to come.#there's a life ahead. even if it's going to be a bitch. even if it's going to be tough. there's love in your heart and people who care and#you're going to fucking live and you're going to feel better one day. you have people to meet properly and thank and cherish.#because for every day it feel like the world's ending there are a dozen more where the sun shines just the right way through the rain#and you can't help but smile because it's just so god damn beautiful.#and fuck it. you're sick. your hands hurt and your legs don't work right. and it's tough sometimes. but you have people who understand.#you have people who honest to god love you for who you are and appreciate your company. and 18 is the first step.#you've spent half your life unlearning things and you've spent half your life relearning how to be what YOU want to be#and if you're a mediocre artist and passionate writer then you'll be fucking great at that. taking the time to learn when it strikes you.#and maybe this is for me. but its also for anybody reading it too. please god if there's one thing you take from this let it be that#somebody out there cares. *I* care. god i care. even if we've never spoken proper i care about you.#i practically have a list of everybody i see in my inbox. i love seeing familiar names show up. i.#i dont know how to neatly wrap up this tag ramble. but. i am so damn full of love it hurts sometimes. its scary to be happy but thats ok!
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