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PURE CONSCIOUSNESS 101
what exactly IS pure consciousness? well its a state of consciousness where youâre detached from the 3D and mainly aware of the 4D. your 4D is anything that is within you. (imagination, inner conversations, playing a song in your head..etc etc) THAT is your 4D, you can induce pure consciousness at any time of the day and absolutely anywhere. most people prefer to induce pure consciousness at night because thats when the body becomes more relaxed in preparation for sleep. you can always set the intention to wake up in pure consciousness, fall asleep and then lucid dream and THEN induce pure consciousness or sleep paralysis (i donât really recommend sleep paralysis) but hey, do what makes you comfortable. you may think that its too good to be true but its not, everyone has the ability to induce pure consciousness because its simply a meditative process. the traditional way people induce pure consciousness on TUMBLR is usually by closing your eyes and repeating the phrases âI AMâ or âI am in the void stateâ or âi am pure consciousnessâ it doesnât matter what affirmation you use just as long as its the intention of inducing it. you cannot fail this because it is impossible. news flash.. you induce pure consciousness as soon as you fall asleep every night.
you cannot force pure consciousness thats a thing most of you guys do, you wanna rush because you desperately wanna show your haters wrong. stop that, you donât force yourself to sleep right? you donât force yourself to breathe.. so stop trying to force pure consciousness. that will only keep you in the awake state. (awake state being you reading this right now and everything you see around you).
whats also common when people wanna induce pure consciousness is they wonder when theyâll start getting symptoms (floaty feeling, tingling, senses going out) etc, guys thatâs simply just your brain checking to see if youâre awake, one of the reasons you âtap outâ of pure consciousness was because you placed your awareness back on your body. as soon as your senses go out then youâre there. theres no âbut i got floaty feelings and then i affirmed and i got nothingâ well then you were not pure consciousness. and then theres your fear that comes into play whenever inducing pure consciousness.
youâre scared of failing, (you literally canât fail a mediative state this isnât rocket science) youâre panicking because you swore to yourself you would induce pure consciousness over the break and live your dream life and then you didnât. *loud heavy sigh* you canât fail this guys, its okay to be worried but this isnât something that just can never not work for you.
now lets see pure consciousness from a law of an assumption pov, as we all know our best friend is law of assumption, works instantly and effectively. all you have to do is assume. âwell ayami how do i assume?â. my response would be that the sky is glittery with magical rainbows. you would reply with âno its notâ i would reply âyes it isâ 1 second later the sky is glittery and has magical rainbows. why? because it was my assumption. i didnât need any stupid proof, it was my assumption so it had no choice to happen. now if you told me âugh im such a master at inducing pure consciousnessâ and i said âno you arenâtâ you are NOT going to say âoh youâre right im notâ YOU ARE GOING TO SAY âum whatâre you talking about yes i am? youâre just jealous i can induce it instantly and effortlesslyâ. okay now bam you can instantly and effortlessly induce pure consciousness whenever you want because thats your assumption and you stood firm to it no matter what was said or shown to you. starting NOW you will assume that youâre a master at inducing pure consciousness and you will stand firm in that state no matter what the hell is shown.
now go induce pure consciousness.
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casts, broken arms, & snuggles
alexia putellas x reader - part of the mila verse :)
an accident at the park pulls alexia from training and to the hospital, where she finds both her girls not doing their best. everyone is very overwhelmed with their feelings, and maybe don't handle it the way they should. basically, protective panicked alexia and insecure reader. a bit of angst / injuries / concussions symptoms, mostly fluff.
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You knew Alexia would panic. There wasnât much you could do about that. Especially not when the only way you had to reach her was through the staff. It was somewhat of a bad omen within the team, having a staff member walk outside with a phone call for you. It only happened in an emergency, and unfortunately, this definitely counted as an emergency. When one of the assistant coaches, Xavi, answered the phone, he seemed to be on the same page as you.Â
âTry to act calm, otherwise sheâll just freak out.âÂ
âI am not sure there is much I can do to avoid her having a nervous breakdown.â Xavi stated. You heard him call Alexia over, and tried to shush the very upset almost 3 year old in your arms.Â
âAmor, what is wrong?âAlexia asked, practically tearing the phone out of Xaviâs hand as soon as she heard who was calling.Â
âEverything is fine, okay? There was just a little accident.â You began, speaking in a soothing, calming tone, the same one youâd been using on the baby.Â
âWhat kind of accident?âÂ
âMeels fell at the park-âÂ
âÂĄAY DIOS MIO!â Alexia shouted. You resisted the urge to roll your eyes.Â
âAle, breathe. She fell off the slide and I think her arm might be broken. She wonât let me touch it and she hasnât stopped crying.â
âBroken?!â Alexia squeaked.Â
âOw.â Mila whimpered, frowning unhappily at her arm from where she sat in your lap. âHurts, Mama.âÂ
âI know, baby.â You told her. âAle, the ambulance is here to take us to the hospital do you-âÂ
âWhat were you doing? Were you not watching her? Why weren't you watching her, why did she fall?â Alexia snapped.Â
You bit back the retort you had ready, knowing this was just a result of her fear for Mila. You werenât happy with what sheâd said, but that could be dealt with later. âWeâre leaving now for the hospital. Meet us there.â You said coldly, before hanging up the phone without saying anything else. Alright, you were pretty upset, and you let it show. You had already been beating yourself up for what had happened, thinking the things that Alexia had said.Â
As you and Mila got loaded into the ambulance, you realized you hadnât mentioned something important to your wife. No doubt, she was hauling ass to the hospital, so sheâd find out soon enough.
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Alexia burst into the room in a flutter of chaos, throwing the curtain aside and looking around frantically. Mila was sitting in your lap, holding her arm awkwardly away from her body, while you ran your fingers through her wavy brown hair and tried to keep her calm. Both of you looked at Alexia when she walked in, her panic clear on her face. She was sweaty, still in her training kit, and her eyes were only on her daughter.
âMila, mi bebĂ©,â she said gently, moving closer to the bed.Â
âMami!â Mila cried, a pout on her small face, holding her arm out for Alexia to see. She squirmed in your lap, trying to get closer to your wife, but you both made sure she stayed carefully where she was.Â
âPobrecita,â Alexia murmured, sitting on the edge of the bed and pressing repeated kisses to her babyâs head. She stared hard at Milaâs already swollen arm, trying to stifle her own tears. You werenât pleased with Alexia, but you werenât particularly upset that she hadnât even glanced at you, her attention fully on Mila. âWhat happened?âÂ
Milaâs voice wobbled as she began to talk, reaching out with her good hand to grip onto a few of Alexiaâs fingers.. âFell! Off the slide. Mama tried to catch me, but now she has an ouchie too.âÂ
Alexiaâs eyes flew to you, seeing for the first time the towel and large ice pack pressed to the back of your head. Her heart sank. She knew before that she would have to apologize for what she had said, and now she knew sheâd have to do even more groveling. Especially if the hurt look on your face was any indication.Â
âAmor,â she sighed, reaching for your hand. You pulled it away, refusing to make eye contact with her.Â
âIâm fine.â You dismissed. âMilaâs got a basic fracture, just a month or so in a cast to fix it. Theyâll be in to put it on soon.âÂ
âMama needs stitches.â Mila whispered conspiratorially to her Mami.Â
Alexiaâs face grew, somehow, even more upset. âWhat happened, mi amor?âÂ
Still avoiding her eyes, you spoke quietly. âI was going to catch her at the bottom of the slide, but she stood up at the top and fell off the side.âÂ
âAnd your head?â Alexia asked, leaning closer to try and inspect your injury. Mila looked up at you with concern, her expression matching her Mamiâs almost exactly. Where Alexiaâs fingers were gentle as they cradled your head, Milaâs were clumsy and clunky as she tried to run her fingers through your hair. It was something you did to make her feel better, and she thought that maybe it would make your frown go away, too.Â
âI tried to catch her in time, but I slipped and hit my head on the edge of the slide. And I didnât really catch her.â You admitted, slightly embarrassed at that fact. Alexia would have caught Mila, you were sure.Â
âItâs okay, Mama, you tried your best!â Mila said encouragingly, parroting back something you and Alexia must have told her a hundred times. Her arm temporarily forgotten, Mila shifted so she could lean up and press a kiss to your cheek, before she snuggled closer to your chest.Â
Your wifeâs eyes were stuck on your daughter, practically turning into hearts as she took in how sweet and caring her baby was. You couldnât blame her; you felt the same. That you had created such a perfect little person would never cease to amaze you.Â
âThank you, my baby.â You mumbled, wincing slightly as you shifted, trying to keep Milaâs arm in a safe position. Every movement of your upper body sent waves of pain through your head, but you didnât want Mila to know how upset you were.Â
âMi amor, I-â
Whatever Alexia was about to say was cut off completely as the doctor entered the room, introducing herself to your wife, and beginning to talk Mila through the process of getting the cast put on. There were some tears, wiped away quickly by her Mami, as they began to wrap up her arm.Â
Once the nurses had taken over, and began adding the colored plaster to the cast, and Mila was suitably distracted, the doctor regarded you.Â
âAlright, letâs get that head wound taken care of.â She said kindly, motioning you over to a chair in the corner of the room. She stood by your head, beginning to clean the wound and prepare to stitch it up.
You shut your eyes tightly, trying to keep your wincing to a minimum. Alexia watched on worriedly from her spot next to Mila, knowing how much you hated needles. The midfielder so wanted to comfort you through this, but she also didnât want to leave Mila alone if she was still upset. So, she did what youâd spent many years helping her do, and communicated.Â
âMilabear? Can I go hold your Mamaâs hand while she gets her stitches?â She whispered, heart melting at how Mila looked over at you, and nodded enthusiastically.Â
âGo help Mama.â She said bravely, feeling much better now that she had her red cast on her arm, and that the nurse had given her some goldfish. Mila munched away happily, her eyes trained on the TV hanging on the wall, and Alexia had never been more grateful for having such an independent and resilient child than she was in that moment.Â
Your eyes were still shut, a few tears escaping as you tried very hard to act like the adult you were. You startled a bit when Alexia crouched in front of you and took your hand. Opening your eyes, you tried to breathe deeply, feeling the doctor begin to thread the needle through the skin of your scalp. A small, rather pathetic whimper fell from your lips, and Alexia brought your hand to her lips, pressing kisses to the back of it. Her adoring gaze only made more tears fall, and you felt completely ridiculous.Â
âYou are okay, amor. It will be over soon.âÂ
Every tear that fell was gently swiped away by your wife. The doctor worked as carefully as she could, but there were still tugs on your skin that had shivers running down your spine, and your stomach churning. There was only so much Alexia could do to help, but luckily, it wasnât a very large wound, and the doctor was done within a few minutes, cutting the excess thread and reaching for a white bandage. She wrapped that around your head, holding a piece of gauze in place, which really felt like overkill.Â
âOkay, done.â The doctor announced, removing her gloves and stepping away from your chair. Alexiaâs earlier words forgotten, you stood shakily to your feet, allowing yourself to fall into your wifeâs open arms.Â
âYou did so good.â She whispered, smiling despite herself at the bandage wrapped around your head. You looked adorable, frowning up at her with tears in your eyes, looking somewhat like a disgruntled mummy.Â
âMama?â Mila called from her spot on the bed.Â
You wiped at your eyes quickly, plastering a smile on your face as you walked over to your daughter. âHi Meels.âÂ
âAll better, Mama?â She asked, reaching both of her arms out for you to pick her up, which you did easily.
âAll better.â You confirmed, holding her as close as you could.Â
âAlmost all better.â The doctor smiled, turning to your wife. âShe has a mild concussion with the impact on the ground, so sheâs going to need to take it easy for a few days. I am assuming you know concussion protocol, Ms. Putellas?âÂ
âYes, yes of course.â Alexia said, her eyes squinting with concern as she studied you. âI will take good care of her.âÂ
âMe too!â Mila added, squirming in your hold until she could loop her arms around Alexiaâs neck and shift over into her arms.Â
Your wife very hesitantly pulled you into her as the doctor left the room. You tilted your head to make eye contact with her, still with a small frown on your face. It was clear that you were still upset with your wife, but the determination in her eyes told you sheïżœïżœd do anything to fix it.Â
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Apparently, anything consisted of making you sit on the couch next to Mila, holding an ice pack to your head, and not daring to move. Your wife went from room to room, collecting anything she had determined you or Mila might need. It was endearing, but also somewhat frustrating when sheâd appear to hand you something, and go flitting off before you could just ask her for what you really wanted: for her to sit on the couch with the two of you, and relax.Â
Stressed Alexia made you stressed, but you knew this was just how she was coping with what had happened today. Alexia always held a lot of guilt for the little moments she missed while at work; any milestone that Mila achieved while Alexia wasnât around was downright painful for your wife. She was a protective person, and you knew she was even more bothered because both you and Mila were hurt, and she hadnât been there to help either of you.Â
You and Mila sat side by side, heads moving back and forth like you were watching a tennis match. In fact, you were just watching Alexia disappear and reappear with Milaâs favorite toy, a blanket, your favorite sweatshirt, a snack, some water, more ice, more painkillers and 6 different pillows for Mila to rest her cast on. You were exhausted just watching her.Â
She appeared back in the living room like a ghost the minute you stood up, her hands grabbing onto your shoulders and gently pushing you back down onto the couch.Â
âAle, just let me-â
âNo! Sit.â Alexia insisted, ignoring the small giggle from her daughter.Â
You rolled your eyes, shrugging out from under her grip and standing anyway. âAlexia, I have to go to the bathroom. You canât do that for me.âÂ
Alexia had the decency to blush, at least. âOkay. Iâll walk you there.â She decided, grabbing your hand and beginning to escort you to the bathroom. Honestly.Â
Always her motherâs shadow, Mila got up too, and grabbed your other hand. âMami I can-â
âNo. Sit!â Alexia repeated, though with a small smile as she regarded her daughter. âMila, you stay there. I can take care of everything.âÂ
âBut Mami-â
âNo! I can help Mama, you need to rest.â Your wife said, ignoring the amused look you were giving her, too focused on the attitude suddenly radiating off your daughter.Â
âMami. I have to go potty too.â Mila said exasperatedly. Ale blushed further, nodding as she allowed Mila to accompany you both towards the bathroom. You turned your snort of laughter into a fake cough, knowing that Alexia could be sensitive to being teased about her over protectiveness. And, well⊠it seemed Mila was holding her own in showing her Mami how ridiculous she was being.Â
Once youâd arrived at the bathroom door, which took significantly longer than was necessary due to your wife and her mini-me insisting on walking slowly so as to not aggravate your head wound. You indulged them, only putting your foot down when both of them began to follow you into the bathroom.Â
âNo. Enough. I can do this myself.â You sighed, looking between both Alexia and Milaâs skeptical expressions.Â
âBut what if-â
âMama, I can-â
You interrupted both of them by shutting the door and letting out a deep sigh. If you didnât have a scar across your abdomen that told you that youâd birthed Mila, youâd be sure she was Alexiaâs genetic clone.Â
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The rest of the night consisted of overwhelming amounts of hovering, from your wife and daughter both. Alexia took turns fussing over you, and fussing over Mila, until you were sure you were going to make her sleep on the couch or something, before she suggested waking you up every 20 minutes and performing a cognitive test.Â
Alexia had just barely put Mila down in her toddler bed when she heard you call for her. There was urgency in your voice, but it was still obvious that you were trying to keep your voice down for Milaâs benefit. It had been hard enough to get the toddler to sleep; she had become suddenly very tearful once it was time for bed, because her favorite pajama shirt didnât fit over her cast. It had taken one of Alexiaâs t-shirts, around 45 minutes of cuddles, and 4 different stories, for her to finally settle.Â
âAlexia,â you whisper yelled, shutting your eyes as the dizziness got worse. You heard Alexia rush down the hall towards you and willed yourself to hold on just a moment longer.Â
Alexia ran into the room, seeing you with your head in your hands, sitting up in the bed. âWhat is it, amor?âÂ
âIâm gonna be sick,â you managed, pressing a hand to your mouth as Alexia sprung into action.Â
âOkay, okay, just hold on one second.âÂ
Just in time, Alexia thrust the bedroom trash can in front of you. You were sick, retching into the trash can uncomfortably. Your wife pulled your hair back, being careful to not jostle the skin around your stitches, tying it into a very loose bun. She rubbed your back soothingly, pressing kisses into the side of your head until you were done.Â
âOh, amor, I am so sorry.â She murmured, taking the trash can from you once you were done. She was going to take it out of the room, but then she noticed the tears in your eyes, and decided that could wait until later.Â
You curled into her when she sat by your legs and pulled you into her arms. Within a second, you were sobbing brokenly into her shirt, incapable of resisting how comforted you felt when she held you.Â
Alexia whispered soft reassurances into your hair, beginning to think you were upset about more than just feeling so unwell. âAmor, is it your head? Or something else?âÂ
You shook your head weakly into her chest, sucking in a few breaths before you tried to respond. âMeels broke her arm and itâs all my fault.â You said miserably.Â
âNo no no, do not say that. It was not your fault, you did the best you could.â Alexia rushed to make you feel better, but thatâs all it felt like; something she was saying just to make you feel better.
âYou would have caught her.âÂ
Alexiaâs chest squeezed uncomfortably, knowing that she was partially at fault for how guilty you felt right now. Even if what sheâd said had been in the heat of the moment, and it was just a reflection of how upset she was, of course youâd taken it to heart.Â
âIt was an accident, mi amor. It is no oneâs fault. Sometimes kids fall, sometimes they get hurt. It happens.â
âBut Ale, it wouldnât have happened if you had been with her. Youâre just⊠so much better at this than I am.â You mumbled, refusing to untuck your face from Alexiaâs shirt, even as she tried to get you to.Â
âThat is so not true.â Alexia insisted. âYou cracked your head open trying to make sure Mila didnât get hurt. That is not something a bad mother does.âÂ
You ignored her logic, wiping a tear away with that back of your hand. âYou were right earlier. I should have been watching closer.â
Alexia shook her head again. âNo. I was-â
âYou blamed me then, whatâs changed?â You snapped, not quite sure where all of these negative emotions were coming from, or why your mood was changing at the drop of a hat. Sad and guilty one second, angry the next. It wasnât fair to Alexia, who was just trying to make you feel better, but there wasnât any room for rationality in your jumbled head.Â
Luckily, your wife didnât seem to take your words or your tone personally. Instead, she tucked a piece of hair back behind your ear and softly kissed your forehead, showing more patience than you were sure you deserved.
âI donât blame you. I was terrified earlier, but that is no excuse. This was not your fault and Iâm sorry I made you feel like it was. So sorry, amor.â Her voice was sweet and you could feel how sincere she was, just from the way her hand gently cradled your cheek.Â
Nodding shakily, you took a deep breath, suddenly feeling more than a little exhausted. âIâm sorry, Ale, I just-â
Alexia cut you off, though, placing her index finger over your lips. She looked stern again, like she had before when she was making sure you stayed on the couch and didnât move. âItâs okay. No apologies. You are overwhelmed and hurt and exhausted. You need rest, we can talk about this more tomorrow if we need to.âÂ
You nodded your agreement, shifting uncomfortably as you glared down at your pillows. Your head absolutely throbbed, and you hadnât even tried to rest it on the pillow yet.Â
âI donât know how Iâm gonna sleep.â You mumbled, brow furrowing in confusion when Alexia smiled cheekily at you.
âI do!â She said enthusiastically, quickly tucking herself under the covers and pulling you to lay on her chest. Your head was completely safe from any contact with anything, and you found so much peace in the steady thump of Alexiaâs heartbeat in your ear.Â
She was a miracle worker, Alexia. Just when you thought you were going to explode with the amount of thoughts swirling around in your head, she quieted your brain with a few words and a few kisses.Â
Unfortunately, as comfortable as you were, sleep did not seem to be in the cards for either of you. At least, not yet. No sooner than your eyes had fallen shut, and Alexia had settled comfortably into the pillows did you both hear the creak of Milaâs door opening.Â
You exchanged a glance with your wife, keeping completely silent, knowing that sometimes Mila would come check on you both during the night, before heading back to her room. You heard her little steps padding down the hall, a small gasp, and then a loud thump.Â
Alexia was out of bed before Mila could even cry out. âStay there!â She threw over her shoulder, causing you to sit back down on the bed with a grumble. You were glad Alexia hadnât turned the light off earlier, as she sprinted carelessly out of the room towards your daughter.Â
âMama!â Mila sobbed, her little voice breaking your heart. She wanted you, and it took everything in you to not go to her in that moment, knowing that Alexia would bring her to you.Â
âItâs okay, cariño, Iâm here.â Alexia soothed, Milaâs cries becoming muffled by her Mamiâs shirt.Â
Still, you could make out her next words very clearly. âI want Mama,â Mila demanded.Â
Alexia just shushed her, a few seconds passing before they both appeared in the doorway. Milaâs face was red and stained with tears, her cast cradled to her chest. She reached for you as soon as she saw you, and Alexia wasted no time in bringing her over.Â
âCareful, Milabear,â she reminded softly, handing the toddler over to you. Mila curled up against your chest, and you rubbed her back soothingly, exchanging a worried glance with your wife.Â
Mila was a rough and tumble kid; she fell often, and really only cried if she was actually hurt. Sometimes, not even then. She was like her Mami in that way, so her inconsolable tears now terrified you.Â
âI think she tripped over my shirt.â Alexia murmured, running her hands through her daughterâs hair. Dressed in one of Alexiaâs old warm up shirts, Mila surely had tripped over the hem of it. You could see this information really sinking into your wifeâs head, as she began to gnaw on her bottom lip, worry and guilt clouding her face. Â
âBaby, did you trip?â You asked, easing Mila away from your body so you could get a good look at her face. She nodded, looking between you and your wife, her bottom lip jutting out adorably.Â
âWoke up and my arm hurt, and I wanted to sleep in here but I couldnât see and I fell.â Mila said. âMamaâs shirt is too big.â She continued forlornly, as if just now realizing this piece of information.Â
Alexia looked truly distressed, opening her mouth to apologize for allowing Mila to sleep in her shirt, even though you knew the toddler had cried and cried until Alexia had finally given in to what she wanted, if only so she could sleep. You spoke before Alexia could, though, pushing a lock of hair out of your babyâs face.Â
âDid you bump your arm when you fell?â You asked. Mila nodded, sniffling sadly. âDoes it hurt a lot more or just a little bit more?âÂ
âA lot at first. Just a little bit now.â Mila said bravely, peeking at her Mami out of the corner of her eye. She loved to act tough, your little girl, but she was only three, and broken bones hurt.Â
Alexia still hovered on your side of the bed, looking like she wanted to cry.Â
âAlright, Mami will go get you some ice, and you can sleep in here with us tonight. Deal?âÂ
Mila nodded, flopping forward again to rest on your chest. The fact that her mood didnât even really lift when you told her she could sleep with the two of you told you that she was really hurting.Â
Without a word, only a soft kiss placed on Milaâs forehead, Alexia headed for the freezer. She walked calmly out of the room, but both you and Mila heard the unmistakable sound of her running her way to the kitchen, and running back.Â
âMamiâs running.â Mila said, a small smile adorning her face. You laughed quietly, doing your best to keep your smile in check as Alexia slowed to a walk just before walking through the bedroom door, acting as though sheâd walked the whole way.Â
The blonde had returned with the biggest ice pack you had, the one that sheâd used on her knee. She wrapped it meticulously around Milaâs arm, handed her a small sippy cup [of what looked suspiciously like juice, even though Mila was only supposed to have water this late at night], and some childrenâs pain medicine.Â
It was only when Alexia slipped back into bed that she spoke, addressing her daughter with a deep sadness in her voice. âIâm sorry about your shirt, cariño, I shouldnât have let you wear it.âÂ
Mila gave her a strange look, scooting out of your lap to lay directly on top of your wife. Her little fingers grabbed onto her Mamiâs shirt, even the oneâs restrained by her cast twisting into the fabric. âItâs okay, Mami. Was an accident.âÂ
You smiled at your girls, watching Alexiaâs face melt from guilt into adoration as she leaned down to kiss all over Milaâs face. Your daughter giggled, and your heart soared at the sound, more than happy that she had stopped crying and cheered up.Â
Mila settled back down against her Mami, reaching one hand out to latch onto your shirt and attempt to pull you closer. âMama, closer.â She complained, huffing when you didnât budge.Â
Alexia frowned, worried you would put yourself into an uncomfortable position with your head in order to make Mila happy, but luckily, your daughter seemed to have the same thought.Â
âNot on your back Mama! You gotta lay on your front. Here, lay on Mami.â Mila offered, whacking Alexia in the face with her cast as she struggled to move over. You snorted at the disgruntled look on your wifeâs face, ignoring the fake glare she sent back your way.
It took some maneuvering from everyone involved before Mila was curled up against one side of Alexiaâs chest, and you were resting with your cheek pressed into on the other side. Only once you and Mila were both comfy did Alexia kiss Mila on the forehead, and you chastly on the lips.Â
And it was only when Mila had drifted off, soft puffs of air leaving her as she gripped onto both you and your wife, that you relaxed. Alexia gave you a knowing smile, well aware that your daughter's insistence that you hold her when sheâd gotten hurt, and that you be included in the bedtime snuggles, had put to rest your worries that youâd failed her today.Â
It all evened out, in parenthood. You couldnât forget that. Tomorrow, when Alexia would turn away for a split second too long during breakfast and Mila would end up with syrup in her hair, youâd be even more sure of that. Mistakes didnât change how much you or Alexia loved Mila, or how much she loved both of you.Â
Mila didnât keep score. She just loved you both, and that was that.Â
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this has been in my drafts for genuienly several months so i apologize if it doesn't feel very cohesive. hope you enjoy anyway đđ«¶đ» thanks for reading đ«Ąđ„°
#woso x reader#woso imagine#woso one shot#woso fanfics#alexia putellas x reader#alexia putellas imagine
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Period Cramps
Requested By: @olivia-willo-w
Summary: The brothers find out (thanks to Satan) what a period is and try to help you through yours. The Seven Demon Brothers x Reader Word Count: 2,257
Periods are something that has become so normalized in the human world.Â
It's a natural thing that happens to women and it shouldnât be something to be embarrassed about.
But, in the Devildom, the only other human you had was a male.Â
There was no one down there who would understand the process your body goes through once a month.
And that made it hard to talk about it.
You figured it would just be easier to keep them in the dark rather than try and explain it.
But, sometimes when you're on your period, it had a mind of its own.
You were having a bad cramp while at dinner with the brothers and you did your best to hide your pain.
But, Satan could tell you were in pain and he was worried about you. Not to mention, he couldnât pass up an opportunity to show his brothers how smart he was.
See, Satan was your resident human expert.
When he found out that a human was coming to live with him and his brothers, he read every book he could find about humans and when he was done with those, he grabbed all of the specific books about females.
He wanted to know everything he could before you got down there.
So, when you were having your period in the Devildom, Satan immediately knew what was happening and was well-versed in the subject.
You had all of the tell-tale signs - mood swings, food cravings, headaches, bloating.
Whatever symptom you had, it pointed to it being your time of the month.
There was a conversation already going on amongst his brothers, but Satan ignored it in favor of asking you, âAre you on your period?â
Everyone froze in place at Satanâs question and your face burned a bright red as all of the attention was on you. Who just asks a personal question like that?!
Satan didnât mean any disrespect. The way it was presented to him in the books was as a natural, common thing that all women go through. So he didnât you would have any reason to be embarrassed about it.
And maybe if he had approached you about it on his own, things would have been different. But he just blurted the question outâŠin front of everyoneâŠin the middle of dinner.
Before you could even respond, Mammon asked, âWhatâs a period?â And your cheeks felt even hotter as you began to slowly sink down in your chair, wishing you could disappear from this conversation.
âYou donât know?â Asmo asked with a glint in his eyes. Of course, the Avatar of Lust would know what a period is. Considering the amount of human women he had probably met you were sure he was as knowledgeable as Satan was about it.
But there was no way the fourth-born would allow his little brother to take his thunder. âAllow me to explain,â Satan stated.
And for the next few torturous minutes, you had to uncomfortably sit there as Satan explained what a period was in vivid detail.
You watched the brothersâ faces go through a whirlwind of reactions until they were all left sitting there speechless and somewhat bothered.
âWell?â Luciferâs question broke the silence and you turned to face the eldest. He was making eye contact with you and he continued to ask, âAre you?â
âIs that why you look like youâre in pain?â Belphie asked. âWait, do periods hurt?â Beel questioned in response.
âDo all female normies go through that?â Levi questioned, his cheeks threatening to burn as bright as yours at the question.
Your cramps werenât backing down and you were feeling more than overwhelmed at the sudden bombardment and soon everything felt like it was too much.
âI think Iâll skip dinner tonight,â you stated plainly before abruptly getting up from the table and making your way to the bedroom.
The brothers watched you leave, confused and worried about you. Was it something they said? Or was it because you werenât feeling well?
Lucifer was in a state of surprise when you left the dining room table.
He knew about periods, and he knew it was something female humans experienced.
But, it wasnât something he had prepared for.
In all of the things that he had done and gathered to ensure you would have everything you need for your stay in the Devildom, that had somehow slipped his mind.
It took him a moment to gather his bearings before going to check on you.
He showed up to your room with a glass of water and medicine to help with your cramps.
He gave you a small smile when you gratefully took the medicine and allowed him in your room.
He looked a little lost, unsure of how exactly to help you. But, if you tell him what you need, he will move heaven and earth to make sure you get it.
You were his responsibility after all. He couldnât disappoint Diavolo by allowing you to be in pain. And he couldnât trust his brothers to do a good enough job.
Or maybe - just maybe - he wanted to be the one who took care of you.
Either way, he wonât leave your side for the rest of the night, and if you show any sign of discomfort, heâll find a way to soothe you.
Mammon was still freaking out about all of the information he had obtained that night.
Periods sounded awful and he couldnât believe that it was something that happened to female humans - every month.
Mammon was trying to process everything when you left the table and thatâs when his mind went from his own train of thought to you.
From all of the facts he was told, one stood out more than the others - you were in pain.
And Mammon was supposed to protect you, so he couldnât have that.
He excused himself from the dinner table as well before quickly doing a search on his D.D.D. to find out ways to help you.
About a half an hour later, Mammon showed up at your bedroom door, his arms full of miscellaneous objects.
He had everything he could think of - a heating pad, pain medicine, chocolate, and your favorite snacks.
He wasnât sure what out of those items would help, but he hoped at least one of them would.
He also offered to stay in your room that night and watch a movie with you, which inevitably ended in you falling asleep in his arms, while he held you close.
Mammon is just happy that you felt safe enough with him to let him help you when youâre in this vulnerable stage.
It is a known fact that Levi panics in intense situations.
And you abruptly leaving the dinner table was something he would classify as an intense situation.
He didn't necessarily understand all of the intricacies of your period, but he did know that he wanted to help.
Levi didn't have any idea where to start, so he went to his default of bringing videogames and DVDs to your room.
You bit back a chuckle as you opened the door and saw Levi struggling to hold everything he brought.
You let him inside, grateful of the fact that he was trying and Levi quickly got to work setting up yours and his favorite game.
The fun that you were having with Levi was enough to distract you from the pain of your period cramps.
But that didn't stop him from checking in - quite often - and asking if you were alright.
Levi offered to get you food, something to drink, medicine - anything you would need.
And if you did ask him for something, he moved faster than you'd ever seen to get it back to you promptly.
He may not be an expert in what was going on with you, but he would do just as good of a job as any of the others when it came to comforting you.
As stated, Satan was an expert on everything to do with your period before you even got it.
He didn't need to search anything up or refer to his books.
He figured this would happen sooner rather than later and he was prepared for it.
Like Mammon, Satan gets everything you need. But, unlike Mammon, itâs all already prepared in an emergency kit that heâs kept in his room.
Satan grabbed the bag and went to your room in a matter of moments.
When you opened the door, Satan offered you a brief apology about the events that occurred at dinner. He felt guilty about putting you on the spot like that.
But, he offered to make it up to you by helping relieve your pain.
When you allowed him in, Satan was as strict as a doctor, almost in an overbearing way.
He gave you the medicine to take and instructed you to lay in a way that allowed for the ideal positioning of the heating pad.
And even if it wasnât the way you wanted to lay, when the heating pad started working, you were thankful for Satanâs expertise.
He stayed with you for the rest of the night, sitting next to you and gently running his fingers through your hair as he read one of your favorite books to you.
It ends up being much more comforting than you would have expected from the Avatar of Wrath.
Asmo may not be like Satan or Lucifer in knowing all about a human period.
But he has had his fair share of experience with it.
And heâs a pro at rest and relaxation.
Asmo let you calm down in your room for a little bit while he set things up in own room.Â
He was sure you were upset at all of them for bombarding you at dinner like that.
But, he was hoping that you would let him help you anyway.
When he was ready, he asked you to join him in his room, and after promising he wouldnât try anything risque, you agreed to go.
When you got to his room, you were met with an overwhelming aroma of essential oils and the sound of soft music playing.
The lights were dimmed so that the room was bright enough to see, but dark enough to relax.
Under normal circumstances, you would have assumed that Asmo was trying to come on to you, but he had promised he just wanted to help.
He led you to his bed and asked for permission to give you a massage.
Being the Avatar of Lust, Asmoâs knows the human body very well, and he knew every technique and every spot that needed to relax, and you felt all of your tension release and your cramps subside.
Asmo had a small smile on his face as you slowly drifted off after feeling relaxed enough.
He would always be there to help pamper you whenever you needed it.
Beel was a bit confused when you left the table.
He didnât really understand the gravity of the situation.Â
And so, playing to his kind and innocent nature, Beel thought something was wrong with the dinner.
He quietly finished the food on his plate before disappearing from the House of Lamentation.Â
When he came back, he went directly to your room with bags full of all of your favorite food. No one should skip dinner.
You had to keep yourself from laughing as Beel explained why he brought all of your favorite food and you invited him in to share the food with you.
Beel noticed the pained expression you flashed every so often and when you told him about your period cramps and how that was the reason you left dinner early, Beel wanted to do everything he could to help.
He immediately engulfed you into his arms, holding you tightly into him as his hands rubbed soothing circles onto your back.
You felt your pain slowly going away as Beelâs body warmth underneath you acted as a heating pad and his hands relieved any tension you were holding.
He might not know exactly how to help you, but heâs just as effective in soothing your cramps nonetheless.
Belphie's help almost always came with a witty remark or some teasing no matter who you were or what the situation was.
But, for this particular situation, Belphie tried to be on his best behavior.
From what he heard, this was a hard time for you and he was certain the wrong remark would set you off.
So, he played especially nice.
He came to your room and asked you if there was anything he could do to help.
When you let him in, he asked a few questions about your period and got you a few things.
But, if that doesn't help, Belphie will escalate things.
When most people think of the Avatar of Sloth, they only think about him sleeping a lot.
They don't often recognize the power he had over other people's sleep.
And if you continue to be in pain throughout the night, Belphie will reach a point where he believes sleep is the only way to help you.
And it will be the best sleep of your life, full of amazing dreams to keep any pain of your cramps far away from you.
Naturally, Belphie will spend the night in your room, cuddling you.
But it's just to make sure you get a restful sleep the whole night!
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I'm gonna talk about whb!Mc/Ra-on but It's just me trying to make them make sense for me. I'm not a doctor. This is everywhere
With the small scrapes of MC's childhood came out.
Mc is extremely dissociative
Mc doesn't feel like they have a real personality and that might be a trauma response
They lost their parents at an extremely young age and would be a complete recluse if it wasn't for minhyeok constantly dragging them out of his room. They are still mourning them to the point that every year they get driven to the cemetery to take care of their graves. They still won't step foot into the family house after the incident basically living with the Kim family. Wouldn't you think they would have a bigger reaction to ppyong telling them he visited the grave?
But no they push on as if it means nothing to them because it was a traumatic experience and they just got themselves thrown into an active warzone in the span of a couple days. maybe the lack of reaction is more of a defense mechanism. They've only known the devils for a little bit at this point, I wouldn't be too interested in being openly vulnerable either.
Dissociation can be triggered by constant disturbing experiences and in one day
They saw their closest friend get killed
Was almost murder by Gabriel
Finding out angels & demonsapparently exist
Satan pops out of nowhere and almost immediately tries to fuck them.
They make a deal with Satan to bring minhyeok back to life
Now they have to help with a war , break all the pacts they so say have and pick a king to rule over all of hell
In order to stay alive in hell they have to constantly be fucking someone and drink their best friends cum.
I'm surprised becoming dissociative is all that happened. They also have been experiencing intense flashbacks on multiple occasions not being able to tell if they're real or not. They obviously don't have emotional healthy reactions. All key symptoms of a dissociative disorder
Unhealthy attachment to Minhyeok
Ra-on has stated in both events and in the main story line that minhyeok is extremely important to them.
They are childhood best friends and started living together soon after the death of their parents.
Both Minhyeok and Minseok have told ppyong that mc was constantly bullied and socially ostracized unlike minhyeok who is revealed to be extremely popular amongst others. He has other friends besides Ra-on, he keeps getting hit on by both men and women, and has a lot of active activities.
Minhyeok takes care of ra-on like a mother would while at their lowest point and ra-on hates themselves for it. They have become completely dependent on him for almost everything, they have no one else besides minhyeok and that's a bad relationship to have. Neither can fully understand or see how toxic this way of thinking is for the both of them besides the fact that Ra-on could never believe minhyeok could have a crush on him.
He's the only reason why mc goes to hell and the only reason they are interested in returning to Earth . Even when they're about to die or sleeping with the devils they somehow always go back to thinking about Minhyeok. It's understandable to the extent that he's all they have, the only person still there for them but still unhealthy in the long run.
Sex and stuff
Mc to me feels like someone who's special interest is sex
I have a hard time believing they were ever with anyone before Satan with the backstory PB has provided but they have an extreme knowledge in sexual concepts and devices.
They watched porn, read books about BDSM, and are always open to talk about it, but shows a lot of hesitation in the actual act.
Sex is a very taboo subject in most countries and hell is the complete opposite of that. Sex is not only a popular part of the history, it's also extremely encouraged. Most devils are already horny on-site especially if Ra-on is around (some even openly have boners around them and try to seduce them )
Ra-on is not used to all this positive attention being completely on them maybe even forcing themselves to become even lewder and indulge in kinks they normally would never do to keep this attention on them. That could also be the reason why they never seem to bother when demons call them Solomon because it's a positive relation in most eyes. They are experiencing things they could never pull off on earth with the status they have up there and they are thriving off of it, feeling wanted and needed in a way they've never experienced before.
That's all I got. I didn't expect it to be this long.
#whb#what in hell is bad#what in âhellâ is bad?#ranting#i have thoughts#none of this makes sense#i might delete this later#what in hell is bad solomon's descendant
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collapse. ( robert chase x reader )
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You knew he would be working late and when he finally came home, you were fast asleep upstairs in bed. Chase took a shower to ease the tension in his shoulders and wash the painfully long day away. He got dressed for bed and took off his watch as he approached his side of the bed. He used his phone as a light source to avoid waking you up, and his brow furrowed when he saw a white card on the bedside table.
He lifted it up, using his phone to read it. "See you soon, daddy."
He noticed the pregnancy test and picked it up, a smile lighting up his features when he saw it was positive.
You were awoken by kisses to your cheek and hair and smiled as you turned to meet your husband's gaze, smiling against his lips when he kissed you.
"I love you." He murmured.
"I love you too." You smiled softly when he placed a hand on your waist, his thumb grazing your stomach as he reignited the kiss. It would be several weeks before you would begin to show, but he couldn't stop touching it since he found the positive test, imagining the perfect blend of both of you growing inside you.
He always monitored your symptoms and prescribed medication to help with the morning sickness, but you suffered from strange dreams and felt dizzy throughout the day. When your mother offered to stop by more regularly, you agreed, knowing it would put his mind at ease. However, you found it overwhelming most of the time, and the meals she cooked diverted from what your husband recommended to keep a strong, healthy diet but you kept quiet, knowing Chase would drop everything and come home if he knew there were problems.
After checking on their latest patient, Chase entered the briefing room when Taub called out to him. His eyebrows furrowed as he explained that you were brought into the hospital after collapsing at home.
He couldn't believe it. Over an hour ago, he checked in, and you spoke on the phone during his lunch break, seeming to be in good spirits.
Taub told him the room number, and Chase took the elevator to the floor, his heart hammering in his chest as he squeezed inside, and jogged down the hallway as he narrowly avoided bumping into anyone. You were sitting in bed when he entered and turned your head when he exhaled in relief.
You sent him a smile as he approached the bed, taking your hand and squeezing it.
"I came as soon as I heard." He leaned down to kiss your forehead, and you closed your eyes as he lingered. "What happened?"
"I was reading on the sofa. Then I stood up because, you know, pregnant woman's bladder, and the next thing I know, I'm in an ambulance."
Chase walked to the foot of the bed, picking up the chart. Your mother returned with coffee, and he mumbled as he returned her greeting.
"They've ordered several tests." His brow furrowed pensively. "How were you feeling before you collapsed?"
"A little shaky."
You glanced at your mother when she said, "The other doctor already asked dozens of questions."
You bit inside of your cheek when you noticed your husband's jaw tighten. For the past eight and a half months, your mother had been making subtle and not-so-subtle remarks about the long hours he spent at the hospital working and that he should find another job now that you were having a baby. But you knew Chase needed a challenge, and working at the hospital was where his expertise was needed most.
"I'm just ruling out possibilities." He set the chart down, walking over to you. "How are you feeling now?"
"Tired."
Chase smiled softly, placing a hand on your cheek, "Your heartbeat is abnormal. Do you still feel dizzy?"
You nodded, and his smile faltered slightly. "But apart from that, I feel fine." You quickly attempted to reassure him.
"Why don't you get some rest?" He suggested. "The tests can take a while. I'll head to the lab and speed things along. And then I'll be right back, alright?"
You nodded with a smile, placing a hand over his that rested on your cheek. "I love you."
"I love you too." He leaned in to kiss you tenderly and pulled away to help make you comfortable as you lay down.
You watched him leave the room before closing your eyes, deciding that sleep was better than listening to more of your mother's unwanted advice.
However, a short while later, you were woken by raised voices.
"You were supposed to help. Not starve her."
You glanced at Chase, then looked at your mother, who had earned his ire.
"Just because she's pregnant doesn't mean she has to overeat. After the birth, she will want to be thin again."
"What's going on?" You spoke up.
Chase turned to you as you sat up, placing the pillow at the small of your back. "Were you aware your mother was giving you smaller portions?"
You ran a hand over your bump. "I thought I was always hungry."
Chase shook his head, "You collapsed because your blood sugar is low. It explains all the symptoms." He turned to your mother, "She needs a hearty diet to keep her weight up and to give enough nutrition to the baby. She could've gone into shock. The fall on its own can cause damage. What if she was walking downstairs?"
"I think you should go."
Your mother met your gaze, shaking her head before picking up her bag and jacket as she left. You exhaled shakily, running a hand over your forehead.
"If I'd have known...she kept saying I needed to keep working out." You met your husband's gaze worriedly, "Is everything okay w-with -"
Chase approached the bed, placing a hand on your shoulder. "Everything is fine. But we need to get your blood sugar back up to normal levels. Which is why..." He reached into his back pocket, and you smiled softly when you saw your favorite candy. "I've spoken to the doctor, and you'll be kept in overnight for monitoring."
You sighed as he sat next to you. "I'm sorry."
"Don't be. I know how pushy she can be. Although I didn't think she'd sink this far." He took your hand, and you smiled when he squeezed it. "I'm just glad you're alright."
You placed a hand on his cheek, smiling as you kissed for a few moments before moving over to make space for him to sit beside you. He put his arm around your shoulders and kissed your head as you opened the candy, sharing it as he filled you in on the team's latest patient.
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Pairing : Boyfriend!Hwang Hyunjin x F!Reader TW : angst ; Hyunjin is just sad (which is honestly relatable) ; reader thinks they're pregnant ; reader might be pregnant ; symptoms of pregnancy ; fluff ending ; Word Count : 2.0k Request : Annony : Can I request and angsty fic Where Hyunjin has just been going through a really rough time and y/n tries her best to be there for him and keeps waiting for the right time to tell him she thinks sheâs pregnant. He just keeps crying and he doesnât know why heâs so sad, but slowly he gets out of it a bit. One morning he wakes up because y/n is having morning sickness and showing other symptoms so she has no choice but to finally open up and tell him everything. They take a test and wellâŠIâll let you take creative control after this. Iâm really excited Iâve thought this request through a lot and I hope you decide to write it
âHey, you okay?â Your coworker asked as she walked into the breakroom. Your head had been resting against the table, your eyes squeezed tightly shut as you tried to count your breaths. âFeeling dizzy again?â She asked when you didnât answer her first question, and you gave her weak thumbs up in response. âMaybe you are⊠you know⊠the p word.â She whispered, and itâs not like it was a bad word to say, itâs just that you didnât want anyone else that you worked with to know.Â
âIâm too nervous to testâŠâ You mumbled, and she knew exactly why. She was your only confidant at this point, especially since Hyunjin was going through his own personal problems. You didnât want to stack anything else on top of whatever else was bothering him. All you did know was that, no matter how much you tried to help him or console him, heâd be right back to crying soon after. âPlus, it would be too soon⊠I donât want to test too early or anythingâŠâÂ
To be honest, home life wasnât really the best right now. Itâs not that there were any arguments, there was no fighting, but it was obvious that Hyunjin was stressed about something, and you were mentally stressed about potentially being pregnant, so the last thing you needed was triple the stress for both of you if a test came out positive. Even just thinking about it felt like too much right now. Â
âWell you canât wait forever. I mean⊠With his job, he gets stressed very easily. What are you gonna do? You canât just hide potentially important things from him every time he gets upset or stressed out.â You rolled your eyes at your coworkers' sudden nagging, and while you knew that it came from a place of concern and care, you didnât need that right now. You didnât need to be parented, you needed someone to just be there for you.Â
âHe doesnât get stressed easily, and you make it sound like heâs like this all the time. Iâm not hiding things from him either, Iâm giving him time to get in the right place mentally before dropping something like this on him.â You quickly defended your boyfriend, silently wishing that you hadnât told your coworker anything at all. âHeâs a good boyfriend, and just because he gets stressed and upset sometimes doesnât change that.â
âIâm not saying that heâs not a good boyfriend for you⊠I just feel like you cater to him and his feelings a lot because of his job and your feelings get pushed to the backburner.â She tried to explain, but she couldnât be further from the truth.Â
âIâm not having this conversation right now. I appreciate you caring and trying to look out for me, but my relationship is fine. Heâs a great guy⊠Okay? I have to get back to work now, enjoy your break.âÂ
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Hyunjins moment seemed to last longer and longer. Heâd lock himself in his room the moment he walked through the front door and youâd hear him cry for hours until things went silent, and the only reason things got quiet is because heâd cry himself to sleep. There was nothing you could do to help him because he wouldnât even talk to you about it, and a part of you wondered if heâd ever get out of the funk he was in.Â
With the time that passed, the symptoms only grew stronger. Your headaches were getting worse, the nausea was almost unbearable, even your boobs hurt. You wanted to excuse it as reading into the symptoms too much, you thought that your mind was playing tricks on you. You wanted to find any reason you could to hold off on testing until Hyunjin got better because you didnât want to be alone when you found out, no matter what the result was.Â
When Hyunjin was around, you tried to hide the symptoms from him. If you started feeling sick, youâd quickly go off to the bathroom and turn on the sink, hoping that you wouldnât actually start throwing up. The tiredness that you felt was written off as working too many hours and being on your feet too long. Luckily he was none the wiser to the soreness in your breasts because you hadnât been with him in any physical way since he had been in his funk. You missed him, and you wanted to blame the potentially surging hormones for the tears that would be shed when youâd lay in the same bed beside him at night without a single kiss or those three words that would make you feel like he did still love you.Â
The longer it lasted, the more you would think about what your coworker had said. No matter how much you tried to get those words out of your head, they would constantly pop up. When you would hear him crying in the room and youâd try to help him, but it was like he was shutting you out. Not only did it feel like he was pushing you away, but it felt like you were by yourself. He wasnât the only one going through something right now, and you wanted so badly to tell him, but for some reason you were trying so hard to protect him that you werenât even worried about yourself.Â
Even still, you didnât want to give up on him. You loved him, and you truly believed that he just needed time, that heâd get better sooner or later, and no matter what, youâd stick by him, even if it meant pushing your own stresses, your own worries to the side until he got better.Â
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He was starting to feel better, he really was. It had been a week since the last time he had cried, and while he still doesnât fully understand himself why things had gotten so bad or why he was so upset, he was thankful that he had you by his side the entire time, even if it didnât seem that way. He wanted to take you out today, to show you that he appreciated you and everything that you do for him. He wanted to show you that he truly does love you, and that heâs grateful that you didnât give up on him through this entire thing.Â
The bed was already empty, which wasnât rare as of lately considering he always seemed to sleep in, but one look at the clock on the bedside table made him fully aware that it was too early for even you to be awake. He could have sworn you came to bed last night, that he had felt the warmth of your body beside him underneath the covers. Had you gone to the couch at some point in the middle of the night? Were you finally pulling away?Â
Just as he was pushing the comforter off of his body, he heard what sounded like gagging and choking and he never moved so fast in his life. Tripping over his own feet, he rushed into the bathroom to find you doubled over the toilet, sweat beading up on your forehead and spit dribbling down from the corner of your mouth. Itâs like you didnât even realize he was there, or maybe you just didnât want to acknowledge him as you tried your best to seemingly catch your breath.Â
âBaby⊠Whatâs wrong?â He whispered, kneeling down beside you to try to get you to look at him, but you only shook your head, pushing yourself up to your feet with the help of the side of the bathtub, leaving him on the floor and even more worried than before. âAre you mad at me? Iâm sorry⊠Do you want me to leave you alone?âÂ
âNoâŠâ You said, your voice slightly raspy, and he could only assume that it was because of getting sick, but you sounded so tired too. He didnât know how sick you were, he didnât know what was going on or how long you had been feeling like this, but he wanted to be there for you now, no matter what was wrong. âI think⊠I might be pregnantâŠâ Your head lowered, as if you were ashamed to be telling him that, although he wasnât sure why.Â
Of course, he wasnât ready to be told something like that, he was sure that no man was ever truly ready to hear that, but that didnât mean that he wasnât ready to step up and be the man that you and his potential child would need. âOkay⊠Well, I can run to the store and pick up some tests and we can find out if you areâŠâÂ
âI⊠Already have the tests. Theyâre in my purseâŠâ You admitted and he nodded along slowly, trying not to get too upset that you had potentially been going through this for longer than he thought. âI just wanted to make sure you were okay first. I didnât want to do this aloneâŠâ Alone⊠He had left you all alone to deal with these worries and these thoughts and these fears. âYou⊠You are okay⊠Right?âÂ
His head nodded swiftly, his eyes that were brimming with tears of guilt glistened in the fluorescent lighting of the bathroom. âI am⊠Iâm okay. Youâre not alone, Iâm here and no matter what happens⊠Iâm going to stay here with you. I love youâŠâ He finally got up off the floor, scrambling to his feet just to stand in front of you, his eyes finally meeting yours for what felt like the first time. âYou have nothing to worry about⊠Iâll always be here⊠I promise.âÂ
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âOut of the way! Out of the way! Move it! Excuse us! Make room! Pregnant girlfriend coming through!â Hyunjin shouted as he walked with you down the halls of the JYPE building. He was so loud, you were sure that even the people the next floor up could hear him coming, he was like a damn fire truck with its sirens on. You rolled your eyes at the rambunctiousness of it all. âWhat? I just donât want anyone to bump into you or anything. Iâm trying to keep you and baby Jinnie safe.âÂ
Your eyebrows arched at the little nickname that he had given the baby, you hadnât heard him say it before. You had had an ultrasound the day before, and the doctor had asked if you wanted to know the gender of the baby, but you and Hyunjin had both agreed to keeping it a secret until the birth. âBaby Jinnie, huh? Whereâd you come up with that name?â You quizzed, wondering if maybe his curiosity had gotten the better of him and he had just asked the doctor what the baby would be on his way out of the exam room.Â
âIsnât that what they do for sons in America? People name the baby boys after their father? He can be little Jinnie Jr. right?â Hyunjin asked, his eyes twinkling as he looked down at you. His arms were wrapped protectively around you as you rode the elevator up to the right floor, and as cute and innocent as he looked right now, you couldnât help but be a little suspicious.Â
âHmm⊠A son? Are we having a boy?â His lips were drawn in, turning into a thin line and you could read the guiltiness on his face. He nodded his head slowly, clearly trying to read your reaction after having basically spoiled the surprise. âYou just couldnât wait to find out, could you?â You teased, and he let out a little sigh of relief when he realized that you werenât angry. How could you be angry though? He wanted to know and you werenât going to get mad at him for finding out.Â
âMaybe we can do like⊠A baby shower, and a surprise gender reveal for everyone else!â He proposed the idea, and he sounded so excited, there was no way that you could turn him down, plus it sounded like fun. âThe guys really want to know whether theyâre getting a niece or a nephew, theyâre gonna be so happy to find out!â He had been talking so loudly on the elevator, but once the doors slid open, his voice dropped to a whisper, his lips lingering right beside your ear. âThis is our secret though, donât tell them.âÂ
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World Cup Results II
Part 1
Ona Batlle x Reader
Summary: The beginning of Ona's Pregnancy
A/N: At least one more part to this of the pregnancy, might continue it after the baby too. But if anyone has a request please feel free to put it in my asks! I work much better and faster with ideas. I'm open to writing anything, smut, fluff, angst, kid fics, just let me know what you want to read!
You and Ona couldnât be more excited on the drive home from the clinic. Neither of you could wipe the smiles off your faces as your hands were held together and rested in your girlfriendâs lap. The entire ride home was full of loving sentiments exchanged to one another and plenty of blushes being spread across faces.Â
Arriving home began your new train in following the advice from the doctor as closely as possible as well as going a bit overboard. Your girlfriend was starting to get annoyed with you, but even she would admit it was sweet how caring you were. Ona never opened her car door, never lifted anything too heavy, didnât carry her bags to training, and you hardly let her do household chores. Every night for dinner you cooked a meal full of all the proper nutrients the doctors had advised eating and made sure to buy Ona only the best prenatal vitamins.
You both had agreed to not tell your teammates until you reached the 15-week mark, until then Ona didnât have to alter her trainings and could still play in games. You had let the coaching staff and medical staff know as soon as you found out so they could monitor the Spaniard closer, but as of now you wanted to keep it on a need-to-know basis. Â
It was around the 8-week mark, right after the first ultrasound, that some of your teammates began to catch on that something was happening. Any slight bump or tackle Ona took during training led to you sprinting to be by her side checking up on her. The brunette found it sweet but needed you to let up a little bit before they had to tell your team sooner than expected.Â
Your worries werenât without their reason, the chance of miscarriage was drastically higher through IVF and until Ona was outside her first trimester you had every right to worry. The days leading up to your 8-week scan were some of the most stressful days in your recent memory. You and Ona both were worried sick about having the scan show that you had lost your baby.
Ona was more stressed than you were due to her late-night research of her symptoms which often times resulted in her reading many horror stories of parents going to the first ultrasound and finding no heartbeat. The internet on top of her raging hormones led to many tearful nights where you tried to alleviate her fears but knew that the only thing to help the brunetteâs anxiety would be seeing your baby.Â
Thankfully one day after training the two of you were able to go to the clinic for the scan and see your baby for the first time. Tears immediately came to both of your eyes as the doctor told you your baby was not only alive, but healthy and thriving inside your girlfriend. You werenât one to cry, but Ona made a comment that she thinks youâll be a mess at every ultrasound, and you couldnât help, but agree. There was something about seeing your baby on that screen that made everything seem more real. Therefore, the attentiveness only got worse.
Your English teammates were the first to confront you about your recent behavior. The pair was sat alone at a table during lunch when Lucy pulled you into a seat, âWhatâs wrong with you?â
You gave the older woman a confused look, âWhat the hell do you mean?â
Kiera slapped Lucyâs arm and muttered something you couldnât quite make out under her breath. She looked over to you, âWhat Lucy meant to say,â She sent the brunette defender a glare, âIs that youâve been acting a bit different during training recently.â
You truly hadnât caught onto what they were referring to yet and raised an eyebrow at the pair, âIs this your guyâs subtle way of telling me Iâve been playing badly?â
Lucy slapped the back of your head and groaned, âNo you idiot,â You slapped her right back, âEvery time someone so much as touches Ona you act like she got shot.â Lucy slapped you again, âAnd youâre always watching her like a hawk,â You slapped her back.
Kiera grabbed her arm before she could retaliate, âWould you two stop acting like children already.â
This wasnât surprising behavior for you and the outside back, ever since you arrived at Barcelona the two of you grew much closer. Lucy helped you a lot to settle into the team and lifestyle of Spain, so overtime you grew a lot closer. Hence, why she was one of the first ones to notice a change in your behavior.
You suddenly realized what they were referring too and tried to hide it best you could, âIâm not acting any different, I always worry about her.â
Lucy gave you a dumbfounded look, âYeah, but this is even pushing it for you,â She began to dramatically mimic you, âOh my love, Ona, someone leaned on you during our full contact sport, and job, are you sure youâre going to survive this,â She leaned back with an arm laid against her forehead dramatically.Â
You started slapping the older brunette again, âOh shut up, I am not acting like that.â
Kiera sighed and pushed the two of you apart, âWould you two seriously stop it,â she looked at Lucy, âLuce stop being dramatic,â and then turned to face you, âYouâre not acting like whatever the hell that display was, but you are acting extra protective over her.â
You ultimately made up some excuse about Ona having reinflamed her ankle and that you wanted to make sure she didnât seriously injure it again. The pair of English women didnât seem to believe your excuse, but let you go on your way.
On the ride home you had told you told Ona about the confrontation with Lucy and Kiera which she followed up by agreeing that you needed to tone down the protectiveness and worrying. She had begun to notice it too and believed it was sweet but agreed that it was about to get out of hand and was only a matter of time before more of your teammates began to catch on.Â
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It was a couple weeks later, around the 12-week mark, when Ona was quieter than usual after training. The car ride home was nearly silent, but you didnât mention it and assumed she was just tired. As the pregnancy progressed Ona was starting to become increasingly more tired throughout the day, so you assumed that alongside the hard training today was the cause for her quietness.Â
It wasnât until a little later when you walked into the living room and found the Spaniard sitting on the couch with her head in her hands that you finally asked, âIs something wrong babe? Are you not feeling well?â
Her head remained in her hands as she softly muttered out, âI need to tell you something.â
You quickly sat down next to her with you hand on her thigh and concern lacing your voice, âIs it the baby? Do we need to call the doctor?â
She quickly sat back and leaned against the couch quickly alleviating your worries, âNo, no the baby is fine. Itâs just, es posible que accidentalmente le haya contado a Aitana sobre el bebĂ©.â She had rushed out the last sentence in Spanish making it difficult for you to understand.
âSlower, por favor, you know my Spanish isnât good when you talk fast.â
âI accidentally told Aitana about the baby today,â Feeling increasingly guilty she began to ramble, âI know we didnât want to tell people about the baby this early, but she cornered me and you know Iâm bad at keeping things to myself when someone asks and it just slipped out. I am so sorry mi amor.â
You chuckled at her rambling but let out a sigh of relief knowing this was the cause to Onaâs mood shift and not something more serious. Ona and Aitana had always been close, growing up playing for the academy together and since Ona returned to Barca they became even closer, so part of you was more surprised it took this long for her to find out. The outside back also was known for being bad at keeping secrets. Anytime someone would ask her about something she wasnât supposed to talk about she would begin rambling making it obvious that she was hiding something and would usually end up saying it anyways.
You dropped back to lean against the couch and moved your hand from her knee onto her, hardly noticeable, bump, âOh thank god, you had me worried, love.â
Ona covered your hand with hers, âThere is nothing to worry about, Iâm sorry she found out.â
The outside back when onto explain that Aitana had cornered her in the locker room after training when the rest of the team had already filed out. Instead of the usual comments which were about how protective you had become, Aitana had brought up how happy the two of you had seemed and that you were touchier than usual. She also had picked up on Ona subtly rubbing her stomach and your hand grazing over it after you would hug. She had straight up asked Ona if she was pregnant, and there was no escaping it from there, your girlfriend didnât know how to lie.
âAnd you know I canât lie, amor, she caught me so off guard and I mustâve taken too long to try and come up with an excuse, but she just pulled me into a hug saying how happy she was for us.â
You laughed again, wrapping an arm around her shoulders to pull the smaller girl into your side, âIâm more surprised you lasted this long without everyone finding out.â
Ona rubbed a hand over her stomach instinctively, âAs long as everyone keeps bringing it up to you instead of me, we should be okay, thereâs only three weeks until I canât play in matches anymore and then weâll have to tell them.â
You looked down to her face as you smoke softly, âWe can tell the team now if you want, youâre out of the first trimester, we just saw the baby, and everything is healthy, thereâs no big reason to keep it from them anymore.â
âNo, no, I like just keeping it to ourselves. Our own little bubble outside of football for now,â she leaned up to connect your lips softly and full of love.
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Aitana did much better of a job keeping the secret to herself than you originally expected. The midfielder took her job as being the best friend and only teammate who knew very seriously. Anytime your teammates would begin on the topic when she was around, she would quickly shush their comments and would back any lie you made up to cover your secret.Â
You and Ona were grateful for her efforts, but in a way, it only increased your other teammates suspicions. You also were now partially convinced much of the team actually already knew what was going on. As the last two weeks have gone by Mapi, Ingrid, and Alexia had completely stopped asking anything about the topic. Originally Mapi had been one of the most vocal players about finding out what was going on, but now had completely stopped in her efforts.Â
The truth was Ingrid, being the observant and caring teammate and friend that she was, had picked up on the same signals Aitana had. She obviously told Mapi about her suspicions who then confided in Alexia about them. Therefore, they came up with a plan to get the two of you to admit it to them.Â
It was after the last game of the season before the Christmas break that Alexia decided the team would go to a club to celebrate before everyone left to their respective homes. You and Ona were going to see your family in England for the break, so you tried to get the two of you out of going by saying that you had to finish packing before your flight. Alexia wasnât taking this as an answer and needed the both of you there to try and get an admittance from you, therefore, said it was required team bonding and you had to be there. The original plan was for Alexia and Mapi to call Ona out on not drinking and essentially for her to expose the pregnancy, but this plan was quickly stopped when the two of you entered the bar, keys in Onaâs hands, clearly having drove the two of you there. Anytime she was asked about a drink it was easy for her to say she was driving that night, plus she didnât have to lie so there was no worries about her slipping up.
Alexia and Mapi were still trying to come up with a new plan when, surprisingly, you were the one to let it slip.
You were sitting at a table with many of your teammates while Ona was dancing with Aitana, Patri, Claudia, and Cata when a guy walked up behind Ona and placed his hands on her hips. You were on your feet and dragging the man off her before she had the chance to pull away.
The man turned around to be face to face with the hands that had just pulled him off the girl he was obviously interested in, âWhat the fuck do you want?â
You stood tall with your chest puffed and harshly spoke, âI want you to get your hands off my girlfriend.â
He scoffed, âGirlfriend? Sorry bud, I donât think sheâs the girlfriend type.â
You laughed, âSorry, bud, but Iâm the one sheâs woken up next to for the past 8 years so I think I might know her a bit better than you.â
âYeah, well I didnât see you anywhere until after I came over so looks like Iâve beat you to it.â
âOh, fuck no,â You tried to shove past him to get to Ona, but he moved to block your path.
âWhy donât you prove it to me then?â By now a decent amount of your teammates had noticed what was going on and began to come over to help deal with the man.
This sent you over the edge, it mightâve partially been at fault to the alcohol you had that night, and you being a little more than drunk already. But with one big push to his shoulder you announced, âI think the fact that sheâs pregnant with my baby proves enough,â this left him shocked and gave you enough time to walk over to Ona with your back turned to the man and place a hand on the side of her face, âAre you alright, love?â Most of your teammates were now standing around you with their jaws hanging open clearly in shock.
The man clearly wasnât over the embarrassment yet, as he pulled your shoulder back to face him and landed a hook across your cheek, you threw one right back getting him across the nose before security was dragging him away just as Lucy was doing the same to you. You looked back to find Ona and saw Alexia standing in front of her having clearly dragged her back and away from you and the man, likely assuming the altercation may escalate and after your confirmation didnât want the Spaniard anywhere near the potential of a fight.
After clearing some things with the security guards, they let you stay and Lucy was dragging you over to the table many of your teammates had gone to sit at, the rest following close behind you.Â
Ona slid into the booth next to you with a bag of ice in her hand, and reaching up with her free hand to grab your chin and turn your head to assess the damage, âAre you okay? You know I hate it when you do that.â
You were waving your arm dramatically, clearly still affected by the alcohol in your system, âHe wanted to take you home I was protecting you both.â
She had a soft smile and pressed the bag of ice to your cheek, which you took over holding against your face, âI know you were, but you couldâve gotten hurt a lot worse.â
âI donât care,â You leaned closer to whisper in her ear, clearly having forgotten you had already spilled your secret, âYouâre carrying precious cargo, Baby Mami.â
Ona chuckled and patted your thigh, âNo point in whispering now, amor, you already announced it.â
You turned to see the rest of your team giving you both dumbfounded and shocked looks, but Alexia, Aitana, Mapi, and Ingrid just smirking to themselves.
Alexia was the first to speak up from across the table, âSo, you two are having a baby?â
You moved your free hand to rest on your girlfriendâs stomach and smiled as Ona replied, âYep, baby y/l/n-Batlle is due in May. We were going to tell you all after the break, but tonight was my last match for the season, Iâm about to be fifteen weeks, so no more matches.â
You were met with a lot of congratulations from your teammates when Lucy finally connected the dots and pointed at you, âSo this is why youâve been so unbearably protective over her recently.â
You defended yourself, âSheâs carrying precious cargo, thatâs the future best player in the world in there,â You patted her small bump, and the brunette covered your hand with hers.
This caused a smile to breakout on Onaâs face and laughs spread around the table. Ona had decided you had enough to drink, and she was exhausted having played 70 minutes today, so announced that you would be heading home. It took a few minutes before you were finally out the door, having to go through and hug every one of your teammates and being told congratulations by each one of them.Â
The next day the two of you flew to England for the first half of break, you would spend Christmas with your family before coming back to Spain to spend the rest with Onaâs family who you saw more often.Â
Since the secret was already out to your teammates and your families had already known for weeks while home in England you and Ona were able to tell a few of your England and former Arsenal teammates you were closest with.Â
While in London and met up with Leah, Lia, Lotte, Alessia, Beth, and Viv for lunch to share the news with them. Leah was especially moved when you told her, having been much like a big sister to you during your time at Arsenal. She couldnât get past how grown up you were and that now were having a baby. Alessia did a lot of claiming that this all happened because of her setting you two up. While youâll go to your grave denying her you canât help but thank her slightly.
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Thanks for reading everyone, I hope you enjoyed! Again, please leave any requests or prompts in my asks!
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sick day safe distance.
summary: you caught a cold and really doesnât want him to also get sick. itâs that simple, actually.
notes: was tempted to add more, but yeah one day, maybe. this is me trying to pump myself up and trying to grasp sae more for an upcoming fic. also warm up for a bit. still i hope it will be an enjoyable read, as simple and unserious it is haha. warning: none, just mentions of colds symptoms here and there. fluff, clingy slash affectionate bfs, reader's gender unspecified.
character: nagi, sae, isagi.
nagi seishiro
this guy somehow turns even more similar to his favorite chat sticker. just a bit more fluffy, and bigger, and with grubby hands. put simply, nagi is pretty troublesome because he insists on still being close to you. he really doesnât see a point in keeping his distance since he still lives under the same roof as youâwhich doesnât mean you could go somewhere else though. he is not above actually hanging on your hip. donât test him.
in a way, you will be lucky if he must go out for practice. but if he is not, then good luck. if before you sleep, he was sitting a few meters away from you, the moment you took a nap nagi would be laying his head somewhere near or on you while playing his game. pray for your debate skill, because you really need to convince him that âgetting sick is even more troublesome than not cuddling with you for a while. yes even when thatâs what he really wants.â also a little tip, be strong and donât look at his baby face too much. thatâs a losing fight with a natural puppy face. and if you want to take a bet, use his hoodie as your sick attire. it will either satiate whatever it is in him or worsen it.
he is a bit childish and adamant when he is clingy. even when he is not in the clingiest mood, that wouldnât necessarily mean his concern for you would be gone immediately. every hour or so, you will definitely see a nagi peeking at you, asking if you want anything because âif you got worse it would be even more troublesomeâ. and honestly just let him do anything he wants to take care of youâthis guy will be okay in the kitchen and in anything even if itâs his first time. thatâs the resident giant sloth doing something for you out of his own willingness. plus if worst comes to worst, hey, maybe adrenaline could be an instant cure.
itoshi sae
sae makes a face that indicates he is a little upset, hums, and then actually says he will stay somewhere else for a while. he reacts so gracefully and normally itâs kind of cold. but then again, this is sae and his personality. just because he seems unaffected and puts you somewhere pretty low on his priority list, it doesnât mean that is how it truly is. and if you are trained to translate sae-speak through experiences and are already used to him, itâs kind of obvious, from his actions especially.
itâs obvious in the way he leaves you messages and voice notes. and in the way he insults you when you try to do something dumb or eat something that you shouldnât. in the way he sends you food and reminds you to drink every hour he canâand if he has to practice, he will find someone to do that task through sheer deadpan alone. also in the way he keeps the call on until you sleep every nightâsaying that this is to make sure you wonât infect his part of bed, which is a lie. if you show him that you miss him by cuddling his side of bed this guy will short-circuit, in a very positive way.
also, since this is sae with his terrible case of âshowing he actually caresâ, most of the proof of him being genuinely upset from being away from you will come from others. in the form of complaints. all telling you to get better soon because he got extra grumpy and blunt in his wording as if he is on a vengeance quest. and even if his play got better somehow, help his teammates because they really are not here to deal with a boyfriend who has love deficiency or some bullshit. of course, you hardly believe them because in every video call, sae acts like it's nothing. still, go do loving gestures in your temporary long-distance relationship. some people will actually owe you for that. also donât forget to at least give him an update if he somehow couldnât contact you. just in case.
isagi yoichi
isagi takes it with a grimace and an understanding sigh that truthfully still sounds very exasperated, but accepting nonetheless. he will still whine a little though, in a very joking and light manner. this guyâs schedule is packed and he rarely has any time with you, so of course if any chance he should have gotten sabotaged by some random flu, itâs entirely within his right to get at least a little upset. so understandably, his priority as an egoist who really wants some loving would be to get you healthy again as soon as possible. also, maybe, that part of him that takes care of people so naturally kind of screeches when you cough roughly.
the sweetest part is probably how he will still find a way to take care of you no matter what his schedule is. what isagi wants, isagi will get somehow after all. itâs his break day? you are not leaving his sight and he will watch the old matches from your sideâalso he is wearing a face mask so donât bother to shoo him away. if he has training? maybe you have to walk around a little bit by yourself still, but somehow everything from food to medicines is ready. his friends ask him to hang out? this one is a straight-out pass, his baby is sick.
this is the guy who will try to cook porridge for you while calling his mom in the process and sends a longing gaze when you keep a distance between the two of you. he wonât protest and will actually do his best. remember to walk around the neighborhood with him the moment you get better. also give him as many handholds, hugs, kisses, and praises as possible. actually, go do a headstart on the praise if possible. even if he scolds you to rest instead of giving him sugary words, the soft dotting look on his face canât lie. just make sure to not suggest sleeping in the hotel or have him stay at someoneâs thoughâtrust this guy and his self-centeredness. when he really wants to stay with you and stay healthy for his career, he will. donât doubt him or make enemies of the protagonist.
#bllk#bllk imagines#blue lock#bllk x reader#blue lock fluff#bluelock x reader#blue lock x reader#blue lock scenarios#bllk fluff#bllk scenarios#blue lock imagines#bllk isagi#bllk nagi#bllk sae#itoshi sae x reader#isagi yoichi x reader#nagi seishiro x reader#sae x reader#isagi#nagi x reader#isagi yoichi#sae itoshi#nagi seishiro#my nagi phase and missing sae moment is obvious. sae especially#he is rotating in my brain a lot lately.#but eyes on isagi always. ily. so of course he is here.#blue lock headcanons#bllk headcanons
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Can I get a little something with either Kelly Severide or Matt Casey please where he sees the readers baby bump for the first time? Perhaps it becomes really prominent and he soon becomes obsessed with it
Kelly Severide- Little Baby Bump
YN and Severide wanted to have a baby for a while. They knew that as soon as they got married they would try for a baby, but unfortunately for them it took a lot longer than they thought for them to conceive. A year later after trying YN started to have pregnancy symptoms like morning sickness, swollen breasts, tiredness.. etc. Of course Kelly was immediately at the nearest shop to get some pregnancy tests and got home in record time. Within a few minutes they were celebrating the fact that they were going to be parents.
That was 5 months ago and while YN has been looking a little bloated there wasn't a prominent baby bump until today. The weather in Chicago has been rather nice recently, so YN gets dressed into a maxi dress. What she doesn't realise is that the dress being tight fitting shows off her small baby bump. YN leaves her shared bedroom with Kelly and heads downstairs into the living room where Kelly is sat watching the TV
"Is it just me or is it really warm?" YN asks
"Just you babe. Well it's warm, but not..." Kelly stops when he sees his wife. Kelly looks at her little bump
"What? Is their a stain on my dress" YN goes to look down
"No it's just, your bump is showing"
"What?" Kelly takes YN's hand and guides her back upstairs to their bedroom where there is a full length mirror "Kel what are you..."
"Look" Kelly stands behind YN rubbing her little bump "our little baby is in there"
"We've waited a long time for this" a tear falls from YNs eyes.
That night YN and Kelly lay in bed together, Kelly rubbing her bump ever so slightly before sitting up and little and then leaning down
"Hey little one. Mummy and daddy can't wait to meet you. Tomorrow we're going to paint your bedroom, well I am. Mummy is going to keep out of the room because of the fumes instead she's going to sort out the millions of clothes she's bought" Kelly laughs making YN chuckles. Kelly lays back down on his back, YN turns over so that she can lay on Kelly's chest
"I love you Kel"
"I love you too" Kelly replies before they both fall asleep.
The following day Kelly, Matt and Jay go upstairs to build the baby furniture and paint the walls while YN and Gabby sort through the already washed baby clothes and the ones that need to be washed. Again the weather is warm so YN is wearing another maxi dress with the air con on. She notices Gabby shiver a little
"Sorry if it's to cold, I've just been so hot"
"No it's ok don't worry"
"I'll grab you a jacket" YN gets up smoothing down her dress
"I bet Severide is excited about being a dad"
"Very. Last night he spoke to the bump, then all night he would either be holding my bump or stroking it a little" YN grabs a jacket off the back of the dinning room chair and hands it to Gabby
"You guys are so sweet. Your going to be amazing parents. Just remember I am godmother" Gabby jokes
"Of course. You want a drink? Bet the boys will want a beer"
"I'll just have a soda"
"Ok" YN goes into her kitchen and opens up the fridge grabbing 2 sodas, one for her and one for Gabby. She then grabs 3 beers for the boys upstairs. YN takes the beers let's Gabby know her soda is in the kitchen while YN takes up 3 beers.
YN opens up the nursery room looking at the sweaty men in front of her
"Beer anyone? It's cold"
"Thank you YN" Matt walks over to her smiling
"What are you doing in here? The fumes..."
"Won't hurt for a couple of minutes. The rooms looking good" Kelly wraps his arm around YN's waist rubbing his thumb up and down against her bump slightly
"How's the clothes folding coming along?" Jay asks taking his own beer
"Ok rather be in here helping you guys, but I'm way too hot" YN chuckles "I better get back downstairs, left Gabby folding"
"We'll be down in a bit" Kelly presses his lips to YN's forehead before kneeling down to place a kiss on her bump.
Since YN started showing, Kelly has been constantly touching and kissing the bump. Basically he's obsessed. Kelly is going to be one of the most amazing dads ever.
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AITA for threatening to become a girl's step dad to troll her into blocking me and stop dragging me in a group chat ? Jenny (23F) blew up because I (24NB) said she'd be a shitty social worker bc of her specific autism symptoms + class bg. My gf (45F) said it was warranted because of how overwhelmed i got by the wall of text with triggering details of my abuse. I never told my GF that the fight started because Jenny called me a gold digger. I also never mentioned that I ended it an hour later by posting pics of Jenny's mom in the chat, ignoring her ranting and discussing the vacancy left by her dead dad*, and how i could fill said vacancy. đŹđŹđŹ Might of gone too far with this one.
Backstory: I lived with Jenny when I was houseless indefinitely. She only let me stay for two weeks because it would be too "distracting" to her studies. Jenny was incredibly rich, didn't work, and her parents paid her rent for a 2 bedroom. She admitted she got rejected from every grad school she applied to except for the one her mom was in charge of. Her mom bought her a condo in the city the school was in. She kept asking me how she should decorate it, completely ignorant to how uncomfortable this made me and my other friends. Jenny was oblivious constantly to how she made others feel. She was actually the most incompetent person I've ever met in terms of comforting other, always tone deaf and completely absorbed with her own, single traumatic event. She made constant jokes about the abuser I was fleeing and even compared this stalked to a /serial killer/ documentary she watched, but never EVER showed any signs of internalizing how I almost lost my life to another person, how that might affect me or even just bum me out. Seriously, I've never met someone else who was so incapable of even being sensitive to issues that were /EXTREMELY SERIOUS/. Forget comforting, the stuff she routinely said to me and my other friends to try to cheer us up was beyond degrading. It was wearing on me a lot.
Jenny herself was neurodivergent. She often said her autism prevented her from understanding the feelings others had, reading their expressions, and tolerating crying or loud noise-- she forbid her musician roommate from doing both. None of those mean shes a worthless person, but all of those things would make someone a horrible therapist or social worker. Oh my God, literally every time I talked about my recent trauma, she would talk about herself and then blame her autism when I told her it just wasn't helping.
The final piece of this was I had a nervous breakdown and screamed at her over discord that she was a shit friend and needed to give up on social work, for like an hour. NOT MY PROUDEST, but I ALMOST DIED. I was living with her because SOMEONE WAS STALKING ME. and I would have liked to not have my abuse JOKED about. HOW DID JENNY RESPOND!? She began dragging me, through the mud, in the group chat, for, dating, an, older, woman, who, paid, for, my, air bnb, because, !!!she!!! wouldn't let me live with her for more than a week. I was HOMELESS. It became all about "OP you are such a b*tch, you are with a woman twice your age and she pays for everything now but you are still a miserable and angry person. You are so blah blah blah you are an ableist, you said I can't become a social worker bc of autism blah blah blah you have major major issues, Go back your rich granny and leech off of her you useless, fucked up little gold digger."
U_UÂ Then, she started graphically describing how I deserved my abuse, so I shrimply began to troll. And yes, I pulled out my magnum oppus like fucking playing blue eyes white dragon, oh yeah I slipped her a pristine Jenny's mom facebook photo and said "Hey you never said your mom was so cute. Maybe, I could leech off her next and become your new dad." Yes, her dad died.* She blocked me immediately. Its OK. It was knives out for Jenny as soon as my GF gifted me a pair of $700 Isabel Marant shoes** , the most EXPENSIVE thing ive ever owned in my whole life, and Jenny saw me excited and called her mom to buy her a pair. It's, absolutely OK, if I am the asshole. I wear my crown of thorns, judas that I am, but I really, really think Jenny was being cruel. *he died 18 years ago ** the shoes are no more because i fell into my gf's rich friend's koi pond
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Unexpected Summer | J.Hughes
requested - yes; can I request âWait- weâre having a baby?â with jack? something unexpected like a fourth of july during michigan summers type thing if that makes any sense? thank you so much
note- love this idea! thanks for requesting! :) Masterlist
warnings: mentions of pregnant stuff.
Michigan summers were the type of summers you had dreamt about when you first met Jack and how he told you about how much fun he had at his lake house in Michigan while hanging with his friends that he hasnât seen all season. Your first Michigan summer with Jack, his family, and friends was amazing. The amount of love that his family and friends showed you during that time was incredible. Everyday mostly consisted of sunny days, boating around, playing tennis and golf, and then having nights around the fire. It was truly everything you dreamed of.
It was now your fifth Michigan summer with Jack. You loved hockey season and getting to spend it watching Jack do what he loves to do, but you were glad to be back in Michigan and spending time with friends and family.
However, this one was beginning to take a unexpected turn. It all started when you woke up feeling not too great. You accounted it for bad seafood, however, you were still throwing up a week later. Plus, you could feel your body changing practically, with your boobs feeling off and more body aches, that you account for your period, but then realized your period was supposed to be here two weeks ago.
You didnât express your concern to Jack since it could be nothing. However, it made you weary enough to go out and get two pregnancy tests just to be sure. Although, if you had to guess, all the symptoms did add up, but you werenât going to worry just yet.
It was around 12pm when Jack and the guys decided to go out on the boat. Knowing that the waves would mess up your stomach even worse, you decided to stay back, but mostly to take the tests.
âBabe, are you sure youâre feeling okay?â Jack asked as he put on his swim trucks. âI can hang back if you need me too.â And you knew that he would if you had told him you needed him, but he had already stayed back with you for the past three days.
âNo, itâs okay, Iâll be okay. If I need you, Iâll just text you,â you reply as you bundle up under the covers. Jack walks over to you and places a kiss on your forehead.
âOkay, be sure that you do, I mean it! I will turn that boat around to come be with you!â You nod your head as he places a final kiss to your lips.
As soon as he is out the door, and you look at the window to see that they have boated away, you grab the tests from your purse and head to the bathroom. You let out a breathe as you sit the tests on the counter after doing your business. You set the timer and go back into the bedroom to clean up the pile of clothes to take your mind off of it.
The timer going off rattles you out of your thoughts. Since the thought that you could be pregnant first arose in your mind, you had been thinking about how Jack would react and what you guys would do from then on. However, those are just thoughts and it could come out better than what youâre thinking.
You roll your neck and let out a sigh before picking up the test. You turn it over and youâre hit with the results. Pregnant. Two lines. Positive.
Up until this moment, you hadnât allowed yourself to think too much on if the results would actually be positive. However, now seeing them, it is everything you have ever wanted. You let out a sob as you sit on the side of the bathtub. You have been dreaming of this moment since meeting Jack. He has made you rethink the possibility of having a family. You couldnât wait to tell him.
-
The boys made it back home around 4. They were all sunburnt but had the biggest smiles on their faces. Finally getting some time to spend with friends. As soon as they got into the house, Jack barreled up the stairs to find you. You were still laying in bed watching Friends like when he left you.
âHey, baby. You okay?â He asked as he put his shoes away and grabbed a towel.
You look over to him and smile. âYeah, Iâm doing okay. How was boating?â
âIt was great! Luke fell off the wakeboard and nearly drowned but he was okay! Sad you had to miss another day out there, though,â he walks over to your side of the bed and sits next to you, moving a strand of hair out of your eyes. âAre up to take a shower with me? Itâs okay, if not.â
You smile weakly, you want to but you also donât want him noticing your body changes yet, because you wanted to tell him perfectly. âI showered a bit earlier,â you lie, âIâm sorry.â
He shakes his head, âNo, itâs okay. Also, weâre cooking out later with everyone, so be ready for some good food. You havenât thrown up today have you?â
âNo, Iâve managed to keep it all down today,â you reply as you run your hand over his thigh. âHurry and shower, you smell. Iâm going to head down and see if anyone needs help cooking.â
âI only smell a little!â He laughs. âThatâs fine, but good luck, mom and Quinn will probably kick you out, you know how they are.â
âYeah, but doesnât hurt to ask!â You laugh as you watch him take off his swim trucks, throw them in the basket, and head to the bathroom.
Well, you couldnât tell him tonight, since everyone is going to be here you think to yourself.
-
You truly didnât think your emotional changes wouldâve hit you so quickly, but you were wrong. You knew that Quinn and Ellen like to cook, and they donât want anyone else to bother helping because they have it under control. However, as soon as they said that they didnât need your help and all was good, you started sobbing.
Ellen noticing this, comes over and wraps her arms around you. âY/N, honey, itâs okay. You can help if you want, we have it under control.â
Quinn is confused as to what is happening and is trying to stay focused on seasoning the chicken and steak. Just as he decided to speak up, Jack comes down the steps. âY/N, whatâs wrong?â
He replaces his mom in holding you. You sniffly respond, âNothing, Iâm not even sure why Iâm crying.â Ellen raises an eyebrow at that. âI just havenât been able to do anything lately, and I wanted to help.â Jack nods as he looks to his mom for help, she shrugs. Ellen has an idea of what is wrong, but she wasnât going to bring that up.
Quinn finally speaks up, âYou can help chop vegetables, if thatâs okay? We didnât mean anything by it, we just didnât want to bother you.â He offers a smile before turning back to the steaks.
âOkay, again I donât why Iâm crying. Iâll chop the vegetables.â You say as you turn to look at Jack. He wipes the tear streaks from your face and pats the side of your thighs.
âYou go do that, Iâm going to find the others and talk to them.â You nod as you go find a knife.
After a while, Ellen comes up to you when Quinn leaves to put the meat on the grill. âNow I donât want to think Iâm calling you anything, Iâm just asking, because I care a lot, but is there by a chance that youâre pregnant?â
You swallow and place the knife down and turn to look at her. âYes, Iâm pregnant.â You give her a second, trying to gauge her reaction.
Less than a second goes by, and sheâs jumping up and down. âOh my gosh! My babies are going to have a baby! How long have you known? Is there any problems?â
You shush her before someone walks in because of the commotion. âI just found out this morning, I took a test. I havenât told Jack yet. So you canât tell him anything!â She nods as she pulls you into a hug.
She whispers, âOh my gosh, Iâm so excited!â
Just as she says that, Quinn walks back in holding the finished steaks. âSo excited about what?â He looks between the both of you, waiting for an answer.
Nervously you blurt out, âWeâre just so excited that everyone is here for the cookout!â
He doesnât fully believe the answer, but he wasnât go to question it, in fear youâll break out in tears again. âOkay, awesome,â He places the steak down and turns back around. âOh, Jack told me to tell you that when youâre done here, he is sitting on the back patio with Alex, Trevor and Cole.â
You nod and reply a thanks. You finish up your vegetables, grab a beer for Jack, and head to the back patio.
-
âY/N! So good to see you!â You hear Alex say as you make your way out onto the patio. He just arrived last night, but you were passed out asleep by then.
âAlex! Great to see you too!â You give him a hug.
Letting go, you hear Cole say, âY/N, you bring that beer for me? I needed a new one!â
You laugh as you make your way over to the seat next to Jack. âNo, itâs for him,â you answer as you pass the beer to Jack. You can hear Cole pouting as Jack opens the beer.
âThanks, babe. You arenât drinking?â Jack asks, looking at you skeptically. He doesnât care if you donât drink, itâs your choice, but you usually do in these settings.
You shake your head, âNo, Iâve been sick enough, Iâm not letting beer destroy me.â Jack nods and places a kiss on your temple.
As you lean back in your chair, you hear the sliding door open again. Trevor yells out, âY/N! How are you?!â
He sits across the table, you reply back happily, âIâm doing okay, feeling better than I have in the past week!â
Trevor nods, and then blurts out, âFor some who has been sick, you canât even tell!â
As soon as he said that, you can feel the tears coming back. You try to swallow your emotions, not wanting to make a scene, but itâs no use. You start sobbing again in front of everyone. You can feel the eyes suddenly on you. You can feel Jack placing a hand on your back.
You sob out, âWhatâs that supposed to mean?â
Trevor hurriedly speaks out, âI was just saying that you look great!â Heâs looking at Jack, begging for help. Jack doesnât even know why youâre crying.
âY/N, he was just trying to compliment you, itâs okay,â Heâs never been this confused by your sudden emotional outburst, and heâs trying his best to help you. Heâs grabs your hand and helps you up, âCome on, letâs go inside and cool down.â
Youâre still sobbing into your hands when he pulls you inside and upstairs to your shared room. He walks you over to the bed and helps you sit down. Heâs rubbing his hands through your hair, as he knows it calms you down.
Once your sobs lessened, he decides to ask again, âBabe, what happened back there? I get that he can be awful with words, but he was just trying to compliment you.â He tries to reason with you to get an answer.
You know you have to tell him, if not it makes you seem like youâve lost your mind. âI get that he was trying to compliment me, and I know that earlier that Quinn and Ellen just didnât want to bother me in helping, but I gotta tell you something, Iâm just a bit nervous.â
Jack is rubbing circles on your thigh as he nods, âBaby, you know you can tell me anything, especially if it has you crying all of a sudden.â
You let out a breath and reach over to get the tests out of your nightstand. Holding them, you finally say, âIâm pregnant,â you pass the tests over to him to grab. âI took them this morning. I mean I was throwing up a lot, and my body had some changes. So yeah, Iâm pregnant.â
You hold in your breath as you wait for him to respond. He looks at each test before looking up at you. He grabs your chin to get you to look at him before you start crying. âWait- weâre having a baby?â
You slowly nod your head, scared to speak incase you let out a sob. You finally let out that breath you were holding as soon as Jack gives you the biggest smile.
âWeâre having a baby!â Heâs instantly pulling you into his arms, not caring that the tests dropped to the ground. âI canât believe it, weâre going to be parents!â He stands you both up and spins you around.
You grab onto his arms. âOkay, okay! I know weâre excited, but Iâm going to puke if we keep spinning!â You laugh as he places you back down with so much concern.
âOh my gosh, Iâm sorry, are you okay? Do you need anything?â
You shake your head and lean in to kiss his lips, smiling you say, âIâm okay, I canât believe this happening, Iâm so happy!â
âBabe, happy doesnât even begin to describe what Iâm feeling, thereâs no one else Iâd rather do this with,â He leans down to kiss your lips. Pulling apart, he bends down to your stomach.
You ruffle his hair, âIâm not showing yet or anything, but itâs still crazy that it will be growing in there.â Jack leans forward to press a kiss on your stomach.
âI know, so crazy.â He stands back up and pulls you into a hug. You both savor the moment, until you hear knocking on the door.
âUm, guys, I hope all is okay. I just wanted to make sure that Y/N wasnât going to kill me for what I said, even though I was just complimenting her, but still!â You both laugh as you pull open the door to a scared Trevor. You just pat his arm before walking down the hallway. Trevor looks at Jack to try and decipher if he should be worried, but Jack just shrugs his shoulders and follows in your direction.
When he catches up to you, he puts his arm around your waist, âHeâs going to be so confused until we tell him.â
You laugh, âYeah, he is. Thatâs what he gets for trying to compliment a pregnant woman!â Jack just shakes his head at your theatrics and kisses your forehead as you make your way back to the patio.
#jack hughes#jack hughes blurb#jack hughes fic#jack hughes x reader#jack hughes imagines#hockey imagines#nhlhockey fic#nhl imagines#hockey fics
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Routine â ethan landry
Description: Ethan feels you slowly drift away as you spend time with another person.
Pairing: Ethan Landry x GN!Reader (they/them pronouns)
Warnings: unedited, kinda wordy, fluff, jealousy, some angst but happy ending
Word Count: 1.9k
Authorâs note: can u guess who readerâs chem partner is ??
Tradition and routine are important to Ethan Landry. Since youâve made the decision to have lunch with him every Wednesday at the diner a few blocks from his apartment, he eventually begins to expect you to show up there without a text message. Itâs routine, now. Itâs a traditionâand he didnât realize how sacred it was to him until his phone pings with a text from you on a Wednesday:
hey im sorry i cant make it to lunch i got assigned a small project in chem and its partners :/ and we could only find a time for today (ugh) lunch next wednesday?
sorry again. have a good lunch!! dont have too much fun without me tho
Heâs not bothered. Why would he be? You sound like youâd rather be with him than working on that project, so heâs flattered in that aspect that you sound somewhat possessive with the, âdonât have too much funâ.
Itâs not like heâs already at the diner already.
(He was on his way.)
But itâs only a blip in the hundred other moments you spend with him, even if those moments are also spent with other people present.
So he doesnât take it to heart. Even if his heart slightly aches without you beside him, almost a symptom of withdrawal, which he wonât realize until much, much later.
-
Ethan often spends time in the main library on Friday nights. Heâs not a stranger to the usual people who also spend their time there, thereâs not a lot of people because there are better things for a college student to do on Friday nights. Ethan is different. Although, he only started going on Friday nights because midterms are soon and he canât afford to fail or retake anything.
However, a familiar figure comes into the library next to a tall stranger. You, with some guy, trying to playfully shush him as you enter the quiet space earning some dirty looks from students around.
You lightly slap the strangerâs arm with a grin, and you donât see Ethanâheâs sitting in a corner and youâre turned away from him.
Thereâs no denying that the stranger is handsome. Tall, brown hair, somewhat dorky mannerisms but in a charming way. Ethan could be in love with this guy if he himself isnât so in love with you.
Ethan opts to look down at his work instead, eyes almost unfocused as the thought of losing his chance being brought to the forefront of his mind.
What he doesnât see a few seconds later, between the shelves, slightly closer to Ethan, you finally spot him. He doesnât see the way your smile droops slightly, and how the man next to you asks who youâre staring at.
âOh,â you whisper to your chemistry partner, Peter, âThatâs Ethan. The guy I told you about.â
âYouâd look good together.â He teases.
You almost kick him jokingly, but he dodges. âJust because I told you my crush doesnât mean you get to tease me. Plus, if you do, Iâll tell Gwen about yours.â
But of course, this conversation happens outside of Ethanâs earshot. Youâre not looking at him anymore, and as he glances up one more time, he only sees the smile directed at that stranger that used to be reserved for him on Wednesday afternoons.
Yeah, Iâve lost my chance, Ethan thinks.
-
Ethan has decided to spend more time with his friends. It has nothing to do with you, not at all. (Itâs not denial.) He lounges in the Carpenter apartment on Saturday night with Chad and Tara. Mindy was also supposed to be there, but texted last minute she canât make it.
They assure him heâs not third-wheeling, but he definitely is.
But he stops himself before he suggests he can leave. He gives it a chance, because otherwise he would be alone in the dormâand on a normal occasion heâd leave and call you instead, but he has a feeling your voice will only draw him back to the reliance of your presence. You havenât talked since Wednesday, since that text message that Ethan believes is the beginning of the end.
Chad notices Ethanâs faraway look, theyâre both sitting on the couch while Tara gets a drink from the kitchen.
âYou okay, man?â His roommate snaps him out of the daze. âYou seem sad.â
âIâm not.â Ethan has answered that too quickly to either of their liking, but it goes unmentioned.
âYou can talk to me. If you want.â
Chadâs become more emotionally available since the first time they moved in together, Ethan appreciates that his friend makes an effort even if it seems to take some work. So Ethan humours him.
âY/N. Theyâre spending time with this guy and I justâI donât know.â
Tara comes back with a few sodas, handing one to him and to her boyfriend.
âY/N?â She echoes, sipping from her drink. âYou mean theyâre spending time with Peter?â
Ethan realizes maybe he shouldnât have said anything because Taraâs close to you and if he says something she might say somethingâ
âI wonât tell them.â She says, sensing Ethanâs panic. âTheyâre just friends, if youâre wondering.â
Chad is grateful for his girlfriend stepping in. She certainly knows more, at least in that respect.
âArenât they chem partners, or something?â Chad asks her, wanting to alleviate the tension he can sense on his best friend. He remembers Tara offhandedly mentioning it one time.
(Letâs be honest, anything Tara knows, Chad knows too.)
âWell,â Tara prevents herself from a grimace. âThey were partners. Y/N told me they finished the project. So now theyâre just friends.â
It has the opposite effect that Chad had wanted.
It only lets Ethan know that it wonât be long until you introduce this Peter to the group as your boyfriend, probably.
âCan we change the subject?â Ethan requests.
Heâs thankful as they adamantly jump into another topic about something funny that happened recently, an inkling deep in his soul that they did it on purpose to make him laughâa hint of relief as he thinks, friendship isnât that bad. (Itâs good.) You and him could still be friends, he thinks. And thatâs what he wants, for you to be in his life in any capacity, long as youâd let him.
-
Sunday nights are movie nights in the Carpenter household. And that tradition is extended to the entire group, including you. He doesnât know why heâs nervousâhis palms are sweating, his legs are bouncing, and his mind is anywhere else besides the present.
You arrive late, and the movie hasnât started because theyâre waiting for you.
Ethan thinks Chad or somebody must have done it on purpose, because the only empty seat on the couch is the one right next to him.
Obviously, you take it. The proximity is almost too much for Ethan, but heâd be a damn liar if he said it didnât help his anxiety just a little bit. You take away his nerves after they appear in the absence of you. Youâre his medicine.
The movie starts and you still donât say anything to each other. He ignores the looks from Chad and Tara, and you seem to be oblivious to it as you keep your eyes on the television.
By the second movie, youâve both gotten more comfortable, leaning into each otherâ and to Ethanâs surprise, you put your head on his shoulder. He looks around and no one notices. Not because they donât care, but because theyâre all asleep.
You fit so perfectly almost as if youâd been like this before, in a different lifetime of another universe.
Unbeknownst to Ethan, you had your own intent coming into this movie night, late on purpose and nerves taking away your courage in the absence of Ethan.
SUNDAY MORNING
Sometimes, youâd invite someone to get coffee with you when mornings were pleasant enough to be with other people.
Today, Tara said she was available to get coffee after youâd sent a text to the group chat asking if anyone wanted to comeâso you got coffee with her.
It wasnât your intention, but still, you end up at her apartment half an hour later, chatting about whatâs happened in the week.
Somehow the topic of dating has come up, and Tara rambles about Chadâs funny ideas about dates that you laugh at.
Much to your dismay, the question tumbles out of your mouth before you can stop it. âHow do I know if Iâm in love with someone?â
She canât read your face, itâs blank. But she can read your tone: the layer of uneasiness and worry that youâre trying to hard to bury and keep hidden. She tries her best not to show any emotion, either. Because there could only be two possible answer to the question Tara is about to ask.
âWho are you in love with?â
âWho said I was?â Quick answer, deflect the question.
âYouâre thinking it, though.â
âSo what if I am?â
And she just decides to lay it on the table. âIs it Peter?â
Your instinct is to laugh, because from your perspective, not a universe exists where you and Peter have any romantic connection. And you say, âWhy would it be Peter?â
Tara realizes youâre serious pretty quickly. âEverybody thinks that.â
Your face drops, brows furrow. âSeriously?â Tara nods.
âDoes Ethan think that?â
Tara smiles.
She has her answer.
PRESENT
The feeling of being close to him is intoxicating. You snake your hand toward his, playing with it until you loosely begin to hold his hand.
Your hand in mine feels right, he thinks. For a split second, his breath is stolen, but the tiny space between your palms get warmâhe can breatheâand the warmness travels throughout Ethanâs body and suddenly he wants to verbalize every unspoken word from each interaction with you, but all words come back to I love you I love you I love you.
But there is one thing.
âWhat about...â He whispers, gulps. âPeter?â
And thatâs when you finally look up at him and he turns his head to face yoursâa mistakeâyou are much too close for his heart not to burst. He can feel your breath and heâs sure you can feel his, and thereâs nothing else he can think of as he waits with bated breath for your response.
âWhy would I wanna be with him when I want to be with you?â
You say it so casually, so surely, as if youâre certain nothing can take away that statementâthat truthâfrom your grasp. The tone catches him so off guard that his words are lost for a moment.
Your eyes arenât expectant in that moment, though waiting. Youâre patient, as if you know what heâs going to say.
âWillââ he tries to be quiet, âwill you go on a date with me?â Your smile gets impossibly wider and it mirrors his.
âAlways.â
Tara, laying next to Chad nearbyâpretending to be asleepâsuppresses a grin of her own.
Additional A/N: personally i think their first date is at the diner !! and the diner staff see the progression of their relationship every wednesday lol and yes the chem partner is peter parker (specifically had andrewâs peter in mind, i think thatâs clear with the âtallâ if not the gwen part LMAO)
#ethan landry#ethan landry x reader#scream#scream vi#scream 6#ethan landry fluff#scream x reader#scream 6 x reader#jack champion
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not enough people are reveling in the horrors that is sephiroth having SEVERE CPTSD!!
HGGFJFHF YEAH
Also, on a few lists, âhyper-vigilanceâ was a symptomâŠwhichâŠ.bruh
I watched a documentary about kids with CPTSD and also one on attachment disorders in infants after maternal neglect a while ago, and basically, when they put well-adjusted kids in a room with each other and some adults, it was all smiles, trust, camaraderie, play, fun, etc.. Those babies were bright and looking at the adults all the time! They bonded really easily.
But the kids with either the attachment disorder or the CPTSD just sat there looking on high alert. They didnât sleep or rest, they didnât trust the adults. They looked anxious and they were babies :(
The kids with the maternal neglect issues were known to look around the room and at the doors like they were waiting for someone. Waiting for someone to come back. It made me cry at the time, dude.
Anyway, Sephiroth first reminded me of the kids with the attachment disorders when I was going through OG and he seemed like he was looking forâŠsomething. When he found Jenova, I was likeâŠâOH! WAIT IS THIS MOTHER THING DELIBERATEâŠâ
And when I got to Lucrecia, as soon as she said âI never even got to hold him,â it all clicked. That explained a LOT đ
I could not find hardly any analysis videos or forums on him (outside of tumblr) that even bothered to mention it. Itâs hopefully gonna change with FS!
But whatâs also becoming more blatant aside from the attachment disorder is the CPTSD, I agree. He showed up in episode 1 already a mess around the adults, not sure how to interact after isolation, really apologetic when he messed up and he wilted whenever Glenn yelled. Then we had that whole speech he gave when they confronted him about his ruthlessness and he basically gave away that he was trained to be afraid as a warrior. Deathly fearful, paranoid and reactive on the battlefield even with children and elderly because he believed heâd surely die if he hesitated or showed any compassion.
That basically means they beat fear into his head for a long time and put him in situations where he perfected the âkill or be killedâ mindset.
(Iâm so happy he does THIS with the Wutai troops as an adult though. HE LEARNED TO HESITATE AND OFFER HIS ENEMIES A CHANCE BEFORE JUST GOING FOR THE KILL SJDHDH)
But as for his younger self, what kid would be trained like that (especially by fucking Hojo) and not develop all of the exact traits Sephiroth has in these stories, honestlyâŠI canât even imagine.
He has the other symptoms of CPTSD too. He feels disconnected and different, he has serious issues with engaging or starting relationships, he dehumanizes himself, he speaks like the world is hopeless and HIS life is worthless outside of his missions, and he is apparently gonna say to Angeal something about them not being able to understand each other because of how they were raisedâŠ.which fits with the âfeeling like nobody can understand youâ symptom.
Ugh. This seems to be a big part of what he has and itâs at its worst right now in episode 2 because now itâs not just the isolated war machine childhood + the Hojo horrors fucking him up, but we got everything that happened in Rhadore too.
I mean yeah, no WONDER this kid is closed off and falling into the Alissa/Jenova/Masamune trap or whatever. I bet heâs gonna have a mini Nibelheim or some kind of breakdown, and my hopes are in Angealâs intervention. If anyone can get through to Sephiroth, itâs him.
#no you canât fix cptsd just like that but dammit get yourself an angeal hehe#makes things EASIER#i canât wait for seph to see that and open up to him because thatâs when weâll see how it got him to where he is in crisis core#still aloof and struggling but so much moreâŠalive and warm at the same time#*sobs*#ff7#sephiroth#angeal hewley#FS2#asks#anonymous
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*guy who loves talking about despair disease voice* wait can we talk more about despair disease. i have so many thoughts on despair disease and esp how it pertains to nagito
i feel like when a lot of people first play/watch the games they see nagito as someone who lies to manipulate people, which while i canât super blame them for thinking that way bc of how hajime tries to reconcile his conflicting feelings over nagito, i get SO frustrated when ppl call nagito a liar bc no!!! no heâs not!!! youâre falling for other charactersâ perceptions of him!!! nagito almost never lies and when he does heâs either really bad at it (cough cough final FTE. âi got it all from a bookâ you are not slick buddy) or comes clean as soon as heâs achieved his desired outcome- itâs more bluffing than actual deception, and one thing heâs especially sincere in is his beliefs and admiration for the people around him. and the despair disease PROVES this without a doubt!!
ok. i know in-text the despair disease is described as âreversing peopleâs personalities,â but iâve always interpreted it a little differently. ibuki isnât the opposite of gullible, akane isnât the opposite of a coward, and nagito isnât the opposite of a liar. to me, itâs always seemed like the despair disease gives its host the trait theyâd most hate to haveâ whatever trait would instill in them the deepest despair. ibuki hates conformity- stick her with a disease that makes her blindly follow whatever sheâs told. akane hates showing weakness- force her into a state of constant crying. nagito hates the idea of deceiving his classmates- make him incapable of being sincere. this interpretation makes mikanâs disease make a little more sense too imo, since remembering her brainwashing isnât exactly reversing her personality but instead literally filling her to the brim with despair. ANYWAYS.
nagito Actively Despises not being able to tell the truth. he hates the despair disease, he sees it as a complete waste. in the ult. luck and hope and despair mangas, we actually get to see some of his internal monologue right before he passes out, and he is In Hell. heâs pissed that he canât serve as a proper stepping stone in his state, he thinks the whole disease is stupid, and he gets so frustrated about not being able to properly encourage the group that he Literally Starts Foaming At The Mouth ????? like if you EVER wanted undeniable proof that nagito is sincere look at the despair disease. itâs basically a roundabout truth serum for him and thatâs a huge part of why itâs one of my favorite motives
sidenote i feel like the despair disease has a shit ton of analysis potential in general just bc of how it turns characters into what they hate the most!! i loveeee brainstorming what symptoms certain characters would have gotten were they to get infected. hajime especially. maybe heâd get a fawning disease where he starts praising everyone nagito-style (this would highlight their bystander parallels and also make hajime feel MISERABLE bc he fucking hates when nagito points out how similar they are lmao). or maybe heâd get an apathy disease thatâd essentially izuru-fy him (wonderful foreshadowing potential there, not to imagine the incredible angst of izuru being the thing hajime would hate to be most in the world.) alas i am not a fanfic author so i will sit with my concepts but it is a wonderful daydream with any dangan characters iâd highly recommend it :]
YEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEESSSS!!!!! I SCREAM IN UNISON WITH YOU I LOOOVEEE THE DESAIR DISEASE!!!!! MAN⊠IâM SO OBSESSED WITH HOW YOU INTERPRET AND ARTICULATED THE DESPAIR DISEASEđđđ The Despair Disease is genuinely so good for analyzing I really do believe Danganronpa 2 Chapter 3 is the best Chapter 3 out of the franchise. I think the reserving of their personalities truly meaning the traits they would hate to have is soo good Iâm eating up, sealing it in my heart, and using it forever such a delightful way to explain it. The interpretations on what disease Hajime would get is so fun, Iâve seen some people interpret him getting the honesty disease which is fun in concept but I donât think it works as well as other ideas could, yâknow? Your ideas for a potential apathy or fawning disease are really fun to me, I like the idea of the fawning disease tapping into how much of a realist he is and giving him the opposite attitude Lol. Thank you so much for sending this itâs so fun Iâll be thinking about this forever, I wish I was a fanfic writer aha! I really want to become a fanfic writer, soon with time I suppose. Thank you again for sharing your daydreams with me, youâre very right it does have a lot of analysis potential! :D
#despair disease#danganronpa 2#hajime hinata#sdr2#danganronpa 2 chapter 3#nagito komaeda#ibuki mioda#akane owari#danganronpa#danganronpa spoilers#danganronpa 2 spoilers#sdr2 nagito#danganronpa nagito#sdr2 komaeda#danganronpa komaeda#komaeda nagito#danganronpa goodbye despair#hajime#nagito#hinata#komaeda#sdr2 hajime hinata#izuru kamakura#danganronpa fandom#sorry this took so long to answer ahhhrbrjrnns#sdr2 nagito komaeda#dr2
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Are Louis and Lestat in an exclusive romantic relationship on the books? Show!stat likes 'variety' and the way I took it is as an open relationship, like they go out and have their fun, but the romantic attachment is exclusive and just the two of them, instead of a polyamorous relationship that has love among multiple people... Anyway, I'm asking because I'm trying to understand show!stat better lol. I don't think the show has been clear about it, but maybe they want us to be confused? That's their goal? Because I believe Lestat only goes to Antoinette after he gets the impression Louis is slipping away. And that he takes Louis' shame in vampirism as shame in being with him too? So I get him trying to find a distraction or whatever. But I struggle with understanding this, not because he's 'with' two partners, because I believe all relationship configurations are valid and well, if they live forever, maybe they need a more diverse sex life than us and sex doesn't equal love lol. But even in his 'non-exclusivity', Lestat is still... Exclusive? Like, he just seems to go to Antoinette. But he also doesn't seem to really care about her either, like, I know we only got Louis' POV and not his, but he let her lose a finger and kicked her out of her own home to have sex with Louis? If he was sleeping around it would've made more sense to me, like, yes, he needs diverse partners, scenarios, kinks etc to entertain his sex life. But this feels like having a side piece only because Louis is distant, but being ready to drop her as soon he feels like there isn't an obstacle anymore. Like, if Louis embraces vampirism, finds some peace with his existential crisis an grief and gets to a good, comfortable place in his life, maybe they can be fully together now. And if/when that happens, I'm not sure if Lestat would need more? Anyway, this makes me so confused, because he has this aura of an extroverted, social, sexy, life of the party etc kind of guy that you'd stereotype and associate with being eternally single, sleeping around etc. But he also took so long to try again after what happened between him and Nicky, then he was fell in love with Louis and stayed in NOLA because of him, they familial and domestic life with Claudia for years and were genuinely happy before everything... There are parts of him that feel pretty traditional and simple too. So I'm like that Oprah "what's the truth?' meme lol. Anyway, thank you and sorry this got so long.
:)) Lestat is⊠monogamous at heart. I think Sam said that at one point. He loves deeply, and fully, and fatally.
He loves Louis.
Their relationship is not the easiest. We have only seen an edited, distorted picture of it for now, we also know now that Louis (at least thinks) he made it awful for Lestat because he wanted to make Lestat suffer (as he was suffering).
Vampires have (what I call) feeding flings. What Louis does in SF. Fuck and kill. What Lestat obviously does, too, bc Louis expects Antoinette to burn when he comes back.
The problem is that she doesnât. Because sheâs more than a fling. She is a symptom of their problems. In the book Antoine later tells us (yes, in the book Antoine survives) that Lestat came to him to talk about what moved him, which he felt he couldnât at home, because he felt he would be ridiculed. Lestat in the show alludes to that when he rants about Claudia in Antoinetteâs bed (in the hotel). Antoinette was a retreat.
As such she is both less and more than an affair, something that is made clear by her getting turned later. We are led to believe he only turned her out of convenience, but Lestat always only turns people from or for love.
The edited tale tries to play up the cheating and jealousy aspect, but that is not (all) there is to it. Louisâ and Lestatâs main problem came imho, when Louis stopped feeding properly and stopped biting Lestat - the vicious circle that came with the lack of intimacy and bridging of the maker/fledgling barrier.
I talked about that here:
So the truth⊠the truth is itâs not as simple as we are led to believe. In their good times Louis had no problems inviting prey into his brothel to (fuck and) kill. Or the soldiers in s1. Louis did not even comment on them being in their bedroom :).
I think I would put it: theyâre as monogamous as vampires can be?^^
And weâll probably see more hints wrt s1 in s3 :)
#anonymous#ask nalyra#interview with the vampire#iwtv#amc iwtv#amc interview with the vampire#lestat de lioncourt#louis de pointe du lac#loustat#intimacy#antoinette brown#iwtv s1#feeding flings#monogamy
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I have a request for you
TW: mentions of being sick (like a cold)
Hey I'm feeling a bit sick so I was wondering if you could write how Mickey "Fanboy" Garcia,Jake "Hangman" Seresin, Robert "Bob" Floyd and Bradley "Rooster" Bradshaw would do that or something?
You don't have to I was just wondering
Sick Days
Pairing: x gn!reader
Fandom: Top Gun: Maverick
Summary: Youâre not feeling well. Luckily the Navyâs best is a pretty good nurse. Just some headcanons about how our favorite flyboys react to you being sick :)
Request: yes
Warnings: being sick (symptoms similar to a head cold), medicine
Authorâs note: this is my first request???? Wtf?? And I hope you feel better hun!! <3 this is actually a little late cause I got sick too so perfect timing haha. Also first time writing for most of these characters! I hope you enjoy!!
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Robert âBobâ Floyd:
My guy gets so worried
Does a quick little Google search to make sure heâs giving you the best medicine for your symptoms
He will make sure youâre so comfy in bed
Youâre surrounded on all side by pillows and blankets and tissues
Itâs a glorious nest
Heâll make you tea with honey to soothe your throat and help you drink it
Constantly checks in on you to make sure youâre still doing okay
Barely leaves your side
When he does, heâs texting you constantly
Like seriously, heâll be in the kitchen and text you
[are you feeling alright?]
[Robby, you saw me thirty second ago]
[just checking]
Not to mention he cannot say no to you while youâre sick
You wanna watch that horror movie he despises? Anything for you
You wanted to know if heâd make his mamaâs famous biscuits? Say no more
Literally pampers you
Bradley âRoosterâ Bradshaw:
Mama Carol taught this boy the âšbestâš soup recipe
Like it cures all
The second you sniffle or cough, heâs racing to the store to get the ingredients
Rooster is such an acts of service person, so heâd totally make this soup to show his love
Heâll do everything within his power to make you better: soup, make sure you get plenty of sleep, get your medicine, and if you claim a kiss will make you better? How can he resist
Definitely goes a little bit overboard in his caring
The softest, sweetest voice while heâs talking to you
âHey, chicken. You gotta eat. I made my momâs famous soupâ
Will rub your back as he sings you to sleep
While you sleep, he gets the soup put away and makes dinner
Except to pampered, you will not be lifting a finger
No cooking, no cleaning for like a month after you get sick
Roosterâs taking care of it all (and if he misses his training, heâll get Mav to understand)
Jake âHangmanâ Seresin:
Heâs a complicated man
You mention youâre sick and his immediate response is âdonât get me sickâ
You cough or sneeze and heâs out of bed in an instant
And itâs hurts, like does he really prioritize not getting over your well being
You wallow in self pity for ten minutes until he comes back in with a box of tissues, cough medicine, some water, and a large glass of orange juice
âYou were out of orange juice so I went to get some, babeâ
He left to get you some âsick suppliesâ to get you better faster
Cause heâs a sweetheart when he wants to be, and heâs gotta make sure his sweetheart is good to go
He makes you stick to Navy routine:
Medicine every few hours, drinking a glass of water every hour, taking your temperature intermittently
Itâs funny honestly, cause heâs never cared for the rules but the second youâre sick heâs the biggest stickler for the rules ever
âNo, baby, you gotta take the medicine. Itâll help you feel betterâ
âJakey, I donât want toâ
âCâmon, sooner youâre better, sooner I can kiss youâ
You think over his words for a second before holding out your hand and letting him hand you the pills
Heâs gonna get you better as soon as possible (he really misses your kisses)
Mickey âFanboyâ Garcia:
Heâs the type to try to distract you
You arenât feeling well? Time to break out the jokes
Dances like an idiot when he delivers you soup or juice or anything like that
And donât get me started on how intuitive he is (thatâs what he gets from being a backseater)
You want soup? Stoveâs already on
Need some water? Full glass is already ok the nightstand
Out of tissues? Whereâd that new box come from?
Literally anticipates your every need
And if you just want cuddles? This is your man
He will cuddle your sickness away
âBabe, I donât think thatâs how it worksâ âshhhhhhâ
He will let you lay your head on his chest as your watch dorky shows and he really earns his call sign as âFanboyâ
Definitely the one to subtly try and slip you medicine so you donât notice and wonât taste it
One of the bestest boys to have with you while youâre sick 10/10
#bob floyd#robert bob floyd#bob floyd fluff#top gun maverick x reader#jake seresin x reader#mickey garcia x reader#bradley bradshaw x reader#bob floyd x reader#jake hangman seresin#bradley rooster bradshaw#mickey fanboy garcia#top gun fluff#rooster x reader#hangman x reader#fanboy x reader#rooster fluff#hangman fluff#lewis pullman#miles teller#glen powell#danny ramirez
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