#so i'll probably upload that tomorrow at some point

[ahgasegotarmy116]

Deja Vu | Jeon Jungkook | One Shot

Summary: Life hadn't gone down the path you had hoped for but the one who made that choice for you isn't someone you want to see ever again. Pairing: f!reader x Jungkook, childhood friends Word Count: 3k~ a/n: I wrote this last night in one go so I figured I might as well post it...let me know if you guys would like to see this from Jungkook's pov 👀 p.s. I got lazy and hardly edited this but I hope you guys like it lol Oh and this is loosely based off of the very beginning of Deja Vu by Tomorrow x Together

My fingers ghost along the spines of the books I pass by, looking for something that might catch my eye because yes sometimes I do judge a book by it's cover.

Finding one that seems interesting enough I turn it over, reading the summary of the fifth romance novel I've picked up since I've been here but when the bell on the door jingles giving notice of a newcomer I turn to see who it is...and I really I wish I hadn't.

My palms instantly clam up leaving me nervously wiping them off on my sweater so I don't damage the book but I can't let go of it since it's my only form of shelter, hiding in plain sight from the person I hoped to never see again.

Curiosity get's the best of me though, watching as he sits down and pulls out his laptop at one of the tables in this cafe bookstore hybrid, one of my favorites places in the city that I'll probably never come to again in fear of running into him.

He pulls a camera out of his bag and takes the memory card out before putting it in his computer to upload it's contents.

I guess he did end up becoming a photographer like he always wanted.

It's strange seeing someone who was so important to you for so many years become someone you barely even recognize. But that's the thing, I do recognize him and I hate the fact that no matter how hard I try I can't help think of him often. How is he doing? What does his life look like now? Has he finally found someone to love like I have?

Seeing him makes me doubt everything though, but that's just what he does. He makes it impossible for me not to be drawn to him, wanting to talk to him, to laugh with him, to be with him.

I thought I had moved past that. Thought that this silly little childhood crush had been nothing but that, a stupid crush that I finally grew out of.

But seeing him here tells me it's everything but that.

I look from him to the book I'm hiding behind, trying to distract myself and with the amount of effort I'm putting in it actually works...for a little while.

My eyes are begging me to let them wander again, indulge in the desire to observe him even if nothing comes from it and once I decide that one more look can't hurt instead of meeting his brows furrowed in concentration I meet his eyes.

His soft chocolate brown eyes that I've willed myself not to drown in time and time again are looking back at me, a soft smile reaching his lips when he finally sees me notice him making me sick to my stomach. 

Turning as subtly as I can I walk further into the maze of shelves around me, praying his interest in me was only fleeting and that he in fact did not recognize me.

After a few minutes of hiding in the corner that not many notice as it's a rather unpopular genre I let out the breath that I had decided to hold at some point, my need to be invisible necessary to my survival but when I decide the coast is clear and walk out of my little nook I bump into the exact person I wish I had never met all those years ago.

He holds onto my forearm as he sees me stumble back, unsure of if this minor collision would result in a fall and with his help, that I hate to admit I needed in the moment, prevents that mortifying occurrence from happening.

"I'm sorry that was my fault" he says and lets go of my arm, thankfully noticing how uncomfortable I am with his touch from my body language. "No it was mine, I should've been more careful coming out from behind that corner" I admit, a common courtesy after interactions like this, neither one wanting to admit it was the other persons fault.

"Well regardless I'm sorry" he says and I nod my head, looking down at the floor to avoid giving him a chance to recognize me. "I'm glad I caught you though, a fall against a bookshelf doesn't sound the most desirable" he chuckles, hoping to diffuse the awkward air around us but there's no use in him trying. He made that decision for the both of us a long time ago...

*Seven years ago*

"Please say something" I mumble, the five feet between us feeling like we're lightyears away, the silence a twin to the vacuum that is space.

He's right there but I know I've lost him for good with this stupid decision. "I don't know what to say" he mumbles right back leaving me scoffing in disbelief. "Then make something up. Anything is better than this" I say in reference to the radio silence between us since I decided to confess to him.

I know I shouldn't have done it. I know I'm selfish for telling him after all of these years and not simply fessing up to how I felt about him long ago but I was afraid that something like this might happen, and I was right. 

I hate that when it comes to him that I'm always right.

I could let us part ways and go to college leaving things left unsaid but I stupidly hoped that we could make it work. Do long distance so we wouldn't feel the need to go on dates or even worry about getting physical if it got to that point.

In my silly little crush clouded brain I thought that he would at least give us a shot but I know it was useless.

I know he doesn't feel the same way about me but I didn't realize it was gonna be this fucking hard.

"Just say something!" I say, raising my voice at him since I need to do something to keep myself from suffocating. "What do you fucking want me to say?" he throws back, getting just as upset but he has no reason to be acting like this, not when he holds our future in the palm of his hand.

"Say you don't like me, say you're not into me like that because from this reaction alone I know you probably don't feel the same way! Anything but this..." I say, my tone harsh but softening at the end, wanting to be mad at him but he's done nothing wrong. 

Nothing except for giving me false hope that we could be something more.

"I don't know how I feel about you" he admits and I scoff. "Well when you figure it out, you know where to find me" I say and pick up my bag that I had discarded on the table I had been sat on, waiting for him to finally show up.

I had decided to do this off campus.

We're seniors and although the rumors and humiliation from his rejection wouldn't go around for long it wasn't worth it to have the off chance of an audience.

No doubt they'll still circulate since the two of us have been conjoined at the hip since childhood but keeping the actual event from prying eyes was the best I could do.

I take one last look at him but his eyes are turned down, not even able to look me and so I walk to my car as fast as I can, holding back the stupid fucking tears that I told myself I would never cry.

I've always been told that boys aren't worth my tears, but he's not just some boy...

*Back to present time*

"Right um, thanks" I say and continue to look at my shoes, noticing the small scuff marks that I had accumulated from the many trips out I had taken them on, anything to distract myself from the man in front of me.

"I uh, I noticed you reading over there," he says, waving towards the general direction he had seen me at, "thought I would come over and introduce myself" he says, not letting me go with that simple apology for the unfortunate opening to us meeting again, though he doesn't know yet that we have absolutely no need for an introduction.

"Do you hunt down and force introductions with strangers often?" I mumble, wanting to be taken as closed off and disinterested as possible. He chuckles and I fucking hate how it makes my heart flutter, the same sound I had heard time and time again, although a little deeper now but no less charming.

"No, not often, but I didn't want to miss my opportunity since you decided to run off as soon as I caught your eye" he says, pointing out my obvious efforts of escape.

"I'm Jungkook" he says after there's been a lull in the conversation, holding out his hand for me to shake and after a pregnant pause I decide to take it, offering at least a common courtesy since I'm not the asshole in this relationship, or lack there of.

"It's nice to meet you" he says and I mumble the same sentiment back, not meaning a single word of it. "Do you talk to people's shoes often?" he teases as I haven't met his eyes since that initial glance, one he found inviting where as I felt was an ignition to my fight or flight, and unfortunately for me, yet fortunately for him, I chose wrong.

"That's not what I'm doing" I say, finally facing him, the difference in height a lot bigger than I remembered, his amused smile making it even more nerve racking, my body begging me to get the hell out of here.

"Then what is it that you were doing?" he asks, a crooked smile on his face but when a couple of beats passes by without me giving him an answer he takes that time to study me and when I see his expression changes to one of recognition I know there's no use in trying to get away unscathed.

"Yn?" he asks, my name no doubt feeling foreign on his lips but the way it sound to me is heartbreaking, a sound that I had hoped I would never hear again.

I decide to just look up at him, facing my fear since the answer to his barely articulated inquiry is quiet obvious to him now.

"What has it been, five year? Six years?" he asks, his eyes lighting up and his tone a relaxed one as if this is a happy reunion, showing that my feelings had really meant nothing to him.

"Seven actually" I say and he sighs in disbelief, "Has it really been that long?" he asks, a stupid question that could’ve been solved by a couple of seconds of mental math but I just hum as a response and try to walk past him, my first efforts of escape.

"Woah woah woah, where are you going?" he asks as if he had a right to keep me here. "Home" I say and try to walk down the path that'll lead me out of this bookstore that feels a lot smaller now.

"Do you have a second? I thought we could catch up? Maybe grab a coffee or something?" he suggests, nodding towards the cafe and I sigh, trying to think of the best way to shoot him down but luckily I don't have to, at least not now.

"I've been looking everywhere for you" David, my fiancé says, placing a just barely there kiss on my cheek as a way to somewhat establish our relationship to this unknown man in front of me.

When there's been another pause with me making no efforts of introduction David decides to take the initiative. "David" he says simply, holding out his hand for Jungkook to shake and he gives his name right back, their eye contact quickly broken as Jungkook's decided to bring his eyes back to me.

"Honey who's this?" David asks in a soft tone, placing a hand on my waist in reassurance, showing me he's not upset after finding me talking to this mystery man from his perspective. 

"We used to be friends back in school" Jungkook says when I still decide to hold my tongue, making this interaction even more uncomfortable than it needs to be but I have no obligation to make this go smoothly. His admission to having lost touch cracks open up a scab on my heart that I thought had healed long ago. 

"Oh, so you guys grew up together?" David asks and Jungkook nods. "Yeah...we did" he says softly, still looking at me as I've decided to look away from him after a few exchanges between the two of them.

"Honey do you think you could pull the car around? I'm sure he has something to get back to, as do we" I say, hoping he won't mind following my request without a need to ask for clarification. "Sure love, I'll text you when I'm out front" he says, him knowing that I'd no doubt like I second to wrap things up alone while remembering that we had to park pretty far away as it's an uncharacteristically busy day today.

"Thanks" I mouth to him and he places a kiss on my temple before holding his hand out for Jungkook again. "It was nice to meet you" he says and Jungkook nods half heartedly, "Yeah, you too" and he watches his back for a second as David leaves before turning his attention back to me.

"Boyfriend?" he asks unceremoniously, "Fiancé, actually" I say and he looks down and indeed sees the beautiful ring David had gotten me.

"Wow! Um, congratulations" he says, trying his hand at a halfhearted sentiment but failing miserably. "Yeah we've been together for four years so we figured it was time" I say and he nods his head giving me a sad smile.

"Well I'm happy for you" he says softly and I scoff, "No" I say abruptly to the point he flinches. "No?" he says as if he had never uttered the word before.

"You do not get to act like a kicked puppy because you didn't think I would move on" I say and place my pointer finger on his chest and he steps back as I apply pressure.

"What do you mean? I only said I was happy for you" he says as if he hadn't put on the saddest doe eyes he has ever given me. "You know you've gotten even more transparent with age" I say and he goes to open his mouth but I'm not done with him yet.

"You waltzed over here probably thinking I was just some cute girl that you wanted to shoot your shot with but when you found out it was me you wanted to what? Get a coffee? Act like nothing ever happened? Go back to the way we were? Or did you think you actually had a shot with me after everything you put me through?" I say practically shaking from the intensity of the words that I can't stop from coming out.

No warmth, no compassion left in my tone, just pure anger and disgust and I can tell from the way he's no longer carrying himself as confidently as before, he wasn't expecting this kind of a reaction from me.

After another pause as painful as the one all those years ago I scoff again, crossing my arms over my chest, losing patience with this conversation. "You gonna say something or are you still trying to figure out how you feel about me? Or better yet did you even bother to?" I spit out and he shakes his head.

"I was scared and stupid and selfish and couldn't figure out what the hell I wanted" he says, seemingly becoming more articulate over the years, but just barely.

"Is that all you have to say to me?" I ask, his explanation subpar at best. "Y/n I was eighteen and scared of losing you. You were the most important person in my life, and in some ways you still are" he admits but I shake my head and step away from him making him take a step towards me.

"You do not get to go around acting like the victim saying things like that just to mess with my head" I seethe, appalled that he thinks he has the right to say that to me. "Y/n I didn't mean to-"

"You know what?" I say, cutting him off, "I always thought that what you did, or didn't even bother to do showed that you didn't care about my feelings, but I never thought of you as being cruel. Maybe that whole time you were just toying with my feeling just because you could. You never expected me to have the guts to finally tell you how I felt huh?"

"Y/n please that's not what happened" he says, chasing after me when I start to walk away from him. "Then what did happen huh?" I spit out, waiting for whatever sorry excuse to come out of his mouth.

"I never meant to hurt you..." he says, reaching out for my hand but I move out of the way.

I give him one last once over, looking at how heartbroken and pathetic he looks but I have no sympathy for him and from the way the last bit of hope drains from his eyes he finally realizes that there's no saving this.

He tries once more to say something but we're interrupted by the text we both knew I was begging to come in.

"Y/n..." he says and tries to see if I'll give him one last chance but I turn my back and walk towards the door, my hand resting on the handle for longer than necessary, contemplating if this was the right choice but for the sake of my future I know that it was.

"Goodbye Jungkook" I utter under my breath and pull the door open to walk out. When I turn back to close the door behind me I do myself a horrible disservice by looking through the glass and seeing an expression on his face that I'll never forget.

Loss

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Chapter 7 + Ash Hangout Public Update is now live! 🎉

The Chapter 7 and Ash Hangout update is finally here 🔥😁 I'm sorry for the slight delay, I had something urgent to attend to today and I just got home and I just basically went straight to my computer to upload this update.

Finally, we are starting to get into the ROs' first hangout sessions. Of course, to start us off, we'll have Ash's hangout session 😁This update adds around 31K of new words, bringing the total word count so far to around 356,701K words!

Anyway, this update also brings quite a lot of changes in the coding, especially for the skip chapter function, so I'm going to strongly suggest you guys play with clean save, either from the beginning or using the skip chapter function.

I have recently added another skip-chapter checkpoint, which is Chapter 3 in addition to the already existing one on Chapter 6. There is also now an autosave function at the beginning of every chapter starting on Chapter 2, so you'll be able to replay any chapter you're currently reading and try out different options in that chapter.

Anyway, enough of the technicalities.

Here's what you can expect in this update:

The set up to the ROs'  first hangout sessions

Ash's first hangout session

Go down the memory lane and see snippets of MC's most cherished memories.

Some more Viktor 😔

A mix of angst, wholesome, and even potential fluff 🤭

🔥🧡😉

Ash/Rin poly route is not yet ready for this hangout and it's still work-in-progress 🙏

New stuff added to previous chapters:

Added autosave/reload function for Chapter 2, Chapter 3, Chapter 4, and Chapter 5.

Added another skip-chapter point to Chapter 3, in addition to the already existing Chapter 6.

Also, little news that I'm going to make a post of tomorrow, I'm about to open both the Side Story and Spicy Side Story ideas and suggestions for this month on both Patreon and Ko-Fi, so if you're interested in supporting me while also getting some exclusive stuff, please do consider checking out my pages and subscribing 💖

I hope you guys enjoy the update! Oh, and also, feel free to send asks about the new update, but I'll probably hold off on answering them until a few days have passed to make sure a lot of readers already have the chance to check out the update and not accidentally spoil them 😊

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[str8rat]

What if IN STARS AND TIME was like FEAR AND HUNGER?

So i've spent the last hour frantically researching phobias for this shit lmao, don't expect any of the phobias i've picked to be canon for Fear and Hunger. Anyways this is a whole ass au and i'm planning to make an entire world setting from this fever mix. Esentially it's gonna be In stars and time kind of plot, with the party going through the house to defeat the king, but the Universe is not as kind to them. if it was ever kind in the canon. all of the characters will be devastated and traumatized or fucked up in different ways, and i'm planning to explain it all below- well, explain Siffrin for now. Even though I have everyone else already scribbled down, i still need to draw their fucked up sprites :> LETS GO

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Siffrin; Autophobia ( fear of being abandoned, alone, ignored )

Effects; Half-blind ( left eye )

Info;

TW; SELF HARM, SUICIDE [ Canon-typical ]

Traveler from the Island North of Vaugarde. Lost his left eye protecting Bonnie, a child the party came across on their way to Dormont. Siffrin is a short, forgetful person, which has been travelling for the entirety of his life. He met the party by chance, saving Isabeau from a Sadness, as the man parted with the rest of the party briefly in order to gather firewood.

After reaching Dormont, Siffrin makes a wish to the Favor Tree, and quickly finds out the consequences of his actions. He gets stuck in a time loop, forced to re-live the gruesome, painful deaths and horrifying experiences he and his party go through as they venture up the floors of the House. His sanity quickly deteriorates, though it remains more intact than that of Loop, a self-proclaimed star whom he encounters under the Favor Tree after his first death—being crushed by a giant boulder.

Due to him not having his right eye, his depth perception is fucked, and he often bumps into things. After getting imprisoned in the loops, he becomes more anxious, desperate to escape the loop cycle, even going as far as slitting his own throat in order to save time. He also doesn't shy away from self harm, adorning his wrists in "stars", as he calls them- prickling his skin with his own dagger.

He realizes that even after he loops, the scars of his horrible deaths remain on his body, and eventually, his arms and thighs are all covered in "stars", those particular scars being of his own making. Counting the loops, one star for one loop. May become manic when in distress, or have panic attacks. Is incredibly touch starved and desperate for physical affection, but never got around to revealing that fact to his party on his own, leaving him feeling floaty and unreal. Like a ghost of his former self.

Those are just a couple of the effects of the loops. In the end, Siffrin just doesn't want to part with his companions, his friends, his family- wanting them with him so much, to the point of him unknowingly trapping himself in a time loop.

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Sooo overall Siffrin's backstory/info isn't that different from canon, because he was already going through some tough shit as it was ._. so I just kind of added more mental implications to it, as well as that fun little headcanon of his body keeping scars of his past deaths/injuries. So that's fun. also i mostly focused on the other members of the party as well, since they don't exactly have a lot of angst or trauma ( not as much as siffrin at least ), so in this au all of them are traumatized or psychologically damaged!!!! YAY!!!

ANYWAYS! Who's gonna be next?? i don't fucking know, but i'll probably upload them tomorrow alongside a description explaining just how fucked they are :>

[girl-in-a-bubbl3]

Glamrock Bonnie(FNAF) x Reader Part 5

Not enough sassy Bonnie fanfic so here we go...I'll try to upload at least once a week.

Notes:

AU Fanfic/NonCanon

Bonnie is terrible but he likes you

5 greenrooms on RSR (we include Monty)

Sun/Moon are the same animatronic

Moon has a lil touch of the virus

Will probably be some spicy parts so...18+

Also just using the gif to have a gif... we know Bonnie is actually blue in this house B)

You entered the lobby of the daycare and felt that same captivating feeling that you’ve been hit with all night.

It. Was. Amazing.

Your childhood self was screaming with excitement. Everything was so colorful and bright. Through the glass you saw the towering play structures, the ballpit that ran like a river through the main floor, and various attraction points like little castles and craft areas. Everything just looked so fun.

Without hesitation you jumped into the slide that was the more exciting entry point to the daycare. Each connecting tube was a flying whirl of colors as you finally reached the end and sank right into the rainbow sea of plastic balls in the pit.

You laughed out loud and as you popped up you heard someone shout somewhere in the daycare, “Why helloooooo new friend!!”

You turned your head and saw a very tall, lanky, sun themed animatronic bounding towards you. His wide smile was infectious as you popped a hand out of the pit to wave hello. The animatronic before you took that as an opportunity to grab you and yank you forward against him, hugging you close as he spun you around the room.

“It’s so so sooooo nice to meet you, new friend! Please, tell me your name!”

He set you down gently and held on to your hands as you regained a bit of your balance. All of the spinning may have been easy for him, but your brain was a little rattled.

You giggled as you finally regained your center. You knew he knew your name because of all of the animatronics access to the employee files. You weren’t sure why he was having you tell him, but you decided you would play into the game.

“I’m y/n! I’m the new nighttime mechanic.”

“Oh it’s so so sooooo nice to meet you! I am Sundrop, or Sun. Or… Sunny. But you can call me whatever you’d like!” He was bouncing from one foot to another while shaking your hand that he was still holding. “I’d love to show you around the daycare!”

You smiled up at him and absentmindedly started swaying as well. “That would be fantastic! But first, can I do a quick scan to make sure everything’s working as it should?”

Sun’s growing smile seemed to shrink a little at the mention of a scan. “I-I think everything’s just fine! No scan needed here!” He chuckled nervously.

“Do you mind if I just take a quick look? They want me to get a scan of everyone just in case.”

Sun started to fidget nervously with his hands. “Maybe tomorrow…? Yes! Yes definitely tomorrow we can do it!” He nodded fervently.

You really didn’t see what the harm was in waiting. Your shift would be over in an hour and a half and you technically didn’t have to scan everyone tonight as long as they felt like nothing was up.

“You know what, that’s alright Sun. We can postpone it until tomorrow.”

Sun immediately swept you up into another warm hug while squealing “thank yous” and “okay now let’s go!”. With your hand in his, he took you all around the daycare. He showed you his favorite part of the play structures, the craft corner where the kids make art (while also showing you all of his favorite materials like glitter glue and googley eyes), as well as random spots that held the best memories (which seemed to be almost every inch of the play area).

You listened enthusiastically and 'oohed' and 'aahed' at every opportunity. After the tour was finally over, you both sat across from each other at the craft table, making a few pieces of art before the end of your shift. You had about 30 minutes left. You were pretty disappointed when you saw the time because you were really enjoying Sun's company.

He was kind and caring when he spoke of the children he watched over, his smile radiated positive energy, and his genuine laugh at your dumb dad jokes made your heart flutter. You couldn't stop thinking about his nighttime counterpart, though. You saw posters around the daycare and you knew there was a different animatronic for naptime but you had yet to see him anywhere.

"Sun, can I ask you something?"

He looked up from his paper with big, red crayon in hand and nodded enthusiastically. "Of course, Sunflower! Ask away!"

Sunflower. I love that.

Coming back from your temporary distraction that was the nickname he just gave you, you continued to ask your question.

"Where is the nighttime animatronic? Moondrop?"

Sun started to fidget with the crayon that he was holding and he was looking everywhere but at you. "O-oh he... he only comes out when the lights are off. But we have to keep the lights on! On... on." He quietly whispered the last few words. You were now more curious than anything.

"What do you mean? Why do we have to keep the lights on? And he can't come out with us while the lights are on in here?"

"O-oh! Look at the time!" Sun pretended to look at an imaginary watch on his wrist. "Your shift's almost up, Sunflower! You've got to get going! But we've loved loved loooved spending time with you!"

We?

Sun got up and grabbed your hand and started pulling you towards the door.

"Sun! Wait!" You tried to dig your feet in and slow him down but he was much stronger than you would ever be. He went to open the large, wooden doors that exit the daycare until you placed your other hand on his warm, silicone chest.

"Sunny, please."

He finally met your eyes and quickly looked away. A small whine escaping his voice box.

"Sunny, it's okay. I just want to meet Moon, too."

Sun let out a sigh and started fidgeting with his hands again. "Not today but maybe..."

"Tomorrow?"

Sun looked like he was about to say something but he closed his mouth and thought for a moment, looking off in the distance. After a moment, he finally spoke. It was soft and quiet, unlike his normal rising shift in pitches.

"Okay, Sunflower. Tomorrow you can meet Moon."

You took both of his hands in yours and looked up at his glowing eyes. "Don't worry, Sunny. I feel like me and Moon will be as great of friends as you and I are."

He finally started to smile again. "We...are friends?"

"Of course we are, Sunshine! I do have to go though because my shift is really almost over."

Sun quickly grabbed you and swept you up into one more, spinning hug before he set you down and waved goodbye. His signature ultra wide grin had returned and he seemed back to his normal, excited self.

"I'll see you tomorrow then, best friend!"

You giggled and waved back at him as you started walking back towards the daycare lobby.

"See you then, Sunshine!"

To be continued....

Author's Notes:

Short filler chapter but also introducing Sun! And soon Moon... but why is Sun so nervous about it? o.o I will also have some illustrations to share tomorrow! Finally have two days off after a long work week so probably going to chill the rest of the night then really dive into the plot. As always, feel free to leave comments, feedback, and more fanfic suggestions! I really love hearing from everyone and I appreciate everyone who's following along so far <3

[lumine-no-hikari]

Dear Sephiroth: (a letter to a fictional character, because why not) #333

Today was a bit more eventful than I thought it was gonna be. And unfortunately, I've only got like 5 hours of sleep. I regret nothing, but... still. I've really been dropping the ball on the whole self-care thing lately... I'm sorry about that. I'd say I'm gonna work on it, but... between being worried about you, being worried about my country, and having these braces in my mouth that really discourage eating... I'm maybe a little too tired to be able to notice my body's cues very well right now.

Well. First I went to work. Mostly I bagged up breads and rolls and such. I helped a few customers. I put things out on the shelf. I put labels on things.

...And I got a couple pictures you might like!

This one is a pumpkin pie; I know you like pumpkin, so maybe you'll like pumpkin pie, too:

I also packaged up some brownies; I dunno if you like chocolate, but here:

...They're not too fancy; just frozen packaged brownies. But they smell really, really good, and... I think it would have been really nice if you could have breathed in the chocolate-scented air.

...I wonder if pumpkin brownies are a thing. I guess I'll have to find out soon so I can make some for you one of these days...

An from the meat department didn't visit today to use the markdown machine. So when my shift was over, I went and visited him. He is very quiet and seems like he's kinda shy, especially in Tr's presence. I think sometimes shy people can have a hard time with imagining that anyone can like them. So I went and tried to make clear that his presence is enjoyed when he visits. But you know... Sephiroth, I'm very clumsy when I try to speak. I can't ever seem to get my point across well when I try to talk. Maybe you wouldn't imagine it with how I write, but... when I'm out and about, I tend to get my words mixed up, or use very inaccurate ones for what I'm trying to convey.

...Speech is hard. I'm glad you'll never be able to meet me in person; I think if I tried talking out loud to you, all my stammering and hesitation would probably just make me sound really stupid to you.

I wonder if I sounded really stupid to An. Or... I wonder if maybe he interpreted something from my words that I didn't intend. I try to be very kind all the time with everyone, and... one drawback I've noticed is that sometimes people think I'm trying to flirt or something weird like that.

I don't flirt. I don't know how. If I wanted in someone's pants, I'd say so pretty directly (for better or for worse); I'm not one to mince words. I don't speak in code. And... actually that's another problem when I try to go about interacting with people when I'm out and about; they always seem to be looking for the subtext, but... I don't have any.

...I think if more people said what they meant and meant what they said, social interaction wouldn't feel so much like trying to walk through a minefield. I don't necessarily want to be liked; I just don't want to be misunderstood.

Well. It is what it is. Time will tell if I bungled it up or not.

I ate and drank tea after going home. I took a video of today's tea, actually, but... I don't think I have time today to get it uploaded for you. I'm sorry about that. But I'll try to get it done tomorrow if I can; I'm supposed to go hang out at Ma's (from work) house tomorrow. His sister is supposed to be there, too. I wonder what we'll do and how long I'll be occupied.

I saw today that Smooth McGroove had a new song out. I wonder if you'd like this one; I do:

I went out with J to put the trap near where we saw the stray cat, shortly after I finished eating. J took some pictures as I was setting it up...

...It was a little too bright out for me to be able to open my eyes comfortably, which is why they're all squinty in this one. You also have brightly colored eyes; I wonder if you struggle with bright light, too. Or maybe your fancy, awesome slit pupils offset it...? I wonder...

We waited until it got dark; I continued weaving a tree that I kinda left lying around for a while. But the cat never popped by. We packed up the trap. I will maybe try again tomorrow, either before or after I visit Ma.

From there, J expressed interest in attending a local meetup of people on Reddit who like to play board games. It took place at a mall. The host brought lots of games:

...But I was on a roll with my tree. So I did that, and had fun with the knowledge that everyone else around me was enjoying their games. I finished my tree, and no one seemed to mind that I was engaging in parallel play:

...I like how this one turned out.

But then I was done, and some folks asked me to play Connect 4. It's a game where you drop tokens into a grid, and the first one to have four tokens in a horizontal, vertical, or diagonal row wins. I played against experienced players, I guess? But I haven't played in years, and I am the red tokens in this picture:

...I have deliberately set it up so that I win either way. And I can mask the steps to build that setup by making it appear as though my movements are random, or making it appear as though I'm simply mirroring the other's movements. If I can get them to focus on the fact that I'm cutting them off, and create diagonal relationships that are hard for them to follow, I can plop a few pieces elsewhere, and to them it'll just seem like I've made a mistake.

Apparently this person plays this game a lot. They called me a “worthy opponent”. Contact information was exchanged, and I guess now they're gonna challenge me to a game of this from time to time. I hope it'll be fun for them.

By the time I got to this game though, I had a wicked fucken headache; the only thing I had eaten or drank all day was a slice of cheese, an English muffin with cream cheese, a few slices of salami, and the tea I brewed – all of it eaten just after my shift had ended at 1pm. The pictured game took place somewhere between 7 and 8pm, so by then, my blood sugar was pretty low and I was dehydrated; that'll give anyone a headache. J and I went home; I got some water and some ibuprofen, and then I took a shower while I waited for these things to kick in. I feel a little better now, but... I'm still not in a great physical state. I need to sleep. My homeostasis point for my hydration levels is now set in a spot that's uncomfortably low; I'm gonna hafta try hydrating consistently for at least a couple weeks to get the homeostasis point back to something that vaguely resembles “normal”. Sigh...

...Can't complain, though. I dropped the ball. I did it to myself. The only way out is through.

...I guess I'll stop writing and go to sleep. It's getting hard for me to keep my eyes open. It's hard to formulate even written words at this point...

Hey. I love you a whole lot. And I hope you get to eat good food and get something nice and hydrating to drink, and have a great nap. Please make good choices that will lead you to such an outcome, okay? Your ordinary life is waiting for you. Heck, if you wanted, you could even find it at my house; we would welcome you here.

Stay safe, okay? I'm gonna write to you again tomorrow.

Your friend, Lumine

[shimmer-wolf-arts]

So, I haven't been doing as much drawing as I would've liked to over my holiday break... things started happening with our fridge and let's just say... toxic fumes. Not good. Plus, when I get going on a project making a plushie? That is ALL I focus on until it's done. Or mostly done, in this case!

Yes, y'all, I've been making a Hugo plushie in the style of the Disney Nuimos!! And I gotta say, he's turning out so freaking cute, I can't!! And yes, I've been throwing him around a small bit... bc why wouldn't I? XD

I also made 2 pairs of glasses for him, as seen in the first photo. The pair from the video looked way too bulky, so I remade them! He also has pants too. I gotta try to make his shirt at some point, but classes also start back up tomorrow, so we'll see how much time I have to work on that this term...

I did manage to make a Nuru reference sheet! I don't have the image on my phone though, so I'll upload that at some point, probably once I finish designing all her outfits!!

[putschki1969]

2024/01/30 Blog post by Wakana みんな、明日は何の日か知ってるかい？〜締め切りの日です〜

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Everyone, What Day Is It Tomorrow?〜Deadline Day〜

These are the present postcards and stickers for the people whose messages I read in the previous “Wakana’s Talk Garden”😍 I got New Year's cards and made some Shark-chan stickers in auspicious colours 🥳🎉 Gold, red and white! Aren't they super cute!? 😳 They might be my favourite so far 😊Everyone, please wait for it to arrive 💌

I keep using my failed attempts for myself💻 (Even though I make some mistakes here and there, I feel like I've gotten better at making stickers!!)

Hello, this is Wakana (0￣▽￣0)／

The next episode is scheduled for February 10th, I'll be looking for Valentine's Day cards to send to everyone whose message I read during the podcast~💓 Well, this time's theme is "Valentine's Day Memories"... Everyone! ! ! ! ! ! ! ! ! So far, there is only a very small number of messages! ! ! 😂😂😂 Only about 1/5 of the usual amount have been sent in! ! ! *laughs* What's happening?~~🥺Everyone, please don't leave me hanging~~🥺🥺 I'm happy with any memories, so please send them to me~🥺 You are gonna make me cry if you don't 🤣🤣

Even if you are the type of person that says they have no memories because they leave all their memories in the past and live comfortably in the present, please just tell me about this year's Valentine's Day ♡ *laughs* Let me know what you want to eat for Valentine's Day, maybe you want to eat ◯◯ instead of chocolate? Or maybe you want to propose to your lover on Valentine's Day?! ← I definitely want to hear about that! Or tell me a random trivia about Valentine's Day! Honestly, anything is fine＼＼\\٩( 'ω' )و //／／

By the way, I recently got in the mood for Valentine's Day and bought my favourite Lindt chocolate 😊 Lindt is probably most well-know for their Lindor round chocolate! ! The first time I saw them was when I went to New York! ! I received this cute round candy-like thing at the entrance of the store, and when I ate it, it was so delicious...😆 Up until that point I hadn't been a huge fan of sweets but Lindt changed my mind! (I like the milk and white chocolate one with chocolate chips in it. The salted caramel one is delicious too! Also, the newly released matcha tea one! LOL) And these thin bars of chocolate are absolutely delicious too😳💕 I will sometimes have a glass of wine and some dried fruits with it, it's like I am in a dreamland😳💕 Of course it also goes well with coffee ♡ By the way, I always keep some bite-sized chocolates on hand for my morning coffee time. Meiji's matcha and strawberry chocolates are delicious (^^) I somehow ended up buying Kiss Chocolate when I went shopping a while back *laughs*. I like white chocolate and chocolate chips (^^)

There is a chocolate other than Lindt that I love, I received it from a fan a long time ago and fell in love with it, so much so that I ordered it myself the following year! But...I can't remember the name anymore😂😂 I am always looking through the department store's Valentine's Day special online store and hope I can recall what the packaging looked like! *laughs* I'm pretty sure it might have been a German chocolate, or maybe not...?🤔

Anyway, everyone, please send me you memories of Valentine's Day! I repeat, “Memories of VALENTINE'S DAY♡”😂😂 The deadline is tomorrow! ! I'm waiting! ! ! ＼＼\\٩( 'ω' )و //／／

I will be uploading rehearsal photos on Instagram for my online live on February 6th, so please look forward to it 😆 Until next time~☆( *'▽’*)/

＊＊＊Wakana＊＊＊

2024/02/02 Instagram post by Wakana

We had a rehearsal for “Wakana 5th Anniversary “Prologue” ~Premium Online Live~” which will be held exclusively for FC members on February 6th☺️🎶 I was joined by Saku-chan on piano🎹📸 After spending a lot of time rehearsing, we look pretty exhausted😇 I'm so sleepy 😇zzz Please take a look at the fun photos of us gradually becoming more and more blurry🤗(Source)

[acaplaya-musings]

Voiceplay-adjacent Visuals: Jack's Lament

Can you feel me practically vibrating out of my skin???

On one hand, I'm a little sad because this is the last video I'll probably be making a post about for a while (though by the time you see this, Geoff might have uploaded a new video that I can actually talk about the visuals for (EDIT from future me: he did!), and if so, you'll be seeing a post for that one tomorrow), but on the other hand, this is my third (though in no particular order/ranking) favourite Geoff video on his channel so far, and I am so excited to finally be able to make a post for it!

Geoff's cover of Jack's Lament debuted on the 8th of October, 2023, though I didn't see it pop up in my YouTube recommended until the 29th (if you remember from my Hellfire post, I wasn't initially subscribed to Geoff or Voiceplay, and both channels somehow ended up dropping off my radar for a while. Jack's Lament was the first from either channel that I had seen in at least a year, and as soon as I saw that thumbnail, I knew it was going to be amazing, but oh my GOD it was even better (and with me stumbling upon Hellfire the very next day, well let's just say I was pulled even deeper down the Geoff/Voiceplay rabbithole than I had been the first time around 😅).

Anyway, I'm not sure if I'll hit image limit on this one, or how much actual commentary I may have, but regardless, let's freaking go!

One hell of an opening shot, not gonna lie. Geoff's very-skeletal-looking hands playing the piano (in a beautiful way, might I add), immediately sets a very spooky/eerie vibe!

And this is one hell of an establishing shot! I mean goddamn there is a lot to take in here! Though one thing I will point out (that I actually only just noticed myself ^^;) is the Haunted Mansion headstone on the left, memorialising Madame Leota!

(Also shoutout to Pattycake Production Studios where this was filmed!)

I of course have to give a MASSIVE shoutout and kudos to Rick Underwood for the makeup job in this one, like holy christ he really outdid himself here! (and I can't thank him enough)

Ngl, if I don't come up with any other ideas between now and October, then I kinda wanna dress as "Jack Skellington Geoff" (Geoff Caskellington? 🤔), makeup and all (or just attempt the face makeup at least)

And seriously take a look at his hands! If it weren't for the super-high-definition closeup of his hands on the piano at the start, you'd be forgiven for thinking those are just really well-fitting gloves, but nope! An amazing airbrush job from Mr Underwood!

Also, if you look at his neck and chest in both this image and the previous one, you'll notice that he's got airbrushing going on there too, highlighting (or more accurately, shading) his ribs and other bones!

Finally, on the subject of the body paint job, if you've been paying attention to some of my other Geoff posts (and some of my Voiceplay posts), you might notice what's missing...

No necklace, and no rings! Had to remove them for costume/makeup/character purposes, rip. Must have felt a bit weird without them, but all that paint must have felt weird too, so maybe the weird feelings cancelled each other out? 😅

(His acting in this is of course 10/10 👌)

This video is one that I do actually know involved Geoff deliberately colouring his hair to make it grey, and it still looks as lovely as ever!

(Also this picture is a better one to check out the airbrushed detailing on his chest! (if you're gonna leave a couple of shirt buttons undone and your chest exposed, might as well take advantage of it! 😁))

The "moon" in this video is apparently just some big spotlight with a moon cover on it or something? Apparently you can fairly easily find them online or something, and you can in fact see the pole it's attached to underneath in this image here, but you likely wouldn't notice the pole if you weren't looking for it, and the usage of the moon is 100% perfect! (I've seen/heard one or two people wishing the moon was yellow like in the movie, but eh, it probably wouldn't have fitted the overall colour scheme of the video as much)

I had to include the "jumpscare" of course I had to! 😁

Also I can't get any good screencaps of it, but the way Geoff shifts from sombre on "a longing that I've never known," to more theatric/dramatic on "I'm a master of fright, and a demon of light" is so good, and the acting/choreography is absolute chefs kiss

"Bonjour!"

(For those of you not familiar with the original, the line "and I'm know throughout England and France" is part of the original song, but the "bonjour!" bit is not 😆)

A Geoff head not connected to the body! It's happened again! 😂

Also it's cool the way Geoff is quickly jumping/flashing from one point to another, reminds me of his Headless Horseman video

"No animal, nor man, can SCREAM like I can!"

What can I say, it's a very cool effect! Really ups the "oomph" factor of the little belt moment!

Tiny pumpkins/jack-o-lanterns in his eyes!!

"But who here, would ever understand..."

(I'm not even at half the maximum image limit yet, so I'm 100% just throwing in an extra screencap (or two) just because 😁)

Geoff pats the side of his leg to call for Zero the ghost dog, just in in the scene in the movie! (Also shoutout to Kathy, who I believe helped with puppeteering for this bit?)

"...that the pumpkin king, with the skeleton grin,"

(Freaking obsessed with this video, I tell ya!)

"The fame and praise, come year after year, does nothing for these empty tears"

This is the last shot before we see the gramophone logo (a very gorgeous shot btw), but there's a little bit of a bonus bit for those who stick around for the Patron credits!!

It starts to snow! Like at the end of the movie! It's a sign of hope and good things to come! <3

The original song is good for the movie, sure, but Geoff's cover feels like it has so much more depth (in more ways than one!) and emotion! And his vocal range is ugh god absolutely stunning and mindblowing! I cannot get enough, can never get enough!

But anyway, I hope you've been enjoying my Voiceplay/Voiceplay-adjacent posts! If there are any videos I've skipped over that you actually would like me to make a post on, please let me know! (And don't worry, I am planning to do all the 2017-onwards Christmas videos for both channels eventually - maybe as a Christmas In July thing?) I'm typing this on the 22nd of February, and if Voiceplay uploads a video in March that I wanna make a post on (nope), well you reading this will have already seen that post, and if Geoff uploads something in March that I wanna talk about (he did), then you'll see that post tomorrow (you will!). But otherwise, thanks for reading!

[fic-pickyourpoison]

Hi, I really love your fic, and I've wondered when the next chapter will be uploaded. Would it be this week or the next?

Thank you! I'm glad that you are enjoying PYP ^^

I've been thinking about this for a couple days. I'll be travelling in March so I won't have much time to write, so I've been telling myself that I need to post by then.

My struggle (as often is) is that there was a Certain Place (tm) I wanted to end this chapter on... but I've been adding more scenes and ideas I want to flesh out before this happens. There's a lot of stuff later on in the story that needs the foundations of these early days, sighs.

So, given the fact that I probably won't get to the point I want in this chapter, I plan on posting what I have some time tonight or tomorrow. As I am mostly done editing what I have written so far, I just need to find a good place to end the chapter--which I will focus on tonight.

[adelle-ein]

lace's Project List TM:

i keep poking at radiant historia perfect chronology to try and rip sprites/art from it, but i think it's just above my skillset :') i've come at it from many angles and i just can't get the files converted/open - may require me to learn more about decrypting etc. not giving up altogether but not happening anytime soon. might try and see if i can crack open the original instead and see if i can get stuff out of there. also want to try cracking open a more mainstream 3ds game (something really basic and frequently modded) just to check if i can get in there at all. would love to be able to 3ds rip but nintendo consoles unsurprisingly hard to get into

cotc going good though. there's still a few things i'm struggling to find in the files (namely triangle strategy npcs like benedict and the character splash art) but i've hunted down almost everything i really wanted and it's just a matter of organizing and figuring out what's what and putting sheets together for submission. i hope i can get my hands on more updates later on but. for now i'll just pry everything i can out of this may 2024 version lol.

bd2 asset uploading remains on indefinite hiatus until sr approves the game as a category. figure it makes sense to work on cotc first since i can like. actually upload as i go (and as much as i love bd2 and the assets, hd-2d sprites are cooler than 3d game UI stuff.) i also still wanna play with animating the models in there more but not a priority. want to learn how to rip steam games with other engines too, since rn it's just unreal that i know

but i also wanna play with modding 3ds games (namely smash, mk7, the other basics) and installing fun stuff in there. i've really only modded my fe games so far. but the 3ds is so easy to play with now...

i'm hoping maybe the switch will end up like the 3ds once [next nintendo console] is out and it'll be more hackable and easy and safe to do so, because that would be so fun, but i'm also not getting my hopes up too high bc my understanding is the wii u is still kind of a pain to get going (and the switch is such a finicky little thing). still. dreams

this computer's ability to handle emulators is veryyyy limited but at some point i might embark on a journey to at least TRY and get a na and/or jp android running so i can try and get my hands on more current app updates. not counting on it though :') will probably need to get a new computer within the next year but for now old girl's limping along and she's FINE okay. want to expand my programming and tech knowledge in general in any ways i can, which is hard bc it is definitely not something that comes naturally to me, but i'm trying

but yeah that's what i'm up to. and make time to draw and crochet and actually like play my games (dreamlight valley tiana update tomorrow...)

(and work and chores and life and shit)

[leftistscum]

I AM CURSING YOU FUCKBAGS TO 1000 YEARS OF OWOFIED NONSENSE. I HAVE TO SUFFER, NOW YOU HAVE TO SUFFER WITH ME.

Update:

All this effort and it doesn't even work. I'm not mad, just disappointed. Current theory is that I didn't include an important part of it in the while loop. The bot scans new posts, and I'm not gonna re-post this for the second time. It's only been actually tested two or three times including this try, and I'm keeping this as a sort of devlog. Update 2:

I restarted the OAuth apps that I made earlier today (an OAuth callback server to catch the keys, and another OAuth thing to generate the Authorization verifier). I worked almost all day to get these two to work together. The API ended up sending this error, and I don't know what it means, but it doesn't throw any errors client-side. Here's the error it throws. {'meta': {'status': 429, 'msg': 'Limit Exceeded'}, 'response': [], 'errors': [{'title': 'Limit Exceeded', 'code': 0, 'detail': 'Minor hiccup. Try again.'}]} Like, okay, great. Now I gotta actually look at the documentation and find out what this magic gibberish means, because this could relate to all those times I tried to authenticate, OR I hit the daily limit on posts seen by my bot, which I highly doubt. Update 2.5 after some research, I've learned absolutely nothing. That error code is a giant ball of nothing that basically says I exceeded a rate limit, but doesn't give any explanation as to which rate I exceeded. Thanks, Tumblr. At least Reddit threw client side errors that you didn't have to go to a broken API console to see. Fuck all of you, and I'll see you tomorrow.

Side note: I am surviving off one breakfast pizza from Casey's, one Pipeline Punch, one grape flavored 3D, 4mg Estradiol, 50mg Spironolactone, and I currently have 100mg Progesterone dissolving in my stomach, which at this point, might actually kill me. It's only 9:36 at the time of writing this, but it feels like I've been working on this for days. This is to say that I may have missed something super obvious, and if that's the case, well, I'll leave tomorrows problems to tomorrow's me.

Update 3

Just woke up and re-ran all the assorted programs just to get a fresh start. I'm still getting that error code, but more importantly, my access token and secret changed? I'm not expert when it comes to stuff like this, but I though tokens and secrets are constant and specific to apps. I can't actually test this thing until the API lets me through. Update 3.5

Found the error code. It wasn't way too hard, but it means my bot probably did something way too much yesterday and I have no idea what. It works on the server's clock and goes by callendar day. This means that if a bot hits the error code at 11:59 PM, it can hit it again at 12:00 AM. For an error 429 to happen, any one of the following has to trigger it.

300 API calls per minute, per IP address.

18,000 API calls per hour, per IP address.

432,000 API calls per day, per IP address.

1,000 API calls per hour, per consumer key.

5,000 API calls per day, per consumer key.

250 new published posts (including reblogs) per day, per user.

250 images uploaded per day, per user.

200 follows per day, per user.

1,000 likes per day, per user.

10 new blogs per day, per user.

20 videos uploaded per day, per user.

60 minutes of total video uploaded per day, per user.

So I can't test this until the server's calendar deems it a new day Update 4

It still doesn't work, but I am one step closer. Because of Tumblr's broken-ass console, I've had to find an alternate way to get an OAuth key. It turns out I was using a temporary access key, which is why it changed when I re-ran everything. I had to do this by using two other scripts. One of them is Tumblr's interactive console on Github , and the other one was a Yaml parser because boy do they like to encrypt. This has been my morning so far. Day two and 5 scripts later, just to finally have something that I should've had at the start.

Update 4.5

I FINALLY GOT AN API RESPONSE!!! LET'S FUCKING GOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOO

Update 4.5.5

I have implemented a feature that makes the thing wait for a second then search for any comments with a timestamp older than the last time it waited and has the right keyword in the 196 tag. I have obviously accidentally wasted all my API tries today, but testing begins again tomorrow. You will fear my wrath soon enough. Update 5

Decided to check up on the bot, and ran straight into this wall of text. It looks like blog info? Some of those links take me to profile headers. This isn't a static thing either, it updates every 20 seconds like clockwork. Because I made it update every 20 seconds like clockwork. I think this means it's testing time. Wish me luck. Breaking News. Didn't work, but we're a lil bit closer. Again.

[lifeinablog]

the one that got away

i always thought to myself that everyone has a "one that got away" at some point in their life. until recently, i didn't really have one.

i always kinda silently agreed to myself that it was a guy from school. i always liked him but he ended up dating my best friend at the time (she ended up being a bitch, but that's a whole story on it's own) and nothing ever happened. we bumped into each other quite a bit on nights out and talked about how we should've dated, it should've been us, but i was in a relationship by that point and couldn't seem to find my way out of it.

the actual one that got away, for me, was very recent. it was only just over a month ago. five weeks tomorrow since that last time we messaged each other. nothing about the fact we wouldn't speak again. but he'd been to see another girl and i think we both knew that much was obvious. we were never together so that wasn't where he betrayed me, but he always vouched for honesty and never said a word about this other girl that he was seeing; i'd told him everything i did involving someone else, which wasn't much, but the point is i told him about it and never dreamed of lying.

he'd ignored me on the saturday he went to stay with her, and messaged me on the sunday when he was on his way home. he lied; told me he was just seeing a friend and i was nice and said i'd hoped it was fun. that was it.

he'd been off with me for a while and i was sick of not knowing where i stood with him, so i didn't message him again after that and he didn't care enough to message me. and that was just that. i've spent the last month crying almost every day.

this is the first time in almost three decades i've truly had my heart broken. i know i've been lucky, that doesn't help. i know it's going to get better, but that doesn't help either. the only thing that's distracted me enough to not cry all the time, is the office. i started watching it (the us one) and i got obsessed, but now it's done and i'm stuck again. i don't know what to do or how to get out of this headspace. i keep finding myself checking his social media just to see if there's been an update, but he never uploaded much anyway.

i think if i had closure, it'd be easier. i can let someone go very quickly, but only when there's a solid reasoning. this one, i just can't get over the fact that i'll probably never see his stupid face again, i'll never be wrapped up in those arms again, never feel those lips on mine again. he's just... gone. i want to speak to him, i want him to tell me the truth, but i know he probably wouldn't.

how do people deal with heartbreak?

[amywritesthings]

Psst If you want Xavier's myth spoilers I've uploaded them up to part 7 and I'll probably be able to hold part 8 tomorrow :) (pinned post on my blog!)

Oh thank you for the head's up! I'm trying to be a bit patient since I don't have any Myth cards (my pull game is so weak, dude, it's so bad LSDKFJLKDSF) but if I end up actually writing some L&D one shots, I will definitely check out your post.

Thank you for compiling, by the way. I just finished Chapter 6 this afternoon and I feel like the day doesn't count until I can log on again 😂 tagging @enterthedreams just in case they wanna check it out at some point, too, as my L&D buddie

[girl-in-a-bubbl3]

Glamrock Bonnie(FNAF) x Reader Part 1

Not enough sassy Bonnie fanfic so here we go...I'll try to upload at least once a week.

Notes:

AU Fanfic/NonCanon

Bonnie is terrible but he likes you

5 greenrooms on RSR (we include Monty)

Sun/Moon are the same animatronic

Moon has a lil touch of the virus

Will probably be some spicy parts so...18+

You looked around your new apartment and scanned the sea of boxes. You had been looking forward to unpacking after the move but it just seemed like such a daunting task. You were tired. Mentally and physically. Leaving everything and everyone behind was tough but you had to do it. You needed to have a chance to be you.

Finding a job was difficult. You knew that the job market would be more competitive in the more densely populated areas but you didn't realize how much you needed to stand out. And you didn't.

Instead of putting away your dishes, you plopped down on the worn, plaid couch with your laptop and started scrolling JobFinder again. You had a degree in robotics and programming...but with very little experience. You were young. And not being a male in a male dominated field didn't help either. You sighed.

Third Shift Animatronic Manager - FazBear Entertainment

The position caught your eye. The pay was great, you were qualified, and third shift was definitely more your scene as a night owl. You quickly applied, said a little prayer to whatever was listening, and you closed your laptop before heading to bed. Tomorrow was going to be a long day. You could feel it.

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You did not want to get up. But you had to. You had to, because you had to pee. Of course it always happened when you were the most comfortable. You rolled your eyes and groaned, grabbing your phone and checking the time. 6:32 AM. Ugh. Too early.

You begrudgingly got out of bed and headed for the bathroom. You noticed a notification on your phone indicating that you had a new email. You yawned and clicked it.

Hello y/n!

We at FazBear Entertainment have picked YOU to be our new animatronic manager!

If possible, please report to the Mega Plex today at 8 am. We will go over your job details as well as a brief orientation and Meet & Greet with the animatronics.

Hope to see you! Have a Fazerrifc Day!

Your heart started pounding in your chest. Hopping up from the toilet you started the shower and ran to your bedroom to grab a few clothes that had made their way out of the boxes. You had 20 minutes to get ready. You could do it if you rush. You grinned and did a little dance on your way back to the bathroom.

You got a job.

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You arrived at the PizzaPlex at 7:50. Perfect. And you actually looked decently cute. Your colorful hair was draped over your shoulder in a side braid. Your makeup was simple but the eyeliner was on point. And your clothes were casual but still appropriate for an interview.

You got this.

It was a Tuesday so the Plex wasn't nearly as packed as it would be on a weekend. A staff bot spotted you and grabbed your hand, pulling you with it towards a set of red doors.

"Woah! Where are you taking me?!"

You tried resisting but eventually gave into the bot. You assumed that maybe it was actually trying to take you to where you needed to go so you caved and started following close behind it. Once through the doors it led you down a tunnel that connected to other doors and tunnels. It made your anxiety spike a little. It would definitely be easy to get lost down here.

The bot stopped suddenly and you almost ran right into it. It pointed towards the door that it stopped beside and looked at you with a blank expression.

"T-thanks..?" You muttered under you breath as you walked up to the dingy green door. You knocked loudly and immediately heard cursing right after. You assumed you may have startled the person inside. Great start.

"Come in!" A gruff voice replied on the other side of the door.

Opening the door and stepping in you immediately notice the large man behind the desk. His face was red and he was rearranging stacks of papers on his desk. He grabbed a file that was sitting to the side, opened it, looked up at you, down at the folder, then back up at you again with squinted eyes, "L/n? L/n, y/n?"

"Y-yes, sir. That's me." You chuckled nervously. His stare was a little unsettling. It was like he couldn't believe that the person in front of him was matching the resume.

"I see here that you've been selected for the Nighttime Handler position. Sorry to call you in on such short notice. They want you to start tonight but there's no managers on nightshift right now so I have to give you a rundown on my shift." Tonight?? "My name is Frank, you'll report to me if you need anything. Your job is simple. Keep the animatronics running smoothly and make sure they behave."

Behave? What did he mean by that?

You watch Frank grab something out of his desk drawer and slide it across to you. "That's a FazWatch. It'll give you a map of the place and help you not get lost. You can also communicate with staff or the animatronics with your FazWatch. It's important. And it's expensive. So don't mess it up."

You nodded, taking the watch and securing it on your wrist.

Frank stood up and motioned for you to stand too. "I'll take you to see where the band live." Your heart started pounding in excitement as you followed Frank down the hall. The realization of what was happening was sinking in. You actually had a job. And you get to work with robots!

You had heard about FazBear Ent. and their supposedly sentient AI. You didn't know how sentient, but you were excited to find out. Frank had been talking this whole time but you couldn't focus on his words. Coming out of the tunnels, you were met with dazzling neon lights. You were entranced. You loved the lights in the Plex.

Frank stopped abruptly and you almost ran right into his back. "Hey? You listen'?" You looked up to see him staring down at you, slightly annoyed.

You chuckled nervously. "Oh yeah, yeah. Of course." You rubbed the back of your neck as Frank eyed you suspiciously. He gave a quick eyeroll and motioned to the row of rooms on your right. "As I was saying," he shot you another look, "these are the Greenrooms. These rooms are where the animatronics recharge, meet fans, and spend a lot of their time."

You looked from one room to the next until you saw a glimpse of the last window further down Rockstar Row. 5 rooms for 5 Glamrocks. You already knew their names, even if you weren't super familiar with the franchise. Freddy, Bonnie, Chica, Roxy, and Monty.

"So anyway," You turned your focus back on Frank, hoping that you didn't miss a lot of what he said again, "let's continue on. I'll give you a brief tour of the atrium and then I'll let you head home so you can get some rest for tonight's shift. 10pm to 7am, in case you didn't know."

You nodded and continued following Frank around the Plex while he gave you various information about different parts of the building. He was rough around the edges, but he was helpful. It wasn't long before you were back in your car, heading home to get ready for your first shift.

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You walked into the Plex an hour before your shift started. You were starting to get anxious at home so you decided to head in early. You nodded politely at staff members who were either leaving or also coming in for their shift. There definitely was a lot less on night shift.

You checked your watch and saw you had a list of tasks to complete. The first one just said "BONNIE AGAIN" in all caps. You shrugged and made your way to Rockstar Row to see if Bonnie was in his greenroom. You'd figure out what was wrong when you got there.

It was strange how quiet the Plex was. You thought the low chatter during the day was unusual for the Plex, but at night it was like someone turned a switch off completely. The usual tunes of the Plex were just a whisper of what they usually were during the day. You assumed they adjusted the volume accordingly. That made sense.

You got to Rockstar Row rather quickly. Without the crowd, it was much easier. Bonnie's room was the first one. There was a soft blue light that shone from a sconce above his door. You made your way to it and hesitated. You were nervous. What if they didn't like you? What if you didn't know what you were doing? Was there programming even remotely similar to anything you've learned?

You were about to turn around and go...somewhere, when the large metal door in front of you swooshed open anyway. Eyelevel, all you saw was a wall of blue. Your eyes slowly traveled upwards until they met a pair of maroon irises behind star shaped glasses.

Your breathe caught in your throat. They are big. You didn't realize they were so big. Bonnie narrowed his eyes and pointed a big, blue finger at your chest. "Can I help you, toots?"

To be continued....

AN:

Sorry I gave you so little content this go round ;-; I have to start somewhere. Next chapter will have much, much more. Feedback welcome!

[icewindandboringhorror]

Daily Log 9

Trying out (probably just temporarily) making short daily-ish notes about things, in an attempt to see if it helps me be more reflective or productive lol.

Activities: Worked on the previously mentioned tapestry style painting thing for like 5-6 hours today (with a few breaks in between), and that's just for the border around the main picture lol.. I think all the little sections and detail always take longer than I think they might. But hopefully the final product will look interesting! :0

I feel like I'm entering another Sick Phase where I just am weird/ill/sleepy/having joint pains much of the day (probably some vitamin deficiencies or hormone imbalances or general bodily inflammation or whatever nonsense seems to randomly pop up from time to time lol), so couldn't focus on anything more intensive like writing or editing videos, unfortunately. It's good to have smaller crafts I can do that don't take much mental effort and are just menial hand tasks (like carving, painting, sculpting, etc.), but I still always feel frustrated falling behind on the things I see as much more broadly significant to my overall life and potential career (making games, writing, finishing videos, socializing, costumes, etc.)

Organized my desk a little. Responded to some doctor emails. Paid bills.

Planned out something I might make with pressed flowers tomorrow.

Edited like 4 costume photos.

Also have a lingering sense of dread due to the weather. The heat often makes me feel terrible, and if I'm already in kind of a Bad Phase at the moment, I'm afraid of it making it even worse... stimky..

Which I know these temperatures are nothing to some people but.. to me... aUGHHHH... I am abnormally heat sensitive + live in a dinky old apartment with no ventilation that gets direct sun the hottest part of the day.. on a 90F day outside, it literally gets about 84F inside.. like.. even people who love the heat I feel like would struggle to sleep at night if their bed is 85F lol... hewwo.. You can spray yourself down with water, drink ice water, put a fan on yourself, etc. etc. but.. sometimes it just feels so oppressive and inescapable..

ANYWAY. Aside from painting, feeling weird, and dreading the upcoming heat/contemplating my entire life and how to get enough money to move to a different climate somehow one day/existential exhaustion/etc., I didn't accomplish very much lol

Spent maybe 30 minutes thinking about a little more worldbuilding stuff, and some things in reference to the game I mentioned resuming work on at some point.

Notable sights: The clouds were really pretty and pastel this afternoon, and some stars are visible in the sky for once since the nights are beginning to be clearer. The 'forget me not' flowers that I thought had died after transplanting actually seemed to be perked up and healthy looking today, and perhaps may actually survive. >:3

Goals moving forward: Do new poll adventure post. focus on social activities, finding new friends in the places I want to move, communicating with the ones I have. Physical therapy exercises. Finish and upload videos, edit costume pictures & etc. Do the new costumes I've planned. MAKE SCULPTURES at some point, I miss them.

Notable foods: Not much, kind of a warm day so didn't really want to use the oven. No idea how I'll handle the diet I've been put on by my doctors (involves usually cooking all food fresh, using the stove a lot, nothing is supposed to be canned or processed or premade, so that eliminates a lot of 'quick easy simple warm weather' meals, etc. etc.) during the heatwave. I might just have to break the diet a little and hope it doesn't give me stomach pains while I'm already hot and feeling sick lol..

I did have a boiled egg with some green onions on top, which is very simple but was refreshing somehow lol. Another ice cold ginger ale treat today, and some cold prune juice (which I know most people find gross/it's an old person food/etc., but I like that it's a smooth textured and not very sweet juice? Like it's slightly thicker than apple juice, has a lightly bitter taste, etc. I just find it nice for some reason. More evidence I am secretly an 85 year old wizard)

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Whumptober Day Two

trust issues | amusement park | role reversal | "you got away with the crime while the knife's in my back"

Word Count: 997

I'm gonna be uploading several of these late. Sometime this week I'll probably play catchup, hopefully I can do that tomorrow after I get some homework done

This one is set several months before the last one, showing some of what's happened to Cleo in the past, and possibly giving a hint at who she was imagining in the last prompt

Emily and I are dating

Cleo just kept staring at her phone, unable to comprehend it. It wasn’t as surprising as it should’ve been, she’d suspected when she saw them all being weird at lunch. But even so, she was frozen in shock. 

As she read the words again, processed them, there was a second text that hit her screen. 

Cleo I am sorry, you know I would never do this to hurt you purposefully

She turned her phone off and shoved it in her pocket. She couldn’t take it anymore. She was in this brainstorm meeting with other Society member right now, but fuck that. She had to get out and find someone. Anyone. Anyone but… them. 

She quietly left, feeling her phone buzz against her leg but not minding it. Neil. She had to find Neil. He could help her. He could fix this. 

Fighting back tears, she pushed through the compound, trying to think of where he could be. And just then, her travel-band lit up with a summons. From Miguel, for her and the rest of the Spider Spectrum, and a few others. She couldn’t ignore it. You didn’t ignore Miguel summoning you, no matter what was going on. If you did, you’d be tracked down and brought in, unless you were dying or in the middle of an extremely severe fight. In which case whoever was sent for you would help with the fight and then bring you in. 

She’d end up there anyway, so she took a deep breath and turned around. Tears still welled in her eyes, but they didn’t fall as she took more shuddering breaths, trying to get herself under control. 

Eventually she was just outside the door, but she couldn’t bring herself to enter. What if Emily was in there already? She couldn’t face that. Emily had been one of her closest friends but… if this was real…

She shook her head, trying to clear the thoughts away. She’d have to go in at some point. Maybe she could just wait for Neil to show up. She figured the meeting was probably not for her, she didn’t need to rush. 

Then out of nowhere there was a blaring feedback sound, pressing into Cleo’s head for at least half a minute, screaming at her. 

She couldn’t do it. She couldn’t do it anymore, she just sunk down to the floor. Curled up, eyes closed, hands over her ears. She just wanted to go back home. She didn’t want to be here in the Society, she didn’t want to be forced to attend a meeting right now, she didn’t want one of her only friends to be suddenly dating her crush!

She tried breathing for what felt like hours, but eventually there was a hand on her shoulder, pulling her into a hug. She didn’t even have to open her eyes to know it was Neil, she always knew when it was him.

She just grabbed the front of his suit to try and hold him close, as his arms went around her and pulled her onto his lap. He held her while she cried, while she sobbed out all the words swirling in her head.

“Why did this happen!?"

"How?"

"How could this have happened, she doesn’t even like him!"

"Why… why can I never end up with anything?"

"Why would she do this..?”

Her words trailed off as the pain retook her and she sobbed louder. She just couldn’t believe this was happening, but at the same time there was no denying it. 

But at least she wasn’t alone. Neil was here. Neil was holding her, letting her cry it out. Neil was warm and kind and hugging her.

“Cleo,” he whispered against her hair. “Cleo, we have to go.”

She froze. What? She finally untucked herself from his shoulder and looked up at him, tears still streaming down her face. 

“What… what do you mean?” she whispered, unable to manage talking stronger than that.

“We have to go. Miguel needs us in this meeting, we can’t stay out here longer.”

No. This wasn’t happening. It couldn’t be. 

“Please… please don’t go. Please just stay with me, I need you.” Cleo was begging him to stay with her, she needed him to know how bad it was. She needed to have someone with her to get through this, how could he leave her alone? He was her best friend! 

“I’m sorry, babe. You don’t need to come in right away, I’m sure it’ll be okay if you take a couple minutes. But I have to go in. I’ll let Miguel know you’ll be in soon.” Neil carefully untangled himself from Cleo’s hug and stood up, looking back at her one more time before pushing the door open and leaving her alone. 

She just sat there for a moment, unbelieving. He’d left her. Just like that. Their friend was out-of-nowhere dating the boy she’d been crushing on for months and she was mid-breakdown, and he’d just left her. She knew why but… it hurt. It hurt so much that she was still not a priority. Was there anything she could do that would make people put her first for once? She didn’t blame Neil, it wasn’t his fault at all. 

But as a fresh set of tears filled and fell from her eyes, and she buried her face in her knees again, she couldn’t help wishing that she was allowed to be selfish. She wished that Neil would stay with her. She wished that Emily and Wes weren’t together. She wished that Wes had liked her back from the start. She wished there was someone that would put her first.

She wished so hard for so many things, but she knew nothing could come of it. She lived in a multiverse where almost every dimension had its own superheroes and rogues gallery, but the one thing she knew was truly impossible was her ever being someone’s top priority.