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Taken from @kiranatrix.I don't participate enough & thank you for the open invite to anyone reading.
Last song: Always by Erasure
Last movie: K-PAX
Last show: Alice in Borderland, s2
Currently watching: The Office (one of many rewatches & on s4)
Currently reading: The Stand by Stephen King, Death Note manga, and ready to start either The Fellowship of the Ring or Sybil.
Current obsession: FFXIV & Death Note (one might even say I’ve combined the two..)
Tagging friends & a few of numerous appreciated humans within the DN community (with zero pressure): @llawlieta @craetor @dillyfirestarter @faded-smiles @god-of-this-new-blog @mihaelkeehl @13eyond13 and to keep the vibe alive, anyone else who may be reading this & wants in.
#tag game#very last /finished/ show & movie i couldn't wholly recall#so i went with last in close mind#for my amusement
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#house md#gregory house#james wilson#screencap#s07e01 “Now What?”#one of the thing that bothered me about canon huddy#is it feels too close to the unrealness of s5 finale#just huddy becoming canon does not feel like it would be enough to offset all the issues house had building up in s6 finale#hes not even a bit bitter about wilson throwing him out anymore and it certainly wasn't just a cover for huddy#left unresolved#last patient's death unresolved (you can say it delayed if youre a pedant)#the overall stress from that wrecked building - unresolved#all this skipped overnight#even more of a rocky start to this relationship would be better#cuddy too#this is so ooc for both of them#like their characters got reset#i do wonder how proper huddy would look like in canon#like it wouldnt work long term either#but in s7 it just went too smooth#what does cuddy even gets out of it besides the initial thrill?#she is a freak and workaholic in a completely different way to house#literal mother#and an authoruty figure#they would clash so bad so fast it would be glorious#maybe it would be better if she didnt make it and house was already back on vicodin in the bathroom#also would give deniability to ooc moments#dont mind me *watching perfect house md in my brain*
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First time meeting the Angel of grief (at golden hour) 🍂🪽
#didn’t know we had a replica of her in massachusetts#never mind right up the street in this gem of a little cemetery I drive by all the time#my girlfriend is actually the one who found it online then went in on a mission to find it for me#she got SO excited she found it super fast I didn’t think we would was getting dark and it’s a new spot#I was off taking pics and she ran over so excited#fucking beautiful man just stood quietly for a while looking#one of my favorite angel statues#imagine in the snow too#I wanted to go to mount auburn in the snow too and it never snows anymore#theres two so close to me that are so special now even more so#will be spending more time in there#there’s only so many replicas that’s so special to me#and so close to home#angels#autumn#mine#didn’t post these but this was from last week#went back yesterday#have so many pics 🙃#anyways love#🖤#🪽
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Why I Am Not Coming In To Work Today [abridged], Jess Zimmerman
part one | part two
#me when everybody is posting the maple leafs sad narratives and i am furiously generating this like HOLD ONNNN HOLD ONNNNNNN#honestly i could've been SOOOO MEAN about this because i saw this poem & alexandra got the preview on the poetry blog#where i just reblogged the first half of this poem point blank with the tags#kyle dubas#toronto maple leafs#& got yelled at aksdaksf & it literally only didn't go on this blog bc i usually write more & then it was percolating & i looked up the poe#& it was only the FIRST PART i'd reblogged i didn't know there was more & then brain immediately went brrrrr ok time for an edit.#this is a long one lol & i also have no idea if it makes sense to anybody but me but because y'all know me i will always overexplain so!!#my reasoning for the reasons obvi kyle. that's a given i hope he's doing well i hope he & his family r good but man is not coming in to wor#the second edit took me a stupid amount of time bc i am nitpicky but also i learned how to do the layers & transparency from the claude edi#that actually y'all don't know about lmao but i lost my mind when i saw how perfectly those pictures align i was scrolling getty & was like#ok december i'm gonna do a headline one (in my brain with the november/june quote about choosing to die again) w/ maple leafs playoff odds#how they say at winter break you know who's gonna be in the playoffs & who'll win & they thought they had a shot but it's mitchie overlaid#the 2003-04 team who'd last won a playoff round with the atlantic division stats from dec for 22-23 & how long it's been & dec headlines#i wanted breakup/recent/never loved to be a recent trade acquisition somebody who bounced around & somebody else so i almost had simmer#brodie & zar but then i wanted to make murray for breakup at any time &i forgot zar & him were on the pens together &it hit me like a truc#bc there's a photo of the two of them EXACTLY the same so close it's scary of this one but them as pens so they had to be it & i did always#know never loved again was mitchie. sorry. also mitchie in the penalty box the last game but i couldn't find footage of it & this one works#no i could not find a photo of tyler bertuzzi fighting a leaf for a dog looked at me yes i tried.#i almost made the bunting photo jt but instead it's 'bunting a rat etc' anyway the one i really feel unhinged about is dead pets bc at firs#i was gonna make it the handshake line & look to see if the leafs had drafted anybody on the panthers (dead pet former draft pick)#& they had & it was carter verhaeghe & i couldn't get a good pic of matthews & verhaeghe but it's fine bc i thought about the mo/luke schen#narrative (in which they are a perfect d pair long lost) & schenn was drafted by the leafs & that line fits jut trust me. also how i feel#about the kniesy luminous line that one possessed me it had to be kniesy idk why. i almost put gussy as girls are too pretty though ALSO#did u like my joke. daylight SAVINGS time on the goalie. thank u. also my photo magic on the jt (me very poorly editing in him as an isle)#OK ALSO HOLD ONNNNN there is a part two but i have to wait for the Content i want it will come out as soon as [redacted] or sooner#if i get bad at waiting &everyone will pretend like it is always the way it will be once i have the photos i want. speaking of did the leaf#simply not take a team photo this year?? it Does Not Exist for me i have tried very hard to look for it also i'm excited for part 2#one of them is named oh you're so unhinged for this one & the finished product is you're unhinged in ways you didn't even know u were sorry#liv in the replies
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Huh. If my life was a quote, it'd be "one of those sad ones with a deceptively happy tune"
#quote from MLP:FIW#sorryyyy been kinda angry about my step family all day#sorry but im so tired of my Stepmom acting like she raised decent kids#my step brother is like 25 and living in my dads home. hes unironically an andrew tate fan and treats his very disabled girlfriend like shit#step sister always got compred to my sister who's the same age and put step sis in the light every time EVEN THO MY SIS WAS LITERALLY BETTER#<- like grades n shit#also both step sibs are gross. never cleans up ever. step brother and his gf are banned from the basement#step bro went to juvy when he was 16 and step sis had a trial last year and almost went to jail#also step sis has mono and would rather die than cover her mouth#i feel bad for SB's girlfriend because she has no other support system and sometimes it feels like SB or SS is trying to kill her?????#my dad threatened to kick out the adults if the house is dirty (adults being SB. SBG. SS. My sister. Aunt.)#My sister does SO MUCH HOUSEWORK and nobody cares and im mad#also bullshit rules recently have made my potential eating disorder worse#i don't think its healthy to rather starve than wash a dish but i actually have cried several times over this#not to mention how much i accidentally starve myself#also our food has been less and less because I don't know what I'm allowed to eat anymore because of my step family#also i have to share the smallest room with my sister. its okay tho ilh and i wouldn't want to get rid of her#sometimes it feels like my stepmom doesn't like me or my sisters because we're “weird”. childish interests and artistic#she lectured me about having missing assignments and I started crying#i said i just forgot to turn in some before the deadline and she called me lazy#<- Oops! so close. its actually THE MENTAL ILLNESS#my sisters and i feel like shit#i feel like my safe space is with my oldest sister.#and you all too! i love you guys#i just feel trapped. trapped by my step family. trapped by my own mind.#i was just starting to feel free from the burden of school and she just made me feel more stressed.#i didn't want to study because she killed the little motivation I had#Spanish exam is now “Fuck it we ball”#sorry for the personal post
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first day of spring
#went to a cave#mine#me#first day of spring#our swords#march 19#video post#my pov#ugh sm is on my mind rn i feel like a different person each day#can’t believe march is coming to a close#last clip is when my camera died#so perfect
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So you're telling me in the US they put their ballot votes in a box in the streets????
Learnt that because apparently they are being sent on fire which is exactly what I'd expect with that kind of system...
#i know you guys vote online#but do you do the thing where you have to wake up a very sunny sunday (not in November i guess lmao) and walk to the voting point of#you city???#and try to avoid eye contact with the local representatives so they don't ask you to come back at 6pm to count the votes???#im very curious because i wouldn't trust the postal services to be on time here djdjdbenene#but anyway seriously#everything i know about the us voting system baffle me#you tell me a candidate can win the popular vote but lose the election????#i mean i knew that fact since like highschool but i still can't wrap my mind around it#apparently the US is the only democracy with no direct universal vote#also i did know that till very recently#i always wondered how tf some srates had more power than others#and like last week#i learnt that states with slaves used them as a one third of a voice and that's how they gained more powers#but when finally long years later they could finally vote#the same people who used them went on the streets to try to stop them to vote (which is sadly not surprising)#the whole thing is fucked up#I mean not saying here is really better at the moment#but at least one voice = one vote#im trying to imagine having ballots hanging outside in France and this would go so fucking bad omg#and the 'fun' part is that it won't be because of fascists (i mean today it would) but because stupid kids would take it as a challenge#anyway i don't want to talk about this election#im not American and shit#but it's kinda really stressful to see dumb shit like that on an election whi will have as many#if not more#consequences on the whole world#oh also what the hell are their official programs?#i mean except saying fascist stuff vs saying fascism bad and calling each other stupid#anyway case closed#but im very dreadfully curious about the voting system though
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bad religion by frank ocean playing the entire time while drawing this
#dungeons and daddies#dndaddies#dndads#dndads s2#dndaddies s2#nark#nark nation#nick foster#nick close#nicholas foster#nicholas close#my art#my spicy art#went out last night and barely drank and took two red bulls like as soon as i got home bc i was like im gonna draaaw and deadass i only did#this as a rough warm up sketch before working on what i actually wanted to draw but then i knocked out like an hr in#which like……..tf did the red bulls do????? anyway i woke up around noon and finished lol#this concept has been in my mind so long bc of this song but i finally actually drew it woop woop
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Just know the urge to rewatch the breakfast club is plaguing me and it’s entirely your fault what have you done to me /j lol
LOL DUDE I was literally just talking with one of my sisters about how I'm kind of itching to rewatch that movie now lmaooo you *should* you should actually!
#asks#(also the reason I haven't rb'd the piece yet is cause I sent you that last message then got hit with the sleep deprivation beam haha)#(and today I went out)#(aether's version too aether if you happen to see this I absolutely saw thank you love ya lol)#BUT ANYWAYS YEAH#I just showed my sister ur b.c. art (she doesn't know d&dads she's just heard me babble about the Close boys a lot lmao but she likes b.c.)#and she went ''OH SLAY'' hahaha#she was saying how she used to be obsessed with that movie but doesn't like it as much anymore#Me though? I saw that movie when I was 15 and depressed out of my absolute mind so. I think it deserves a fresh watch loool#the criminal was my favorite because I am. how you say. predictable.#but I wonder if I would feel differently now...#looking at your piece specifically though I've been thinking ''shit I kinda wanna write the au now''-#which is to say that I think *you* worsened *my* brainrot hahaha#anyways yeah you know what yeah Mack me personally I think you should fr yw for the urge jaheklfhl
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aru sekai shoushitsu is an 11 minute song i listened to on accident because i was too tired to look at the length & was just solely like man thats such a cool title for a vocaloid song i hope it lives up to it and it 100% did. i didnt have any idea there was a story behind it it just thought it was such a cool sounding song & i remember clearly playing animal crossing past 4am with it on loop. completely forgot the producers name & didnt recognize them when they posted kyuuyaku hankagai so it took me like 3 days to actually listen to it & the SECOND i heard the nami no ne no motif i lost my mind. that was it for me ive been so deep into it since then i dont think theres a way to pull me out. at the start everything had such weird phrasing it was so hard to sort out what was stylistic and what was direct story telling & even now its sometimes difficult, but the fact with every new song we get a new version of the story and new info & everything ties together to consistently for a project made by one person over the course of several years with this level of detail.
going from knowing its a story about trying and failing to prevent the world's destruction to finding out not only are they doomed to repeat it, the only way out is to completely give up on their own self and accept total death. putting together the timeline from little hints some of which u have to sort through which is fact and which is a character's own narration distorted by either their emotions or intentionally. the fact the story telling is not entirely direct, the lyrics are only one facet of it, it goes as far as using the genre of the song to express things, theres just so much. ive been into my fair share of vocaloid song projects but this is the most precise and delicately handled one i've encountered. there is so much care and attention put into every single one of those songs it would just be insulting to not take it seriously. there was a moment i was worried it was going to turn into the same song but different when we got maximizer and then kanon and i'm so so glad that isn't the case because the way theyre handling it now really shows how important it is to them. this is a person who posts some of the most ridiculous memes ive seen & has some now popular meme songs and even with that attention they've said they're continuing to take the series seriously and that alone says so so much about the weight of this project to them.
i'll be honest with you i dont think there's a good end to this story. with the info we have now, with how aru sekai shoushitsu, the story outline song, goes i cannot see a happy ending for any of these characters. i wouldn't be surprised if it turned out we're only being shown one instance of that certain world & it ends in a way that implies despite all their efforts it's just going to happen all the same all over again, just with certain people lost forever and others willing to try more underhanded tactics to try their ideas that ultimately wont work anyway. i don't think there will be a real resolution to any of the problems. but even then there are so many currently unrevealed secrets & the overall commentary the work is making in the first place that sticking around for whatever ending we're given will be well worth the wait
#aru sekai series#its stated they keep their memories across iterations of the world. so.#given how kanon as a song went i cannot imagine how low other characters are willing to go#like im always picking out apoptosis for acting out & she IS mean among other things#but i honestly do not think in the next 'loop' that she would be even remotely close to the biggest threat#laboratory's gone we dont have to wordy about her anymore but anyone like her is a problem#the willingness to give okays while consciously overlooking major problems is more of a threat#than the girl just having The Absolute Worst Mental Breakdown of Her Life#like shes certainly not helping but shes far from the only one causing problems#kanon too. negligent . one of the bigger problems. and shes still alive even if she does regret it#im not even going to pretend to be normal about this series its been 4 years and my interest never wavers#also theres the promise of the fuu song possibly being finished soon. so.#i WILL be losing my mind. its been so long#whens the last song. isnt kannagi like basically a year old at this point. god.#i wonder if the fuu song will be a miku song#all the kanji heading songs (kyuu/shuu/ou) have miku so far i wonder if that Means something#if thats a Choice that'll continue or if it's simply that they didnt have as many synths at the time
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hey guys! gentle post to say : please kindly stop messaging me for the ep 8 link. i have given it to as many people as i can! but my dms are overcrowded as well as my ask box. if you are wanting it, please kindly see this post. everyone on there has been sent the link. please ask one of them 💛 sorry i can’t be more helpful. inbox me if you want to talk about the ep tho!
#brilliant minds#brilliant minds spoilers#elias talks#i was in a car accident the night before on the way to work#i work nights and i wasn’t badly injured#and close to work (a hospital ironically lol)#so i went#but i needed a night off#so i took last night off#so i slept most of yesterday cause i worked all night#and then i stayed up all night#and my headache has returned so#kshdjdhd#just a little over sharing#i need to sleep#cause i gotta work tonight#car accident tw
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i've been contentedly pot-boiling for most of this year and accepting the fact that now is just not the time for novels, but last night i actually had an idea for something long-form again, maybe this will be the thing that turns me around?
#storytime: the year before i went to college i wrote a novel and during college i shopped it around trying to get an agent#and i like to think i got suuuuper super close (a full request and an R&R; the agent and her assistant sounded very interested)#and then they were just like--nope sorry never mind! hope the extra work we made you do on that r&r was worth it!#and that was all the response i got after they made me wait a year to hear back which like. in hindsight i should have seen the signs#but i realize now that was a huge reason of why my confidence got so shattered subsequently because no one else was requesting#so i tried working on another project instead which i still enjoy; it's just not cooking properly and it's not debut material#so i'm glad to finally have something new to play around with#i was starting to think all my ideas were drying up and i'd never be inspired again#blake's last braincell#writing life
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sigh. slaps self across face No you would have a bad time suddenly driving six hours to go to illinois for a faraway seat for a concert thats in three weeks alone. no you cant really afford it even if the ticket’s not so bad, youd still need gas and parking and food and probably to stay overnight. noooo. AUGH
#just because its Technically Possible does not make that a good idea. rowan. stop it#the problem with these is that theyre so close to being things i could do that the possibility haunts me#thinking of u last year atz chicago concert#why are things never where i live. were a huge city why do they hate us#(this is a subtweet of a certain band world tour where the closest they get to me is next month in illinois)#(augh)#i should NOT have checked to see if there were tickets. now i am melancholy#never mind that i havent been to a concert since prepandemic#and i get overstimulated#and i would have to drive Back#my heart saw tickets i could afford in my approximate geographic location and went ‘but rowannnnn 🥺🥺🥺🥺🥺🥺🥺🥺🥺’ and i have not recovered#rowan chatter
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quite interesting how someone ive never met and probably never will meet knows me better than anyone else
#just a load of garbage#really says something about me doesnt it#me and my trust issues#i mean if someone doesnt know who i am they can't judge me#the only person whos come remotely close to knowing me that well is sarah#then behind her is jade#god i miss jade#im literally seeing her on sunday but chances are she'll be the same as last time#ignoring me bc her phone is more interesting#anywho#can we just notice how the only person ive trusted since december is someone i dont know#hm what happened in december i wonder#oh yeah#my auntie got killed#and why did she get killed#cos she went to israel#which i found out when?#after she'd been dead for weeks#maybe i dont trust people cos it seems like no one trusts me#even though i know they do#or at least i think they do#god who even knows at this point#i sure as hell dont#oh did i tell yall ive started praying again#everythings gone to shit so may as well hope for divine intervention#probably wont work but gonna try anyway#maybe the big dude in the sky does care after all#dont mind me yall
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i love finding old fanfic ideas in my notes app
#old like i think i wrote this one around this time last year#it's basically EMT!Robin doing a first aid demonstration at a high school#and there's a bit where everyone can ask questions about being an EMT and all that#and robin talks about how her actual dream was to study linguistics and maybe go into translating or teaching#so someone asks what made her change her mind and she talks about how her best friend (steve obvs) saved a life once#and after that realised /that/ was what he was good at and they made all these plans and he started going to school for it#and then he died. and for awhile it was the only thing that made her feel close to him again so she went into the course for him#and years later it's something she actually weirdly enjoys - if only for the routine of it all#she likes that her background in linguistics means that she can make all sorts of people more comfortable just by talking to them#she still doesnt have the stomach for it the way steve always had though - it's supposed to be a buckingham fic sorta#so eventually she was going to meet chrissy and they were going to get close and chrissy was gonna like. inspire robin to follow her dream#idk i have a couple 'robin lives' fics where she has to deal with the fallout of steve dying when vecna comes back
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I put the clothes in the washer on a whim and now I don't want to rotate them. I'm in bed with cat :( :( I have tea and I sent my last email for the night and now I want to hide and die.
I'm supposed to host a board game night tomorrow and that is like- the last thing I want to do.
#I was having a pretty good day until I went back to the uni and realized I made a mistake on the gas we had/didn't have.#Then stopped off at the store. As I was taking the groceries in I realized there was a spot free close to the apartment that ppl#have been hogging; and on the second trip I went to move my car and this motherfucker comes in and steals it.#I'm still so mad. They've been hogging it for over a month. I had a flat of cans to carry in.#But this is all an outlet for my preemptive grieving because I'm going to receive a Death Text sometime soon and... I don't know when.#I don't know if I should drive up there even though I already said my goodbyes and there's really nothing I can do.#The limbo is crushing.#You know that post about people leaving imprints on your soul even if they haven't been present for a long time?#My grandmother taught me to break up my instant ramen in the package so you can eat it easier and now I can't eat it#any other way. But she's been a shadow of herself for a really long time too and knowing that hurts worse somehow. When my dog died it#gave me a lot of peace knowing she was free from all the pain that plagued her in her last days; but the shadow is a close enough echo of#what was; that knowing the shadow too will end...#My mind keeps drifting to Miyazaki. I want to rewatch Boy in the Heron.#I miss my grandmother.#ptxt
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