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tbh I'm kind of disappointed by the finale, or more like the whole of season two in general.
i think if they couldve had three seasons (idk if it was their choice or not tho) it wouldve been perfect but alas.
first off i dont like that they discarded the whole political side of the show, that was one of the biggest reasons i fell for it, because of the obvious discourse on class differences. but i truly am not that knowledgable on that kind of stuff so if you want more criticism for that part there are definitely a lot of ppl who are giving it.
the biggest thing i couldnt get over is just how chaotic everything was, and it wasnt in a good way. everything happened soo fast, thats why i think 3 seasons wouldve been perfect. i just felt like i knew what was happening in the first season but in the second there were so many time skips and people ive never met before and it was disorienting. it severely took me out of it. i think act 1 was definitely like this a lot, act 2 wasnt so bad tho and im not sure on how i feel abt act 3 yet, that opinion is still developing lol.
another huge criticism i have for season 2 is that we barely get to see vi simply as a character. we see her a bunch, sure, but we see her going on mission after mission immediately and without much exploration of how she is dealing with everything. we get a couple minute montage then boom right back to mission mission mission. i think this started in act 2 and continued through act 3 because act 1 definitely showed her emotions well, while still having her actively on a mission. im definitely comparing her scenes to jinx's and i do understand that jinx is definitely the main character so its not totally fair, but season 1 balanced them so well. it balanced showing vi's character building with jinx's, as well as balancing vi's character building with her mission at hand. it was just slightly (very) disappointing to see her seemingly be put on the back burner. i love jinx so much and i love seeing her and her character building but if they could balance it so well last season, i don't understand why they couldn't have this season.
the last thing i felt a bit sad over was caitvi and their relationship but im gonns talk abt that in a different post teehee ok bye 👋
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MENTAL ILLNESS LOSES 🎉🎉🎉
#WOOOOO#my most listened was still harumaki gohan though kdjsldjsk top 1%!#tbh mental illness (suisei ni naretanara). had it harder because i listen to both versions indistinctly but yea#as well as the fact that i mostly listen to music on yt lol#tho my second most listened one was bitter water ??? from those couple of days where i listened to one single oh hellos album ig lol#mustve been some kind of intense times#but yea 2700 minutes and 525 of em were for mr gohan#like 80 less than last year lol#last year rachie was my number 1 and i was in her 0.5% but this year shes fourth i am so sorry queen </3#ft4 are third and even though i do not remember listenikg to them on spoti at all#the first song that played on the wrapped was taste and now i have this extreme need to listen to it for 7 hours#so i understand how that couldve happened#when the nagusamete yo darling hits#hworks#mar's midnight rambles
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assortment of vw (ID in alt)
#vashwood#vash the stampede#nicholas d wolfwood#trigun#trigun maximum#somehow i feel more comfortable uploading a collection of vw comics on here as opposed to one by one...#iv been thinking a lot of their quieter moments / less tense moments as opposed to anything heavy#and naturally i like to think of vash's thoughts / his witnessing of wolfwood as an individual / how he knows him and sees him#but theres still a sense of inevitability for what happens next#i think vash having lived the way he has understands that too well. so even if he sought change with wolfwood he didn't know how to#get wolfwood on that same page / or there couldv been an assumption they already were on the same page but ofc that was never communicated#sigh </3 theyre silly - always will be#ruporas art
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Thinking of vlr Akane is so conflicting cuz on one hand I’m so upset that she doesn’t ever get a moment to just rest and enjoy being alive again I’m upset that she just gets deeper and deeper into this role she’s built for herself and she loses her humanity and will never ever be that girl who died in the incinerator. But on the other hand, I need her to get so, so much worse I need her to be so obsessed with perfection she has this unique ability to change the course of history and she will burn everything and everyone to the ground in the blink of an eye if it means she can "reset" and get a perfect timeline and I desperately need her to never be satisfied with anything because really, is there anything that’s worth all the damage she’s caused?
#zero escape#akane kurashiki#virtues last reward#yeahhhhh just having so many thoughts about akane and sigma and junpei and yeah im screaming eyes bloodshot#i want akane to just like post 999 just do silly shit with aoi get a cat be a gamer try to heal the best she can#and i want her to be so evil i think theres still some crimes she hasnt committed yet she should do those#i really really really want her and junpei to just beat the shit out of each other in a boxing ring. specifically post vlr#need them being old as shit throwing chairs everyone is cheering#and damn like vlr akane just cant agree with junpei on his philosophy that a life with pain is still a life worth living cuz then thatd mean#everything she did in 999 was all for naught like to accept even the bad timelines where she died as valuable...#thats a kick to the dick especially when she fought so hard to live and how her death was so unfair#except she was just a scared kid with no choice then. now whats her excuse#i just want it to be possible you know? possible that akane didnt need to do this and she couldve been happy#cuz yeah the trauma would be horrible but surely itd be better than the trauma she has now since she took that dive#i wonder if she knows that no matter what she does she’ll never erase her trauma and eventually she will have to face it#or if she actually believes she can figure it all out and win the perfect timeline and magical mental stability will happen#basically akane is avoiding therapy soooooo hard but then again who would even be her therapist#no one can possibly understand her...right?
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like i wouldnt mind like. Not having new linear games post 5 its judt that sims 4 wasnt even supposed to Be The Sims 4 it was a last minute pivot and the base code is so outdated and was broken On launch so like. i just wish we could have the final actual sims game be like. one that was always intented to be a major sims release AND be intended to be so long term . yk
#i dont even want like. Ooh major graphical updates whatever if sims 5 was announced and they looked photorealizstic id hurl i wouldnt play#it#my ideal would ig be sims 4 with a touch more realism style wise. if this makes sense#like its a bittt too cartoony for me but i like the like. Clay hair or whatever SJFNFJ. and i think having it be simple in basegame means#you can customize it easier + itd run better on more pcs#so im fine eith that. i would nottt want it more cartoony#i also like. I understand the sims is like. an all ages game i do sometimes wish that the animations in 4 were a bit toned down#like i dont mind silly goofy wacky stuff i think its fun and like. The sims has always been a bit sillay yk. but the overexaggerated#animations r sometimes like -_-.... to me. but thats personal preference#IDK. the tags that show up when i type idk r so funny. do i ever know anything. sources say no#BUT ya i just rly wish like. if this is what they wanna do i wish theyd give us One more full game give it lots of time and love and rly rly#focus on having it excel at like. being this partnof the sims#since they wanna have like. Other sims games that have online features and multiplayer and everything. they could use that to make sure that#ts5 was Rly solid as a foundation and as like. ykwim..... they could plan updates for the future And dlc or whatever and i just think itd be#a better move than trying to make sims 4 happen#bc i judt dont think With all the updates in the world. sims 4 wont ever be like. what it couldve been. yk. i just dont think you can make#it work without Fullllyyyy just starting over.#and at this point with like..so many modders and stuff and everything and how much dlc there is thatd be impossible Esp if they keep#releasing new stuff which. They will ^_^#idk. im excited for some other lifesim games im keeping my eye out#but i rly do love the sims and i just wish that it could be as good as it could be. It has such a huge budget and team and like. if ea would#stop just trying to make as much money as possible off it i feel like they could make Such an amazing game. not to put down indie gamedevs#at all the games jve been looking at look Incredible like.. yk. but the fact those games are so good eith FAR smaller teams and budgets is#like. imagine what we could have if the sims had that amt of care and time put into it.#but whatever whatever whatever. sorry im just rambling#again ik what i would want from my platonic ideal of a sims game isnt what everyone would eant#but idk. i feel like another good step might be like. making the other sims games more available and updating them so they run better on#modern pcs. but i dont think thatll ever happen DNDNFJFNFN.
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Like I think peak Naruto for me was the episode after Asuma died where we followed Shikamaru around as he processed and grieved. It was all just daily life, but it was so heavy and GOOD. And then afterwards, with his plan to counter Hidan. Just. It was the Peak.
Meanwhile here we are, the ten tails summed (despite the fact that it's supposed to require the eight tails and nine tails too?? But it only has a portion of their chakra??? But that's enough for some reason???? Idfk the logic does not make sense) and everything is so high stakes and there are world shaking explosions over and over and over again and Honestly the kyuubi is fuckin carrying them through this fight, they'd be Absolutely Fucked without him, but even he's gotta have a limit right??? He said the ten tails is much stronger than him. So what the fuck are they supposed to do???? I'm tired of the huge stakes and the constant increasing of power (this isn't even including Kaguya, which I'm Really not looking forward to for how bullshit it is)
I'm watching it anyways. Because I want to finally be able to say I've finished naruto. But God I can really feel why I never finished it throughout all these years. Ugh!!!!!!
#speculation nation#fanny watches naruto#getting preemptively pissed about neji even tho i said id wait#just bc i saw an article saying kishimoto killed him primarily in order to push naruto and hinata together#and the opening sure does reflect that. has naruto holding her hand and whatever. her crying over neji. whatever#and im trying to withhold judgement until i see it for myself but it just makes me so ANGRY#there are a million other ways he couldve had them end up together. hinata literally confessed her love like 200 episodes ago#but noooooo kishimoto has to not understand how women's feelings work or how to write romance#so we have to shoehorn it in (because of ???? reader satisfaction?? literally why) by killing her cousin as a plot point.#effectively erasing neji's entire arc of working to be free from the main line. by sacrificing himself for the main line.#and you can say it's his choice bc he cares about her. but see it's the exact same thing that happened with his dad.#it was fucked up then and it's fucked up now. UGH UGH UGH UGH.#for a show i love with my whole heart i really do hate it sometimes. ugh!!!!!!!!!!
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kind of horrifying but also freeing how with enough time to let it simmer you can come to accept anything
#not putting this in the main post. i can understand how ppl think daudbillie fucking is real. i can see how they fucked one (1) time#and how it does not change dauds (fucked up) perception of billie at all but its a fundamental realignment for her. cant figure out when it#couldve happened though. definitely not the week of delilah but wouldnt it be so messy so grotesque so perfect if that was the case..#billie giving in to what she thinks they both rlly want and need bc she wont be able to again. billie thinking this will cement her#capabilities their similarities and enable her to surpass him once and for all bc she Knows him now..horror! horror! horror!#billie using it as a shield against her guilt for betraying him#but only getting more twisted up and confused in the process#bc she is so close to understanding the truth of her weaponization and damage but doing that would mean relinquishing possession#of her ambition (due to its now tainted)......at least in her worldview.#billie lurk blogging#i dont have a strong hold on dauds character bc i simply never think about him. which is unfortunate bc understanding him#is crucial to understanding billie. so hard for girls who dont care abt him beyond her relationship with him.......
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genuinely i cannot Stand bsd gachatubes takes on dazai-akutagawa-kyouka i think my mutuals should explode you
#these mfers never heard the word NUANCE in their entire lives#no there is no excuse for how dazai handled akutagawa but y'all cannot be blaming him for#continuing a cycle and then using kyouka as an example of it being possible not to#kyouka was able to find outside support & leave!!!#you can hold accountability and not be stupid about it at the same time#like idk guys it just makes me so upset#like i cannot state enough dazai was Wrong#but you also have to understand he was taken in by mori at 14 Years Old#we don't know what his life was like before that either#he was already described as having become worse Because Of Being In The Mafia by 16 which is when he picks up akutagawa#the mafia is a Bad Place. it is especially a bad place for Children#which is what both dazai and akutagawa were#and dont get me wrong this whole thing goes for akutagawa too like#i will state again DO NOT GET ME WRONG!!! the child abuse is bad.#that is objectively wrong. regardless of anything it should not have happened#but y'all cannot be acting like its something that couldve been instantly remedied like look see kyouka did it why didnt you smh#idk if i explained any of this right its past my bedtime#aethers rants
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red vs blue restoration blew such huge chunks im actually mad. like completely enraged. and i wouldnt have it any other way. rest in peace you son of a bitch
#like under the conditions it was made. i can understand why it is the way it is.#but i would genuinely be hard pressed to imagine a way it couldve been worse.#they brought tex back. which is like the number one thing they should have never done under any circumstance. leave the poor woman ALONEEEE#wash had absolutely nothing to do except act like an idiot for no reason and Be Crazy. leave him alone too#carolina showed up just to immediately get her shit kicked in. she doesnt even say a single word to tex so what was the point#and i fucking love tucker so im biased but WHAT!!!!! HOW DO YOU DECIDE TO DO META TUCKER AND FUMBLE HIM THAT HARD!!!!#tucker doesnt get a single line reflecting on Literally Being Tortured for (from his perspective) TEN YEARS????#not a single genuine emotional moment for him???? just gets up and says ''oww that sucked. bow chicka bow wow haha am i right fellas''#the blues got shafted so fucking hard. they barely interact with each other. they get no resolution at all.#wash and tucker didnt even talk. i dont think they were ever even in the same frame. if you wanted me to kill myself you couldve just said#also i havent watched s15-17 since they released and i didnt bother with rvb0 but when did doc die. huh#carolina said something about ''what happened on chorus'' and HUH? did i just miss that completely. what the fuck#also where is donut. he wasnt even in this. im assuming something happened to him that i just dont remember during/after s18 but i miss him#sorry for being so mean lmfao i dont usually like complaining so much but man...........#they didnt even make grimmons canon. smh my head#anyway rvb ended after s13 ❤️ yayyy
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oh right the current state of yumenosaki as i've understood it is. yuzuru argued so they'd get something called "student council privileges", that some bright mind shortened to something that means "holy sword"
since next year is going to be a test to see if ES academies work, they implemented a system where students can text their complaints to the "holy sword" section on HoldHands. something like "the wallpaper is so ugly please change it", then an es representative answers "ok that will be 200000L$" and if the student can pay that money, the changes will be implemented
so tori, using his family's wealth and fine's influence as part of the big 3, paid to bring back the student council and the club activities (that were also going to be removed)
#and im p sure this holy sword thing was sorted out before the story even started#so yztr had a ''if only i had finished my explanation all of this wouldnt have happened'' moment i think. its kinda#because tori got mad at him and slapped him for being in favor of es academy#but yuzuru had been in favor of it as a means to be able to include this angle#and he had indeed achieved it before tori even got mad so yeah#but i guess he wouldve had to get mad anyways in order to accept it#something abt stages of grief#but still some of the conflict couldve been avoided if they had explained it all since the beginning for sure#anyways. i do not think this system is a good idea at all#i didnt rly understand How they filter the complaints or anything but like#not a good idea dude#enstars#mar's midnight rambles#posting this partly for my own organization ww
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ok i need to vent.
my partner is someone who i would describe as very self-assured. he never seems to be bothered by things, especially social situations, because he quite literally understands that its all foolishness and doesnt matter in the long term so why waste effort and energy into caring about it. thats how theyve always operated and in general is not very sensitive (esp compared to me who is very hypersensitive and overly empathetic.) so it really stands out to me when certain people/situations do seem to bother him or occupy his time/energy because hes usually very flippant abt people that are rude, troublesome, toxic, etc. so why does my partner care so much abt this one girl? shes very mean, she sidelined with my bullies when they were really rude to me, shes very toxic and judgmental and has said some really shitty things to me in the past. my partner told me themselves they dont like her also. but they seem to care a lot abt how she perceives him and im confused/bothered by how much he seems to care abt her opinion. he says he doesnt, but his actions says otherwise. i wonder if hes trying to hide how much he does care becus he knows i dont like her? but like why does he care abt what she thinks in the first place. gaaah. its so complicated and it seems so minuscule but ik my partner and i can tell when he does care abt certain things and im confused as to why he seems to care a bit much abt this one person who we both agree is a terrible person. why???
#sorry. lots of my mind. sobs.#this is just a word vomit rant but yeah.#i dont even have time to unpack it becus a lot of things r happening today and im busy#but also idk how id even begin to approach this w my partner without sounding like a controlling jealous person#hes also made a weird joke abt her in the past that i had to say i wasn't comfortable with#and he didnt seem to understand how i couldve viewed it as uncomfortable#whatever whatever whayever#this is so STUPID i dont want to feel 'threatened' in my relationship but blab blah blah#p
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#wanna know the funniest thing to come from this?#i just realized that during the first relationship i wasnt really in love#or maybe it stopped or it somehow became just traumabonding somewhere along the way idk#but the first breakup wasnt this painful it really wasnt like this at all#sad for sure but nowhere near this amount of agony#but my mate was different i think he was the first i really truly fell in love with#this hurts more than anything else ive been through#all the shit ive been through all the endless abuse i grew up with and was put through all of my life#all the bruises and trauma and scars are nothing compared to the agonizing devistating gaping pain spreading through me rn#i want my mate back i want this to fuckig end i desperately want to die just to escape all of this#the horrible realization that the anxiety and paranoia were fucking right and not just some bpd fuelled worries#that him calling himself aro maybe WAS a warning of this happening after all and i shouldnt have trusted when he said im his exception#the fear that hes going to slowly leave just like the first one did because tbh its unavoidable and understandable#this pain that just wont stop and will never stop because why the hell would it stop im losing my best friend and love of my life#we couldve worked through it if he just didnt give up why did he give up why didnt he want to try literally anything else before this why#he gave up so i probably should too but idk how idk why i cant just fucking give up like he did whats wrong with me#why did this one have to be so much more painful than the previous one even if hes swearing to stay? was everything just lies after all?why
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"killing off izzy after he went through all this growth and finally got to be happy means all that healing was for nothing"
goddamn that is a bleak way to look at life. we all die, man. healing is still worth the effort.
#ofmd#ofmd s2 spoilers#i wish it couldve been handled better in terms if pacing#but i understand budget and time restrictions#but also yeah you can criticise HOW you feel his death happened/was handled#as also realize that it has a place in the narrative#not because people who get redeemed still deserve to die#but because one part of growing and chagung and growing to care for others#is to impact them#izzy imacted the crew enough that they comforted him and he allowed himself to comfort in turn#he sung to them#they made him a unicorn prosthetic#he was LOVED by this crew outside of Ed#and then came to a place where he could lov and acknowledge that it wasnt what Ed needed#its tragic and sad and too soon#but izzy being at peace means he was loved and able to love others#he found that happiness and got to CHOOSE it#and then the people who loved him chose to live their lives with happiness#and remain with him in other ways#and thats not so bad#if we'd gotten a fuller season we could've had this paced way better but we didnt#so i can agree its rushed but also that there are small details in the narrative that still speak to the theme#that even in circumstances like piracy (or landed gentry) we can find people who love and accept us#i wish he hadnt died#but if he was going to id rather him die loved and happy#izzy hands#also i think its fine if people dislike this ending for him and want to criticize it#because its not the best execution even in a dark romcom#and its fine if people are upset about that#fandom related
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the thing about me is that not only have i never been a boy but I've also lost my girlhood. so now everything sucks while I wait to grow into a man
#i think i realized my transsexuality at the wrong time#if i thought about it later i wouldve had my girlhood at least. maybe i couldve even had girl friends#unfortunately the alienation is crazy. and now i will never have been a 'boy'. it was stolen from me#<- also god. i hate that i cant be sure whether it actually was. or if i made up my memories#i remember when i was like 5 or so i loved spiderman so so so much and i had a stuffed spiderman toy and i wanted to be a boy#and i was sure that i was a boy. but people told me its never happened#its strange and hurtful because i remember just holding my stuffed spiderman in the cinema and telling my aunt something about being a bou#also i couldve just made that up i guess. ill never know!#because the aunt wont tell me and the mother denies everything#but coming back to girlhood.#recently ive watched some silly youtube video but one thing the woman there said stuck with me#it was that 'men may not understand and may make fun of it but girls know how fun greeting your friends with squeals and hugs is'#something like that anyways#and it stuck with me because. ive been a 'girl' but ive never had that. no girl friends were ever excited to see me even when i tried#but ive never had real boy friends either. ive never been and dont know if ill ever be 'bro' or if ill ever get to get beer with the boys#or whatever like that. ill have relationships but ill always be at least a step removed from anybody else#anyways i want that stuffed spiderman BACK.
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"it's easier to leave an abusive situation than it is to stop an abuser" :^( but it's not easy :^(
#repeating patterns repeating patterns repeating patterns repeating patterns#im not unsafe btw just. :^) scared :^)#tired.#starting to stop walking on eggshells kind of. in a cowardly way. like responding some of my real thoughts but at 4am#i want to scream. im not like that but i want to yell and tell her to leave me alone forever and i just want to be able to rest !#and to not be afraid. i want to move. i want to drop off the face of the earth. i want to go to bed. i want to stay awake and on guard.#idk. im tired. im so tired and i want it to stop. it's not even a big deal.#the thinly veiled insults bother me more than anything else. insult sandwich on compliment bread.#im so pretty im so stupid im so funny. im smart im too insecure im beautiful. im the most interesting person she knows im evil im talented#it's not even the worst thing it just pisses me off so much. do you think this is helpful to say? do you think this is normal?#do you think you'll get what you want insulting and belittling me as long as you tell me you think im attractive?#it's always how pretty i am. like some superficial bullshit is going to make up for an insult or make the insult disappear#and everyone else gets to leave but if i leave she'll die and it'll be all my fault and this is just like x y or z#and didnt i know she almost experienced trauma as a child but didnt? and how that effects her?#fuck. i hope she sees this tbh. how fucking insulting to see something someone's experienced and say that couldve maybe happened to me#but the person who couldve done it lives in another country and never came here.#what the fuck. what the fuck.#so it didnt happen to you? you cant lay claim to it at all? yet you think you understand me or that even if it did happen it's all the same#im going to lose my mind. im so. fucking. over it. but im a coward and i dont want her to die so ill grin and bear it.#and she'll tear out all my skin and ask if it's a little too much and ill say it's fine and she'll say im so gorgeous but i'm disgusting#but at least im kind. and ill say okay. because if i say anything else it's a threat on her fucking life.#tbh im only posting this now bc i know no one will likely read it. perpetual coward when it comes to this shit#because if i tell someone the full extent they'll ask why i didn't leave sooner. but i did!#i left and i got bombarded and overwhelmed and i was so tired of being scared of running into her everywhere#and i just. eased back in. and said it would be less this time. and it is so much more. it is so much worse.#ive lived in that fear before and i was so tired of it. it was a big reason i moved so far for college. and i cant just run away#so this seemed better. but it's so much worse. id rather hide every day of my life. keep an eye out everywhere and run away.#it wasnt so bad really. it was tedious and nauseating and i only ever explained it to one person. but it wasnt impossible.#this is much closer to impossible. this is soul crushing every day. and the things she does arent even as bad i dont think#it just doesnt stop. at least in high school i eventually got it to stop. i just had to be avoidant. this. wont stop.
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the difficulty of trying 2 explain to ppl that im Not being self deprecating or belittling my mental illnesses when i say something that could be perceived as overly critical towards myself but that thise things actually r true abt me. ppl did die.
#i wrote a whole post trying to explain and then i realized it judt wasnt particularly worth it so i out it in the drafts. so i wrote for#like 20 minutes and all i got is soooo insanely dissociated . can we kill connor im sick of this fucking guy#idk. i wish often incould just project my brain on a wall or sometjing abd ppl would get it and i wouldnt have to explain it#bc everytjing i say even when it sounds crazy or it sounds oike im habing a breakdown its like. its how it actually is its the truth but#nobody ever fucking understands bc i cant. word it in a way that makes it make sense to people#like my most prominent 'delusion' i cant fucking explain it to people bc theyre like Woah thats rly rly rly concerning and sounds like its#rly harmful for yourself to believe that but it literally isnt I have to believe it bc its one of the only things that actually is keeping#me alive but if i ever fucking talk abt it nobody understands it#sometimes it is very scary and it makes me miserable that its true but i know that it is true. ive woken up in terror crying abt it Multiple#times but ik that its true and its a good thing its true bc it means i am alive roght now. as alive as i always am at least#but wtvr. the post wasnt even originally abt that#it was abt dropout stuff and like. yk. bc when i say I dropped out bc i was lazy and whiny ppl think im being mean 2 myself and erasing like#the depression and the ptsd and the Identity shit and the dissociation and the panic attacks and the seizures and grief and stuff#but its like. yes all that also was going on but i also was just lazy. if i wasnt lazy i couldve judt fucking graduated and i wouldnt be#trapped now#<- That is only true for me . ik thats like a stupid thing to say but this is why i cant rlt Be honest abt how i feel abt myself dropping#out is bc i get horrific fucking guilt bc i Was judt lazy and fucking stupid and i Am a bad person for not graduating hs#but that is not true for other dropouts for other dropouts deopping out doesnt mean youre dumb or lazy and it doesnt make you a bad person#but its different for me ik everybody thinks theyre the exception but i am i Am just lazy i am just stupid and its my fault. specifically.#idk i need to go lke slam my head into a wall.#idk what happened i wasnt fucking doing bad and then i made like. a loghthearted post abt sometjing and derailed in the tags and now its#oh i remembered. i tried to sign up for a ged class and encountered 1 obstacle and fucking gave up . God. i loterally havent changed at all#we neeedddd to get rid of connor or at least get a bew one in so fucking sick of being rhe one im so sick of being Connor i dont want it#anymore . head on pike#idk. im fine. im just habing a momey. im.probably judt pissy bc i didnt sleep. maybe ill take an edible
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