#but coming back to girlhood.

[get-more-bald]

the thing about me is that not only have i never been a boy but I've also lost my girlhood. so now everything sucks while I wait to grow into a man

[mother-lee]

almost heaven

[daintydoll13]

「I go back to December all the time

I miss your tan skin, your sweet smile

So good to me, so right

And how you held me in your arms that September night

The first time you ever saw me cry

Maybe this is wishful thinkin'

Probably mindless dreamin'

But if we loved again, I swear I'd love you right」

[stwberri]

[tylchristine]

broken down and hungry for your love with no way to feed it.

[stormsandskies]

Every once and a while I think about Jay and Ava and wonder what they were like when then were younger

were they super close? did they go on little adventures together? did ava braid jays hair? did they play dress up? did they give each other bad makeovers? was there fashion shows for their parents?

what was their girlhood like? was it happy? or was there an underlying note of sadness under all of it because someone was missing?

did their father taint the happy family memories?

or was he actively present and involved until their teens?

Did he come home from work and tuck them in?

Did he play dolls with them?

[dollyiia]

｡ﾟﾟ･｡･ﾟﾟ｡ ﾟ。 hihi wlcm to my blog!!

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‧₊˚ 🕊️ ⋅ stuff abt mee .ᐟ.ᐟ

꒰ 🥄 ⊹ ˚ . name :: kyra

ꉂ`🐇`˖ * pr / ns :: she/her

‧˚꒰🤍꒱༘⋆ hobbies :: reading, writing, listening to music, and thinking.

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࿐ 🦢 ࿔*:･need a song to play?

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lover, you should’ve come over by jeff buckley ✧˚ ༘

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some basic info. about myself ☻

uhhh i like to read and write sometimes, i actually used to write on here but i get super self conscious and end up deleting it. i love love love movies im a huge movie fanatic, i will watch anything and everything some of my favorite movies are lady bird, call me by ur name, bones n all, anddd the perks of being a wallflower those are some i can name off of the top of my head— if u also like movies pleasee follow my letterboxd: dollyiaa. umm i love fashion as well i love styling myself and things like that and just looking at fashion overall, i used to design fashion actually but i stopped back in 6th grade. i also love to think that’s actually how i spend most of my time i kinda just sit in a bed and think about everything and anything—another thing i love is posting and scrolling on tumblr is app is like my safe space to kinda get away from everything anddd that’s abt it .ᐟ.ᐟ

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(｡•ㅅ•｡)〝₎₎ my favorites! ✦₊ ˊ˗

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┊ ◟﹫ book : the bell jar by sylvia plath

┊﹒𐐪 tv show : family guy and bobs burgers

┊ꜝꜝ﹒ movie : lady bird and sm more

┊ ⨳゛food : french fries

┊ ◟ヾ Colour : all of em

┊ ◟﹫ sport: basketball and track

┊﹒𐐪 animal: cats n hamsters

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1. lover, you should’ve come over (live) by jeff buckley

2. maps by the yeah yeah yeahs

3. roseblood by mazzy star

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tyty for reading .ᐟ.ᐟ

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kyra ♡

[milfygerard]

but fr outside of my contracted madness i absolutely refuse to give joe alwyn gold rush like how is that song at all related to their relationship the lyrics clearly spell out a relationship that either never existed or only existed in implication and fantasies and maybe-maybe nots and its so bitter and yet desperately soft in the bridge where it almost projects a sense of envy, of wanting to be them as much as you want them. It continues an interesting oft ignored lyrical trend of taylor wanting just as much to be her lover as to have them, envying their easy charisma (you were flush with the currency of cool/i was always turning out my pockets) or quiet dignity (your integrity makes me seem small) dating back to her earliest songs (the kind of flawless i wish i could be). Theres a projected self hatred and yearning to be better that twists itself into both romantic and sexual lust for her partners thats so fascinating and speaks to how all of her songs regardless of who theyre about are also an act of self reflection on who she is and who she wishes to be.

[modormouth]

Who's your favorite bloodborne boss?

vicar amelia, by far. going back 2 her design in model closeups makes me appreciate her all the more because she doesn't entirely translate as wolflike. her limbs are sort of spindly like a deer (the antlers are a bonus!). the neck is sort of stretchy and long like a dragon's. and yet there's still subtle iterations of human design in there. the chest area (without the hair) isn't as pronounced as say a dog or a deer's.

the hands, though rake-like can still translate as human. the feet are more dog-like.

but my biggest point of interest of her is how symmetrical she looks compared to other big beasts. she doesn't look like a horrific mishmash of parts like other creatures. her design looks more cohesive and chimerical. without the hair she gives cryptid vibes of weird forest creatures that are too tall or too thing to be confidently considered anything 'natural.'

her transformation from human to beast is such an iconic part of going through bloodborne. very horrifying and tragic and nauseating all at once that that woman that existed before you can't revert from the thing you see now. if you were to be killed by her and going back to her arena you hear these weird inhale-screams from her. they don't sound murderous. they sound... labored. her whole existence feels like pain. and this sequence made me re-think transformation sequences in horror greatly. going from something human to beast is a hell on its own. not just because the call of bloodlust is nigh-unshakeable. you're assuming a body that is now your own. limbs contort, the spine distorts, and insides transmogrify.

beasthood can be a physical and mental kind of hell.

[wildflowerwildfir3]

I’ve been so sleepy recently

anyways this has been my song lately

[sugarcandydoll]

feel like i need a break from tumblr cause there's sm negativity lately :(♡ feel so sad cause i love being here n girlblog n talk w moots n read good fics hehe ♡🫶🏼💕 but dunno what's in the air rn i hope it goes away soon :(♡

[angels444yuri]

i have not stopped thinking about this edit since the day i saw it i'm so serious

[annaliselis]

[laprincessadelmar]

Depression my old friend and worst enemy.

[rhysnolastname]

rowena's (and burger's!) birthdays snuck up on me, in the middle of the playdate! little baby has entered childhood!

she was so upset i forgot her birthday, she was just like this the entire time 😭

[ev4nesc3nce]

I'm not in love with him (I check all my emails to see if he has sent me any messages)