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I had a discussion with my boss and I’m so mad still. Cemented my decision to leave. Why is the entire company blaming every problem on my department
#we don’t miss dates bc I’m not doing my job. we miss dates because no one up stream can get their shit together#the product is late before it even gets to me#so fuck off#no one seems to understand what I’m saying and why I’m mad#so fuck everyone. I’m gone#they want to throw people at the problem and force me to supervise them#and at the same time say they want to ‘help get things off my plate’ no fuck you#this isn’t helping. no one’s helping me and I’m screaming crying overwhelmed#the only ppl who care or notice can’t help me and I’m so tired#I can’t keep doing this#fuck this job. fuck this life. and fuck my bosses#I cant say that someone is incompetent but they can overload me with bullshit#fuck off my job is in high demand. I’m being headhunted
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y’know i didn’t figure out what Stimming was until I was like, 19 years old 😭? Anytime I had the urge I’d always suppress it and i think that’s why i was so crazy as a teenager
#I FELT CRAZY#i didn’t know anything abt neurodivergence growing up so I thought I was Crazy and Evil#‘’I’m a sick fucking freak’’ <- has intrusive thoughts and doesn’t know it yet. is having a constant meltdown#so you know. having gone through all that and figured things out. big fan of ND grian AINDJDSK#no one look at me and my favourite characters I’m having a projection moment#literally playing totk rn tho . just had to log on to talk abt grian real fast. back to the grind#link also nd but that’s a given I think everyone knows 🤔
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is anybody interested in another chapter?
#is anyone even still here#I’m trying to motivate myself to finish this fic#but like#I feel like everyone’s gone#I know at least two of you are still here and I’m so very grateful#and I know the whole I shouldn’t write for others and should write for myself#but idk#I’m sad#idk why I’m even tell you this.#I just like talking to you guys#sigh#I need to shut the fuck up#I’ve had an incredibly bad day#ignore the tags i guess
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JJK is literally worse than me being an orphan.
#i say this with my whole heart.#is JJK worse than me being an orphan becasue it’s so heart wrenching or is it so heart wrenching because i’m an orphan#seriously if you ever want to know what extreme grief feels like#JJK#is the best way to understand a diluted version of it#or at least the grief i’ve gone through#like the horrible chest caving in and you can’t breathe and you’re like WAIT WHAT- BECAUSE PEOPLE KEEP FUCKING DYING#shits wild#gego#geto suguru#sashisu#073#satosugu#jujutsu kaisen#jjk season 2#jujutsu sorcerer#i will continue to live in my delulu land that everyone is alive and happy
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#hellsing#hellsing ultimate#seras victoria#integra hellsing#sertegra#a#hiiiiiii. we’re not gonna look too deeply about what my brains going through Happy Saturday!#day 1 of trying not to think about fucking that old woman. relapsed. relapsed. r#AAHHHHH I’m normal about them I’m normal. I’m normal. my thoughts are normal. and true. and helpful. and inspiring. and necessary. and kind.#actually no yknow what we can look deeply you know exactly what I’m getting at#you have all been cultivated so that everyone is on the same page and knows my brain inside and out#if all has gone well I will have scheduled this then started actual homework. probably not but let’s hope I’m productive
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me violently sobbing looking at my cat: you don’t know you’re going to die one day
my cat who just wants me to open the door:
#welcome back to me being so fucking scared of the concept of death that I’m inconsolably upset#everything and everyone I’ve ever loved is goin to be gone one day isn’t that so awesome (NO)#think I’m just gonna lay here with my poorly made leif plush and try to sleep#at the end of the day there will always be poorly made Leif plushie………….
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i don’t know how to live in a world without my aunt. i… don’t.
#ooc. o kaptain.#[i feel like she’s my last tie to… everything. i feel like she’s the last tie i have to… myself. to my family. to my everything. i feel like#without her I’m… not even a whole human being. she’s my best friend. she’s been my lifelong best friend. she’s been my mom and my dad. she’s#all i have left. and without her…. I don’t know. I don’t know. I feel so fucking empty. when I adopt kids what do I have to give them? if I#get married who do I have…? what do I have to give at all and what do I have left?? I want to go home and hug my dogs. I want to just#disappear. I want everything to stop and I don’t know how to make that happen. everyone around me is just… telling happy stories about#places they’ve visited. weddings they’ve gone to. their grandkids. and I… I don’t know. this. this is what I’ve got. and I don’t… I don’t#even fucking know. I feel so empty. I feel so fucking empty. I need to take the next week off.]#negativity /#death /
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In hindsight, I actually need Mike to be the one who initiates his break up with El. Because she’s had most of the control in their relationship for a while, and narratively speaking, his arc requires him to make an unprompted decision for himself about whether he wants to be with her.
#as the series has gone on El has gained agency while Mike has lost his. this is a problem that was set up on purpose so that Mike could#have his queer little ‘‘I’m going after what I really want. fuck everyone else’s opinions’’ arc. good for him good for him#their break up needs to be mutual but he needs to speak up first#mike wheeler#el hopper#stranger things#byler#stranger things final season#stranger things 5#mike wheeler is in love with will byers#mike wheeler is gay#mike wheeler is bi#mike wheeler is queer#mike queer#(not sure they qualify but I’ll add these too)#mike wheeler analysis#st analysis
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i know that i’m an outlier in this but why the fuck is everything in college so late
#em posts#why are all the events at fucking 9pm#and it’s not even like parties and shit#the fucking catholic student center mass is at 9:15#NINE AT NIGHT#and yk it’s gonna take like an hour and a half bcs it’s catholic mass#so then you won’t be back before 11#and it’s during the week too#like what the fuck are y’all doing#everyone’s bitching and moaning about not getting enough sleep#maybe if you weren’t doing supplies bingo until 10:30 you wouldn’t be tired#idk maybe i’m just an old loser#but if im not in bed by 9 something has gone awry in my life
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i lost the post but i saw someone talking about how some of y’all act like being weird is a choice and like. YEAHHHHHHH.
that’s fine, it might be for you. but i just live like this and don’t know any other way. like yeah i’ve worked customer service, i can do innocuous small talk, but anything beyond that, i don’t understand what i’m missing. and it’s frustrating to see the tonal disconnect especially from people who are like “uwu embrace weirdness!!” where they’re like. dressing quirky and talking about bugs and listening to obscure music and eschewing small talk to ask Deep Questions on the first date and unlearning their tendency to not infodump. and generally have an idea of what Weirdness is supposed to look like. idk man some of us wake up and get out of bed and can’t figure out why the rest of their coworkers chitchat with each other but when they join the conversation it dies.
weirdness is value neutral. let’s stop trying to turn it into a badge because quite frankly, it’s not a choice for everyone. it’s fucking exhausting to never be on the same wavelength as other people and they’re going to react the way they do and label you the way they will without any conscious actions on your end. it’s difficult to talk about this without feeling like you’ll be dismissed as immature, a teenager whining “no one understands me” but the thing is. sometimes you don’t grow out of feeling alone and different, and there’s no good way to talk about it without feeling like people will think you’re just fishing for pity.
#most of it is stuff i can’t help like!!!#coworkers and i don’t share a lot of interests so i’m always like. yes i’ve heard of that show but haven’t seen it. no idk that band sorry#and they’ll like. talk shit abt other people who share my interests without realizing that i also like those things#so i just have to sit there and take it#i feel like i don’t have a lot in common with my friends even. a few shared interests but very different lives#in my experience the conscious choice has been to try to keep up with what’s popular but it’s just. not interesting to me#i got bored and forgot to finish s2 of stranger things and never picked it back up#even alt subcultures have gone kinda mainstream and i never quite slot in#let’s not even touch the gay culture ‘flags’ that are extremely online and unrelatablr#and the most frustrating thing. every time i try to talk about myself and my interests i feel people shutting down#one person i know. open mouth sighs in exasperation when i open my mouth#i don’t know why you’re making it my problem that we’re different#i know there is supposed to be a niche out there for everyone but some of that feels like#those niches are falling prey to marketability. if you’re too far out of the mainstream. too out of touch. it can’t be helped#a lot of messaging online is like. embrace weirdness but only if it’s subversive in a very specific way#too normal to hang out with self-proclaimed proud weirdos. too weird to hang out with normies#like i thought the thing was to disavow performativity. i’m sorry i don’t find the same things interesting#i don’t care about the office and you don’t care about the hundred years’ war. that’s fine. why is that seen as a personal fault of mine#i feel like some of the reaction i get might be bc it comes across as hipster shit. idk#i’m literally just oblivious and looking for any kind of indicator for social interaction#but so often it feels like the onus of finding common ground is on me. i have to listen abt things idk but no one cares what i have to say#i think what makes it more frustrating is this reaction from people who claim to not care. do their own thing#and then get annoyed when i do mine and it’s. different#instead of being like ‘fuck the mainstream! conformity is bullshit! be yourself!’ it’s like#‘fuck the mainstream because it doesn’t appeal to me personally and i’ve made my own club!’#and this is not going to come out right because i’m just at my limit and venting and don’t know how to say things the right way#so people don’t misunderstand me#i just happen to never like the Right Things and know the Right Things and act the Right Way and idk how else to say it other than#can we be more normal about weird people#idk it’s hard to talk abt this without sounding like i’m just complaining but i’m more bewildered and trying to state things as i see them
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I cannot believe the wicked games Drabble was 5000 words long like basically a full ass fic and the low amount of notes it got…
#it makes my heart literally SINK like…#now how am I supposed to post wg4 which is 25k words????#it will not get any interaction and I’m just done#like I just cannot post it#it’ll legit kill me 🥲🥲🥲🥲 to see it flop#after I poured my heart and soul into writing something so fucking long and making sure it was good#just bc I knew I had to give you guys something long and exciting to read#but what’s the point#like I cannot believe it… I literally just cannot believe it and I don’t want to post anything anymore#omfg#I know many people will read this and roll their eyes and find this annoying#like I’m complaining or whatever#honestly think what you want to think#I’m just so shocked and legit unhappy#like so fucking unhappy#like bummed the fuck out#that it’s come to this#I don’t wanna post shit anymore lol#idk if it’s the algorithm or genuinely people don’t fuck with my fics anymore#I just don’t understand#but you guys have to understand how it would kill me on the inside if I posted a 25k fic and it got next to no interaction#like I just….#I’m scared it would make me quit writing completely#bc I’m THIS close#I feel so fucking sad bro idek#like it makes me wanna fucking cry#how… a few months ago everything was fine#now it feels like everyone’s gone#and I wasted my fucking time writing a chapter so fucking long that no one’s gonna read#WHY DID I WASTE MY TIME
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where is my fat husband
#stream#i’m lonely !!!! i want a man !!!!!!#me: where’s my man#me at the same time: not leaving the house nor dating apps & also is having a mental breakdown everyday while self medicating#also i’m 90% sure my meds are starting to fail again ALSKALKSLAKSLAKLSAKLSMAKSKK#ANYWAY#i didn’t even go to gay bars when i was allowed to drink like 😭😭😭#it’s all a bunch of straight people#there’s no point#like i constantly here old queens going ‘young gays don’t do xyz’ or ‘don’t know how to xyz’ like ok girl its because that shit died like#idk probably before the pandemic truly it was dying but the pandemic was the nail in the coffin like girl …….. i turned 21 a month into#lockdowns like#ok so i did stuff illegally & went to other shit but it still was straight bars 90% of the time there’s like 6 gay bars in houston total 😭😭😭#like idk what they expect like if … those venues aren’t there & are increasingly AGAINST doing the goofy tings …. how would the YOUNG KNOW#like at this point idk i truly think that it’s kinda on the elders at this point ALSKALSKLAKSAKSLAN like yea they’re boomers at the end of#the day so like i’m not saying that they didn’t have it hard they did they did ok but. get over it ? ALSKALSKALKSLAKSLA like alright … but#i’m saying this as someone who knows the history & bullshit like ok yea everyone needs to understand what it’s like to have your community#die before ur eyes but at the same time. there’s no community now ? ALSKALSKALKSLAKSLAKSLLA like girl …#girl …….#yall HAD a community but now all that shit is gone & none of us young ppl have any funds to make that 😭😭😭#like girl i have 12$ in my bank account i dream of being able to rent a flat at some point like a ONE BEDROOM u know W A LIVING ROOM & yall#own rentals so like this is UP TO YALL …..#like ur the problem ? 😭😭😭😭😭#@gays for trump & loghouse republicans i’m looking at YALL#a lot of these mfs are liberal too - pro invasion of iraq democrat back the blue bootlickin NIMBA faggots 😭😭😭💔#anyway that’s just me bitching#i’ve been so fucking IRRITABLE today
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Tom wanted election night to be perfect because he knew it would be the last time he’d have any power.
He wanted Greg ‘Gregging’ for him because he knew it would be the last time they could be together before he was useless to him.
He pushed Shiv away because he knew, even if she was telling the truth, their relationship and child are doomed.
He couldn’t go to the funeral because he’d have to face that all he’s ever wanted was power, and Shiv bearing his child, and for Greg to be independent, and how he’s getting exactly what he asked for in the most devastating way possible.
‘Normie’ Succession fans have said from the beginning that “Tom is fucked,” and they were right.
#that post about tom ‘dying’ this ep but not actually dying— you get it#and with tom gone shiv and greg can’t ever escape their cycles#‘With this character's death the thread of prophecy is severed.’#Restore a saved game to restore the weave of fate or persist in the doomed world you have created’#i really thought the cycle would be tomshiv and tomgreg staying ‘together’ in a fcked up way#but it’s actually all of them breaking apart and leaving each other alone and more broken in a prison of all their making#gay art date is just gonna be tom committed sepuku in front of greg and everyone else thinking it’s a performance art piece#(i still need to watch the ep i’m just behind lol)#also roman suffering is so fucking brutal GODDAMN i want to hate these people (& i do)#good for jess getting out tho <3#i know nb (fck him lol) said ‘believe in greg’ but i think it’s more his ability to survive than any irrational loyalty to tom#succ#succession#tomshiv#tomgreg#tom wambsgams#shiv roy#greg hirsch#succession season four
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#i’m a little drunk so forgive me please but#idk if it’s like.. bc i’ve been kinda down/moody anyway recently or if it’s bc i was gone for a week or bc i’ve finally picked up on it or#what - but i feel like legit kinda isolated now in work.. not in like some awful everyone deffo hates me way but in that bs olivia laing way#like it’s taken me way too long to notice that i’m not doing a good enough job making fuckn work-friends or whatever the fuck#& it’s so hard to say if that’s like. a me issue or if that’s bc fuckin almost all the people i work w are guys so i’m not a real person t#*to them!! probs fuckin both lbr - but it’s rly not helping shit yk#bc as soon as u go in knowing that ppl are talking 2 u for politeness then ur quieter so u look worse so there’s less talking etc etc etc#great fuckin stuff - ANYWAY remembered what i actually wanted to say#which was that i went to get some drinks w a friend earlier this week and god i wish i could like. this week just do ANYTHING#get properly pissed! see people & shit properly again; i miss having a proper social life and i’ve litch never had one#this is best left to be forgotten#so let’s not tag it lol - but anyway; anyone know how to make proper friends as an adult as a compulsive nonsharer & someone w/o interests!
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They think he won’t deport them because they aren’t committing crimes. Don’t call us when they do because imma be at home eating popcorn while they do it. my outrage is dead. I’m just laughing at you’re suffering like ha ha
Poor, uneducated whites are about to get fucked around come January 2025. Lmao that complexion isn’t going to save you. Y’all about to literally be in the fucking trenches because of this election, and I honestly can’t wait to see it.
#NOPE!!#I ain’t got 💩for the ones who voted in majority for Trump!#I’m talking about you DACA Latinos#you Muslims#and you Asians.#If your great grandparents#grandparents#or parents#are illegals#you’re all getting deported#under denaturalisation! 🤷🏽♀️#Like welp#You asked for all this#I’m just gonna watch and laugh that’s all#😂😂😂 they going to see aint shit sweet#😂😂😂 and I can’t wait#Happy suffering losers 😂#So many brown people are in for the shock of their lives.#Nah im not gone lie#Trump was exactly what was needed and deserved for this country#cause now im even more staunchly pro Black than before#For four years it’s the fuck it I’m free era for black folks like me#Now I don’t have to carry anyone and I care about everyone in my community#While the hews and those Latino folks who ask for this suffering.#And I don’t have to lift a finger.#2024 presidential election#election 2024#early voting#us election#kamala for president
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if i see ONE MORE rude comment about renée rapp in the mean girls musical movie i am going to SNAP
#‘regina’s supposed to be skinny and it doesn’t make sense if she’s not so they should have cast someone else’ SHUT UP!!!#SHUT THE FUCK UP!!!!!#WHO THE FUCK CARES!!!!!#i hope once it comes out all the people who are hating on her (and her body) are fully gagged when they hear her sing#that will be MY revenge party#anyway they really did everyone in the cast dirty by not marketing it as a musical#because now everyone is simply comparing them to the og movie cast#instead of recognising that it’s a different format which requires different skills and they aren’t trying to directly replicate the og#anyway renee rapp ily <3#also she isn’t the only one who has been getting hate but she’s the one with the most i’ve seen#i saw someone be like ‘no offense to the actress but the point of cast is that she’s really attractive but doesn’t realise it#so this actress just isn’t it’#which is crazy because like. angourie rice IS attractive. wdym.#they’re acting like she looks hideous or something#and as per usual there’s people complaining about janis and karen and damien’s casting and it being an effort to be ‘woke’#anyway. i’m excited for it to come out i don’t even care.#like my expectations aren’t the highest#just because i think they could have gone WAY more exciting with the costuming and stuff#and i’m mourning some of the songs that got cut#but honestly idk i think it’ll be a fun time#this has been much longer than i was expecting but it’s fine#*edit: my phone autocorrected ‘cady’ to ‘cast’
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