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She beat his chest.
She beat his chest and he held her.
Well, as best he could with one arm. As best he could in this newfound partnership with a kid. As best he could not know what plagued her mind so much that she lashed out against him. What thoughts and memories were circulating in her mind to send a strong, wise girl into feeling such a way.
His phantom pain and loss on his right side longed to hold her back. To hold her as she deserved to be held. Had she ever been held before? His left hand only jumped between rubbing small circles down her back, tracing her spine, to threading his fingers through her blonde strands, carding the tangles out as he combed his fingers through. But it wasnât enough.
His hand, as it was against the crown of her head, left too much empty space across her back. He wasnât holding her at all that point; she was pushing herself into his chest, her fists balled up against it. And with a hand across her back left out, what he figured, was some degree of comfort and reassurance, purely based on the way her breathing changed every time he did.
He couldnât give her the best of both.
But he did what he could. What, deep down, he thought was right. Heâd never comforted anyone, let alone a young girl, in a long time. He hadnât been comforted, truly comforted, or held in a long time. Like the pain in his right side, it was a sort of phantom pain. Something there was missing, but he could never get it back.
He didnât say anything and it caught her, and, funny enough, him by surprise. He never stopped talking, they both knew that. Sheâd told him as much.
You talk a lot.
That I do, birdie.
Even if it was mindless information; meaningless words that meant no stretch of importance in the Black, he said it anyway. Random stories of his time on the Green, mythical tales, old partners, some phrase he picked up in his time as a scoundrel and itâs history that needed a twenty minute explanation. Everything had a place in the air between him and anyone who would listen. Or wouldnât.
But now, in a moment of emotional vulnerability that they somehow managed to keep at bay until right now, he had nothing. Not a word to lighten the mood (and heâd thought about it, but decided against it), or a word of comfort. Though, he wasnât exactly sure what could comfort her through something like this.
Her cries had quieted down, only small hiccups strewn across his chest and following sniffles and gasps for air. She loosened her fists against his chest, very gently fiddling with the slack of his undershirt.
Heâs not Damon.
Eventually, she adjusted against him and pulled her arms away from his chest and wrapped them around his middle. She held onto her own hands around his back and settled her face more into his chest.
Heâs not Damon.
He continued tracing her spine. Whenever a few more tears fell or sheâd sniffle or let out a small whimper, heâd bring his arm as far around her back as he could, squeezing her tightly for a moment, eyes closed as his cheek would graze the side of her head. Heâd turn into it, every time, nearly swaying them side to side to hold her as tight as he could.
How much was too much? Could he hold her as tightly as he wanted to, that he believed she deserved for all that sheâs gone through?
She was a tough kid, that was for sure. He, honestly, never imagined having to do this. Having to comfort some kid who shouldnât have been been on the green in the first place. A girl whoâs father he killed. He shouldnât be doing this.
He shouldnât be caring. Shouldnât be attached, if he could even call it that. Shouldnât want to hold her tight enough to squeeze the life out of her. To reassure her and try and understand the thoughts in her head and hold them in his own. For her to lay her grievances on him so he could bare them in her place. He shouldnât be wanting to take care of her.
Reluctantly, she pulled away slowly, reaching up to wipe at her face with her sleeve before he could see her.
Ezras hand hovered, unsure what exactly to do with it. He let it fall to his own side, hesitant to keep on her if she didnât still want it.
She let her head hang as she pressed her sleeves to her face, trying to sniffle the congestion away that all her crying had given her.
âIâm not⌠mad at you,â she started, trying to compose herself in front of him despite having just cried against his chest. âThereâs a lot thatâs happened. Damon, the Saters, your injury, trying to get off the Green, trying to keep you aliveâŚâ she sighed, doubting he understood the weight of last frustrating few cycles and how theyâd weighed on her.
She looked up shyly, anticipating a more Damon-esque reaction to her outburst. âItâs been a lot and it caught up with me and I didnât know what to do with it. Iâm sorry,â she said, looking anywhere but his eyes.
Ezra gave her a hesitant, soft smile. âThatâs alright, little bird, donât you worry a thing about it. Iâm afraid I canât be mad at you for feeling such a way after all that has transpired.â
He was not Damon.
Damon would ridicule her for feeling anything that wasnât related to Aurelac, the Green, or survival. Heâd make her push through it, refusing any comfort or reassurance, leaving Cee to fight it all on her own. He didnât let her enjoy things or have likes. Sheâd tried to talk about The Streamer Girl to him, and every time heâd managed to brush her off and pay more attention to his syrettes or sleeping. He was barely kind. She was barely a person to him anymore, let alone a daughter. An extra pair of hands just so he could get some points.
But Ezra. Ezra was kind. He was soft. He wore a smile that she hadnât seen in a long time, especially not on her own father. He indulged her likes and even said heâd like to read Streamer Girl someday. He protected her every way he knew how while also missing a limb. He trusted her. Trusted her words and trusted her capabilities.
âSay, birdie, do you plan to write some of your thoughts into that notebook? You spend quite the time in there as is-â
She laughed wetly and punched his arm, âshut up, Ezra.â
He smiled, raising his only arm surrender. âAfraid Iâm not critiquing your avocations. Simply an observation.â He paused, his lips forming a tight line. âThink itâd do you well to write them down, birdie.â
He was right. She did spend a lot with her notebook. Writing, mostly. Her own small stories. Retelling Streamer Girl word for word from reading it so many times. Small sketches of what she saw on the Green or out in the Black. The interior of the ship. Ezra.
She could add journaling to the list.
Cee nodded, her eyes still red and slightly puffy as she looked up at him. âYeah, maybe so.â
They didnât talk much more that night, the two of them settling comfortably into the silence. Well, silence for Ezra. It was only slightly uncomfortable to him, but with the light scratch of Ceeâs pen against the paper and her humming and the tapping of her foot to the tune coming in through her headphones, he managed.
They were managing. A new person, for both of them. For Ezra, a child. For Cee, a guardian. New, unforeseen circumstances to work through. Both of them having someone to care about, to fight for. And the entirety of the Black out there to explore, and theyâd be doing it together.
#Iâve never written for them before so I donât know HOW this looks or sounds or how accurate it is#writing for Ezra is hard okay I do not know Ezra speak I simply canât do it#gonna rewatch the movie super super soon#idk Iâve been a bit brainrotty after reading we violent ones and all of jessaâs series in less than two days#also this uh#idk takes place post movie#heâs fine his injuries are chilling#nothing detrimental. he can chill and hug and have a relaxing night with nothing to worry about#theyâre fine THEYRE FINE#prospect fandom we are small#so for whoever finds this#enjoy I suppose#I know our supply of father daughter fics for Ezra and cee are low đ#DONT SHIP THEM YOU DISGUSTING RATS đŞ#prospect 2018#prospect movie#prospect ezra#prospect cee#cee prospect#ezra prospect#prospect fic#L writes
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good morning sifloop nation
#loop is so fucking hard to draw bc I can never tell how I can center the face on their cookie cutter as head#its literally just a pair of eyes and yet it fucks with me every time đ#idk what came over me bc suddenly im imagining these two freaks in the funniest scenarios for my own pleasure#im not even halfway thru the game yet im still on act 2 bc I havent been able to play it in a while#genuinely though I am curious as to how ppl would go about describing how u would kiss loop. this isnt even a jab at anyone#in fact I admire whoever pushed their imagination to the limits to find a way to make loop kissable in ways science cannot explain#and other fun activities#I think itd be funny for them to do 7 minutes in heaven bc normally 2 ppl go in to smooch or whatever in the closet#in their case two of them go in but only one of them comes out alive. bc theyre like that#are they fighting or are they fucking. the answer is up to you#sifloop#myart#my art#in stars and time#isat#isat fanart#isat loop#isat Siffrin#Siffrin#loop#doodles#shitpost
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Star Trek, The Immunity Syndrome (2x18)
#when you're literally about to die so you decide to record your final words with special reference to your bestest colleague#so that whoever finds your body will know how much you cared about each other. in a professional capacity. right?#kirk/spock#star trek tos#spirk#spock#james kirk
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Jason âmy family doesnât know im aliveâ Todd and Danny âmy family doesnât know Iâm deadâ Fenton going alongside each of their plans my beloved. like Danny will absolutely go head-to-head with all of Gotham to support his new best friend on all his crime lord endeavors while he drags Jason to also attend collage with him. They are roommates and there never seems to a mention of family from either side. Itâs an unspoken understanding they have. They met because Crime alley as a ghost lair thrummed with so much loneliness, it was at first the perfect place for Danny to hide his ecto signature in. But then he saw the dumbass whose lair it was lean his motorcycle just a tad too much when making a sharp turn to an alley, he sweeped the floor through a lifted chain link that passed his body but not his helmet. Yep thatâs right the red thing got stuck. Danny who at the moment happened to be watching through his window snorted. Much to his horror because if not a ghost that dude couldâve gotten his head flung off.
Still, the scene was ridiculous.
On a whim he irrationally sees the police closing in on the guy and panicked at the thought of the guy using intangibility to free himself so Danny phased them both through his apartment wall and left the guy sprawled in his couch. Jason didnât freak out but thatâs normal when oneâs got a concussion, one the guy immediately denied having as Danny laid out the medical supplies. The idiot proceeded to almost flatten four steps to the door with his stubbornness. He also said âIâm asexualâ in the most deadpan voice as Danny dropped him back in the couch.
Danny sighed. Clearly though, heâd done so too early in the night because the guy kept trying to go, kept trying to knock Danny out, kept trying to slash him with knifes Danny didnât know he had stashed. Heâd only disarmed the guy from his guns. The visible ones apparently, cause at one point the guy did take out a gun and shoot until the ammo ran out and then teetered the thing like it was an art prop and hit his moon lamp.
Danny "yeah you arenât officially my friend until youâve tried to kill me" fenton my guys.
Anyways both keep having the same argument over if Danny technically kidnapped Jason or not. Danny holds the fact that the police at least didnât see the guy make the ridicule. Jason argued that happened cause he was sporting a concussion. Danny argued he got that after.
Jason at first thinks the guy's a meta, but no. Danny introduces himself, sheepily now that he recognizes this is who the lair he invaded is from. He bandages him and tries to cook for him. If Danny didnât have ice powers he most certainly wouldâve burned the apartment. Jason then proceeds to kick him out of his own kitchen and make them both enchiladas. Itâs the most normal both had in a while with another person and the air seems oddly settled. From then on, Jason constantly invited himself over, under the pretense that this was his territory and therefore he could drop in unannounced. Danny who has actual powers says he only allows this because Jason cooks very well.
Danny stays away from the crime fighting business unless his buddy is in deep shit he canât get himself out. Also itâs Dannyâs turn to cover for his vigilante friend which Sam and Tucker give him so much shit for. (but also advice)
And they were roommates. (omg) Danny effectively derails Jasonâs big comeback plans by casually dropping ghost lore every two days. Like,
Jason, talking about how he doesnât want Bats snooping on his territory:
Danny: Just donât let them in
Jason: ??
Danny: yeah!! Hasnât Batman died and got revived??? You can totally kick out death touched people you donât want entering on your lair.
Jason: âŚI can?
Danny: Yep dude, your lairâs supposed to feel safe.
Jason: wait does that mean I can kick you out?
Danny: First this is my apartment. Second, im dead, not dead touched. Third, itâs too late to get rid of me. bitch.
Anyways Jason is super excited. You mean to tell him he can actually deny people over to his territory haunt?? (Yes itâs only to people who have died and came back but still!! The sample size is exactly the type of people he doesnât want to seeâ!)
Joker my beloathed canât step foot in Crime Alley.
(Jasonâd feel a lot safer if the clown was dead but the possibility of his murderer turning into a ghost and their little loophole not applying on the clown is too scary to contemplate.)
Anyways, Jason loves experimenting with the power. It can go from simply making people shudder and not want to enter crime Alley to straight up not letting them enter like thereâs an invisible wall blocking the way.
Jason because heâs hurt that Bruce never even patrols Crime Alley and also because heâs petty put B under the category of âinvisible wallâ blacklist. His reasoning is that the man doesnât even attempt to enter Crime Alley. To him itâs surely just a place shadowed in tragedy. (anyways thatâs itâs the place he met Jason)
Ironically, Jason totally forgets that Batman does venture into Crime Alley one day in the whole year. The day he met Jason.
Okay. He didnât forget at first. The first year Jason remembers cause it was only a few months till then but then the nextâ Jason forgets that todayâs the anniversary of the dayâs Bruceâs parents died. He forgets to allow B in when he feels a slight tug and dismiss the feeling that prompts Bruce to investigate because he literally canât enter Crime Alley. He starts the trialsTM, he scouts on the very edge and sees people the whole day enter and get out and cross with no problem but Bruce canât.
Itâs literally just Bruce.
Time to call Constantine, i guess.
#bat shenanigans ensue#JSJSJS okay so i dont have a well versed timeline of events but two years after utrh who HASNT died of the batfam#cause those are the ones who are gonna go undercover to find what shady shit is this: )#im going with timmy cass and duke#sorry steph i KNOW you have died#the others have plausible deniability from my part#the trio is gonna come down hard on this unsuspecting pair#let's just say constantine just had one spare magical rune for each of them so they'll be able to identify who was powerful enough to do it#and duke found civvie jason. cass found civvie danny and tim also found jason a la squared. in his red hood get up later that night#the only useful photos are from tim's side but anyways since they got three suspects (one suspected to be the other. so really-- two)#they decide to split each other up and tag one each (whoever doesn't get the correct guy loses)#tim calls dibs on the twink. cass rolls her eyes and narrows her eyes at the red hood and duke smirks when he gets to keep his guy#he's not cheating if he didn't protest to getting to have the guy he already saw the aura of. he's sure he is IT#coincidentally duke happens to be the only bat jason doesn't recognize (and vice versa)#meanwhile cass is gonna be the one shadowing red hood which at this point he doesn't kill that much since he has his rules verymuch enforce#he does kill tho#so at some point they're gonna clash but at the start of the investigation no#let them be siblings your honor#big sis cass and her little brother 6'4 jay#and tim finally is gonna be the one to smoothly get himself in the conversation with cryptid roommate civilian danny fenton#genius dumbasses protection club#their first meeting is of course arranged but no less meet cute coffee shop au#anyways jason wants to know why the fuck hes got a bat tagging along with him so out of the blue and also why can't he fucking chase her of#cass is curious about how the red hood's mood constantly changes within her range yet he never attacks her despite his hurt-longing-anger#the boy who doesn't make noise fucking screeches when she sneaks up to him#and duke fucking brings his hands to block the chernobyl reject glow stick sun that's stands next to tim#while tim looks like his whole system is rebooting cause that's jason todd#dp x dc#danny phantom#jason todd
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Tall Claims TV
Full list of faux-news headings from the Mumbo vs Hermitcraft case!
Record Sales Down After Players Discover /playsound Trick
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Permit Office Closed from December to June for Christmas
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AI Chat Bot Found to be Lonely Man With a Redstone Keyboard
Mined Worker in Hospital After Proving âWater is Safe to Drinkâ
Diamond Inflation at All Time High as Doc Builds Another T-Bore
Bop and Go Jingle Still Topping Charts, World Tour Announced
Neck Roll Parrot Dance Goes Viral on Brick-Tok
Gem-M is Ditching Voice Chat and Would Rather Message Instead
Shopping District Portal Deemed âUgly Beautifulâ by Poll
Etho Upgrades Tissue Box to a Washed Takeaway Container
Globe Earthers âStill Believeâ Despite Farlands Expedition
Moon Size Report: Still the Same (Thank Goodness)
Netherite Out of Style as Youth Opt for Less Flashy Brands
Independent Study Finds Thumb Shifting to be Optimal
Increase Arm Muscle 33.3% With One Simple Click! Story at 10
Big News: TV Caption Writers Would Like More Pay, Says Everyone
Older Minecrafters Say New Generations Have it Easy
Villagerian is the Most Hostile Language, According to Poll
Surplus Mega Corp. Says âAir Quality is Better Than Everâ
New Zombie Flesh Diet Guarantees Fast Results
Hacker Infiltrates Ender Chest NetworkâItems Lost
Engineers Add 5th tick to Repeater, Public Still Uninterested
âIs That Sheep Looking At You?â New Show by MineFlex
How Many is Too Many? Asks TV Caption Writers
Leaving Floating Trees Named Biggest âIckâ by Gen-M
Blockympic Gold Medalist Banned After Failed Speed Potion Test
Pig Kills Owner After 20th ride Without Getting Carrot
New Smart Watch Puts F3 on Your Wrist
Wart Epidemic Caused by Irresponsible Marketing Campaign
New Study Finds 91% of Players Donât Understand Comparators
Kelp Powered Furnaces Recommended to Fight Climate Change
Research Finds We do Not Live in a Simulation
Skyscraper Firm Lobbies Government for Increased Build Height
Copper Voted Best Block in Minecraft, Despite Limited Uses
Theoretical Physicists Model Curved Blocks Called âBallsâ
Magic Mountain Lawn Flamingo Company Goes into Liquidation
Hungry Hermit Addiction Reaches Epidemic Levels
Gen-M Should âStop Eating Golden Carrotsâ To Save For Starter Base
#IâM SO OBSESSED WITH THESE. i hope whoever wrote them finds a triple vein of diamonds when they next go mining#the entire video is fantastic the case is hilarious and the editing is top-notchâi really wanted to save the headings in particular#hermitcraft#hermitcraft spoilers#mumbo jumbo#hermitblr#kaya posts
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hey grian every version of your soulmate called and they all said they love you
#desert duo#scarian#trafficblr#tonyâs art#too scared to main tag so whoever finds this finds it#traffic life smp#digital art#fanart#mcyt
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finally drew clora and seb's kids!!đđ
Celeste Sallow: OK THIS IS THE NAME IM SUPER PROUD OF BAHAHA because not only does the name celeste relate to the stars (in typical ravenclaw fashion...clora picked the name) but celeste sallow is also an alliteration. BUT, its an alliteration that begins with a C, which means clora gets to match with celeste in the form of both of their names starting with a C, whereas sebastian gets to match with celeste because both of their names are an alliteration/they're alliteration alliesđĽšITS THE BEST OF BOTH WORLDS!đĽł
Lewis Sallow: as for lewis, if you've read my fic then you know that seb has a vendetta against names that start with an L bahaha, but 'lewis' was actually HIS idea. when celeste was born, seb wanted to find a muggle story to read to her, since clora's favourite story is ALSO a muggle one (sherlock), and he wanted to stick with tradition. so he ended up finding alice in wonderland, which he loved because of how adventurous and clever alice was and of how much she reminded him of clora and celeste (both personality and looks wise). it became his favourite for those reasons, to the point that when they had lewis, sebastian overcame his L-name hatred by naming their son after lewis carroll.
Houses: celeste could have been sorted into either gryffindor or slytherin, but ultimately ends up in slytherin because she wants to be like seb. kinda like how clora also probably could have been in gryffindor, tbh. as for lewis.....him being 10000% in ravenclaw doesnt need any explanation BAHA, just look at him.
Appearance: since clora has a tiny bit of veela blood in her, thats obvs passed down to their kids, too, and so they mostly take after her as a result of it. but there's still little bits of seb that shine through in each of the kids: for lewis its his brown curly hair, and for celeste its her complexion/freckles. and the fact that celeste looks so similar to clora only doubles up sebastian's stress/protective instincts when he watches her BAHAH. he's ofc still proud that she takes after him so closely, but seb also cant deny that he wishes it had been their SON that had taken after him instead, to keep her out of danger.
Celeste & Lewis: for celeste and lewisâ relationship, celeste is a super proud big sister, and treats lewis kinda like how seb treats clora. if there's anything that needs to be done, she offers to do it for him. and although she doesnât have the patience to read stories herself, she loves playing outside and having lewis read to her in the background, and loves to act out/use his stories to fuel her imagination. and lewis makes sure to pick stories that he KNOWS sheâll like (which mostly involve heroic and daring feats of adventurers or pirates. he's tried to read more classic fairytales and romances to her a few times, but celeste always gets bored). she loves to draw though, so sometimes when lewis reads books that have no pictures, she'll draw them herself.
Celeste & Seb/Clora: celeste is a daddy's girl LOL and always tries to impress seb with the stuff she does, especially after hearing how HE was at her age, and so its half to impress and half because shes competitive that she wants to do the same/be just as good. and seb always gets a kick out of hearing her feats in the crossed wands club, or in defense against the dark arts class, and he also goads her on, telling her she'll have to do better than that if she wants to be as good as HE was. and whenever celeste gets detention, clora always stresses and asks why, whereas seb just tries to keep the smirk off his face. as for celeste and clora, clora also reads to celeste, and bakes and cooks with her, which is something celeste actually likes doing. not only because it keeps her busy and she likes to help and get messy in general, but also because she likes the fact that it results in good food afterwards LOL, and constantly asks when things can be taken out of the oven. also, for as tomboy-y as celeste is, she honestly doesn't mind/likes the clothing that clora puts her in and likes when clora dresses her up, bc it makes her look like one of the princesses from the storybooks, and it just amuses her more than anything else. once she enters hogwarts, though, its mostly trousers. but she still DOES like the occasional girly clothing.
Lewis & Seb/Clora: lewis is a momma's boy LOL and unlike celeste, doesnt care about duelling or of proving himself or anything like that, and is only concerned with stories and his future studies. so ofc clora had to show him sherlock, which he naturally loved. it even inspired lewis to want to write his own stories, so that he could challenge his own skill and see if he could, but also because he wants his mom to read them, and likes the idea of writing his own sherlock-esque story with equations and mysteries to be solved that he can offer her. lewis also wants to write a book for celeste as well, bc although he wont admit it, he basically wants to write a story tailor-made for her and her interests. one that he thinks will have everything sheâd love in it. and part of it is genuinely because he WANTS to do it for her, but the other part of it is also for his ego, and to see if he CAN write a compelling story, and write something that would actually get THE hyperactive celeste to sit down and read it in its entirety (not to mention of her own volition). as for with seb, lewis looks up to him more than anyone else, due to how well-rounded he is and how hes so good at practical stuff AND studying, and he kinda sees seb as a main character/protagonist from one of his books, and uses sebastian as inspiration for his own stories. if hes stuck on what he thinks the dashing main character should do next, he'll ask his dad what HE would do, which results in seb getting very weird questions that he nonetheless is always happy to answer. also, when lewis is older and finally learns the full story of what happened with clora and seb and ranrok and rookwood, he writes their story in novel form, except he just changes their names/some of the details, and it becomes a best seller LOL. and i didnt know where to put this, but the four of them all read a story before bed every night, with lewis in the middle and seb and clora on either side of him. though celeste stands at the foot of the bed, basically doing a charade/mime show of what theyre reading, and putting on a little play to go along with it BAHHA.
OK thats all i can think of for now ive yapped enoughđŠ if youve read all of this ur a real one.... ive also considered giving them a 3rd (and last) child, which would be a boy that looks exactly like seb, and seb would just be praying like please.....let this son take after međ§ââď¸đ BAHHA
#much to sebs dismay celeste is probs gonna be an auror LMAO whereas lewis is gonna be a writer#seb once again asking the universe why their personalities couldnt have been switched....but girldad seb is made to suffer#and yes they are BOTH dressed by clora and her mom if you couldnt tell LMAO#just wait till lewis is out of that sailor fit...he gonna be a heartbreaker when hes older fr fr. bro is beautiful#also i can imagine celeste when shes older using her looks to her advantage BAHHA like noo...i wouldnt do that...look at međĽšuwu#sweet talking her way out of detention BAHAHA shes that troublemaker student that the teachers secretly have a fond spot for#and altho seb tells lewis to protect and watch over her in school he doesnt rly take it seriously bc hes still young#but once they get older and if celeste ever DOES have problems then lewis definitely would step up for her as her brother#but hed do it in a very conniving and indirect way...like finding out whoever is causing her trouble and hexing them or some shit LMAO#and nobody would ever knowđđđ#celeste would be like I GUESS I FINALLY SCARED THEM OFF/THEY LEARNED NOT TO MESS WITH ME!!!#and lewis would just be like yea....thats probably what happened.#bro does not need OR want the credit LMAO#also hes soft for his sis so he supports her delusions like the good lil bro he is. lewis supports womens rights and wrongs. king#choccyart#celeste sallow#lewis sallow
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The ache will go away, eventually.Â
That was what the Professor told them, the day they got back. When they tumbled from the wardrobe in a heap of tangled limbs, and found that the world had been torn from under their feet with all the kindness of a serpent.Â
They picked themselves off of the floorboards with smiles plastered on child faces, and sat with the Professor in his study drinking cup after cup of tea.Â
But the smiles were fake. The tea was like ash on their tongues. And when they went to bed that night, none of them could sleep in beds that were too foreign, in bodies that had not been their own for years. Instead they grouped into one room and sat on the floor and whispered, late into the night.Â
When morning came, Mrs. Macready discovered the four of them asleep in Peter and Edmundâs bedroom, tangled in a heap of pillows and blankets with their arms looped across one another. They woke a few moments after her entry and seemed confused, lost even, staring around the room with pale faces, eyes raking over each framed painting on the wall and across every bit of furniture as if it was foreign to them. âCome to breakfast,â Mrs. Macready said as she turned to go, but inside she wondered.Â
For the childrenâs faces had held the same sadness that she saw sometimes in the Professorâs. A yearning, a shock, a numbness, as if their very hearts had been ripped from their chests.
At breakfast Lucy sat huddled between her brothers, wrapped in a shawl that was much too big for her as she warmed her hands around a mug of hot chocolate. Edmund fidgeted in his seat and kept reaching up to his hair as if to feel for something that was no longer there. Susan pushed her food idly around on her plate with her fork and hummed a strange melody under her breath. And Peter folded his hands beneath his chin and stared at the wall with eyes that seemed much too old for his face.Â
It chilled Mrs. Macready to see their silence, their strangeness, when only yesterday they had been running all over the house, pounding through the halls, shouting and laughing in the bedrooms. It was as if something, something terrible and mysterious and lengthy, had occurred yesterday, but surely that could not be.Â
She remarked upon it to the Professor, but he only smiled sadly at her and shook his head. âTheyâll be all right,â he said, but she wasnât so sure.Â
They seemed so lost.Â
Lucy disappeared into one of the rooms later that day, a room that Mrs. Macready knew was bare save for an old wardrobe of the professorâs. She couldnât imagine what the child would want to go in there for, but children were strange and perhaps she was just playing some game. When Lucy came out again a few minutes later, sobbing and stumbling back down the hall with her hair askew, Mrs. Macready tried to console her, but Lucy found no comfort in her arms. âIt wasnât there,â she kept saying, inconsolable, and wouldnât stop crying until her siblings came and gathered her in their arms and said in soothing voices, âPerhaps weâll go back someday, Lu.âÂ
Go back where, Mrs. Macready wondered? She stepped into the room Lucy had been in later on in the evening and looked around, but there was nothing but dust and an empty space where coats used to hang in the wardrobe. The children must have taken them recently and forgotten to return them, not that it really mattered. They were so old and musty and the Professor had probably forgotten them long ago. But what could have made the child cry so? Try as she might, Mrs. Macready could find no answer, and she left the room dissatisfied and covered in dust.Â
Lucy and Edmund and Peter and Susan took tea in the Professorâs room again that night, and the next, and the next, and the next. They slept in Peter and Edmundâs room, then Susan and Lucyâs, then Peter and Edmundâs again and so on, swapping every night till Mrs. Macready wondered how they could possibly get any sleep. The floor couldnât be comfortable, but it was where she found them, morning after morning.Â
Each morning they looked sadder than before, and breakfast was silent. Each afternoon Lucy went into the room with the wardrobe, carrying a little lion figurine Edmund had carved her, and came out crying a little while later. And then one day she didnât, and went wandering in the woods and fields around the Professorâs house instead. She came back with grassy fingers and a scratch on one cheek and a crown of flowers on her head, but she seemed content. Happy, even. Mrs. Macready heard her singing to herself in a language sheâd never heard before as Lucy skipped past her in the hall, leaving flower petals on the floor in her wake. Mrs. Macready couldnât bring herself to tell the child to pick them up, and instead just left them where they were.Â
More days and nights went by. One day it was Peter who went into the room with the wardrobe, bringing with him an old cloak of the Professorâs, and he was gone for quite a while. Thirty or forty minutes, Mrs. Macready would guess. When he came out, his shoulders were straighter and his chin lifted higher, but tears were dried upon his cheeks and his eyes were frightening. Noble and fierce, like the eyes of a king. The cloak still hung about his shoulders and made him seem almost like an adult.Â
Peter never went into the wardrobe room again, but Susan did, a few weeks later. She took a dried flower crown inside with her and sat in there at least an hour, and when she came out her hair was so elaborately braided that Mrs. Macready wondered where on earth she had learned it. The flower crown was perched atop her head as she went back down the hall, and she walked so gracefully that she seemed to be floating on the air itself. In spite of her red eyes, she smiled, and seemed content to wander the mansion afterwards, reading or sketching or making delicate jewelry out of little pebbles and dried flowers Lucy brought her from the woods.Â
More weeks went by. The children still took tea in the Professorâs study on occasion, but not as often as before. Lucy now went on her daily walks outdoors, and sometimes Peter or Susan, or both of them at once, accompanied her. Edmund stayed upstairs for the most part, reading or writing, keeping quiet and looking paler and sadder by the day.Â
Finally he, too, went into the wardrobe room.Â
He stayed for hours, hours upon hours. He took nothing in save for a wooden sword he had carved from a stick Lucy brought him from outside, and he didnât come out again. The shadows lengthened across the hall and the sun sank lower in the sky and finally Mrs. Macready made herself speak quietly to Peter as the boy came out of the Professorâs study. âYour brother has been gone for hours,â she told him crisply, but she was privately alarmed, because Peterâs face shifted into panic and he disappeared upstairs without a word.Â
Mrs. Macready followed him silently after around thirty minutes and pressed an ear to the door of the wardrobe room. Voices drifted from beyond. Edmundâs and Peterâs, yes, but she could also hear the soft tones of Lucy and Susan.Â
âWhy did he send us back?â Edmund was saying. It sounded as if he had been crying. Â
Mrs. Macready couldnât catch the answer, but when the siblings trickled out of the room an hour later, Edmundâs wooden sword was missing, and the flower crown Susan had been wearing lately was gone, and Peter no longer had his old cloak, and Lucy wasnât carrying her lion figurine, and the four of them had clasped hands and sad, but smiling, faces.Â
Mrs. Macready slipped into the room once they were gone and opened the wardrobe, and there at the bottom were the sword and the crown and the cloak and the lion. An offering of sorts, almost, or perhaps just items left there for future use, for whenever they next went into the wardrobe room. Â
But they never did, and one day they were gone for good, off home, and the mansion was silent again. And it had been a long time since that morning that Mrs. Macready had found them all piled together in one bedroom, but ever since then they hadnât quite been children, and she wanted to know why.
She climbed the steps again to the floor of the house where the old wardrobe was, and then went into the room and crossed the floor to the opposite wall.Â
When she pulled the wardrobe door open, the four items the Pevensie children had left inside of it were missing.Â
And just for a moment, it seemed to her that a cool gust of air brushed her face, coming from the darkness beyond where the missing coats used to hang.
#oh also I want to clarify just in case - the 'offerings' left by the pevensies aren't meant to be anything weird#they're just little mementos that were special to them that they left there in case the wardrobe ever opened again#so whoever was on the other side could find them and maybe it would be somebody they'd known and loved during their time in narnia#i do have someone in mind who found the items but I'll leave whoever it is up to you :)#i just thought it would be nice for them to have a way of saying goodbye to the narnia they knew/creatures they loved during the golden age#sort of a way to let go of it and also leave something behind as a memory#narnia#tcon#the chronicles of narnia#lucy pevensie#peter pevensie#susan pevensie#edmund pevensie#mrs macready#digory kirke#the lion the witch and the wardrobe#cs lewis#ramblings from the void
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Reader just straight up not comprehending that Sevika is scary? Like when people talk about how intimidating Sevika is and Reader is just like âUhm, what do you mean?? Thatâs my Sevi-bear?? Sheâs precious.â Pffft
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out of all the people in silco's little gang, you never understood why people thought sevika was scariest.
silco is scary. the man never raises his voice, doesn't bat an eye when he orders someone's death, and seemingly feels no remorse about anything... ever. he could blow over in a strong wind, but somehow, through sliminess alone, he's come to rule the entire undercity. that's scary.
lock is scary. just the pure physical size of him is intimidating enough, but add onto that the scars, prison tattoos, and the added strength of shimmer-- the man looks more like a killing machine than a human sometimes.
ran freaks you the fuck out-- they're quiet as fuck on their feet, and they've never missed a target-- sometimes, you think you see them in the shadows of your apartment at night.
but sevika?! sevika's not scary.
sevika's a fucking grandpa.
sevika's happiest when she's gambling with her boys, a cigarette in her mouth, you in her lap.
sevika loves to read but always falls asleep a chapter or two in, snoring as her book falls closed in her hands.
sevika can't be left alone around a freshly baked sweet treat-- or she'll eat the entire thing in one sitting.
sevika's not scary.
"you're married to sevika!?" a goon asks one evening while you wait for her to wrap up her work.
you blink at the man in front of you, trying to place him. he must be a new hire. "why is that surprising to you?" you ask.
"you seem so normal, and sevika's scary!" he squawks. you huff and roll your eyes.
"have you ever tried to get to know her? or do you just let the eyeliner and mech arm scare you off?" you ask. the man ties to speak, but a flash of anger sparks up in you. "you know, i bet you wouldn't be saying this if sevika was a man. why is sevika scary? 'cause she's a woman with power-- that's why." you're ranting now, defensive of your wife and getting worked up.
"no, that's not--"
"baby!" sevika's sweet voice calls. your little argument is completely forgotten as you turn around to greet your wife with a dreamy sigh.
"sevi-bear." you coo, pulling sevika in for a hug. she nuzzles against your throat, humming happily as you comb your fingers through her hair. "let's get outta here baby. made some brownies for you-- they're cooling off at home."
"fuck. i love you so much."
the pair of you leave the bar, tangled in each other's arms, none the wiser to the flabbergasted goon you left behind.
(sevika had threatened to tie a noose around his balls and let him dangle from the rafters earlier today when he'd joked about cheating at a game of cards.)
(now he's questioning his sanity, because the same woman who made him shit his pants in fear at lunchtime is giggling and covering her very defensive, slightly delusional wife in smooches as you two leave the bar hand in hand.)
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trans!soap taking his baby and running away from his rich abusive husband
(cw angst, financial abuse, single threat of child abuse, single mention of transphobia)
he's owned soap for years, since he was a teenager; paid for his medication and all his surgeries and tied them so deeply, soapâs lost hope of ever getting away. he gets even worse when soap falls pregnant. he was always controlling; blowing up at him if he spent too long out of the house or did something without telling him. but he becomes utterly possessive during the pregnancy
soap knows it has nothing to do with his safety or the baby's
he knows he sees his baby as an investment; another being he can control and hold over him
he gets worse and worse but thereâs nothing soap can do. there's been nothing he can do for a long time. then a few months after the baby is born, soap doesnât watch his tone closely enough and his husband threatens to drop his baby in punishment for it
soap doesn't think. he doesn't plan
he takes his baby and runs
he sneaks out of the servant's quarters of the sterile mansion he's been forced to live in for almost a decade and walks down the street without a backwards glance; his baby the only thing in his arms. he knows all of his husband's cars have trackers, all of them in his name since he never lets soap drive or go anywhere by himself, so he walks far enough to be out of view of the mansion's cameras and steals one. it doesn't have a car seat and all he can do is clutch his baby to his chest as he drives
he doesn't know where he's going beyond away
he doesn't know what he's going to do; he doesn't have any money, no supplies for his baby, he doesn't even have water for himself so he can reliably breastfeed him. he's terrified his husband will find them; heâs always felt omniscient, always everywhere and seeing everything he did. if he didnât have eyes somewhere, he paid someone who did and they always dutifully reported back to him
soap just keeps his eyes forward. just keeps driving and driving, lost to the road and numb until the low gas light pops up on the dash and it all hits him at once
he turns into a gas station he can't pay for, in a car he stole, and parks behind it and his baby immediately starts getting fussy
he can't even call him by his name sometimes; too afraid to get attached, too afraid to lose him. as if he doesnât love him more than life itself
even throughout his pregnancy, as happy as he was to finally have a baby, he didn't know if he could carry to term and that fear just let his husband dig his claws in even deeper; paying for extra scans he could never hope to pay for, favours on top of favours so he would aways owe him and isnât he such a loving husband? taking soap in when his parents kicked him out for being trans, looking after him for all these years? you canât even take care of yourself john, youâd still be a woman without me, john, what is this tantrum about john-
soap tugs his shirt up to let his baby feed, drops his head back and cries
he can't stop it; wails loud and uncontrolled, chest heaving with his sobs enough that it sways his baby, occasionally breaking his latch and he can't even do this right-
he can't save him
a light knock sounds on the window and soap flinches, curling over his baby to protect him from his huband's cruel hands
but it's not his husband outside the window
soap blinks tears from his eyes and looks at the large stranger standing beside the car. a neck gaiter covers his mouth and it should be off-putting⌠but something about him stops the feeling in its tracks. the stranger takes a half-step back and lifts a chilled and sealed water bottle, pressing it towards the window
soap quickly swipes his face clean and rolls down the window. "sorry 'bout that," he apologises with a choked laugh, the careful front heâs built over the years cracked and bleeding
the stranger gives a dismissive but somehow not diminishing shrug. "long day?" he asks
"could say that," he gives a shrug of his own and pats his baby's back as he makes a disgruntled noise, unconsciously swaying him
he politely keeps his gaze up on his face. "looks like you could use a break."
soap's breath hitches, anxiously darting his tongue out over his bottom lip. "could say that," he repeats uselessly and takes the water with a quiet âthanks,â; his throat dry and screaming for it after crying so hard
the stranger hums, watching him down the bottle and soap doesnât notice his eyes drifting to the backseat and footwell of the passenger side. doesnât notice the slight tension in his fists at what he sees. "how long you been runnin', lad?"
soap freezes, the water settling in his stomach like a stone. he swallows thickly and the bottle falls from his lips
"not long enough."
the stranger just nods, looking idly back down the highway
"you know, this place is connected to a garage,â he starts, nodding back to a building attached to the station without taking his eyes off the road. âlotta people drift through 'ere on road trips; too many to keep track.â
soap frowns slightly, shifting his hold on his baby
âfunny thing is, plenty of 'em just abandon their car when they break down. like yours,â he adds and finally turns back to him with a pointed look. âgot a whole junkyard of 'em. just rustin' away. be pretty easy to convince me to trade ya one."
soapâs mouth parts in a gasp as he realises just what the strangerâs saying. "how easy?" he whispers
he shrugs and even with his face hidden beneath the gaiter, he doesnât feel afraid. "i'd say this car'd be a good deal. would blend right in with the rest of âem; no oneâd ever notice it. what say i take it off your hands?"
soap's breath shudders out of him, his whole body going limp with relief. his baby's eyes fall shut with a satisfied hum and for the first time he can remember, he feels the gentle touch of hope
"i think we can work something out."
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ghost owns the service station soap pulled into. he wanted something quiet and isolated after he retired and you canât get much quieter than a backwoods servo surrounded by forest. he hasnât had anyone pull in in days so heâs quick to notice soapâs car. heâs also quick to notice soap's subsequent breakdown in one of the cameras. the sight of him crying, desperately clutching a baby like theyâre all he has left in the world, is so familiar he felt sick with it
he knows someone running when he sees it
if he didn't check on him, if this lad disappeared one day and the baby along with him, he'd never forgive himself. the lad doesn't even have a baby bag or car seat with him, and the personalised sticker on the back window of a lady and a dog is a dead giveaway that the car is stolen
but the lad is terrified. and when he startled him, he didn't turn. didnât lift his arms to protect himself. no
he covered his baby
like he was afraid he'd be hurt
that's enough for ghost
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i'd wanna set this in the 80's or 90's, just to make it even harder for soap to get away from his husband. he's a trans man with a newborn; he has no one to run to and no resources to help him. his husband's bought and paid for everything for him since he was 17; a few whirlwind weeks of unbelievable dates and extravagant gifts and he was living in his mansion, getting married the day after his 18th birthday. he thought it was love. thought he was being looked after and cared for the way heâs always wanted
he was in pain and alone and naive enough to believe the first person who came along and promised to make it better. nothing's in his name, not his insurance or his meds, he doesnât have a bank account or savings; other than a birth certificate, nothing even ties him to his baby. his husband could take his world away from him with a snap of his fingers and he made sure soap always knew it
he never had a chance of getting away
but ghost is ex-military
he doesnât know the ladâs story, doesnât know the details of what heâs running from. he doesnât need to know
he decided he was helping him the second he pulled into his service station
#what up i had a nightmare about an eldritch horror trying to steal my baby and john mcclane from die hard shooting it to protect me#i woke up freaked out and decided to torment soap with it to feel better#thats literally the only reason this exists#that and the thought of soaps super hairy chest but thats besides the point#anyway#i was going to have ghost be a drifter after retiring but i like the idea of him being the unlikely safe person living out in the woods#ghost moves soap into the little one bedroom cabin he built behind the station#its hidden by the trees and kept warm by a fire. he gives soap and the baby the bedroom and sleeps out in the living room#he keeps watch out the window for whoevers after soap#he doesnt find out who it is for a while; soaps been burned and reluctant to trust anyone#but they gradually heal each other; ghost gives soap someone to trust and soap helps ghost heal his truma by giving him someone he can save#soap starts to work in the service station despite ghost telling him he doesnt need to but he wants his independence back#he finds he likes working and ghost cant take that from him when hes so obviously happy cleaning and shelving stock#soaps husband comes looking for him but ghost still has his contacts and calls a whole militia down on his head#each one of them with favours in the government if not outright political immunity; money means nothing in the face of them#they just threaten him; lets him know soap is protected now#at least; thats what ghost tells soap đ#coming out of my cage and ive been doing just fine.txt#weâre a team. ghost team#ghostsoap#soapghost#ghoap#john soap mactavish#soap cod#simon ghost riley#ghost cod#save post
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*walking along the treeline, not using his cane*
*his hand slightly out in front of him, his fingers moving slightly every so often*
@voiceinthemidstofthefourbeasts
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I HATE HIMM !!!!!!!!!!
Anyways here is silly monotone thing and the flats I should smash his head in with hammers meoeowowowww bye Iâm stressed and coping
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OMGGG Your latest smut fic is so amazing!!! The smut is absolutely delicious! but....the angst is breaking my heart so...could you please write a continuation or part two where the reader confronts Aventurine's dark internal thoughts and comforts them? A fic where they actually get him to believe that they love him for real, where they tell him that he's not a monster and that he wasn't ruining them.
You've got it ! (Ëľ â˘Ě á´ - Ëľ ) â§
Aventurine x Reader
You treat Aventurine with more respect than he deserves. (Part 2)
Read part 1 here !
CW: dehumanisation (internal, thoughts Aventurine has of himself, referring to himself as a âmonsterâ), lots of mentions of death, passively suicidal Aventurine, violent imagery (through metaphors, nobody is actually physically harmed), intrusive thoughts, Aventurine thinks kind of vicious things about you (refers to you as "stupid", "brainless", "naive" etc), cursing.
Lmk if thereâs anything else I should warn about !!
Small note: Spoiler alert sorry, but you will not completely fix Aventurine in this fic. Making any real progress would take YEARS. The trauma he's gone through and his beliefs about his own humanity are EXTREMELY deep-seated, just one conversation would not be enough to make him truly believe he was loved. Super sorry since I'm sure that's not what you wanted (you specifically requested they "truly get him to believe that they love him for real", but this does still end on a hopeful note so I hope you won't be too disappointed (â˘á´â˘,, ) )
Sometimes Aventurine gains enough clarity to remember where he stands. More importantly, he gains enough clarity to remember where you should stand. That is to say, as far away from him as possible. Unfortunately, you are never keen on doing that.Â
In these moments of clarity, he distances himself. If you wonât do it, he has to. He needs to. He needs to even when he can feel the little pieces of him that youâve managed to haphazardly glue together splinter into tiny shards again, even when it feels like every step away is a step walked on shattered glass. He can hardly be called a âpersonâ anyways, what does his suffering matter? He has already lost so many good things, why not add another loss to the tally?
He reads your texts, but he doesnât respond. He hangs up on you the moment you call. By doing this, he makes sure you know he is alive. Both because he knows it would devastate you if you thought he died, but even more so to make sure you know he is intentionally ignoring you. He hopes at least some part of you hates him. He thinks part of him hates you.
But he can never stay away for long. Like a werewolf called by the full moon; like a vampire to blood; like a siren to a sailor. Thoughts of you always cloud his mind too much to do what is right. He reminds himself he will destroy you. He comes back anyways. He is too selfish not to.Â
And you welcome him with open arms every time. Sure, sometimes you yell. Sometimes you berate him. Sometimes you cry. But he never does something beyond the bounds of what youâll forgive, even though he tries to. Youâre patient to a fault. Though he feels bad, he never takes it fully seriously, because you always hold him with so much sweetness, even when your words are filled with righteous anger and justified hurt. You always end it by reminding him that you love him. Something clenches in his chest; something that is not his heart, because he has none. He claims he is sorry, but you both know he will do this again. He always does. You know he will hurt you over and over, even if you donât know the extent. You know he will test you, that he will ignore you, that he will cling to you and that he will taunt you. You donât know he will drag his claws through you and tear you to ribbons; you donât know he will sink his teeth into your neck and drink all your blood; you donât know he will lure you to sea and drown you. You are never aware of the true danger you are in.Â
Maybe thatâs why you one day feel comfortable enough to corner the creature that has taken on the appearance of a lover. You sit down next to him in bed one evening after one of his many attempts to push you away, your expression grim. You look straight ahead, right into his dead eyes, unaware that a monster is towering over you.Â
âWe canât go on like this,â you say. For one moment, the crushing relief and devastation threatens to consume him, and heâs not sure which of the feelings is stronger. For one moment he canât breathe.Â
He hacks our a laugh, his skin straining. Something is shifting beneath his flesh, something ugly and dangerous. He needs to leave and he needs to do it quickly.Â
âYouâre right, we canât,â he agrees, his voice a lot more steady than he feels. He feels the urge to grab you and shake you until you pass out. He feels the urge to suck out your life force until your body is an empty husk. He feels the urge to slam your head into the bathroom sink in the next room over. He feels the urge to shoot himself in the head, because he does not want to do any of that.Â
âI love you,â you say, unexpectedly. Or maybe itâs not unexpected. You always say such stupid, brainless things. (You say it with sweetness. The only sweetness he can offer in return is the sweetness of bacteria digesting rotting meat. Is the flesh his, or will it be yours?) He laughs again.Â
âI thought we were breaking up,â he says. Smirking, as if itâs funny. (It isnât.)
âNo, weâre really not,â you say firmly. He snorts.Â
âMaybe we should.â
You donât answer. Instead, you come closer.Â
Get away, he thinks. Run, you fucking idiot.Â
You donât have many flaws, but the ones you do have are insurmountably big. You are too forgiving, you are too kind, you are too selfless, you are too naive. You will kill yourself doing this one day. You will let him kill you.
Your arms wrap around him. He canât help but relax. The thing lurking under his human disguise grows more restless.Â
âI donât hate you,â you say, unexpectedly. And this one really is unexpected, because what made you say that? Your arms squeeze around him tighter. âI thought I was being obvious enough about that, but youâre so bad at understanding it.â
The feeling he has is the same as the feeling he gets when he realises a deal is going awry. You are the highest risk stakes he has ever made a bet on: will he ruin you, or will you ruin him? What you could do to him is so much more serious than death. He knows that he is holding a losing hand. He doesnât even know what he stands to win.
You kiss his neck. He shudders.Â
âWhy are you so scared of me?â you ask.Â
Scared? He is not scared. What an outright laughable concept. Neither of you are scared, but if one of you was, it should be you, but you arenât, for some reason.
âWhat gives you that idea?â he chuckles, but his voice is not as steady this time, and he can feel his smile slipping. (What is wrong with him? He doesnât want to think about it. The answer is always âeverythingâ.)
âYour hand is shaking.â
It is, but that is not because he is afraid. Fear is a human response, borne from the desire to live. It is instinctual. It means kicking and screaming, it means clawing your way out of hell for the chance to see another day, it means fighting for the life you donât want to end. He cannot die, you see. Death cannot occur twice. Just because his body reacts, that does not necessarily mean he can truly fear any longer.
(Then again, maybe his reaction does not come from the thought of his death.)
âIâm not scared,â he says, and his voice sounds a lot weaker than he had expected. You pull him closer, cradling his head against the crook of your neck. His blood is pulsing too quickly.
âIt would be okay if you were,â you murmur. âI know you donât know how to be loved. Thatâs okay. Iâll teach you. You just have to let me.â
Squash. Slice. Tear.
Maybe you are the monster. He can feel your claws prying his chest open; he can feel your teeth dig into his flesh; he can feel something that is not air fill his lungs. The biggest difference between you and him is that he devours, while you give. You painfully shove something back into the cavity meant to contain his soul, you pump blood back into his system, and you fill whatever gaps are left in him with something that is first cold but quickly warms.Â
(He realises, belatedly, that something is pumping inside his chest again. But it canât be a heart, can it? He lost that so long ago.)
âIâll kill you,â he manages through gritted teeth, claws digging into your shirt. It is not a threat. It is not a warning. It is just the truth.
âYou think too much,â you admonish him. Your tone is as gentle as your words are cutting. âI wish you would trust me more. Youâre so determined to ruin your own life, and I donât like it.â
âThatâs just how I am. Deal with it or leave.â
âIâll deal with it, then.â
Like a werewolf called by the full moon; like a vampire to blood; like a siren to a sailor. He will destroy you. But you accept it.Â
He has tried time and time again to push you away, but he is weak. So incorrigibly weak, and though your flaws are insurmountable, his are all-consuming. He is a monster in all the ways that matter. But you stubbornly will not leave despite that.Â
(Maybe that makes him a little more willing to try to change his nature. Just a little. Just for you. If you will not leave anyways, maybe he could try to make his presence a little less torturous.)
âJust⌠please stop ignoring me,â you sigh, nuzzling into his hair. Tenderly, tenderly, tenderly, so tenderly it makes his skin crawl. Your claws are softly piercing into him and he is helpless, unable (unwilling) to fight back. âI can deal with everything else. I just hate it when you do that. I canât keep going weeks without speaking to you. I know you have some kind of⌠weird ideas that Iâd be better off without you, but thatâs not true. I love you, and I love being around you. I canât help you when you cut me off at every corner.â
Cut, slice, slash.
Something in him breaks. Something he knows cannot be salvaged. Something he knows you would not want to salvage. Something he is not sure if he wants to salvage either, now that it is broken anyways.
He breathes a shaky breath, his fingers â his fingers, not claws, not this time â digging into your back. He buries his face into the crook of your neck, and he does not feel the urge to bite down. Though his eyes feel wet, it would not be enough water to drown you.Â
He knows your line of logic is wrong. He knows the fact remains unchanged: he is a monster of a man. He will ruin you. But maybe your presence sparks enough electricity to keep his heart pumping, just for a little while, and maybe he can wait until things actually start going downhill before he lets you go. Maybe he can remember how to be a human for a bit, maybe he can pretend he is.Â
âI just⌠donât want to do something I canât take back,â he whispers. âNot with you. Youâre the⌠the only good thing I have left. I donât know what Iâd do if IâŚâ
âThatâs sweet, but Iâm not as weak as you think I am,â you reply. âIâve held out this long, havenât I? Put more faith in me.â
He smiles.
âYeah, I guess youâre right.â
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#[rawbin]#[aventurine]#[rawbin fanfic]#[by me]#aventurine x reader#Tried some sort of weird monster metaphor by bringing up werewolf vampire and siren imagery idk if that worked out the way I wanted but -#whatever part of the process is making weird decisions and learning what did and didn't work out#Not entirely happy with this but I wasn't with the previous part either so yolo I don't have the patience to scrap this and start over#Tried to make the dialogue sound like things real actual human being would say but idk if I succeeded#Especially when reader reassures him what person actually speaks so eloquently ?? not me that's for sure#And the part where Aventurine is like âđ˘ i-i-i don't w-w-wanna hurt you pookiebear!!!â he would not say that straight out#but whatever I'm tired and I can tell I will not be finding the motivation to work for this one more night#plsss continue sendinf requests guys it makes me happy#Currently working on qpps Aventurine (whoever sent that request I actually love you)#(reason it's taking so long is because I've written so much in the tumblr app and my phone keeps overheating so I need to take breaks HELP)#(I've learnt my lesson and will try to stick to writing in my notes app when I suspect I might write a lot <3)#Jesus these tags are an essay sorry I just CANNOT shut up I looove speaking I love it love it love it#aventurine honkai star rail#aventurine hsr#aventurine star rail#hsr aventurine#aventurine#aventurine fanfic#reader x aventurine#honkai star rail x reader#honkai star rail#hsr x you#hsr x reader#hsr#star rail
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need a fic where wilson learns house can't handle him when he acts all flirty and charming so he weaponizes it for his own entertainment without realizing that he's worsening the hospital rumor mill wrt his and house's relationship
#house md#hilson#i would but i am So Bad at writing conversations#so away i send this message in a bottle across the vast ocean to whoever may find it on foreign sands
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catboy tony. yeah sure why not
#dndads#tony collette#the peachyville horror#im crying dude this episode made me laugh harder than i have in a while#fucking ridiculous /pos#anyway needed to draw this#shoutout to whoever in the tag said tony should have cat eyes now#i saw it then when i refreshed i couldn't find it again </3#also cannot believe that so far ive only made shitpost art for s3#this will change eventually i promise i adore this season im just Lazy#my art
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do yall ever think abt thalassa giving trucy her bracelet. because i think abt thalassa giving trucy her bracelet
#LIIIKEE#capcom let me IN#AGH#desperate for them to Find Out#i kinda want a future case thats like#lamiroir / thalassa defendant#trucy assistant#and ideally apollo lawyer? but a full athena game is also a high hope for me#saw a fic once that had lamiroir performing in khurain and trucy came to visit so they could see her together or something#which transitioned to a case fic i dont remember#but i like that idea. ive thought abt it ever since#nyway umm#oh yeah#when i first started getting into aa i saw a post or smth hc-ing trucy as wearing gloves for sensory reasons#and that stuck with me so hard i never draw her without gloves#thank you whoever you were#okay thats enough#ace attorney#aa4#trucy wright#thalassa gramarye#fanart#artists on tumblr#illustration#art#my art
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