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the funniest meltdown ive ever had was in college when i got so overstimulated that i could Not speak, including over text. one of my friends was trying to talk me through it but i was solely using emojis because they were easier than trying to come up with words so he started using primarily emojis as well just to make things feel balanced. this was not the Most effective strategy... until. he tried to ask me "you okay?" but the way he chose to do that was by sending "👉🏼👌🏼❓" and i was so shocked by suddenly being asked if i was dtf that i was like WHAT???? WHAT DID YOU JUST SAY TO ME?????????? and thus was verbal again
#yeehaw#1k#5k#10k#posts that got cursed. blasted. im making these tag updates after... 19 hours?#also i have been told it should say speech loss bc nonverbal specifically refers to the permanent state. did not know that!#unfortunately i fear it is so far past containment that even if i edited it now it would do very little. but noted for future reference#edit 2: nvm enough ppl have come to rb it from me directly that i changed the wording a bit. hopefully this makes sense#also. in case anyone is curious. though i doubt anyone who is commenting these things will check the original tags#1) my friend did not do this on purpose in any way. it was not intended to distract me or to hit on me. im a lesbian hes a gay man. cmon now#he felt very bad about it afterwards. i thought it was hilarious but it was very embarrassed and apologetic#2) “why didn't he use 🫵🏼?” didn't exist yet. “why didn't he use 🆗?” dunno! we'd been using a lot of hand emojis. 👌🏼 is an ok sign#like it makes sense. it was just a silly mixup. also No i did not invent 👉🏼👌🏼 as a gesture meaning sex. do you live under a rock#3) nonspeaking episodes are a recurring thing in my life and have been since i was born. this is not a quirky one-time thing#it is a pervasive issue that is very frustrating to both myself and the people i am trying to communicate with. in which trying to speak is#extremely distressing and causes very genuine anguish. this post is not me making light of it it's just a funny thing that happened once#it's no different than if i post about a funny thing that happened in conjunction w a physical disability. it's just me talking abt my life#i don't mind character tags tho. those can be entertaining. i don't know what any of you are talking about#Except the ppl who have said this is pego/ryu or wang/xian. those people i understand and respect#if you use it as a writing prompt that's fine but send it to me. i want to see it#aaaand i think that's it. everyday im tempted to turn off rbs on it. it hasn't even been a week
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was talking with a friend about how some of dunmeshi fаndom misunderstands kabru's initial feelings towards laios.
to sum up kabru's situation via a self-contained modernized metaphor:
kabru is like a guy who lost his entire family in a highly traumatic car accident. years later he joins a discord server and takes note of laios, another server member who seems interesting, so they start chatting. then laios reveals his special interest and favorite movie of all time is David Cronenberg's Crash (1996), and invites kabru to go watch a demolition derby with him
#dungeon meshi#delicious in dungeon#kabru#kabru already added laios as a discord friend. everyone else in the server can see laios excitedly asking kabru to go with him#what would You even Do in this situation. how would YOU feel?#basically: kabru isnt a laios-hater! hes just in shock bc Thats His Trauma. the key part is kabru still says yes#bc he wants to get to know laios. to understand why laios would be so fascinated by something horrific to him#and ALSO bc even while in shock kabru can still tell laios has unique expertise + knowledge that Could be used for Good#even if kabru doesnt fully trust laios yet (bc kabru just started talking to the guy 2 hours ago. they barely know each other)#kabru also understands that getting to know ppl (esp laios) means having to get to know their passions. even if it triggers his trauma here#but thats too much to fit in this metaphor/analogy. this is NOT an AU! its not supposed to cover everything abt kabru or laios' character!#its a self-contained metaphor written Specifically to be more easily relatable+thus easy to understand for general ppl online#(ie. assumed discord users. hence why i said (a non-specific) 'discord server' and not something specific like 'car repair subreddit')#its for ppl who mightve not fully grasped kabru's character+intentions and think hes being mean/'chaotic'/murderous.#to place ppl in kabru's shoes in an emotionally similar situation thats more possible/grounded in irl experiences and contexts.#and also for the movie punchline#mynn.txt#dm text#crossposting my tweets onto here since my friends suggested so
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I am incredibly serious right now when I beg you all, please, and if you have Twitter or Tiktok or whatever to please spread the word: click on an author's profile on Ao3.
You want to know if an author has written more? Want to know if they're still writing? Want to see more from them? Want to know if they've written a trope or kink or sex scenario you enjoy?
Click on their name. And look at their profile.
I cannot tell you how many times in the last six months someone has read a new or newer fic of mine and said they (a new reader who has read nothing else I've done) "can't wait to see what you do next!" I've written 50+ fics and over a million words already.
"I don't know if you're still writing..." click on my profile. I am. I literally wrote a 128k+ fic for that ship last month.
"Would you ever do X?" "Please do Y!" I already did. Click on my name and look at my works.
Archive of our Own is a library. It's an archive. Not social media. It is your responsibility to fight back against the laziness that corporate algorithms have trained into you.
Click my author name. Just click it. Just click it.
Before you demand more, or ask if a writer will do XYZ, or wonder if the author still writing, or anything - click on their profile. Click on the author's profile.
I'm not trying to be mean or condescending or anything like that. I'm just exhausted. It's disheartening and frustrating to repeat myself ad nauseam, because someone couldn't take thirty seconds to do the tiniest bit of work to see if I've written lately, if I've written more for their ship, or scan my works to see if I've written what they're asking for. Please. Please. I'm begging.
Click the author's name, and explore before you ask.
#lincoln rants#I'm sorry but I'm at the end of my rope#I got a LOT of these comments on my Buddie Platonic Sugar Baby AU#acting like I was some new writer to the fandom#babes I've been here since the dawn of 2020 where the fuck have YOU been?#I am happy to answer questions! I love responding to reader comments!#but it is beyond frustrating to answer a question that if they'd literally just clicked on my author name#they would have gotten the answer to themselves#yes I have written more yes I am still writing yes I've been here longer than you have#and I don't mean that in a pulling rank/seniority way I just mean that in a could you please just CLICK ON MY NAME???#INSTEAD OF MAKING ASSUMPTIONS??? way#I'VE DONE MY TIME! FOUR AND A HALF YEARS! IN THE CIRCUS!#I'm sorry but sometimes I have to yell publicly a little#and I really do suspect this is people who are not on tumblr#so I am genuinely begging you#if you are on other social media platforms#PLEASE feel free to repeat what I have said#PLEASE I AM SO TIRED!!!
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Moon dance 🌕✨
#narumitsu#wrightworth#phoenix wright#miles edgeworth#capcom cafe#not sure HOW to tag this but it’s royal narumitsu my beloveds!!!#i love love love LOVE how their little gold details all sort of look like crescent moons of some sort! the inherent romance of the moon <3#also i cracked the CODE on edgeworth’s gold details i feel so big brained!!!!#can you believe i had this sketch since february of LAST year?? the side by side comparison is WILD bc it’s practically the same#back at it again with the nrmt + hands nonsense! didn’t really mean to do it this time but wow. hands huh#also��. if i said this would be a goldfoil print would anyone want..? 👀#come yell at me if yes or no or maybe you just feel as craci about the royal narumitsus as i do#rendevok#fan art#aa
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do you guys think that when neil got back home from cali he took andrew up to the roof where he sat watching him smoke and told him he put a hit out on a raven. and then andrew sat there in silence watching the sunset before asking "why?" and neil looked down fiddling with his own lit cigarette and said very quietly that this particular raven was jean's drake. do you think that andrew went very still and did not speak or smoke for such a long time that neil eventually looked up at him and was taken aback by how andrew was watching him very carefully. do you think that as andrew looked at neil he was so paralysed by the thought of jean going through that same abuse and neil putting an end to it without even thinking twice. do you think he realised his meter had officially broken and neil was so far past 100% and that he was really truly it for him
#i'm sure it can be said andrew cared so little about jean he wouldn't have cared for any of the details#but i don't believe this is true since he protective of neil when nicky makes his unsavoury jokes after he first arrives at palmetto#so i think he would care very much#and he would feel an insane level of pride and love for neil dealing with it this way#he wouldn't say it and he might not even show it but i know he would feel it#neil josten#andrew minyard#andreil#jean moreau#jeaneil#the sunshine court#tsc#all for the game#aftg
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A peculiar bookseller arrives in town, full of stories and mysteries to share.
This time, he tells the tale of a bird who took the place of another, yet seemingly no one could tell the difference…
#moshang#svsss#shang qinghua#mobei jun#a while ago I said I would do mononoke Moshang#and here it is!#this was surely a challenge since it's so different from my style#but I'm very happy with the ending result#hope you enjoy it!#I'll probably add this to inprnt bc even I want a print of this for myself hahaha
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Satellite - Lena
#Almost all suggested songs were bangers....#I wanted to do so much this evening but my mental state was completely destroyed again#So my coping mechanism looked at me ans said “Another meaningless quick animatic?” Of course I said yes#animation tag#Would like to say that it is wip since this song is such a banger for them two but I can't rule over myself#transformers#maccadam#jazzprowl#jazz#prowl
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honestly just in general it's very exhausting to try to analyze media that is literally meant to be analyzed, only for the replies to be filled with people arguing not against your analysis, but against the premise that the media can be analyzed at all.
i don't even know what to say about it without starting to really betray my frustration, so i'll just settle with— just don't engage with analysis posts? I'm serious. if you're typing a response to a media analysis post, reread what you've written and ask yourself "is this comment/response against the very concept of analyzing the media at all?" and if the answer is yes then delete it all and go sit in the shame corner. throw your curtains away if you want to so bad and stop telling me that I'm not allowed to hum and haw at the fact mine are blue
#ml fandom salt#I suppose#and no amount of adding ''stop telling me to not analyze the media'' on my analysis posts stops people from saying it anyway#and yes. the leaks count. stop telling me that the existence of outdated leaks invalidates all analyses of the completed material#and no. just like every other time i've said this. me saying that i don't care about the leaks is not an invitation for you to try to#convince me to care about the leaks#do i tag this spoilers? it feels weird to. i mean this to be a vague overarching thing about media in general#also of course any ''or maybe the writers are just bad'' arguments ALSO are included in this. YOU guys have been my bane since FOREVER#would you guys consider commenting on fanart with ''umm.... drawing seems pretty pointless lmao'' rude?#i know this is not the first time i've made a post like this and i'm sure it won't be the last
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I don't recall the books ever specifying what weapons Elrond primarily fought with and while he is usually given a sword by both the movies and fandom, I think it would be incredibly hilarious if he came out with fucking Dramborleg. They are getting ready for battle and he brings out this huge ass axe his gramps once killed balrogs with. Sir, you were discussing poetry 10 minutes ago, where did that thing come from
#or was it balrogs? it's been a while since i've read it#but he 100% killed some firey things during the fall of gondolin so whatever#the comedic effect of this comes from the fact that literally no one would expect elrond to have an axe#he just doesn't seem like the axe type#i know tuor's axe went to númenor (so presumably elros had it) and later was probably lost in the downfall#but consider: i don't think it was said where in númenor the axe was?#so if elendil had it he WOULD take it with him#and if the royalty had it#isildur already commited fruit-robbery what's one more#or elrond just got it from númenor before the downfall whatever#i am not figuring out the logistics behind my shitpost (this time)#elrond#tolkien#silmarillion#lotr
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When entering any place of business, such as a store or restaurant, if a staff member greets you, then acknowledge them and greet them back.
Although for many jobs it's a required part of their job to greet you, especially retail workers, receptionists, and restaurant workers to name a few, that doesn't make it feel any less dehumanizing to say "Hello!" to another human being only for them to ignore you. Acknowledging staff members and greeting them back is important for acknowledging their humanity, they are, after all, a human being, and not an automated machine.
This is also important when going to check out at a store. If you approach the cash register, and the cashier greets you, you should acknowledge them and greet them back. Cashiers already have to deal with being dehumanized enough. The least you can do is help humanize them by acknowledging them when they greet you and speak to you.
#story time#when I worked retail I had several co-workers#who if someone approached the register and didn't say 'góðan daginn' back#my co-workers would just repeat themselves and refuse to start scanning their stuff until they said góðan daginn back#I did do that myself once or twice#but only to customers who I recognized and had spoken to before (and were speaking to someone else as they were approaching the register)#so I knew it wasn't an issue of being non-verbal or unable to speak that particular day#but otherwise I tried not to make a habit of it#especially with customers I didn't recognize and hadn't heard speaking to anyone else#since you never knew who was non-verbal or was disassociating ect.#I've also been in foreign countries where I was young and scared and afraid to respond to the cashier and give away that I was a foreigner#so anyway I tried to be understanding#but at the same time it did always feel dehumanizing to greet people all day and just get ignored#manners#good manners#courtesy#etiquette#politeness
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A what if scenario that shadow milk talks to past pure vanilla but disgues himself as his old self to seem more trusting
#art#digital art#fanart#cookie run kingdom#pure vanilla cookie#my art#shadow milk cookie#crk#cookie run#crk fanart#hi i just drew this cuz i like thinking about how before corrupted shadow milk would interact with pure vanilla#i wonder what it was like since shadow milk said he has always watched pure vanilla#so i drew this as something to expand to that idea#just a little thing that was inside my head and made me draw this lol
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HAN JISUNG ⟡ 221009 sbs inkigayo - case 143
#stray kids#han#han jisung#skzco#staydaily#forhanji#bystay#:mine#t:gif#t:fancam#mimotag#forparker#stayjuni#e01o#fornini#userlau#usersun#tw flashing#getting out of my funk i think????#i had fun!#yes two of them are the same dance moves leave me alone#would u believe me if i said this has been in my drafts since july 19th *scratches head*#anyway ive debated posting this a ton cause its prob been giffed 500 times but..... han jisung 🔥🔥🔥#also just realised i make a lot of han gifs for someone that supposedly does NOT have him on my quote unquote bias list#idk hes just a homie yk.#jisung id die for u (platonically)#please come back to malaysia#me yapping in my tags again if u made it this far here have: ⭐️😚💋
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i had an Idea for a scott pilgrim au and it has not left my mind since .
(ty guys sm for 1.5k followers btw ^_^ !!)
#ever since i found out finn was playing young scott in spto this idea would not leave me ALONE!!!!!#i want to make this a fully fleshed AU but there are too many weird things that happen in sp so idk if i'll do it 😑#in this version mike is not a weirdo ok#that being said i HAVE been thinking abt who would be who in this universe so please ask away if you have any questionss#also i tried to use their s5 colour palettes for their outfits i hope ppl notice that ^_^#scott pilgrim au#byler#byler fanart#will byers#mike wheeler#will byers fanart#mike wheeler fanart#ally draws
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ok i swear i'm not going to talk about my breakup forever but the thing that just keeps bothering me:
i know that not getting what you need in a relationship is a COMPLETELY valid reason to end it but also. i feel like having a very vulnerable moment where i opened up about my struggles with intimacy and being relieved that i didn't have to keep doing things i wasn't comfortable with, then being dumped a YEAR later because of my lack of intimacy. is something i should be allowed to be very hurt by???
#ramble#sorry i'm currently in a phase of 'of course this happened' and 'oh i deserve this because i didn't give him what he wanted'#like he knew i was grey ace since the start. and he let it go on for SO long after i said i might be vaguely aro as well#if that's a dealbreaker for you bc of your love language then FINE but NIP IT IN THE BUD#he said he put it off because he didn't want to hurt my feelings but it only hurt me MORE#like you're an adult. grow the fuck up and communicate like one#holding your negative feelings in hoping somebody notices you're hiding them is what TEENAGERS do#and also i told him VERBATIM: i didn't think anyone would ever love me because i'm not comfortable with xyz. and he just confirmed that#idk i still feel like i'm being selfish because how could i expect someone to be in a relationship with me when i can't give them anything#also tmi but it's not like we did NOTHING. we still held hands/cuddled/were close. he just didn't have his tongue down my throat anymore#so obviously i'm assuming by 'missing affection' he just meant sex and as an ace person that just fucking sucks#also oh my god i HATED how much he would imply we were going to have sex. i would have to keep SAYING 'i don't like doing this'#he always spoke like it was inevitably going to happen and it didn't click how GROSS i felt about it until recently#also ALSO not to go there but i never told him WHY i struggle with it (it's sensory issues)#and like. what if something had happened to me that made it hard for me and i just wasn't ready to tell him. and then he did this#again sorry to overshare this is still just a lot for me and i have no idea if i'm being unreasonable#if you're ace and in a relationship please let me know bc i'm starting to think it'll end this way every single time
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"Sacrifice the Yourself" (title pending), the hip new slay the princess swap AU, in which you and the girlies must decide if you're gonna let a giant bird stab you (and maybe.... find love?!)
#one of the images aren't loading and it is making me very sad. le sigh.#art#slay the princess#stp#the shifting mound#stp narrator#stp razor#stp spectre#stp prisoner#i wanted to include my idea for how the long quiet/the voices would show up in this au but my mind said 'no <3'#i also am not sure who our 'voice of the hero' analogue would be -#im thinking a) the stranger#b) either soft or cynical princess (whichever is the opposite as what you're playing as-#so if you take the knife it's soft and if you don't it's cynical)#c) the shifting mound herself#or d) there isn't one and it's just the princess#narrator would instead discourage you from taking the blade since it makes it look like you're going to fight your fate#i think if you just let yourself die and don't question anything you'd get damsel instead of spectre maybe?#im not sure how the ch 3 princesses would show up but i want my beautiful babygirl wraith to be there somehow
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a light shines through a cloud of colour fumes and i can feel the warmth of the sun
Gravity, let me go ♫⋆。♪ destroyer - of monsters and men
⋆。 ゚☁︎。 ⋆。 ゚☀︎。 ⋆。 ゚ ┊ ┊ ┊ ┊ ┊ ┊ ┊ ˚★⋆。˚ ┊ ┊ ⋆ ┊ ★⋆ ┊ ◦ kirbytober 2024 #01 ★⋆ dream // revenge // song
#starting off super strong ngl.... might not match this through the rest of the month i'm gonna be honest#but it's FINALLY done!!!! had this one on the backburner since *february*#persevered on it Despite Everything and i'm actually very proud of it!!!#highly recommend giving this song and/or its lyrics a little looksee!!#anyway remember that one time i said i'd drawn a different Galacta Knight and you would know when it was My Guy. you can tell.#also yeah i hand detailed every last bit of that filigree. it's all hand drawn + painted. anything for my favourite evil [redacted]#my art#starstruck dee#galacta knight#kirbytober#and also#galastruck#sorry. sorry that they're like this.#🎀🔍#🎀💖#s....sorta. it's not really is it? does it count? eh. just to be safe.
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