#sigh!!!

[captaincanonly]

so… i finally got into this bullshit…… sobs in a corner

part 2 part 3

[fazbearfart]

i apoglize for everyone who followed me for one fandom i just refuse to have a side blog

[twacn]

Fuck thinking about how many times John tried to use the reverse bear trap to test people and how it ended up killing Jill, the only person he wanted to protect

[asukiess]

I cant believe I have to go insane about ladyvelours all by myself

[luneariann]

Friendly reminder that if someones pushy you have to be pushy back, being a nice normal compromising person who listens to others opinions will get you literally nowhere with someone who listens to no-one

[odoroshi-rider]

my dark desire truly is to one day release a full fan-made book for midnight circus 20th anniversary. like the premise and lore is the coolest shit imaginable and crossovers are WAY more fun than people give them credit for. if one were to go in and give it a loving pass to smooth out the worst of the 90s white wolf edginess without losing the Vibe™️ I think it would be a really cool resource for 20th anniversary ed games

[sarellathesphinx]

Nothing like being ill twice in a month….

[monards]

hsr game play is scary. baby needs to bash peoples heads in with no holding back

[roach-works]

Hi! I wanted to ask you if you did private writing commissions, nothing huge, just something personal

unfortunately after extensive testing i have concluded that i can't write to a prompt or on a time limit or under any kind of social pressure. so no, i don't take commissions. good luck finding someone who does, tho!

[museenkuss]

Hello! 🎀

I just read your thoughts on the pretty privilege as well as the tags mentioning the American mindset. I might be off topic a bit but it reminded me of a thought I had a while ago - it often seems that Americans (those I’ve seen online at least) are somewhat striving towards a general and sometimes uniform “prettiness”, whether it be because of the privilege it gives or not. All the heatless or elaborate hairstyles (the attention to hair is the biggest thing here I think) and everyday makeup, jumping on trends (like the stanley cups) way more than we do in Europe. None of this is bad of course but I’ve never seen it on such a big scale outside of the US. Even when browsing European influencers’ accounts they usually seem to just leave their hair as it is and let themselves be themselves instead of part of almost identical group of pretty girls with voluminous curls, long lashes and water bottles in hand.

What are your thoughts on this? Your posts are always interesting to read 😌 (If I’ve ventured too far off the topic of pretty privilege I apologise, the tags emboldened me to share my observation)

Hi!!!🌹🌹

This is a really interesting point. I was thinking about it a lot, because I do remember a certain look at my school when I was a teen (tank top with lace under a grey/black/blue cardigan, dark skinny jeans, Pearl earrings, straight hair in a ponytail. An army of conservative housewives…). But I don’t remember the “people rushing into a store to buy out a cup” mentality, nor do I see it these days.

So maybe I would say I do think there are uniform ideas of pretty here, too, down to “pretty girl uniforms”. That’s a topic I’m really fascinated by, I highly believe that you can DRESS in a way that will make you attractive by proxy because it’s what “attractive people” wear. However, I think this standard can vary depending on where you are — for example the pretty girl uniform at MY school would fall flat completely at another school. Just like fake lashes, fake lips, fake tan and lots of beige and pastels might be the rage in the US, but in Europe the beauty standards are different (as much as social media is trying to erase any non-US look). However, I was searching my mind and realised I simply know too little about influencers to really verify that claim. I think a problem that might contribute to the uniform standards of beauty in and outside of the US is the “aestheticisation” of things. Pilates being an aesthetic, reading or gardening or tomatoes all being an aesthetic that comes with a full on dress code. That’s also probably most prevalent around teenagers who haven’t settled in their identity just yet and thus are more likely to cling to a “package deal” (“I like reading, so I’ll dress like a reader”). But also humans ARE pack animals, so maybe this uniformity in some way also gives us a feeling of security? The need to belong never fully goes away, after all.

But then again, to return to the other point: I definitely agree that the strange aggression the USAmericans have when it comes to those trends seems not to be this prevalent here. The “craze” for something. Cups, eyeshadow palettes, bags… I just don’t see it much over here. So I’m conflicted. I do think the attitudes can be more relaxed, but I do assume that there are still beauty standards — maybe we just don’t notice them as much because we’re more involved in them? In contrast, we see the US influencers and THEIR pretty girl uniform from the outside.

Thank you so much for your ask aHH!! It definitely wasn’t off topic, it was super interesting :’)!! I feel like I got a little sidetracked in the middle there haha but this is really fascinating. I can already tell I’ll be turning it in my head for the next few days. Thank you!!! :D

[luminarytex]

how do you know if ur blocked by someone on tumblr 😭😭😭

[stinging-metal]

liking unpopular things is such a struggle. Wdym i have to make my own content

[courtjester69420]

The other issue (I say, like this is the middle of a conversation) with having a character for 7 years of your human life, is that they end up with a lot of contradictions in their character that make sense and work together perfectly but only to you. And trying to explain it would take a novel and it probably still won’t make sense. SIGH!!!

[metaphorical-goblin]

I need to write more FLUFFFFF

I need to write more fluff about WOMENNNNN

I need SOFTNESS DANG IT

[the-mocking-robin]

It's late and sleep ain't happening yet so...

Damien and Jason thoughts.

Specifically just before he gets dipped in the Lazarus pit.

(Going by UTRH: Lost Days canon, mostly.)

So. Jason. Fairly recently clawed his way up from a grave. Unresponsive save for when he's in danger and has to fight.

Talia's been researching this for weeks now, and Ra's is genuinely terrified Jason's cursed or a demon or something because people don't just die and decide they're tired of their graves. Something is wrong and neither of them have an answer and there's a baby they need to prioritize.

Talia... Is tired. She needs to bond with her son. So she just lets Jason hang out while she holds baby Damien.

And it's the most response he's shown when Damien starts to cry. Talia's there, of course, and knows he just needs burping. He's fine. He's a baby experiencing the first of many small discomforts.

Jason lingers and watches until Damien burps and settles down. Then he's back to his thousand yard stare off into the distance. Unresponsive. Barely aware.

Until the baby cries again.

It happens every time. Damien cries and Jason appears like a ghost to watch him. He watches whoever is tending to the baby and only leaves when Damien goes back to sleep or finishes whatever baby thing he's doing at the moment before napping.

It's not smart to bet your baby's health on someone who is possibly so brain damaged he can't speak or reliably feed himself. It's not smart to have what could arguably be a zombie around your baby.

She's made a lot of decisions her father and their staff might consider questionable. But she's got good instincts.

So she starts small. Gives Jason a warm bottle and leaves the room for a few minutes. She expects Jason to just hold the bottle. Damien is already propped up for feeding.

What she gets is Jason cradling Damien and somewhat clumsily guiding the bottle to his mouth. His hold on Damien is firm and careful, but the bottle seems to give him trouble.

It's not smart to let a cursed man hold and handle your baby. But Jason proves, even half alive, he's fiercely protective and no one but Talia is ever able to take the baby away from him.

After Jason is healed in the pit, he still comes to Damien when he cries. It feels very natural to care for him. Talia tries to ask if he's had children under his care before. He doesn't answer. It hurts to think about.

After he trains under (and kills) Talia's best assassins, he gives one last goodbye to toddler Damien, who is dangerously close to taking his first steps. He expects to never see this kid again, for better or worse. Gives him one last hug (which Ra's has never approved of) and leaves for Gotham as Red Hood the next day.

A few years later, Damien shows up in Gotham as the new Robin, and Jason watches from a distance as Bruce struggles with another kid making violent choices.

It's hard not to be fond of the little assassin and how ridiculously seriously he takes himself.

And harder still to not mourn the kid's lack of childhood.

[notebookmusical]

i’m so tired of being sick