#should i start blogging about my writing as well?

[darlingdaisyfarm]

You know I've been meaning to ask.. is everything okay? I mean your pfp is blank. I understand you're uploading, but I also want to make sure you're okay

idk if i have some mental connection with you, anon, because how else i can explain that you sent this ask right when i felt so bad??? but yeah i should really put a pfp, i just can’t choose the right pic and at same time im lazy….

honestly i promised myself i wouldn’t vent online and irl because i don’t wanna be annoying or be the kind of person people get tired of. but i guess i just feel emotional rn sorry again

well 2025 kinda kicked me in the face already LMAO, it already reminded me that some people will always pick someone else and some things are just not meant to be yours. i just got reminded once again that i’m super replaceable to person i really loved and cared about. so now im realising that i was just there to pass the time until they found smth better, someone better. and they did, they did and that’s just unfair for me, i literally loved this person for 10 years and that's how i ended up

not exactly the fresh start i was hoping for lol

been feeling like a ghost in my own life lately so i guess i made this blog to just be somewhere, to talk to people, to share things i love, to feel like i exist in some small way. to find friends? idk. sometimes i wonder if i’m just taking up space here, but deleting this blog feels dramatic so whatever. although i thought bout this a lot and still think about it, but i guess im just being... yeah, dramatic, i mean i am, ive been told. so, i don't know, deleting feels rude ? and i don’t wanna be rude, i hate being rude :( i still hesitate every time i post though. and i don’t want to be that person who craves reassurance but damn, it gets lonely and im embarrassed to even say that rn

+ last year drained me so much that i couldn’t even start anything for a whole month. its about my work, i just felt stuck, exhausted before i even tried. things are getting better now with my work, though. it’s actually tied to people and honestly, i love that?? i mean, i love people very much. in general. so whenever i meet someone kind or understanding in my work, it lifts my mood

but when it comes to writing or fics, i feel like i’m always fighting myself. actually i enjoy writing, ive been writing since… 14? 13? so i try, i push through, but nothing ever feels right lately. i don’t know if it’s just a phase or if this is how it’s always going to be. why i always feel like i could’ve done better or that maybe i shouldn’t have posted at all

anyways….. i don’t usually post stuff like this. i really don’t want to be like this, i hate sounding so negative, i really do. i promised myself i wouldn’t. i usually just keep things to myself, but you seemed like you genuinely cared, sweetheart and i figured i might as well be honest, i appreciate your worry! thank u sm angel! ♡

[genderqueerdykes]

About your "Men (including cishet men) welcome to interact" post

As someone who's most important/supportive person in their life is our dad, & we have (or just have meet) other men who has meant a lot to us or have been really supportive or even our role models, sometimes people hatred or just distrust they have and how openly rude they are about it just a lot sometimes. Obviously & Honestly there's a lot to be said here(about this topic as whole) but we are not able to(personal comfortability & actual writing ability). Thank you for being a blog that has been here allowing us to be able to explore, understand, learn our(& others) identities/experiences in world, not making us feel bad for the people who support us just because of how the judge based off of the same thing the rest of society shuns us for. (a side note because of your blog we were able to get the nerve and make the push to start T just over a year ago now. A lot of it due to the help and support we got from our dad, who despite us being an adult has financially covered everything for it and the rest of our health as we are also disabled and only recently have been able to work at all) Thank you for your time in just reading this if ya do.

thanks for taking the time to send this, i really appreciate it!

i'm tired of seeing hate for the sake of hate. hate solves very little. like being a hater sucks actually, it's not cool to be shitty to other people for no reason. it bothers me deeply that people refuse to accept that there genuinely are cishet men who are queer allies out there, and in fact, some of them are absolutely amazing queer allies. i've had friends who were cishet men and gendered me correctly after i came out to them. i've had cishet men stand up for me when someone questions my manhood.

nobody considers the fact that there are queer people that just might have a loved one, partner, or friend who is a cishet man. why would it ever be okay to openly show hate to someone who supports you? hell, how you even expect someone to respect your gender and your orientation if you hate them based off of their gender and orientation? profiling someone based off of their gender & orientation is quite literally what queerphobes do, and doing it to random cishet men who haven't hurt you will not make those queerphobes stop profiling you.

treating someone else like shit just because you've been treated like shit is passing your trauma on to someone else. you're bleeding on someone who did not cut you.

(a side note because of your blog we were able to get the nerve and make the push to start T just over a year ago now. A lot of it due to the help and support we got from our dad, who despite us being an adult has financially covered everything for it and the rest of our health as we are also disabled and only recently have been able to work at all)

first of all i'm so happy to hear that! i hope things have been going well for you with T, and i am genuinely so fucking happy to hear that your dad is so supportive. he sounds amazing i'm glad he wants to help you become the happiest version of yourself you can be. there really are supportive cishet men out there. some of them are dads, uncles, cousins, brothers, sons, friends and partners. there's no reason we should treat them like absolute shit when they support us. we need to love them just as they love us.

take care of yourself! thank you for sending this i really appreciate it! let me know if you need any help with regards to HRT! im always happy to help! good luck in your transition, stay safe!

[yourknightofrage]

first lines game

rules: post the first lines of your last 10 fics posted to ao3. (sort by date posted.) if you have less than 10 fics posted, post what you have!

Okay, so while I do have enough fics to do this on AO3 some of them are from like 3 years ago and MORE so I'm gonna pull out some drafts as well cause imma be posting them anytime now...

thank you @m-a-w-a for tagging me in this game, I'm afraid I won't be passing this forward since I don't know many writers on Tumblr like that anymore. <3

It Was An Honest Loss When the procession came to a halt, a woman stepped out of the most rich carriage. Her dress seemed like an extension of it: a plated silver tua sin with bismuth accents structuring her shoulders and cascading mosaic down her sash. It built a powerful and aggressive silhouette, signaling her origins, her status.

I Ain't Done It is said that, once a certain threshold of pain is reached, the body simply cannot keep record of it anymore. Had Pete been asked about it, he would’ve said that emotional pain counted too, because there was no other explanation for what was happening.

Shrikes and Thorns Vegas had gotten used to the hollow feeling in his chest. Because when he was a child and found that his mother had died, his heart followed along. As he grew up and his father was never happy with him, it had started to rot, decaying with every hit, the words laying putrid on it. By the time he was an adult there was nothing but a black ooze that smelled of death in his chest, and Vegas did not care. It did not hurt, he'd gotten used to it. Then Pete came along.

I'll Swear That I loved You Pain was the first thing Pete noticed. Unsurprising, seeing as that was most of his existence these days. This time, it felt like pulsing from the right side of his head, it felt like his whole body was throbbing under the tension of it. He felt heavy, slow, and most of him was hurting. All the other aches filtered in later, coming to him like water leaking through a cracked bowl. 

The Ghost of Us To say that Izuku was excited would be an understatement. Electricity was buzzing under his skin, not in the way that One For All did. This was like waves that made his head feel light, had butterflies manifest in his stomach, and added a bounce to his step.

Very Special Geralt wasn’t the most emotionally intelligent man, he could own up to that.

There's a Second Wind Coming Twenty-two years was a long time. It was most of his life, it was his entire adult life, and it was almost entirely dedicated to Geralt of Rivia. A foolish endeavour, really, since Geralt never even spoke the word “friend” out loud.

Something so magic about you The first time it happened Essek knew he was being used. There was no questioning it. The Mighty Nein had needed help, and they had been particularly irksome with their muddy information. So Caleb tried to soothe his nerves. In retrospect Essek would wonder if he’d been quite so obvious about his regards for the wizard. The drow would look at his actions and wonder if he’d lingered too long on Caleb when addressing the Nein, if maybe he’d been too accomodating with him. What had given him away?

Fake It Till You Make It (draft) "Look, this is flattering, really I am honoured," Porsche said. "But I don't see you in the same way, and I think maybe we should stay apart for a bit, because Kinn's really not okay with it, and-" "Oh, you think- no, it's not-" How was Vegas supposed to think of an excuse quick enought? He wasn't good at improv, he was used to plans and layers and thinking things through! "I mean, I want you to like me, but not like-like me." "Really? But... why?" "Well... think... who is your roomate?" Welp. Vegas guessed he was going to have a crush on Pete for a while now.

For Your Love “No, you wanna know what the real psycho shit is?” Porsche asked, his voice a vibrato of laughter.

[radjerda]

Some portraits of some fancy elves from Gondolin

Ecthelion and Glorfindel deserved some more elaborate designs than my usual, and how can I draw one without the other?

[girlwiththegreenhat]

i am never going to recover from the death shroud radio play actually

[lycorid]

Sometimes venturing onto the For You side of Twitter sparks joy.

Based take. Shoujo and Josei are fucking top notch, both in characters and art style (how can you not think they’re beautiful?)

“Ruined the JJK and MHA fandoms” is WILD. I avoid fandoms for the most part (except perusing tumblr for the occasional fucking thesis women write about character motivations i love you women <3) because they usually suck. Seriously, I kept up with OPM for a bit because it was entertaining but holy shit the subreddit (very much full of men) is literally just… sexy woman. More sexy woman. Memes about artist constantly drawing sexy woman. Memes. Occasional power scaling arguments. Low quality page colorings of the exact same page. There is NOTHING. How the hell can women ruin the fandom when the fandom IS the women?!

It’s the women creating in depth analyses on characters; it’s the women writing fanfiction, creating doujinshis; it’s the women creating fandom centered accounts; it’s the women buying every new merch piece that comes out AND giving free advertising by posting about it online. And then men will go on and rag on women for doing all these things. It’s infuriating.

Longevity of a series is also something these idiots ignore. Seriously, look at Katekyo Hitman Reborn. The manga ended in 2012 and the creator is working on a different series. Katekyo Hitman Reborn still gets regular merch releases. This is a series that ended over a decade ago and still has an incredibly dedicated fanbase of, I wonder who, that regularly spends enough money to keep it consistent. You cannot look me in the eyes and tell me that series is supported mainly by men. I do not care how hard Amano Akira tried to alienate her female fans with her treatment of the female characters you know exactly whos spending the money based on who is constantly getting merch (minus the titular character, because of course he has to be there.)

Honestly I don’t give a damn that fandom can often be absolute insanity; you get a group of people together and it’s always going to be a shitshow, that isn’t unique to fandom, people just like to pretend it is because as always, there’s an undercurrent of misogyny because people know women carry that shit but they only want to acknowledge it when they can use it to criticize them.

I love that she came for the JJK fandom as well. I’ve been following the series because honestly it is really fucking funny because it is the epitome of shounen tropes. The author literally baked them into the world. Explaining your abilities to the opponent makes them stronger. So this entire series you get giant pages of just white with text explaining every little fucking thing like theres a narrator standing over your shoulder making sure you can’t possibly miss anything on the first read. Fuck dude, I don’t mind exorbitant amounts of text in my manga, but you cannot be serious in pretending that is good writing. There’s a deus ex machina that every character can pull out of their ass called a binding vow. Black flash also falls into this category.

Hell, the latest arc has literally just been flashback after flashback playing during the battle of the characters forming a bunch of plans in preparation for the fight we currently are following. This is genuinely one of my most hated tropes. The characters just get off screen power ups that then get handwaved as “well we showed you the flashback right?” there is NO anticipation, any excitement you feel for the battle is purely manufactured rather than genuine. It’s not “I can’t wait to see how the growth I followed of these characters affects the battle” it’s “wow, what cool ability will they pull out of their ass next?” I hate it I loathe it and it’s even worse with emotional moments. Why couldn’t you write this into the story in the first place? Why are you giving it to me in a shitty flashback?

Maybe I didn’t explain it well enough because I launched into a rant. The reason I hated it so much is because it forced the reader to be an observer rather than an active participant in the manga. Everything is spoonfed to you. You don’t need to reread the chapters over and over to put together the pieces on how, where, and why each action took place, the author does that for you. You don’t see everything from a new perspective when you read it a second time, catching lots of things you may have missed because you’re not allowed to miss anything the author deems important.

I enjoy this manga. There is good things about it. But it is nowhere near the god manga (“kamige” would be the term if it was a visual novel; I don’t know a manga equivalent) men like to pretend it is. It genuinely seems like they think everything being explained every page is good writing.

Based and succinct.

Anyway, you shouldn’t restrict yourself from experiencing specific genres because they’re for “the lessers” because that’s actually fucking cringe and maybe you should touch a Josei manga, or even a Shoujo manga. Maybe it’ll open your eyes and you’ll realize, hey, women’s media is actually- oh who the fuck am I kidding just pull the trigger.

[melverie]

Aaaaaaahhhhhhhh today I've been constantly experiencing the urge to un-private today-in-the-devildom & start writing for it again

[ichthysgospel]

idk if this helps at all but my tumor was weirdly hard and also kind of shrunken/cramped like when I stuck my tongue out it was bent in halfbc I couldn't extend that part of the muscle. any food that was too crunchy, sour, or salty made it bleed and it felt a bit like an eternal cramp like if you eat a bunch of sour candy too fast.

sry saw your tags and thought additional information might help. hope this doesn't scare you even worse. when I looked up oral cancer symptoms I had a panic attack for 2 hours

aahhggjh yeah i need to look at it. my family had a history of getting cancer young but i was suspecting HPV because my partner also noticed a similar lump on their inner cheek a like two days after i discovered mine.

I do get weird sores when i eat sour candy so i assumed it was just one of those (no idea what those are either). it doesnt hurt, its not hard, it hasnt grown or caused constriction of any sort.

When i search my specific symptoms i dont get anything conclusive, none of them really suggest it could be harmful, but i've been putting off cancer research. not really out of fear of cancer but The Horrors of what a hospital bill would look like if it does need surgery.

Thank you for bringing it up though, I would have procrastinated on it til the end of time if someone else didnt suggest it *might actually* be serious for me. whoopsies

[popponn]

in general, sometimes i really wonder what sort of impression i make on this place

[readymades2002]

trying to do some financial math for if i move out and getting sick to my stomach

[persephoneflouwers]

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[azumasoroshi]

forever cursed to write insane long tag spam on reblogs of other people’s posts until i realize that i should make a separate post for the idea and putting the post into drafts and then never getting around to transfering the idea to post form

[scarlettcryptid]

hardcore projecting my avoidancy onto dabi in this soulmate au thing i started in november

[apocalypticdemon]

wondering out loud, but do people usually post snippets from fics they're working on just apropos of nothing? is this a thing that's normal? i feel like i've seen it done, but i'm unsure if that's typical or not

[edenvyz]

not my girlfriend asking me between me and him who would fall out of love first, and when i say him, he gets all confused and wonders why i think that

like? i wasn't aware we were pretending like it's not already happening lmao

wbk that ive never been what they want. he said it himself once, im not enough. and they keep saying it, too, still. how the way i love them is not the way they want to be loved. how he wants to be loved in some other way, or how my love could never be enough to compare to their ideal

i know we know this. i think im just a little angry at his "confused" reaction. i hate lies and pretenses, and i know he is already falling out of love like

[dahldahlbills]

nano tomorrow 👁️👁️

i’ll be holding myself accountable by posting my daily word counts so feel free to filter #dahl does nano 23 !!