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if anyone has any tips/tricks for training a chihuahua please give them to me!!
#i had no idea how easy it was with all my previous dogs#like iris is a german shepard she can pick up a new trick in a few hours...#itsy couldnt care less#i know she understands what im saying and i know she just doesnt want to listen#because iris does the same thing#but the only time itsy wants to listen is if i have dog treats in my hand...#maybe clicker training would be a good idea?? that way i can keep giving her that positive reinforcement without an insane amount of treats#shes sooo stubborn...#shes such a sweetheart too tbh sometimes its really hard to be firm with her#like aww shes not coming when i tell her to?? but she's sooo tiny and sweet and i could just scoop her up...#and she would just cuddle up in my arms..#she doesnt need to come *every* time i call her...#BUT NO. THATS THE DEVIL TALKING#I CANNOT HAVE A DOG WITH HORRIBLE RECALL#not only is it dangerous for her its embarrassing for me#i dont really know what im doing at all tbh#spider was an impulse buy (not my idea not something i condone)#and i've done research on dogs and training them and their behavior in the past#but i've never looked into chihuahuas specifically before#or more stubborn breeds in general#its a fun challenge at least!!!#she likes to nap and snuggle and be around me and while she has a lot of energy its nothing compared to iris#shes a lot more manageable even though she doesnt really listen#shes easy to wear out#which is great for my disabled ass we have the same (similar) energy tolerance#im just yapping here LOL i just really like my dogs and care about them a lot#says#chihuahua#dog training
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post-graduation trip airport looks
#my art#jujutsu kaisen#jjk#jjk fanart#yuji itadori#megumi fushiguro#fushiguro megumi#nobara kugisaki#itafushikugi#jjk spoilers#jjk manga spoilers#jujutsu kaisen fanart#these took ages but fr once i am choosing to forgive myself given th fact tht i was coming out of A State when i drew them#im normal now dw drawing the first years wearing merch of my comfort content fixed me#when in doubt play dress up. life hack#i am holding fast 2 my hc tht megumi is a fiend @ indie platformers and is a household name on the celeste speedrun leaderboards#argue with a wall this is my jujutsu kaisen#megumi designated Drink Runner also#alr in line at a cafe texts their gc 'what do you guys want' n gets mad @ nobara fr making him go to a Second shop 2 get her bubble tea#anyway theres not much 2 say abt these just bc i needed sth Light n Easy 2 get me out of my head#no lore to fashion pieces which is both a blessing and a curse but it Is what i needed#nobara serving looks fr a flight i love u so much. it's probably 8 in the morning n she is in a fully coordinated fit#its so criminal tht we don't have more alt hairstyle official art fr her???? iirc it's Just the lost in paradise mv with her in buns no????#robbed. i am fixing it immediately.#wonder where the 3 of them wld go on a trip
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dreaming abt sophomore year class swap bard!riz
#fantasy high#fantasy high sophomore year#fhsy#riz gukgak#ft. kalina#fh class quangle#tbh Im not suuuper happy with the bones of these designs yet#but also its just a bit hard to measure up to how strong ''kid who wears suit to school'' is#I kiinda gear the sophomore year design specifically towards like. cameraman-esque aesthetics#kind of dude who's working the light rig And the audio at the same time. dude who's running inbetween two huge tripods#theres also a thing with the freshman year arcade scene that I wanted to draw but just do not have the energy today#maybe in the future! if I can be bothered to draw biz lmao#I wanna draw something for cleric!gorgug first anyway... specifically his death in freshman year#man I'm so glad I tossed bard!riz into investigative journalism that is SO annoying. exactly what I set out to do with my classswaps#can you imagine going to school with that guy. can you imagine going to school with tintin#this also makes kipperlilly vs riz even funnier like influencer vs journalist? it'd be the Worst#man thinking of it I should rework gorgug's design too. currently his sophomore design is really zac core lmao#and zac can pull it off but character design wise its. really nothing. laughs#his junior year design is full aerith at least so that one Im very happy with. what if I tell u cassandra is the deity of#the inbetween spaces in this class swap thingy. and gorgug offers her domain as a stop for folks fresh out of a faith to gather themselves#that being transgender as fuck is kinda coincidental lmao. but well I stand by it I like that#nobody's design has jumped out to me like riz and gorgug yet. adaine I have a prreeetty good idea for#mostly bc shes the hoodie kid this time round lmao. gamer adaine true believers rise up#we take it easy! we take it easy as we go. these comics-lite were real fun to do. I should do that more
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Meant to share a Heidi ref along with some outfits I made for clothing practice.
She’s a dock worker for Marrowtide! Check out them PPEs✨ I promise I have more for her to come within my wips, I’m a bit scattered.
#I had fun working out her skin pattern#monster art#monster oc#fungal nymph#bloomface#hallowed carrion#Heidi#i imagine wearing shoes with a dew claw can’t be easy so I’m sure she’s got some special padding idk
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Im just yapping but there is this fic on fimficton called Discord of Tomorrow that’s about s2 evil discord traveling forward in time right before he can be turned to stone to switch places with the version of himself (reformed discord) that exists when the elements of harmony are gone, so reformed discord gets stuck in the past and has had to snap away and hide the elements of harmony from the mane 6 so he can focus on trying to get back to the future without getting turned to stone, all while dealing with the moral dilemma of him realizing how easy it was to take the elements and how easy it would be to seriously just take Equestria over again vs being worried about what evil discord is currently doing to his friends in present time. It’s only like three chapters but I think the plot is so funny and the author didn’t even get to the part where evil discord is in the future and the mane 6 is trying to figure out wtf his problem is, thinking he has amnesia or something. I want to make a comic expanding on it so bad I’m like seriously obsessed with it I can’t stop thinking about it
#jabber#there is zero info on where to find the writer the fic is like 8 years old#I wish I could find the author so bad#drawing mlp Is like so easy that I’m getting comic hungry#the idea of past discord being like god past me was so stupid I could have permanently his the elements and#skipped that whole song and dance with the riddle and the labyrinth#. he like hides out in fluttershys cottage while the mane 6 are at twilights freaking out about how evil discord#got away and reformed discord snapping the elements off their necks#and he is messing around and wearing the elements around his torso going on about how easy it is to take them#I want to draw that specifically#then later flutter shy shows up at her cottage and is freaked to find him there but tries to fake nice with him to get him to stay so#the mane 6 have time to arrive but discord has to come to his senses and realize she’s not being sincere and feels bad so he leaves#ughhh#and then the fic was never updated again#I’m so close to taking the torch I can’t stop thinking about this#discord of tomorrow
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i meant to post this yesterday but when i saw my sister yesterday she was wearing the shirt i made her in 2019 for her college graduation present !!!! here’s a pic from when i finished it
its this cute little windowpane check linen tunic with a contrast light green patch pocket & i matched the bias tape…. i always forget i can sew! and the top stitching on the pocket was so neat when i looked at it yesterday too! i’m so touched that she still has it & it’s holding up & looking good. i should make more clothes
#it’s the only garment i’ve EVER finished so it’s nice that she still wears it#i made a bag for her as part of the gift too i wonder if she still has that#that was an oilcloth with leather straps. rivets & brass hardware and everything#i did it in like four hours because i was fucking PRESSED for time. that was a merchant & mills pattern iirc#not the tunic that was somebody else. can’t remember rn it was a long time ago#this was when i worked at the fabric store so it was very easy to both use their space and have a handle on things#i’m out of the loop now#photo record#chatpost#um. should i put it in my art tag. i did make this#don’t i have a crafts tag too? idk#crafts tag
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Already said this but since everybody is too busy on the failmance happening im gonna say it again: Vi starting their confrontation by saying “never thought [my sister] would orphan kids” only to be stopped from killing jinx. By an orphan kid.
#its about how jinx specifically calls vi her sister. thats WHY she has to kill her she wont balk from that#but vi disowns her as a sister (crazy bc she was her only blood family but thats nbd in zaun) bc thats the only way she can kill jinx#vi just GASSED zaun and is a COP now jinx should be disowning her#it wouldve been SO good if jinx flipped the s1 finale situation#and started asking what vander or mylo or claggor would think while wearing his stolen goggles#if vi wasnt so hot yall would actually call out her bad decisions or red flags but go off ig#bc this scene is also after she watched jayve KILL a kid. not even orphan one! and she was LITERALLY like ‘so? kids be dying.’#anyway the fact that isha is also aware of cait trying to shoot jinx so she hugs her. puts her head in the mf WAY on purpose#and vi has to have the same moment as jayce. ‘what have we done’ you became the very thing you swore to hate sweetheart :))#to have a child from zaun. your home btw. look at you in an enforcer uniform and shes full of fear and rightous fury.#its that day on the bridge again. vi had that same look in her eyes when vander carried her away. when did her lines and her values become#so easy to sway. well bc she loves someone of course. but she betrays you too. i can only laugh#its stupid bc s1 jinx is literally only doing what vi grew up wanting to do for vander. like actually.#bc its the same that they cannot steal from topside so it wouldve meant stealing and fighting and eventually killing people in oposition#like your sister was building nail bombs at 9 years old. you encouraged her. ‘theyll work eventually’ and then she kills and vis like 😰😰🤢🤢#bc she only sees silco. ugh kill me#can somebody talk about THEM please yknow one of the main focuses of the show#arcane#netflix arcane#arcane season 2#arcane s2#arcane spoilers
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My II X-Files AU YIPPIEEE !!!!!!!
#i couldnt decide what scully was gonna b but the way shes always tryna find the hidden facts a UV blacklight felt fitting#shes called skully cuz when she lights up theres a small skull on her lamp like a Halloween decoration lolll#fox mulder was easy ofc you can figure that out for yourself#fox is gonna take fans blood for sampling but fan doesnt know what a blood test is and is gonna freak out LOLL#skully has a concealed recording device in her pocket or smth idk#objects wear clothes for fun but they dont have to. mulder and skully just do it for fun#inanimate insanity#art posting
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Thinking about wearing their Furin or Shishitoren jacket and you think of it as a layer of protection, when really it makes you a target.
#you think you’re safe when you’re out wearing your boyfriends Shishitoren or Furin jacket#because everyone knows what the jacket means and what it stands for#and it shows that your boyfriend can fight#but some guys just don’t give a fuck and all it takes is a run in with the wrong guy from keel#or from gravel or even just random thugs to catch you in it#and think that they’re getting one up on Shishitoren or Furin for fucking with you#or they’re not scared because they think you’re the perfect easy target#imagine they’ve got your back to the wall while they mock your Furin/Shishitoren boyfriend and you start mouthing off#but of course they don’t expect your boyfriend to find you#‘don’t you know what that jacket means asshole? means she’s off fuckin limits’#like you wear that jacket and you KNOW everyone is looking
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am I dumb for just realizing that Nebula is literally just a Terraria model
edit: oh and I just noticed, she's got two emblems from the game on her belt
#sun and moon show#sams spoilers#the lunar and earth show#lunar and earth show#tlaes#terraria#I realized this when I noticed that she's wearing terraspark boots#and then I recognized the nebula armor#and yeah. it was easy to figure out what else the model had#tbh this isn't the first time we've seen a Terraria model on TSAMS#like. the creator literally uses a Brain of Cthulhu model for his look#hyper said this
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Anyway they can change between being tiny and human sized. And when they're tinier they can only be seen by the other fae or their selected humans. So if you just passed Noll on the street while Shavuli was perched on his shoulder chatting away you wouldn't see or hear her.
#my characters#a lot of the fae who are trying to get noll to pick a human take turns joining him as he wanders if he opts to be human sized#if he opts to be small and fly around none of them can actually find him to follow bc he does it precisely to be alone#and makes careful to avoid all of them when he dips#which furthers their friendly obsession with him being their void like where is he we lost him we gotta go bring him back from the abyss!#and hes just off on his own being crippled by anxiety at being a disappointment bc what if he isnt fun enough#absolutely unaware that all his friends are like we gotta go find him hes too good at this#hes going to win the game we have clearly set up to involve humans before he even recruits a human#cause he is TOO GOOD at slipping away ITS NOT FAIR we love him what a weird fae thats our lil guy!#noll really is just out there impressing all of his friends and not knowing hes impressing them bc hes too scared of being abandoned#and i was telling rae but when he does find the human he wants as his for the game#hes like ok so im gonna be honest here i turn into a big sword and you are definitely not going to be strong enough to carry me#and the human just like ok then pick someone else?#and hes like no no i cant you dont get it youre resourceful and im resourceful THEREFORE! i have an idea! just for us!#and then proceeds to shatter himself into shards basically#so that the human can have many smaller easy to control swords rather than one too big sword#and when all of the other fae see it they are absolutely delighted bc they didnt know he could do that! thats so cool! wow! they love him s#and he doesnt tell them that it actually really flippin hurts and being broken is agonizing but he wants to win so badly#anyway hello appreciate the void fae noll and his lil buddy shavuli who can turn into a spear C:#in her human form though she loves to wear hoodies instead of just like .... a skin tight suit with draping fabrics#she does wear biker shorts bc leggy.... she likes to have legs free#but she likes hoodies a lot
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Guess who :3c (Patreon)
#My art#Webkinz#Diamond#Ukadevlog#Ghostkinz#Ta-dah! My November behind-the-scenes project was this! The poll was for this reason! Though I already knew I'd start with her haha#Have a little preview to start us off - I have Lots of thoughts to each part of development I ended up in but I want to roll them out slowly#Not everything all at once anyway haha - thoughts get all jumbled now that I'm on this side of things pft#I wasn't able to finish A Version I'd be willing to publish in just a month - even then I only worked on Ghostkinz about 3 days a week so#But for the time I spent I'm quite pleased with how its shaped up so far! :D I got to implement a lot!#Actually learning-then-implementing-then-learning-then-implementing - it's a loop I've been out of for such a long time now :0#Really interesting to fall back into after so long away haha#A lot of my other projects have been Pick Up One Thing and then do that forever and I was tired-tired of that!!#So going into this project knowing that I'd only have November to Get Guud at as much of it as possible and then that was it#I think it helped propel me - didn't end with me getting stuck on Perfecting Just This One Thing#I'd read a bit and then go utilize it and then come back and read some more of Zarla's template/walkthrough - compelling system!#I still couldn't manage to actually finish in a month but I got up to Phase 4!! Previous attempts at Ghost-making has gotten stalled at 1!!#Maaaybe 2 but never anything beyond that - and while I didn't actually Finish any Phase apart from 1 I still read through much much more!#On top of the learning aspect being fun ♪ getting to understand some of the more technical side ahh - it was also just fun to read haha#Like a course that can be silly hehe ♫ Enjoyable even outside of getting to make a little guy for my screen haha#But also yes that too!! I'm really glad I finally settled on an idea that I feel confident in seeing through#The best part about reaching for the Webkinz style is that Webkinz uses vectors - I've gone on record multiple times as loving vectors#They're an exceptionally easy medium to manipulate and that was The Thing that had been holding me back from committing to Ghosts prior#Drawing every single thing when I already struggle to plug in my tablet...no...... But Vectors#You can see here that Diamond's expressions are just a matter of tilting her head and moving her tail - so so soooo simple with vectors#Being able to super-quickly put out a lot of different expressions and animations and piecemeal everything together...yes..........#And for what further I have in mind :3c It's really all I could ask for in an art style to seek ah ♪ Just right for my purposes!#I thought it'd be nice to show off Diamond-for-real as her plush next to her digital version as well :D She's still the only OG8 I have#I want more!! I'd love to have a code for her as well haha - secretly just started this so I can have a digital Diamond lol#Plush-Diamond actually wears a necklace these days but I opted to leave it off her for the photoshoot - maybe once I figure out clothes haha
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Tears (an excuse to draw the ToTK dragon armours...)
#Link is wowed by his fishwife as he should be#just you wait till they find out these outfits glow#this is like portable luminous stone glow and link thinks mipha looks beautiful in that light#Totk#but canon is what I make of it so#totk is actually a game where link and mipha go on a little adventure together#anyway#miphlinkweek2023#miphlink#mipha#link#botw#creativesplat draws#I was going to do angst and then I thought: Creativesplat that would be too easy! Lets do something ToTK themed instead#charged set totk#frostbite set totk#mipha is from the people who have Nauru's crest on stuff so she would of course wear the naydra armour set#and link is the triforce of courage (and faore is in charge of that hence the faorosh armour set)
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I like to imagine that Katniss started wearing her hair in two braids again after the war. She had more positive memories associated with it, like it being her mother's or father's hands braiding rather than her own. They reminded her of lighter times, and didn't remind her of being the mockingjay symbol. The hunger games Victor. It also made her a bit less recognizable, which was another win.
She also started wearing her hair down more often. Particularly if she was going to be leaving the district for whatever reason (I'm sure she eventually got out of being banned from leaving twelve), like to visit her mom, Annie, or Johanna, because it hid her face a little and didn't have the potential to catch anyone's eye as "the hairstyle of the mockingjay". maybe she learns an appreciation for how the wind feels blowing through her long, black hair and she starts to go for walks with it down.
#katniss everdeen#katniss everdeen headcanons#just some thoughts#the hunger games#I'm sure she'd keep wearing her back braid#but at the same time part of me wonders if she'd completely adapt how she wears her hair#she wears her hair in one braid because it is easy and keeps her hair out of her face#and then that becomes her symbol as a political figure#I'm sure as an adult with more of a sense of self developing and no starving family to devote all of her mental energy to#she'd maybe eventually play around with it more#I've even seen fan art where she eventually has short hair like a Bob#but I imagine she would just do different braids or do half up half down or something#headcanons#mermaid speaks
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When it comes to hygiene tasks and self care with disability and chronic illness, its pretty much a constant case of: don't let perfect be the enemy of the good.
Basically: it's better to do something, than to do nothing at all.
TLDR: Just because you can't do something "properly" doesn't mean you shouldn't do it at all. Do it half-way. Do it shitty. Do it barely. Do it on a technicality. But do what you can. Just try, because doing something will help you.
If you don't have the energy to scrub your body with a sponge, just rub soap over your skin with your hands.
If you don't have the energy to wash your whole body with soap, just hit the places where sweat accumulates, or where you're smelliest.
If you don't have the energy to wash with soap AT ALL, just sitting in water is better than nothing. It will wash away dirt and oils.
If you can't bathe or shower at all, a warm wash cloth is your new best friend. If that's too much, then try bath wipes. They're a bit bigger than regular wet wipes, and a bit more heavy duty. They're designed to help keep bed ridden patients clean in hospitals.
If you don't have the energy to dry yourself after a bath or a shower, just put on a bathrobe and get into bed. If you don't have the energy to get dressed afterwards, just don't. It can wait until you can.
If you don't have energy to brush your teeth for two minutes, honestly, just a cursory scrub is better than not doing anything.
If you can't brush your teeth twice a day, brush in the evenings. It will help take away the build up of food from the day.
If you don't have the energy to brush AT ALL, honestly, just take a cloth and wipe the plaque off your teeth. Rinse with mouth wash after if you'd like. Something is always better than nothing.
If you can't floss twice a day. Try once. If that's too much, try a few times a week. If that's too much, try setting aside a day once a week as a goal. If you can't keep a schedule, do it when you're able to. Hell, I keep some floss next to my bed so that if I forget and don't have the energy to go get it, I can just reach over.
If you can't iron your clothes, don't bother. Wrinkles are fine. Wear jumpers over wrinkly t-shirts. No one will know, and honestly, most people won't even care. If it's really wrinkly and it's A Big Deal And It Needs To Be Ironed, here's my life hack. Step 1: take a spray bottle, and spritz the item of clothing (while you're wearing it is easiest) until it's lightly damp. Step 2: use a hair-dryer on the clothes until they're dry. It gets rid of creases like nobody's business, it's easier than lugging out the iron and ironing board, and you get to have nice toasty warm clothes afterwards.
If you can't fold your clothes, try just hanging them up. It's less commitment. It's quicker to do. Granted, you need to have the space in order to do this, but it is also good at helping you downsize, and lets you visualise exactly what you have.
If you can't put your clothes away, invest in a couple of laundry baskets, and then just keep your clean clothes in the baskets. You can then separate washed clothes into underwear, pants, and shirts baskets. You can just leave them like that. I'm giving you permission to never fold your laundry again if you can't. Just leave it unfolded. Who's going to care? Something is better than nothing. If you can, try to put those baskets into your closet so that you can keep the clutter out of sight, and give yourself a more restful environment.
If you can't separate your clothing out into different categories and wash them "properly" (whites, warm tones, cool tones, darks, delicates / switching between hot & cold washes / paying attention to laundry instructions on the label) then just don't worry about it. If you cold wash your clothes, colours won't bleed. Maybe gradually over the course of dozens of washes there'll be some changes in hue, but it's really not as high stakes as the One Red Sock In The Whites Turns Them Pink trope makes it out to be.
I've pretty much come to the point in my life where if a piece of clothing can't survive the washer and dryer, then it's just not meant to be. I colour separate my clothes, and if I have the energy/remember I'll take my bras and jumpers out of the washing machine to drip dry. But otherwise, I leave it to the universe.
If you can't separate out your recycling, then don't. If you have a large amount of rubbish you need to get rid of but the idea of separating it out properly is stopping you from doing so, then just don't worry about it. I know it's not ideal, but if you have garbage in your room/house and you need to get rid of it, please just get rid of it. Don't let the problem get bigger and harder to deal with. Don't let "doing something properly" get in the way of keeping your living spaces clean. Please. Give yourself understanding.
If you can't wash your dishes, get paper plates. Obviously, it's not ideal, but it is better that you eat food than skipping meals. It is better that you have a clean kitchen, rather than having dishes piling up and making it harder to look after yourself.
If you can't prepare meals for yourself keep making the tasks easier and easier. If you can't do recipes, then simplify. Use pasta sauce from the jar instead of making it. Eat canned soup. Buy food you can just stick in the oven. If you eat fish fingers and microwave veggies every night, it's better than not eating anything at all. It's better than having to fork out money on take-out. If you need ready-made meals, then get them. If you're literally just eating a raw cauliflower for dinner; 1) I see you, 2) me too, sis, 3) something is better than nothing.
These are the basic things you need to do every day to function as a person. They are your activities of daily living. Brushing your teeth. Bathing or showering. Using the bathroom. Getting dressed. Eating. Drinking. Sleeping. Keeping your environment clean. You don't need to do these things perfectly, but they need to happen in order for you to have a decent quality of life.
And it breaks my heart, because I know that so many disabled people can't do these things every day. I'm not saying this to guilt or judge, I'm saying that these are basic needs; you deserve these things. These things bring dignity. If a disabled person is unable to do these things, it diminishes their quality of life. It robs them of dignity.
If you need help to do these things, Its okay to ask for help. It's okay to need help. But if you can't get that help and you have to do these things by yourself -- or you just plain want to be independent and do it without help-- then don't hold yourself to standards you can't meet.
Don't let perfect be the enemy of the good. Doing something is always better than doing nothing. Even if it's not perfect. Even if it's not done well. Do what you can.
#lord knows that im still trying to pull myself out of the muck and into independence and dignity#i had to set a rule for myself that i need to wear clean clothes every day. and that i need to wear pyjamas to bed#that one's been hard. sometimes I dont have the energy to do it and i just stay in the same clothes for two days at a time#or i go to sleep in what i was wearing. but when i do follow that rule my quality of life is drastically better#not feeling dirty or gross goes a long way to making you feel more like a person#i also made a rule that im not allowing myself to look frumpy outside anymore. that means clothes that look nice#no more trackies and pj pants and all that stuff. i basically lived in perpetual pyjamas for four years and im over it#i still dress comfortably but the important thing is that i dress. i look put together. i wear things that make me happy#(and i didnt need to buy anything to do so. i just needed to start taking better care of myself)#and i stopped letting perfect be the enemy of the good. i started doing things shitty rather than not doing it at all#and the more i keep pushing with my ADLs the better i feel#what helps is now i dont have to contend with stairs and that has made a dramatic change to what im able to accomplish#ive also finally built up enough strength in my body that im able to go to the shops by myself. so i can buy things to make easy meals#and mum doesnt mind if i just put some things in the oven or air fryer for us for dinner.#i still cant really cook. i felt bad about that for the longest time. i didnt even try bc i knew what id make would be disappointing#or it wouldnt be up to the standards of what everyone else was making. i was so sick of feeling like a let down all the time.#now i just make what i can and my mum doesnt complain bc shes in the same boat.#and yeah. having help would be nice. it would mean id be able to do more than what i can do by myself.#and its great to see how far ive come. but im not a burden. and when i have the accommodations i need i can do a lot more#i do something rather than nothing and my life has dramatically changed since then. ive just gotten better and better.#chronic illness#disability#chronic pain#spoonie#one things for certain and thats that im never going to let myself rely on anyone else ever again.#i never want to be on the other side of that ever again. I don't want to be anyone's burden. i dont want that hanging over me#i do things by myself or i dont do them at all. and god fucking willing i'll never go back to needing as much help as i used to#i really didnt realise just how much of an obstacle living with stairs was in my life. it was the biggest barrier against everything#stairs stopped me from being independent. if i couldnt traverse them i just didnt go anywhere. my world shrank so much#and not having the proper wheelchair shrinks my world even more. im stronger than i used to be but im still severely limited in where i go
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a while back, i did the oc duo ask game in my friend discord server, so i thought i’d post them here since the answers are interesting and gives a better look into the moratorium crews dynamics and characterization . enjoy
CERNUNNOS ABOUT FENRIS
What's their best trait?
"HIS ABILITY TO DIE."
What's their worst trait?
“DO YOU WANT ME TO BE HERE FOR HOURS? BECAUSE I'D LOVE TO GO DOWN THE LIST, BUT I HAVE THINGS TO DO. SO LETS JUST KEEP IT AT THIS; HIS INABILITY TO DIE."
Are they a good person?
"HA. HAHA. ARE YOU KIDDING ME? YOU'RE ASKING ME THAT? LOOK IN THE MIRROR ONCE AND A WHILE, IF THE PERSON LOOKING BACK AT YOU IS ME, THEN CHANCES ARE YOU'RE THE REAL MONSTER."
Do you really know them?
"BETTER THAN HE KNOWS HIMSELF, I'LL TELL YOU THAT."
What are they to you?
"A REMINDER OF MY PERSISTENT TORMENT." (translation: “Possibly the only person who could ever understand me, but he created me out of loathing of the idea of me, wanting me dead but forcing me to live anyway. That first part is therefore muddled by bitterness and I refuse to ever admit it.”
What are you to them?
"BY DEFINITION? A SHADOW. IN REALITY? HIS WORST NIGHTMARE."
What animal do they most remind you of?
"A SHITTY LITTLE COCKROACH WHO GOT RUN OVER AND IS DRAGGING ITS GUTS ALONG THE ROAD TOO STUBBORN TO LAY DOWN AND ROT."
Are they your type?
"OH, YOU THINK YOU’RE FUNNY, DON’T YOU."
What's their greatest fear?
"ISN'T IT OBVIOUS? LOOK AROUND; LOOK AT ME! THE FEAR IS THE LIE. THE FEAR IS THE TRUTH OF EXISTING IN A WORLD SURROUNDED BY SHIT HE NEEDS TO DO. HIS LAZY ASS WOULD RATHER RUIN LIVES THAN FACE THE FACT HIS LIFE IS SAD AND PATHETIC AND THAT HE MADE IT THAT WAY."
What's your best memory with them? Worst?
"MY BEST MEMORY WAS GUTTING HIM FOR THE FIRST TIME. MY WORST IS EVERYTHING ELSE."
How long have you known each other?
"A LONG, LONG TIME. LONGER THAN I'VE EVEN BEEN A PERSON. I'VE EXISTED IN THAT MORONS BRAIN SINCE THE FIRST MOMENT HE EVER HATED HIMSELF, SINCE HIS FIRST BAD MEMORY. I WAS JUST THE FIRST TO REALIZE IT."
How has your relationship changed recently?
"CHANGED? NOTHING'S CHANGED. I'M SURE ANY MINUTE NOW HE'LL FIRE THAT LAST SHOT INTO HIS THICK SKULL, AND IF NOT I'LL DO IT MYSELF. AFTER I'VE HAD SOME FUN."
Are they a good leader?
"OH SURE. IF YOU NEED A GUIDE ON HOW TO LIVE YOUR LIFE AS A SAD AND PATHETIC LITTLE EXISTENCE, OR NOT LIVE A LIFE AT ALL. HE WOULD BE A GREAT TEACHER IF YOU WANT AN EXAMPLE OF HOW TO BE A TERRIBLE PERSON."
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FENRIS ABOUT CERNUNNOS
What's their best trait?
"Do I have to answer that?"
What's their worst trait?
"I don't like anything of what I see in them." (translation: "I don't like that they remind me of myself.")
Are they a good person?
"No—I mean, I don't know? No. No they aren't." (translation: “I cannot answer this question truthfully because I doubt if I’m a good person, and if they are me and are bad, then I don’t know what that says about me. Maybe they are better than I am, because they chose a way to live. I didn’t.”)
Do you really know them?
"...No, but they get very predictable at some point."
What are they to you?
"An accident." (translation: “An ugly reminder of parts of myself I hate, that I try to pretend doesn’t exist, but Cernunnos’ existence is a rather direct reminder of it. To cope with that I assign cernunnos the role of the monster, despite what that says about me in return, one who’s existence is a mistake, because if they are a mistake and accident then they could not possibly reflect on me, and I have to kill them.” …which is exactly why he can’t.)
What are you to them?
"An easy scapegoat for all of their problems, I guess."
What animal do they most remind you of?
"To me, they are an animal."
Are they your type?
"I... what?”
What's their greatest fear?
"I guess... living? But they're based on me, so... we'd probably fear the same things."
What's your best memory with them? Worst?
"...I don't think I have any good memories with them. When we met was probably the worst. When they killed me is the second option.”
How long have you known each other?
"I couldn't tell you." (translation: “Cernunnos told me they existed long before they had a body, and they were only made real because of my self hatred that has existed my whole life. I don’t know if we have known each other forever, or from the moment they first showed up in my dreams.”)
How has your relationship changed recently?
"I'm not as scared of them as I used to be. The tricks got old the second I stopped caring."
Are they a good leader?
"...No. I think they’d try, to prove a point, but fail.”
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MOR ABOUT FENRIS
What's their best trait?
"Oh, what isn’t? He’s wonderful, really. I’m so proud that he exists at all.”
What's their worst trait?
"Hmm. I do wish he wouldn’t push me away. He needs me, after all, he just doesn’t like to admit it sometimes.”
Are they a good person?
“Hmph. The need to push moral definitions onto people is such a tediously useless endeavor. He’s doing his best, he just doesn’t know what that really means, and so he makes countless mistakes that really, get him nowhere. Thankfully, I know whats best. For him and us.”
Do you really know them?
"Very much so! I’m his mother, I made and raised him, nobody knows him better than me, which is why I know what is best for him, because he doesn’t."
What are they to you?
"Fenris is my son, my greatest joy and achievement. I love him very, very much.”
What are you to them?
"I’m his mother, can’t you tell? I’m someone he can always rely on for love and support. I wasn’t then, but I certainly am now. I’ve worked hard to be that, and I need to keep things that way.”
What animal do they most remind you of?
"Whatever animal he would want to be compared to!"
Are they your type?
"That is my child."
What's their greatest fear?
"Being alone, being the monster Cernunnos claims he is, being abandoned. He fears many things, the poor boy. He fears the way reality is constantly all around him, and how at any moment, he might change something and do something bad. He doesn’t want to be hurt, and he doesn’t want to be responsible for hurting someone again. But most of all, he’s afraid that it’ll be confirmed that he doesn’t deserve to exist, that the world would be better off without him, and that he’s been wasting his time trying to live in it. Sad, but sometimes, our greatest fears are of the truth.”
What's your best memory with them? Worst?
"Oh, all of them are dear to me. But the moment he was born is especially close to me. It was the first moment I loved him, and the moment I was so happy to be his mother. But… I do regret the night I died. Very much so. I said so many awful things to him, and they were the last things he ever heard from me. I hurt him so deeply that night, and it was the culmination of all of the terrible things I’d done to him over the years. Sometimes, that guilt overwhelms me. But I’ll be better this time.”
How long have you known each other?
"His whole life, of course! I’m his mother after all. I wish I didn’t have to be separated from him for five years, but we’re together again now. And I won’t let anything take him away from me.”
How has your relationship changed recently?
"It’s certainly more positive than my previous incarnation. He’s more willing to open up to me, and comes to me more often for safety. I’m relieved my efforts have paid off.”
Are they a good leader?
"I would say yes, but I don’t think he’d be comfortable, and he shouldn’t have to do things he wouldn’t be comfortable doing. Besides, I don’t trust anyone not to just be using him."
#had to add fucking Translations for fenris and cernunnos’ answers because neither of these fuckers can answer a question truthfully#ESPECIALLY fenris . brother can only speak in half truths#cernunnos is much more blunt and to the point#they wear their feelings on their sleeve. but even they avoid the truth sometimes#a reminder fenris and cernunnos are direct parallels of each other#they are both avoiding confronting their feelings#they blame each other for their problems to avoid taking responsibility for the way they are#cernunnos looovvvess to rip into fenris for avoiding his problems and always taking the easy way out#but their whole murder suicide plan is literally doing the exact same thing#choosing to just kill him and kill themselves instead of working to be better#anyway. they make me crazy#mor does too. i hope all her answers read as condescending as theyre meant to#mor loves her kid but she doesn’t . see him as a Person really. she sees him as an object she owns#and she still sees him as a child. she cannot see him as a grown ass man capable of his own decisions#not even because he was a child the last she saw him shes just like that#ill answer how mor feels about cernunnos and how they feel about her soon . ill just reblog with them#oc: cernunnos#oc: fenris sørvik#oc: mor#story: MORATORIUM#not art
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