#sh urge

[the-blackbird-murmuration]

Tw: sh, implied suicidality

Kinda just stopped sh'ing bc I lost sight of why I was doing it.

In the last two days I realised that I truly have no one but myself and that I will probably never find anyone and will just end my life as soon as I can. Think I'll probably relapse today

[hamoodmood]

Just relapsed after 6 months

[dyingdogbones]

!! Warning sfx makeup !!

Session from a couple weeks ago practicing 4 Halloween :3

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Block don’t report ੭﹕ ̊ ̟ ꒷꒦

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Nothing crazy, deepest was styro

Bl@de was kinda dull and hard to use bc I couldn’t use a screwdriver to get it out and had to smash it with my shoe / chew the plastic that was in the way

There was a piece of plastic sticking out that prevented me using the bl@de properly :(

[angxlicbliss]

there’s no point in healing bc if I get hurt again ima have to do ts all over again

[citruzombi]

the overwhelming urge to go deep but youre also too afraid to do more than one swipe in one spot

[weirdly-specific-but-ok]

oh, today was one of the worst ones. physically and mentally, awake and asleep. the dreams don't get any nicer. real life doesn't mind following their example.

but back when i used to, um, want to hit my arm, instead i'd make art all over my left forearm. write. trace over my veins.

today i think i'll write your names. every one of them that i can think of. prettier than any art. god, i love you all. i'm so tired and still scared. but the thought of you all makes me smile.

[thescenarios]

Istg I wanna sh so bad rn but I'm trying to be clean for at least a week AAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAA

[skelespidey]

i will b purging and slitting over the presidential elections fank yew very muach

[the-blackbird-murmuration]

Ib student of 2023 - HATE THIS I HATE MYSELF - THIS IS HORRIFIC. I DROPPED SO MANY MARKS FOR THE EE AND TOK AND FOR WHAT????? I'm a NOBODY with these grades. Everyone had such high hopes and THIS???? WHAT ABOUT MY PGs???? Istg the ib is on something this year seriously is this what my 13 years of education have come to????????

I'm cutting tonight, I hate everything

[gorelesbian]

one time i came home from seeing my mom and the mommy issues were making me insane but i didn't wanna relapse so instead i took a bite of my konjac face sponge. it did help yes

[dyingdogbones]

I only feel good about it if I hit deep styro, otherwise it doesn’t count

[angxlicbliss]

I would be sm happier if I was skinny

[eclaire-went-bam]

tips on how to deal with cluster b rage is useful and all what like what do i do when i'm bored

like

genuine question

i'm not aspd (i say that cus i know chronic boredom's usually big for that one) but i do get painfully bored extremely often. i'll be under no emotional distress and then i'll decide to self-mutilate simply because i'm bored and it's funny & i don't think that's a good thing

[dieatthealtar]

@bartylusmicrofic Day 24 - Buzz. Rating - T. Word count - 104.

There was a faint buzz in the back of Regulus’ mind. It slowly got louder and louder the longer Barty was gone. Eventually he picked up the phone.

‘When will you be back?’ He texted Barty.

Ellipses appeared after a few moments.

‘My shift ends in about a half hour, but I can come back earlier if you need me?’ Barty responded.

Regulus sighed internally. Damn this man for caring about him.

‘Please.’ He requested.

‘I’ll be right there <3’ Barty replied, then his icon switched to offline.

Yes. Damn him. But also… Thank God Barty was always willing to come back for him.

[citruzombi]

:P def gonna do more of these

[jack-the-killler]