#sendmeasign

[eric-sadahire]

Every time the universe sends me a sign...

I'm like ok but I'll wait for a signier sign.

[faithandsobriety]

Confusion Hurts

I’m obviously confused. As you can see from the title of this little...rant, entry, or whatever it is you want to call it. My recovery is going quite well. Just over 11 months clean. The longer I stay sober though, the more my mind begins to wander. My brain is healing, and I can remember things I thought were long forgotten. Memories have been popping up several times every single day of my love before addiction. Most times these memories containing my soulmate and our past before drug addiction are good, happy, genuine memories... and then you have the memories that aren’t so great. I cannot decide what the right thing is anymore. I’m doing the “right thing” as far as other people are concerned, and I’m doing what “is best” from an outsiders perspective... but, my soul is telling me this is wrong. My break away from the chains of addiction was something l will forever be grateful for. Is it true that people can’t go back to the way they were? Can something like drug addiction really separate 2 soulmates forever? The happy memories make me sad, anxious, and depressed. Wondering if leaving him “for good” was the only possible way that things can work out for me. I miss him. From the very depths of my soul and with every fucking fiber of my being, I miss him. I pretend that it doesn’t eat me alive all day. I pretend that my dreams aren’t filled nightly with his presence. I put on a strong front and smile like it’s all okay. It should all be okay. I should be more grateful. I have been clean from drugs and alcohol for almost a year, I have my mom and my children back in my life and I live with them in a stable environment, the toxic person in my life was removed for my own safety, and an amazing, loving, considerate, caring, kind guy stepped into my life and has shown me so many things I thought didn’t exist in men anymore. I have support: family, friends, church family. Inside I am trying to tell myself this is all enough. I know I shouldn’t even be thinking these thoughts, and that bothers me, but I can’t make them stop no matter how hard I try, and then the anxiety and depression start to close in on me and I can’t breathe. 13 years. That’s how long we were together. We have our 2 children together. No kids with anyone else from either of us. We’ve been through EVERYTHING together. From the highest highs I could experience to the lowest of all time lows, and the love never stopped. Drug addiction demolished our minds and turned us into monsters we couldn’t even recognize - but the love never died. No matter how far apart we ended up, love always brought us back. Can’t love do that for me this time?? I pray to God and I ask him to help me make the right decisions, but I’m so conflicted inside. I am happy with my journey through recovery. I am grateful to be alive and healthy. But, I’m still in love with him. And I just really fucking miss him.

[taylorthe-latteboy]

[charlottemiddle11]

Can’t get this song out my head; maybe it a sign. Too many emotions and racing thoughts, why can’t I make some sort of decision. Why do I feel like two separate people yet the same person all at once. Angels if you can hear me; send help please

[syracyanide]

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Do you ever feel like something's tryina tell you somethin? #hearses #hearse #spookshow6 #justkidding #stopfollowingme #sendmeasign #finaldestination #thinkaboutit #notyet #zombiegirl #silly

[310kenyangirl]

I was genuinely happy when I took this pic. I want to feel (and be this) happy again. I am still in denial and sometimes mad that you are gone forever. The finality of it all is oh so overwhelming. I can't be mad at life forever because I can't control some things. #love #me #rip #riptata #sendmeasign #show #me #signs #fit #fitnessmotivation #fitness #healthy #thankful #followme #iwillfollowback #lululemon #lululemonpants #leggings #ambassador #latergram #tbs #fbs #follow4follow #followforfollow #losangeles #santamonica #hollywood #dreamchasing #kenya #kenyangirl #african #americangirl #iwillforevermissyou #RIP #restwiththeangels #fitfood #fitnessjourney (at Santa Monica, California)

[thedoylestownbookshop]

As a bookseller, you connect with so many authors while hosting book events, at industry conferences, and at many other fantastic book events. We met @tiffanyschmidt right after Glenda bought the @doylestownbookshop where we held her first book launch for #sendmeasign. Six book launches later we count Tiffany as one of our friends. We were honored to host her book launch event this evening. There's a certain magic in watching an author live out their dreams, we are the lucky ones who get to see this on a regular basis. It's all the more special when you're watching a friend weaving through a crowd of adoring readers during the first event for their new book. Congratulations Tiffany! Here's to the next two books!! (at The Doylestown Bookshop) https://www.instagram.com/p/BxoK3aXju93/?igshid=pe1p59wordib

[mikeyslifeondisplay]

#sendmeasign #godspeak

[matteohudson]

Now Listening: Hammerfall - Infected. #hammerfall #hammerfallinfected #infected #patientzero #byh #onemoretime #theoutlaw #sendmeasign #diadelosmuertos #irefuse #666theenemywithin #immortalized #letsgetiton #redemption #2011 #2011album #heavymetal #powermetal #nowlistening #nowplaying https://www.instagram.com/p/Bqo9M7QlQrr/?utm_source=ig_tumblr_share&igshid=30f6vl7gwqt7

[runchelle]

God #SendMeASign #Getyolife #HereUGo #lmao

[marykicksass]

Over-thinker, Compulsive list-maker with a slight office-supply-addiction. My mind is just a mess today. #decisionsdecisions #sendmeasign

[somanyfandomssss]

Way..Way...Wayment, Fatha 😭 Just ONE more...☝🏾👀😂 ------------IN OTHER NEWS------------- •Sept. 8th| @the_creyaetiv_1 's #ExpressionsShowcase | HMU for $10 today b4 Friday| $15 at the door| 7-11 | LOCATION CHANGE: 17 E. Price St------ •Sept. 16th| #BEGOLD : WRITING, ART, THEATER Workshop | $2 & a smile| 1200 Carpenter St.| 2pm-4pm| Art Teacher: @yung.weeknd ------ •Sept. 30th| #SEPTEMBERSSELECTION Art Exhibit & Showcase/Open Mic | $10| 6:30pm-9:30pm| 530 S. 4th St @inksterprints ✨--------- •My FIRST Single #SWIMMING 🏊🏾‍♀️.....LINK IN BIO.....🏊🏾// #Godisgood #sendmeasign #sign #Adonai #Holdup #Wayment #Expressions #Showcase #OpenMic #ArtExhibit #NewSingle #Music #Fun #Workshop #Art #Theater #Writing #Philly #Phillyartist #Artist #NewMusic #poetry #poem #spokenword

[tigerrrstripess]

[mikorei]

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Sorry guys I'm addicted now 😂👌🏻💋🤷‍♀️👋🏻#sendmeasign #comedy #thatonefriend #musical (made by @ mikoreichan with @musical.ly) ♬ original sound - mikoreichan. #musicallyapp #mikoreichan #originalsound #music #musicvideo #musical #musica #followme #bestoftheday #instadaily😉 #shrek (at Boise Towne Square)

[inspireif]

May the Loud be with you. #WhatWouldJesusBump #sendmeasign

[310kenyangirl]

I was genuinely happy when I took this pic. I want to feel (and be this) happy again. I am still in denial and sometimes mad that you are gone forever. The finality of it all is oh so overwhelming. I can't be mad at life forever because I can't control some things. #love #me #rip #riptata #sendmeasign #show #me #signs #fit #fitnessmotivation #fitness #healthy #thankful #followme #iwillfollowback #lululemon #lululemonpants #leggings #ambassador #latergram #tbs #fbs #follow4follow #followforfollow #losangeles #santamonica #hollywood #dreamchasing #kenya #kenyangirl #african #americangirl #iwillforevermissyou #RIP #restwiththeangels #fitfood #fitnessjourney (at Santa Monica, California)