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[alpydk]

Get chaos send back from the demon 😉

Questions for the asking game:

1 , 2, 4, 5, 16, 19, 22, 25, 35

*flexes hands* - You know I love doing this.

at least two things about you, that may surprise your followers

I'm pretty fucking open about everything. Is there anything people don't know about me? Like you all know about my life and mental health and gaming etc...

I don't like coffee. Gives me back ache. Will have a nice cuppa tea instead. ummm.... I hate swimming, water, sailing etc. I almost drowned when I was 6 years old on a school trip and it's put me off since. Ironic that I married a sailor, love Gale/Chase, and include a lot of water references into my writing (subconscious stuff???)

2. Something you recently discovered for yourself and really enjoying it since than

Scrapbooking my comments and such. Like cutting them all out and sticking and doodling around them is just so nice and relaxing to do. I used to journal a lot but then just funnelled it all into fanfic instead so I guess it's kind of linked. My partner said I should write spanking. We will ignore him.

4. Something/fandom you were hyperfixed as teenager and now hyperfixing again

House. HOUUUUUSSSEEEEEE. Specifically Chase but you all know this by now and why. Honestly, was thinking about this on a walk earlier today and realised my first crush looked like a young version of him. Odd, isn't it?

I mean, just look at him. Could drown in those eyes. Also new show with him and he is bearded and I'm just fucking swooning.

5. Something you like/you have since your childhood/teenager days til now, which resembles a kind of constant in your world

My bear, Nelson. He is 31 years old? Possibly older, I bought him second hand and he's been with me ever since. Only had 12 weeks away during all that time when I was out of the country.

16. Something you like now and hated/never thought you could like when you were younger

Fanfiction surprisingly enough. After the trauma of the hobbit fic (untagged mpreg between Thorin and Bilbo) I believed that's how all fanfictions were. Just unhinged smut fests with everyone fucking and weird fucking plot twists explained through magic and shit. Didn't even cross my mind until Gale that it could be any different. Now, I will say a lot of that stuff still exists, I even read more of it, but I still don't get the appeal. Different strokes for different folks.

19. Something that was taken for granted as teenager, that you really appreciate more now because it got rare

My dad.

How much free time I just had to be me. Like studying is so easy and I excel in that environment but as a teenager I pissed it all away with drinking and skiving in the local park. No qualifications, no friends at the end of it. I wish I had more of that because those days are just gone.

Sorry, that was a horrible question.

22. Something that was easier for your younger self and seems kinda hard now

Travelling, not being anxious. I spoke about this recently on here but my anxiety has gone to shit in the last 10 years. Going from gradually being unable to do long journeys to barely leaving the house and IT SUCKS. I would honestly book a flight at random and go. I went to Berlin on a whim years ago, now I barely travel locally. Younger me was so fucking lucky in that regard and I don't even know what's changed.

Here, have this to break up the angst I'm bringing into these whimsical questions.

25. A weird fact about you that comes in your mind

Resident Evil 5 was tested on the 3ds and because it ran, they made RE: Revelations.

Short and sweet.

35. If you had three wishes, what would you wish for?

Gale to be real and to have a happy life. Even if that's not with me, he just deserves it. (Is that one or two?)

I'd like my mental health fixed instantly! (without death! Got to be clear on these wishes!)

I'd like, just, healing to be easier for people. Too many people carry around trauma and I want to fix it, and make it better and see them smile. It's not fair. Let me fix stuff with hugs!

^actual gif of me hugging someone.

[batcavescolony]

Katniss is such an unreliable narrator. She says "Then something unexpected happens. At least, I don't expect it because I don't think of District 12 as a place that cares about me" girl you deliver strawberries to the Mayor, you hunt and trade for the district, when you fell at Prim being chosen someone caught you, when you went to Prim people parted for you, when you volunteered EVERYONE stopped. Idk how to tell you but I think you're a pillar of the community.

[biggest-gaudiest-patronuses]

Of the 19 hijackers who carried out the Sept 11 attacks:

15 were from Saudi Arabia (a powerful/oil-rich country the U.S. works hard to maintain diplomatic relations with)

2 were from the United Arab Emirates (also a powerful/oil-rich country the U.S. works hard to maintain diplomatic relations with)

1 was from Egypt, 1 from Lebanon.

None of the hijackers were from Iraq.

None of the Sept 11 hijackers were Iraqi.

None of the 9/11 hijackers were from Iraq.

[eydilily]

would you bite the hand that feeds you?

[secondbeatsongs]

for anyone too young to know this: watching The Truman Show is a vastly different experience now, compared to how it was before youtube and social media influencers became normal

before it was like, "what a horrifying thing to do to a human being! to take away their autonomy and privacy, all for the sake of profits! to create fake scenarios for them to react to, just to retain viewership! to ruin their happiness just so some corporate entity could harvest money from their very humanity! how could anyone do something so evil?"

and now it's like, "ah, yeah. this is still deeply fucked up, but it's pretty much what every influencer has been doing to their kids for a decade now. probably bad that we've normalized this experience"

[akanemnon]

I don't like this place. It's turning everyone edgy and sad.

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[pokimoko]

Asexual bird? Please

How about two asexual birds?

[chloesimaginationthings]

Abby could befriend any animatronic from FNAF..

[watchingwisteria]

listen there really was just something about how in the book, snow’s 3-page descent from hesitant lover boy to deluded mfer happens entirely in his mind. lucy gray gives him no indication whatsoever that she suspects him, that she’s going to leave or betray him. he’s just sitting quietly in the cabin waiting for her to return when that seed of calculated suspicion, which he has needed to survive the capitol, takes a hold of him and chokes the life out of any goodness left inside him. it really drives home your terror as a reader that “oh my god did he kill her? did she escape? what happened to her? why would he even think that?” in a way that when the movie had to adjust for visualization it lost some of that holy shit this guy has lost it emphasis.

[hinamie]

*catboys ur shounen protag*

[cacaocheri]

they do sappy shit like this all the time

[soranker]

my girlfriend

[giantkillerjack]

Today my therapist introduced me to a concept surrounding disability that she called "hLep".

[plain-text version of this post can be found under the cut]

Which is when you - in this case, you are a disabled person - ask someone for help ("I can't drink almond milk so can you get me some whole milk?", or "Please call Donna and ask her to pick up the car for me."), and they say yes, and then they do something that is not what you asked for but is what they think you should have asked for ("I know you said you wanted whole, but I got you skim milk because it's better for you!", "I didn't want to ruin Donna's day by asking her that, so I spent your money on an expensive towing service!") And then if you get annoyed at them for ignoring what you actually asked for - and often it has already happened repeatedly - they get angry because they "were just helping you! You should be grateful!!"

And my therapist pointed out that this is not "help", it's "hLep".

Sure, it looks like help; it kind of sounds like help too; and if it was adjusted just a little bit, it could be help. But it's not help. It's hLep.

At its best, it is patronizing and makes a person feel unvalued and un-listened-to. Always, it reinforces the false idea that disabled people can't be trusted with our own care. And at its worst, it results in disabled people losing our freedom and control over our lives, and also being unable to actually access what we need to survive.

So please, when a disabled person asks you for help on something, don't be a hLeper, be a helper! In other words: they know better than you what they need, and the best way you can honor the trust they've put in you is to believe that!

Also, I want to be very clear that the "getting angry at a disabled person's attempts to point out harmful behavior" part of this makes the whole thing WAY worse. Like it'd be one thing if my roommate bought me some passive-aggressive skim milk, but then they heard what I had to say, and they apologized and did better in the future - our relationship could bounce back from that. But it is very much another thing to have a crying shouting match with someone who is furious at you for saying something they did was ableist. Like, Christ, Jessica, remind me to never ask for your support ever again! You make me feel like if I asked you to call 911, you'd order a pizza because you know I'll feel better once I eat something!!

Edit: crediting my therapist by name with her permission - this term was coined by Nahime Aguirre Mtanous!

Edit again: I made an optional follow-up to this post after seeing the responses. Might help somebody. CW for me frankly talking about how dangerous hLep really is.

Plain-text version:

Today my therapist introduced me to a concept surrounding disability that she called "hLep".

Which is when you - in this case, you are a disabled person - ask someone for help ("I can't drink almond milk so can you get me some whole milk?", or "Please call Donna and ask her to pick up the car for me."), and they say yes, and then they do something that is not what you asked for but is what they think you should have asked for ("I know you said you wanted whole, but I got you skim milk because it's better for you!", "I didn't want to ruin Donna's day by asking her that, so I spent your money on an expensive towing service!") And then if you get annoyed at them for ignoring what you actually asked for - and often it has already happened repeatedly - they get angry because they "were just helping you! You should be grateful!!"

And my therapist pointed out that this is not "help", it's "hLep".

Sure, it looks like help; it kind of sounds like help too; and if it was adjusted just a little bit, it could be help. But it's not help. It's hLep.

At its best, it is patronizing and makes a person feel unvalued and un-listened-to. Always, it reinforces the false idea that disabled people can't be trusted with our own care. And at its worst, it results in disabled people losing our freedom and control over our lives, and also being unable to actually access what we need to survive.

So please, when a disabled person asks you for help on something, don't be a hLeper, be a helper! In other words: they know better than you what they need, and the best way you can honor the trust they've put in you is to believe that!

P.S. Also, I want to be very clear that the "getting angry at a disabled person's attempts to point out harmful behavior" part of this makes the whole thing WAY worse. Like it'd be one thing if my roommate bought me some passive-aggressive skim milk, but then they heard what I had to say, and they apologized and did better in the future - our relationship could bounce back from that. But it is very much another thing to have a crying shouting match with someone who is furious at you for saying something they did was ableist. Like, Christ, Jessica, remind me to never ask for your support ever again! You make me feel like if I asked you to call 911, you'd order a pizza because you know I'll feel better once I eat something!!

Edit: crediting my therapist by name with her permission - this term was coined by Nahime Aguirre Mtanous!

Edit again: I made an optional follow-up to this post after seeing the responses. Might help somebody. CW for me frankly talking about how dangerous hLep really is.

[stil-lindigo]

the fox god.

a comic about a trickster.

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[poorly-drawn-mdzs]

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[astearisms]

fionna and cake drawings before and after watching the episodes so far. it’s nostalgic and somehow cathartic and poignant and relatable and—it just started