#scream crying im sorry

[deadhands69]

In Your Cold Apartment

Tomura Shigaraki x reader

I said I'd write more fluff this week but how about angst instead? (sorry!!)

Warnings/Content: SPOILERS if you haven't finished the manga, angst/no comfort

Trudging up the stairs to your apartment, every step feels ten times harder than it should. The air is crisp, cold. Much colder than usual and it's fucking May.

It shouldn't be like this.

You melt into the cushion of your couch, the weight in your chest begging for anything to fix it but you know there's nothing.

Nothing you can do to fix it.

Nothing can bring him back.

An air of silence hangs on everything in your apartment. It's suffocating.

You flip on the TV, immediately clicking into a streaming app. Cautious to avoid any news, anything real. You've had enough reality for a lifetime.

On auto-pilot, you select the last light hearted thing from your recently watched list. The last time you saw it was with him and it just doesn't hit the same now.

It'll never be the same.

The way he'd rest his head on your shoulder. His hand lightly brushing over yours. How he’d come over after missions smelling like rubble and dried blood. And how you went out of your way to create a mental list of every injury so you knew where it was okay touch him. The list was always growing.

He was chaos and destruction, you should have known he could never last in this world.

The sound of fake happiness spilling from your speakers grates on your nerves. Their trivial problems. The plot resetting at the end of the episode. It's all so fucking blasé.

On top of this, your neighbors laughing echoes lightly down the hallway, muffled through your walls. You want to scream, but you don't have the energy. How could they possibly be having fun when your whole world just ended?

You want to hate them for it.

And that's fair.

You’ll let yourself feel that way tonight, after all you've earned it. No one should have to see what you've witnessed today.

There's no playbook for what to do when you watched the love of your life crumble to dust through your phone screen.

The hands you held. The lips you kissed. Every part of him, gone.

And there's no one to call.

You want to call him. Every few minutes, you find yourself instinctively reaching for your phone to see if he's texted you. But he hasn't.

And he never will.

No more cute hearts and good morning texts.

That's it.

It's final.

But the dryness of your eyes tells you none of it has fully set in yet.

You should be grateful, in a way, to feel so numb. But it's another layer keeping you from any feelings that connect you back to him. You want the earth shattering devastation to absolutely break you.

You need it to. Because you need to truly accept that he's not coming back.

You'll never run your hands through his hair again.

Or whisper in his ear.

Every little list you made in your head of his ongoing injuries, favorite foods, and songs that made him feel alive are now useless.

And after everything he went through, you'll never see what his perfect world looks like. Instead, you're here. Alone. In the cold apartment you've made your own personal prison cell. Spending your days trying to figure out how to pass the time of your life while every minute crawls by agonizingly slow and and meaningless without him.

Absently, you reach for your phone again - this time pulling up his messages before you even realize what you've done.

The last message he ever sent you reads “don't worry it'll all be over quickly, see you soon <3”

Suddenly, you feel everything.

I'll write a cute comforting ending if Horikoshi goes that direction even a little in the extra pages next week. if. 😐

Also, I'll make it prettier tomorrow night - don't have my laptop so this was all written on the mobile app

[blossoms-phan]

do u think they knew

it was gonna be forever

[lotus-pear]

SKK YURIFICATION WHO CHEERED!!!!!!!!!!!!

[becky5203]

The hottest thing Colin Bridgerton ever did was stand up to Penelope Featherington’s toxic, emotionally abusive mother in her toxic, emotionally abusive home the day after they got engaged after she had spent all season telling him that the reason she wanted to be married was because she wanted to feel comfortable in the world and then immediately take her to a house that belonged to the very family she spent half her life wanting to be a part of and tell her “This is to be our home.”

[blushingzephyr]

saw this

and you KNOW it had me mind body and soul

pov: they’re at your house

+bonus! kendall and kendall undercover

[4rachn1d]

Screaming crying and throwing up about the fact that Megatronus Prime's legacy of being the greatest prime ever will forever be smeared by the Actions of D-16, and how Megatronus would be deeply ashamed to be assimilated with an extremist group

[solplease]

clingy

[suntails]

do you deserve to be loved?

[slidingtroughf1]

I was watching some videos from the past year and found this once again, and I'm crying, screaming, throwing up.

[maesvtro]

wonwoo's maestro mv action practice sketch (aka how to fuel my actor wonwoo agenda)

[mimikyuno]

EVERYBODY STAY CALM!!! AUDHD CHARACTER CONFIRMED NON BINARY IN CANON!! HAPPY PRIDE MONTH TO KIUI WATASE !!!!!!! 💛🤍💜🖤🏳️‍⚧️

[joinmeinjoy]

knight hob knight hob knight hob

[indrid-draws-stuff]

[mirinstirfry]

how getting into debut or die has felt like as someone who's not into 3D idols or kpop

[carnivalcarriondiscarded]

people practice w Them <3

[mother-of-houseplants-2]

fiona gallagher // "i bet on losing dogs" by mistki