Pleasure and Pain (BSD Fanfic)
Crossposted from AO3 || NSFW
“You want me to… hurt you?” It sounds stupid to say it out loud because it’s obvious from the way that Ranpo looks seconds away from just giving up on the idea entirely, that he doesn’t actually want Bram to hurt him. He just wants him to… actually, Bram can’t say he understands what exactly it is that Ranpo’s asking of him. He’d only just woken up from his afternoon nap before being pounced on—quite literally—by his young lover.
The lover that is currently pouting at him from where he straddles Bram’s waist, already stripped of his clothes in lieu of asking for sex.
Which is usual because Edogawa Ranpo doesn’t ask, he demands.
“You aren’t listening!” Ranpo whines, shifting in a way that has Bram’s body reacting on its own. “I want you to fuck me, but I also want you treat me rough. Tie me up, bite me, and drain me dry, I know it’ll feel good.”
“Why?” Bram asks, more confused now.
“Why not?” Ranpo retorts. “It’s a bit of fun with someone I trust, and who knows; maybe you’ll discover something about yourself.”
Bram frowns. He knows himself plenty already.
“Not like that, idiot. I’m talking kinks and whatnot. You are the most vanilla man I have ever slept with, so give it a try and see if you like it. If you do, we can do it again.”
“And if I don’t…?”
Ranpo shrugs. “Then we try something else next time.”
Still, Bram is hesitant. He understands now what Ranpo is asking of him, but he’s not sure that he can follow through with it, nor is he sure he wants to. He knows, that the moment he says no, that Ranpo will stop and reevaluate the situation, which is the only reason why he hasn’t actually refused to indulge his younger lover.
“Alright.” Bram finally says. “Am I correct to assume you want to do this now?”
Ranpo’s answer is a kiss, lips pressing against his own as Ranpo grinds against him. Bram doesn’t hesitate to deepen the kiss, sitting up so he can tangle a hand into Ranpo’s hair to drag him closer. His other hand comes to rest on Ranpo’s hip, his nails dragging over the skin light enough to draw a shiver out of the younger.
“We need—” Ranpo presses a chaste kiss to Bram’s cheek before pulling back. “—a safe word.”
“What does that mean?” Bram asks as he tilts his head enough to let Ranpo lavish his neck in kisses and gentle touches.
“It means we decided on a word to use should either of us become uncomfortable. It essentially means to stop what we’re doing immediately and talk it over before continuing. Most people choose a word that they wouldn’t normally use during sex.”
Bram thinks for a moment. At first, he considers using the name of someone they both know, but then thinks that it might be kind of weird to do that. Then he tries to think of a word that he doesn’t use very often—of which there are a lot because as competent as he is in Japanese thanks to everyone at the Agency sitting down to teach him, he doesn’t know every word.
It clicks then.
“Cherry blossom.”
Ranpo nods approvingly. “Okay. Cherry blossoms it is.”
And so begins their usual dance in bed.
Bram is content to let Ranpo take the reins this time, relaxing underneath those beautifully smooth hands of his as they run up under his shirt and drag across his skin. He lets Ranpo pull his shirt off, pressing his lips to Ranpo’s own once the garment is discarded to the side to be dealt with later. He drags his nails down Ranpo’s own back, enjoying the shiver that follows, and he gently bites at the others lip; Ranpo parts his mouth a moment after.
This is the way their bouts of intimacy usually go; gentle touches and caresses as they worship each other’s bodies until it comes to the time for Bram to prep and slip inside of Ranpo. That’s when it becomes passion and pleasure, where they get lost in their desires as they climb higher and higher up the mountain in a desperate attempt to reach the climax that they both seek.
Only this time, the dynamic is changing.
Once they’ve danced around each other enough, Ranpo pulls away to grab the bag that he’d brought over with him, pulling out rope—that’s apparently specifically for sex which Bram didn’t know existed—before dumping the bag. It makes a sound as it hits the ground, which makes Bram believe there’s more in the bag, but he thinks the rope is plenty for now. He listens as Ranpo talks him through tying the knots, making sure that the rope is snug, but not too tight as to cut off circulation or too loose that Ranpo will just slip straight out of them. Bram ties Ranpo’s wrist to the bed, and then with some manoeuvring secures Ranpo’s ankles to the bed also.
Honestly it looks uncomfortable if you ask Bram.
But Ranpo looks content, staring at Bram with lustful eyes as his legs and arms rest beside his head, wiggling his hips as best he can to entice Bram into moving.
“Shouldn’t I prep you first?”
“The point is pain, Bram.” Ranpo whines, kicking his legs a little. “You can lube yourself up, but I want it rough.”
Bram frowns a little, but nods, brushing a stray strand of hair over his shoulder. “Okay…”
He’s slow as he slides in, and bites his lip as Ranpo tenses and clenches around him, pulling at his bindings as he instinctively tries to move away. There’s the slightest hint of pain on the younger’s face, one that makes Bram a bit uncomfortable, but as he bottoms out, it fades until Ranpo looks like he’s in bliss.
Ranpo once told him he was a masochist, but Bram hadn’t believed him.
Now he does.
“Hurry up and move!” Ranpo snaps, pushing his hips down even as his stomach is already visibly bulging—Bram didn’t think he could get deeper if he tried to, yet Ranpo seemed determined to swallow his entire body with his own.
The first thrust brings about a grunt, and Bram finds himself wincing a little—no wonder the previous times, Ranpo insisted on a copious amount of lube.
The second comes easier.
By the fifth thrust, Bram finds it easier to slide in and out, and starts to build up a rhythm. He starts off steady, but quickly begins to lose himself listening to Ranpo’s cries and moans. Along with the way that Ranpo keeps tensing around him, it doesn’t take long for that feeling of pleasure to pool in his stomach, and even less for him to spill inside of his lover.
Ranpo grimaces at the feeling. “Wow, okay, you didn’t last long there, did you?”
“Shut up.” Bram growls, feeling a little more confident as he slowly thrusts to regain his hardness. He leans over Ranpo and presses his fangs against his neck in that soft spot where neck and shoulder meet, threatening to bite but not yet doing it. “It felt good.”
“So it doesn’t have anything to do with the fact that I’m tied up for you to use as you please?” Ranpo grins, pulling at his restraints to prove his point.
Bram reaches a hand between him and grabs at Ranpo’s dick, stroking it slowly, thumbing over the head as it begins to leak over his hand. “You beg me to fill you up normally, this is no different.”
“Well then, stop treating me like your dainty prince and fuck me hard already.”
“As you wish.”
It’s easier to move inside, now that his cum is inside of Ranpo, and that allows Bram to build up a much more brutal pace than before. He snaps his hips forward, over and over, watching as Ranpo shifts up the bed with each thrust. Bram lets go of Ranpo’s dick at some point to rake his nails all over Ranpo’s back, leaving marks that will take days to fade. He listens as Ranpo pulls and shifts away, eyes squeezed shut, but unable to escape the pleasure that he’s being given.
He cums once, yet Bram doesn’t stop.
Instead, he bites down. Hard.
Blood fills his mouth as Ranpo cries out, and Bram drinks in time with every thrust, savouring the sweet taste of his lover’s blood as it flows over his tongue. He’s always held a fondness for Ranpo’s blood, ever since the first time he drank it. There’s a sweetness to it caused by the amount of sweets that the younger consumes, thick as it flows easily from the wounds he creates. Usually, whenever he drinks from Ranpo, Bram will find himself being pressed as close as possible, arms encircling his head, but now, since Ranpo is tied up, it’s up to him to pull Ranpo closer.
So he does.
His thrusts stutter as he digs his nails in harder, biting down harder, losing himself in the delicious meal he’s been offered.
It feels good, so so good, and Bram understands why Ranpo finds this pleasurable now.
He thrusts harder, more determined, and Ranpo cums again, spattering the both of them with his release, and Bram follows suit a few thrusts later.
But he doesn’t stop.
He can’t.
He stops when Ranpo lets out a cry and jerks violently beneath him.
Brams pulls away in an instant, ripping himself out of Ranpo, which drags another cry of what can only be pain, and scrambles to the edge of the bed. Adrenaline courses through him as Bram tries to figure out what caused Ranpo to cry out like that, and that’s when he sees the blood on his fingertips, a couple of droplets running down his fingers as he stares at them, shocked and terrified. Gone is the pleasure that he’d just been indulged in—he knew this was a terrible idea, he knew that it wasn’t worth the risk of hurting Ranpo. Yet here he was, a failure because he’d done just that; hurt the man he loved because he couldn’t control himself. There’s a ringing in his ears as he stares at the blood, and normally, normally, the sight of blood doesn���t unnerve him.
He’s a vampire after all, it’s something he deals with on a regular basis.
But there’s a difference between drinking blood to sustain himself, and drawing blood by hurting someone he cares for.
“—am!”
He’s a failure of a partner, a monster, only good for bringing pain and destruction like everyone in his life had told him time and time again. He hadn’t listened though, determined to prove them wrong.
“Bram!”
Bram lifts his head, looking into bright green eyes that are tinged with pain.
Guilt runs through him, replacing the adrenaline.
“Cherry blossom.”
Bram blinks, confused why Ranpo’s—oh right, the safe word. He’s still confused why Ranpo’s saying it now, when the damage is already done and he’s already been hurt.
But then he remembers, that it’s a sign that the play is supposed to end when the word is said, and that Ranpo is still tied to the bed, so with shaking hands, Bram shuffles forward to undo the knots that are keeping Ranpo folded in half, before retreating off the bed entirely. He slides down to the floor at the end of the bed, misery coursing through him, and he curls in on himself in an attempt to hide.
“Bram…” Ranpo’s voice breaks through his thoughts, and gentle hands touch his cheeks.
He raises his head, staring through blurry eyes as his lover kneels in front of him.
“There you are.” Ranpo smiles softly at him, and leans forward to press their heads together. “It’s okay—”
“I hurt you.” Bram blurts out, feeling even more guilty that he interrupted his lover. He doesn’t deserve the kindness that Ranpo’s giving him, the gentleness of the touches he’s offered.
“You didn’t.” Ranpo affirms.
Bram pushes Ranpo away slightly, just enough that he can raise his hands to show the blood. “I did.”
“Just a few scratches, nothing that won’t heal after a good clean.” Ranpo says, reaching out to take Bram’s hands into his own. He raises one and places a kiss against the back of it. “You didn’t hurt me, Bram.”
Bram shakes his head. He did, he did, and he needs Ranpo to understand that what he did isn’t okay, yet every time he tries to pull away, Ranpo holds firm, refusing to let him do so. He’s starting to feel stressed, can feel his emotions boiling away and threatening to spill over.
Another kiss is given to him, this time, against his forehead. “I’ll clean us up, okay?”
“No, I can—”
“Bram, it’s okay.” Ranpo interrupts, smoothing his cheek with a hand. “You are feeling a lot right now, so it’s okay if you sit there and take a moment. I’ll be right back.”
Bram nods, and watches as Ranpo stands and turns to head to the bathroom.
Then he freezes.
Because there are gouges in Ranpo’s back, blood trickling down the skin there. Gouges caused by him.
Tears well in his eyes, thoughts of how he’s a terrible person and a monster swirling through his mind as he stares at them. He did that, he created those wounds, wounds that look painful and that are bleeding freely. He’s a monster, he never should’ve believed that he would be capable of love and affection. Breathing is hard now; he feels like he’s being choked, like there is an invisible rope cutting off his air, and he doesn’t like it. He’s never felt this way before and he knows it’s because of what he did, what he should never have agreed to in the first place.
Arms wrap around his head, and he feels himself tugged against smooth skin, a heartbeat sounding steadily beneath his ear.
He breathes.
“It’s okay.” Ranpo soothes, running a hand through Bram’s hair. “What you feel is normal, and you’ll be okay.”
Bram feels a few tears run down his cheeks. “I do not like this.”
“I know. It’s okay, though.” Ranpo moves to sit beside him on the floor, opening his arms, and Bram doesn’t hesitate to throw himself into the embrace. Immediately, Ranpo pulls him close, holding him with one hand. The other tugs the blanket off of the bed and drapes it over him.
He should say something about the mess that not cleaning up will leave, but Bram can’t bring himself to do anything about it either. He just sits there, curling up against Ranpo’s chest.
“I’m sorry.” He says.
“It’s fine.” Ranpo rests his cheek against the top of Bram’s head. “I enjoyed it.”
At least one of them did. But he has to say it. “I did not. I’m sorry.”
“Don’t be. This is what experimenting means. But don’t stress yourself out about it, just take a moment to relax and breathe. Cry a little if it makes you feel better.”
Bram nods and just does that. It’s not often that he allows himself to lose control of his emotions, but he feels as if this is one time that he can without being judged for it. He turns to bury his face into Ranpo’s chest, winding his arms around the other to clutch at his shoulders, and he just cries.
Ranpo doesn’t say a word as he does, holding him in silence and running a hand up and down his back to soothe him.
He knows that afterwards, things will be fine, and that they’ll clean each other up and go to sleep in each other’s arms, but for now, things aren’t okay.
And that’s okay.
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