#retiring at 70 is BS

[blue-velvet-valentina]

I'm so mad that I'll probably have to work until 70 to get full social security benefits... they know most of us won't make it that long. I just want to be the old cranky woman on the block who, despite my crotchety behavior, I'm a mother hen to the neighborhood.

Have an emergency and need to have someone watch the kids' weather they are skin, fur, feather, or scaley babies? I'll grumble about it while taking them in and getting some food ready.

DV situation? I come strapped and ready to clap, just knock on the door. I might have "company".

I hate it, but I will know everything, and I do mean EVERYTHING that goes on.

Someone following the kids, and they feel unsafe? I'll huddle them up like an old angry hen with chick's while swearing the creep up and down.

I have baked goods and ready to bake meals for every event: funerals, weddings, new baby, graduation, welcome home, get well soon, coming out, even a "I saw you looking like you're struggling with something mentally".

I also want to be mysterious. Nobody has been past the kitchen, so when it was my time, everyone has to sift through my stuff to figure me out.

[roosterarts]

Philippine Air Force F-5A ready to get in the air!

With all the talk about the Philippines either getting the JAS-39 C/D or the F-16 Block 70, I think its time to look back at the Philippine Air Force's first supersonic fighter jet, the F-5 Freedom Fighter.

First acquired in 1965, the F-5A/Bs would be the main fighter aircraft of the PAF for decades to come. Alongside the USAF based at Clark Air Base, PAF F-5s would intercept Russian and Chinese aircraft that violated Philippine airspace.

The PAF's F-5A/Bs would also serve as close air support for Philippine ground forces engaging various insurgents groups in the country.

The F-5A/Bs would eventually be retired from service in 2005 without a proper replacement. Some of its parts, mainly its combat systems, would be transfered to S-211 trainers in order to convert them to the AS-211 "Warrior" variants, which would serve as the country's main fighter aircraft until the arrival of the FA-50 in 2015.

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[wyrmguardsecrets]

Since its a hot topic rn, here's my top 5, no-bs, tough-love advice for you all:

1. Stop holding onto people who don't make an effort or who are pulling away. Leave them in the past or let them approach you if they suddenly become available. If you were waiting for it -- This is your sign to move on. Nobody should put themselves on hold for a promise. Not for strangers on the internet who owe you nothing, and you them nothing in return.

2. Develop your character more. A well-developed character should be balanced for the canon you want to engage with and should have goals. Past, present, future. Big ones to make large arcs, small ones for temporary resolution. Resolve one? Make another or retire the character if you don't vibe with them anymore. Yeah, clout chasers exist and they're garbage, but more often I see people going after the characters who are simply engaging, fun and developed. They become popular for a reason and many seem to "spring out of nowhere". This is because they're entertaining to write with and they have direction.

3. Engage. Most of the time, the people who complain about 'not finding rp' in places literally chock full of it are the ones putting in zero effort. "Walk-ups welcome". "/tell for rp". Yeah, that's great. But when was the last time -you- walked up? Or sent a tell? Yeah, you'll possibly be shot down, but get used to it and roll on. You have anxiety? Me too! Clinically diagnosed, baby. But I know I won't get what I want by being meek about everything. And if you don't vibe with the space or people, move on!

4. Remember the Golden Rules. Communication and consent. You are welcome to do what you want with your character, but never forget there are players on the other side of that screen just like you. Never do or plot something major without getting consent from the parties it will impact. IC and OOC. Trust me, abiding by these rules alone pits you above about 70% of other rpers on the spot. I don't rp with anyone who doesnt follow the golden rules. They're trouble and not worth my time, and they're not worth yours, either.

5. Avoid narcissists. For the love of God, read up on narcissistic behavior and how it translates in rp spaces. There -are- some bad actors out there, and they seek to prey on the lonely, vulnerable and neglected. Remember this pattern -- Idealization, isolation, devaluation and discard. If someone immediately starts to worship you, red flag. If they try to monopolize all your time and cut out your other friends/partners, red flag. If they have a cult of personality that follows them around, red flag. That goes double if they're all dating irl and ic or something. No hate to people who rp/ship with their partners, but they do require an additional sniff-test. If they want to date you too, then run. Run -far- away, girl. They will chew you up and spit you out. Always keep that pattern in the back of your mind and revert to what I said in #1. Don't let -anyone- pull you in so deep that you lose yourself.

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[ravencromwell]

All of @notbecauseofvictories posts regarding election judging make me so goddamn happy, and these tags are no exception: #I just got back from my election judge re-training and let me tell you. this is still a triumph.     #in the last year they've figured out how to automatically generate a code so that anyone who wants to vote electronically     #doesn't have to wait for you to key a card or return it to you afterwards.     #they just take the number their registration automatically spits out and use that.     #I know this is boring administrative bs but it is nevertheless genuinely so impressive to me.     #also our instructor this time was a retired 70-something year old man with a strong chicago accent.     #he was limping so he used the little flag that comes with the election materials as a cane.     #(this is not what it's supposed to be used for.)     #and had that slightly-mean sense of humor that makes me think he was a teacher back in the day.     #it was me and about 20 black women and this guy. I had a marvelous time.     #anyway. voting is neat.

guess who signed up to be an election judge??

[jcmarchi]

Professor Emeritus Walter Hollister, an expert in flight instrumentation and guidance, dies at 92

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Professor Emeritus Walter Hollister, an expert in flight instrumentation and guidance, dies at 92

Walter M. Hollister ’53, MS ’59, PhD ’63, MIT professor emeritus in the Department of Aeronautics and Astronautics (AeroAstro), passed away Sept. 9 at age 92. 

A resident of Lincoln, Massachusetts, Hollister was originally from Rye, New York. As a high school student, he was passionate about athletics, earning five varsity letters in sports. He held two undergraduate college degrees: a BA from Middlebury College, followed by a BS, which he earned in 1953 from MIT’s Department of Electrical Engineering and Computer Science. At MIT, he continued his passion for sports, playing rugby and running track.

Following his MIT undergraduate days, Hollister went to work for Sperry Gyroscope at March Air Force Base in Riverside, California, as an autopilot technical representative for Boeing’s B-47 Stratojet bomber. In 1954, Hollister joined the U.S. Navy, attending Officer Candidate School in Newport, Rhode Island, followed by flight training at the Pensacola Naval Air Station.

After serving as an attack jet pilot at Miramar Naval Air Station in California, Hollister returned to graduate school at MIT, earning master’s and doctorate degrees in 1959 and 1963, respectively, from the Department of AeroAstro. During that time, he was active in the Naval Air Force Reserve.

In 1960, Hollister met his future wife, Sally (Boston). They were married at her home near Oxford, England. While on their honeymoon, the Navy recalled him for a year of active duty. He was stationed at Guantanamo Bay Naval Station. His primary mission involved patrolling the Caribbean, taking aerial photos of Soviet ships bringing missiles to Cuba. His naval career eventually spanned 23 years, ultimately achieving the rank of captain, and including three years with an A-4 Skyhawk Jet Attack Squadron.

After Hollister completed his doctorate in 1963, he joined the AeroAstro faculty, where he taught for 40 years before retiring as professor emeritus. Over the course of his tenure he led AeroAstro’s Instrumentation, Guidance and Control PhD program, taught instrumentation and inertial guidance subjects, and was active in developing AeroAstro’s Unified Engineering course alongside Professor Ed Crawley and others. He collaborated extensively with Professor Bob Simpson and others in the Flight Transportation Laboratory, as well as numerous groups at MIT Lincoln Laboratory. 

“As a young faculty member he was a mentor and role model to many of us,” remembers senior lecturer Charles Oman SM ’68, PhD ’73. “He was very interested in aviation human factors and human-machine interfaces. In the late ’70s Walt had a clever idea how to measure the effects of recency among GA [general aviation] pilots, and got FAA funding for it. He and I collaborated on the modeling and stats. He and Art LaPointe leased a C150 at Hanscom, and acted as the in-flight evaluators. We concluded skill degrades faster than then thought — and we had great fun.”

Hollister authored and co-authored more than 75 technical papers, and co-authored the textbook “Gyroscopic Theory, Design, and Instrumentation” (MIT Press, 1972).

Hollister was teaching dynamics in the Unified Engineering course when Edward M. Greitzer, the H.N. Slater Professor in Aeronautics and Astronautics, arrived on campus in 1977. “Walt was a pleasure to work with, helpful and worked to make things better for all,” says Greitzer, who taught Unified Dynamics after Hollister. 

Throughout his life, Hollister was passionate about flying. He was a flight instructor for both fixed-wing aircraft and helicopters, and continued flying light aircraft and gliders into retirement. His hobbies included running, bicycling, hiking, swimming, rollerblading, and skiing.

R. John Hansman, MIT’s T. Wilson (1953) Professor in Aeronautics and International Center for Air Transportation director, says, “I was privileged to have Walt as my PhD advisor. He was an outstanding engineer, pilot, and teacher. He made significant contributions to improving the safety of aviation, and was a real down-to-earth advisor and mentor to MIT students, pilots, and astronauts.”

In addition to his wife Sally, Hollister is survived by his son, Mark Hollister of Wilmington, Massachusetts; daughter Heather Hollister of Somerville, Massachsetts; and son Hans Hollister and wife Olcan Hollister of Bethesda, Maryland. He is also survived by his sister, Jane (Hollister) Nicodemus of Warminster Pennsylvania; brothers-in-law Francis Boston of Montreal, Canada, and Simon Boston and Richard Boston of the U.K.; and grandchildren Dylan and Sophia Hollister.

Memorial contributions in Hollister’s name may be made to St. Anne’s in-the-Fields Episcopal Church, P.O. Box 6, Lincoln, MA 01773 or to the American Red Cross, P.O. Box 37839, Boone, IA 50037.

[iampikachuhearmeroar]

so this morning, while scrolling through my fb feed, i came across an nyt opinion/advice piece from a 27yo (ie basically me lmao) who is obviously lucky, in a sense, to finally land their “dream job using my (their) skills” etc. like obvs i can’t read it bc of the stupid “you get one free article a month if you either don’t have an account or subscription” (my one free article was used up reading an article about adult adhd like last week)….. thing that nyt does.

but anyway. back on topic lol. the crux of the article in both the headline and the quote snippet was that the advice asker was really dissatisfied with the 40 hour work week that came with her “dream job”. with how having this 40hr workweek gave her no time to do her busy chores like house cleaning or laundry or didn’t even give her time to let her have her hobbies/creative pursuits (whatever they were/are).

however, in the comments on the article (and apparently from those who read the article on the comments, the advice/opinion column writer) a good bunch of like gen Xer’s and baby boomers (im assuming) were ganging up on the asker like “suck it up princess, it’s what life is!!! i work 70+ hours a week and LOVE IT and have just resigned myself to the fact that i have NO time left over to do my “chores”! learn to O U T S O U R C E these life admin tasks to someone else!!! everyone MUST LEARN this in america!!! it makes life so much easier ☺️” and such.

of course, there were plenty of the same bs comments that you see on anything about careers or home ownership towards millennials/gen Z’ers about “learn to go WITHOUT and save save save and squander your time so that you NEVER live and HAVE FUN or TIME FOR HOBBIES! my bet is that your parents did that and they survived just fine while also raising your ungrateful spiteful ass (not including any type of health issues they might have picked up from such long hours/shitty working conditions) so why can’t you just L E A R N to do the same you precious spoilt brat!!! because the reality of Real Life™️ is that you can’t have it both ways!!! then you’ll have early retirement guaranteed, hopefully!!! and know that hobbies really are time wasters most of the time ☺️ or at least they were for me!!! and your precious so-called “creative pursuits” most definitely are time wasters. no one needs THOSE.” and so on so forth.

they also had jibes for her bc the asker wanted to start a family at some point apparently… and apparently it’s “much worse” once you have kids. like. thanks geraldine and henry. you’ve just told us how much you’ve resented having your kids/family in one fell swoop. your opinion which you’ve framed as unhelpful, condescending advice is now voided.

like. i don’t know how rhonda or paul or deandra or philip could miss the point so fucking entirely. why the fuck should anyone- nay everyone (bc that’s what they make it sound like)- learn to outsource their busy chores like laundry/house cleaning/grocery shopping or god knows what else- to someone else???? why is that apparently a standard expected to be learnt in the US???

like why the fuck are you so desperate for people not to have free time to do these things (unless of course they live in some of those shitty nyc or other big city apartment blocks that don’t come with individual private laundries in the self-contained flats or a communal laundry on like the bottom floor or w/e for example) frank????

deidre why the hell are you so bitterly hankering about “be grateful that you have it easier than most and learn that hobbies mean jackshit and just sell your soul and time to your boss!!! when will the generation stopping being “me me me!!!” and “work life balance!” and think about the company’s bottom line!! learn that “work life balance” is never important! work like a slave for 50 years and see if your valuable experience is needed then! that’s when you’ll learn that those hours where you were never being lazy, instead of just expecting life to be handed to you, will have paid off!” or whatever other ridiculously toxic capitalist bullshit they were spitting out.

obviously there were FAR MORE people actually supporting the question asker and echoing the idea that the 40hr workweek is now redundant. they were also putting down the opinion/advice piece writer’s advice to the asker….. that was apparently similar to the all the bitter people on the comments saying that the 27yo was just “asking for too much” and had to “learn to suck it up instead of being a petulant and overly selfish dick!!” etc etc etc. we all know the spiel as thoroughly as the macarena now.

because whats so fucking wrong with wanting time to yourself and wanting time to do your busy chores??? why the fuck should i be outsourcing these to other people (unless of course you’re still living at home and your parents are still like “hey what clothes do you need washed i’m doing a load rn” or you have a partner that works from home or has some type of parental leave etc)???? i want to do my own laundry. i want to do my own gardening (ok lawn mowing or tree lopping (if needed) i’d actually outsource bc i can’t lift or push lawn mowers bc they’re heavy af for me or and i obvs can’t use a chainsaw)… but i want to do my own grocery shopping. i want to do my own cooking (although i would consider the meal kit services once i had job that allowed me to afford like $50 a month for one of those meal kits sub services) i want to do my own cleaning.

why, if i lived in the US and not australia, am i just expected to learn to outsource all of these tasks even if i don’t have the money for it??? like why the actual fuck are so many of you so fucking weirdly proud of being absolutely worked into the fucking ground for your “great country” (although this is actually bleeding through to australia too and i hate it); working like literally close to 100 hours a week???

because i wasn’t aware you had to be whatever the fuck his name is from 127 hours and cut your fucking limbs off just to fucking survive a job in either corporate america or just let alone any goddamned job in america….. all so they can supposedly “learn to like working for free and devaluing your worth even more to your employer through overworking yourself and always being available!!! mental health is for those who aren’t built for the Real Adult World™️!!! this person is a prime example of the younger generations being weak and dissatisfied with life so often because of their “oh poor little me!!! care for me!!” act. NO ONE CARES FOR YOU today. stop being so over-expectant/demanding and juvenile!!! only YOU care yourself and you should NEVER expect someone else to pick you up from YOUR bootstraps!!! you’re fucking whiny and conceited babies. the lot of you!!!”

because i honestly don’t know who the fuck would enjoy working 70+ hours week with no time to themselves to do what they enjoy doing…. or enjoy having zilch time to catch up on errands and life admin duties or just general house chores; especially if you’ve moved cities or an entire fucking state/s away from your family and support network. let alone doing the same thing on 40 hours a week.

and on top of everything, let’s not even get started on the time spent commuting to and from work or even commuting for life errands/tasks etc etc- especially if you’re like me and you’re nowhere near the capital city’s centre (ie sydney australia for me) for there to be reliable enough public transport and longer commute times to certain places in those cities (that i’ve bitched about plenty before on other posts on here about work/jobs).

get your head out of your asses warren and viola et al and realise that work life balance is literally NOT ASKING FOR MUCH and is asking employers to just have basic respect for their employees time if they work fulltime. it’s literally detrimental to ones health if they have to sacrifice what feels like (or what is literally like) their entire fucking existence to their employer just for meagre pay and just to fucking survive.

because i read a heart-breaking article last night from huffpost (posted by buzzfeed on fb) about a woman in the US who literally hid her having a second baby from her employer for an entire fucking year (literally the entire pregnancy and birth of the baby and the first 6 months post pushing the baby out) during the pandemic all because she was scared she would get demoted or lose her leading of a project and lose her bs “temp” job which had really turned into full time work although the employer never said anything about it being actually full time hours or whatever…. and plus the lady herself was apparently to scared to ask to be put on the books fulltime too for some weird reason.

like honestly. fuck capitalism. fuck thinking that “work life balance is just too hard for employers to add and regulate. it’s an excuse and ploy for workers to be unprofessional, unproductive and lazy!” or whatever the fuck. everyone deserves time to themselves to pursue their interests/hobbies and busy chores/life admin. no one deserves to waste their entire life working 70+ work weeks for those employers who literally have no respect for their employees personal lives and time.

and particularly during the time that is the pandemic as we’ve seen so many companies having to learn to wholeheartedly embrace working from home and more flexible schedules for their workers. worklife balance is absolutely fucking beneficial for everyone involved.

america fix your bullshit work ethic right now lmao.

[opspro2005]

And while we’re at it, instead of BS reparations and student loan forgiveness, we wipe out all medical debt for cancer patients and their families. Oh...and no more property taxes upon retirement, and no taxes of ANY kind (including sales, excise, gas, etc) once you reach the age of 70.

[ilhoonftw]

the ifans constantly bringing up runie and ot7... do they not get that it only harms the group since most kmels/gp hate him? many don't even allow any mention of him ffs. i fully love & support runie, but he's not gonna rejoin at this point, do ifans not realize it would completely screw over the others? did they forget what happened with cs and the7 fingers?? if you search him in korean articles about that are still among the first to pop up! the naivety and delusion are so frustrating to me :/

i wouldnt say most kmelos hate him, as a lot of btob fanedit channels still post videos with him... but yea, it's annoying. he left btob to avoid them getting dragged into his mess?? so why ppl bring it up all the time now. i miss ot7 but i'm not gonna delude myself runie will be fully back one day... he smoked weed to deal with all the bs he had to deal with as an idol... i wouldnt be surprised if in his 70 apology letters submitted to court he said sth like 'i deceived the public, set a bad example so i'm gonna retire and live a normie life now'. maybe in 10 years time he will be back as a producer, using different name so ppl wont figure it out that easy

[what-ever-happened-to-chip]

The Adventures of Squall

Squall's observations. Hmm. I don't know what Rinoa wants me to do. I guess I'll ask Eli for his notes and just give them to her. *knock knock* "Cheerio good boy, may  I help you with anything?" "Do you have notes on that thing Christian was talking about?" "Ahh you've came to the right residence, just let me....hold on just a moment..." He began digging through piles of loose paper, flipping through notebooks, all whilst mumbling to himself. "Alas! Here is one of my more rudimentary charts, but it shall accomplish what you're intial questions preface." It was hard to concentrate, he was talking very fast and using a lot of words that I didn't know. Akio says because of my ASD I sometimes get what he calls "verbal dyslexia" and it's hard for me to comprehend what other people are saying, especially if they talk different from me. I'll have to concentrate very hard if I don't want Rinoa mad at me again. "But see this is where it gets confusing, we have many great forces here, coincidence? Doubtfully so, but these overlapping characteristics I believe have come here for a reason. Many of our members, including myself, have had interactions with Christos, Christian you call him, and I can't imagine why he would let so many familar faces corner him in the same scenario, unless of course he had a plan for each individual. See, I believe..." He pulled out a chair for me that I sat in. I took out my notebook so I could remember what to tell Rinoa. "If you look here on this chart.." he pulled out a large beige canvas with several pictures pinned to it, threads of twine connecting different ones. "First you see here that Christos comes to my noble world and plants himself as Cyrus, the destroyer of worlds. He taints Noah and I am his right hand man. He tells me a great many things, we can go into later. Do realize this isn't in chronilogical order, I have no way of telling yet the timeline of all our respective worlds. "Next he plants himself as an alien, "Jenova" he calls it on Gaia and and infects the whole planet. The only one to save it was Aerith who possesses extrodainary spiritual powers. She was the last chance tho and aside from her sacrifice Geostigma went on beyond her time..." "His next target, alas, Thomas. A young, troubled boy whom Christian fictionalized a companion for. An alter ego of sorts and made thomas believe it was himself. I believe he might have been weak and needed a human body to recover on. At some point Christian went to Aiden and found him by the Sanguis River, which is the border between our world and ubi requiescit dolor or "where sorrow rests. I haven't been able to spot where he showed up in Harry's world, but I do know he was there at some point. He likely was only a death eater of no great importance. Same with Roxas, Christian probably took the form of a nobody, which of course begs the question...." It was really hard for me to take notes as fast as he talked. I was really tryign to spell words better to get in the habit of it. Reading was easy for me, but writing made me nervous. I'll just get the names and maybe i'll remember. "can one become a nobody without having a form first? Perhaps that's it. He was a formed human on one planet and when he was almost destroyed at some theroetical part, he latched onto Thomas but only came back as a nobody which of course is an allusion. Details, details, but where were we? Oh yes, next on his infamous walk through time was of course Aangs world where he brought the powers of darkness to a seemingly balanced world, probably dating back to around...." I needed to yawn, but it seemed rude. I wonder how he knew all of this. He seemed confused himself. Maybe I should talk to some other people. Rinoa will be mad if I only talk to him. I should have gotten more information earlier.

“And of course Akio’s unfortunate fate with him, presenting himself as illusions to drive the man mad I’m sure. I do believe he could do that, his evil seems endless.” He paused and looked around at all his charts and papers. this will be a good time to excuse myself. "I have to use the restroom, excuse me" He didn't seem to notice me leave, he kept talking and looking at his papers. While I was walking I saw Harry with a plastic cup pressed up to a door. As I walked closer to him he dropped the cup and ran. I went to the kitchen. "Hey Zack" He was drinking really fast out of a big water bottle. Some of it was spilling on his black shirt. "Heya buddy, I broke 20 in 80, my new personal best. Gotta love the summer time." "What?" "Oh 20 miles in an hour and 20, a 4 minute average." "...." "So do you know anything about why we had to go to Camp A and Camp B?" "Ulquiorra seemed pretty on edge, everyone getting riled up like that. Maybe it's time for the old man to retire!" "What about the dark world place?" "I don't know much about that, but I tell you I sure don't know want to get to know it better if you know what I mean. Anyways bud, lactic acid builds on stiff muscles, gotta do my cool down." He then clapped me a little hard on the back, it was sort of uncomfortable, then left the room. I continued walking around looking for someone else to talk to. Rikku is on the couch watching a cartoon called the Powerpuff Girls. She is flossing on the couch? Why isn't she in the bathroom. I'll wait until she's done. I'll wait around the corner so she doesn't know I saw her doing it. After about 70 second she dropped the floss on the ground. There was a garbage can right on the table, but I guess she didn't see it.

"Hey" "Uhhh hey..." Her eyes never left the screen. "Do you know anything about the dark spirit place Christian was talking about?" "Hmmm, there was this one story Buddy used to tell us to scare us, it seems like the same thing and i don't know with all this world collide bs i wouldn't surprised if it's the same. "Do you know the story?" "I don't know ask Buddy, i'm busy." "..." Okay I wonder where Buddy is. I heard a basketball hit the basket outside. Sometimes we play basketball together. "Yo, yo, yo man 3 on 3, pussy slayers vs bitch playas." "AW SHIT" "wooof woof woof" "Which ones which?" asked Aang. "My brutha you knows yous a slaya!" on that they bumped their fists together. "I guess that means i'm with you guys" Tifa said and smiled. That means I'm on Adam's and Riku's team. I played basketball up to 21 points. My team lost. I'm good at making baskets, but not as much at passing and working with my team. "Aight, aight, how bout a smoke break and then maybe we'll give ya'll a rematch." As they all began to disperse, I walked up to Buddy. "Rikku said you could tell me a story about the dark place." "Rikku tol you that?" "Yes. The one you use to tell her." He looked both ways and then straight at me. "I don know nuthin about no story." "Okay, sorry." I guess I better ask someone else. I was getting tired. I should have done this earlier, but I see  Rinoa tomorrow. I think it would be a good idea to ask Thomas. I'll see if he's in his room. *knock knock* He opened the door slow, but wide and stared at me. "Can you tell me anything about the dark place." He looked surprised and happy. Akio tells me sometimes people's facial expressions don't always show what they mean, but it's a good indicator if I'm confused. I think he wants me to come in. He was sitting in his computer chair and he had clothes folded on his bed so I don't want to sit there and get them dirty. "I find it rather odd you're the one asking me this question. Eli wasn't surprising one bit, but it's not like he'd listen if I did tell him anything." "So you don't know anything?" "Don't know anything? Yeah right. I know everything that I need to. And ultimately however this goes, there's nothing left for me to lose." "...." "I must admit it does get rather boring having to hold back such genius in my mind. Feigning ignorance on all matters that go on here just to be able to thrive. This truly is the best case scenario for me and I know i'm not alone." He was frowning now. I didn't say anything so I know he probably isn't mad at me. I've learned that most people just keep talking if you say nothing. It helps a lot because I usually have nothing to say. "Are you looking for the nitty gritty, the gory details, or simple how're you're involved?" "Rinoa wanted to me to ask people about it. She thinks we're being lied to." "HAH. Just now she thinks she's been lied to?? Foolish girl." "Rinoa is smart." "Perhaps she is, all the same it's all clouded by her ego." "....." "So rinoa wants to know about the dark world they've after all this time brought up. You have to know though, Simon wouldn't have brought it up if there wasn't some gain to him, some strategic reason for his timing. He's a puppet master, he probably knew you would be here talking to me. It's all going just to his plan.....or perhaps he thought I would kick you out and that would keep him advantageous. But he knew that i'd knew that he was planning that." I was getting pretty confused. "Who's Simon?"

He frowned at me. "He's Christian." "Okay." "That's right "Christian" has had many names, many forms. He's wormed his way into many of lives and took everything they had with them. A leech. Of course a leech needs to eat too." I had been in his room almost 15 minutes. It was probably time to talk to someone else. "The dark world, purgatory, the eternal space, the fog, every world has a different name for it. Some are ignorant, but most know that not everyone gets the "good death". It's origin is beyond me, but I know what it is now. And I know he wants to go there. He's looking for something. Or maybe he's helping someone else." "I have to go now." "Then go, i'm not keeping you if that's what you thought" Thomas sneered at me. "..." *door shuts* As I left Thomas's room, Zidane came in really quickly from the front door. He looked really skinny these days. He pulled off his knapsack and begin looking for something deep within it. I don't know why he still uses his old knapsack, a good messenger bag would look a lot nicer and be a lot less stressful on his shoulders. "OKAY DADDY'S HOME, who wants to party???" As people began pouring into the dining room, they gathered around as he poured a large bag of cocaine out onto the clean glass table top. I remembered when I went fishing the other day how when I dropped bread crumbs in little fish would swarm to all try and get the food at once. It reminded me of that. I used to do cocaine sometimes with Irvine and his friends, but Akio says that it might make my OCD and ASD worse. I didn't want to mess with it, I had already had a stressful day. That's good enough for now. I'll just go to bed and maybe in the morning someone will talk about it and I won't have to ask. I did my bedtime rituals in the normal order, brush teeth, clean face, comb hair, change out of all clothes into two pairs of fresh underwear, socks, and pajamas. It was nice tonight I could turn off the air conditioner. I rested my head on the pillow. The cocaine was making everyone rowdy and I could hear it. Great I could hear Aiden yelling from his room that was right next to mine, on the side my bed was pushed against. I've asked Garnet multiple times if he could switch rooms, but she says no one wants his room cause it smells like blood and has a bunch of holes in the walls. And I was definitely not going to switch my room, everyone was right in it, it didn't need to change. I don't want to spy on people, but last time I said I wouldn't do what Rinoa wanted she threatened to not talk to me for a month. Instead, she talked, or more so bitched, the entire month at me, never letting me have some peace and quiet. I don't want that again.

I took out my nightly form to see how I’’m doing and filled it out.

Anxiety: 8/10

Mood: 6/10

Insomnia: 2/10

OCD: 7/10

Triggers: Talking to people, missing lunch because no one would leave the kitchen, having to ask questions, shoe lace breaking and not having a replacement.

Medication issues: None

Overall: 6/10

He kept yelling, but I could hear another voice too. He often talked to himself so at least when someone else was there, it was only half yelling. I really didn’t want to do it, but I felt Rinoa demanding me why I didn’t. I didn’t like lying to her.

   I remembered Harry earlier. I poured my water cup out and pressed my ear against the bottom of it. "Denny if that's the case, what do you have to lose?" "EVERYTHING. DON'T YOU GET IT!!! I've been waiting too long for you to FUCK things up." "Well I do admire your dilligence Denny, you truly never give up." "I will never give up, I will never stop until things are right." "Being when you have Jenn back?" "NO SHIT. All you are is a pawn. There is no other reason you're here." "The life of a king or the life of a pawn, really only is affected by perspective. I take my place with pride and am grateful for whatever else life I get to cherish." "I've waited long enough, i'll wait forever, but I sure as fuck don't want to." "Aside from your said goals, I am curious, did J really return from there?" "Fuck if I know. It has nothing to do with me." "There feels as if there is things you aren't telling me Denny." "WELL HOW THE FUCK DID IT GO LAST TIME I DID." "Please.....I want to help." "As long as Christian holds up his end of the deal, I won't need to use you. And he has the same goal." "I get the feeling you two are not alone in your quest. Are there others?" "Yeah but they're not important really. Just gotta an eye on them." "Even more useless than I?" "No one could be more useless than you." "Ahh how appropriate I and Lana are spending our time in this waiting room together, both readily discardable part of the larger schemes of the world. I've never felt quite so zen  before." "haha maybe they should bring Liza around and see how well you two get along." "I believe they would get along splendidly. they like the same music, both androgenous yet stunningly feminine, thrill seeking." "Ur forgetting one thing, cock makes bitches crazy, look at Jenn and Yuna. They'd be the best friends in the world if Yuna hadn't sucked my dick." "And by Jenn, you mean that girl masaqurading as your girlfriend?" "Watch it fucker." "I'm only stating your sentiment seems strangely misplaced seeing Yuna is in real danger whereas "Jenn" is only what you make her to  be" "I don't think anything has to happen to her, but if it does she knew what she was getting into." "Yes, but that was a long time ago. A long time before now I would have sacrificed myself for your well being, do you think things are the same now?" ".......what do you mean..? but you....just said...WHAT THE FUCK DO YOU MEAN??????!!!!!!!" "I was only teasing Denny, of course I'm here at your service, seeing of course you are the sole reason I am here. I don't think it's wise to betray our gods." "Heh yeah right, I'm your fucking god." "Indeed I am in religious awe." "heh yeah sure. So fucker whatchu got in the briefcase." "Zidane went and filled my reservoirs, I'm back in business" "Hook it up bitch." "I wouldn't have it any other way." After that they started talking quieter in a way that didn't bother me, Finally I can go to sleep.

[jeannereames]

Hello, Dr. Reames. I have a question I would like to ask you. How is it like to work as a historian? I'll be finishing high school soon and i thought a lot about studying history at college, but I really don't know much about how it really is to work in the field, so if you could tell me how is it like, at least from your experience, I would really appreciate it 😊

(The following was written to reply to a query from a high school student, but is aimed broadly at anyone pondering the value of a history degree at various levels: BA/BS, MA, and PhD, written by an older professor who’s also served as Graduate Program Chair. PLEASE SHARE.)

First, by “working in the field,” I’m not entirely sure what you mean, and maybe you’re not either. And that’s okay.

So let’s talk about what “working in the field” could mean.

The common assumption about majoring in history is that it leads only to teaching high school, college, or working in a museum. (Maybe archaeology…but that’s actually a different degree.)

FACT: MOST history undergrad majors do not teach history or work in museums. Look at this helpful little illustration below. Note that only 18% work in education. Maybe some of the 10% administration are education administration. But even if we assume half are, that’s still less than ¼ of history degree recipients going into education, plus that 18% includes library science.

Now, some of the things on that list have little to do with history directly. Yet some have connections the average person might not think of: both legal and protective services, for instance. Legal = law, and protective services = FBI/CIA/other policing. The FBI loves historians as analysts, so does the CIA. History uses the same skill-set as police detectives. In addition, several (working and former) lawyers I know who were history majors all say their history degree gave them a leg up in law school over colleagues who’d done poli-sci or criminology.

Why?  CRITICAL REASONING. We teach you to think about what you’re reading/seeing/hearing, then how to write about it. Those skills are imminently useful in a number of careers. (To be fair, philosophy is useful for much the same reason; don’t knock a philosophy degree!)

So if you want to study history…it’s not going to hurt your job prospects, especially if you mull over how to “professionalize” yourself. Below, I’ve put a link to the American Historical Association’s website talking about just that: career development. If you have other skills such as IT, or are multi-lingual, it makes you even more valuable. Lots of work in the fields of digital humanities (which involves history), archiving, and public history. Also, sometimes scientific skills pair well, particularly for archaeology: LiDAR and GPR, for instance. Chemical analysis, dendrology, etc., etc., etc.

 American Historical Association Professional Development

Now, let’s say you are thinking about going on to teach history in college (at least in the US). My best advice?

Don’t.

That may shock, from a history professor, but the plain fact is that not only is history (and the humanities) undergoing seismic shifts on campuses, but college itself is altering profoundly. I call it the “Wal-Martization of Higher Education.”

Administration is bloating. Just look some time at the various administration levels in most any college: how many assistant deans, and senior-vice chancellors, etc. It’s crazy. There were half that (or less) when I was hired at UNO 20 years ago. Meanwhile, fewer tenure-track positions are opening in departments (that aren’t big grant winners). If anything, colleges are cutting those. More administrators! Fewer professors! Sure, that’s the ticket….

Why’s this happening? Administration has learned that, especially for entry-level courses (1000-, sometimes 2000-level), they can hire part-time lecturers, pay them peanuts, not pay them benefits…and rake in the same tuition. Bean counters don’t help, where they look at “Butts in seats,” enrollment figures, retention, and shortening the “Time to Degree.”

College is increasingly expensive, students want to cut corners and save bucks. I don’t blame them, but AT THE ROOT is the Almighty Dollar.

Education has become a “commodity,” a mere certificate to get you a job. Quality pedagogy is increasingly sidelined. From enrollment to graduation track is emphasized. This is a discussion all its own, so won’t go into it. (Again, this is a HUGE philosophic debate.)

The teaching of intro-classes by grad students/newly minted PhDs has been A Thing for decades. It’s not new. But back when I was doing it, it was considered job training and critical experience for my resume to get a “real”—e.g., tenure-track—job that had benefits and job security.

Pay your dues. Okay, fair enough.

BUT around the time I got hired by UNO (2000) and even a little earlier, college administrators began to suss out that they could cut tenure-track jobs by hiring an endless (desperate) string of part-time lecturers to teach entry-level classes. The idea spread slowly, but by c. 2010, it was entrenched. Too many PhDs, not enough jobs, so to make ends meet, those lecturers would take 4, 5, 6 classes (at various schools) at a couple thousand a class. Without a spousal unit, many live at the poverty level…WITH a PhD. Increasing numbers simply bailed on academia after several years on the job market, taking other jobs as they could, but (in some cases) trailing enormous tuition debt. Some still write and publish, and are content with that.

The field has wised up, but too many PhDs (or even MAs) were caught in that trap as it became clear what was happening—hundreds competing for a handful of jobs a year. I’ve run job searches (just did one, in fact). We can regularly expect 80-120 applications for one job—higher for Americanists. Yet this will be one of a handful of tenure-track jobs that year. Think about that: c.100 applicants for…5 jobs, 6, 7…10 if you’re lucky in a “hot” field.

Yet some unscrupulous professors STILL turn out oodles of MA or PhD students because it looks good for them. Beware of such! I’ve worked with a few. If ANYbody tells you there are easy jobs to be had and don’t give you a version of “The Talk” above (which I gave ALL my MA students) they’re in it to pad their CV, not to take care of you as their grad student. Find a new advisor ASAP.

Some fields are more “hot” than others, but this varies, and you can’t assume a “hot” field when you start won’t be a “saturated” field by the time you finish. It’s unpredictable.

This is all bound to implode sooner or later, and the pandemic may very well push that along.

So YES, there will continue to be jobs open for history professors. But they’re many fewer than in the 60s. 70s, 80s, or even 90s, and most will go to students from top tier (private) universities. Yes, dammit, people pay attention to the name on the kidskin. There will always be exceptions. So if you work your ass off and are truly driven, you could secure one of those jobs. When hiring, I look at what you DID/published/presented, not just where you got your degree.

So if you really want to teach at the college level—are driven enough—you’re going to ignore everything I just said and get that PhD anyway. But at least you’ll go in with your eyes wide open, knowing it’s a volatile field with “college” itself in flux. I’ve no idea what the institution will look like by the time I retire in 10 years (or less now).

Jump at every opportunity. Present papers at salient conferences, seek grants, try to get published if you can (mostly PhD level). It’s still possible, just understand the competition is STEEP.

I’m here to prove a first-generation college student with NO useful language got a full-ride scholarship to Penn State in the ‘90s, secured a tenure-track job at U-Nebraska, Omaha. Not a Research 1 university, but still tenured at a school with a History MA and research time off, then started the Ancient Mediterranean Studies Minor/Program here, and served as grad chair.

But I’m RARE, and come from an earlier era.

How much are you willing to buckle down and kick ass?

It’s an uphill climb. I won’t lie. Your odds are bad. So you have to REALLY WANT IT, to go on to an MA then PhD.

Teaching at the high school level is more attainable but comes with its own freight of baggage.

SO… getting a BA or BS in history, or even a minor in history, at the undergrad level is NOT a useless degree. For that matter, an MA in history isn’t. But the PhD is increasingly becoming The Hunger Games to find a job after. How much will you sacrifice?

[stevestonbike]

Good weekend and 72 km.

It got warm. Not hot yet, though they are warning of a heat wave coming. I had two layers on top as there was some overcast to start. Ended up in the sun and about 25 degrees (77F). I did a decent distance and a good pace for mixed terrain at just over 25 kph.

The big news is my power meter is coming back on line. I let it die super dead. I did a reset command from my computer and I got my new bike computer to talk to it. The new one is a Garmin Edge 130+. I figured the old one was getting stupid as it did not seem compatible with the new wheel speed sensor (it was supposed to be!). That is part of why the power meter stopped working I think.

The new unit was on double discount from a shop in the UK that sent me the thing from Spain for less money than the bike shop down the street. It could distinguish the power meter from the speed sensor which is a trick the old Edge 500 could just not do. I got them all talking.

The power meter had lost all its calibration so it took about 30 minutes for it to figure itself out. It is a very clever design. (Ibike Power Pod ) It uses slope and air speed (using a pitot port ) to figure drag and such against road speed. You can enter in your weight, and all that, but it adjusts constantly so it works out things anyway. Going uphill coasting downhill tells it what it needs to know. At first it showed stupid numbers, but eventually It looked good. It never worked very well in cross wind, but that is likely why they redesigned it a while ago. I have an older generation.

So I got a normalized power of 152 Watts and a peak of over 500 Watts.

This new Garmin thing is much smarter than the old one. It does some things not so well, but that is probably the operator. It talks to my phone and uses an AP to control things. It puts out several new metrics. One is training effect. It assigns a number of 1 to 5 for a work out. 5 is too much. I got 4.2 and it says that is very good. It gave me a badge! Basically my aerobic base is improving. Ya I knew that, but now I have a Number!

It also calculates my VO2 Max at 40 which is lower than other figures I got, but still pretty FN good for an old man. I hope that with the power meter getting zeroed in that may improve a bit over the summer. It tells me that my biological age is 45. Oh it knows how to sweet talk a guy.

The other aspect of the day was I saw quite a few of the old Lotus Mob. They had done a sufferfest up Cypress. I encountered waves of them returning through the City. First of course the hard core A group. Then the killer Bs and eventually the other Bs. I bumped into some of the Cs in Stanley park at prospect point. Nobody stopped for Ice Cream. Had they learned nothing?

I had a chat with three of the old gang. I get the impression there is some negative karma there. In any event I am glad I did not try the mountain yet. It will come, but in it's proper time. I am slow going uphill. Gravity wants me to stay low. I ascend at about 10 to 12 kph on that road. I can carry just over 200 Watts for the 90 minutes it takes. I have come down at mid 70s of kph. Cypress is good for that as the road surface is open to good light and easy to see. Mount Seymour is bad as there are lots of shadows hiding the ripples and pot holes. Bike tires do not like pot holes.

Mountains are things you feel good about having done, but you hate doing it generally. Its one of the "banging your head against a wall" activities. So good when its over.

I am starting to book more distance, but I am far behind last year. At my current rate I will hit 4000 km for the year. I hope things get better. What will happen will happen.

There is at least one Granfondo event in BC this season. Maybe two. The Victoria one is taking bookings. The Penticton one looks like it is too. Both require more hotels and such than Whistler as for that one I start from my house. We know some people in Victoria, but not enough to room with them. We know some people near Penticton, but their place is a holiday home for the family. So yah hotels for the day before and after.

Another thing is I believe both courses are harder than Whistler. Penticton is 160 km and usually epic hot with hills. Penticton is legitimate desert climate. Victoria is similar but not so hot. Both have in common the course being set by retired pro-cyclists with respected Palmares. (look up Axel Merckx and Ryder Hesjedal).

It is not likely I will sign up for either, but time may tell.

Anyway, I am out and riding and putting down miles. That really is the point.

[hoochy-coo]

Do you think male musicians can ever stay faithful? I always wonder why some get into committed relationships when they have so many temptations and always end up cheating on their significant others. And I wonder why their spouses even put up with it. E.g. Jessica Biel and Justin Timberlake

It’s definitely possible but it’s very rare, especially when they’re in their prime. They’re never around for long enough to form a strong, dependable connection with anyone. Even if they did, they’re still torn due to all the temptations (we see this with the Beatles and Stones where the majority of their girlfriends drop everything to live with them on the road and they still cheat). I feel like once they ~retire~ and they’re no longer globe trotting (or have the energy to do so) then it becomes easier to settle down and put down roots. I actually think this is why we see a lot of supermega male artists who were known for dating another female celeb that rivals their caliber always end up settling down with a non-celebrity. They always seem to fumble so hard with those relationships and end up settling for a less passionate/dynamic/rounded relationships because it’s probably more practical and easier to manage in the long run. I’d argue that tons of the big male artists who rose to 70s/80s lost out on the love of their lives because they’re always looking around for the next best thing only to realise in their older age that they should have stopped while they were ahead.

In the case of Jessica Biel and JT, they’re not equals in that relationship. He’s always going to be the more relevant one out of the two of them - the richer, the more respected, the one who’s made his mark - and she, his wife. I know that sounds really harsh and even with the whole Britney controversy resurfacing now, JT has a whole legacy but she doesn’t. If they split, idk how she’s going to keep her name in the media. I think Jessica probably puts up with the bs because this way, she’ll still maintain some relevancy while she continues to pursue her directing career.

[annarellix]

A Body In Seaview Grange by Dee MacDonald (A Kate Palmer Mystery Book 2)

My Review (5*) Cozy mysteries are an excellent way to escape reality, travel to lovely places, meet quirky and likable characters, and being engrossed in a classic whodunit. This story crosses all the checks and it does in a gripping and highly entertaining way, keeping you hooked and guessing. I love Kate, she’s sensible and clever even if a bit too naïve at times. She’s a very empathic and nice character, well developed and interesting. I also love Angie, the over-the-top sister who seems to be the opposite of Kate. There’s a lot of quirky characters in this story, they are well written and interesting. The plot is tightly knitted, full of red herring and suspects, and it never drags as there’s a lot going. The mystery is solid, I try to guess the culprit but the solution came as a surprise. I’m left wondering what will happen to Kate, Woody and Angie in the next story, I can’t wait to read it. It’s a highly enjoyable story that I strongly recommend. Many thanks to Bookouture and Netgalley for this ARC, all opinions are mine

Book Description: Practice nurse Kate Palmer is ready for some peace and quiet in her little Cornish village, but there’s soon to be a murder on her doorstep… Kate’s retirement in Cornwall hasn’t quite gone as planned – Lavender Cottage is in need of substantial repairs and her sister Angie’s fondness for gin does rather stretch the purse-strings. So when Kate is asked to do some nursing at the luxury retirement flats in Seaview Grange, she jumps at the chance. The old Victorian house has stunning views of the sea and the retirees are a peaceful bunch. That is, until Edina Martinelli, a glamorous ex-opera singer, is found poisoned in her home. Edina’s death is ruled an overdose by Digoxin, the same medication she had been on for years. But Kate is sure the woman she met was not suicidal, and with the reputation of her practice on the line, she decides to do some digging. Luckily she’s got the newly retired Detective Inspector Woody Forrest to help her… It’s not long before Kate discovers evidence of foul play, and there’s no shortage of suspects. Was it the besotted vicar? The ill-tempered stepson? Or perhaps Edina’s neighbour finally had enough of her constant warbling. It seems everyone had a motive, but who amongst them had the stomach for murder? And will they kill again?

Author Bio: Aged 18, Dee arrived in London from Scotland and typed her way round the West End for a couple of years before joining BOAC (forerunner of British Airways) in Passenger Services for 2 years and then as a stewardess for 8 years. She has worked in Market Research, Sales and at the Thames TV Studios when they had the franchise. Dee has since relocated to Cornwall, where she spent 10 years running B&Bs, and only began writing when she was over 70! Married twice, she has one son and two grandsons.

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[jennsepticeye]

Endgame Spoliers (Steve Edition)

Look, I think that the MCU kinda "no-homo'd" themselves into a corner, like a lot of Steve's character arc revolves around Bucky. Bucky being MIA is the reason he decides to make Capt America more than some dancing monkey. He literally goes against orders to save his best friend. In The Winter Soldier Steve literally dismantled an entire government agency and let his brainwashed best friend beat him half to death. Civil War, I mean, c'mon. He disagreed with 117 countries, fought and almost killed his modern buddy Tony all for Bucky. Then we have the reunion in Infinity War.

Steve's entire character revolves around Bucky, his buddy, his pal. And even if not in a romantic sense, their relationship makes the end of Endgame feel forced.

Steve knew Peggy for all of like 2 months. Maybe they were in love or whatever, but they got over it. Peggy moved oon got married and she got her awesome niece (don't even get me started ing Sharon/Steve). And Steve got the closure he needs with her, when he visits her in the elderly home. By 2016 Peggy and Steve are done. They got their closure, maybe they find new relationships.

Obviously Steve and Bucky would never be canon because China is a huge source of income and their censorship doesn't allow for homosexuality in cinema. But I feel like the MCU saw how popular the stucky idea was becoming and went "nah nah no no no, we can't have that. They're sTRAIGHT " in true white men fashion. So they forced the Peggy and Steve story line, we don't even get a reunion in a4.

It feels forced because Steve and Bucky are finally getting a break, even as friends, and they have 70 years of issues to work through, and Steve is just like, what? "I need to bang this dame I knew for 2 months 70 years ago?" And then they had a nifty excuse to pass off the shield.

Like imo , it would have been just as powerful if Steve had come back and said, I don't want to fight anymore, here Sam, have my shield. Let him retire in peace with the life he's made. He's tired and 100+ years old, and you know Peggy would have seen through his bs.

Also, can we just take a moment to cry abt Harley being at the funeral. I love him.

[prismartist]

Endgame spoilers ahead but I guess if you have the tag filtered you wouldn’t be seeing this

Here’s my issue with Cap’s ending, bulleted even though it does nothing for the argument. I just like the format.

so he goes back to the 40s, 50s to live and grow old with Peggy, right?

he just goes through the century again. HOWEVER he is ALSO still in the ice throughout the 20th century.

So then in 2012 his ice self gets discovered, and he’s thawed.

that means steve rogers from 2023, who would be 94 in 2012, is living at the same time as newly-thawed steve.

now i’m no expert on time but i’m pretty sure that’s not supposed to happen.

there is also the question of whether or not another timeline was created. well since steve didn’t really prevent anything, no right? or is it yes? did steve’s presence in a time where he shouldn’t have prevent something big? and since no one reverted it back to normal, it completely screwed up the timeline?

Back to the Future may have been BS, but i’m not sure if endgame can say any differently about itself.

onto other non-time-related consequences that upset me.

he just... left everyone behind? for a woman that he did, yes, care for considerably, but one that did move on and had her own family later one.

yeah, that’s another thing. peggy had her own husband and kids and steve just kinda erased all that.

now some people might get pissed at this, but i will point out that he did leave bucky behind.

please let me finish. bucky and steve hadn’t seen each other since wwii, after bucky fell off the train. they met again ~70 years later in 2014, but bucky didn’t recognize steve, and they spent a lot of time fighting. then bucky ran off to romania and steve wasn’t able to go after him until 2016. they reunite, join the civil war, and gradually start to become friends again. but then bucky has to go back to cryogenic freeze so the people in wakanda can find a cure for him. he doesn’t come back until infinity war.

“so what’s your point” you may ask. my point is that steve and bucky bARELY had any time together, just less than a year. and after steve worked so hard to get his best friend back. and may i remind you, steve did a LOT to get bucky back. he could’ve spent more time with him at least.

“you’re just another stucky shipper” one of you may say. and yes, i’ll admit, i did hope steve could move into a suburban house with bucky, who had taken up the shield but i didn’t even say anything explicitly romantic here. and i do love steggy. but... shouldn’t steve have moved on already? he had ten years to do so.

now i get that steve had all the reasons to go back. he may have felt he didn’t belong, he missed peggy, etc. but... he couldn’t have been concerned with messing up the timeline, or leaving behind his friends, and the country that relied so much on him to protect them? ok then.

i would have been more glad if he just came back and maybe just retired. if he was tired of fighting and defending, he could have said so. i’m sure everyone would understand.

so, in the end, i’ll just begrudgingly accept what the russos have decided to give us and shove it under the bed. i won’t forgive the felonies until they make captain marvel a CONFIRMED lesbian, explicitly said in the movie. then they’ll be mostly forgiven.

[peggysousfan]

Ranting and Spoilers ahead, Be Warned

If you don’t like peggysous, please do not comment on here, I want no arguing only venting.

Okay, so I have a lot of problems with the ending of Avengers Endgame. I hated the fact that they killed Widow after such growth in her character and the emotions and connections that she has made over the years. She didn’t even get a damn FUNERAL like Tony did!! I also hated how Tony got very little time with the family that he built. Tony has been building this part of his story for YEARS and when he finally gets it, it is taken away. Instead of Tony’s happy ending, they gave it to Cap. 

Steve said so himself in Ultron that the man he use to be, the guy who wanted family and stability went in the ice and someone new came out. All of a sudden he wants that now? KNOWING THAT PEGGY WAS MARRIED AND HAD A GOD DAMN FAMILY!?!? And he STILL went BACK??? That makes no damn sense and I’m pissed about it. WHY would they ERASE her HISTORY!!?? They act like season 2 of Agent Carter never existed and it BS!! Come on, like seriously?!? So they’re telling us that Steve never met any of Peggy’s kids? or Grand kids? or anyone from her family at her funeral? He didn’t see any of her family and the life that she has built and left behind?? He just made out with her great-niece and years later went back in time to be with Peggy again? WTF!!! 

Also, another thing that makes no damn sense is the time travel part. When they went back to the 70′s to get the tesseract, and Steve saw Peggy through the glass, why was she so young looking? Wasn’t she in her 50s? Shouldn’t she have a few grey hairs(Just curious)ALSO, if Cap went back in time to just have a dance with her in THE 70′S! Then WHY IS SHE SO DAMN YOUNG?? It just doesn’t make sense. The way the did it made it seem like he went back even further than the 70′s, married Peggy, and erased season 2 of Agent Carter and the family she had with Sousa. 

And ANOTHER THING I got a lot of question ->

If Steve went that far back, would he have told her about anything in the future, like how he was unfrozen and his last battle was too much so he retired? Would he ever tell her about her other ORIGINAL family? And if not would she eventually feel something is off? I don’t see Peggy as someone to give up her career for anyone, even Captain America. SO going by that, she would have ended up working at the New York Bell phone company (SSR) after the War. She would have still meet Daniel and they still would have been friends; because its Sousa, come on hes a sweet guy and he respects Peggy. But wouldn’t she have felt a connection there when they work together? I’m just so confused and empty after seeing the ending, Please tell me i’m not alone in this!