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to me, caduceus multiple times stating how exhausted and tired he is to tmn (including in response to being asked a question.. just too tired to think about it anymore) is spoonie evidence . yes he kept going with tmn on adrenalin and wanting to help them but he was saying it even more at the end of th campaign and he really should get to lay down more . otherwise i think he is dizzy and brainfoggy and has a wonky heart-rate
#kiddo say#related to last night thought#also something i said before maybe#who care. autism.#i was going to list another thing but i forgot#oh . also .other thing i remembered. at least in th beginning taliesin also purposely makes it so cads out of breath when he speaks#so this adds to evidence. hes tired out he needs a rest so much please he needs a hip brace and his meds
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So.
Act 5, huh?
Oh, and that.
"You can start breakdown now."
Finished the game couple of days ago and had some thoughts I needed to process a little. Like. Yes.
So anyway I actually didn't plan this and just wanted to redraw some sprites to just make sure I understand how to draw Siffrin correctly (still working on that!)
What did I learn from this? How fun it it to draw on a canvas that literally doesn't let you draw with colors without some layer cheating when necessary. Never tried it.
The beans. Sleeping beans.
Basically what happens when you want to sleep AND draw. Draw characters sleeping on your behalf.
Doesn't help, but at least it's cute.
I have no idea what was going on in my mind as I drew this. Feels like a fever dream of 'I want to sleep' at 4 am and 'Hm...' of thinking random things
Also that phone craft sign. Still too funny to imagine. I had to.
#fanart#sketch#my art#isat spoilers#isat#siffrin#siffrin isat#isat loop#in stars and time#I also tried to draw the Party too! But that one sketch is too rough yet!#And I'll probably never post it it was fun to draw them tho#Anyway I had /thoughts/ playing Act 5#Not great ones too! I would rather they stayed where I would never even know they exist#But I had to while playing so I did#So it took some time to just sit with everything also I spend a lot of time just doing achievements#One left! The annoying one.#NG+ is fun too#I'm still surprised by how much I enjoyed it#Like 'staying until 6 am playing 10 hours straight' kind of enjoyed#From 'hm I wonder what's it about' to 'yeah I cried multiple times so I think it's allowed to live in my head too'#I got sick multiple times on related and unrelated reasons while playing and planning to play that wasn't fun#Anyway it's cool have some sketches because I couldn't stop drawing last night#I love drawing characters being emotionally in pain but that requires specific mood and music to go with#And not overdoing it#Like when drawing first one 'Aishite' was on loop the whole time#It's b&w too! Red layers are added with 'paste' magic love that
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Vigil - 2x06
#vigiledit#bbc vigil#amy silva#kirsten longacre#suranne jones#rose leslie#vigil spoilers#vigil 2x06#amy x kirsten#femslash related stuff#okay so I hadn't been feeling well saturday night so when the eps dropped I literally just watched the last scene on iplayer#just to make sure nobody freaking died#and it was amy saying I'm coming home on the phone#and given the ''come home''/''I can't'' moment in the trailer I thought amy was legit gonna stay in wudyan these whole last 3 eps#which I didn't love the idea of I truly wanted an amy/kirsten reunion but I was like oh maybe rose leslie's pregnancy interfered#as long as they're both alive and we got that lovely scene in ep 2 it's fine#so this was all a COMPLETE surprise even more than usual#I made it a twist to my own self#and then it was like the perfect hurt/comfort scene you'd want for an action detective couple like this!#amy so focused on the job and then dropping everything to rush to kirsten's side#sitting there all night and that classic waking up in the chair next to the hospital bed scene#and they even had their cake and ate it too by having amy *choose* kirsten over the job#only for kirsten to then push her back to it#and going from this soppy soft teary version of amy to a pissed off black suit badass#because they'd hurt her girl#such a good couple to build a series like this around#lol amy really didn't want to leave!#she's just sitting and gazing at kirsten#man those years ago kirsten would never have imagined getting to see amy like this and meaning so much to her
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Why is this book about 1880s London Jews so relatable to the 2020s American Roman Catholic experience?
In Amy Levy's Reuben Sachs, you've got:
The community that is at once fully part of the modern world while having an insular nature (and the amount of modern vs. insular varies based on the person and family)
The people who ignore their religion 99% of the year, but wouldn't even consider skipping services on the important holidays
The ultra-traditionalists who go so intense on holding to traditions that a lot of other members of their religion side-eye them
The kids who go to services only because their parents force them to, or who rebel and refuse to go because they don't see the point or don't believe in God
The new convert who is more zealous than, like, 90% of the people who were born into this religion
A family with its very specific blend of religious opinions and inside jokes that's fully aware that they're baffling to outsiders
This book was apparently meant to be a realistic portrait of Jewish life (in response to Daniel Deronda and its (according to Levy) highly unrealistic and over-idealized portrayal of Jews), and my goodness, did she succeed in capturing what it's like to live in a culturally religious community in a rapidly secularizing world.
#books#victober#reuben sachs#amy levy#i'm only about a third of the way through but the impression's already so strong i have to talk about it#i thought the anglican church drama was relatable but this cranks it up to 11#also i need to say that while i'm struggling through two books by people who are major overwriters#it is *such* a relief to read something by an under-writer#it's snappy it's quick it's witty it's concise#the oscar wilde vibe is still going strong#i have no clue how these family connections work#and her habit of underwriting is making it hard to differentiate this huge cast#but it's still fun to meet them all#also: love the deeply middle-class vibe#we've got your bankers and your businessmen#but one guy shows up and he's just...a dentist#so refreshing so real#also: i adore the way levy writes family relationships#maybe my favorite thing about her#all these people who are fully aware of each others' quirks#will constantly poke fun at each other but also love each other#in a way that's equal parts fondness and exasperation and good humor#there's something about her style that resonates so well with my interior personality/thought process#and maybe with my writing style/approach to stories#which is very weird because as people we're total opposites#but it feels like hanging out with a friend#anyway i prayed for her last night
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I’m only on season 3 of 911, but I’ve actually seen quite a few people actually losing hope that Buck will end up with Eddie because of the fact that he’s with another man.
I find that interesting because you would think that now is when everyone would have the most hope, but it honestly makes sense to me. I think it’s a result of disbelief. A man headcanoned as Bi actually becoming canonly bi is basically impossible, at least that’s what we’ve been led to believe through decades of the same thing on other shows, one after another.
I think the idea that Buddie could actually happen feels actually impossible because they’ve somehow already done something we were told couldn’t be done, so to have that happen again by making the headcanoned queer ship canon, it’s too good to be true. It just doesn’t happen. It never happens.
It’s sad that that’s the way it has been. But I truly hope that Buddie becomes canon and marks a real turning point for fandoms/shows/the queer community.
#if something happened related to Buddie in last nights episode#don’t tell me lol#I wrote this before last nights episode#I’m trying to catch up quick#evan buckey x eddie diaz#911 tv show#evan buckley#eddie diaz#buddie#911 abc#911 thoughts#buck x tommy#buck x eddie#bi evan buckley#911 show
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Me being in the Phandom like
#danny phantom#deep space gives me anxiety lmao#stars are cool but they're on thin ice#I also can't see them very well anyway since I have visual snow so the night sky is more static than anything#ANYWAY GONNA POST THIS AND DUCK AND HIDE#safety/#that last tag is related to my OCD if you ever see me post it just know there's some weird or anxiety inducing OCD thought process happening#dogposts
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this is honestly my favorite song on flood
#besides maybe hearing aid#i love this song for a lot of reasons but chief among them is that ive been obsessed with the imagery of#the idea of spongeing off something unpleasant thats spilled on your brain#thats so nonspecific and so disturbing and also so relatable#i was talking with my friend last night about what tmbg protagonists/characters we weirdly identify with#and i was like honestly i think its mr horrible. maybe tied with mister me#but i have to listen to them and think really hard about it all day now#i know everyone has their own interpetations of tmbg songs including this one but to me this song is the autistic experience incarnate#like i have a lot a lot of thoughts about the lyrics of this song#and they way they reflect my own state of mind Lol
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girlhood
#i have to fly out to capetown to see mother and im literally debating if i could land in the morning and leave at night on the same day#like. anything longer than that is going to ruin my year.#when she called and did her “katherine. you have to be here on the 10th” i literally sobbed in my bed for the rest of the day 😍😍😍#not dyeing my hair black for a year and its getting lighter and lighter everyday and i look like her again#and my therapist telling me “you need to do things for yourself.” but like can i? sorry that woman traumatised me and i actually cant :)#like everything i do is informed by her#I'm going to go and just like everytime the only way to keep my sanity is to mirror her. talk and sit and speak and read and eat like her#and its such a terrifying experience bc i remember that im capable of emulating her viciousness and maybe i am my mother's daugher 🤢🤢🤢#and im going to come back and its going to take fucking months for me to feel like myself again#“oh you look so beautiful just like your mother” i hope you DIE lol !!! the fact that my conception of beauty was shaped by her#growing up with this cruel beautiful detached woman and realising that at the intersection of beauty and wickness is a lifetime of pain#and still being so desperate for her approval- for any metaphysical proximity to her that i felt elated when#people would tell me i look like her. that it meant i was also beautiful like her and maybe she'll love me a little for it#but now i know for a fact that i do look like her and it makes saliva swell under my tongue - that moment right before you throw up-#when people mention it 😍#last time i was in capetown my optic neuritis flared up (and i know for a fact it was that it was ms-stress related from having to see her)#and i thought i hid it so well even though i had near constant headaches & lethargy until she said “katherine give me the red notebook”#and i knew that she knew all along. it was so acutely humiliating standing there and knowing she knows i cant see which one is the red one#and she tilted her head and said “whats the matter? do you not know what red looks like?”#im never going to have kids. my mother and i read eachother so well it can only mean im never too far removed from becoming her#lol!!!!!!!!!
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Since I have finally defeated the horrors*, I'm starting to catch up on World Beyond Numbers after having fallen behind when school started after arc 1, and I did in fact have to pause to take a walk to get some baklava before getting too far into the Citadel food crawl because it is late afternoon and I was not gonna make it.
#*technically i finished classwork last week but i only got the last of my grades back last night and thank FUCK.#i did get straight As and thats what matters 😌#on a tangentially related note (being a nerd) idgaf about the discourse i want to be a citadel wizard so bad.#this place is like. nyc meets venice. in the desert. I WANT TO LIVE THERRRRE#and also i wanna be steel when i grow up.#like i said do not care about the discourse I hear it's horrific i am a citadel wizard apologist and i do not take criticism at this time.#i am vaguely aware of the discourse and I do already have thoughts on it but I'll be waiting to say more until i meet the coven.#HOWEVER. wizard apologist babey. i am assuming my hat for the summer.#wbn
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Hua Cheng uses those hand-drawn emoji reaction memes, this is canon event because I said so These little doodles are also posted on my instagram (@yumemiruuuu) if you want to check them out ♡
#do you guys think that Hua Cheng would have a bandage shaped tanning mark from the many years of having his face bandaged up?#like hua cheng might not but hong-er definitely could have it and he’s so self-conscious about it#i need answers man#literally stayed up in bed last night thinking about this#i have so many tgcf related thoughts that keep me up at night#tgcf#天官赐福#heaven official's blessing#tian guan ci fu#hua cheng#tgcf fanart#hua cheng fanart
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Good afternoon everypony!! Last night my partner and I got a little silly and rewatched the episode of PPG where Utonium and Ms. Keane start dating and ugghh....why he so FUCKING cute 😭😭💖💖
And tbhhh the reason they sorta didn't work out is cause they weren't able to balance the lives they had with their infatuation with each other (tbh if the cat argument hadn't happened when it did any ol thing would have caused them to break up methinks) and y'know...I think that's why he'd work so well with my s/i 🥺👉👈
Theyre allowed to still be their own people and have their own things even if they do become a couple! Even if they get married! They're still individuals who support their own passions as well as each other's. And they certainly don't need/want to change themselves for each other 💖💖💖
#jane journals#self insert talk#🔬 starkissed scientist 🔬#WAAAHH DONT MIND ME 🥺🥺👉👈#im remembering my thoughts from last night ajfjgk we shortly thereafter went upstairs watched silly video and passed out#and another thing is my partner mentioned that thats kinda why we work so well irl...🥺💗💖💗💖💗💖#we take being separated very well (its kinda necessary for their job)#so when we DO return its like the first time all over again. we also do a lot of paralell play!!#like. its enough to be in the same room#and thats what i think would be w my s/i and utonium >//<#also THE EP AFTER THAT UGH BLOSSOM MY POOR SWEET GIFTED CHILD 😭😭😭#i love her sm shes so me when i was younger if im being truly honest#bubbles is my favorite but blossom...i relate to ajfjf
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#quotes#sad thoughts#relatable quotes#teen quotes#alone with my thoughts#tears#texts from last night#tears for fears#text message#never be the same#not the same#being alone#all alone#forever and always#sad love quotes#lonely#unrequited love#why cant i be better#i want to stop hurting#forever hurting#hurting#relationahip quotes#texts#loneliness#loss#strange love#sad love quote#3am thoughts#midnight thoughts#depressing things
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New Mulder headcanon: He's really good at improvising bandages and other first aid dressings but it's often with the wackiest stuff, like electrical tape, masking tape, etc.
#this is at least partially from the fact that he gets injured so damn much#and didnt have scully for a good long time so learnt to Improvise(tm)#this is also related to the knife esp incident last night#which is not something i ever thought id type and yet. here we are.#and here *i* am with my fingertip wrapped in masking tape because i dont own any plasters apparently and those things are expensive yall#x files#the x files#the scientist speaks#headcanons
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AFTERMARE WEEK: Day 7- the end of a beginning/ the beginning of the end
make me believe and raise my hopes up one last time, then haunt my dreams for the rest of my life
aftermare week is hosted by @bluepallilworld
#art#illustration#my art#aftermare week 2023#aftermare week#nightmare#nightmare sans#fem!nightmare#this was actually the first piece i finished!! before the week even started cause i thought i was a literal month late ahhh hhh xD#geno isn't a ghost here night is just reminiscing about old memories :)#i have lots and lots of headcanons surrounding human!nightmare's corruption process but just so you know her appearance changes slightly#istg when i posted the grass wip i did NOT expect it to get 30+ notes like wow! i'm so glad you guys thought it looked good hhh :'D#hope it's not? underwhelming? i didn't expect to participate in all the prompts but this is the first!! week challenge i completed perfectl#last cryptic quote for the week wooo!! try to see how it's related to the prompts cause i'm curious to hear your interpretations >:D#i have a dentist appointment on the 17th so this is queued! i'll reblog everyone's art once i come back so don't worry >:'D#btw thank you so much for hosting this event blue!! the prompts were literally ALLL a 10 outta 10 just howww >:"0#i hope you're having an amazing day miss >:3 <3333
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So we know that Jamie comes to AFC Richmond on loan from Man City, right? but like… what’s the story behind that?
We know Richmond needed him bc Dani was hurt, but was he getting minutes at Man City before he left?
ALSO. Where was he playing before he went to Man City? Was he, like… a rec league kid? Man City academy? Man United academy???
Did Jamie Tartt end up at Richmond bc Man City didn’t think he was good enough?
#I’m having lots of Cavan Sullivan inspired thoughts about Jamie#INSPIRED#not directly related#but like… huge promise from a v young age#promised to Man City when he turns 18#but like#what if that doesn’t work out#is Cavan Sullivan a deep cut?#idk I know him#I want all the success for him#not for his team#but that’s a different story#I watched him meet Messi last night after the Philly Union vs Inter Miami game last night and he’s been on my mind lol#ANYWAY#jamie tartt#afc richmond#ted lasso#just my ramblings#Sadie does soccer#so much of my soccer knowledge is MLS based and not BPL based pls don’t hold it against me too much#just a girl trying her best
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taking a break from thinking about that old man by thinking about another old man.
#i think this weekend proved i literally can't go five minutes without thinking old man and old man related thoughts#also last night i was uh#well#you'll see#impending spam that somehow ISN'T tmann related
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