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tunabesimpin · 1 year

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me when i cant socialize normally without thinking i've ruined everything at a every moment

#real venting hours #i type hi in chat -> I awkwardly leave because I take 5 million years to process what people are saying & know i wont be able to keep up #i love listening to people and interacting TOT but i also feel like im intruding if i cant keep up #i just wish i could talk without all the anxiety #tbh posting even this ive spent the past 20 mins rephrasing out of anxiety of being misinterpreted and/ or seen like a crybaby #i wanna post this still to release my feelings and kinda teach myself its ok to express negative emotion

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incorrect-batfam-quotes-mostly · 1 month

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Dear supervisors at work

You do not get to tell me to suck it up

I have endometriosis

I am sucking it up

It's a miracle I'm even at work right now so please

Shut

Up

Sincerely, the kid you shouldn't be getting this mad at over a debilitating and incurable condition

Nia

#my supervisors suck pt 2 #this is how im venting my anger #one of them said to my other coworker id never be able to have a real job #im working 8 hours a day 5 days a week here #and nothing i do is good enough for them anyways so what does it matter #real job my ass #i know about the real world then i should

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m3lat0nin · 2 months

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oh god, i want to go home. i miss you. i miss you. take me home. you are my home.

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medicalunprofessional · 1 year

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flood

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#caligosto loboto #dr loboto #psychonauts #nightmaretheater #if you havent noticed i reaaally like flood by tool #this took 10 hours combined time of drawing 🕊️🕊️🕊️redid the sketch like 5 times lik #this is actually kind of personal to me….#as a child i had a reeaaaallly oppressive fear of my house flooding #like. i couldnt bare to hear a faucet running. thats how bad it was #all those flood damage relief commercials on tv scared me.#i very distinctly rememebr on of a house flooding thru the floor vents very quickly. and at the end the front door broke down.. scary #the psychological damage young me endured from the commercials #also ignore the wonky perspedtive on the crib i kind of exploded after trying to perspective for like an hour straight #its okay. it works. geometry is just weird in the psychonauts world #sheds a tear #oh the horrors..!.!.!!.! yipes #this is my ‘bobo exposed heart image’ to the cycle knots fanbase. real ones would know #drawing this was an experience man #thats why i vanished for a bit… sorry. ‘hey johnny got into str-‘ dont care im making a masterpiece #okay enough rambling im sorry #tips down glasses. send post

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solargeist · 8 months

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i dont know how people do it ! how do they compliment people so easily, hold a persons hand, say i love you, and make eye contact, i cant do it ! im sweating !!

#last time i complimented someone on their pink hair i had the anxiety shakes for three hours and then thought i was disgusting #''your hair is pretty'' im a creep! im a weirdo! radiohead....#/lh /lh /lh but also real #my art #sketching #vent art #<- ??? MAYBE?#how do you just start talking when you've been mute most of your life. so scary.#i feel like exploding when people touch me its too overwhelming

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lambsloveletters · 4 months

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HE LOVES ME HE LOVES ME HE LOVES ME HE LOVES ME HE LOVES ME HE LOVES ME HE LOVES ME HE LOVES ME !! YOU CANT TELL ME HE DOESNT !!

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oathkeeper-of-tarth · 7 months

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Also I quit my job of what would in about a month or two have been 10 years, and perhaps now I will get to actually be a human being again.

#honestly? honestly?#last week i told the two (2) godawful egomaniac lab head Man In Academia bosses i quit and that we need to formalise it asap and i just #felt like a little feather about to float away on a breeze #maybe now i can do normal people things like eat and sleep and have a routine of some sort idk #i have been slowly losing it for at least 3-4 years now #i took a screenshot and last year i had no fewer than 14 fucking travel orders fulfilled #most of which consisted of like 12+ hour days on ships and docks #i'm just so tired man #not for reblogging obviously #i don't really wanna vent anymore or ponder them and the entire godforsaken institution but like #good riddance tbh #which is really really sad when you think about it! but here we are #it was just... no trace of future anywhere to be seen! entirely a Void!!#gonna post a beefy lesbian paladin real quick to push this post down lmao #but i felt like sharing because i know there's good and concerned people who follow me here and i both appreciate and miss you all #and lord knows some of you have been listening to me vent and whine for ages #am i going to miss some great people and the research community of my field? of course but also it was all just completely unsustainable

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teddybeartoji · 13 days

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eeeee can't wait to go to this family thing and be bombarded with questions abt what i do and what i wanna do and when am i gonna get a job and a driving license and why i'm still not studying anything eeeeeeeeee it's gonna be so much fun<3333333333

#striving to become the next big family fuckup actually #dw it's not gonna be as bad as it sounds #just veeery very annoying #and actually the kids will save me too i get to go and tussle with the kids so i don't have to have any real talk lmao #AAAND my brother is there too #he's gonna get the real spotlight #as he deserves btw he's a good kid #(he's 18)#sighhhh #it's gonna be 8am in ten minutes and i've been up for like two and a half hours now #with no sleep in sight i'm just hungry #RAAHHHHHHHH #doomed #mayor of loserville #tw vent

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ratcandy · 10 months

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getting into actual angry arguments: awful. terrible. going to be thinking about it for the rest of the day. leaves me seething about what I could have said differently for the rest of my life.

getting into friendly debates: ohhhhhh enrichmennce.. :) mine brain is so full and thinking..........yippie yaaaaaay!!!!!!

#dichotomy of ME!!! love arguing but also i hate arguing.#aka i got into an angry argument today because my normally conflict-avoidant self had her foot metaphorically stomped on too many times #and i decided i was fed up and stood up for myself #like .why bold face lie to me like that i'll kill you. and a lie that directly fucks me over? who do u think i am #Sorry I'm still seething about it clearly SHDGKLJSDHG it was like. 7 hours ago and I'm still ranting to myself about it #anyway. URHGHHH sorry for venting real life stuff on here I try not to do that #but I GOTTA be mad somewhere about this stupid argument it's currently PLAGUING me #self doubt demon in my brain whispering horrid deceptions. Die 1 million deaths. ok i'm done now.#clamtalk

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lavenderwitchxxx · 1 year

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Not so friendly reminder that people who demonise antisocial personality disorder, narcissistic people, personality disorders, psychopaths, sociopaths, people with DID, people who are clinically insane/psychotic, people with schizophrenia, etc, can fuck right off and are not welcome here. No disorder makes you an inherently evil person, and the people you're demonising are human beings who deserve basic human treatment.

Not only that, friendly reminder those people are welcome here, and this is a safe space for disorders considered "scary" and "dangerous" bc y'all are fucking human beings.

#saw a video abt a drunk driver who killed two people #and everyone in the comment section was calling her “narcissistic” “insane” “psychotic” etc #those are real fucking people and you're comparing them to a drunk driver who murdered people #someone literally said “textbook sociopath” and I could talk for hours about how that is so beyond incorrect #felix vents #antisocial personality disorder #narcissistic personality disorder #psychopaths #sociopaths #personality disorders #DID #schizophrenia

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dandyshucks · 2 months

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i am freeeeeeeee [collapses into a pile of dust]

#the last hour went okay bc we were just playing a card game and doing gifts/cards phew #also i found out theyre celebrating my bday on... august 25th? hewwo?? they didn't tell me until now 😭😭#my sister will be back at uni in sept and my parents are leaving on a trip the first day of sept so i'll be alone again for it fsdjkl #which. mixed feelings about that. i won't have to be afraid of them interacting w me but also :'( a little sad to be home alone for it #for the third year in a row fsjdkl #OH WELL. i should just be grateful tbh fdsjkl #the one thing i'm very sad about though is i can't go upstairs anymore bc the new security system has motion detectors #last year i watched jerma on the TV up there and sat on the comfy chairs... it was so fun fdsjkl. can't do that this year though AUGH #alas!!! i will somehow make it fun anyways maybe i will just ask if i can use the oven so i can make myself a cake again this year #SORRY FOR PERSONAL POSTING SO MUCH TONIGHT BTW. its been rough this evening fsdjkl but im going to go draw now :3 #dandy.cmd #vent //#ALSO CONGRATS TO ME FOR BEING RLY QUIET AND AGREEABLE AND NOT ADDING ANYTHING NEW TO CONVOS HURRAY #finally i have gone back to highschool me thank GOD i've gotten too comfortable having opinions around them since i graduated fdsjkl #being around people (in the workplace and going to a counselor) who treat you like a Real Human Person will do that! wow!#abuse cw

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floral-hex · 6 months

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woke up at 4am feeling the weight of my life crushing me, so I’ve been sitting out in my car for the last couple of hours because I just need. to. be. somewhere else.

#tumblr ate something like this but I think I deserve to shout uselessly into the void #shits rough dawg #I know it’s rough for everyone. I feel shitty even talking about myself. still… compelled to vent… big butts #haven’t really been on here much since it hasn’t really scratched that itch lately & just makes me feel lonelier #it’s cold #saw the Jazzercise studio open across the street. 5am for Jazzercise? wow. early.#and then everyone left an hour and a half later. lights out. everybody gone. weird schedule. I am perplexed.#went down the road and got a soda and I’ve been sitting in my driveway contemplating for the last 2.5 hours #guy at the gas station tried to talk to me but I just half assed a smile and nod and left #even though I know I’d love to just… talk to someone. I suppose it has to be ‘on my terms’ whatever those are #I miss having a therapist. or even just when my little brothers would talk to me. when anyone would. blegh #my insurance is still a mess and I’m about to run out of one of my blood pressure meds this week #maybe I’ll have a stroke. scary to think about. I think about dying a lot but that potential feels too real. just… pop! and I’m done.#I’ll try today to finally push to straighten it out but everything feels daunting #woke up with so much anxiety. about my health. my hearing. no money. my life. had to get out of the house even if it’s just right outside #hate to say it but I need(want) thc. haven’t wanted to spend money on it but I could have really used it this morning #can’t be sad if you can’t feel anything (jokingly but also not. whichever is less sad sounding)#actually treated myself to Dune 2 last week and it was so so good. wish I could go again. but it’s drugs food or movie right now. so…#I know. dumb priority but BIG SCREEN. maybe it’ll hit theaters again for the next awards season hopefully. just a real nice loud experience #anyway… I should go inside. almost 7am. need to take my brothers to school then drive my mom to her daily appointments #I’ve felt so hollow and angry and sad for so long it feels like. I feels so weak and sad and I’m tired of it. I’m so tired.#I’ve been eating about 1 meal a day and sleeping a lot. this is the worst my body has ever been. I feel like I’m just waiting to die.#is this relatable?#just have to look past it. it is nothing. this body is nothing. just enjoy your soda.#gonna look at pictures of butts now #ok gotta go I love you goodbye forever #you can ignore this #text

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pechebeche · 4 months

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you forget how Physical depression can get when you're on good meds. i have been drinking so much water all week and forcing myself to eat, but i still feel both bloated and nauseous like ive overeaten + dizzy like i haven't eaten in days. no wonder i had-have disordered eating

#im doing my best to hold out until monday when i can call my psychiatrist again to see how long itll be #its my own damn fault for losing the pill bottle too #personally #vent post #having a real rough time of it. ill be doing sthing i enjoy and then all of a sudden even thinking abt doing it anymore #makes me so nauseous i have to get up and go to bed and lie down for like an hour #nothing tastes good. its all just forcing it down.#im sure yesterday nights stress made it all worse too

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spiltcandycoatedpunkblood · 3 months

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current election mood through tintin memes

#i am being extremely normal about it as we speak #uk politics #gotta wait until late night to even hear the start of the results #naturally it's gonna be hours because of the counting involved #so this is a real event #the adventures of tintin #favourite films #memes #vent #rant #text posts #text post memes

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museoftheprophet · 4 months

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How am I supposed to explain to those around me why I’m distraught/ shut down without having to explain my fictionkin situation and the horror it entails (this happens regularly)

“Give me a minute I feel nauseous because others who I do not recognize are wearing my name and face. They do not recognize me, and neither will those I love, who I need to recognize me, so I can recognize myself. They are calling my loved ones from my phone number, but that is not my voice. That is not my voice!”

#I feel like pinkie pie in too many pinkie pies #desperately trying to prove that I am real please do not zap me out of existence. why don’t they recognize me :( can’t they tell it’s me?#I’ll watch the paint dry I will :( I won’t move a muscle :(#I wish I had another identity state to retreat into. but this is it this is all I’ve got #it’s been years it’s been years it’s been yyyyyears #the centipede is back.#god I feel sick #time for the sydney feelings hour #fictionkin #campherenadtherekin #fictionkin vent

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autumn-applepie · 4 months

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University ever pushes you so low you have to go buy a couple of beers? /srs/neg

I'm gonna vent in the tags for a moment humor me for once /gen

#No but I'm serious this place is a nightmare /neg #Venting in the tags #humor me for a second. you go to this uni and they promise you a place that will teach you how to become an artist #on both like. morality and skill level. they feed you with bullshit for MONTHS. “oh mistakes are fine! they make you grow!”#or “oh this is a community we work all together there are no discriminations this is a safe place to learn and improve”#and we like. work on this projects - THAT WE ARE NOT PAID TO WORK FOR SO *WE* GET TO PAY FOR ALL THE MATERIALS AND SHIT FOR THEM.#to like “help the community” or whatevrr because “artists are born to inspire others and bring joy” and blah blah blah. BUT. LIKE. THE THING #THE THING IS. NONE OF THESE PROJECTS WILL END UP ON OUR CURRICULUMS. WHAT WE WORK 6-7 YEARS FOR ARE NOT SEEN AS REAL EXPERIENCES.#AS IF WE'VE DONE LITERALLY NOTHING FOR 6-7 YEARS. AND LIKE. THE PROFESSORS ARE SO RACIST AND DISCRIMINATORY AS WELL.#If they don't like you they WON'T EVEN GIVE YOU THE EXAM. BECAUSE THERE'S NO WAY TO DEMONSTRATE IF YOU WORKED OR NOT. IT'S UP TO THEM.#THEY DECIDE EVERYTHING FOR EVERYONE AS IF WE ARE SOME SORT OF FUCKING COMMUNIST KINDA BULLSHIT WORKERS.#Someone fucks up? *WE* FUCK UP AND EVERYONE PAYS. Someone succeeds? *WE* SUCCEED AND EVERYONE GETS THE CREDITS.#THIS IS ALSO WHY NONE OF THE WORKS WE DO END UP IN OUT CURRICULUM BECAUSE ITS MADE SO THAT *THE UNIVERSITY COURSE* DID IT AND NOT *US*.#IT'S FUCKING BULLSHIT AND I CAN'T EVEN GET OUT OF THERE BECAUSE IF I DO MY PARENTS WILL KICK ME OUT CUZ THEY DON'T WANT ME TO BE AN ARTIST #So I'm trying to STUDY for the exams and the “professors” are getting mad at me that I'm not staying 10 HOURS IN THAT MOTHERFUCKING ART LAB.#WORKING AT THEIR NONSENSE PROJECTS THAT WILL NOT END UP IN MY CURRICULUM.#“Oh if you're not willing to put all your efforts for the course this is not the place for you” BITCH I *AM* PUTTING ALL MY EFFORTS!#THIS EXAM IS *LITERALLY* PART OF THE COURSE!! WHAT KIND OF FUCKING BULLSHIT ARGUMENT IS THAT!!!!!#Istg I'm gonna cry I want to kms /NOT SERIOUS #I'm gonna cook dinner. chug my lemon beer. and try to study like a normal person and beg this shit will end soon #Don't worry I'm not going to become an alcoholic I just need something. anything and I'm ABSOLUTELY not gonna start smoking I hate it /srs #tw alchohol mention #alcohol mention #tw smoking mention #smoking mention #vent #tw vent #// mike speaks

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