#rant wire rant

[reallongwire]

Vent/Advice Post (Skip if you don't want to read a wall of text from a tortured girl "( – ⌓ – ))

I'm afraid I'm going to have to end things with a boy who has been nothing but good to me. 😔 Being in an r-ship at this point in my life feels like more of a burden than a positive. And I feel terrible for feeling that way because it's like I'm being ungrateful. He has qualities you can't find in most men these days. He's kind, gentle, and affectionate. He's accountable, communicative, and isn't scared of long-term. He's handsome, too. So why is my heart calling for me to break free?

I can't call or text him every day. I need my space and solitude. And he doesn't even ask for me to sacrifice it, but since he's always communicating with me, I respect him too much to leave him on read for too long. And it's tiring. I guess I should also mention that he's overseas. I've dealt with LDRs before, but... looks like my needs have changed. I have to admit that I'm not the healthy one in this r-ship. It's also only been a bit over a month since we started talking seriously, and he's mentioned marriage and children--not in the near future, but at least said he wants that with me one day--a few times already. That scared me. I don't even factor children in my life. He doesn't even really know me, but he claims he loves me. And as exciting as that was at first... I don't know. It's not like he's brushing my feelings aside. I know he'd listen to me if I told him. But... it's hard for me to share them in the first place. I'm self-conscious and a people-pleaser too. It's even harder when I can't see him face-to-face and when I have to talk in a language I can't express myself as well in.

I don't want to hurt him... but I also need to listen to my heart. I don't want to quash it or put it aside anymore, like I've done all my life. Jeez, I hate this. It's like everything a past version of myself would have wanted has landed in front of me, wrapped in a pretty bow, and I can't be thankful and hold on and never let go?

The thing is, there's so much I want to do on my own. But the other thing is, he said I'm the color who came into his life of black and white. I'm the only one he really has, he said. I don't want to let him down...

I think the least I can do is share how I truly feel with him, since he's so communicative with me. It's going to be scary and it's going to be hard, since I'll have to talk in another language. I've been wracked by guilt for the past week. It's been building. I don't want to push it away anymore. I can't. I have to honor myself.

Edit: AAAAAAAAAA

[siyelius]

jericrew pj party

(totally not just an excuse to draw hc body refs post-revolution and rant in tags)

[bearotonin-international]

Apex predator, my ass. I’m going to pet the dog 🐻🐻‍❄️🐼

perhaps now is a good time for some responsible bear programming to remind everyone that as cute and cuddly as they may seem, bears are lethal apex predators and should absolutely be treated accordingly if ever encountered.

DO

NOT

PET

[menelaus-blue]

for some reason i’ve been seeing an increase in posts lately (both here and on twitter) claiming that marcille and falin are nearly the same height and have an imperceptible height difference??? they do not??? falin is 170 cm (5’7) and marcille is 160 cm (5’3)? as a tall person with shorter friends, 10 cm is a pretty noticeable height difference, it’s not just about chimera falin but literally all the time. marcille is looking up. falin is looking down. they are a height difference couple ok this is really important to me

[arteicetb]

I really hate how Barbie, Blitz’s literal Twin Sister, has no where near the amount of attention for their past or childhood with Blitz compared to Fizz. Who for some, myself included, confused him to be their other sibling. No way in Hell (HA) would I have thought that they weren’t related let alone that Blitz had a crush on him. The build up was no where, just that Blitz was extremely jealous of him😭

Worst of all, we don’t know how Barbie feels about Fizz. We’re they close like Blitz and him? Did she also have a crush on him or saw him as a lil brother?? Nothing at all is given to this woman and it’s actually frustrating.

Sometimes I think Helluva Boss (the art not the artists) thinks it’s audience doesn’t think, as if we’re stupid and wouldn’t question the simplest thing.

[swampstew]

Gonna set the reblog queue up again since a few new people have popped into my nest!

Hello ~ I'm Raven!

I like to write smut and fluff, and most things in between! I especially love writing about this hot mess

RRrrRrrRRRRRRrrrrrrRrrRrRRR

God he's so fucking hot

I've been kinda on and off for a bit since I got busy irl but trust ya girl has been...

Yearning.

I'm hoping to be more active for the rest of the year! There are no announcements yet cause I'm still trying to get some things rolling, so sit back and enjoy all I have to offer ❤️

Be nice or stay out

[bread-that-draws]

The Lovers: Being at crossroads. Choices. Commitment. Falling in love. Harmony. Warmth.

The Lovers Reversed: Misalignment. Imbalance. Disharmony. Coldness.

[clever-raptor]

I sincerely hope what may happen doesn't come to pass. But if it does? I hope all of the people i know who were gleefully shouting from the rooftops praising the orange motherfucker understands just what they are putting into motion for their kids and their grandkids.

I hope when the kids grow up and realize what their parents posted on Facebook and the lies they have spouted and reshared again and again, the friends they could have made, the relationships they could have had. They get furious. How dare they. How dare they take away what we had.

[the-indigo-symphony]

System Ramble: reading, inner/internal voices, and our brain's continuous attempts to understand the world around us

[PT: System Ramble: reading, internal voices, and our brain's continuous attempts to understand the world around us / end PT]

I'll probably have to expand on this at some other point because it ties into how we feel our plurality is a fundamental part of how we process the world (and that deserves its own essay), but there's something interesting that happens when we read that has to do with our system.

Have you ever seen those posts that talk about "the little voice in your head" that you get whenever you read something? A lot of people are able to hear the words they read being "spoken" in their head as they read them. A lot describe the voice reading "out loud" in their brain as either being their own voice or some detached voice without anything more to it, but for us...

... it's closer to one of us reading out loud to the rest of us.

As we write this post, for example, we can identify the headmate in front who's taken on the role of the "voice" reading each word. There's no simpler way to describe it – he's the one reading out each word to the rest of us, and we can hear his own inflections and other verbal quirks as he reads. We've recently begun trying to consciously pass the role of this "inner voice" around, and we can definitely hear a change depending on who's reading, even if it's the exact same text. Eddie has a deeper voice, and reads much slower, giving the impression of a grandpa reading a book by the fire. Danny, by comparison, has a higher voice, reads quicker, and is often audibly annoyed when he has to reread something. It's a very interesting thing to experiment with.

Based on these experiments, acting as this "inner voice" is sort of like a very flexible system role for us, one we naturally fall into or out of most of the time, but can occasionally choose (which is, funnily enough, very similar to how our switches function). This phenomenon happens automatically with most texts we read, and may be part of the reason we have so many introjects; our brain may be simply creating the most fitting "voice" for what we read as it sees the need, which is frequently either the author, or a character in the text. But regardless of the reason, it's a very helpful tool for figuring out who's in front or discovering new headmates, as we have a strong sense for whoever it is that's reading at any given time, and find it especially easy to visualize a headmate whenever they're taking on this role.

On rare occasions where this doesn't happen, we often have trouble absorbing the information we read. It just doesn't stick in the same way one (or more) of us reading to the others does. Which is definitely a con; if it weren't so automatic for us and thus rarely a problem (especially now that we've identified what's going on), we'd definitely be counting it as one of the ways our DID disables us. It's not too different from how it becomes difficult to impossible to absorb information when we're too dissociated, after all. (But then, that raises a question: is the reason we can't absorb text when too dissociated because the dissociation is keeping us from fulfilling this role? Food for thought.)

This isn't the only way in which we utilize our plurality in order to process and absorb information; we also have various system members we call "captioners" whose job it is to make it easier to understand what we hear or see by creating visuals based on this sensory input. We haven't tried having these two roles active at the same time – mainly because I think it would just overload our brain with too much to keep track of and any attempts would fizzle out – but it's an interesting idea for something to experiment with in the future. The parallels are interesting, anyway, especially with how they seem to indicate that our plurality is fundamental to how we process the world and what kinds of choices our brain made when creating us. Perhaps it's all part of our brain's attempt to cope with its own dissociative disorder by creating work-arounds for the problems dissociation can cause, but... I feel like there's more to it than that. The question is where to look for answers (and if the answers are something we should be unpacking just yet).

That brings me back to the beginning. It's interesting to see how our plurality functions almost like a neurotype in some ways – I don't know if I'd call it that, but I can see some parallels in how others talk about them with how plurality functions in our brain. One day, I hope to write a collection of all the different ways our plurality affects us like this, as a sort of guide to our own processing and understanding of the world through a plural lens. For now, though, it's just interesting to think about how I'm now reading this post "out loud" to my headmates as I write it, and how my internal voice differs from those who have read it before me.

... Also, I'm just now realizing this system (no pun intended) works better when the fronter writing a text is also the headmate reading the text. Huh. That fits, somehow.

So, to recap: we get the most out of reading when we use our plurality to host what is essentially system storytime, our internal voices differ a lot more than we first thought they did, and it's interesting that our brain keeps making selves and roles just for helping us understand the world around us. Thanks for reading our ramble.

[serenhob]

I feel like I should be original but my friend sent me more things she found funny for me to Journey to the westify

Here they are

I'm thinking Sun Wukong vs the bureaucracy of heaven

No idea but I love this image

And finally

Sun Wukong bullying Zhu Bajie (affectionately..maybe)

Also before I forget my friend made me and my friend vote on what we would rather eat and to begin it was meat or spaghetti but after further prompting she said 'congealed meat slop or dry raw pasta' there's a right answer and that is not the one she chose.

[ghst001]

While I like helluva boss sometimes I have to rant about the treatment of Barbie wire (she had so much potential only to show up in 4mins of screentime of her doing nothing but selling and doing drugs (bc of depression and addiction etc that will probably will never get explored about her character) and that’s it they didn’t tell us nothing else about her and yet she’s supposed be blitzo twin and in a circus act with him but no that role was given to fizzarolii his best friend

(of course a male character that viz would rather give all the focus to than blitzos literally twin sister who was shown in the picture in the pilot) Barbie wire had little screentime in her first ep instead it was a Millie and moxie ep with nothing interesting to tell and she was shoved in there out of nowhere I swear nothing would change if it she was removed from the ep that’s sad. Verosika had a more impact in her episode. interesting idea it was implied that she knew about blitzos sister in rehab

and viz could have done something interesting with them and give them a backstory about how they met and bonded over hating blitzo and maybe there’s a story to tell about Barbies scars and her pov of the fire(that she was strangely cut from) and where did she get the asmodean crystal that’s in her watch (maybe she stole it from verosika and that’s why she insulted her name)

but I doubt it maybe blitzo messed up and we only get his side of the story and not barbie’s and she is never mentioned or seen again. A lot of fans lost interest in her ever since unhappy campers that’s sad I just want her to have her own episodes like fizzarolli did when he and blitzo talked it out (also the fact that fizz has never mentioned her once or asked about her..) they were raised in the same circus man maybe I’m being too impatient

[several-ravens]

post season 2 horny rant about elias don't click if it's going to upset you

MY HUSBAND. A MURDERER. who would have thought???

so it was him at the murderous end of that pipe. good for him

when i tell you i screamed when he walked into the room. i mean damn he can talk to me like that whenever he wants. HIS VOICE??? and that little evil speech at the beginning oooooh that's enough to kill me

maybe he didn't need to murder leitner as well but also who am i to stop him? like eurgh brotha eurgh but also ooooh baby heaven is a place on earth like that one remix that's on tiktok atm

AND because that wasn't enough, on top of being evil and fucked up he's also very powerful

excuse me but that's hot af. his place of power should be me.

(i have a thing for evil powerful men in case that wasn't clear)

[mothmangang]

I don't really fw when people draw characters who are robots with fleshy bodies like no, do not give him meat if your 'robot' is just a guy with a TV on his head your are not a robo-fucker. you need to be able to chew on his wires for it to be robofucking material. The people drawing the Fnaf Daycare Attendant have it right

[snorkling-in-sodasea]

Ghost F-Kers Rant

Because yeah, I'm pissed at this episode. I initially liked it but that's literally just because it had the fucking Stolitz drama that I'm so sick and tired of at this point to the back. It may be how the episode even happened but it was still to the back.

Then I read YMMV on TV tropes for this episode and realize that, under Informed Wrongness, Blitz is a fucking douche. Again.

And now I'm right back into hating Blitz so I don't like the episode as much anymore.

It's amazing. It truly is. Stolas is literally the only reason I can ever care about Blitzo. When Blitzo is being made to care about and fall in love with his abuser and sexual extorter. Take Stolas away, though, and I go straight back to hating Blitzo and wanting him to suffer.

And no, I don't mean 'suffer' like that fucking constant trauma dumping that the show writers seem to do with Blitzo in every single episode now. I'm talking about making him suffer comedically.

Eustace Bagg from Courage the Cowardly Dog. Dan from Dan Vs. Those two men are grown up entitled babies and yet, I can feel for them far more than I ever can Blitzo. Eustace and Dan definitely don't need a sexual abuser like how Blitzo does for me to feel sorry for them and/or like them

Maybe that's because of two major things that are coming to me off the top of my head. For one, the writers made sure that Eustace and Dan got as much shit as they gave. Or at the very least, they often made sure to remember that they're assholes and should be punished for it

The other thing is probably that, more often than not, it was funny. It wasn't just cathartic when these assholes got consequences for their jerkass behavior. It was also funny. Sure, Courage the Cowardly Dog and Dan Vs. are comedies but maybe that's it. Helluva Boss really was better off being a comedy and nothing more, so that way, Blitzo can suffer like Eustace and Dan and that would've been perfectly fine

Because really, nobody's ever held accountable in the right way. As in, the actual fucked up shit someone does, especially if they're in Viv's favor, actually get held accountable for that shit. It's treated as no big deal that Blitzo has always stalked his employees and tried being their 'third' against their wishes. Stolas is constantly written like his worst flaws are just not being aware or missing the hint, like his racism and fetishizing ways aren't a thing he does, as well as neglecting his daughter the very second Blitzo re-entered his life. And getting into Hazbin Hotel, and just to give a couple of examples for that show, only a fucking passing mention is made about Angel always violating Husk's boundaries and apparently Husk isn't a bad guy for taking his frustration out on everyone and airing their dirty laundry when it was only Angel who was bothering him at the time. At least if Helluva Boss was strictly a comedy that made assholes suffer comedically, then I wouldn't give as much of a fuck (I don't know about Hazbin Hotel but I'm staying focused on my rant for Ghostfuckers here)

But yeah, I hate how, in this episode, Blitzo nearly bankrupts the company that Millie works in and she's the one who says sorry to him. Like, does Millie seriously not realize the end result that would've affected her? Sure, Blitzo may have given her a new life she loves but he was threatening to end it. And worse, he couldn't have been bothered to care or even think about how his incapability of managing his personal shit without dragging others into it would have affected the employees he claims are his family

Come on, Millie, your and Moxxie's jobs were on the fucking line! If anything happened to your job, then you wouldn't be able to stay in your apartment building. You wouldn't be able to have the city life. And if you can't stay in the city, where you were so damn happy to be in because it proved you could be more than a simple farm girl or, at best an underpaid goon, then you. Would have lost that.

You would have needed to go back to the farm where you were worried you'd be stuck in for the rest of your life. And honestly, you're lucky that you even have someone to turn to, somewhere to go, even if you hate it. Because I'm sure there's so many people who become downright homeless all because they're out of a job. But yeah, even though you're lucky, Millie, Blitzo's actions would have still left a negative impact on your life that you never would've wanted

Let's not forget how it affects your husband, too. Moxxie would have preferred the in-laws over Crimson, yeah, but it's still not gonna be a happy life for him. Not when he's with people who just barely hide their disdain towards him. That means Moxxie's life is also going to be severely negatively affected, his life would have taken a turn that he would have never wanted, and it's all because fucking Blitzo decided that a pity party for himself was the most important thing ever

Honestly, Blitzo only seems to be caring and selfless in comparison to Stolas. When it comes down to it, Blitzo will still make himself the most important person in his own life. And yeah, that does make itself known when he's in a 'mood' because there's people out there who would legitimately rather throw pity parties than actually overcoming adversity or personal problems

Blitzo was looking to adopt a kid at the pet pound but he didn't want a 'sad-looking' kid. He didn't see poor souls that shouldn't be there, he just saw the place potentially providing a convenient sap who can 'learn' to love him. He just adopted Loona because... she's the prettiest? I'd like to believe 'he saw himself in Loona' but either those kids earlier were a different type of sad from Blitzo himself or Blitzo just saw a pretty, crying girl and wanted to save her (in a platonic way, I just don't know how else to phrase that)

Blitzo wanted to get together with Barbie despite how it's the most obvious thing ever that she doesn't want him in her life again. Blitzo still goes out of his way to find her, being hostile the very second he doesn't get answers that he wants, makes Barbie out to be the bitch that he voluntarily took a week-long search for her, and never calls off the hit that would cost Barbie her job. Blitzo obviously had to know during the verbal confrontation that the target for Moxxie's job is someone Barbie needs for her own job. Yet, when the physical confrontation happened, Blitzo never stops Moxxie from killing the guy. It seems nice on the surface to offer Barbie help when she was out of a job but, given his general attitude in Unhappy Campers - specifically towards Barbie in this case - and the fact that Blitzo lets the hit happen even though he should know how it would affect Barbie, it just comes off as Blitzo wanting someone around who would notice it when he dies. Even if Blitzo didn't think of making Barbie dependent on him so that she'd have an excuse to be around him and give him a chance to 'mend' any broken bonds, it's still clear enough that he decided that his livelihood is more important than Barbie's thanks to, once again, never calling off that hit. Probably the most insulting part is that Blitzo offers help like his general nasty attitude towards Barbie and complete disregard for her personal wishes wasn't going to be an issue at all. Oh, and let's not forget how Blitzo spent months not knowing that Barbie checked out of the hospital, meaning that he never had a desire to talk to her or check up on her for months. That just seems, at least to me, more like he only cared in Unhappy Campers about a bond with Barbie for his personal gain

Blitzo may have cared about Fizzarolli but he had the fucking gall to play the misery game with the guy who lost his limbs, which means that his very lifestyle is affected and it's only lucky that Fizzarolli even secured new limbs and a job to keep living. After all, Blitzo may have been thinking about his mom but it's not like Fizzarolli didn't have people, too. (At least I hope so, since Viv, for all the new characters she creates, rarely ever gives almost any named character more than five connections to others) The thing is, Fizzarolli would have needed hospitalization and care and most people in the circus would have been either dead or too busy to do so. Some might even think of Fizzarolli as dead weight and wouldn't want to even bother. In fact, as awful as he's actually allowed to be, Cash Buckzo is notable for being willing to do so, especially for an unrelated young man. So yeah, Fizzarolli is lucky that he even had anyone wanting to take care of him, especially since I can't hold hopes for anyone else in the circus, and that's even more true since he's never had any parents or blood-related family appear in the show so far. So to shorten it, Fizzarolli lost his limbs, his anatomy - at least until he got new limbs - his very lifestyle and possibilities for the future with or without Ozzie, any friends he could have lost to the fire, and, to some extent, the ability to live peacefully thanks to the fucking trauma. But no, Blitzo decides to act like he's the one who lost more than Fizzarolli ever did, because he fully believes his own pain is what wins the misery game. The guy who only got fucking scars from the fire (I'm not saying that losing his mom isn't a big deal but I still believe Fizzarolli wins the misery game since that's how Blitzo wants to play)

And like I said, even if Blitzo was actually genuine when he first gave jobs to Millie and Moxxie, Blitzo sure couldn't give a fuck that he negatively affecting their futures in this episode thanks to caring only about satisfying himself and throwing a pity party for himself. Blitzo can't even give 'unconditional' support without attaching conditions to it; he legitimately thinks a coupon is needed to leave Millie and Moxxie the fuck alone because he apparently thinks that caring about their boundaries isn't worth anything if there's nothing in it for him

So yeah, I do agree that Ghostfuckers is better than other episodes of this season. Then again, it feels like I'm given a whole batch of burnt cookies and the latest episode is just a cookie not as badly burnt as the other ones.

That's not really a good thing, if you're just not as bad as the others. It's just that Ghostfuckers is a cookie that tastes good when I ate it but then I'm discovering, to my dismay, a downright awful aftertaste

[namtanlovesfilm]

yo I'm sorry but I'm BEYOND obsessed with that papangpepper sideship bruh, their story is so layered & morally grey & interesting and I ATE IT UP!!! cannot stop thinking about it!!! honestly they deserve their own series bc FUCK I'm obsessed!!!

[guard-en]

being an artist and a writer with executive dysfunction in my experience is a lot like. being completely self driven, but the minute you know what you could make could fundamentally shake or inspire or light up the life of SOMEONE. It's like throwing fuel at a fire. The pace and enjoyment quickens, the anticipation of their reaction to something you genuinely put all of your mind, soul, heart, research, time, energy into... it's undeniably wonderful. but then I go to draw the things for ME and its like. yeah sure its cool. shrug.