#questioning autistim

[the-cat-and-the-birdie]

Went to a D&D meetup for autists yesterday

and the dude next to me was wearing a ATSV Miles Morales hoodie and at the time I very very low speaking but it took everything in me to not be like

'H-hobiee bRown - id like tu speak to yu about Hobie bbRown-'

'are you aware of him? Follow up question are you aware of anyone by the name of diane-'

But like I said - low speaking and had no idea how to form the thoughts to make a sentence people could even respond to and I know walking up to someone and stuttering Hobies name with no other context is not appropriate

nor is reciting his intro without prompt as a way to communicate I like the movies

so instead I waited till the end and told him I like his hoodie and he said thanks and then I told him about the new spot btsv storyboard and he nodded and then I left :)

But just being the the vicinity of another autistic person with the same special interest have me that internal autistim 'bees in my nervous system' feeling

If someone other than my mother tried to talk to me about Hobie id probably be unable to turn any type of thought because I'm so not normal about him the only realistic reaction I can give is

Anyway I made a DND character named Petros Parker he's like Peter Parker variant in the campaign and his story always follows canon as close as possible lol

He's a half-elf fighter, with a folk hero background

And yes he canonically goes to Spider Society. He's friends with Pavi.

Anyway dude from DND if you're reading this I promise im normal and kind and not feral in person I promise Please Mention Hobie to Me

[justsomerandomfanfic]

Hello, I am hoping that you have a good day. I don't remember if I already sent in a request so if I did just ignore this one and I apologize. I was hoping that I could get a Star wars, harry potter, and the witcher, and disney romantic matchup. I am a straight man

Appearance: I am 5ft 11in. I have very curly black hair, dark brown eyes, olive skin, and a beard. I am a burly man with a chubby belly.

Personality: I am introverted but when I get to know people I am very talkative and at ease. I have ADHD and I have minor autistim so I love to discuss whatever area of interest is in my brain that day. People describe me as a very kind, funny person. I am easy to get along with and I am very relaxed and easygoing. I have a bad memory from a head wound but when someone is important I put a lot of work into remembering things about them(writing notes, keeping lists of their likes and dislikes, important dates, etc). Because I have a bad memory I tell the same stories over and over again. I care a lot about my family and friends and I am very loyal to them.

Likes: When people are kind, when someone is passionate about something, Someone who is a good listener.

Dislikes: being mean/rude to people(especially service workers) or animals, making fun of peoples interests

Hobbies: outdoors stuff(hiking, camping, rock climbing, etc), painting/drawing, video games, reading, music

HI! I am sorry for this matchup to be sent so late, but I hope you love it nonetheless! <3333

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(Romantic);

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Star Wars;

Leia Organa:

⭐ You met Leia when you, Han, Luke, Chewie, R2D2, and C3PO rescued her - you were a bit quiet at first, but after she started talking, asking you questions, you found yourself answering

⭐ After everyone got out, you and Leia ended up talking a lot; you even got her to laugh a couple of times - all the while, you are also making a small list about Leia, so you could remember all the things she told you she liked and didn't

⭐ When you, Luke, and Han were gifted the medals, you and Leia made eye contact, and for the first time in forever, you felt this sort of connection with her; it made your soul feel warm - she felt completely the same

⭐ After Hoth and finding yourself in the care of the sweetest IRL care bears, you and Leia danced to the music, and the both of you found yourselves wandering around in the forests near the camp - the music was quiet, but neither of you noticed, too caught up in your conversation

⭐ You ended up staying with Leia, going and following her wherever she want, and she immensely enjoyed the company - and when she became Commander Organa, you became her right-hand man

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Harry Potter;

Hermione Granger:

📚 You met Hermione after Hogwarts and after the battle, you worked at Hogsmeade, at the small sweets shop; you held stock shelves and sometimes helped with customers, but during one of your work days on the floor, that was when you met Hermione

📚 She asked you where a certain sweet was located, saying it was a gift for a friend - you were a bit nervous speaking to her, but you expertly led her to the sweet that she was wanting; and from then on, she kept coming back to the shop, sometimes not even buying anything, just wanting to talk to you

📚 On you lunch break, Hermione would enter the shop and the both of you would walk about Hogsmeade before going to The Three Broomsticks for lunch - there, you and Hermione got to really now each other, swapping your likes, dislikes, hobbies, and so on

📚 Hermione is very supportive and understanding towards you with whatever you might forget; she is always more than okay repeating something to you - she completely understands ♥

📚 At one point, as your relationship began to blossom, you and Hermione would swap books with each other - you would also meet at each other's homes to paint, read, and even hiking when the time suits the both of you

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The Witcher;

Yennefer:

✨ You met Yennefer when she was learning how to use her magic, you had been close allies with Tissaia de Vries, and you were able to stop Yennefer's attempt during the time - since then, you and Yennefer became pretty close

✨ You and Yennefer spent a lot of time together, your demeanor being very relaxed and easygoing, you radiated a warmth that calmed Yen - she felt as if she could be herself with you

✨ When not busy doing magicy things, you and Yen would spend time walking around the grounds, talking about spells, interests, and both of your dislikes for those who are mean towards others

✨ You believe Yen is an amazingly good listener, and she is, she loves learning more about you, finding your interests very intriguing - and she would always be down to go walking places with you, painting with you, and even reading with you

✨ You make Yen very happy, and she does the same for you, the both of you are so well fit for each other, and it is obvious to those who you meet - you are one of (if not the only) the most powerful couples in all of the land

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Disney;

Ariel:

🐟 You had known Ariel for a long time, being a merman, you often spotted her swimming away to her secret cave of treasure from time to time - you, like her, were also interested in the land above, and often went up to the surface to watch ships go by and people play on the nearby beach

🐟 It wasn't until you found some object from the surface world fall into the sea that you thought of giving it to the young princess - though, you were a bit nervous, but you gained your courage and swam to find her

🐟 Ariel was beyond the moon when you gifted her the surface treasure, instantly smiling and her eyes widening in excitement; it was then that she asked if you wanted to see her collection - how could you say no? You loved how passionate she was about the surface, and her collection was very impressive

🐟 From then on, you and Ariel would spend a lot of time together, swimming around when she wasn't needed by her father, just swimming and talking about the surface - Ariel would get so excited when you got back from the surface with new information or when you brought her a new item

🐟 You and Ariel have such a love for life, and all of its wonders, and the both of you dream of a better future - a future on the surface together

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[grymoria]

To my fellow Neurodivergents, if you want a job, a boring office one may not suit you.

Hello, I am a neurodivergent who works as a Survey Research Interviewer. My job contains of me calling people to see if they would like to do a survey and if they agree to do it, then I have to read out the questions to them in order for the respondent to answer them, which is the interviewing part. The problem is because of my ASD (Autistim Spectrum Disorder), it's hard for me to do my job.

All I'm doing is calling numbers all day and I call them until I find someone who wants to do the survey. Even when I'm done interviewing them, I still have calls to make. That's all I do, nothing else. Some of you are probably saying that I have an easy job and I do, but it's so easy that it gets boring. So boring that I take power naps during the middle of the work shift even when I try to fight them. (The cold air blown doesn't help either.) Plus sometimes my speech impediment can get in the way of doing my job properly. So yes it's an easy job but mentally, it's exhausting.

"What's the purpose of this blog?"

The reason why I'm making this blog, is because I want others to understand how having a boring office job, or a boring job in general, can affect your mental health. (Plus I'm so bored at my job, that writing this is helping my mental health.)

I'm sure some of you have heard of the term "burnout" and if you haven't, burnout a state of emotional, physical, and mental exhaustion caused by excessive and prolonged stress. Well there's a term similar to this but instead of being overstimulated, you're understimulated and it's called "boreout". Boreout is chronic boredom at work. When you are so bored at work, that you are less likely do to your job and just like burnout, boreout can cause depression, stress, and anxiety but it can also cause insomnia.

How I deal with my boreout is being on my phone. Even though where I work we aren't allowed to be on our phones, I do it anyway because my job is that boring. But sometimes the phone can't even help me especially when I'm on social media. (Constantly being on social media all the time can also be bad for your mental health.)

They're other ways to make yourself entertained at work. Like for example, if you are a figity person, bring things that you can figit with. Like for example, a stress ball, a figit spinner, and any other type of figit toy out there. You can also have a puzzle book and solve a few puzzle, or you can draw, you can journal, or read a book. Even chewing gum can decrease your chances of being stressed, anxious, and/or depressed. I suggest you only do any these if you are able to. (My job doesn't even allow me to have puzzle books...)

Even if that isn't enough for you to deal with your boreout (or burnout), then I suggest you take a mental health day which is a day off from work so you can improve your mental health doing things that you enjoy doing. But I suggest you do them next to a day or days that you will be having off anyway. For example, I don't work on the weekends so if I wanted a mental health day, it's best if I do it on a Friday or Monday.

Me personally, I feel like working 4 days and having 3 days off a week can make someone's mental health so much better compared to working 5 days but having 2 days off a week. I prefer you do this as much as possible only if you can afford it and only if you won't get in trouble by your workplace for doing it. I would usually do it monthly. (For bonus, you can do whatever house chores that need to be done after work so when your day/days off is here, all you can do is relax and do the things that you enjoy.)

So I know that because of my neurodiversity, this job isn't meant for me. I need a job that stimulates me well and the job that I have now doesn't do so. The reason why I still have the job is because I live in a city that doesn't have much entry level office jobs so it's difficult for me to find another job. Even though I don't recommend the type of job I do or any other boring office job to anyone that's neurodivergent, I don't blame you if that's the only type of job that you can get.

There are office jobs out there that is perfect for neurodivergent people and even though the office job you have now is boring, at least you have experience with an office job and that can lead you to the office job you actually want. Like for example, I enjoy typing (obviously), so I hope to find a transcriptionist/transcriber job but I also would like to make a career out of being a journalist. I may not be suited for the office job that I have now but I've been working here for over a year so I need as much experience as I can get.

In conclusion, no job is worth the boreout or even burnout. If you need that job then get it, but do anything you can to make your mental health decent. Our well being should always come first because the work force will always find someone to take the previous workers' positions.

[blole-hack]

I've been questioning if im autistic

big sensory problems seriously

i like vegetables but i cant stand the tastes of some of them and textures. i mean i eat it but there's certain THRESHOLDS that i just can't, im about to puke, im sorry. it tastes good but idk why my body is rejecting it

i cant stand STRONG TASTES and STRONG SMELLS. But apparently I smell some things stronger than others???? like i can smell pee in some places where others dont lol (its the bathroom of course i smell the pee) and then it sticks to my nose bc of the particles that got stuck on my mask (as in anti COVID-19 mask not masking) so i had to swap masks but everyone else seemed fine

cant stand cold food lol do i just have stomach problem

cant stand perfumes or efficascent oil

cant stand sounds that people dont even think are loud tbh but its mostly because I'm scared of damaging my ears

its really hard to sleep without ear plugs but i think i just got used to it after sleeping near someone snoring.

touching certain textures is fine I'm just mildly germaphobic so if i touch something that feeels like it has like, idk, germs??? but im not scared of getting sick??? idk microorganisms scare me even though i know theyre everywhere

i cant stand the smells of some masks which other people dont notice (like, the insides)

but there's some things im dull at tasting or smelling

motion sickness dude... my whole life dude. and travel lag for hours

feel pressured to act normal but sometimes i just wanna let go maybe its social anxiety

cant speak/can barely speak idk if its enough to count as nonverbal during mornings but its so hard

its hard to respond when so many things are going at once

bad sense of direction because its hard to remember locations because of so many things around at once

triggered when some random person touches me but i just have boundaries

i dont really stim unless im excited. i dont rock back and forth for self soothing, or maybe i do??? idk i move sideways sometimes. i cant sit still i think HAHHAA when i discovered it was a thing though, shaking things off is pretty neat ow my ankle jk

iii do get the urge to just verbalize random shit fidget in certain ways but i dont really do it

i mean i do fidget but when I'm nervous

i do mimic things and basically built my identity by chipping things off from characters since I've been so confused about who i really am and that's the most accessible way of expressing and experimenting about it

some synthetic sounds or just music honestly hurt my ears. i dont know why. these things arent being complained about by other people. it makes composing and appreciating music hard.

ive never really parroted things randomly when i was a kid i think or llike older or something. i guess i did when i was like 3 until yeah

i dont really relate to the special interests thing though. might be important to have. actually maybe its art, music, writing. but growing up ive been kinda a stubborn person who didn't really wanna learn from anyone and just did things on my own. butt once i realized i would greatly benefit from learning i cant stand a day where i dont learn or improve IM JUST A PERFECTIONIST MAYBE but i dont really talk about them thaaaat much i dont really talk about anything much i dont really have much to say unless people are asking me for information

Ive been considered weird by peers before. when i was in grade 1 i tried writing a book in a small tiny book. it was a self help book. and then my classmates wrote "you're crazy" in the pages and tHATS WHEN I LEARNED TO USE EMOTIONAL WARFARE AND CRY IN CLASS TO GET WHAT I WANT MOTHERFUCKER -

I've always been so confused about socializing and why people seemed to know more about it than me but i realized afterwards that it's really just an art, there's no hard and fast rules besides not truly being a douchebag, and people just do whatever

i guess another thing that could be considered a special interest is my unstoppable urge of asking people about themselves, I'm really curious about others but have no idea how to talk about myself lol (i mean its stoppable i dont wanna look weird but i do wanna prod people so much)

i really wanna learn more about psychoanalyzing people but i hate Sigmund Freuds work HAHAHAHAHA

if it was more accessible maybe id be more nerdy about i

reading books is hard man...

ARTIFICIAL/SYNTHETIC FLAVORS. ARTIFICIAL/SYNTHETIC SMELLS i cannot stress this enough. i cant stand the combination of chocolate and milk sometimes, i cant stand the taste of whey protein sometimes when it has chocolate and milk as its flavoring

i think this is neurotypical as well but my senses get dulled sometimes when im focused on something else then later when i break focus all the sounds return. i guess yeah that makes sense but like it feels like i dont even process them subconsciously the info just gets thrown away HAHAHAHA

cant sleep when something is touching my neck even if its just my clothigny

when im already affected by motion sickness all of my senses get worse i guess thats normal

are my talking patterns weird <- my thoughts almost always

on the flip side, despite my interest in people, there's also me not understanding people and fictional characters *some emotions or recognizing them until i read or watch analyses or meta posts (thats why I love them)

i mean getting diagnosed is incredibly terrible Because People Will Make Your Life Worse and judge you for it with stigmas but heyyy at least i can get an excuse from my family why i dont wanna eat those *specific* vegetables please i beg i feel bad for the veggies whenever i want to vomit them

so yeah since i cant get diagnosed might as well ask actual neurodivergent people on tumblr

maybe i should just blender them into a nice textureless juice if i want my fill NUTRIENTS BABY without the near vomit experience!

wonder if any neuro divergent peeps out there relate or if im neurotypical but i really just do have problems with textures and tastes

[sorrywhatdidyousay]

*imagines me stimming in my head*

This is normal and in no way a result of masking

[probably-autistic-moss]

Is it an autistic trait?

FOOD

I don't have too many problems with food, I usually eat most of it and I like to taste new things.

But I noticed that I can't stand specific textures, and I subconsciously mix up some foods to "adjust" their texture and being able to eat them.

The only food I truly can't stand is rice, except when it's in sushi. When it's cooked to make risotto, it doesn't matter with what I mix it, its texture is horrible.

Now I have a question.

Don't autistic people hate mixing up the food in their plate?

Sorry if I ask, and I know I could just Google it, but I want to learn about autism - and to see if I'm autistic myself - by autistic people themselves.

I know that every experience is different, but I also know that my knowledge about autistim used to be, and maybe still is, very stereotypical.

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I'm here to learn more about autism because I suspect I may be autistic myself, and I'd like to interact with other people on the spectrum.

Feel free to correct and educate me if I say something wrong or offensive!

[a-small-batch-of-dragons]

hi i just read your sanders sides fic and i loved it so much!!! i just wanted to ask, does Virgil have autistim or adhd? just wondering bc his whole 'eye contact is the actual worst thing ever' is a Big Mood that i felt in my bones 😅

It really is, isn’t it? Yeah, that’s what I was leaning towards, mostly just from my own experience. I’m so glad you liked it!!!

This is the fic in question.

[estradiol-dyke]

Pomegranate. You seem cool, so I'm just gonna keep asking.

when do you feel the most confident?

oh wow idk?? I'm not a very confident person generally lmao, with anxiety & autistim & maybe a bit of dysphoria. But I guess they're are those rare moments, when everything lines up and you're not dirt poor and struggling and you've had fun banter with your friends, and maybe listening to some nice energetic music, when it feels like everything's clicked into place and you're actually getting stuff you wanted done, and you feel that you can do anything and you feel happy and cute and you feel, "wow, this is the way it should be always. This is the way I have faith in one day making every day like this." you know?

Haha thanks for saying i seem cool :) And yeah you can keep asking away, hell you can send more than one question at a time if you want ;p

[genderfluid-fujoshi]

Happy female presented progenitors day

I've been dealing with a lot of anxiety pent it up for this day, because since last year it was clear to me, that the relationship with my mother is unfixable. Also, since my babysibling just found out about them autisim the most ableist side of my mother came to light. I felt awful for my sibling, the rejection and the crap about "we can fix you" was overwhealming. I've never seen my sibling this disapointed on my mother.

The thing is, a couple of days later they got to talk, my sibling is closer to her, so they really wanted to work it out. In their conversation my mother told them that she couldn't belive that it was autism because she did a lot of those things... When my sibling told me this, my fucking jaw just drop. A rush of images and situations were the autistic traits of my mother were all over the fucking place.

It made harder for me, you know? because at the same time I also found out that i'm also autistic - Talking about hereditary shit - and it made me more angry (?). About 12 years ago I was diagnosted with Adhd, my mother told me I got that coming because I had a drinking problem, BUT GUESS WHAT I FOUND OUT?!?! ADHD HAVE A TENDENCY OF SUSTANCE ABUSE, BECAUSE OUR BRAINS OUT WIRED WIERD. So try to imagine myself TRYING as hard as I could to have empathy and sympathy for her, just to find burned out anger.

Because this changes and also clears up a lot of things in my relationship with my mother, which is not the best to begin with. For the longest time I thought that she just did many things on porpouse, but now i know a lot of them are basically out her control. But you see, there's a lot of shit that she has done and said in the past, that now she just denies it ever happened. Which is AWFUL for my trauma and mental health. So, if she was never hold accountable for the things i KNOW she did on porpouse, how the fuck can we began to process the things she does because of her very-probably-autistim?

Don't get me wrong, she's not a bad a person. But the fact that she keeps denying all the bad shit she did, doesn't give our relationship the chance to heal and grow. Because I live everyday with the sympthons of the "things she never did", I get all kind of intrusive thoughts about the "things she never said", and so on. I'm working on myself, I've been on theraphy for the last 7 years, at some point my therapist just asked me: "And what are you expecting of her?" (She also has asked this question to me) and told them both: "I just want an apology and the actions that are congruent with that". My therapist said it was really an aceptable answer... my mother not so much.

This day stores a lot of shit I wish I didn't have to deal with.

But then again, I also know I don't exist in a vacuum and as the stupid primate i am, I sort of crave the connection.

[nyapologies]

i asked this one to theo too. but. i dont remember how well ive explained grievance to you but grievance if you want?

OHHH YES. perfect

blorbo (favorite character, character I think about the most):

Nix. I love him. fucked up sad autistim rep . i am giving him a hug and also putting him in a closet w vinny so they can talk thru their issues /lh

scrunkly (my “baby”, character that gives me cuteness aggression, character that is So Shaped):

is it cheating to put the two actual children here. second question is it cheating since they are technically atrophy and not grievance characters???? anyway bruno and bunny. among us babies are born

scrimblo bimblo (underrated/underappreciated fave):

CLUELESS. i love her. i love her design i want to kiss her <3 shes so cool

glup shitto (obscure fave, character that can appear in the background for 0.2 seconds and I won’t shut up about it for a week):

again this is an atrophy character i think? but. hugs. i feel like i dont see him much but i love him. love that hes w lobotomy the main antagonist but also hes just a fucking gay unicorn. literally peak character design

poor little meow meow (“problematic”/unpopular/controversial/otherwise pathetic fave):

is it cheating to put nix twice. i think its fine.

horse plinko (character I would torment for fun, for whatever reason):

lobotomy. he deserves it i think

eeby deeby (character I would send to superhell):

lobotomy Again. that or nix vinny AND ronnie . so they can all be gay together in superhell /j

[legoyuri]

my parents were literally neglectful and the autistim questions i had at the doctor were like "was he speaking at a normal age, did he have any struggles?" Like my parents dont remember my first words.

I was in special ed, had speaking education and needed to be put in settings one on one to focus but yeah i guess nothing is wrong <3