#probably bipolar

[thatshadowgastwhore]

If I don’t acknowledge the manic episode that’s happening, it’s not happening, that’s what I’ve decided

[davidtennantpleaseadoptme]

NEW ACCOUNT??

She/he/they (in this order please) I’m agender :D

AND I SUPPORT PALESTINE AND UKRAINE MOTHERFUCKERS 🇵🇸🇺🇦

Well I deleted my old account… anyways, I’m Sun(yes that is my name) this will probably be a ranting account. And I’m weird! I like a lot of stuff, I’m a lesbian, and I’m Chinese. And possibly mentally ill. Anyways, I love David Tennant(ADOPT ME PLEASE IM NOT JOKIG), Joost Klein, Harry Potter, doctor who, chapell roan, Mitski, ski aggu, and a lot of stuff I probably forgot to put it in, thank you for reading and I love u!

Edit- I also love love love heartstopper, K-pop, taking over the asylum (CAMPBELL BAIN IS LITERALLY ME), fluff fanfics and yeah I’ll add more on the list eventually. (Edited around two hour after posting this)

-sun, your best lesbian(probably not)

[peresephoknee]

curse you dead grandmother I never met! because of your death, I will never find out what mental illness I presumably inherited from you!!

[crewtawn]

Kinda messy little comic about my new favorite horror game...

kinito deserved better.

I love him so much. I wish we could have redeemed him like this and kept him. Put him in a little robot body and have him roam around my home. I love him sm. Mwa. Kissy kissy.

BONUS:

[ryan-sometimes]

Recently I’ve been getting anons and comments doubting the validity of some of the stories I tell on here. There’s nothing I can do to convince you that the stories I tell on here are completely genuine. All I can say is that they really are. I only post the wackiest, most interesting or funny stories of my life on here. You don’t get much of the boring day to day stuff.

Truth is, I come from a very long line of crazy people. When my dad was in med school he and some friends planted a small homemade bomb in an abandoned bathroom at their university. His roommate stole a pancreas from the corpse lab and put it in a girl’s backpack. The entire med school was suspended because no one owned up to it. My uncle would sneak out at night with my grandma’s car and she’d find out because she’d check the mileage and see it’d gone up, so my uncle started driving her car backwards since that didn’t increase the mileage. He got arrested driving her car backwards on the highway to another town. My uncle would steal my grandpa’s shotgun, tell his friends to jump in the pool, and start firing it randomly at the backyard. My cousin genuinely had two weed smoking girlfriends who were also girlfriends with each other. My great uncle had an affair exposed by having his intimate photos and videos with his mistress sent to the family groupchat by people who stole his phone, all because they were salty that my aunt told them to go fuck themselves when they messaged her asking for money. My aunt took out all her life savings and moved to another state to build a bunker because she believes the apocalypse is coming, and she didn’t even take any of her children. I don’t know how to tell you this, but life is just stranger than fiction sometimes. The sample size of life stories you get on my blog are just the instances in which that’s true.

[ooppo]

Btw for anyone who needs to hear it: thinking that people are reading your mind/your thoughts are being heard by everyone is not normal. It's a symptom of psychosis and could be linked to a psychiatric disorder. This, too, goes with hallucinations.

This may seem like a no-brainer, but to teens who don't know what symptoms look like, they may jog it off for a number of reasons. I did, too, when I was in highschool! As a freshman I was having delusions/hallucinations and I didn't tell anyone because I thought they were cringe and weird. I chalked up my hallucinations to me being "tired". People who have psychosis often don't realize that what they're experiencing IS psychosis. This goes the same with other classmates/friends/loved ones. If someone comes to you with concerning behavior (even if they are joking about it) you should take note of it.

In highschool I remember a kid talking about how he could go into the matrix and he had a whole other world to protect/do missions in. He would also go still for long periods of time randomly. I thought he was weird and didn't think much of it, but those are symptoms of schizophrenia (delusions/catatonia).

I would appreciate it if this got a reblog so it could potentially help those recognize these symptoms in either themselves or others!

I wish I could have seen a post like this when I was younger. Then I could have avoided a lot of hardships and would have gotten treatment a lot sooner

[larimar-danika]

I've never seen people handle bipolar in media that was good till TADC, and that made me cry.

It handle Gangles bipolar so fucking well.

They wrote it so good, like it accurately shows what it's like for both the highs and the lows and just how they can be like while also showing how people react to someone being in a episode, like I love this so much it's a really good representative of what the hell of bipolar is like.

Sorry if this doesn't make sense. I just needed to write my thoughts before I forget them so it's all ramblely

[fondfamilies]

thinking about reid coming up with more & more 'out-there' ideas on cases, bordering on conspiracy theories, taking academic theoretical & impractical theories about sciences & the universe to their absolute extremes, headaches getting worse, eye sensitivity, waking up earlier & earlier until he's functioning on sporadic naps, more coffee & sugar, losing time. reid having nightmares where the aphasia from 'amplification' is happening again, except he's awake. shots of hotch frowning at him when he's not looking, emily being startled when he talks about a theory he's come up with on why his headaches are happening (something in the government building air, something about the screens & the cases). john nash parallels, a genius brain just directed at the wrong ideas - why did gideon hire him to work for the government? so they can keep tabs on him? to cause these headaches, make him ill, neutralise his brain as a potential threat? what if this particular unsub they're calling delusional is right? etc. getting on the subway to go to work & realising he's being followed, spending the day pacing the city instead, looking over his shoulder. slow deterioration (which i kinda hoped they were going to show with all the headaches but i guess canon psychotic main character rep might be unrealistic to want while keeping him on the team. but again, john nash still taught post-diagnosis & treatment. he could be an unofficial agent, a teacher they take on cases as an in-person consultant, the director side-eyeing how he's on nearly every case. psychotic disorders are degenerative yeah but it can be a lot slower/less damaging with good treatment meaning fewer episodes).

[darthpastry]

Almost comical, tbh. A while ago I researched bipolar, some of the symptoms felt relatable but I wasn’t concerned enough to seriously consider it, despite putting a few hour into research. Then the new TADC episode came out and I was thinking “Gangle is so relatable in this episode, I live her character so much” and then people were talking online about how the traits I found relatable were symptoms of bipolar??? Interesting coincidence. Still not too concerned but it does put the thought back on the table for me

[hatsunevitu]

okay so since the Cupid Ye was aired i’ve been constantly thinking about cartman’s mental condition. we know he’s probably taking medication now, so i hc him having antisocial personality disorder and bipolar disorder. and i’ve been imagining him having his depression episode for the first time after he was diagnosed with bipolar disorder. he’s not used to it, he has no idea what’s going on and why he suddenly feels so tired and numb all the time, so he just stays at home skipping school and avoiding social contacts. he’s scared and the “it’s all because of your illness, poopsikins!” from his mother doesn’t help at all.

and sooo i wrote a short moment about this?? i’m sorry for any mistakes because it was originally written in my native language, not in english :(

***

Ever since early childhood it was clear and obvious to everyone that Eric Cartman had problems. Not even like that, Kyle corrected himself in his thoughts. Eric Cartman had Problems. Sociopathy, sadism, aggression – all that a person could notice in Cartman after only half an hour of communication.

And Kyle wasn't too surprised when bipolar disorder was added to all of the above in a sloppy psychiatrist’s handwriting.

By the time Cartman was finally diagnosed he had already gone through several phases of mania. Kyle even did a little research on the disorder. "To know what to prepare for the next time I meet this psycho," he told Stan. "And to know how to help him if necessary," he added silently to himself.

By the age of fifteen, Stan's company was already used to Cartman's regular explosive mood swings, which were accompanied by crazy ideas, aggressive behavior, and, if absolutely unlucky, deaths of a couple or more people.

It was typical: after a short break, Cartman would burst into Kyle's room (often through the window), start showering him with business plans, startup ideas, and opportunities to have extreme fun. Kyle was silent, trying his best to ignore him and frowning irritably when Cartman smiled ecstatically and rushed to Kyle, tugging at his sleeve and almost shouting that everything would be better this time and that it’s a one hundred percent successful scheme.

For some time Broflovski genuinely believed that everyone in their friends group was going through such tortures, but after a short questioning, he found out that they had not seen Eric's mania with their own eyes. Kyle understood — and they won’t, when Cartman just chuckled at the outraged "What the fuck, Fatass?" and replied, "I guess you're just special, Kahl. They wouldn't understand." His eyes flashed especially maliciously, and Kyle looked away hastily so as not to give Cartman the opportunity to start another fight.

Well, all in all, no one's world collapsed when Cartman was diagnosed with a new mental illness. Over the past months of insane hallucinations and obsessive intrusive thoughts, he managed to make everyone sick of him. He refused to go to the therapy sessions for a long time, shouting, running away and trying to get into a fight, and Liane was too afraid to find out another unpleasant truth about her son, preferring to go with the flow and shut him up with the fulfillment of every single of his whims. Kyle doubts that anyone would have done anything to help Cartman if he hadn't intervened. Why – it was unclear to Broflovski himself, but Cartman's first depressive phase hit them both unexpectedly too hard.

Disappearing from everyone’s sight for two weeks, Cartman ignored calls and messages (although Kyle had a serious doubt that anyone other than Butters and Broflovski himself texted him) and skipped school despite Mr. Harrison's threats of expulsion.

Liane avoided answering questions, pursing her lips in frustration and talking her way out with a trivial "He's sick." Kyle didn't believe a damn second, knowing that if Cartman was sick, Kyle would have known about it the very first. Something was wrong. For some reason, the desire to find out what exactly was much stronger than it should have been when it came to Eric Cartman.

***

Perhaps Kyle really shouldn't have worried so much — not to the point of climbing into Eric's window at night. But the Cartmans hadn't opened the front door all day, and by that time Kyle's nerves were so stretched that they threatened to break if he didn't get answers to his questions in the next few minutes. Disturbing thoughts and images of possible turn of events appeared in his head. Perhaps Cartman was dead? Or, on the contrary, has killed someone and had been dissolving dismembered body of his victim for two weeks? One option was no better than the other, but nothing was even close to what he saw in Eric's bedroom.

Haggard, seven kilograms thinner, with an unhealthy skin color and bags under his eyes, he looked painfully wrong, not Cartman-like. He didn’t look exactly ill — more like lifelessly tired. But that wasn't even what hit Kyle so hard.

He did not suspect how much had been hidden in Cartman's eyes before – lively fire, hatred, anger, enthusiasm, passion – all this was gone, dissolved, buried under this empty, dead, unblinking gaze. For a second Kyle even thought (hoped?) that he was really dead, but the heaving chest under the blanket and almost inaudible sound of breathing exposed life in Cartman. He was lying on his back, his head slowly turned towards the window. Kyle sought recognition on his face, but did not see a single shade of any emotions.

He froze in the window, making eye contact with Eric, feeling like he saw something he shouldn't have. He tried to revive the old familiar hatred that usually boiled in him as soon as their eyes met, but Cartman’s emptiness totally killed all the anger. Kyle climbed through the window – Cartman didn't react in any way, lazily closing his eyes – and walked up to the bed, touching his shoulder timidly.

“Hey, Cartman?” he said, shuddering at the way his voice echoed throughout the bedroom. Cartman didn’t open his eyes but smiled hardly visibly.

“Hey, jew”. His voice was empty and emotionless and Kyle pursed his lips with a bit of a pain.

“You need to see a doctor, Cartman”, he said firmly as Eric finally opened one eye disinterestedly. “I’ll help you. I promise”.

And he did.

[puppetgearing]

its crazy to think i was having a good day yesterday and one comment managed to ruin it and it'll drag on for days u-u

[camellcat]

people like to joke with me by saying I must have bpd with how violent my mood swings are, which annoys me because I don't and I don't like being mislabeled, but I do genuinely wonder like. what are the main differences between adhd swings and bpd swings

I talk about what my experience with adhd swings are like below the line, so careful for sh talk!

my adhd highs aren't crazy or anything. I get all loud and frantic and wonderfully creative and the way I know they're happening is that I'm not able to read anymore until I come down. it only lasts for a few days at most, but I feel on top of the fucking world. sometimes I purposefully let myself get hurt even when I could stop it, or I cause it. I slur all my words and I can't stop laughing and it's fantastic

my lows make me want to kill myself. I would never, because it hurts a lot and I would miss books, but I fantasize about it every second from when I wake up to when I go to bed. I think of all the ways I could hurt myself throughout the day and I think of all the ways I would in particular like to be taken out. my lows can last months, though usually it's only for a couple of weeks. I cry, a lot, and I start isolating myself. I also begin to draw again, or I write when drawing doesn't work. I get very creative here too

and I feel so... neutral? when I'm not experiencing one side of the spectrum. I just don't care about anything. I can't draw anymore, though sometimes I can force myself to write even if it's all terrible. all I do is read, and read, and read. I watch tv and I read

and it's incredibly incredibly easy to push me into either one of my highs or lows. more easily my lows, but highs can spring up on me out of nowhere as well sometimes

anyways. people have been calling me bipolar since middle school and while my shit feels like low-grade mania I know it's not and I'm curious what it's actually like compared to what I go through

[fartfacedfuck]

Me: I'm perfectly fine what are you talking about!

Allso me:

[raccoon-the-third]

I feel like every time I stop updating this blog shit goes crazy

This time it's crazy in the positive way

I came out to my partner as poly and he also came out as poly we were both just too nervous to tell the other

I've fallen head over heels for one of my friends (who I'm like nearly 100% sure feels the same)

My SD has made amazing progress on going back to full time work after some shit happened

My health has not been great but it always gets like this in the fall

I'm having an amazing time at class

My social life has been better than ever

And I've learned that the person I've fallen in love with is going to be visiting the us for like six months next year so we'll get to hang out

[crewtawn]

KINITO MY BELOVED

Tasteful nudity here.

Those new to my blog wont know but I have a Rule34! NSFW drawing requests and commissions are TOTALLY allowed!

[haunted-phantom-student]

Using my own experiences with Bipolar Disorder to write Ian Gallagher, or using Ian Gallagher as a medium to therapeutically express my experiences with Bipolar Disorder? Why not both?