#postgraduate

[thedeluxedoll]

[argostudies]

— 25/10/24

some recent bits and pieces :)

[pagesofjasmine]

Postgrad Life + Work From Home!

[astudystrugglestreet]

26.04.2023 || It’s been many years since I’ve posted here, but recent thesis deadlines are demanding a level of romanticise-academia-to-hustle-some-results-in that I haven’t needed in a long time. So here’s to some long study days and a conscious effort to avoid burnout (if those two things are capable of coexisting).

| Happy Wednesday 🪴|

[academicfever]

25/100 days of productivity!

Good morning beautiful people

I overslept today and got to the library at 9am. Anyway let’s not shame ourselves into working …

Simulink_ADAS_ RWTH_

Ansys_ Cornell

E-mobility _paritech

Relocation matrix

Mental Health Check_in

Reminder to Self:

If you’ve been in a toxic family situation, you might have internalized negative beliefs about yourself. When you start to heal and things go well, it can feel like you don’t deserve it, leading to self-sabotaging... You’ve lived in survival mode for so long that thriving feels uncomfortable. This dissonance between your old self and the healed version of yourself can cause internal conflict, leading to self-sabotage. Even if the toxic environment was painful, it was familiar. Your brain might associate chaos or negativity with safety, so when things start to improve, you unconsciously revert to old patterns. Healing and growth can be scary because it leads to new experiences and responsibilities. You might sabotage your progress to avoid the discomfort of venturing into the unknown or being vulnerable in a new phase of life.

[theseviolentdellghts]

girls turn a certain age and only think of one thing.

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[swan-codes]

🌧 my study and daily reflections☕

☕ When I reconnected with my friend from my old uni last year, I was still in postgraduate school and feeling overwhelmed by my dissertation. I hadn't been writing consistently, and my motivation had dwindled. My friend, who happens to be a PhD researcher, shared some valuable advice with me. She suggested incorporating writing into my daily routine, starting right after waking up. Just like brushing your teeth is an instinctive action, she encouraged me to make writing a dissertation a natural part of that routine. Although it might be challenging initially, she assured me that it would gradually become easier. And she was right. I successfully passed my dissertation with a merit. So, I decided to apply this approach to my current study schedule as well.

☕ Random motivational quotes have personally been helpful to me, even if they may seem cliché. They truly made a difference in keeping me motivated. I make notes with these quotes and place them on my desk, so I'm reminded to stay focused on my progress every time I sit down to work.

☕ Studying helps me with depression. In a way, studying is kind of an escape for me, keeping me distracted from depression, but in a good way. I've noticed that I feel less and less depressed when I'm studying.

☕ Tidying up my desk before I go to bed and always ensuring that the kitchen looks tidy, including keeping the sink empty and washing dishes. Makes me feel motivated to prepare delicious food and make a cup of coffee before diving into my study time. It's exactly what I've been doing.

[[ Studying logs ]]

Sept 7 - studied for 2 hours

Sept 8 - did not study, i didn't sleep well

Sept 9 - studied for 2 hours

Sept 10 - studied for 1 hour

Sept 11 - studied for 2 hours

Sept 12 - studied for 2 hours

Sept 13 - studied for 2 hours

Sept 14 - studied for 2.5 hours

Sept 15 - studied for 1.5 hour

Sept 16 (today) - studied for 3 hours

the total number of hours from the study log: 18 hours

[emerymay]

Elementary

Dear Reader,

I hope this message finds you at a moment of quiet reflection. Writing these words isn’t easy, as I know they will stir many emotions—both for you and for me. There will be questions, uncertainties, and mixed feelings as you journey through this story.

Dive into my latest story—click the link to read now! 🌟”

[ineedfairypee]

To P or not to P(hD)

[socstudies]

01-10-23

tomorrow I go back to class for my second year at university !! I'm so excited !! also happy october everybody! (vent about masters applications below:)

but I know that it's going to get REAL very quickly bc I'm already overwhelmed by my workload... in addition to normal uni work, I will also be attending virtual uni open days as this time next year I will be submitting my masters applications......... what?????? ive already started to narrow down my options and do a lot of research bc I know that now and the Christmas break are the only times that I'll have to do this before I have to start writing the applications???? bc I'll be too busy during term and the summer to even think about thinking about thoughts like ?? WHAT??? I was a fresher two minutes ago and now I'm booking postgrad open days like hello???? what???? but I can't say I don't love it because it's soooopo exciting and I love my subject. I'm also aiming more ambitiously in terms of the universities I'll be applying for (will have safeties ofc) so that's VERY motivating. so yeah !! eeeee!!!!!

[essayisms]

What would you recommend to someone preparing for a Masters degree in English Literature?

[thedeluxedoll]

[argostudies]

— 04/10/24

you know how you read one paper and suddenly acquire about five more because of citations…? yeah.

[lieahsblog]

This family needs your help. Two members need medical treatment. They haven’t yet raised enough to evacuate one person. Please, if you’re able to, please donate. Even if you’re able to share, that would still help so much.

[thinkingflesh]

Some Pressing Thoughts on Academia

Sometimes I am writing or creating a project on a topic that I'm really passionate about and I think to myself, "wow, I could really write hundreds and hundreds of pages on this—should I commit and do a postgrad dissertation on it?" Then, I think about the fact that three years ago I was a bonafide acting major who didn't know that the world I thought was going to be my own would completely change course and veer off into the sphere of humanities and creative writing. Oh, and also, I applied and got accepted to a program where I could study business at the same time and receive masters credentials at the end of my degree (it just meant–and still means that I'm doing double, even triple the amount of work than anyone else...). So yeah, I'm a Sociology minor and Performance Studies minor simultaneously working towards an expedited Masters in Business Management. It never gets easier explaining that to new folks. It also doesn't get easier studying it either.

I have been catching myself more and more frequently questioning my place in my degree, and even in university. Does it really have to be this hard? Do I really want to study business, or was I just petrified for my "inevitable unemployability" from pursuing a liberal arts degree? If I was truly doing something I really loved, I'd be damn good at it and, in turn, get a job. it's just the way I am. Maybe this runs along the lines of existing as a neurodivergent person, but I really pour every ounce of my existence into the things I love. So, what if I just dropped business (I still can), stuck with my Sociology/Performance Studies Bachelors, and went to pursue a Masters in Contemporary Art Theory in London or abroad somewhere else? Wouldn't that be throwing everything away though? But then again, what is "everything"?

When I picture my "future-self"—and I mean the really cool, idealized version of yourself that everyone has of themselves—I see a girl with a curly pixie cut, sick boots and a carefully curated tattoo sleeve, sitting in her vintage art-deco pseudo-office/studio in the city, working on something creative. I don't see her stuck in an office somewhere meeting deliverables by "EOD" and eating horrible catered food at a meaningless conference that I only applied to attend because it removed me from my usual bleak surroundings. I think growing up in the arts sphere has given me a really warped, cynical view of corporate jobs. At the same time, I've had to delete social media apps like TikTok and Instagram partly because the constant stream of "corporate day in my life" shorts actually make me feel ill because of their mundanity and repetitiveness. Honestly, picturing myself in a corporate setting, idealized or not, makes me a bit ill even now.

Pursuing a cool alternative Masters degree would still put me into just as much debt as I'm getting in with my Business program, but, I don't know, I might feel less "bad" about it? Then again, yet another thing I've been telling myself is that I will never go back to academia after I graduate, at least not for a very very long time. And there is some substance to that statement. The realm of higher education is deeply raced, gendered and classed, and it prioritizes forms of knowledge production and transmission that I've been in a constant battle with for what feels like my entire time spent in university so far. My mom told me that I "have the power to change that." But do I? And if so, what extent of my capacity for change will satisfy me enough to make me feel like I'm doing something good there? There's also the problem of time management, given the fact that I'm writing this lengthy piece rather than the one I mentioned at the start. Will I really be able to deliver an 18,000 word dissertation if I can't even complete my assignments without entering a cycle of major procrastination, overwhelming panic, and anxiety-driven completion?

Anyways, I'm done pretending to be the lesbian Carrie Bradshaw, and I hope at the very least that this post reaches someone in a similar boat and makes them feel a bit less alone. Any advice, thoughts, or engagement is appreciated, but not necessary.

E

[academicfever]

23/100 days of productivity!

Good morning loves!

Are u guys losing motivation too?

I guess we don’t have to be perfect everyday … just need to be consistent … small efforts

Today I will try these:

Mental health check in

Race review_baku

SIMSCAPE _ electric power train

EV study material prep