#phd stuff

[shitifindinsteadofdoingmyphd]

Day 627 of the PhD

Romanticising the PhD to make it feel less daunting this week .

[just-anka]

PhD defence is TOMORROW holy shit. Time hasn't felt real for the past month. I'm mostly exhausted and can't wait for it all to be over but trying to be at least a little excited for it too because it's a pretty big moment isn't it...

[as-told-by-sura]

[dyingroses]

You know what would suck

If the zombie apocalypse subsequent fall of society occurred right after you got your PhD

Like all that work for nothing!

Talk about a hardened darkened rage filled apocalypse character lol

[ineedfairypee]

To P or not to P(hD)

[ventras-world]

Today, in a few minutes to be honest, i will sign my extension of my phd contract for one year. I don't know why, but there is anxiety connected to that. I love my job as lecturer here and i do think its possible to finish my phd in this one year... still.... there is lurking something in me.

Doubts, that i am already quite old. Doubts i could not accomplish what people expecting of me... or worse... what i am expecting of me.

I now that we are human and therefore cannot be productive all the time... and still i got this anxiety everytime i just slack off a little.

[drlinguo]

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[thephdpensieve]

Don't let the distance between where you are and where you want to be scare you out of moving forward.

But how?

This fear is like gravity. I can't feel it pulling me down, it is not prominent. It is not in the top of my head and making me fret every moment. It is not crushing or intense, it is not making me implode.

But it is there. It is keeping me from moving. I am paralyzed without even realizing. It has stopped me from being hopeful, or even looking at the future.

What's the cause? The distance between where I am and where I want to be, rather where I have to be. It is so far because I lagged behind once. And I am lagging behind still because the distance is daunting me now.

It's a loop. One thing feeds the other and vice versa. As time passes, the distance just keeps growing and I am standstill right where I was a year ago. And with the distance grows the fear. I get anxious more and more, and even simple tasks feel monstrous now. It is only a matter of time for me to succumb into the loop: to spiral into a blackhole.

How do I get out of this loop? How do I break this loop? How do I not let the distance scare me? Right now, I am all questions and no answers. I am writing this blog post to lift some weight off my chest and put it out in the open.

What helps you in such moments? Have you escaped the loop before? Or, are you too stuck in a loop like me?

[dooareyastudy]

presenting at a conference this morning, wish me luck!!

[shitifindinsteadofdoingmyphd]

Day 604 of the PhD

I’m getting close to hitting that mid way point so thought I’d create a vision board to keep me going. It was also a nice procrastination from writing because… damn it’s repetitive. But soon it’ll be hours of marking and then my one week holiday!

So much to do before then… but I have finally started data collection so I’m feeling excited.

[just-anka]

Our new home! Wah a lot has happened over the past few months and I'm only just starting to process it all. We knew all along that we were leaving Zurich after I finished my PhD, and vague plans to move to the mountains have been around for years. In early 2023, we started talking about it more seriously and soon realised living IN the mountains (rather than in a town in the valley at the bottom of the mountains haha) would involve buying a house because there aren't really any rentals in the villages around here. We spent a lot of time that winter looking at different places to find areas we liked, and then a lot of time in the summer viewing houses and figuring it all out. We decided on a house in late August, thinking there would be plenty of time to get it all through before the end of the year, that I would defend and then we'd move. As usual, that didn't go to plan and instead we found ourselves driving the 3.5 hours to Valais to sign for the house 4 days before my defence 🤦‍♀️ not ideal and all the uncertainty around the buying and the move combined with the defence stress over all those months really did me in, I'm still exhausted now even though the pace of life has gone from 100 to 0 (okay maybe more like a 10 but still) in the past few weeks. And the house is definitely not without issues 🤣 some of which we knew about, some we didn't, so the actual move in process has also been more exhausting than anticipated. There's also a ridiculous amount of admin involved in moving canton in Switzerland, it's almost like moving to a new country, especially as foreigners. But we survived the first bits, we moved in properly in the days after Christmas, and it's all slowly coming together now, and I love it SO much already. It's so quiet and peaceful, there's a little forest right outside our balcony that has deer walking through it almost every day, they come up all the way to the front door sometimes. Skiing is 10 mins away. It's been pretty cold as we're still figuring out the heating but we have a wood stove and it's so cosy. I love walking down the stairs in the morning in my warm jumper and making tea and meditating and journalling, all the while looking out at the mountains. I'm so burnt out from the end of the PhD and the entire past year it's been hard to take it all in, and it doesn't feel real yet most of the time. But when it does I feel so lucky. And I have a lot of time now, because I'm finally taking that gap year I've been saying for years I will take haha. It won't be an entire year, probably, but it will be a few months at least. Lots of skiing for now and some time to write, finally, getting settled into the house, and then some travelling.

[as-told-by-sura]

I’m presenting on my research idea at a local conference tomorrow, please wish me luck!! 🫵🏻👀

[between-pages-and-lines]

Trying to romanticize my life as super tired PhD student. 💫

[prozach27]

“So why did you go to grad school?”

[ventras-world]

Today i had to remind myself again that people (especially not me) don't have to be perfect. That nearly noone is motivated all the time and has perfect discipline. That starting all over is part of the process to win in the long run.

And that 'slacking off' doesn't mean i am a failure and that i can't come back strong.

A phd is a marathon, not a sprint.... or maybe HIIT as there are definitly sprints in it.

I'll sign my new contract, which will prolong my phd for one year, next Tuesday.

One year to get a closure on two written papers and write my third. In my eyes absolutely doable.

[drlinguo]

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