#post 13

[gunsoffire]

Selfie Time! : Trevor

[trauma-is]

Cw mention of punishment (no details) and panic/anxiety attacks

Trauma is having to learn to hide your panic attacks because you would get punished for them as a child, so now people don't believe you when you tell them you're having one of the worst anxiety attacks you've ever had, because you don't show any signs of it :(

-🌙♠️

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[kissoflightning]

More fun at the Eden Club

[fancyhandsbakery]

Keep your eyes on Palestine. We know the illegal occupation launches attacks when Western media is distracted.

[throughmilliesview]

[December 30, 2020 at 01:49] | Notes

I think that reading Beca&Chloe fan fiction gives me different reflections, thoughts, perspective and more. Tonight, I read one where they are parents and I simply love the fluffy family shit but there’s one specific thing that really got me.

Which is: maturity. It wasn’t the first time, I’ve read many books of them being on their thirties, married, and having kids...in this one though, I felt a new level of maturity between the lines of this story. And it got me. 

Because it’s exactly that feeling of maturity that I simply long. And it’s bad, because, I still have plenty of time before I get on my thirties, before I have a kid, before I get married. But, still, there’s a kind of security and confidence that comes with maturity that really makes me just want a little. 

So, Mills, are you saying you want to be...more mature or be on your thirties? No! That’s not what I’m saying. 

What I’m saying is that going to bed, knowing that you have a family, knowing that you’ll wake up next to the person you love for the rest of your days, that you have things, they are yours (You know? It’s all yours. And there’s nothing that make you feel like you don’t genuinely deserve all of that. You simply believe, or at least let it be. Because it’s yours.) gives you a different feeling of firmness. 

Right now, I feel like a scared cat.

I’m so scared of everything.

I’m scared of what the future may hold.

I’m scared I’ll never find true friends.

I’m scared of going to therapy.

I’m scared of finally starting to work. On...like, uh. A real job!

I’m scared of people.

And I doubt everything I own. There’s no confidence in there. And I could be more confident. But as a teenager I’ll never have that kind of confidence that feels more like safety. Does it makes sense?

Like, steadiness. 

Like, they won’t just leave you alone, you know? They won’t go anywhere.

This is your life now. Your family is yours and nobody can’t take that away from you.

This is what I’m talking about.

As a teenager, fear always comes first. Because, well, everything’s new. Everything scares me. And it’s pretty cool, yeah, I have to live to understand those emotions and feelings. But I can’t wait to not feel like that anymore you know? To have sense of steadiness, and security, and firmness, and most importantly...sureness that nobody can take away from me.

Even though sometimes I just want to jump right into adulthood and the feeling I’ve mentioned, this phase that I am right now it’s also pretty great. And I don’t want to waste it. It’s the phase that I don’t know if I can say it’s about loneliness or freedom. Sometimes it’s hard to tell which one I feel.

Maybe the time to find that out hasn’t come yet.

And it’s okay. Because I have a very powerful weapon called  Imagination.

And it allows me to be here. In the present time. And also there. In the adulthood (Where I don’t exactly feel the weight of responsibilities and bills, so yeah pretty sick). With a family. And a lover.

[housemdfever]

House MD text posts except I'm running out of titles

13 and Chase are literally just House's kids atp

[averageartisan]

a boy and his friends and a game they play together

[definitelynotaweirdo]

[tardis-technician]

Something about the way the doctors always argue when they meet themselves but all of them are always dunking on ten so specifically. Like yes they will all argue with each other but they take one look at that version of themselves and go yikes. You were my middle school cringe fail phase. You're shiny and dumb and easy to trick. There is so much wrong with you. Unlike me. I'm much more normal now (lying).

[kitmarlowe]

[xec]

The Beauty of The Witcher 3: Wild Hunt

[florida3exclamationpoints]

[gl1tzh]

HAPPY NEIL BANGING OUT THE TUNES DAY TO EVERYONE!!

he really is banging those tunes woah look at him

[wheatormeat]

I started this around September 2023 anticipating to finish it for dunmeshi's finale! But things got hectic! Here is the finished product to celebrate anime airing day; 2024 is truly the year of dunmeshi!

[pancakemolybdenum]

worlds smuggest tween owning noobs on wizard101

[peoplesprincessgeorge]

f1 + txt posts = true 13.0