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‼️ Extended Demo is OUT NOW ‼️
Do you believe in gods? In monsters? We've got 2/2 for you in our extended demo for The Inn Between!
The extended demo follows the common route up to chapter six! Experience more of our story, and finally meet our shark-toothed goat Solas!
Get stuck in to ~50,000 words of story (half our common route!) Juuuust don't call Solas a goat....
#the inn between#extended demo#bl game#visual novel#dating sim#indie dev#vndev#catboy#fantasy#narrative game#I worked really hard on this#please play my game im so tired
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I have found a beautiful perfect humble rock specimen that is light yellow with a weird dark yellowy brown lining, somewhat resembling a chunk of smoked gouda cheese... effervescent
#I am still very into trash collecting at the moment and even went out and got one of those grabby sticks for cheap and a little#bucket I can carry around and put trash in. so I am going on walks in nature a bit more (not really to enjoy nature but more to play the#very fun Real Life Hidden Object Point And Click Game that is 'hunt for bottle caps and cans' .. but eh.. whatever gets me out of the#house lol).. anyway.. some nature places near water will have cool rocks#Which I know you're not supposed to take them and I MOSTLY dont.. but every once in a while it's like... when else will I ever find a#gouda rock... I have cleaned up 4 buckets of trash today.. I have helped the environment.. mayhaps.. i could take a One Single Rocke as a#treate... ANYWAY. but yeah. I don't know the names of rocks but there's a rock that's a matte muted marigold yellow sort of#color and I call them 'cheese rock'. I'm pretty sure this one is of the 'cheese rock' species but it just has weird brown coloration#like maybe it got stained or something on one side of it. Most of the other cheese rocks have no markings. though sometimes there will be a#auburn reddish sort of hue on a corner or something.. hrmm.. curious. I also got a Beginner's Hobby rock tumbler and some supplies#so I might try polishing some of the rocks from my enormous rock collection. even though they're all street rocks I picked up from sidewalk#and stuff. I saw a video where someone put random gravel and stuff in a rock tumbler and none of them were Stunning Gems or whatver#but some still turned out cool enough that I would be pleased with the result... OUgh.. I want to post more I need to like do costumes and#sculptures and stuff and be Active On Social Media and think about my Future and Career and how it always benefits artists to keep an#active social media or etc. but I just feel so tired and bad lately. I think the summer heat waves have really exhausted me. I also have#been trying to make new friends + on a weird schedule so I've been socializing and also watching media too much. I notice I always start#to feel this kind of unsettled stress of not making any forward progress in my life if I do that for too long. like 'Okay this week I've#done nothing but meet up with two friends & watch like 10 episodes of tv and only worked on a few projects on the side.. this is HORRIBLE!'#(ppl who follow me here that I talk to on discord: this isn't about you! Im specifically just referencing being tired of introductory talks#with a new round of random strangers during my Friend Hunt. Just clarifying so it couldn't be misinterpreted as vaguepost implying that I'm#secretly bothered by talking to you or etc. lol.. anyway) . Which I know to MOST people 'I talked to a lot of friends and watched some cool#stuff!' sounds like a GOOD relaxing time but.. to me it is not ghhj.. Those are 'external' focuses on things outside myself which bothers#me if not moderated. Like.. i MUST retreat internally to work on my worldbuilding and my own thoughts and etc. at very regular intervals or#it will really start to bear on me too much. Brain Mandated Hermit Isolation lol. Just being too detached from my world and stuff for#too long feels increasingly bad. PLUS. every day I don't make tangible progress towards my goals is a day wasted that I could have been#investing in my future by working on novels/games/sculptures/actual career relevant stuff. Not even in a Capitalism way i just genuinely#enjoy Completing Tasks & feel miserable if I don't for too long. EVEN the media I'm watching I turn into A Task since I rank in a detailed#google doc list after viewing lol.. Like EW movie too boring on it's own. NEED to turn it into something I can categorize and analyze ghghj#LOVE to make things more complicated than they need to be. like YAAAY organizational tasks! yaay meticulous sorting!! BOO ''mindless fun''!
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not-yet-dead-person
silly comic of a conversation in-game i thought was too funny not to make something proper for instead of a doodle ww
(timelapse + wip images (thus silly process commentary in read more if you like artist commentary :3)
i think the sketch looks silly and goofy and funny so i find it important to share with you the mere presence of the faces i drew on it. i drew it on top of the boxes without staying inside its borders because i find my proportions can get wonky if i draw them cropped in a restricted space. and I feel trapped otherwise and i will draw BAD!!! give me spaceeeee to go wild!!!!
the head circles are there for emotional support
very low res speedpaint because truth is the canvas was much bigger than the space where my comic was placed. i didnt account when exporting my timelapse in 720px that that tiny space would look so pixelated ... but it's able to be percieved, so its okay.
(i will now comment on my process and it is not brief sorry)
usually i would try to clean up my sketches and figure out what goes on top before jumping into linework, but since there are multiple panels and drawings i chose to jump into inking right away for the sake of brevity. i just went in with a brush that uses pen pressure and drew what was needed. i added extra line thickness and contrast in areas around the face because it helps direct your eyes there more easily that way.
according to her equipment rei has a chain belt but i only remembered it existed once I was going to color, and i did not like that discovery... I chose to ignore it to maintain my peace. i already have the color palettes for these characters figured out, and i didnt really want to think about a new element at the moment www I tend to overthink those things a lot so i skipped it
the rest is rather straightforward! not that anything else wasn't, but in here i could turn my brain off and sing. linework and sketching require mumbling so i cannot turn my brain off. just block in the characters with a solid color so i can have a mask (something along those lines,) where the color can stay inside. then just color in !!!
Base colors just had slight cell shading on the skin, and for the hair i airbrush a bit of the skincolor in low opacity near the forehead... I'm not sure what it means, but i can look at the faces easier with it somehow. i like the gentle subtlety it adds even if you cant really tell. it makes things look nice.
background was just me blocking in the color of the wall and floor, shade the wall a bit, then slap a noise and free use wood texture on top. work smarter not harder ! yet it took a bit to make it look stylistically fitting with the characters, and even now i think bottom middle panel looks odd. whatever!!!
for the middle panel i thought itd be funny if the background was a solid silly and colorful one to contrast the next panel's sketchy black one. a contrast to how the word widow is seen. on that note my handwritting is not pointy. i gaslighted my hand into thinking that it was indeed pointy in that moment so i could write "not-yet dead person" in letters that didn't seem cute. my hand did not fall for it but it complied anyway
that's basically it! I'm not sure what else i could say that doesn't feel barebones because it really is that straightforward. if you're curious I used clip studio paint for this. only special brush used was for linework (a brush named Lemon Brush), the rest used were just the default. my computer gets the least credit. it was trying to convince me a 20mb file was going to nuke it all the time and hardly let me save multiple times so i do not appreciate it
#re:kinder#fanart#sayaka re:kinder#rei re:kinder#OH I ALREADY RAMBLED IN MY POST WHATEVER SHOULD I TALK ABOUT NOW IN MY TAGS UEEEEEEE😭😭😭#oh yeah do you want to know a fun fact about this drawing#i started it yesterday. i wasnt meant to I DID NOT HAVE PERMISSION...FROM MYSELF... i was meant to be on break#i self imposed a one week break from doing any rekinder related project after the transcript to avoid accidental burn out#NOT THAT I GOT TIRED OF IT AFTER THAT TRANSCRIPT NOT AT ALL#but jumping straight into more hours of creativr work after over 30 hours of it is asking for disaster. it is asking for burn out#yesterday was the last day . 12 hours were left but i was going to die if i didnt draw anything it would have been OVER#(aka my period started recently so i got very gloomy and depressed so i needed to run to my favorite stress relief...drawing rekinder☺️)#(on that note seriously what the fuck please explain the evolutionary advantage to getting horribly depressed every month)#(like hello?!?! rant real quick— i get enough flashbacks everyday i DONT need them to last longer and have me more msierable ?!?!?)#(periods are so dangerous to my mental health for no reason can i get a restriction order on them or some shit what the fuck)#(anyway thats enough of that break of character DONEEEE :3333)#SO YEAH I DIDNT EVEN LAST 7 WHOLE DAYS i even played a new game in between those 6 days youd think itd het my mind of rekinder. WRONNNNGGG#not even another devastating rpg horror gamr could divert my attention for long i hsd to draw rekinder😊#using the newfound power of mt transcript i was decided on drawing rei because i dont draw her enough for how high she is on my fvaorites#i was initially doodling random lines but then i stumbled upon this interactkon and it doesnt really fit into my usual expression sheets#so i thought hey lets do it asife#i thumbnailrd it and from there i was like hey lets do it in comic format isntead of separated messy doodles in tint canvas#and the rest is hisotry .... aka i spent the last two days doing this instead of doing MY HOMEWORK!!!!!#on my defense when i wasnt drawing i was horribly depressed i had no other choice#(seriously fuck off periods WHAT what do you mean i need to be distracted 24/7 to not be struck by crippling meltdowns LEAVE ME ALONE?!?!?)#(they should be banned we as a society should find like a . cure to them it dont do me good to have a whole week where i cant function)#these tags have been more of a weird rant im sorry IVE BEEN FEELING PEEEVEDDD LATELY SO YOU GET. STRANGE DROTTER LORE ????
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did you hear that they just made a new law where before saying anything about thinking a sonic game is bad you are now required to play through the game in its entirety . if you break it you will explode on the spot btw
#ok well i dont think you should be required to play an entire game to have an opinion on it#but im really tired of seeing sonic takes from people who clearly know nothing about the game theyre talking about#''shadow the hedgehog/sonic 06/sonic and the black knight/sonic unleashed/whatever is SUCH a bad game''#ok . have you ever touched the game in your life though . be honest#and no game grumps playthroughs and parody videos dont count#i mean actually playing the game or watching original cutscenes/gameplay without people talking over it#hell even with the games that i DONT like all that much and i agree arent that great or are very flawed#i get annoyed whe people just mindlessly hate on them without really knowing anything about them#like please hate them for a reason other than ''well my favorite youtuber said its bad so that must mean its bad''
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#two mimir#tandemaus#pokemon#pokemon sv#pokemon gen 9#sorry bintendo i pirated this game but i wouldve bought it if i knew it was such a good game at the end#that ending was actually so good id put it as my favourite pokemon game#and the music holy fuck my ears were blessed#okok next time I will buy the new game#shit made me crave sandwiches so bad then i made my own bread and got sick of sandwiches after 2 weeks#now im getting tired of caesar salad#i need more recipes for work#i promised myself i would never buy another drink at gongchass after they fired me but then they released some cute ass 3d keychains#I'll just get my bf to do it#i wanna play the next gow#please let me refund aitsf 2 i dont feel. like playing it but steam wont let me#idk why I'm too lazy to play it even tho the games expensive ash#need more multiplayerr games to play with friends#terraria got boring after 2 days#zomboid is good#plate up got boring after a week#where is my motivation to play apex#raft is dead#devour need more maps#no im not going to play LOL or AOE#i wish i celebrated christmas#if I could experience something again it would b my childhood xmas spirit and mythical-y energy#i feel like ill always be mentally stuck at 17#how bout i physically go back to 17 too i dont want to start paying my fuel#shit goes down so fast
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I feel like I need to be petted right now but I'm afraid if anyone touches me I'll bite
I don't know if I deserve to be pet, but I know that I deserve to be cold, I know I deserve to stay in the dog house outside for the winter, I am only suppose to watch the warm glow coming from the windows, I'm only suppose to smell the food on the table, I can only play nice when guests are over
#vent#i just want to have my stupid blog and pretend to be a stupid dog on t#on the Internet what am i doing wrong why am i wrong im so sorry#i dont know whats wrong with me and you cant even be honest what did i do#why do you have to watch me why cant be left alone#why cant i be trusted why are you always watching me#nothing i do is private nothing i will ever so is private how do you know how do you always know and why isnt it okay#im tired im so tired and im tired and im tired and im so tired and im so tired please please put me to sleep#please just tell me directly#please stop playing games why is everything a game why cant you be honestly that you know and youre here why cant you just tell#did you ask them did you ask for them to tell you if i was back whh couldn't you leave me alone this one time its all i asked#i just wanted this for myself and i cant even have this for myself#why cant i be a dog why cant i just be left alone you know everything else you always know everything else#i thought this could be different i thought this blog would be different please stop watching me#i know youll read this im not comfortable around you like this#im not comfortable being a dog around you im not comfortable letting my guard down in a state like this i dont think ill ever be comfortable#why dont you listen please let me have this#please please please let me have this#hurt me hurt me so i can have this hurt ne every time so i can have this#i dont care the price id do anything to have this i dont care how much you want me to hurt for this just let me have this#im sorry#im so sorry im so sorry and i know its my fault#it's always my fault
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kind of annoys me sometimes how I can happily listen to my roommate explain the entire plot of whatever she's currently into but when it comes to my interests she can only listen for a few mins before wordlessly walking out of the room
#ive only slept 4 hours and its a sunday so im probably just cranky and getting irrationally annoyed idk.#but i wanted to talk abt revenant gun bc im enjoying it and havent gotten to discuss it w anyone :-(#i dont wanna post on here bc i dont wanna see spoilers and i dont have anything to say that other fans would find particularly interesting#ik half the arcs of the veilguard characters despite the fact ill never play it bc i like listening to her + hearing her opinions#but damn i guess she doesnt gaf shes got better things to do. im not being fair i get we jusr socialise differently n thats fine.#and ik its not true but sometimes i feel like she doesnt like being around me very much bc shes always halfway out the door#and she doesnt suggest we watch shit together anymore n has turned me down the last few times ive suggested it#but ik shes doing shit w other ppl shes always calling n playing games n stuff w other friends so well maybe its a little true#and she acts so strange around me sometimes like she'll move to the other side of the room if i go open the fridge or whatever#like damn girl im not gonna fucking bite u. whats up with the constant 5ft distance. bc u dont ever do that with other friends just me.#and then it pisses me off when it sort of comes up as a side thing to smth else bc it ONLY ever comes up around other ppl she'll never#bring it up directly with me and she'll blame it on me as if we havent had this conversation multiple times where ive explained exactly#why im weird abt shit sometimes and where my boundaries are and what i would like and then nothing at all changes#like last time she brought it up around another friend she was like oh well we can hug more if u want like no we fucking cant bc u act#like we're magnetically repulsed u hate me being in ur space and only tolerate it when we're around other ppl which is why it makes ME#uncomfortable when she does try to be physically affectionate or whatever bc she 100% exclusively does it in front of others#like man u dont have to put on a fucking performance??? or even worse do it just bc u feel guilty abt leaving me out i hate being pitied#even if ik i very obviously do get hurt at being left out. but thats my problem man i would never fuck w someone elses boundaries#i hate hate hate when ppl have inconsistent conditional boundaries and never communicate what the fucking conditions are so theyre#constantly moving the benchposts around and acting unpredictably like how am i supposed to know where they are!!!!!! please#snd then so embarrassing to pointedly say its bc of MY behaviour in front of someone else like oh ok. u couldnt have told me this before.#in private so we could actually communicatr. sorry this has gotten so off track im feeling so gross this morning and everything is#frustrating me im so tired i feel nauseous ughhhh#okay well anyway. got my list of tasks lets just focus on this shit instead before i spend yet another sunday miserably ruminating#.vent#im not actually mad at her or anything like i said we just socialise differently we have different incompatible flavours of autism#and thats not her fault but its just so frustrating that we cant seem to communicate very well. i think im allowed to be frustrated#anyway yeah sorry im leaving it im leaving it. i should go polish my boots before i shower
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(gripping the bathroom sink and consoling myself like a toddler) okay. so i don't feel good. what is one thing i can do to make myself feel slightly better? don't say nothing. no. stop it. no temper tantrum. i am an adult. i will take a look at myself and do something nice and i will feel better so help me god.
#ITS NOT FUCKING WORKING THO#I WANTED REST? I TOOK A NAP#IM STILL TIRED#I WANTED TO PLAY VIDEO GAMES? I DID THAT TOO#I DIDN'T HAVE FUN BECAUSE I WAS TOO STRESSED ABOUT THE WORK THAT NEEDED TO BE DONE#I ATE THE FOOD I WAS CRAVING#I READ A BOOK FOR A WHILE BECAUSE I WAS SICK OF THE SCREEN TIME#I WATCHED YOUTUBE#LIKE WHAT DO I DO#SHAKES BODY BY THE SHOULDERS WHAT DO YOU WANT FROM ME#PLEASE JUST GIVE ME ONE OUNCE OF HAPPY CHEMICAL#SO I CAN DO MY FLASHCARDS FOR TODAY AND MOVE THE FUCK ON#PLEASE IM BEGGING TO JUST MAKE IT THROUGH MY EXAMS IM SO TIRED#I HATE MED SCHOOL#thats not even true i just hate MY med school#and i cant even linger on that thought because it just makes me angry and bitter#to think about the circumstances that led to me being here#I DONT HAVE TIME TO BE ANGRY AND BITTER I NEED TO STUDY MICROBIO
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Btw I’ve started playing the funny stars and time game. The the one about the loopty loop and the white diamond ass shit
#the klock keeps ticking#ive looped. 7 times now i believe 👍#i did die in battle once when i made a grave error#and honestly? im kinda feeling fed up with this shit lol its notttt clicking in my brain im stressed#and i havent really CLICKED with any characters yet either like theyre fine but im not really invested yet#at least the battle mechanics are very basic lol theyre easy enough for my small bad at fighting brain#yet despite all my frustrations. i dont wanna stop playing#i want this bastard to get more depressed i can already see they got issues#rn my favorite character is probably mira cuz what can i say i have a type for smart girls who are trying their fucking best#bonnie is nice i appreciate it greatly when they boost morale and give snacks#odile is my favorite to use in battle i cling to her like a dying man#and i like her vibes i like very tired grandma with a clear bias towards bonnie#isabeau…oh its complicated#i kinda hate his face i kinda cant stand him i think im in a bitchy mood this week and this poor guy is my outlet#i DO need to kiss him like he has a very obvious crush on siffrin and i WILL be fishing that out as much as possible#so basically im gonna talk a lot of shit about him while acting like i dont care about his feelings but actually i do care so much actually#and will probably come out of this game with an isa body pillow i kiss every night#fuck you isa fuck you and your stupid dying wife pose please kiss me now
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#*lies face down in a puddle* tired of feeling guilty for both engaging and not engaging with my hobbies#guilty when drawing and writing bc everything i make is bad#guilty when gaming and reading bc i haven't done my productive hobbies enough to have earned it#and also guilty bc then i go online to read about the things i watched/read/played#and find out that my interpretations are just plain wrong or way too shallow#love pretending to care about art and then being bad and both making it and engaging with it its genuinely so pathetic#but yeah also guilty when not doing any hobbies bc im wasting time#and being ungrateful for the free time that im lucky to have#im so tired someone come lobotomize me please#i know im being whiny im sorry please ignore me#just having another one of em regular existential crisis ill be fine
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AAAA I found stuff for the theme but idk if i like it.
#hhh im gonna. play the game now.#even though im just. a little tired of it.#i need neuvi tho... :(#HES GUARANTEED PLEASE.#i have 41 fates saved up for him and i need like. 34 more.#this is going to hurt my brain sm but itll be so worth it.#꒰ঌ♡ 𝟽𝟽𝟽.ramble
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gotta get off the internet and only interact irl with people who were 30 before they got their shit together i cant keep doing it like this
#like this being. feeling like i have no future and nobody likes me#‘youre only 19’ only goes so far when i dont know any other fail 19 year olds#im not gonna be a damn dentist for sure but like. and ive said this a thousand times. what am i gonna do. i cant live a worthless nothing#life where i work a shitty job i hate. i have to like something#i hate my art. i hate my lack of creativity. my art is so bland i just dont think its in me anymore#i finished. and i hate it#i have other hobbies. i like to cross stitch. i like to sew. i like to paint. i like to make dolls. do you see the common theme here#i have a few more than that i technically could do but i cant create anymore and it kills me. i want to. i constantly want to but i cant#it doesnt help that even if i havw ideas i dont even want to do them#i was gonna draw some characters from a game i played when i was little but i just#didnt want to. at no point did it not feel like a chore#ill try to go to new mediums! its fun to mess around and then itll feel boring again and going back doesnt feel any better#idk. googling it is useless. ive tried all the things. for years. ive been TRYING to draw consistently and like. doodles are fine theyre fu#but theyre not what i want to do i want to make something im proud of. i drew almost every single day for like 2 years#and its not burnout bc its been like. 2 more years! and ive barely wanted to at all!!!#i want to be creative and i also want people to recognize it. different complaint but it sucks so bad#i feel like nobody likes me. still. nobody cares about what i do. nobody would care if i stopped#like except me but i can only support myself so far!!!! im so tired of it!!!! someone PLEASE be here for me and just say ‘hey i love this#drawing :)’ like you have no idea what that would do for me#not always. but yknow especially if its been a while. if you like it. if you dont like it :( idk. you should tell me that too i guess#yknow so i can have some confirmation so i dont feel like im crazy. idk. dont actually id never go online again. i would probably. well.#i dont like to say the words#simons spouting#vent :(
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started watching playthroughs of outer wilds again and holy shit game of all time rrrr it's so fucking good i wish i could play it again for the first time
#genuinely it changed something in me#the use of the medium!! the music!! the actual message/story itself!! holy fUck#its been a year now since we played it and aaaaah *clenches fists* the joy it still brings me#my husband and i still talk about the game being one of our favorite things we've ever done together#i need to start talking about games more lmao i fucking love games and im tired of being embarrassed about all my interests#anyway please play outer wilds i cant tell you anything about it and you shouldnt google anything either but it is so fucking good i promis#outer wilds#x
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I love monster hunter so much and yet it doesnt fucking love me back
#six consecutive hours of grinding with event and food buffs to sway the odds in my favour#and i still haven’t gotten the items i need to progress#its been fucking months#please im tired of playing against the same four monsters#and none of them dropping the shit i need RNG WHY??????#luck doko??#😭😭😭😭😭 IM SO SAD I LOVE THIS GAME BUT I NEVER GET SHIT
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FUCK!
#personal#please refrain from looking but do send good vibes. my cat is either mildly injured or sick and im so fucking worried i feel nauseous and i#know its unproductive to freak out but once again please refer to above text#its like 10 30 at night too so im tired and just overall been having a weird week bc im still needing to do shit but im also burnt out as#fuck and hahahahha woo!#shes like 12 and was totally healthy at the vet but yeah. im hating this and spring break is basically over and so is my time of being bad#at being an adult. Fuck This Shit!#im spiraling so im gonna watch a bunch of trashy reality tv or something and play games and puzzles i think
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honestly
#as christians can we stop hating on the flesh#its not always EVIL#its in need of care. it cant take care of itself#thats why its weak#it needs love#stop beating urself up for not reading the bible everyday and try taking a break from work#or finding a friend to talk to#take CARE of yourself#pitys sake#the bible is v specific about what makes the flesh evil#and wanting to sleep in sunday morning cause ur TIRED is not evil it is your BODY TRYING TO COMMUNICATE WITH YOU#im.not saying do whatever ur flesh wants#im saying stop disregarded it just to force urself into christian rituals#God designed it to let u know when ur tired#when ur sad#hungry#hurt#so you can take care of yourself#not ignore it and play the christian game#.....i think i seem angry cause this is all directed at. myself.ahah#greenpost#just i take this stuff reallly literally and get so stressed out when people hate on the flesh cause i feel like they are telling me to#ignore my needs to please God#But that has really messed up my relationship with Him
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