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[tarotwithdanise]

WHAT DO OTHER PEOPLE FIND INCREDIBLY HOT ABOUT YOU?🩷🪻

༉ ‧ ₊ ˚ how to choose pile? ✧ . ˚

꒰⠀from left to right ; intuitively choose the pile your mind, heart and soul desire for. if you are having trouble choosing the right pile for you, here’s some tips you can do ; (1) take a deep breath (2) close your eyes (3) ask guidance from your guides (4) finally open your eyes and you can choose the right pile for you by the guidance you ask from your guides. if you are still having trouble by choosing the right pile for you let me know because i am willing to help and guide you.

PILE ONE PILE TWO PILE THREE

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(?) deck used : the light seer's tarot.

PILE ONE

You felt overburdened and muted from your past and now you are trying and learning to stand and speak up for yourself and for others whom you think reticent to themselves. In your past you are a people pleaser and tend to say 'yes' at everything they wanted you to be, you'd finally realized that we only live once so, you think what you can do and what is good for yourself because you think in this lifetime that the only matters is only you and not how do others perceive you, you are doing this in a healthy and good way. You are seeing the light while you walking through your own path now. The pressure that your past given to you makes you who you are today where people find amazingly about you. With the ace of swords, I think you wanted to widened your throat chakra more, where you will able to communicate and speak well to other people.

You may good at least in choosing right words when communicating to other's and if not, in singing! You are aiming to speak up for yourself and loved ones with the truth and holding it as if it's already possession into your inner voice. I see people find incredibly hot about the most is the quality of you being so intellectual individual, you are this type of person who can truthfully says "don't judge a book by it's cover", you wanted to study, read and get to know more about that specific book before giving and leaving your judgement, i mean sometimes you can kept this principle of yours frequently but you tend to tried your best to atleast have that inside your mind. I also think that there's someone here that always saying to you that you are intellectual but yet you don't even believe to them, you are doubting this capability of yours but you know inside yourself, you can do everything and you know you are creative and talented person.

Somehow, you vision all of this. You already have a clue about this, you are continuously completing your healing and improvement. You are making a progress now, expect a reward coming at your way throughout this journey. Overall, people find incredibly hot about you is that you are intelligent, creative, brave and talented.

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PILE TWO

People who chose this pile are jolly where if they'll enter a dark room, you are the light and center of attraction there. You liked to show this traits of yours, where you are very childish and happy to others but somehow they're curious to know you, they found you incredibly mysterious and sometimes may act as a cold person perhaps you have this jolly side that you always show to others. This mysterious side of yours where these people often notice about you is the most attractive part of you. They're curious to know you more and maybe you are very private individual, which makes their curiosity to activate and somehow check and stalk your socials and backgrounds. They wanted to know you more but you tend to cut them off of what they can get know about you.

Well, i can't blame you though, you have a high intuition and tend to know what is their intentions and want to you and maybe you have a psychic abilities. I also see here that you are kind, generous and gentle but somehow you may have or might experiencing sadness. It's also hard for you to trust others, it make a lot of time to trust and rely yourself to others so you tend to always make it alone or all by yourself. I also think that you have a long curly hair regardless in what gender you are.

Furthermore about you is that you are fond and big fan of galaxies, stars, planets, forest and night so it makes also sense that you might be an astrologer. This last part may not resonate with everyone but for some, you might have a new buy crystals or new collection of crystal and decks.

Thank you so much for reading, let me know your thoughts, feedbacks as well tipping and reblogs is well appreciated !! ♡

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PILE THREE

Okay, people find incredibly hot about you is that you are very sexy and attractive. You have a lot of admirers pile three, I also think that you like to wear the color of red and black which makes you stand out with your circle. You are very friendly, you have a big social circle; a social butterfly indeed. I also see here that you've the prettiest smile or eyes. You value your family, you are someone who is a family oriented. If you literally have a current they see you as husband or wife material or if you are single, you consider yourself as husband/wife material.

I also here that you have a problem right now where you wanted to tell and discuss with others but fear and insecurity comes in. I think you are perfectionist individual. Some of this people fantasties you being tied on their bed or you might into BDSM kind of things. Are you good at dancing? Maybe this is one of the reason why people find you attractive. You are very confident about your talent. While, if you love kids like hanging out with them, playing with them. They find this cute and lovely about you.

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[earlgreytea68]

In my journey through random reading, I just re-read The Odyssey.

Spoilers for an ancient epic poem below.

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I was assigned The Odyssey three times in high school and college and I remember by the third time through coming to appreciate it. Emily Wilson's new translation has been so widely praised that I figured I would give it a re-read.

I am no judge of translating ancient Greek but the Emily Wilson version reads well and is engaging and I appreciated the blend of formal tone and modernism, it seemed perfect for the poem and I loved it. Also appreciated how many different ways Dawn gets described as breaking.

Odysseus? I found unbearable hahahaha. I just could not with him. I do not remember being so annoyed with him when I was younger! But this time through I was like, Dude, you have made a million bad decisions, PLEASE STOP NOW. As far as I can tell Odysseus's main talent is telling incredibly elaborate lies, to everyone he meets, even where there is really no reason to lie, and certainly not in such detail. But he is OBSESSED with lying. I also love how many names for different made-up fathers he could just pull out at the drop of a hat. I mean, they were impressive lies, very detailed, but I was much less impressed by lying as a superpower than I think the ancient Greeks intended me to be.

Also I only remembered Odysseus's journey. In my head his return to Ithaca was a tiny bit of the poem. Whereas in actuality almost all of the poem is his return to Ithaca and his journey is the tiny bit AND it struck me for the first time that we only ever hear about his journey FROM HIM. And the whole poem is about what a good liar Odysseus is. So now I think the entire journey is suspect and this idea of the unreliable narrator is my favorite new Odyssey headcanon lol. I just never learned it that way and I wish I had thought to bring this up in any of my seminars!!

I was also struck by how the deep belief in gods made it so that no one was ever responsible for any of their actions, ever. Everything they did was because one of the gods wanted them to do it. If the suitors were evil and said evil things, it was because a god made them do it. If Odysseus was able to kill them all, it was because a god wanted it to happen. There was just zero idea of accountability in the way the society was functioning and it was fascinating to me. (My favorite thing was how often people would casually be like, "Hey, can I get a ride on your ship, I just killed someone in town and people are after me," and no one asks any questions, they're just like, "Sure! Hop aboard!") I don't ever remember discussing that in my seminars either and it seems especially important because I think that detached feeling of "can't blame me, it's God's plan" still does show up in some religious beliefs.

One hilarious little moment happened when the suitors were plotting to kill Telemachus and as they're discussing it eagles descend and start attacking them and afterward they're like, "Was that a bad omen! Should we not kill Telemachus!" And then a second later they're like, "Nah, I'm sure that was just a wild coincidence." People only see what they want to see lol

The suitors were actually by far my favorite part of the whole story. They were absolutely hilarious. I love how over the top they were. Like, the swineherd would come in to deliver their dinner and they would throw things at him and shout things like "Smelly pig-man!" And it's like, dudes, chill hahahaha. They just cracked me up. But I also liked how everyone in the poem really is complex and no one is actually really good or even really evil, because the suitors are like, "We wouldn't be here if Penelope would just marry one of us," and I obviously do not approve of this patriarchal society requiring this woman to be married but at the same time I do recognize that I think in their society they were making a valid point that Penelope wasn't entirely blameless and it wasn't all on the suitors. But that ambiguity means nothing in the world of the poem because Athena loves Odysseus best. And I don't say that disapprovingly, it's just clearly how they explained some people winning and some people losing when everyone is making valid points.

My other favorite part of the poem was really contemplating how time works in it. Odysseus has been gone twenty years. With no reliable or solid word about him. (because goddesses keep kidnapping him to have sex with him). And yet every single person Odysseus meets in Ithaca (while he's in disguise) IMMEDIATELY unprompted is like, "Man, every day I cry about how much I miss Odysseus. He was awesome. You would have loved him. Just the best guy." For many many verses this poem is just Odysseus listening to people rave about him. And if they didn't rave about him he was like "those people are not loyal." ...no, Odysseus, you've been gone TWENTY YEARS. I think those are the people who just moved on! Sorry not every one of your enslaved people still weeps every night over you. Honestly the whole poem is way more wild and out there than I remember it being. I really remembered it being about Odysseus's journey and it is honestly most just lots of random Ithacans in perpetual grief.

[pleaseeeimjustagirl]

♡Weekly Chronicles♡

Hey babes! I haven't done a weekly chronicle in so longgg but I have some good updates because I missed you girlies<3 Welcome to my new girliesss!

♡Education♡

The semester has officially started and so far I like all my classes. I decided to do 18 credits worth of classes this semester and I didn't realize how busy my schedule would be until last week lol. I'm trying to find a way to reorganize my schedule because babes it is a lot. I have a bunch of items I need to get a few textbooks I will try and order this week but other than that it has been very simple since it is the first full week of the semester I don’t expect them to do too much. I hope all my college girlies are doing well let's buckle in and get this semester done so we can be hot girls all summer lol. Side note there is this really cute guy in a few classes near me and I see him all the time he is soooo cute lol he's blonde and tall I had a math class with him I believe a year ago never said anything to him and I don’t plan he’s just cute lol.

♡Mental♡

I have been great mentally. So far this year I have been super organized when it comes to my goals and habits so it has made me feel secure knowing I am going down the right path. I need to pay for my refill of my antidepressants I like to call them my happy pills. They have helped me a lot these past 3 months because I remember last year around this time I was so depressed Seasonal depression affected my motivation and goals, so I didn't accomplish much. Thankfully this year is different. Also, I've been working on saying more affirmations I sometimes have a tough time looking in the mirror, especially around the time of my period but I'm constantly reminding myself I'm beautiful self-love is a continuous journey and to be patient.

♡Physical♡

I have been sticking to my diet plan! It has been working I've been seeing major results of course I have slip-ups sometimes but I get right back on and  I don't judge myself because I'm human and weight loss will not be linear. I can’t wait to reach my goal I still have more pounds to go but I got this! I've been super strict on my skincare routine and I've been seeing results with that as well my dark spots are slowly fading and I'm super happy. I recently cut my hair so I’m on a hair growth journey now. So if you have any tips especially if you have 4a, 4b, and 4c hair I'd love some tips below, and even if you don’t please share babes<3

♡Hobbies♡

My schedule has been super hectic. So now I'm trying to figure out how to organize my hobbies into my schedule but also trying to keep balance so I don't become overwhelmed. Pilates has been amazing I love the burn it's so addictive I can’t wait to get back into weightlifting in the second quarter of the year! I want to learn how to create flower arrangements so I can keep fresh flowers in my home. I'm still looking into new hobbies so I can have some excitement in my life outside of school. I tried some hobbies during the break and realized certain hobbies aren’t for me and some are. Also, I have been on it with my Italian! By the end of this year, I want to be bilingual. Every time I practice it makes me want to book a trip to Italy just to speak Italian with Italians lol.

I love chatting with you babes and want you girlies to chat back<3 so let me know what you have planned this week and how was your weekend Love you babes we are almost at 200 followers<3

[davrinassan]

I'm normally very easily pleased, but for some reason the more I learn about datv the more I feel like this is not my game. It's honestly kind of impressive how they managed to find the specific tiny things that would bother me and put it in a single game.

My main issue is going to be combat I think. Everything I've seen looks awful.

And I'm not a fan of the art-style either. The proportions are weird, heads are too large and the wrists in particular as VERY sturdy looking in a not sexy way. I saw someone mention how prince charming from Shrek would fit right in and yeah, that is kind of true. But that is also just me being nitpicky. At least it's colourful and the cc looks fun.

The qunari are inexcusable though, I don't know who thought they looked good at bioware but that is the biggest downgrade I've seen in a while. That is just regular people with grey face paint and glue-on horns.

one of the people who worked on bg3 said its like a bingeable netflix show as a game, which i think is quite telling.

i'm definitely not excited to play it? honestly i'm hitting this point where i feel like i might just watch youtube videos by danaduchy or something and that's it.

i mean... i'm sure it'll probably be fun for people who like action games and linear games... maybe it'll feel a bit more like the mass effect trilogy? but.. idk i like dragon age cuz i like tactic-y combat and heavy rpg elements and the opposite of linear i miss being able to pick my own quest order and stuff yknow.. idk idk idk

it's hard to judge a game not out. but all my hype from the announcement has just poofed. it has truly poofed.

i bet people are still gonna love it. but i am fearful it'll be like bg3, where the initial excitement was intense and a few months later we kind of all went "it wasn't as good as we said it was, huh....." yknow?? idk... maybe i'm talking shit LOL

i hope people love it though. i really do hope it's brilliant. i just.. i don't think it's for me anymore. which is sad. dragon age origins is one of my all time favourite games, it always will be, and i get sad when a games sequels progressively get less and less like it: i feel like sequels should.. continue being in the same genre, at least. idk. this is an action adventure game man. yknow what i'm saying ?

[autisticempathydaemon]

Hi hiii!! :DDD Doing this bad boy to see what happens. >:333

What song are you fixated on at the moment? What lyric or verse, and why? Rule 34 and Dinner and Diatribes. I don't know. Something about the just barely masked tension in both those songs, the way they both fit so well with characters/ships/dynamics I adore, and their general energy and instrumentation SINGS to me. <3 <3 <3. I may not listen to them as often as others but they are my entire brain constantly. Favourite lines from both are: "You look so good There on your knees Such a good girl knows how to please Look at me look me in the eyes Forget yourself, surrender your mind" - Rule 34 (Mostly for the visuals and the change of voice) And "I knew it from the first look of The look of mischief in your eyes" - Dinner and Diatribes (This line sets the tone of the entire song so well, the visual is so interesting and the way it's sung is so intimate in a way I cannot describe. Literally so good.)

What is your Enneagram type? 4w5 :3.

Do you love gargantuan Youtube video essays, and if so, which is your favorite and why? I fucking love them so bad <3. I think currently the Lightlark and Nightbane ones by KrimsonRogue are really good. Just... so much content, and also writing advice, and also dying inside listening to a review of a cringe book. Literally sustains my life.

Tell me about your childhood imaginary friend. I didn't really have them in the traditional sense, but the closest things I had was imagining chatting with or interacting with characters I liked from shows, especially once I found visual novels XD. And that evolved into characters running around in my brain and now I am a writer. :P So. These bitches clawed their way into my head at age 10 and never left.

What is your go-to way to fall asleep? Rain sounds. Storm sounds. Wind sounds. Especially if they just come from outside but I also do just put them on on my computer and turn off the screen often, letting them play on the stereo. :P

If you had to change your name, what would it be, and why? (In tandem, if you have changed your name, why did you pick that one?) Names are fucking weird man. I am currently in the process of reconsidering mine, and I am starting to like the idea of something more wacky, and star themed, or snow themed. :P I don't know if I'd like it long term but Redacted and DnD have very much warmed me up to names like that lol.

What is your favorite of Redacted’s audios, and why? Why must I chose one? You're so mean. Uuuuum... Deferred Judgment methinks. It shows a lot of Vega's softness and even some selflessness, while also a bit of the risk that his mission entails and MAN- THE EMOTIONAL IMPACT WHEN IT CAME OUT WAS SO MUCH. I hated it way back when but damn... it was really good. Still is. Cannot wait to see him again. Miss him real bad.

What Redacted boy holds no appeal to you, and why? Like, not the one you hate but the one who you don’t get the hype for. (I won’t judge, I promise.) Um... Guy, Ollie, NICK. OH GODS NOT NICK. And most of the fooliverse boys besides Milo. I am not exactly the type for sweet boys. I like some of them but their chaos or overt sweetness is... too much.

Tell me about that one book/movie/tv show you know all the words to. Can't say I have gotten that obsessed with media like that sadly. I am more of a Podcast/ASMR/Audioplay/Music person buuuut... hm... I mean- does a book I'm writing count??? I have quite a bit of the words of that thing up in the noggin often. It's not done yet but :P.

Which Redacted boy are you platonically attracted to? Like- forget dating, which dude do you want to be your best friend? Oh man. Damien. He is super similar to me in his passion and his love of learning and his general personality (minus the anger, that I am less prone to.) And the other boys up on top of my list I am more queerplatonic about so. :P

Do you have a go-to thing you ramble about when you’re tired, and if so, what is it? (For example, my boyfriend knows I’m ready to sleep when I start talking about space.) Oh no I will ramble about anything at any time. <3 <3 <3. I am not well ever <3.

Tell me your go-to gas station and drink combo. Spicy or Soup chips (Salt and Vineger, Chili/Cheese, etc), often Doritos or Cheetos (or Hickery Sticks if they have them), and either mineral water or an orange Soda/Slushy. And if it's cold I often go chips, sour candy and hot cocoa <3.

Tell me about your favorite playlist at the moment.  Hozier's Unheard and Wasteland Baby. Both have songs I utterly adore.

What’s your guilty pleasure media, and why? None. I feel guilty about nothing that I consume <3 <3 <3.

And whatever else you think tells me about who you are! I am a lover of art and the arts, and am actually studying art currently for my major. I would consider myself very much Vampiric in some ways (My disconnect in the way I write/speak from a specific time period or place, humanity is familiar but also fucking weird, the sun burns, I'm dramatic and want the fashion to prove it, blood good (no I won't explain) etc.), and I am a weird philosophical bastard who likes to make characters out of vague concepts, and then explore them to their most painful depth. Also varied morality and/or moral quandaries are very important to me. Morality is a weird soup and I like to play with it. (Ironic since my own morals are so strict and fixed, and yet I love writing characters who have different ones.) Aka Evil Bitches Good. And also I am one of them (if only as a writer. Love writing cruel angst to hurt my friends and characters with <3 <3 <3.) Anyhow that's all for me for now. <3 <3 <3 (Hope this is not too obscenely long.)

Pssssst- .3. Hellooo- I submmited a matchup thing but I think I did an oopsie XD. I'm an Enneagram 5w4 but I think I flipped them. So- just saying that. If it changes anything lol- My baddd- I just noticed when thinking on it. :P

Hmm, this enneagram type is characterized as creative, intelligent, and stubborn, with something to prove to the world- which tracks as you relate to Damien. With that in mind, who else could I pair you with but Huxley?

Huxley is a kind, patient, go with the flow kind of guy but not too silly which you said you don’t vibe with. You give me the impression of an insular, cerebral person, someone with a lot of ideas and thoughts that need to be finalized and put on paper, and Huxley seems like a good partner to help with that, to be your rock (ha) and help you keep those trains of thought on track while also being vocally supportive and hyping up your work the whole time. He’s sweet to you but not so sweet he doesn’t love you and your love of villains and their fucked-up deeds.

And it’s a wonderful love Huxley gives you every day, with the sturdy support and cool shade of a great tree. When you’re studying or doing schoolwork, he’s always there bringing you water or food, massaging your shoulders if you’ve been slouching. He listens to your rambles with rapt attention and affection, retaining every detail. He is your beta reader and biggest fan. He drives you to and from school with a thermos of homemade hot chocolate because his leagues is better than the store-bought stuff, and he won’t let you forget it.

Song:

And I remember being younger and my mother told me the truth/ Find someone who grows flowers in the darkest parts of you/ Take heed when things get hard and don't you ever turn around/ You'll find someone, someday, somewhere that grows you to the clouds

I feel like this song choice needs no explanation. One, the vibes are kind of just right if you’re a Hozier fan; the folk-y, country-like longing is just what the matchmaker prescribed (the matchmaker being me). Two, it’s delightfully charming and ironic given your dislike of the sun and the pet name of Sunflower I will soon have him give you.

Runner-ups:

Cam is a fun runner-up for you because I think he, as a therapist, would have a lot to contribute to your writing and dissection of villains along with the empathy to see the depth and dimension you want to give them. Lasko is another runner-up I like given how much you relate to Damien, because Damien/Lasko has always struck me as a darling pair, two sides of the same coin.

Bonus: (For you, my one hundredth match-up~)

“Sunflower…”

“Fifteen more minutes, Hux; I’ve almost figured this out.”

���You said that forty-five minutes ago, baby,” Huxley says with a soft, warm laugh and big, warmer hands on your shoulders, gently turning your chair around. “It’s time for bed.”

“But my chapter-“ you say with a tone you won’t admit has a hint of a whine.

“Will be there tomorrow,” he interrupts, taking your hand and gently tugging you out of your chair against your weak protests. “And you’ll be able to write and edit it even better once you’ve slept.” You fall into the bed with a fwump, a deep sigh, and a muttered stream of thought falling out your lips like the air out of a balloon. The earth elemental can pick out odd, familiar words in the ramble like “heart”, “stars”, and “Vega” and chuckles as the stream peters off into slow breaths and soft snores. Huxley queues up a familiar YouTube video on the tv, a ten hour loop of light rain showers, and places a blanket over your sprawled, sleeping body.

“Good night, Sunflower,” he says softly, pressing a light kiss on the top of your head before climbing into bed beside you, turning off the light with a fond, content smile.

Read this post and send me an ask if you’d like a match-up of your own! 💌

[theproverbialpen]

Musings from a Hazbin Fan and Hotel Employee

Yeah, that's right—I'm posting to this blog for the first time in years because I got into Hazbin Hotel of all things. Not only did I get into this cursed fandom, I'm writing fan fiction for it. Fan fiction. I think the last time I wrote fanfiction was...2012? 2013? And I only ever told 3 people about that one. Now here I am posting on main. The brainrot truly is unquantifiable.

If you're one of the few people that survived the purge of those I know IRL, congratulations. Please don't judge me lol. Anyways, actual musings are below the cut!

So I’m writing a fun little fanfic on AO3 and after someone left a comment (if you’re reading this, still genuinely one of the nicest things anyone has ever said to me about my craft), it occured to me—as a Hazbin Hotel enjoyer, I have a pretty unique perspective on the series as an IRL hospitality professional. So! Thought it would be some cute bonus content to talk a little bit more about my life at an actual hotel and how it’s impacted my experience with Vivziepop’s hit series. 

Please note: this is written purely for shits and giggles. I don’t actually have any issues with the setting of Vivzie’s narrative or how it plays into the stories she and her team want to tell. I fucking love this show, to a potentially unhealthy degree, and I haven’t had this much fun with a series since like…okay well my hyperfixations change like every few months, but still. Point is, this isn’t actually critique, or satire, or anything with negative or critical intentions. TLDR; this post is for funsies, get off my dick.

So Who TF Am I, Anyways?

A little background on myself, for context. I’ve been employed at my hotel for almost a year now, and it’s my first hospitality job. I work in the Sales and Events department and I’ve come to learn that Group Business is actually integral for keeping a hotel up and running. When your average person (read: me before this job) thinks about hotels and traveling, you’d think it’s all about the families, bloggers, and individual travelers when it comes to guests and revenue. But in actuality, most of a hotel’s revenue—at least in the market I work in—will come from contracted room blocks and events. 

That’s where folks in my department come in. We work with clients to negotiate contracts and secure occupants for our hotel year round. Simply put, if we don’t do our jobs well, then no one else gets hours. So as much as the anti-capitalist in me will sometimes hate being a cog in the machine, it is really fulfilling to be able to help clients meet their needs while also making sure my coworkers are able to put food on the table. 

Speaking of being a cog in the machine, because of my role in Sales, this means that whenever I travel or think about hotels, I’m always thinking about the revenue side of things. I also work more with the Events team, so operations are also on the forefront of my mind. Which leads me to my principal quandary for this little blog post:

How in the Hell does the Hazbin Operate?

I have a laundry list of questions. A laundry list that’s almost as big as the actual pile of dirty laundry that is currently plaguing my bedroom floor. I will summarize (which is a generous word given how fucking verbose I can be) below:

Issue #1: Revenue Generation

Okay listen, I know Charlie is the Princess of Hell. I know she probably has unlimited capital, whatever that looks like in the HelluVerse. And I know the Hazbin is literally there to help rehabilitate people so charging them to stay would be counterproductive.

But my dude…do you understand how much money would be needed to run an operation of this scale?

At the end of Season 1, the new Hazbin is huge. Like it easily looks as big, if not bigger, than the hotel I work at which has nearly 500 rooms. Do you know how much revenue our team has to generate to keep this place running? Do you know how many millions our target goal is set at for each quarter? How many hundreds of thousands my coworkers’ individual quotas are set to? And sunshine in a bottle over here doesn’t charge her residents anything????? 

How does she get all those decorations? How does she order food or inventory? We know Hell has an economy, like Angel literally says he needs to save money for drugs in his first appearance. Is she…does she even pay her staff???

It is utterly appalling that Charlie is able to operate a hotel of this scale, both because of how it doesn’t make sense from a business perspective and because there are IRL billionaires that could probably do the same thing and solve homelessness overnight. 

Speaking of scale:

Issue #2: The Hazbin’s Systems, Or Lack Thereof

Okay so, yes, there’s only like…one official resident of the hotel, maybe two if Cherri moves in and doesn’t become a staff member (RIP Pentious, you would have loved living with Cherri Bomb). With the staff the way it is, that’s a solid 5:1 ratio, which is beyond ideal. But—and I touch on this in the fic—I feel I must reiterate: the new Hazbin is fucking massive. And you know what that means? It’s going to be able to hold a lot of guests. Guests that will need staff to take care of them. Let’s review:

Charlie is the owner and mostly teaches classes. Vaggie is the co-owner and kind of acts as the Executive Assistant to Charlie’s General Manager. I guess Alastor is the Hotel Manager? I’m gonna be honest, I have no idea what he does, but generally speaking he’s supposed to be the jack of all trades and manage the rest of the staff. Niffty handles Housekeeping and I guess would be the director of that. Husk is the bartender but like canonically only really eats pub food so he definitely can’t be the Food & Beverage head. 

Let’s say we scrap the Sales and Revenue Departments because clearly they don’t need income, but we keep a Marketing position so that Charlie can get the word out about the hotel. That leaves us with the need for Engineering, Front Desk, Rooms, and F&B staff. And like, not just one person—that would fucking suck—but proper staff. And given their track record of organization and managing the hotel…let’s just say, I would not be applying to the Hazbin Hotel anytime soon. Honestly, it sounds like that job would qualify to be the new tenth circle of Hell. 

What Does the Hazbin Get Right About IRL Hospitality?

So yes, clearly the world of the Hazbin Hotel leans towards the more fanciful—it is a story about Hell after all. However, there have been some moments that have made me chuckle as a hotel employee, things that are relatable for us in the hospitality world. Allow me to highlight them for you below:

Everyone is Bat Shit Crazy

Hospitality professionals are weird. So weird. Before I started my job, I was terrified of the level of professionality I would need to have. When I first got hired, I was given a whole packet on dress code and appropriate conduct. As you can probably tell from my writing style, this was concerning: I can be professional when I need to be, but I cannot maintain that guise for extended periods of time. Call it my toxic trait.

I also already had this impression of poised and put-together hotel staff from my previous experiences with travel. All the Front Desk agents would be in these clean and wrinkle-free clothes with kind yet business-forward attitudes, office workers would be walking around in full suits, and occasionally you’d see the hotel management on the floor if you were looking. Let me tell you now—it is a facade. An act. An incredible stage production unfolding in real time where all the staff do their absolute damndest to make you feel like you are in an organized and professional institution. Not unlike a certain hit animated musical.

My direct supervisor, the literal Director of Catering and Events, once told me that being a liiiiiittle crazy was a prerequisite for working in our department during the hiring process for a new Sales Manager. She was wrong—the prerequisite is not “a little” crazy. The prerequisite is being bat shit insane. And it’s not just our department, oh noooOoooOo, it is every department. Downstairs in our little basement dungeon, we make out of pocket comments, scream at random intervals, and swear way more than we should (that one might be my fault…according to my partner I swear more at work than at home and apparently it’s rubbing off on my colleagues), but that behavior is in no way restricted to just the Sales Team. 

I process the checks that are sent to our property and our Director of Rooms makes me say “can I get a WITNESSSS” before she signs off on the drop log (Charlie-core). If I don’t say it high pitched enough or with enough vigor, she makes me do it again. I once watched a guy in Engineering climb a tall step ladder balanced with two legs on a platform and a third leg balanced on a wooden plank his coworker was holding steady. The fourth leg was over the open air. Let me reiterate: the open. Fucking. Air. Tell me you can’t see Angel Dust and Cherri doing that shit.

Speaking of Engineering, you wanna know what dumbass thing happened just this morning? The Regional Director of the department—regional meaning he manages teams all across our area, like top level type shit—told us about this cursed ass Instagram trend he found where allegedly, putting ketchup on a Kit Kat tasted like fudge. So right there and then, him, myself, and two other coworkers decided ‘why the fuck not?’:

I would never seek it out willingly again, but I honestly didn’t hate it. 

The point of all of this is to say—the antics the Hazbin crew get up to? Totally realistic. I could see my coworker Robert throwing me into an active battlefield against my will. We have deadass done the role playing thing Angel and Pentious did during our trainings, and it was just as unhinged. Every day some shit happens at this hotel and I’m just like, “Yup. That could happen in Hazbin.”

“Call Now! Or Don’t! I Don’t Care! We Still Don’t Have a Working Phone!”

I would like to preface this section by saying: if you happen to be a Front Desk associate, I’m sorry. This is not directed at you, this is directed at your managers and their communication skills that may or may not exist. If you are somehow a manager reading this, uh—first of all, cringe. Second of all, I hope these next few paragraphs don’t apply to you. If they do and you’re offended: that’s a certified you-problem, babes. 

There are three certainties in this life: death, taxes, and miscommunication from your fucking managers. Tell me why in this past week alone I have been in 5 different email threads regarding fuck-ups and complaints from guests about things that we had clearly communicated. Tell me why in these email threads, people were attempting to throw me under the bus or shift the blame to my team. Tell me why I have gone to every single individual office in my department complaining about this. Tell me why this isn’t the first time this has happened.

Another hotel tidbit: across the board, Q1 (Jan-Mar) is supposed to be slow, for all of hospitality. It’s the time to get the metaphorical phone lines working, ya know? Our Q1 was stupidly busy, so I get it, people were slammed and short staffed. But like… we had time. Time to iron out our communication, time to create systems and processes that would ensure we’d be all set when things got busier. Yet here I am at the start of Q2 with an entire fist shoved up my ass being puppeted around to fix other people’s mistakes. 

It’s times like these when I go back to rewatch Hazbin for the like 26th time and I watch Charlie and Alastor run the hotel and I’m just like “whyyYyYyYyYyYy”. Like I KNOW Vaggie has had days where she’s like, “what…what am I supposed to be doing right now? Like what is my job, what… What?” 

It’s not just Front Desk either. It’s every department, even my own bosses. Like the call is coming from inside the house, sweetie, why did you tell this Sales Manager that I was taking care of all her commissions but you didn’t tell me this. Why am I blocking a room for an Orientation the following Monday at fucking 5:45 PM on a Friday. Why am I JUST finding out about a VIP guest when I have been asking you if you had any notes for me for the whole week.

I touch on it in my fic as well but like…pretty sure Charlie just, decides to host her classes day of. And that drives me insane. Like I…there are processes. Things that need to be done so that everyone is on the same page. You don’t just wing this shit, that’s how you end up with Susan calling your Director to tell her that you’re a useless waste of space not even deserving of the air in your lungs because you didn’t give her her fucking breakfast voucher. 

As a character, I love Alastor. If I were ever in the same room as him, I’d probably hate him. But if there’s anything relatable about that Geneva Convention Violation on Legs it’s his absolutely done attitude in Episode 1’s opening commercial.

Charlie Loves Helping People, and So Do We!

Alright, I’ve complained for enough paragraphs, let’s be positive for a second. The thing that is by far the most true to life in Hazbin Hotel is how much joy Charlie gets from taking care of her guests. Like…that’s our bread and butter in the hospitality world. Well, maybe just the butter; we need that bread in the form of cold hard cash (or direct deposits, whatever works best). But as much as I will bitch and moan about the difficulties of working in a hotel, there’s nothing quite as fulfilling as a guest telling you that you made their entire trip better. The butterflies I get reading reviews where my coworkers are mentioned by name and a guest writes about how we completely turned around their bad day are an absolute delight. It just means the world knowing that you can have that kind of impact on someone, even if it’s just in the little things.

In Episode 2, when Charlie and the crew are welcoming Sir Pentious and she just starts vibrating with excitement is exactly how I feel when I get to meet a client that we’ve been working with for months and finally welcome them to our property. When they sing “It Starts With Sorry” and just get to have a moment of empathy and compassion together, it reminds me of the clients and the phone calls I take where I get to ask them about their goals and help them feel like they’re supported and heard. In the grand scheme of things, is a nice phone call or interaction with some hotel employee going to change your life? Probably not. But for those few moments when their burdens seem lighter is why I love my job.

This goes for guests, and for my fellow coworkers. I’ve been very blessed to start my hospitality career in an unusually supportive work culture. Yeah, we can be some right petty bitches sometimes, but overall everyone is so encouraging and so quick to help lighten each other’s loads. Like in Episode 5 (best episode btw, for obvious reasons) when all the Hazbin Crew are working together to prepare the hotel for Lucifer’s arrival, that shit made me so giddy cause like- that’s us! Look at us go! We workin together so hard, we’re so cute! Like when Niffty and Pentious are baking and she looks up at him all excited n’ shit—that’s literally been me working with our Director of Restaurants on new food menus or promotional material. 

There’s something about being in an occupation where your whole purpose is to take care of people that really brings out the selflessness in you, and I think that’s what makes the hotel such a great setting for Charlie’s mission of redemption. I didn’t realize that until writing this paragraph tbh, but yeah, it just kinda…works. When your job is to make sure other people have a good time and feel supported and you’re surrounded by people that make you feel the same way, it’s a lot easier to want to choose to do good, to do right by the people around you. So as much as I have some silly little nitpicks…yeah, I can admit—I love that this show is about the Hazbin Hotel specifically.

Anyways, if you made it this far, thanks for reading! Next update for Life is In Redemption will be out in the days to come, just thought this would be a fun addition while I work on some of the content with my friends. This upcoming chapter is going to have a co-author, so get hyyyyyped :)

[finniestoncrane]

As someone who likes degrading you have been a saving grace. My friends joke that I just wanna be abused in bed because of how mean I want them to be and I find it hilarious due to personal stuff. But honestly, whenever I see content with degrading in it - it's either someone like "you're a slut, bad whore" or just straight up non-con and I'm 1 step away from Calling the fictional police on a fanfic character. Which no offense or shame to anyone who enjoys that stuff - it's not for me but it's more so the fact I can never find a middle ground. The "nicer" stuff is too tame but the untamed stuff is just a lot of is kinks I don't enjoy.

Ik, make the content you wanna see in life but damn, it's hard. But your writing and I've seen a few others on here who are kinda like buried treasure. I am like "FINALLY!!!" because even if they have kinks or tropes I'm iffy about the majority of the think is fucking fantastic and makes everything worth it. It's just so rare to find people who still approach degrading with the same...ig finesse as they do with other kinks. Because I like to think a lot of fanfics writers probably know about all the rules of kink & BDSM and have a mature view set on sex but I still find degrading kinks just don't have that kind of polish yet.

It's either light brat taming and spanking with some nasty words or "oh you like degrading? Let me just ruin your mental state and go bonkers" and I'm just here like hhh. Sorry this is coming off so ranty - but yes, you do a great way to showing that middle ground that I've been desperately searching for and it's so perfect. Just- it's truely a treasure in my cove. - 🫖 (I'm so sorry if that was just so ranty or felt like I was judging others or trying to put them down, I'm grateful for all the writers out there)

ANON i am so sorry it took me so long to get to this, i just didn't have the capacity to respond coherently because this is such a kind and sweet thing to say and it means so much to me!!

i feel like maybe this is down to the fact that i'm incredibly kinky in theory but my body and my sensory issues prevent a lot of what i think is hot on paper coming into play. so i like to learn and read and explore and research and study, and i feel very grateful that there's other fic writers, and kink knowledgeable people who share their information for people like me, which means i've read a lot of different takes on a lot of different kinks lol

i'm pretty vigorous with tagging too, and i see some people not be quite as stringent with it, which is fine because there are no laws, but if something is going to veer into noncon or dubcon even under the guise of another kink or adjacent to another kink, then it supercedes it and it gets added to the list!! and i don't think that was ranty at all, i love hearing what people like and how they prefer things to be!! and there's never judgement in expressing your opinion! i like the whole gamut, i'll take playful degradation, i'll take middling degradation and i'll take noncon/dubcon/cnc but not everything is for everyone!!

ANYWAY i won't ramble, but yeah if you ever want something super specific in a request or a "if i can please have this but absolutely NONE OF THIS OTHER THING THANKS" then i am completely ok with that!! u-u 💚💚💚

[alicepao13]

Hudson and Rex S03E14 - The Secret Life of Levi

That episode is so and so for me. Kinda verging on ridiculous for a number of reasons.

Black letters in quotes: Actual show quotes.

Green letters in quotes: What I come up with my twisted up brain.

Rex knows baseball, and apparently well enough to offer opinions on how the game will go. Charlie, a human, does not do so well in that department.

"Jesse. I thought you were a pepperoni extra cheese." "I get that a lot." what

Jesse: "Levi is an e-sports athlete." Charlie is judging you, Jesse. And so am I. Calling gaming a sport is pushing it, calling a gamer and athlete is crazy.

Charlie: "So you probably need me for my police expertise..." Jesse: "No, not you. Rex." Charlie: "Oh." Rex: "Yes, please, get me out of here. This stupid game will last forever."

"You alright? We'll find him." Cute.

Oh, I completely forgot. Canada weather strikes again lol

"Our whole team's on it". All 4-5 of us, depending on who you'll ask.

"Did you drink some of my coffee?" lol

Rainy: "Levi's my husband." Charlie: "I'm going to have to tell Jesse and Levi's fiancée what now?"

"My best friend is the number one suspect in my other best friend's possible murder." That really sucks. Someone hug Jesse. Charlie!

More Bitcoin! Which incidentally is at an all time high now, and yes, unfortunately, it's for the reason you think.

The title is actually referenced in the episode, which is very rare in this show.

In case anyone wants to do some light report reading.

"He's not a pet. He's my partner." He said, too happily. What got into him?

This is why I'll never put my DNA in one of them "find where you're from" websites. Aside from the fact that I'd never pay for this, at some point the police (even in my part of the world) might wisen up enough to try to do something like this. Don't want to have to derail all my future criminal endeavors lol

Jesse: "Millford. Mastodons!" Charlie: "Uh, you're gonna have to give us a little more than that, buddy." This episode is so unserious.

"Gamers. What a truly strange society." Wait until you find out about tv show reactors and VTubers, Joe.

Leave our nerd alone!

I hated that move after that but at least they didn't, as the gamers say, make Jesse OP.

"I owe you one, buddy." You all owe Rex more than one, at the very least. I'm counting.

Will you guys stop throwing around that flash drive that is worth about 300K? It's making me nervous.

The part where they try to recognize Levi's avatar is cringe.

Charlie: "You stay here, okay?" Jesse: "Yeah." Charlie: "Where are you gonna stay?" Jesse: "Uh, right here." lol and then of course he doesn't. He has learned from the best.

Well, that's a very not-really-surprised reaction. Rex is actually more worried.

"Nerd cop" should be Jesse's new nickname.

When the writers wrote this episode, did anyone think that the best this show can come up with in terms of game graphics is a poor imitation of Street Fighter? I mean, they do say it's retro but still.

"I spy with my little eye, a Rex that's going to save our asses."

A flying doggo and a flying Charlie? Now, that's a combo move I can get behind.

"What have I told you about waiting for backup?" "Uh, not to?" "Try again, Charlie."

Funny thing about Bitcoin. If someone knows your wallet address, then they know of every single transaction you ever made with it, unless you go to the trouble to use certain measures to cover it up. So, you know how the government can, via warrant, request your bank to send them your financials and transactions? If you use a Bitcoin wallet, they don't need that! And no one else does either, the ledger of all Bitcoin transactions is public for all to see. Bitcoin is anonymous so long as you don't show your wallet address to other people. And sure, you can have as many Bitcoin addresses and wallets you want, but the minute you use one to make a transaction, someone somewhere might actually start keeping tabs on it. Anyway, this is not an anti-crypro blog. It just rubs me the wrong way when in tv shows cryptocurrencies are being written as this "veil" where everyone can move money unnoticed. Sometimes it can be. Not often, though. Hudson and Rex has a surprisingly good grasp on how cryptocurrencies operate, which is why I've often said that someone over there is a fan.

Precinct proposal. Yes, of course we had to have one of those.

"That's nice." Shut up and take notes, Hudson.

[khaleesiofalicante]

Rafale and Cami's discussions and angst are another level of complicated and so fucking good!! Like, I understand Cami's position, but at the same time I know the pain and pressure Rafael is dealing with rn, and while yes, he's not leading as much as barely keeping under control, he's still doing everything in his power... but will that be enoight?? FUCKING WOW.

“People don’t read porn anymore,” Magnus rolled his eyes. “Not for the last fifty years at least.” “Don’t ask me how I know this but I know David does,” Alec rolled his eyes too.  PLEASE HE'S SO DONE WITH EVERYONE JAGDCJHZDGC

Alec and David talking and bonding and Alec giving advice😍😍. I need more of that so bad!!! He’s always felt like hope was a dangerous thing. The only thing more dangerous than broken hearts was broken hope. HE KNOWS THINGS!!

All the people who cared for him ended up dead. Looking back, the foreshadowing makes me feel both stupid and depressed LMAO

The way I love Arthur's POV in this chapter is not normal. istg I've read it like three times and I cry every time 😭😭. It was shocking, and terribly sad and so beautifully written. I don't really take many pictures of myself and never, EVER, take pictures of myself crying, but I remember I was reading this chapter at like 2 am and bawling my eyes out, trying not to make a noise so I wouldn't wake someone up and trying to swallow the pain in my chest and then thought "lmao this looks so weird I am crying about fictional people and this is my definition of having a good time, I need a pic lol"

Arthur never saying visions and just calling them dreams and nightamares, that is so in character and sad at the same time. And how hard, living like that, constantly getting stuck on this visions all the time, never telling anyone and just learning about them little by little 🥺😭. God, it was just so good and I felt my heart beating faster and faster like I was the one trapped in a vision!!!

Also, don't think we've forgotten about that little boy Arthur saw!! I am not letting a single detail slide😤😤

And yet, he had fallen in love with Kincaid anyway. He had fallen in love with the boy who he witnessed kill his brother a thousand times. I coudl write a whole essay just about this, please don't let me 😭

So, he watched the man cry quietly, clutching a stele in his hand. WAIT THIS WAS AFTER DAVID DRAW THE AGONY RUNE, RIGHT??

I have to make a list of my top favorite moments in lbaf, but this scene definetly has a place there!! I LIKE PAIN DON'T JUDGE ME!

Thank you so much. I struggled SO MUCH with that particular Arthur POV. I'm glad it turned out well :)

So, he watched the man cry quietly, clutching a stele in his hand - this is a vision of Other David before his suicide.

[pinkmoondoll9shihtzu]

how are you able to celebrate spirituality without feeling omniscient judgement of your every action? i realize that sounds like an accusatory question out the door LOL but i definitely don't mean it that way. it's moreso like...i spent so much of my life until recently feeling like i wasn't allowed to enjoy or be myself in my own privacy without feeling like i was being watched and weighed. i don't actively practice or pursue spirituality at this time, but i was raised into some incredibly unhealthy christian dynamics, which i think can definitely find relation in my prior mentioned struggles. even so, when it feels healthy and of your own volition, do you feel as though this is a struggle?

i love this thoughtful question, thankyou..putting under read more due to my lengthy answer x]

for me, ive mentioned before but i was raised by atheist parents. so as i built my own opinions about god, i was never set on the heaven/hell dichotomy, i never felt that god has this weirdly specific list of things u can and cant do. i feel that god wants us to be imperfect & make mistakes so that our souls can grow n expand towards our highest purpose thru many lifetimes of lessons.

that feeling of surveillance, i actually started to worry about it a lot after my dad died, even tho i had no real concept of spirituality at this point cus i was a kid. I just like, started to perceive that he saw everything, and since i was being rebellious teen at the time i felt a lot of guilt for years. Altho once i started learning more i began to feel that angels will never judge you, only love & understand.

Still i try rly hard to live with integrity. and im no angel but i strive to be the best version of Me. & a big part of that, imo, is acting "right" behind closed doors. for example, if someone is talking badly to me about a friend behind their back, am i going to stand up for them? or just let it slide because they're not there to hear it? small things like this may seem like nothing in the moment but they cld blow up in ur face later n u wish u just did the kind thing. i believe small lessons like this will keep repeating until ur soul learns.

one time many years ago i withdrew like $100 from an atm then just totally spaced out & walked away before i grabbed my money. the next person ran after me like "oh my god you forgot your money!" , i was so stunned. like this stranger fully couldve just walked away with a free $100 & i wldnt of even noticed until later. there was no prize waiting for them by doing the right thing. he just did it w no apprehension.

it shldnt be about trying to appease god, but earnestly trying to help & empower your fellow man. not out of guilt or shame, or fear of punishment, but out of the kindness in your heart, pure love. to me, god is just love, the trials are for the purpose of love, so i dont stress too much abt feeling watched. it makes me feel less lonely in a way.

thanks again for the question and i'm sorry about the trauma from your upbringing :( i hope u can heal and please dont put too much pressure on yourself to be perfect, there is no punishment coming for you, whatever you're doing right now is exactly where you;re supposed to be. <3

[emoticonheart]

Hello, I'm a new anon! (if it's not taken, I could be called Cloud anon! if it is, feel free to choose your own name) I'm a lurker in the community and am currently hesitating to make an alt dedicated to eructo. It's pretty scary, but also I'm like definitely into it and have ideas that I think the community could like LOL yeah.

This is also my first ask im shy aaaaaaa-

I just wanted to share that I have a friend, we became super close in a couple of months, and turns out we are into a lot of the same stuff! We have kinks in common which we sometimes do collab on (but she doesn't know I'm into eructo)

she doesn't know... but honestly I might have to bring it up at some point because sometimes, we're drawing kinks, and she just lets out the raunchiest longest gamer belch I've heard and I like litteraly have to stop not to make a noise on call 😭😭😭 I need an outlet for this holy shit Anyway, hope your day has been going well!

you can absolutely be called cloud anon!! so nice to meet you!!!!

there are a lot of things that i would like to respond to in this ask, so please bear with me throughout this longish post.

first, i'm not sure if you'd made a decision yet, but i can say that for me personally, making this account has been pretty much the best thing for me when it comes to accepting myself and this kink. like just creating a space with likeminded people that don't judge you for the things that you're into does WONDERS for making you feel less like a freaky weirdo. like i remember having so much shame about this kink. and ngl i still do in the sense that i would never tell anyone i know irl about this, but fuck have i learned to accept myself a lot more when i'm here with you all. i know i'm not always here and active, but when i am here it's like i never left. so all of this is to say that i personally would definitely recommend it!!!! but that being said, don't pressure yourself into anything either. lurkers are just as welcome!!!!

(and also i have absolutely no doubt that you have ideas people around here will love. there's an audience for everything, trust me!!)

but also... holy shit. i wish i had a relationship with someone like that where i can be so open about my fetishes with them, but the fact that you even share some of the same kinks with her is just the icing on top!! you have it MADE cloud!!!! and i know nothing about this relationship outside of what you've shared, but it seems like you're close enough with each other to where she would be accepting and understanding if you told her about your kink. at the same time i definitely don't wanna tell you to do anything because i don't wanna risk ruining your dynamic or anything, but if she did know and was still comfortable with burping and everything in front of you... idk. that sounds like a win to me.

anyways, thanks for sharing all this!! hope to see you around more often!!!!

[gracieart]

As an Elucien, I'm incredibly thankful you are willing to draw them, if it's the only time you do, I'll still be grateful. Thank you for being a kind, sweet person. I have a few mutuals who are Elriels and they are kind people, and while we don't agree on ships, we have so much common outside this fandom and I hold them dear to my heart, we don't let fictional characters get in the way of that.

It's really a shame toxic individuals have made this fandom the way it is... and judge others based on FICTIONAL CHARACTERS.

At the end of the day, Elain is not real. She comes from the imagination of a woman who loves to write romance and fantasy. That's it. She's going to write whatever she wants. We don't dictate the narrative, sure it's fun to theorize and make predictions but at the end of the day, it's really not worth being angry over, nor letting it affect your mental health because someone disagrees with their opinion so they stalk and harass to get the last word. It's embrassing, get a grip on reality, please. And it goes both ways. I stay in my bubble and enjoy the fandom but sometimes I notice the warships and I'm like, here we go again. I'd hate for this fandom to lose a great artist like you!

Thank you for your contributions! ALL OF THEM. I may not ship Elain with Az, but your work has always been beautiful to me and I admire it so much, I don't care who you draw our sweet girl with, I appreciate it no matter what.

You know what’s crazy? So I took a break from this fandom and tumblr in general for a very long time. I left when the “ship war” was at its worst in the year that followed acosf and was away for almost a year, as some of you know. And when I came back, I had a new perspective on everything. I made some new friends and mutuals who shipped all kinds of things. It was so nice and peaceful, that when I received those mean asks, it was genuinely surprising to me. I had forgotten that people can be shitty. Can you believe that? I was very hurt. And I’m going to be completely honest here- I almost cried a little.

But since taking my hiatus, I learned that stepping back really helps me. So I received those asks, I read and reread them, and then I let them sit in my ask box for a whole day and didn’t go online at all. I got up and went to make cookies, and because of my messy adhd brain, that led to cleaning out my fridge, which led to cleaning out my pantry, which led to reorganizing all my kitchen drawers and cabinets for the rest of the day. LOL that’s not my point! My point is, I came back to the asks and I was suddenly like, God, why am I so upset? Why are these people so upset with me? I shouldn’t worry about this at all. I should worry about what I’m having for dinner tonight with the $8 to my name…. And then go draw Elucien for my really amazing and kind and sweet online friends to help me forget about the $8 to my name 🤪

I love all you guys so much. Seriously. You’re all welcome here on my blog. Whatever ship you ship. I’m trying to draw something for everyone lately. You get my art! And YOU GET MY ART!

[sayitaliano]

Hey! I was nearly fluent in italian five years ago (when I lived there to study) and am going back very soon. I know my language is rusty...... i have the grammar still of course but i find myself forgetting really basic vocabulary now.

I want to be excited but I am so worried that I've become culturally immersed elsewhere, and going back with a language barrier that didn't exist before is really, really scary. I know this is more of an abstract question - apologies - if you have any advice i would love to hear it O_o

Ciao! I do understand your worries, but I do think it's only a matter of trying and immerse yourself back into the language and culture. Basic vocabulary will come back to you the moment you will be back here. Or, if you really feel the need to (and it'll help you stay a bit more calm), you can try and exercise a bit by yourself (you can even send me dms on @sayitalianohome just to exercise. For example you can choose a topic and write about it everyday or week: you can decide if to just try and remember words or maybe take any vocab lists you can find online or even on this blog, repeat the vocabs out loud for a while and then try and write a few sentences. This said, I want to remind you that we won't judge you if you don't remember Italian perfectly: you can even speak English with us, say a word or two or more uncorrectly or communicate through gestures... we will understand you anyway. And again, the moment you'll try again (calmly) to communicate in Italian, Italian itself will come back to you magically :)

I have been studying English in high school and got C1 level FIRST Certificate, but then I kinda stopped practicing it for a few years cause I went to Uni and I didn't have time nor occasion to really talk or write English. When I started again through this blog and other online forums, I was feeling really rusty (and it's the same now with French: I haven't really practiced it for many years). But with time, patience, listening/watching English videos and revising some grammar, I have even ended up tutoring middle school to high school Italian guys. And explaining y'all Italian grammar on here (I know I am not perfect, but I feel I can communicate way better than after that pause). What you learned is still inside of you, you only need to be patient and let it come back to you with no fear of being wrong: you will make mistakes at first, and maybe even later lol but it's fine, don't worry! As long as the other can understand you (and we will, for sure) or you can find another way to tell that thing you want to tell, it's all good. So please, be excited to come back and enjoy the time here :D

Again, here I am if you want to try randomly chatting^^

Take care<3

[northwest-cryptid]

I'm not gonna lie, I sort of despised my time as a Vtuber on twitter because of how much drama seemingly springs up out of nowhere. I mean people would literally become hypocrites in a matter of a week if it made them look like the good guy of the day. I couldn't stand the constant "one upping" that would happen and it made me feel sick, like literally anxiety stricken sick to interact with people since a major of the time if you didn't have a big following people would throw you under the bus just to go posting about how righteous and woke they were. I still remember people straight up telling me in a private call "I just see you as a man, I don't believe non-binary people exist" and then no joke, a week later posting "I go by She/They now and you have to respect my pronouns" which I'd love to say "people change, maybe they grew and learned about themselves" about except for the fact this post was made following this big social debate about pronouns which I only know about because 3 people who stopped talking to me, and basically said I was "bad for their brand" decided to say how I was "their friend" and how great they were to be friends with an NB to the point of calling out people mid-stream in the most dramatic ways during collabs because "IT'S THEY NOT HE!" When I openly stated that it's really embarrassing to have people do that, and to please just trust that if I have a problem with the way someone is addressing me I'll say something myself; when you go through this for the better part of a whole year (almost a year and a half since I was part of the community prior to having an avatar and the whole vtubing set up) it begins to take all the fun out of being a streamer.

I'm a Vtuber because I love the concept behind being represented by a character that can look however I want to look instead of being called out or judged for the way my hair looks or if I dress in a way someone doesn't like, I've always said that those comments are pointless since I'm here to stream a game and entertain an audience; my appearance should never be the main focus and I got tired of being on webcam because of how often people would point out something about me even when it was meant as a compliment. That being said you can imagine how absolutely infuriating it is to be told by someone who's " a successful and popular vtuber " because they have 1k+ twitter followers (and 2 active viewers, one of whom is me, and one who is them...) that I'm not good enough to be their friend or even talk to them or collab with them until I "get my numbers up" and "figure out my brand" I'm an entertainer, I love to create! I gave up on vtuber teams, I gave up on collabing with people, I gave up on even streaming for a long time.

But the more I interact with people on tumblr the more I remember why I love vtubing, as a character designer it's so much fun to see the characters people make and stream with. It's like this huge game of improv D&D and even people like myself who don't really play up a character or have any lore or such, can still really enjoy just sharing our characters with others and having some brainrot over our favorite games. You know, all the stuff I loved about vtubing and streaming and being creative. It really makes me want to reach out to more vtubers here on tumblr and potentially try to make some friends; I'm shy as hell and I unfortunately have dealt with a year of basically being told "you're not cool enough to sit with us" lol but who knows, I've met some really cool people who openly accept me for who/what I am and I'd love to connect with more streamers and vtubers provided my insecurities and shy personality don't get in the way.

If you've ever wanted to be my friend, like genuinely wanted to get to know me; just pester me about shit. I promise even if it takes me 3 weeks to get back to you; it isn't a bother I'm never bothered I love getting asks, DMs, whatever. It's just fun to connect with people and get to know people.

I literally met my partner via this site and she will attest that it took like 4 years for her to get me to talk reliably, I accidentally ghosted her several times because I was too shy to talk to her even though I really wanted to be her friend, and now we live together so like; yea please by all means if you want to be my friend just like nicely harass me about shit I promise it'll pay off eventually :P

[priscillaalta]

hey pui, its been a very long time. things have changed a lot in the course of 4/5 years... life has had its ups and downs, but you are a champ for still surviving up to today, that has made me the person i am. life sure isn't easy, moments of illness, failure, depression, anxiety, drama, questioning and doubt will rain on you. but there are also moments of sunshine you've got to stop and appreciate once in a while. what matters is that you know that i have your back and we're always here at the end of the day. it sounds scary to live, survive, adapt or whatever but you'll get used to it. please know that you are worth something big and you can do impactful things if you dedicate yourself. even if you don't believe it, you'll learn it. people can say otherwise, but its true because you are the one that has the most power to make the most impact in your life. you're scared... i know it. you're scared of not being able to have mom and dad happy with you all the time, of society, of groups of kids that will judge you. trust, most of those fears become irrelevant. well, only most. i still struggle against the fear of not satisfying mom and dad and society... but i know its gonna be alright, so that's why you shouldn't worry too. plus, you're just a kid. so just do your best. everything you are going through and have gone through will lead you to one big question that i still ask till this day: "why do i matter on the face of earth". maybe i dont, or maybe i matter more on mars or the moon. i have no answer and still ask myself that. and maybe a god, or some kind of entity out there, watching our life like a play of shakespear in a theater...maybe not shakespear my life isnt that artistic yet... i think, will demonstrate me the real truth near the end. now i sit in my room in awe of what life could mean and the biggest anomaly of our existence as it makes chills run down my spine. is there an end? will this charade of questions continue on and on? i dont know either lol. im sorry. i really am. you were just a lost little girl protected only by your own innocence. times will get better, and you wont be as lost anymore. keep on doing your best!

[softxsuki]

Hello-hello! May I request an AoT and a Demon Slayer matchup? Thank you very much in advance for your hard work!

My pronouns are She/Her, I don't really have a preference for who to be matched with:) Romantic matchup please! My mbti is ISFP and in case you want it, my enneagram is 7w6. My sun and moon zodiac are Leo, Sag in the rising:) I really value intelligence both emotional and mental. I really seek deep conversations and deep emotions both in friends and partners. Basically I look for partners for life, and not just people to sip coffee with. That is what acquaintances are for. I also look for caring and open minded people who I can share my views with and not be judged. Creativity is also important! I constantly write stories with my friends. Oh, and of course a good sense of humor.

My type is blondes. I love people with light hair. Not much else, I have no care for body type or height:)

My personality.. If I were to describe myself, I'd say I am a bit irresponsible and forgetful and I am quick to give up.I am described by others as a little intimidating If you do not interact with me. But when you get to know me I am very sweet and caring. I am full of ideas and jokes. Whenever I am in the mood I crack jokes all the time. I love anything art and music, I am currently learning how to tune vocaloids. I also write and read quite a lot. And I drum every Friday in a therapy circle. Physical activity is not my forte though. I'd much rather go paragliding or swim with sharks instead of going to the gym. I really dislike routines.

Scenarios.. Probably how they would take care of me when I am sick? Or perhaps, how they would introduce me to their friends? Hah, I'm not too sure. In any case, thank you very much and take your time!

1000 Follower Event Matchup #25

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Note: Here ya go. Hope you're still around to see this, sorry for the long wait.

I match you with ARMIN and RENGOKU

Runner-ups were: Erwin (can’t think of anyone else for demon slayer)

Armin: 

This one has all the intelligence you’d ever need in a man

Deep conversations and late night chats where you open up emotionally to each other, they’ll happen with Armin

He’s in this for the long-run with you, marriage in mind and everything. If it’s not you, it won’t be anyone else

He loves hearing all your ideas, and likes to add onto them as you both lose track of time talking about them

He’s blond :D 

Probably the most caring person in AOT; actual sunshine

So he’s definitely understanding about everything with you, he’s your go-to person to tell everything to

He listens intently and has lots of advice to offer if you need it

He loves going on little adventures with you around town, holding hands and lying down together under a tree in the shade as you enjoy each others company

How does he introduce you to his friends?

I picture him being a little shy and awkward about it

Eren is definitely going to tease him about it, like wow Armin you actually managed to get a girl, impressive

Mikasa welcomes you as friendly as she can lol, but she warms up to you quickly, thinking she could trust Armin’s judgment, so long as you never hurt him

But Armin is excited to introduce you to his friends since he really cares about them, he wants you to be close to them too

As for his fellow comrades, he also wants everyone to know you’re together, but he may or may not get a little possessive when others get too close to you

Rengoku:

I MISS HIM SO MUCH IM CRYING

As goofy as he looks sometimes and how unserious he can be, I think Kyojuro has a lot to offer mentally, a lot of wisdom and intelligence hidden in that handsome head

Most of your deeper conversations happen late at night when he’s sleepy and not as energetic

Since he has a lot of past trauma, with losing his mom and his fathers abuse/dismissiveness, he definitely has a lot to share, and he’d love to hear all your secrets and feelings as well

He’s PERFECT OKAY. He’s in this for life, you’re his and he’s yours, never doubt that (not that he’d ever give you a reason to <3)

This man is as open minded as they get. You can tell him the craziest thing and he’d probably laugh and say “how wonderful” :D 

He finds your forgetfulness adorable, and leaves little notes around to help remind you about things

Takes you out for many adventures with him whenever he has to go out on a mission, but he makes sure he keeps you somewhere safe while he deals with the demon (unless it’s too dangerous and he has no choice but to leave you behind) but once the demon is dealt with, he’d walk around town with you, making new friends with the locals and enjoying time together

At night he likes watching you read or write :D 

How does he take care of you when you’re sick?

Well, he stays calm and tries to assess what’s wrong with you and figures out what he needs to do to help you quickly 

He practically took care of his little brother growing up after his mom passed away, so he knows a thing or two about caring for someone sick

Rengoku takes care of you, never leaving your side until you’re better

A part of him fears he’ll lose you like he lost his mom, but on the outside he’s pretty calm

Probably a little more serious and isn’t as loud as usual, but gives you smiles and hugs despite the risk that he may also get sick

He won’t be back to normal until you’re better <3 only then will he be able to fully relax

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Posted: 7/31/2023