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How to fix your posture 101
by me, lol
First things first, normally when you ask people, "How can I fix my posture?" or your mom or friend or partner comments on your total shrimp formation, they tell you to "sit up straight."
Kinda surprising but that doesn't necessarily fix your back, right? I mean, you sit up straight, but then you end up going right back to the position you were in. I do it all the time. I slouch, I lean, all of it.
I was getting seriously distressed trying to figure out how I could fix my shrimp back (lol) so I did a little digging. I noticed a lot of posts on here just suggest sitting straight. For people like me, that doesn't work for more than 5-10 minutes lol.
I'm gonna link some videos/articles below with the best (accessible!) exercises to do for your posture. Obviously its not something that'll be done overnight, but its a start! Some of these are even doable for those with disabilities, fuck yeah! ^_^
Hybrid Calisthenics: How to Finally "Fix" Your Posture (very disability friendly)
Tone and Tighten: How To FIX Your Posture | 10-Minute Daily Routine
12 Exercises to Improve Your Posture
Thats all I got but feel free to add on if you'd like! At the end of the day, don't push yourself to discomfort !!!
#girlblogger#girlblog#this is a girlblog#girlblog aesthetic#just a girlblog#girlblogging#coquette#nympette#nymph3t#lizzy grant#lifestyle#lifestyle tips#personal growth#personal well being#wellness#exercise#pink pilates princess#pink pilates girl#gyaru
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#2025#new year#new years resolution#resolutions#personal growth#white#blue#aesthetic#cottagecore#me#affirmations#affirmative action#self love#self improvement#self growth#cozycore#reflection#self reflection#wellness#personal well being#personal wellness#wellbeing
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#things to do#activities#mindfulness#thinking#personal well being#wellness#thoughtfulness#positivity#positive thoughts#boredome
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i think we should remind musicians they can absolutely make up little stories for their songs btw. it doesn’t have to be about them at all. you can invent a guy and put him in situations to music. time honoured tradition in fact.
#sorry im bored of the same tags on this lmao#sometimes i think the confessional style loses impact because everything has to be excavated from the depths of the soul#and somehow. confessional writing seems to be going with the most disaffected bland sound possible. odd.#i love deeply personal songs! i love when songs sound like they mean something to the artist!#something something wider issue of mining trauma and being performatively vulnerable for quote unquote content#idk i don’t have the actual knowledge to write about this well there’s just something not landing for me recently#mine
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David Tennant for Prime Minister, please.
edit- Since this is getting so much attention, edited to include descriptions of screenshots.
This woman has lost her fucking mind.
Jo, are you okay?
#Fuck your Rowling#Fuck terfs#David Tennant#Fuck Harry Potter#And everyone who watches Rowling’s new Harry Potter show#little whinging fuckers#gender taliban?#have you completely lost your mind JKR#maybe just stop being a little whinging fucker JKR#if he's smart he would never want this job because it's a horrible one but we'd be so much better off with a sane person in charge#But seriously Rowling are you okay?#does she look tired to you?#well I guess this has broken containment#He didn’t actually say you’re name JKR#he just called out transphobes and you assumed he was talking about you#which says you know exactly what you are and identify as a transphobe#says a lot#described
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Mental Health The Enemy Within
In lieu of World Mental Health Day, October 10, let me ask what is mental health? Big question isn’t it. Do we really understand what it encompasses? My child just had a lesson about harmful stress and good stress in health class and he is only 8½ years old. For someone at a very young age, he is very well versed in what stress and anxiety is all about. He even shared with his class what happens to a person when one has a panic attack. According to him this is what happens –
“Blankness, light headedness, losing the ability to control your emotions, numbness and loss of stability and high blood pressure and fast heart beating.”
I kid you not, those are his exact words, verbatim.
So, again, I ask, what is mental health? Let’s try to break it down to better understand this.
Health: as a state of complete physical, mental, and social well-being.
Wow. That’s a lot to take in. How do we even determine what all that means. How do we be completely healthy physically, mentally, and have social well-being. Who can determine that and how to we accomplish that?
According to the World Health Organization. Being physically and mentally healthy can be determined by your doctor. The only difference is how one behaves or looks. One can look sick and is sick, another can be sick and not look sick. Other times, one does not look sick, and is actually sick. So, when one is not well, that person’s support system will have a big influence on how he or she will fight the disease or live with it.
Also, it is important to not label people with diseases. It is better to refer to them as people than their disease or ailment. It is then better to say “a person with schizophrenia” rather than “a schizophrenic,” or a “person who has diabetes” rather than a “diabetic.” [directly cited from the National Library of Medicine]
Then there’s also the factor of their capacity to function in their daily lives. Finding balance within themselves, their situation, their family, environment, and everything else that is going around them. This means finding a way to live life to the fullest without letting their illness or disease or ailment stop them from enjoying what life has to offer.
Mental: from the Latin word, mentis, of the mind; frame of mind.
The brain is a mysterious organ. It controls everything in your body, when it fails, everything else fails. When your mind is fully functioning, it seems like the whole world is working like a fully synchronized clock. But when your mind is not a well-oiled machine, it’s like a fuse blew up in there and screws are firing from all cylinders in there.
Our mind enables us to think, feel, see, smell, taste, imagine, remember, experience pleasure, pain, love, desire, hate, happiness, anger, sadness, loss, surprise, fear, shame, anxiety, depression, etc. Our mind controls so many functions that when we lose control, things get out of control.
Now, when this is when we put it all together and talk about our Mental Health. What’s the best way to discuss this? By talking about “freeze, flight, or fight.” Ever heard of that? Well, I found this book called ‘Please Explain ‘Anxiety’ to Me!’ from Amazon to explain anxiety to my child. It was much easier to understand, even for myself, than reading a 300-page book.
Basically, during the age of the dinosaurs, they were in constant danger, and their options were, one, to freeze and hope that the bigger dinosaurs would not see them and go away; two, run away and hope to be faster than the threatening dinosaur; three, fight and hope to survive the battle.
Now, for us people, we are not in a constant state of danger. But for some people they feel like they are in danger or at least what is deemed as a false sense of danger. This is when they end up worrying that something is wrong or will go wrong. They feel an intense sense of concern, a persistent fear, dread, or uneasiness. This makes their entire body in a constant state of alertness which is not good.
When there is a false sense of danger the body has nowhere to go. There is no ‘freeze, hopefully the danger won’t see me and go away.’ There would be no “I’ll run away and hope that the threatening danger won’t catch me.’ And lastly, there would most definitely be no “I’ll fight the danger and win this battle.’ So, what reaction would the mind and body of that person having this perceived danger have then?
A panic attack, and as my son has so clearly put it, it would look like this:
“Blankness, light headedness, losing the ability to control your emotions, numbness and loss of stability and high blood pressure and fast heart beating.”
A friend described having a panic attack as being still and yet floating on waves in the ocean and trying to stay afloat to get some air.
Just to share, the first time I had a panic attack, I didn’t even know I was having one, it was triggered by having an having eaten something I did not know I was allergic too. My hands were both tingling, numb, and I couldn’t move my fingers. Both sides of my head were numb, and it felt like my head was being squished. My sides by my waist and ribs were also going numb, frozen, and at the same time it felt like something was twisting my body and putting pressure on it. Then at some point, my legs started feeling weak and it was like I was having cramps. I didn’t learn it was a panic attack until years later. At that moment, we all thought it was just a severe allergic reaction, and that was what I was treated for.
Panic attacks are scary. It really does. If you don’t understand what it really is, what your triggers are and do not learn coping skills that work for you, then it will constantly happen. If you do not seek help, it may get worse. It will develop into a more serious health problem. Remember above when we spoke about health, a state of complete physical, mental, and social well-being;
Now, if your mental state is in constant flux, your physical health will suffer. Constant panic attacks can cause increased heart rate, high blood pressure, headaches, and heart attacks. If you feel you are in constant danger, your social well-being will suffer as well because you will feel that your environment is not safe – mainly, the people around you are a threat. Without social interactions, your negative feelings and negative thoughts are all that you are burdened with. Human experiences give us connections, a lifeline, support, friendships, shared interests, common goals, healthy relationships, and someone to talk to – which is a powerful thing. Having someone to talk to, in my opinion, is the easiest way to relieve stress. That person you talk to can give you support while you vent. Hence, talking is a powerful thing.
Without support, the right support, what happens? All that stress builds up. That emotion is boiling inside waiting to come out. Without being able to deal with that kind of emotion in a healthy manner, or in the most positive way, sadly, it will lead to extreme stress, anxiety, and depression. Which is one thing we all want to prevent. But the truth is, according to John Hopkins Medicine, about 1 in 4 American adults suffers from a diagnosable mental disorder in any given year.
According to the World Health Organization, in the first year of the Covid-19 Pandemic, global anxiety and depression increased by a whopping 25% and yet global governments only spent an average of over 2% on mental health budgets and many low income countries had less than 1 mental health worker for every 100,000 people.
The question is, how do we cope? How do we manage our stress so that it all does not boil over and erupt? Well, here are a few steps we can take to prevent that from happening:
1. Talk.
Talk it out. Get that stress out. Talk to someone you can trust. Talk to a professional. Talk to a priest. A counselor. Someone who is in a position to give you the right support and assistance when in need.
2. Ask your Doctor.
It may be time to ask your doctor. Believe it or not, there are several factors that affect your mental health, like brain chemistry, genetics, environment, trauma or abuse, family history, etc. and these factors can be treated by a doctor. So, seek help.
3. Educate Yourself.
Also seek proper information. Research signs and symptoms, treatment options and then consult your doctor. Keep up to date with research to help yourself or a loved one. But please, don’t get your information from just anywhere like social media. Get relevant information from reliable sources like the American Psychiatric Association, American Medical Association, The Public Library, various medical school websites and journals, government websites, etc.
Where do we go from here? What can we do? But is that really the right question? I think not. I believe the question we need to ask is WHAT DO WE WANT TO DO!
Someone close to me suffered from depression and no matter the amount of help we offered, that person did not get better, and it led to the worse possible outcome: suicide. The worst scenario is that panic attacks can lead to a heart attack, depression can lead to suicide.
Mental Health Day is about awareness. I believe it is also about being more conscious about what our friends and loved ones are going through. We may not be trained to recognize the signs of anxiety and depression or do we know how to prevent suicide, but being there and being aware, mindful, being more sensitive and empathic to our friends and family and loved ones could make a difference.
Whether we know exactly what is happening to someone’s daily life or not, don’t let months or years go by without ringing a friend. Don’t let being ‘busy’ be an excuse to say ‘hello’ and ask ‘how are you feeling today.’ Remember to be kind and gracious to each other. These things do make a difference. When you say ‘how are you’ – mean it. Instead of spending minutes on social media, or while doing one of your chores, or before you turn on the tv, or before you start playing your video game, how about, during your work break, take a pause and try to text a friend and say hello today.
Lastly, your mental health is more precious than treasure. Without your mind, your body is worth nothing. Your mind is your best investment.
We need to stop looking down on mental health issues. It is real. People are suffering. People are hurting. People are dying. We need to work towards acceptance and healing. We need to help each other to mend and restore each other’s welfare; to have a state of complete physical, mental, and social well-being.
Also, I just want to share this book about calming your worries: A Little Spot of Anxiety. It’s a book to help kids understand anxiety and there’s a really nice short poem and hand activity that goes with it to help kids calm down and breathe out their worries away. I found that the book’s advice helped me as well. It’s simple, easy to remember, and not complicated. I know I’ve been sharing kid’s books, but it’s so much easier to comprehend. Hope it helps you and those of you with kids too.
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#world mental health day#break the stigma#its okay not to be okay#mental health#mental health awareness#mental health issues#mental health triggers#anxiety#depression#awareness#mental health matters#self awareness#panic attack#health#mental#health and well-being#personal well being#wellness#welfare#fight flight freeze#brain chemistry
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PrudentRx Drug List: Medications That Enhance Personal Wellness
Maintaining personal wellness involves more than just eating well and exercising. For many individuals, managing chronic conditions, staying healthy, and preventing illness also require access to medications that support overall well-being. The PrudentRx Drug List is designed to ensure that individuals have access to the right medications to enhance their personal wellness, offering a comprehensive range of treatments that target both common and complex health needs. In this blog, we’ll explore how the PrudentRx Drug List supports personal wellness through its extensive drug list, helping individuals maintain their health and lead a balanced life.
Understanding Personal Wellness
Personal wellness refers to a holistic approach to health that encompasses physical, mental, and emotional well-being. Achieving wellness often requires a combination of healthy habits, lifestyle changes, and, in some cases, medical intervention. While wellness can be pursued through exercise, nutrition, and mindfulness practices, medications play a critical role in managing chronic conditions and preventing future health complications.
The PrudentRx Drug List recognizes the importance of medications in enhancing personal wellness and offers a wide selection of drugs that address various health needs, from pain management to mental health support and beyond.
Medications That Enhance Physical Wellness
Physical wellness is the foundation of personal well-being. Whether it's managing pain, treating infections, or maintaining cardiovascular health, medications can play a key role in supporting the body’s natural processes. The PrudentRx Drug List includes a variety of medications that can enhance physical wellness, ensuring that individuals can manage their conditions effectively.
1. Pain Management
For those suffering from chronic pain due to conditions like arthritis, fibromyalgia, or injury, pain management medications are essential for maintaining quality of life. The PrudentRx Drug List provides access to a range of pain relief options, including over-the-counter medications like ibuprofen and acetaminophen, as well as prescription-strength treatments for more severe pain.
PrudentRx Tip: Managing pain effectively can improve mobility, increase energy levels, and promote a more active lifestyle, which is vital for personal wellness.
2. Cardiovascular Health
Maintaining heart health is critical for overall wellness, especially for those at risk of heart disease, high blood pressure, or high cholesterol. The PrudentRx Drug List offers medications such as statins, beta-blockers, and blood pressure medications that help regulate cardiovascular health and prevent serious complications.
PrudentRx Tip: Regular use of heart health medications, combined with lifestyle changes like exercise and diet, can significantly enhance physical wellness and reduce the risk of long-term health issues.
3. Respiratory Health
For individuals with asthma, COPD, or other respiratory conditions, maintaining clear airways and preventing flare-ups is essential for personal wellness. The PrudentRx Drug List provides access to inhalers, bronchodilators, and other respiratory medications that help individuals breathe easier and avoid complications.
PrudentRx Tip: Proper management of respiratory conditions can lead to increased energy levels and better physical performance, contributing to overall wellness.
Medications for Mental and Emotional Wellness
Mental and emotional well-being are equally important components of personal wellness. Managing stress, anxiety, depression, and other mental health conditions requires both therapy and, in some cases, medication. The PrudentRx Drug List offers a variety of medications that support mental and emotional health, helping individuals achieve balance and peace of mind.
1. Antidepressants and Anxiety Medications
Depression and anxiety are common mental health conditions that can significantly impact daily life. The PrudentRx Drug List includes access to a wide range of antidepressants and anxiety medications, such as selective serotonin reuptake inhibitors (SSRIs), benzodiazepines, and other treatments that help regulate mood and reduce symptoms.
PrudentRx Tip: Mental health medications, when used alongside therapy and lifestyle changes, can improve emotional well-being and reduce the impact of stress on personal wellness.
2. Sleep Aids
Sleep is a critical component of mental and emotional wellness. For those struggling with insomnia or disrupted sleep patterns, the PrudentRx Drug List offers sleep aids that help regulate the sleep cycle and promote restful nights.
PrudentRx Tip: Consistent, quality sleep supports mental clarity, emotional stability, and physical energy, all of which contribute to overall wellness.
Preventative Medications for Long-Term Wellness
Preventing illness and managing chronic conditions before they become severe is key to maintaining long-term wellness. The PrudentRx Drug List emphasizes preventative care by providing access to medications that help individuals stay healthy and avoid future health problems.
1. Vitamins and Supplements
For those with nutritional deficiencies or specific health needs, vitamins and supplements can play an important role in maintaining wellness. The PrudentRx Drug List offers a selection of supplements, including vitamin D, calcium, and omega-3 fatty acids, that support bone health, immune function, and heart health.
PrudentRx Tip: Regular use of supplements can fill nutritional gaps and help prevent long-term health issues, promoting a balanced and healthy lifestyle.
2. Vaccinations
Vaccinations are a vital component of preventative health care, protecting individuals from a wide range of illnesses. The PrudentRx Drug List includes access to routine vaccinations, such as the flu shot, pneumonia vaccine, and vaccines for other preventable diseases.
PrudentRx Tip: Staying up to date with vaccinations reduces the risk of infection and supports overall wellness by keeping the immune system strong.
Conclusion
The PrudentRx Drug List plays a crucial role in enhancing personal wellness by providing access to essential medications for physical, mental, and emotional health. Whether you’re managing a chronic condition, preventing illness, or seeking balance in your daily life, the PrudentRx Drug List offers the tools and support needed to maintain your well-being. By leveraging the resources available through the PrudentRx Drug List, individuals can take control of their health and achieve a holistic sense of wellness.
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Hey now, Let her cook!
#dungeon meshi#chilchuck tims#senshi#laios touden#marcille donato#izutsumi#oyasumi punpun#<- In case you are wondering what the source for the little bird guy is.#Yeah that's right. I'm back to my extremely obscure crossover BS.#Punpun is one of those series that falls under the category of 'Good! but I cannot responsibly recommend this to anyone."#If Dungeon Meshi is like a friend asking you to go on a quick errand and you accidently go on a life changing roadtrip -#Punpun is your friend asking to go on a quick errand and they pull up to the vet and tell you your dog is being put down.#Then they explode into sludge. Melting your car. You hitchhike back but the person who picked you up is an axe murderer.#I could not finish it. My friends who did say it was good. But agree it was for the best I did not finish it.#Hey speaking of tone twists...We are one episode away from one of my favourite chapters being animated!#WHO'S READY FOR THE SENSHI BACKSTORY! WHO IS READY TO CRY!#ME! I AM! I spooked my flatmate with how energetic I was this morning. I'm vibrating with energy I was not designed to contain.#I should talk about today's episode here: It was very good. I love how they animated the familiars.#And!!! Anime only people now are in the loop on the Chilchuck lore. Part 1 of many. He still contains multitudes.#They all do to be honest! If this episode told us anything it was that we still don't know these characters as well as we think!#See you guys next week. I'll be inconsolable.
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Good luck during pride month to all the aroaces who are gonna be blasted with "love is love" everywhere
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This post includes aplatonic people, loveless aros and any other people who fall anywhere on the aro and ace spectrum.
Stop saying "but theres platonic love and familial love-"
#nothing wrong with love is love but pls being queer isnt just about loving someone#it can also be about the lack of love im certain aspects of peoples lives etc.#idk if that explains it very well but whatever#pride month#lgbtqia#aroace#aromantic#asexual#this goes to anyone on the aro and/or ace spectrum btw#anyway have fun during pride month everyone i hope you have a great time#im turning the reblogs back on#but if i see one person say any shit abouy platonic love im disabling it agaain
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That's how it went
#tma#the magnus archives#tma podcast#magpod#mag 160#tma spoilers#tma s4#tma season four#jonathan sims#elias bouchard#my stuff#thats all i could think of after hearing elias talk abt jon being an archive#all jokes aside it makes me so sad and crazy to think abt it#like theres a lot in tma about losing ones humanity#and jons choices surely contribute to him losing it as well#but for the most part its him being dehumanised by others#well mostly elias and his plans of creating an archive of fear#jon going from 'a person having a position (the head archivist)' -> 'a person being a position (the archivist)' and finally to 'a position#(an archive)#its just so sad#and the fact that it ties with him losing bodily autonomy and being viewed like an object instead of a person#im dead on the floor crying#okay im done sorry#tma shitpost
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Empurata!Prowl tries to actually communicate for the first time
What if he wants to say something but he can’t. What if he has no voice to speak, no face to emote, no hands to write. What if every attempt to communicate a message is essentially a puzzle of wit and creativity and yet, the first thing he goes through all these troubles for. Is to say “I love you”?
Don’t ask me how did they get in this room. I have no idea. They escaped the battlefield somehow haha
Next->
#maccadam#transformers#prowl#jazz#jazzprowl#empurata prowl#at first I thought hmmm well the guy like Prowl would probably say something practical#but then I realised that there isn’t anything more practical for him than feelings right now#because that one statement implies SO much. you know what I mean#it won’t let Jazz know if Prowl has his whole memory and personality and everything back#but it would let him know that hey#hey I feel. I feel and I’m being me enough to feel that I love you#the cold and logical shadowplayed machine would never start with this
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seriously have been thinking about this all night long. call me autistic but the fact that 90% of workplaces the point is not to get your work done and then be done doing it but to instead perform an elaborate social dance in which you find something to do even when you're done doing everything you need to do in order to show your fellow workers that you, too, are Working . because you are at Work . disgusting why cant we all agree that if there is no work immediately to be done. we just dont do anything
#i personally like to not be doing things constantly at all times. it stresses me out#i know there are ppl who thrive on cosntant activity#but me i like to chill out.#and the problem then becomes that i only ACTIVELY remember to do work and Find More Work To Do when im stressed#at the thought that others might want to see me working#if im ever relaxed i just dont look for stuff to do#catch 22 of modern work culture which permeates even ostensibly noncapitalist structures like public libraries#for instance: will it really kill anybody if the books get shelved by me now after a very busy day?#or shelved tomorrow morning by. well probably me since i'll be the one at the desk#not in the slightest#but it was work that wasnt being immediately done by me. therefore it was incorrect behavior#that i failed to identify because my instinct is to relax when not immediately presented with a Situation#this got me labeled as 'having no initiative' by my dad from a very early age#and even as an adult i still feel like im a child with no initiative
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circumstantial
#warrior cats#warriors#scourge#firestar#wild how a pivotal moment for these (half) brothers had to do with their collars huh#anyway thnx for being patient w/ me thru the art drought i've personally been going thru some burnout and demotivation#so im slowly trying to ease back into enjoying drawing again on days i have the energy#unnnrelated but i have a job interview today so i hope that goes well :]
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yo danny fenton he was just 19
#danny phantom#sam manson#danny fenton#tucker foley#age up designs#thinking about them all being like 19#post hs but still kids#they all go to community college together#and sams parents rent them a house to share#mashing some aus I like in there as well#big fan of the ghost king/heart of the gz hc that’s been going around#also I think danny would lean punk once he develops his personal style#and phantom wears athleisure lol#easy to move in#nothing to grab#I’ve got a lot of other thoughts#but I’ll elaborate on a less clean piece hahaha#cw vomit#college au
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you know, you know. no gods, no masters, no kings on pedestals. everyone is fallible. death of the author. you know! you are balanced about your intake of media - you allow the wiggle room, the grace, the gratitude, the skepticism. nobody above criticism.
but still. a weird gut-punch feeling, something akin to betrayal. you read the article. surprise! an author you love is actually: a serial fucking predator.
well, shit. what now. no, you knew he was a person (all people are), but now you're wondering - what have i overlooked by accident? what messages have i internalized that are strange and cruel? and also, like, what the fuck?
his actions lay a thick glaze on top of everything. like each place is now ruined, opaque in a new way. but okay, fine, you've done this before. you knew better, right? you've been betrayed by many a cherished childhood author.
still, this stickiness. fuck. can you pick up that book again. will you read it to your children. you've recommended it to others - will you ever do that again? and of course, of course, no parasocial relationships. you were theoretically above this kind of sentiment. but the artist informs the art, right.
so it's not something as clear-cut as feeling he owed you, specifically (a stranger) better behavior - just that you kind of, in a distant and odd way... sort of trusted him to do better. it's not like a real trust or something speakable, just the faint hope that the product (good books) was a thin representation of the soul. now it feels like the product (good? books?) was a mask. in some small or insignificant way, your previous support of this person lent them power. your money and your time and your laughter.
and the thing is - you have this terrible, echoing sensation. how many times will this happen? over and over. you find out that the singer you love is actually a predator. you learn over drinks that your favorite high school english teacher is in jail for what he did to her. you listen to the news idly and suddenly discover that a woman you used to idolize has been abusing her kids for an actual eon.
what can you touch without the static melting off. you can't even really complain about it too much (you were supposed to know better, and besides, you don't want the same re-split "it's not your fault, love what you love" basic advice), but now it's here. somehow, it feels like - you let him into your life.
it's not that things need to be pure or an artist has to be like, endlessly perfect, mindful. demure. it's more just this terrible truth that has been replayed through your veins so often it feels criminally vain. power corrupts, absolute power corrupts absolutely. did you want any one person to be worth that power?
it's just that he wrote books where he seemed to understand that. he seemed to know about hierarchies and unfair systems and bigotry and privilege. you thought they were books about what it means to struggle. you thought they were about having power and still using it for good rather than for control. he spooned you a narrative of being a good guy, a kind soul. you fucking bought what that fucking monster sold.
maybe that's why they were fantasies, after all.
#spilled ink#warm up#oh im .... sick to my stomach.#i talked to him. like ....... we talked. that man interacted with my poetry and writing.#that article.... gutwrenching. i am so sorry to everyone he's ever even been in the room with.#i feel.... like... unbearably. sick.#he acted like he was cool and friends with me!! we were cool internet writers together!!!!!#i feel sick for even having been polite to him.#i ...... am experiencing something so fucking complicated.#i wonder how many of u are feeling that too. like ''oh i sent him an ask and he was funny and sweet''#THATS HOW THEY GET U. ..... and YES I KNOW!!!#i am so fucking well-read about parasocial relationships. it would just be nice to like. trust that someone ISNT#hiding a huge fucking background of BEING A COMPLETE MONSTER. LIKE WHAT THE FUCK.#by the way i am not part of a fandom. this is “what the fuck i accidentally supported a rapist” not#“but my showww”. like i care far more about like. the human cost.#but also like... people are people. idk i saw a take on here about how nobody should mourn the books#and idk. people almost always reply to any scenario with their personal experience first -#''i knew him'' or ''wow i was just at that store'' or ''i grew up there'' or whatever. because that is how we establish connection &#emotional weight. that's just... a person thing. and there is a difference between 'oh this guy is a monster'' & the feeling of:#he's been a monster and i SUPPORTED THAT. i CELEBRATED him. i !!! a fucking victim myself!!!!!!!!! SUPPORTED . HIM.#i am sick. i feel so much pain for her and everyone he's ever hurt. saying ''the books are ruined'' is i think ... like how people say#they're shocked and disgusted by him. (obviously there's nuance here. im sure there's some creep doin it wrong. but u know. in general)#idk..... im an author. i understand my work is in your life in whatever small way. i understand that connection. it's real.
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