#permanent solution temporary problem

[mindisinmars]

"How strange it is to be anything at all?" but in a i wish i was a boy but i also love being a girl but also i would love it much more if i was a guy but girlhood but boyhood but being seen as normal but i dont want to be "normal" but i need to be but all my problems would be solved with a haircut but a haircut gave me all my problems but maybe i should just suck it up and wear a drsss but maybe ill fly out a fucking window if i have to but but also pretty but also handsome but also FUCK. send tweetn

[deservedgrace]

It's frustrating to me that so many resources for coping with suicidal ideation seem to run on the assumption of SI being an exclusively acute experience. Almost all of them start with something like "Remember, this is just a temporary feeling, and like all feelings they pass eventually!" and then they give short term solutions like grounding techniques, or distraction techniques, or breathing exercises, or nervous system regulation exercises with the purpose of calming down enough to get through these few rough moments of being dysregulated and upset.

And I'm not saying they're bad techniques, a lot of these things can be helpful when you're dealing with distressing emotions and feelings and can help them pass more smoothly. It just doesn't really translate to my experience of chronic, near constant suicidal ideation on some level for years, regardless of the circumstances and what I'm feeling.

When suicidality has just been your default, when it doesn't matter what emotions you're experiencing, when it's just a reality you have to deal with... you can't "calm your nervous system down" to a point where it gets rid of the thoughts; you experience them dysregulated and you experience them calm. You can't distract yourself from your entire life. "Don't worry, this is just temporary!" feels insensitive bordering on cruel.

I get that it's harder to give generic advice or coping skill in the situation of always having some level of suicidal ideation going on. But it sucks trying to seek help and basically none of the solutions are super helpful for your situation.

[shadowlorddemon]

AVA-M Early Bird: Regeneration Potions

To be clear:

TSC lied to Blue about their chronic pain issues by saying it’s only muscle pain, simply because they don’t want their friends to worry about them.

TSC said ow because they jerked their arm up too fast and it worsens the pain.

And I’m borrowing the idea of regeneration potions being a temporary solution for chronic pain from @tulipsempai.

In the second picture, Blue was explaining to TSC on how to make regeneration potions.

[ioannemos]

last seizure free day: yesterday 😑 have a temp prescription for the higher dosage of my meds, so i fully expect to turn into a zombie. thankfully i already have an appointment with a neurologist for later this month, but like. fuck's sake

[karasimpno]

I know my “I can fix him” weakness is SOOO prevalent because I realized the other day that while Suguru is my like #1 pookie and has been for a MINUTE, not once have I ever included him in my nightly cuddling-with-a-fave fantasy to help me fall asleep bc I KNOW that mf never stays the night 😭

[kwistowee]

Touching bases between connecting flights! I'm gone until Tuesday at m'favorite cousin's wedding. Everyone: be kind to yourselves, notice reasons to smile, and have a fantastic weekend! Enjoy my queue and remember you are inherently valuable. 😘

[rotisseries]

fun fact about me I've only ever watched dead poets society once and it was with my mom and brother when I was about 10 or 12 and I remember coming down after having finished the movie, incredibly distraught for obvious reasons, and my dad immediately taking the chance to tell me and my brother that's why we should never kill ourselves

[julieeeeette]

I don't know who needs to hear this, but I felt compelled to share.

TW: Homelessness; family drama

With tomorrow being Thanksgiving in the States, I've been asked a lot about what I'm grateful for.

I'm grateful for many things: my health, a job with benefits, the air I breathe, the food I eat, the fact that I have my health even if it isn't perfect.

But the thing I am most grateful for is having a home.

I was homeless for three years when I was 19. It was hard and scary. Very few people were sympathetic and saw me as being a drug addict, someone with anger issues, or with serious mental health issues like schizophrenia, or a thief. There were people who asked where my baby was. I must be an unwed mother because I was young and my family disowned me.

Well, they did disown me after my mother died after a long battle with cancer. My dad's next wife had a guilty conscious and hated that I look so much like my mom. So, he chose her over me and that was that.

There was so much drama that when my dad told me to either submit or leave, I left.

I was safer on the streets.

The homeless I came in contact with were so kind and caring. They'd tell me where to go for food and shelter. How to stay warm in the winter and cool in the summer. They let me know if someone was hiring. They'd protect me when people got aggressive.

They helped me find clothes when I went in for interviews. They cheered me up when nothing came of it and celebrated when I finally got one. They celebrated even more when I finally had enough to get an apartment.

I try to go back as often as I can and spread my good fortune with them. I bring food and water and clean clothes and blankets and first aid kids. Sometimes I can't find them and I mourn for the loss of their companionship. Sometimes, I feel guilty for having survived such an ordeal, but they tell me not to because everything happens exactly when it's supposed to.

Anyway, that's how I'll be celebrating my Thanksgiving, by sitting in a yellow tent listening to the stories of the people who have become closer to me than my own family and laughing with them.

Happy Thanksiving.

[lavendermaster]

How to argue without crying google search

[sugarstarlights]

But also importantly I've properly saved some lives tonight, in a big way, so I'm. Really proud of myself, and I think that's a pretty damn good wrap-up of this whole divinity experience, on top of all the other chances I was able to gift that I never could have as an angel.. I was grateful for almost every second.

[rhinco]

hey i have a question. why

well i dont have anywhere else to store them. the curtain rail seemed like a good option at the time

[shivermewhiskerz]

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//Venting in Tags:: TW Sewerslide and shit like that

[defilerwyrm]

For those of you reblogging this: not offing yourself is a big damn deal. I would know. Whether you have kids or not, your life and personhood have intrinsic worth. Hopefully your parents see this and are thankful that you're fighting for yourself, whatever that fight looks like. And if they don't, fuck 'em, I'll be proud of you for staying alive.

I will tell you this: after three genuine attempts to end myself, after a change in environment took that death wish away, life's still hard, real damn hard sometimes, but not a single, solitary day goes by that I'm not boundlessly thankful that those attempts failed. And my fervent wish is for you to be able to feel that someday too. Maybe without the attempts, though, hey?

Depression can physically block your ability to imagine a happy future for yourself, but please hold on to the belief that your life can and will get better, even if you're just treading water for now.

[person4924]

“it gets better!” haha that’s so so great susan! but i’ve been waiting for it to get better since i was 8 years old 😆😆 so where is it?? haha!

[aanews69]

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[ughmulder]

to be perfectly explicit and clear I have been extremely suicidal this past week and also have had a lot of self harm urges which has not been fun! no sir no ma'am but I have come to the conclusion that I would like my brain to want to live because that seems so much simpler than whatever the fuck is going on up there and honestly that's brought me a lot of peace. like I feel better...I just have to keep reminding myself