#perfumer priscilla

[catcas22]

Perfumer Priscilla

This became a whole thing in Prince of Death ch. 116 because I didn't properly think through my name choice for a background character. But I'm kind of glad it did.

Priscilla is a medicinal perfumer in Radahn's army. When asked what she used to do for a living, she'll always say she's retired. No one knows exactly what she retired from.

The Redmanes are split on whether she's a former drake knight or the hybrid offspring of an ancient dragon in human form. But they all agree that there's something distinctly dragonish about her. They've never seen her without the headband. She is their favorite aunt.

Will occasionally grab a pint with Sir Ogha, as he's the only one even close to her age. She also has a pet crow that she's trained to deliver short messages and fetch ingredients for her.

[gotholsentwin]

one of my wishlist fragrances 🍰 - annabel’s birthday cake by marissa zappas

[wblubereypies]

‎˚₊‧꒰ა 𝑨𝒃𝒐𝒖𝒕 𝒎𝒆 ໒꒱ ‧₊˚

౿ 𝑀𝑦 𝑛𝑎𝑚𝑒'𝑠 𝐷𝑖𝑛𝑎

౿ 𝐼'𝑚 𝑐𝑢𝑟𝑟𝑒𝑛𝑡𝑙𝑦 14, 𝑚𝑦 𝑏𝑑𝑎𝑦 𝑖𝑠 𝑡ℎ𝑒 24 𝑛𝑜𝑣𝑒𝑚𝑏𝑒𝑟

౿ 𝐼 𝑙𝑖𝑣𝑒𝑑 𝑖𝑛 𝐹𝑟𝑎𝑛𝑐𝑒 𝑚𝑦 𝑤ℎ𝑜𝑙𝑒 𝑙𝑖𝑓𝑒 𝑏𝑢𝑡 𝐼'𝑚 𝑚𝑜𝑟𝑟𝑜𝑐𝑎𝑛

˚₊‧꒰ა ꣑ৎ ໒꒱ ‧₊˚ ꣑ৎ‎

꣑ৎ‎ 𝑀𝑢𝑠𝑖𝑐 𝑖𝑠 𝑚𝑦 𝑓𝑎𝑣𝑜𝑢𝑟𝑖𝑡𝑒 𝑡ℎ𝑖𝑛𝑔. 𝐼 𝑙𝑖𝑠𝑡𝑒𝑛 𝑡𝑜 𝑎 𝑙𝑜𝑡 𝑜𝑓 𝑑𝑖𝑓𝑓𝑒𝑟𝑒𝑛𝑡 𝑎𝑟𝑡𝑖𝑠𝑡𝑠 𝑎𝑛𝑑 𝑏𝑎𝑛𝑑𝑠 𝑏𝑢𝑡 𝑡ℎ𝑒 𝑚𝑎𝑖𝑛 𝑜𝑛𝑒 𝑎𝑟𝑒 𝐿𝑎𝑛𝑎 𝐷𝑒𝑙 𝑅𝑒𝑦 (𝐿𝑖𝑧𝑧𝑦 𝐺𝑟𝑎𝑛𝑡), 𝐽𝑒𝑓𝑓 𝐵𝑢𝑐𝑘𝑙𝑒𝑦, 𝑁𝑖𝑟𝑣𝑎𝑛𝑎, 𝑀𝑎𝑧𝑧𝑦 𝑆𝑡𝑎𝑟, 𝐵𝑖𝑙𝑙𝑖𝑒 𝐸𝑖𝑙𝑖𝑠ℎ, 𝐴𝑣𝑟𝑖𝑙 𝐿𝑎𝑣𝑖𝑔𝑛𝑒, 𝐹𝑖𝑜𝑛𝑎 𝐴𝑝𝑝𝑙𝑒, 𝑆𝑢𝑘𝑖 𝑊𝑎𝑡𝑒𝑟ℎ𝑜𝑢𝑠𝑒 𝑒𝑡𝑐

꣑ৎ‎ 𝑀𝑦 𝑓𝑎𝑣𝑜𝑟𝑖𝑡𝑒 𝑐𝑜𝑙𝑜𝑟 𝑎𝑟𝑒 𝑝𝑢𝑟𝑝𝑙𝑒, 𝑏𝑟𝑜𝑤𝑛 𝑎𝑛𝑑 𝑝𝑖𝑛𝑘, 𝑏𝑢𝑡 𝐼 𝑙𝑜𝑣𝑒 𝑡ℎ𝑒𝑚 𝑎𝑙𝑙

꣑ৎ‎ 𝑀𝑦 𝑓𝑎𝑣𝑜𝑟𝑖𝑡𝑒 𝑏𝑜𝑜𝑘𝑠 𝑎𝑟𝑒 𝑚𝑦 𝑦𝑒𝑎𝑟 𝑜𝑓 𝑟𝑒𝑠𝑡 𝑎𝑛𝑑 𝑟𝑒𝑙𝑎𝑥𝑎𝑡𝑖𝑜𝑛 (𝑂𝑡𝑒𝑠𝑠𝑎 𝑀𝑜𝑠ℎ𝑓𝑒𝑔ℎ), 𝑔𝑖𝑟𝑙 𝑖𝑛 𝑝𝑖𝑒𝑐𝑒𝑠 (𝐾𝑎𝑡ℎ𝑙𝑒𝑒𝑛 𝐺𝑙𝑎𝑠𝑔𝑜𝑤) 𝑡ℎ𝑒 𝑣𝑖𝑟𝑔𝑖𝑛 𝑠𝑢𝑖𝑐𝑖𝑑𝑒𝑠 (𝐽𝑒𝑓𝑓𝑟𝑒𝑦 𝐸𝑢𝑔𝑒𝑛𝑖𝑑𝑒𝑠), 𝑡ℎ𝑒 𝑝𝑒𝑟𝑓𝑢𝑚𝑒 (𝑆𝑢̈𝑠𝑘𝑖𝑛𝑑), 𝑎𝑛𝑑 𝑚𝑎𝑛𝑦 𝑚𝑜𝑟𝑒 !!

꣑ৎ‎ 𝐼 𝑙𝑜𝑣𝑒 𝑒𝑣𝑒𝑟𝑦 𝑘𝑖𝑛𝑑 𝑜𝑓 𝑚𝑜𝑣𝑖𝑒𝑠, 𝑏𝑢𝑡 𝑠𝑜𝑚𝑒 𝑜𝑓 𝑚𝑦 𝑓𝑎𝑣𝑜𝑟𝑖𝑡𝑒𝑠 𝑎𝑟𝑒 𝑡ℎ𝑖𝑟𝑡𝑒𝑒𝑛, 𝑃𝑟𝑖𝑠𝑐𝑖𝑙𝑙𝑎, 𝑡ℎ𝑒 𝑏𝑟𝑒𝑎𝑘𝑓𝑎𝑠𝑡 𝑐𝑙𝑢𝑏, 𝑎𝑛𝑑 𝑔𝑖𝑟𝑙 𝑖𝑛𝑡𝑒𝑟𝑟𝑢𝑝𝑡𝑒𝑑

꣑ৎ‎ 𝑀𝑜𝑟𝑒 𝐼 🩷 : 𝑠𝑝𝑟𝑖𝑛𝑔, 𝑤𝑟𝑖𝑡𝑖𝑛𝑔, 𝑝𝑎𝑖𝑛𝑡𝑖𝑛𝑔, 𝐺𝑜𝑑, 𝑚𝑦 𝑓𝑟𝑖𝑒𝑛𝑑𝑠, 𝑟𝑎𝑖𝑛𝑠𝑡𝑜𝑟𝑚𝑠, 𝐾𝑢𝑟𝑡 𝐶𝑜𝑏𝑎𝑖𝑛, 𝑝𝑖𝑛𝑘 ℎ𝑜𝑢𝑟, 𝑐𝑜𝑓𝑓𝑒𝑒, 𝑑𝑎𝑦𝑑𝑟𝑒𝑎𝑚𝑖𝑛𝑔, 𝑙𝑒𝑎𝑟𝑛𝑖𝑛𝑔, 𝑤𝑖𝑠ℎ𝑖𝑛𝑔 𝑖'𝑑 𝑏𝑒 𝑏𝑜𝑟𝑛 𝑑𝑢𝑟𝑖𝑛𝑔 𝑡ℎ𝑒 90s

˚₊‧꒰ა ꣑ৎ ໒꒱ ‧₊˚ ꣑ৎ‎

𝑃𝑖𝑛𝑡𝑒𝑟𝑒𝑠𝑡

𝐼𝑛𝑠𝑡𝑎𝑔𝑟𝑎𝑚

𝑆𝑝𝑜𝑡𝑖𝑓𝑦

[bexatriz]

🩵Powdered Skies🩵

[midnightcowb0ys]

priscilla presley advertising this bottle of 4711 snapped me out of depression for a minute

[hell0-gh0st]

Movies for the girls who wants to fell something ♡₊⁺

(check the TW )

- The Virgin suicides (1999)

- White oleander (2002)

- Black Swan (2010)

- Girl interrupted (1999)

- Drop dead gorgeous (1999)

- Dirty girls (2000)

- Bones and all (2022)

- Gone girl (2014)

- Thirteen (2003)

- Jennyfer's body (2009)

- American beauty (1999)

- Carrie (1976)

- The loved ones (2009)

- Tragedy girls (2017)

- American Mary (2012)

- Welcolme to the dollhouse (1995)

- The substance (2024)

- Ghostland (2018)

- Valley of dolls (1967)

- Lady bird (2017)

- I,Tonya (2017)

- Hereditary (2018)

- Candy (2006)

- Requiem for a dream (2000)

- Priscilla (2023)

- Pearl (2022)

- Mysterious skin (2004)

- Buffalo 66 (1998)

- Donnie darko (2001)

- Midsommar (2019)

- Possession (1981)

- Palo alto (2013)

- Kids (1995)

- Christiane f (1981)

- Raw (2016)

- May (2002)

- Heather (1988)

- Ginger Snaps (2000)

- Tamara (the horror one, 2005)

- All Cheerleader die (2013)

- Saint Maud (2019)

- Stoker (2013)

- Orphan (2009)

- Heavenly creature (1994)

- Suspiria (1977 & 2018)

- The red shoes (1948)

- Repulsion (1965)

- Prozac nation (2001)

- Clockwork orange (1972)

- Fight club (1999)

- Leon (1994)

- Lolita (1962 & 1997)

- Noce blanche (1989)

- Lost in translation (2003)

- My Beautiful boy (2018)

- I believe in unicorns (2014)

- The Florida project (2017)

- The lovely bones (2009)

- Ripe (1996)

- Marie Antoinette (2006)

- Mustang (2015)

- Miss violence (2013)

- Daisies (1966)

- Ghost world (2001)

- Fantastic mr fox (2009)

- Juno (2007)

- Lilya 4 ever (2002)

- Gia (1998)

- The perfume (2006)

- To the bone (2017)

- Joker (2019)

- The perks of being a wallflower (2012)

- The crush (1993)

- Fishbowl (2020)

- Down in the valley (2005)

- Brokeback mountain (2005)

- Mother! (2017)

- Dancer in the dark (2000)

- Speak (2004)

- Sharing the Secret (2000)

- Amélie (2001)

- Tart (2001)

- Eternal sunshine of the spotless mind (2004)

- all the bright places (2020)

- little miss sunshine (2006)

- As you are (2016)

- Dazed and confused (1993)

- Dead poets society (1989)

- My girl (1991)

- 10 things i hate about you (1999)

- Aftersun (2022)

- 5 feet apart (2019)

- Little women (2019)

- The pianist (2002)

- Where the crawdads sing (2022)

- La la land (2016)

- The glass castle (2017)

- 500 days of summer (2009)

- Uptown girls (2003)

- Call me by your name (2017)

- V for Vendetta (2005)

- The pictures of Dorian Gray (2009, The book is so much better)

- Waves (2019)

- Manchester by the sea (2016)

- A silent voice (2016)

- Death in Venice (1971)

[prncessjaeger]

every girl gets her wish ˚ ༘♡ ⋆｡˚

ღsyponosis: eren’s pink obsessed spoiled!gf goes to the mall!

ღan: idk this is kind of a selfship then again idk, anyways song inspo for title: every man gets his wish

ღcw: suggestive ending but that’s it.

“baby, you think this top is cute?” you held up a pink longsleeved shirt and showed it off to eren, who was currently on the phone with his co-workers talking about boring business bullshit, “hm yeah but it’s pink…again-” “so?” your lips formed a pout, knowing he might not even buy the shirt (mainly cause you already have like 3 similar ones in your closet but who’s counting?) and that saddened you deeply. “soo you should pick the grey one, goes well with those pink patricia pants right?”

“they’re called priscilla pants and i mean yeah they do, but i wanna do pink on pink though…” your pout was evident and eren knew this tactic from a mile away…but he couldn’t just keep you sad all day, so! he sighed and grabbed the shirt, adding it to the pile with all the other clothes you’ve chosen. “so i can get it?!” “just keep looking for things you want, i’ll be at the front waiting.” he walked away, clothes in hand and you smirked to yourself, knowing you got your way once again. 

once he paid for your items, you took him inside of this cute daiso like shop, and eren internally sighed before walking in, “oh my god eren! look at these cute headbands, wanna get em?” “no-.” “yes? okay, get that white basket and hold it please?” he snatched (playfully) the basket up and let you sit both headbands in there. you both browsed around the shop, grabbing anything, whether it was perfume sets, stationary sets, and other miscellaneous items. “i’m finished-and the basket’s not even that full this time, baby!” “right…” he looked down and saw the basket (which was full) and just agreed with you, wanting to keep you happy! “your total is $137.20! cash or card?” “card.” eren grabbed his card and you smirked once he tapped it against the green. “thank you for shopping here, girl! your outfit is too cute!” “thank you! yours as well!” you both left the store and immediately you grabbed the bag with the headbands in,

“eren-” “no.” whining, you ignored him trying to move his head away from you  and put the headband on him anyways,

“aww you look adorable! now, let’s go get smoothies!” he finished up his call and smiled softly at you, grabbing you hand and instead of going to the smoothie section, he took you straight into victoria’s secret. 

“oooh they have pink bralette sets and the teddy to match, grab those yoga pants eren with the pink lettering- oh my god! they have pink and grey sets!” eren picked up a few things and walked back to where you were, checking out the new scents for fall, “go try these on.”

“okay, you coming in?” he nodded, “yeah, give me a minute though.” you grinned and walked into the dressing room the worker, kira, opened for you and you checked out the cute set he picked out for you, and hastily tried it on. “eren!” “yes, my love?” “it’s on.” you could hear the scuffles from his shoes rushing to the dressing room, “lemme see it baby,” opening the door you pulled him in, not wanting anyone around you to see you in such little clothing, “soooo…?” “you look…beautiful baby, do a spin for me?” he took your hand and raised it up, twirling you around twice, “yeah, this is real nice…can’t wait to fuck you in it too-”

“eren! people can hear?!”

“so? now c’mere,” grabbing your waist, his lips connected to yours in a soft kiss, moving one hand cupping the fat of your ass cheek as he deepened the kiss, “mmh- eren, c’mon let’s buy it already?” he saw that certain glint in your pretty doe eyes and poked his tongue in his cheek,

“yeah, come one, we’re ending this mall trip a bit early today.”

ღan: boring, yawning, sloppy….lazy.

[ribb0ngirl]

𝑎𝑐𝚑𝑖𝑒𝑣𝑖𝑛𝑔 𝑡𝚑𝑒 𝑔𝑖𝑟𝑙𝑏𝑙𝑜𝑔 𝑣𝑖𝑏𝑒/𝑎𝑢𝑟𝑎 𐙚𓂃࣪˖

a guide to radiating the girlblogger/chic mystery girl aura ♡

𝑤𝚑𝑎𝑡 ��𝑠 𝑡𝚑𝑒 𝑔𝑖𝑟𝑙𝑏𝑙𝑜𝑔𝑔𝑒𝑟?

♡ Of course there are many types of girlbloggers, but the ones that I am going to be referring to today is the type of Coquette girlblogger, who posts whisper conffessions, girl memes and moodboards. She's attractive, smart, mysterious and knows her worth.

𝑚𝑖𝑛𝑑𝑠𝑒𝑡

♡ Never over-share! Only vent to your closest friends, if you do stuff like that nonchalantly then people with bad intentions could spread it around and use it against you.

♡ Don't indulge or join in drama, like obviously you can gossip cause who doesn't like to gossip, but don't overdo it.

♡ No more people pleasing! Nobody is worth it, you should focus that energy on you! But still be a good friend and help others when they need it, just remember that your well-being should come first

♡ Stop caring about what others think about you. Like if someone hates on you think will that really affect your life? I don't think so. Care about things that matter like: academics, friends, family, hobbies, girlblogging, etc.

♡ Self-care is important! Take care of your physical health, hygiene and overall well-being.

𝑓𝑎𝑠𝚑𝑖𝑜𝑛

♡ lace tops

♡ floral tops

♡ pastel colored sweaters

♡ ballet flats

♡ uggs

♡ flared jeans/leggins

♡ low-rise jeans

♡ knitted sweaters

♡ pattern tights

♡ mini skirts

♡ leg warmers

♡ heart lockets

♡ bows

𝑚𝑜𝑣𝑖𝑒/𝑠𝚑𝑜𝑤 𝑟𝑒𝑐𝑠

♡ Virgin suicides

♡ Black swan

♡ Gone girl

♡ Pearl

♡ Girl, interrupted

♡ Jennifer's body

♡ Buffalo '66

♡ The World of Kanako

♡ Priscilla

♡ Gossip Girl

♡ Pretty Little Liars

♡ Scream queens

𝑏𝑜𝑜𝑘 𝑟𝑒𝑐𝑠

♡ My Year of Rest and Relaxation

♡ The Bell Jar

♡ The Chic Diet

♡ Metamorphosis

♡ The Secret History

♡ Perfume

𝑚𝑢𝑠𝑖𝑐 𝑟𝑒𝑐𝑠

♡ Lana Del Rey

♡ Fiona Apple

♡ Marina

♡ Amy Winehouse

♡ Mazzy Star

[mistybunny]

⋆˚࿔ 𝑤𝑒𝑙𝑐𝑜𝑚𝑒 𝑡𝑜 𝑚𝑦 𝑏𝑙𝑜𝑔 𝜗𝜚˚⋆

୨୧ 15 yrs old

୨୧ infp - scorpio

୨୧ the 6th lisbon sister

୨୧ anakin skywalkers gf (real not fake)

୨୧ started this acc to make friends / moots w the same kinda vibe as me so if u like any of these things let's be moots!!

୨୧ i love Jesus, tumblr, music, reading, blythe, the dolls, vintage dolls in general, online shopping, music, movies, reading, fashion, the 50s/60s, brandy melville, pinterest, star wars, plushies, vs secret angels, pretty little liars, 2000s media, the colour pink, sweet food, sofia coppola movies, cats, puppies, bunnies, horror, junjo ito, vintage fashion, anything french or russian, philosophy, ancient greece, and nice perfume

୨୧ fav books include; my year of rest and relaxation, twilight, virgin suicides, no longer human, the bell jar, the secret history, tomie, and uzumaki

୨୧ some of my favourite movies and shows are; pll, twilight, gilmore girls, star wars, virgin suicides, girl interrupted, princess diaries, priscilla, palo alto, speak, victorious, I rlly just love any sofia coppola/tim burton films and any good horror

୨୧ music - I like rock, classic and a little pop, some of my fav artists are lana del rey, radiohead, the smiths, deftones, david bowie, ariana grande and the cure

୨୧ aesthetics - very much a coquette girly since 2021 but I dabble in vintage and gothic styles occasionally, coquette, vintage dolls, hyper-fem, gloomy coquette, morute, dollette, 2000s movie protagonist, 60s/50s, vintage americana, 2010s tumblr girly and southern gothic r some kinda keywords I would use to describe my personal aesthetic

୨୧ posts are mainly mood boards and gifs with probably a few little rants here and there, minor tw for maybe sadish content and some horror imagery as well as a bit of religious talk

୨୧ non-denominational christian girly converting to catholicism

୨୧ dni - basic dni criteria + nsfw blogs + anyone under the age of 13

୨୧ no pictures posted are mine unless stated - dm for credit / removal

[honeybubblebeeeeee]

TW: established relationship, toxic relationship, Eren has a temper. angsty

inspired by a scene from the movie 'Priscilla'

(also send requests! i appreciate them they help smmmm with writers block <3)

Eren has a bit of a temper, he is always under constant stress with everything he is trying to do and accomplish. He sometimes has a habit of snapping on people around him, including you. Most cases it's hard to tell if he means it or not. He swears he doesn't mean it.

Eren was in his office in the home you shared. The one he asked you to move into so you would be closer to him, so he could keep you safe.

You were cleaning out his bags from his last couple month trip. He didn't tell you were he went, he couldn't. You understood in a way, if you didn't know you truly couldn't answer when asked and therefore would be safe.

You pulled out a jacket, and shook it to straighten it. A piece of paper fell from the pocket, floating to the ground. Your eyes trained on the folded paper. Slowly you bent down and hesitantly took the paper and dropped the jacket.

The smell of a woman's perfume wafted towards you as you unfolded it. A woman's neat writing marred the page.

Thank you for everything Ren. Meeting you is the best thing to happen to me. ~Mae <3

The note seemed like it could be innocent but the hearts and lipstick marks that covered the paper made your blood run cold as your body shook.

Slowly you stood and walked quickly towards his office, you ignored the closed doors that usually meant to leave him be and stormed up to him. As the doors opened he looked up from where he sat with his feet resting on the desk. Slowly he straightened, giving you a dirty look.

"Sorry I'm gonna have to call you back. Something's come up." Eren hung up the phone and looked up as you held up the note. "Now don't go imagining things."

You scoffed. "Like what? Mae? Ren?"

He sighed annoyed and pushed away from his desk, walking past you. "Look, I don't wanna hear it right now." He continued out of the office. "Well is there something you're hiding?!" Your voice broke as you followed him down the hall towards the bedroom you shared.

"I don't have a goddamn thing to hide! You're always being too goddamn aggressive and demanding!" He stopped in the middle of the room. "You know what? Maybe you should go back home for a little while."

Tears brimmed as he glared and you and walked into your closet. Panic settled into your chest. "What?! NO! I'm not going! I won't!"

He ripped down a suitcase from the top shelf. "Well I think you should! You know what I'll help you start packing!" Eren blew through the closet, ripping hangers of clothes off the rack and throwing them in your general direction as he screamed. "AY! Someone get Y/N a chaperone and get her out as soon as possible! She's going back home for a while!" Eren continued his terror through your closet. "HURRY UP!" He continued throwing items towards you.

You could do nothing but watch in horror as his temper took him over. Tears fell and slowly you sunk to the ground, picking up a few items as sobs started to loudly wrack your body. You could barely think as you kneeled on the floor, eyes blind with tears, trying to hastily fold the items. Sobs interrupted you from continuing as you closed your eyes and just let the cries come.

You hadn't even realized Eren had stopped. He kneeled down beside you and placed a hand on your arm. You sniffled, looking up towards him with tear stained eyes.

"I-I'm sorry baby. I didn't mean it. Are you okay?" A sob escaped you and he slowly stood, softly pulling you along with him. "Come on, come on baby, come here." He sat you on the bed, softly gripping your chin and turning your head towards him. You chest stuttered as you tried to hold back a sob, tears still fell rapidly as you looked at him.

"It's okay, I'm sorry. You need me." A soft smile crossed his face as he pulled you in. One arm wrapped around his neck and the other around your torso. He laid his head on your shoulder, kissing the bare skin that was visible.

You're body relaxed into a weird state of calm even though your mind reeled as the event but what could you say? He swears he didn't mean it.

[dolette444]

about me ౨ৎ

❣ my name is agatha, and my pronouns are she/her, i'm infj

❣ my favorite artists are: lana del rey, marina, mitski, alex g, beabadoobee, crystal castles, penelope scott, tv girl, hole, fiona apple, sky ferreira, paramore, arctic monkeys, the cranberries, charli xcx, radiohead, nicole dollanganger, slowdive, grimes, lamp, solya, amy winehouse, kate bush, nirvana, mazzy star, cigarettes after sex, deftones, ethel cain, phoebe bridgers, melanie martinez, air

❣ my birthday is 02/15

❣ my icons are: vlada roslyakova, lana, alana champion, mia goth, anya taylor-joy, sofia copolla, sylvia plath

❣ my fave characters are: cassie ainsworth, effy stonem, pearl, lux lisbon, nina sayers, tonya, priscilla, jennifer, corpse bride, daisy randone, lisa rowe, layla, tracy freeland, love witch

❣ i ♡ dior, 2000's models, miu miu, vs, chanel, old movies, french, purses, pink, white, pretty jewelry, perfume, coffee, 

❣ my fave lana albums r: lizzy grant, honeymoon, ultraviolence, blue banisters, ddyttatuob, may jailer sirens

❣ my book taste: unabridged journals of sylvia plath, girl in pieces, lolita, the secret history, little woman, the bell jar, pride and prejudice, the picture of dorian gray, before the coffee gets cold, my year of rest and relaxation

[luxe-pauvre]

APRIL 2024

Read:

Objectifying Expression

A Reminiscence on Youth and Our Former Selves

Self-respect: its source, its power

The Ugly History of Beautiful Things: Perfume

Goya: Bearing true witness

Camera Mortis

‘Everything Is Terrible, but I’m Fine’

The Antilibrary: Why Unread Books Are The Most Important

How to fall back in love with reading

#24: The Emily Ratajkowski effect

Deep Medicine: How Artificial Intelligence Can Make Healthcare Human Again by Eric Topol

Watched:

why you keep buying books you don’t read*

Dune: Part Two

Scoop

Priscilla

Elvis

Listened To:

Oppenheimer (Original Motion Picture Soundtrack)

Went To:

Yayoi Kusama @ Tate Modern

Women In Revolt! @ Tate Britain

Accidentally West Anderson: The Exhibition @ 85 Old Brompton Road

DIVA @ the V&A

The Cult of Beauty @ the Wellcome Collection

[matttgirlies]

Matt & Me🎀

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a story heavily based on Priscilla Presley’s Book “Elvis & Me” based in the 1950’s - 1970’s.

fem! reader x singer! matt

disclaimer!! - in no way am i saying matt would ever support or do these kind of things, for the sake of the book certain unethical things do happen at times.

warnings - suicide attempt,, arguing

y/nn = your nickname for any confusion🩷

Chapter 15

By the mid-sixties he was holding Bible readings in the den of our Bel Air home. I sat next to him one evening as he read passages with great force. Facing us were several of his young female admirers wearing the lowest-cut blouses and the shortest miniskirts. They all listened attentively, disciples enraptured in the presence of “their” lord. The sermon stretched to hours, followed by a question-and-answer period during which they vied for his attention.

Sitting at his feet was an attractive, wellendowed young girl wearing a blouse unbuttoned to her navel. Leaning over seductively, she asked in honeyed tones, “Matt, do you think the woman at the well was a virgin?” With me right beside him, he avoided taking in the fleshy spectacle obviously exposed for his benefit.

“Well, honey,” he said, “that’s somethin’ you’ll have to come to a conclusion on yourself. As for me, I personally think Jesus was attracted to her, but that’s my opinion. I’m not sayin’ it’s fact.”

I watched Matt and the girl talking, feeling undermined and angry. How stupid, I thought. Can’t he see what she’s doing? It’s so obvious.

He drew in a deep breath and said, “I like your perfume, honey. What’s it called?”

“Chanel Number Five,” she answered.

Chanel Number Five? That’s what I was wearing! Why didn’t he notice it on me? I slowly rose and walked into my dressing room adjacent to the den. Determined to snare his attention, I changed into his favorite outfit—a tight-fitting black sheath he had picked out himself.

Returning a few minutes later, I took my place beside him, but he was wrapped up in preaching to his devotees and had totally overlooked my absence. To make matters worse, he didn’t even notice my change of costume. I managed to conceal my distress behind a fake smile and an attentive gaze, but I couldn’t help noticing that he was responding to them with an occasional wink or smile.

I asked questions like they did, but my heart wasn’t in it; I knew they all wanted to take my place. “That’s it,” I thought. “If I’m not appreciated, loved, or wanted, I’ll end it. That will make it easier for everyone.”

I got up and went back to our room. Picking up a half-full bottle of Placidyls, I devised a plan to create a dramatic effect that, in my mind, would win his attention. I stared at them, thinking, What if I choke to death? I decided to take two pills to start. That way I could take a quick shower, redo my makeup, put on my prettiest camisole, and still have time to position myself dramatically on the bed before I consumed the rest of the bottle.

I swallowed the pills and started to prepare myself for the end. In tears, I thought of leaving him a note, writing down everything I’d never been able to say. I’d tell him how I wished that it could have been just the two of us again, as it had been during the long hours we’d spent together in his room in Germany. I’d confess that I was jealous of any woman who caught his attention and that I hated the times when there was only silence between us, even though he’d said he had things on his mind. I’d tell him how I feared his violent temper, which robbed me of my freedom of expression; and how I wished that he’d have tried to understand me as I’d desperately tried to understand him.

Maybe he’s missed me by now, I thought. I ran to the door and pressed my ear against it. I heard him laughing. He was having a great time. They all were. I found that I was disgusted with all of it. I wouldn’t go in there now if he begged me, I told myself. I was too tired anyway.

But I wasn’t too tired to remember how I wanted to be found. I lay down on the bed with my long jet black hair spread over the white pillows, my lips moist with gloss. In my naive fantasy he’d take my listless body in his arms and tell me how much he loved me, kissing me passionately back to life.

I forced down one more pill, lay perfectly still in the position I wanted to be discovered, and waited for what seemed like hours for sleep to overtake me. But the longer I lay there, the less sleepy I became. The more I heard Matt’s laughter, the angrier I got. My adrenaline-charged fury was overriding the effect of the pills. Soon I began to feel foolish.

Then I heard Matt say good night to everyone as he approached the room. I grabbed the nearest book and lay it at my side, as though I’d been reading and had fallen asleep. I heard him come in, quietly walk over to the bed, and pick up the book. He whispered the title, The Listener. I could imagine him smiling, pleased as always when I read philosophical books. He stood over me for a second, probably thinking how sweet I looked and how tired I must have been to retire so early.

Then he covered me snugly with blankets and bent down to kiss my carefully-parted lips. All my anger and jealously vanished. I realized how even a little of his attention could make me happy.

In April of 1964, Larry Geller was hired to replace Matt’s barber, Sal Orfice. Little did we know that their relationship would not only cause a drastic change in Matt, but it would create tension, jealousy, and fear within the group.

I was in Boston when he first met Larry, but I learned all about him through our nightly phone conversations. Matt’s enthusiasm over his newfound friend was infectious.

“You’re not going to believe this guy, Sattnin,” he said. “Larry knows more about the spiritual world than all the preachers and Catholic priests and religious fanatics put together. We have discussions that last hours, just talkin’ and talkin’ about the great masters and my purpose for being here. I’m invitin’ him to Graceland. He’ll enlighten your spiritual development.”

When Larry and his wife, Stevie Geller, joined us, I was surprised to find them both young and attractive. He was kind and mellow. She was sweet and quiet and kept to herself.

However, many in the group, myself included, were suspicious of them. We were all threatened by Matt’s involvement with Larry. It was keeping him from us. It seemed as if Matt was always off alone reading esoteric books or deep in discussion with Larry about God’s master plan for the universe.

Matt discovered there were many great masters besides Jesus. There were Buddha, Muhammad, Moses, and others, each “chosen by God to serve a purpose.” What I was now witnessing in Matt was the emergence of that part of his nature that was thirsting for answers to all the fundamental questions of life.

He asked Larry why, out of all the people in the universe, he had been chosen to influence so many millions of souls. Granted this unique position, how could he contribute to save a world burdened with hunger, disease, and poverty? Why was there so much human suffering in the first place? And why wasn’t he happy, when he had more than anyone could want? He felt he was missing something in life. Through Larry’s insight, he hoped to find the path that would lead him to the answers.

He was eager for all of us—especially me—to absorb all the knowledge he was consuming. Happy to share everything, just as he had with his Bible discussions in L.A., he read to us for hours and handed out books he thought would interest us. He announced that in order for us to be perfect soul mates, I’d have to join him in his search for the answers to the universe. To help me, he gave me several large books, including Vera Stanley Adler’s The Initiation of the World.

He suggested I attend the lectures of the metaphysical philosopher and author Manley P. Hall. I did. I found the lectures difficult to understand and painful to endure, but I managed to survive with the hope that “this too shall pass.”

Then he became interested in Cheiro’s Book of Numbers, which defined people’s personality traits and characteristics according to the day of the month on which they were born. To find out who was compatible with whom, Matt added up the numbers in the birthdays of everyone within the group. I waited in terror, praying that my number would be a six, seven, or eight, so I would be compatible with Matt, who was an eight. Fortunately, my number linked with his.

Although I was striving to be his soul mate and subtly becoming more aware of myself as a spiritual being, my heart longed for the very temptations he was fighting to conquer.

While I patiently waited at home at Graceland for his returns, planning romantic interludes, he was attempting to overcome worldly temptations and believed he was going through a cleansing period, physically and spiritually. Any sexual temptations were against everything he was striving for, and he did not wish to betray me, the girl waiting for him at home who was preparing to be his wife.

He felt guilty and confused about his natural reaction to female advances and I believe that this was his greatest fear when it came to marriage. He loved me and deeply wanted to be faithful to me but never felt certain that he could resist temptation. It was a persistent battle, and it even got to the point where he felt he had to resist me.

“y/nn,” he said one night before we went to bed, “you’re going to have to be pretty understanding these next few weeks, or however long it takes. I feel that I have to withdraw myself from the temptations of sex.”

“But why? And why with me?”

He was quite solemn. “We have to control our desires so they don’t control us. If we can control sex, then we can master all other desires.”

When we were in bed, he took his usual dose of sleeping pills, handed me mine, and then, fighting off drowsiness from the pills, pored over his metaphysical books.

As his soul mate I was expected to search for answers as fervently as he did, but I just couldn’t bear reading the ponderous tracts that surrounded us in bed every night. Usually within five minutes of opening one, I’d be sound asleep. Annoyed at my obvious disinterest, he woke me to share an insightful passage. If I voiced the slightest protest, he’d say, “Things will never work out between us, y/nn, because you don’t show any interest in me or my philosophies.” Then, pointedly: “There are a lot of women out there who would share these things with me.”

Faced with this threat, I forced myself to sit up and try to read the passage. The print swam before my eyes in one big blur.

I wanted to share romantic, not religious, inspirations with him. I tried to cuddle as close to him as I could, feeling the warmth of his body. He told me to sit up and listen, and he read yet another passage, repeating it several times to make sure I grasped its significance. I could bear it no longer. I lost control and started screaming.

“I can’t stand it! I don’t want to hear any more! I’m sick and tired of your voice going on and on! It’s—driving—me—crazy!” I was hysterical, pulling at my hair like a wild woman.

“What do you see?” I demanded. “Tell me, what do you see?”

He stared up at me, his eyes half-closed. “A madwoman, a goddamn raving madwoman,” he answered, slurring his words because of the sleeping pills.

I fell on my knees beside him, crying, “No, Matt, not a madwoman, a woman who needs to make love to and to feel desired by her man. Matt, you can have your books and me too. Please don’t make me beg,” I cried. “I really need you and want you.”

By the time I’d finished my tirade, all I could hear was the faint sound of religious music playing on the radio. I looked up at him. He had fallen into a deep sleep.

Excerpt from: "Elvis and Me" by Priscilla Beaulieu Presley. Scribd. This material may be protected by copyright.

a/n - i feel like you guys are going to want to kill me when i get to the last chapter..🎀

[angelbunnydoeeyeddolly]

Hello angel, welcome to my blog!! Here’s a bit about me <3

Fav movies ~

Girl, Interrupted, Buffalo ‘66, Bambi, Sleeping Beauty, Priscilla, thirteen, Mean girls, legally blonde, clueless, the conjurings

Fav tv shows ~

Gossip girl, Star Trek, the Big Bang theory, the Simpsons

Fav books~

The bell jar, Ariel, Girl, Interrupted, Lolita, crime and punishment, the metamorphosis, my year of rest and relaxation.

Fav icons ~

Lana del Rey, Lyla, Daisy randone, Lilly rose Depp, Nina sayers

Additional information

I am a minor. My favorite colors are baby pink, baby blue, black, and white. I love animals, Dior, pearls, Perfume, Cillian Murphy, and my messages are always open!

Thanks, lovely 𝜗𝜚

[girlthatgotawaysdiary]

movie recs !! ˚୨୧⋆｡˚ ⋆

in this post, I’ll be listing all the movies I recommend as a long-time movie watcher !!

disclaimer: i actually worked so hard on this ᥫ᭡

dramas 𐙚:

#1 hunger games movies(1-4)

#2 girl interrupted

#3 black swan

#4 priscilla

#5 woman of the hour

#6 thirteen

#9 precious

#10 poor things

#11 mean girls

#12 thirteen

#15 passengers

#16 the hunger games: ballad of songbirds and snakes

#17 marie antoinette

musicals 𐙚:

#1 the greatest showman

#2 wicked

#3 wonka

#4 tick tick boom!

#5 la la land

#6 high school musical

#7 barbie

#8 hamilton

romance 𐙚:

#1 me before you

#2 under the tuscan sun

#3 1o things i hate about you

#4 the other woman

#6 13 going on 30

#7 bones and all

#8 little women(any version tbh)

#9 emma

#10 the lobster

animated 𐙚:

#1 tangled

#2 the wild robot

#3 coco

#4 elemental

#5 book of life

#6 coraline

#7 alice in wonderland

#8 IF

#9 walt disney's cinderella(1-3)

certified sad movies 𐙚:

#1 cherry

#2 beautiful boy

#3 dead poets society

#4 call me by your name

#5 eternal sunshine of the spotless mind

#6 the perks of being a wallflower

#7 I, tonya

#8 lady bird

#9 the pursuit of happyness

`#10 the green mile

thrillers/horrors 𐙚:

#1 dead end

#2 saltburn

#3 trap

#4 intrusion

#5 see how they run

#6 a haunting in venice

#7 glass onion( both movies)

#8 scream movies

#9 memories of murder

#10 intrusion

#11 gone girl

#12 parasite

#13 midsommar

#14 split

#15 zodiac

#16 zombieland

#17 jennifers body

#18 shawshank redemption

#19 anna

fantasy 𐙚:

#1 ittle mermaid

#2 miss peregrines home for peculiar children

#3 matilda

#4 perfume

#5 mcu movies

#6 the maze runner trilogy

comedy 𐙚:

#1 the parent trap

#2 the secret life of walter mitty

#3 white chicks

#4 cruella

#5 catch me if u can

action 𐙚:

#1 interstellar

#2 twisters

#3 a quiet place: day one

#4 inception

#5 fall guy

[hell0-gh0st]

About me :

5teen ໒꒱· ﾟ

Infj ˖ ࣪⊹

She/her ᕷ˖゜

I'm 🇫🇷

I speak 🇬🇧/🇺🇲 too

I'm in a art school 🎨

I love reading , drawing, listening to music and watching some movies ♡₊⁺

I'm very interresed by paranormal, horror stories and cold case ୨୧ ♡

People call me weird and cute ✮⋆˙

I LOVE :

Artists :

Hole , Queen , Gun's n roses, Metallica, Nirvana , Lana del Rey , Nicole dollanganger, Motley crue , mazzy star , jack off jill , babies in toyland, blur, Weezer, kiss , Megadeth , Radiohead, Fiona Apple , korn , Splitnot , abba, Britney Spears, Ayesha Erotica , Angèle , Evanescence , kittie , Jeff Buckley , Avril Lavigne , Olivia Rodrigo, Taylor Swift , Mitski , Marina , System of a down , Air

Movies :

The Virgin sui, 10 things i hate about you, Bones and all, drop dead gorgeous, Bohemian Rhapsody , Harry Potter, Black Swan , Priscilla, Pearl , Jennyfer bodies, girl interrupted, fantastic mr fox, Juno, Narnia, The lord of rings, thirteen , freaky friday , clueless, lolita , broke back mountain , Alice in Wonderland, welcolme to the Robinson, Gone girl , dark knight , speak , doctor strange , Carrie (1976), the lego movie

Show :

Friends, Malcolm in the Middle, Assoue, cold case , Gilmore girl, game of throne , stranger thing, dark crystal, sandman , lock and key , bridgerton , Supernatural

Books :

Were liar , and there were none, the fault in your star, girl in pieces, agggtm, two can keep a secret , school of good and evil , harry potter, Carrie

Horror/ case

The green ribbon

Alyssa Bustamanta case

Japonese urban legend

The green river killer

Other :

Allison Harvard, girl blog , art, Carrie white , Benjamin Lacombe

Aesthetic :

In the head of a quiet teenager who think a little bit too much

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This account :

Moodboards

Girlblogging

My idiot little life

Citations

Other (?)

Safe place ♡₊⁺

Tw : Bl00d , gore , violence

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Current read : The picture of Dorian Gray

Current perfume : Lolita Lempicka

Current song : Angels of P*rn , Nicole Dollan ganger

Current movie : White oleander

Current show : AHS season 2

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DM always open 𓈒 ˖ ࣪ 𝜗𝜚

Sorry i'm really shy , so don't be scare to do the first step if you want to talk to me ♡ ˎˊ˗

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🧷Thank you for reading 🧷