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i dont think fizz and blitz mending their relationship was that rushed. like fizz is in a good place mentally and emotionally (compared to most other characters in this show he's doing alright)
plus he didnt completely forgive blitz (or was suddenly totally ok with everything that happened), more like he's ok with him being in his life again (they've got a lot of work to do)
#also its been 15 years and theyre what? 36 now? maybe they dont /want/ to be angry at eachother anymore#helluva boss spoilers#helluva boss#blitzo#fizzarolli#people are so weird with forgiveness#like if youve been wronged by someone then they must be cut out forever#obvs its subjective/depends on the what they did exactly#like theres nothing wrong with hearing someone out and forgiving them#plus most characters in this show are so bitter and resentful its nice to have someone be at a little mature for once
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Kiss it Better Pt:2
Curly x Reader
AN: Holy shit I did NOT expect all the love and support from the original like god damn! People begging for a part 2 and everything (Iâll make sure to tag those who asked for one at the bottom) Like oh my god thank you guys so much! This means the WORLD to me! As a disabled person trying to make his medical issues more accurate it means so much that yall love it and how I write in general! Thank you!
SUM: You and Anya were busy dealing with changing Curlyâs wrappings together. Sharing stories, and just trying to stay positive. Thatâs when you just had to ask. Whatâs going on between her and Jimmy?
Warnings: Jimmy, sexual assault, Anya sharing her trauma so pls take care of yourself, medical gore, medical situations, light violence,
âThank you again for handling Curlyâs medication. Iâm sorry I just-â Anya would try to explain again how sorry she was that she was struggling to do her job. A job you could never blame her for. Sheâs been through a traumatic event of the ship crashing, and already had to try and save a near corpse. She deserves to breathe.
âAnya itâs fine, really. Iâm his romantic partner as well. It be weird if I didnât pick up some responsibility and tried to take care of him. You also deserve time to rest. Youâve done so much for him, and saved his life. Give yourself more credit. Itâs not a sin to ask for help.â You would try and comfort her, as you would grab the fresh bandages for Curly.
He needed a lot of them, and they had to be changed out relatively often. Heâs basically just exposed meat after all. The risk of infection was high, which you were wondering how he didnât even catch any yet, so he needed alot of attention and care.
If only Pony Express had packed more, because the med bay was running out of them fast. Very very fast. Might be only able to maybe re wrap him a few more times now. Had you terrified because as much as you wanted to take care of him you had to leave some bandages for the rest of the crew. In case of another emergency.
You wish you could be doing more.
âWeâre going to undress you. Is that alright?â Anya would ask Curly, who in return would give two blinks to indicate that he consented to being stripped. Was gonna have to be done but it was still so kind of Anya to still ask before hand.
The two of you would soon get to work on changing out his bandages. A very slow, careful, tedious job. One that normally took over a hour to do properly. So itâs time to kill some of that empty space.
âYa know, this isnât the first time over had to wrap up a certain someone because they got hurt. I remember a time when we were at a Ski resort with his family. Someone wanted to try a path that was meant for experts and before you know it someoneâs returning to the lodge with his leg bone sticking out of his pants.â
Anya gave a little âoh myâ as you just laughed at the memory. Curly just adored sports. Especially the winter variety. You felt so blessed that he had a job that paid so well. Well enough that the two of you, and his own family sometimes, could go and enjoy vacations like that.
You wonder if the two of you will ever see the snow again.
âThat sounds rather nice, minus the whole breaking his leg. To share a cabin together with someone. Cuddle for warmth together by the fire place. Sounds really nice.â She would speak dreamily. As if she knew it was simply that. A dream. Something that will never happen again. No matter how hard she tried.
Like something was wrong with her.
âI bet youâll get that moment. When we escape here youâll have a flooding of men and women coming your way. The brilliant woman who managed to fight death and win. Again and again. The most brilliant woman to ever live.â You would praise her, as you were very mindful of Curlyâs catheter. As if that needed to be messed with.
âYeahâŠ..MaybeâŠâŠâ Anya didnât really seem to actually respond. Was like she was just saying words for the sake of words. Had you wondering.
Even before the crash she had just started acting off one day. From being a cheerful woman who was gentle and full of smiles, to being so quiet and scared by the littlest of sounds. Like she expected someone to jump from around the corner and attack her. Any feeling of safety and comfort vanished.
You were worried.
âSay, Anya-â You began to speak, while disposing the bandages safely into the bio hazard bag. â-Is everything ok? I mean duh weâre not doing to hot with being, ya know, crashed and all. But besides that. You just seemâŠ..different.â
Anya seemed to not hear you. She simply worked on checking over Curlyâs body. Hunting down any infections, looking for possible bed sores, monitoring his healing, and getting ready to do the ever so gentlest of sponge baths.
Anya did always get in the zone whenever someone was hurt. You figured she didnât catch what you said because of it.
So repeated yourself, as you stood next to her. Impossible to miss what you were asking, as you would help Curly sit up and just move his joints to better reach with the sponge.
The only sounds in that room were Curlyâs whines of discomfort. Whines to indicate truly how much pain he was in when even the pain killers can numb it.
âAnyaâŠ.I know you can hear me. Is everything alright? Not to be rude but Iâm kinda asking you a question.â You would be gentle, but she still couldnât help but looked distressed.
âAnya whatâs-â You would reach a hand out, to comfort her, but the second it was raised towards her she would immediately flinch. Her startled reaction ended up even making her drop Curlyâs leg on the table.
Oh thatâs gotta hurt.
For a fleeting moment you put Anya on the back burner, and just focused your attention on comforting Curly. How he gave a weak sob from the intense pain.
âShhhh I know Curly Fry. I know. Itâs gonna be ok. It was an accident. You know she didnât mean it. Shhh.â You would kiss his forehead, as Curly had a muscle spasm through his body from the intense shock to his system. So exhausted and in so much pain.
âItâs gonna be ok. I promise. I love you so much. Just think about our future. How we will get off this ship, and have that family. Have our own baby-â
The moment you said baby, thatâs when Anya finally cracked.
Her hands were now covering her face, as she just broke down into sobs. Sobs that sounded so hoarse. Like sheâs done it so many times that her body was just abused from it. Left you so worried and confused.
What the hell is going on here?
âAnya, whatâs wrong? What did I say?â You would gently guide her to a chair, and worked on stroking her hair. Giving her as much comfort as you would to Curly. The same gentle love as he would get. Love she deserved.
It took a while for her to catch her breathe, and you didnât rush it because it really seemed she needed it, but her own trembling body was finally able to quite down.
âI need to tell you something. I need to tell you something about Jimmy-â
You were quick to kneel down infront of her, and was ready to take in every last word she was going to say. Maybe what secrets she held could finally explain why the hell you all were crashed here. Why Jimmy crashed you all.
âJimmy ra-â
Thatâs when the door opened.
As if that bastard had a sixth sense for whenever people were talking about him. That same annoyed expression, same sneer, same empty eyes.
All three of you kinda froze in time now. Looking at him, as he looked back at you all. Scanning you. As if judging to figure out what was being said before entering.
âHeyâŠ.CaptainâŠ.â You swallowed, as you would return to standing. Anya herself remained in her chair, with her head down. Didnât seem she trusted herself in showing any expressions right now.
âWhat were you guys talking about?â He asked, as he seemed slightly on edge. Like he hasnât been sleeping well or had too much caffeine. Just this tension of paranoia was in the air. Like he was worried about something.
âJust about the bandages. Weâre starting to run low, and Anya is just getting worried about having enough.â Wasnât a complete lie. The best lies were the ones with truth sprinkled in.
âOf course heâs wasting our supplies.â He scoffed, before walking over to the table. You were trying to give Curly some respect with grabbing something to cover him up with, but it was like Jimmy wouldnât let you. The stare he gave you, when you grabbed the clean hospital gown, made you just freeze in place.
It was just so full of hate.
It was just so full of disgust.
It was just cruelty in dark eyes.
It was just focused on you. As if Anya didnât even exist right now. Like she meant nothing to him. Nothing but the wind in the air. Something you donât even bother in registering every day. Like how you breathe in air in your lungs.
You donât notice until itâs gone.
âHas he been given his medication?â He would ask you, as his hands would be firm on the bed side. Just seeming to assert his dominance with standing over the man. Like some got over the little people.
âYes Jimmy. Heâs been medicated. We are actually in the middle of washing him. It would be nice if there was some privacy-â You tried to gently hint at, only for it yo fall on deaf ears.
"The crash really did do a number on you. You donât even have a dick anymore. Just holes huh-?â Jimmy would scoff, as that was your final straw. You would give Jimmy a hard hip bump, and quickly covered Curly up. To give him dignity and respect.
âHey-! Watch it! Donât think because you are Curlyâs little eye candy doesnât mean you can go pushing people around-â Jimmy would bark at you.
You didnât feel fear.
Jimmy was messing with YOUR man now. Curly deserved dignity and respect. He doesnât deserve to be called a âset of holesâ no way in hell. No one deserved that and ESPECIALLY not Curly.
âWill you just shut up?! What the hell are you even doing here?! Arenât you the Captain now? Captains are suppose to be doing whatever it takes to help the crew. All youâve been doing is walking around and insulting everyone! Itâs like you donât want us to be saved. Be a Captain and take some responsibility already-!â
The anger that he had for you was terrifying. You swore it was like a switch. He suddenly seemed taller, bigger, angrier, more intense. You felt like you were shrinking more and more. Like you would melt into a puddle under that heated stare.
But you refused to.
For Curly.
âListen here you-â
SLAP
You smacked him across the face. Was like the world went mute. No one was so much as breathing. Just the stares of shock from Anya and Curly.
âGet. Back. To. WORK.â
You ordered, and he listened.
He would hold his red cheek, and walked away like a dog with its tail between its legs. As if he was all talk and no bite. That he couldnât bring himself to be more than an angry voice.
Someone needed to keep him in his place.
âCan this damn ship get any more hectic?â You sighed with your fingers to the bridge of your nose. Just trying to think clearly.
Thatâs when Anya found her voice.
âIâm pregnant.â
You opened your eyes wide, and was frozen in place.
Did you hear that right? No no. No way. Why would she be pregnant? How would she get pregnant? Who would get herâŠ
âOh my god.â
You slowly turned around to Anya with the puzzle pieces falling into place. You finally realized what had happened.
Jimmy never was a responsible man.
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#mouthwashing#mouthwashing fandom#mouthwashing fanfic#curly x reader#captain curly x reader#Captain curly#mouthwashing Anya#mouthwashing x reader#mouthwashing x you#mouthwashing curly#mouthwashing jimmy#tw jimmy#fuck you jimmy#x reader#Iâm still so shocked you guys all wanted more#I hope you guys like it#I didnât plan for a part two so like this might be a bit weird and messy#forgive me#but you gotta give the people what they want#hope yall like#thank you again for the support#means the world to me#it really does#thank you#thank you so much#yall are wonderful#writers on tumblr#writer#writer on tumblr#part 2
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what kind of underwear do you think Erik and Charles wear (i'm not asking this to see them half naked) ((please believe me)) (((PLEASE)))
My Personal Belief is charles is a briefs guy while erik's a trunks guy. trunks/briefs kinda couple because i can
and idk just a lil bonus or somethin. as i do.
#nsft#probably. again A Promotion Would Be In Order From Me Personally but WHATEVER.#cherik#im too tired to tag everything ok this post'll find its people#snap sketches#not too tired for a tag ramble tho eUUGGHHH#i HAVE to post the second bit now or ill be editing it all night and for what. i will live#and my silly ass said i wouldnt draw that reading idea. well guess what im a LIAR who LIES.#i do wanna revisit that proper tho .. at least draw em by the fireplace someday but anyway#i think the funny thing is i had like. plans to draw charles in purple briefs just cause he wore them once and i chortled Unreasonably#so here we are. youll have to forgive me my friend i have a condition called If I Get An Excuse To Draw I Will#it is a very serious condition cause i need to SLEEEEPP truly and honestly locking in later i HAVE to#leaving all of you with this for the next idk twelve hours thats crazy#all i want to do is draw but i feel my eyes . Getting Weird and i have exams so i guess i should be a responsible person and sleep#i actually have a lot i need to catch up on so like. i prob wont be back on until this weekend when im Hopefully more free#'snap didnt you say that last night' I HAVE TO BE SERIOUS THIS TIME i got a lot. so i will see everyone saturday Hopefully#please give me the strength to focus for once thank you#for now good night everyone !!! please enjoy my doodlings from today. yesterday. i must not make any more for now
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I might be wrong, but didn't Roy also first meet Jason when he was 15 and Roy was in his 20s?
I've always thought their ship was kinda weird.
my little brother is only two years younger than me, but with the way our birthdays fall, he was three years behind me in school. so when i was a senior, my brother was a freshman. (for anyone not american: when i was 17, he was 15, but the age gaps between a freshman and a senior are usually a little larger and developmentally, it's a big deal.) we were both in band together and both pretty well known pretty fast. which meant that other freshman felt comfortable to go up to me and talk despite me being a senior (which was fine, because i was a section leader and i wanted all freshman to feel comfy enough to ask me questions and talk). and sometimes, that conversation would be about my little brother, asking if he was in a relationship and blah blah blah. THAT was adorable to me (with context, my brother was a little shit in middle school but when he got to highschool he suddenly decided he wanted to be a downright gentleman and got super embarrassed by this so i often teased him LMFAOO)
however. there was ONE person in my grade (that i was close friends with!!) that said "if your brother was a senior too, I'd date him"
shit was NOT CUTE. i was flabbergasted. i was appalled, even. even as an innocent comment, it freaked me out and i went full big sibling mode. tore that person a new one because that's literally my baby brother what the hell are you talking about????
now imagine that the age gap is even larger? nah, if it was my little brother the person would be DEAD. even if we were close friends before then. which is why im confused why the Jayroy ship is as popular or accepted as it is... like i know the batman fandom are fucking weirdos (looking at batcest shippers you fucking freaks i hope you feel embarrassed and shamed) but this ship slipped through the cracks i think and not everyone is aware of that age gap or why it's weird. at most i've seen people comment about dick being like "you're dating my little brother??" but not like. in the way of "hey what the fuck that age gap is fucking weird" and instead as "you can't date my family!!" ummmmmmmmm
#and it's weird because these same people will understand that dick was an adult when jason was itty bitty#so wtf y'all#they're good as a platonic pairing#also this applies to Kori and Jason too#and this isn't even bringing up that jason is mentally behind because of his death#he's not extremely far behind or anything#but it's enough that jason is like what a year or so behind? because 6 months dead + coma for a year i think?#and he was 15?#so he comes back as like 17 but mentally he's stuck grasping with his 15 year old mindset#the artists and writers that had jason look like a grown man and not a 17 year old... ill never forgive you#the damage that caused his reputation...#someone needs to redraw the panels of his appearance as red hood (and titan's tower) but with jason still having some baby fat to his cheeks#like actually looking his age#cause 17 is already an awkward age to be#because you feel neither kid nor man#but it's WORSE for jason#he was in fact. just a kid.#jason todd#roy harper#dick grayson
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More Pink Bunny Stuff!
Warriors learns not to touch Bunny without permission the hard way. His response catches Bunny off guard
(AKA the scene I thought Iâd already shared and had promised @thatonecrazysidekick (oops!). @tiredgaytheatrekid more Bunny stuff!!)
⊠. ăâș ă . ⊠. ăâș ă . ⊠. ăâș ă . ⊠. ăâș ă . ⊠. ăâș ă .
Wind began to hum absentmindedly as Warriors towelled off his hair, cheerful despite his earlier complaints, and Warriors couldnât help the smile that lifted the corners of his lips. He took more care with drying his young friendâs hair, pulling the damp strands out of Windâs face, tucking a lock behind his ear.
Wind groaned. âWars, youâre babying me again.â
âI would never.â Warriors definitely was. How could he not, when Wind was like the little brother he never got to have? When Wind reminded him of his boisterous little sister back home.
âYou are. We should start calling you Ma.â
âIf that would make you happy,â Warriors said, smile turning into a smirk as he finished off drying Windâs hair. âDone. Was that so bad?â
Wind scoffed, but when he stood, he leaned into Warriorsâ side, a brief moment of affection to show his appreciation. âTerrible,â he said.
âTruly terrible,â Warriors agreed. âAnd you are welcome.â
âThanks, Wars.â Wind smiled at him, that toothy grin that made Warriors think so much of his little sister, and he couldnât help but pinch Windâs cheek. âAhâdonât!â He shoved Warriorsâ hand away, cheeks aflame.
âAlright. Go have your dinner now.â
âYes, ma.â For that, Wind earned Warriorsâ hand ruffling his hair, messing it up even more. âUgh, Wars.â
âWind.â
âYou need to eat too.â
âI will once you have all eaten.â
Wind, more than used to his idiosyncrasies by now, nodded, grabbing his arm and dragging him closer to the fire, where Twilight was dishing out the soup he and Time had prepared. He shared a nod with Warriors, ladling out a bowl for Wind and passing it over before moving on to the next hungry mouth. Only once they had all eaten their fill could Warriors pick up spoon and bowl and dig in himself, once he was certain they were all fed and not going hungry. They all knew that well by now, didnât try and push him before he was ready.
While Wind had his dinner served, Warriors let him go, moving over to sit alongside Hyrule closer to the fire, where warmth pressed against his chest and legs as he sat on the log left behind by the lizalfos.
âYou smell better,â Warriors commented.
âLikewise,â Hyrule said, and they shared a grin. It was then Warriors noticed the little rabbitâBunny, as Hyrule and Twilight had taken to calling itânestled in Hyruleâs lap, clean and fluffier than ever. And pink.
âHuh,â Warriors commented, his eyes on Bunny.
âYeah,â Hyrule agreed. âWe think it must be an era-specific thing. Iâve never seen a rabbit this colour in my era.â
âIt could be dye,â Warriors offered.
âWe thought that too, but Iâve checked and the colour goes right down to the roots. If heâs been out in the wild for weeks, then his natural colour would have started to grow back by now. So⊠pink fur it is.â
âPink fur it is,â Warriors agreed, and when Hyrule hummed, beginning to run his hand down Bunnyâs back, smoothing out the fur, that warm affection leftover from his time with Wind swelled in his chest. He reached out to pet Bunnyâs fluffy pink head as Hyrule was doing. It happened fast, a blur of pink and then sharp, fiery pain along the back of his hand.
âOw!â Warriors tore his hand back, inspecting the little bite mark, lazily weeping ruby red. âDid he bite me?â
âOh myâBunny!â Hyrule began to chastise the rabbit, but Bunny only had eyes for Warriors. Violet narrowed at him, watching him with suspicion, and Warriors found all frustration dissipate.
âIt is okay,â he assured Hyrule. âI should not have tried to touch him without permission.â
Violet eyes widened slightly. Warriors thought back to Twilightâs comment of Bunny being a lot smarter than the average rabbit. Wondered if Bunny could understand himâperhaps not his words, but the meaning behind them, his tone of voice.
âI am sorry,â he spoke to Bunny this time and not Hyrule. âI should not have tried to touch you without permission, and I swear I will not do it again.â
Bunny watched him for a long moment, curious. He blinked slowly. Then he dipped his head, the gesture far more Hylian than Warriors anticipated from the rabbit.
#I shared this with C already and for some reason my brain thought that meant I had shared it publicly too#oops!#anyway I hope you enjoy Wars getting bitten by Bunny snsnsn#Bunny wasnât expecting an apology and respect for his boundaries#he starts to like Wars a little after this and when Wars saves him during a fight and patches him up#he starts to really like Wars (and flops against him!)#he only lets three people touch him#(excluding Ravio of course. Ravio⊠isnât here)#I also have Wolfie and Bunny snuggling to share#I might do that later today or tomorrow⊠but get excited for it!!#I also included Wind and Wars being brothers because I love them so much#perhaps you can forgive me for injuring Bunny when I share snugglesâŠ#(the snuggles happen only a few hours after this scene)#okay I think thatâs all from me for now snsksn BYE#lu#loz#linked universe#lu fic#linked universe fanfic#lu pink bunny au#lu Bunny#(changed the tag bc I keep getting weird recommendations in my For You pageâŠ)#lu warriors#lu hyrule#lu wind#lu legend#faye writes
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how long did it take Stan to learn all he could?
I mean, for thirty years he only had one journal, so I wonder how much time he spent actively fixing the portal and for how much time he was simply... searching
when he finally had all three journals things moved along pretty quickly, so I believe he knew everything he could with the limited information he had, and grasped the rest of the instructions easily
imagine how frustrating it must've been, after teaching himself science he never thought he could comprehend, cracking Ford's codes, and at some point all of that just wasn't enough
he learned so much but couldn't figure it out the rest by himself, and it was worse than when he was clueless because now that things make sense, he knows exactly what he can't do, what would be too risky â understands enough to know what's broken but not enough to know how to fix it
all that's left to do is find the other journals and I think that's how he spent the better part of those years
I wonder what went through his mind when he realized Dipper had one of them all summer
#Gravity Falls#Stanley Pines#Grunkle Stan#seriously he is so smart#it annoys me when people seem to think it took him all of that time to figure out how the portal worked#like no he was just unlucky#that poor man he deserves so many hugs#when Dipper told him he found it inside a tree he probably got so irritated#he cursed Ford so bad like damn there are so many trees lol#also forgive me if the english is weird I tried my best
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An AU where Kon saves and befriends his many clones ( + Travv)
Context and rambles are in the tags
#toasts art#Kon El#Match DC#Seraph DC#Travv DC#Clone shenanigans au#<- for potential future doodles#For clarification Match (SB94) and Match (T shirt variant) are two separate people specifically for this au#Listen every time Match shows up in the comics he is a whole different character in entirely. He is horrendously inconsistent#and I don't forgive Geoff Johns for just making him a different version of Bizzaro because Match in SB94 was pretty interesting to me#Travv is here too as honorary Kon clone#and so is Seraph because she might count more as a test tube baby come to think of it#DC is weird when it comes to clones because if you're going with the Clex clone retcon then Kon wouldn't be a clone either.#he'd be a tube baby#Anyway Kon is living with 4 clones and 3 of them might be plotting his downfall#I don't know who'd be interested in this au specifically#but I gotta learn to post self indulgent stuff sometimes
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Masa is such an interesting character because heâs the most loving of all of my ocs and also the literal worst. Proof that loving does not equal nice or kind or even good lol.
#vrrm vrrm#bbp#from least to most selfish my ocs#masa jeong Hana Yrz#Yrz is incredibly selfish it just manifests as him being hurt if the people he loves are hurt#so he tries to prevent that#masa is just. a weird person?#he is so silly#heâll forgive pretty much anything and heâs got this Birds Eye view of morality#idk how to describe it#like sure heâll eat you but itâs not out of malice#heâs just a hungry animal so he does what a hungry animal would do#thatâs it actually. he considers humans the same as animals himself included#so you can get mad at a cat for shredding a couch but youâre not gonna blame the cat for doing it lol#at least if youâre not a stupid person you wonât
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#i finally snapped today#at a couple of coworkers after work#who were referring to bad behavior by another person and speculating that they might be on the spectrum#and was like#no. fuck you. I'm actually autistic and this is really not fucking cool#I am so fucking tired of people attributing bad - or even just weird or unusual - behavior to someone possibly being on the spectrum#just talk about the behavior! You don't need to speculate!#and not only is it none of people's fucking place to speculate#it's just ableism#like not intentional#but if you sua sponte speculate like this about other people being on the spectrum for positive behavior#or in terms of 'this person may need accommodations'#(other than a general - well we should be forgiving of him (almost always him) being an asshole)#it's really obvious how you think about autism and autistic people
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going through some old left-for-dead projects and just found this one where I was like. INTENT on dissecting jeff's brain on the operating table (i.e. google docs) but only from todd's weird skewed pov
[professor voice] it's about brothers as eternal combatants and it's about being so convinced of your own goodness you excuse your shitty actions. it's also about comparing yourself to a dog because you feel less fully formed than your brother. lol.
#âso-and-so is an irredeemable character with no depthâ jokes are funny sure but unfortunately i'm unable to not take things seriously#anyway: i remember people being like [about hymnal] this is crazy! this fraternal dynamic is so fucked up! and being kind of non-plussed#because the dynamic i wrote into the fair folk wip [this one] was like fifty thousand times more. argh. bites#THIS WASN'T EVEN SCRATCHING THE SURFACE#also i've always been an advocate of writing cruel characters with sympathy because the best feeling as a reader is when#you're reading and start nodding along with a particular guy and have to take a step back and recoil at how receptive you were to them#when the character is kind and jolly and cares but he's still letting the abuse happen under his nose :eyes:#anyway this ALSO isn't an accurate jeff portrait because todd's pov is weird and jaded and sardonic at the beginning of the story#and also he's like three seconds away from exploding. lol#hm. i never explained it to myself fully [probably why i never finished this] but i think the issue was that#todd is Too understanding and he's perceptive enough to see everyone's motivations but that makes it worse because now he's too#not forgiving. but he can excuse people's actions very easily#and thus when people actually do shitty things and it makes him mad he can't really justify being mad to himself - but he still is#and this makes him sooooo volatile. and becomes a problem later on in the wip when he's trying to work on cameron#because understanding isn't the ending point you have to do the action sometimes! lol!#goddamn. i miss writing this au.#dead poets society#tristan writes#dps#dps fic#todd anderson#jeff anderson#SORRY THIS IS VERY LONG. I JUST REDISCOVERED THIS AND IT BROUGHT A LOT OF MEMORIES BACK.
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enterprise text posts: featuring trip (and friends) in Situations
#*meme voice* its because they're always in those damn situations#star trek enterprise#star trek#enterprise text posts#trip tucker#doctor phlox#t'pol#travis mayweather#malcolm reed#hoshi sato#jonathan archer#this was originally *just* trip focused but i kept finding ones that fit other people in proximity to him so now we're here.#with a trip (and friends) theme. just- roll with it please.#anyway. he's not like other girls!!!!! he doesn't die when he's killed!!!!!!!#i quote the bug in the tent scene at least once a week. i see a weird bug in my house i say ARE WE ALLOWED TO STUN ALIEN LIFE FORMS??#the poor little meow meow one...... forgive me.#injury tw#blood tw
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2024 reads / storygraph
The Sword of Kaigen
standalone fantasy set in a rural mountain village at the edge of an empire that still holds traditional values, with families of powerful water/ice magic warriors
follows a powerful young heir who begins to question his beliefs about the empire when a new boy comes to his village from the city
and his mother, a housewife who has tried to forget her youth as a warrior and vigilante in the city since she moved back home to a loveless marriage
when thereâs a violent attack on their village that theyâre unprepared for, everything changes, and she has to embrace her old skills to protect her family and people
#The Sword of Kaigen#aroaessidhe 2024 reads#Iâve been meaning to read this for years and I finally got around to it! a really unique fantasy novel#I had always assumed this was ur average pre-industrial high fantasy and then was immediately hit with video games/tv in the first chapter#lmao. But overall (aside from the broader worldbuilding/politics) it is closer to the average âhistoricalâ fantasy narrative -#so I can see why I got that impression#Some really compelling characters and interesting narrative structure that went in some unexpected directions.#It really focuses in on one village and how devastating a single battle in a war can be to their people - and how much work the recovery is#I feel like most sff is more concerned with a single person and/or the whole war so this felt unique. did also mean that the pacing was odd#- it's a slow start; then thereâs a battle that must be hundreds of pages. The last section of the book feels a little too drawn out#and brings up random hanging plot elements that donât really go anywhere. But I think overall this works for the story.#also one thing I didnât love - cool complex interesting female character MC sure but also thereâs weird moments like:#the first scene we see her is all the housewives comparing their attractiveness; she keeps referring to herself as an old woman (when sheâs#and oh so meek and useless etc. And some of this feels like itâs part of the broader portrayal of the misogynist society#but some of it felt clunky or unintentional?#And then especially the end - when she and her shitty husband finally confront each other as equals and he apologises#she basically immediately forgives him and is like oh I was equally at fault because I am a meek woman who didnât try either#like him realising he was wrong (and her realising he had a reason for being the way he was) doesnât negate the fact that he treated her li#she acts like it was her fault for not trying too - when we have numerous examples of him berating her if she spoke up about anything?#like im glad heâs learning. but also that doesnât mean she needs to suddenly forgive and love him wtf#that's the only real thing that annoyed me though.#also btw that 5yo seems kinda fucked up. are you guys gonna do anything about that
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I have a LOT of feelings about kaisers backstory. Mostly positive? My opinions on his character have only really gotten better tbh. Like, he's not a good person. But he is definitely a product of his environment.
I think he does care about Ness in his own twisted way. But he doesn't know how to recognize positive emotions. He doesn't know how to form lasting relationships without manipulation and insults.
Kaiser never got therapy, or even really a trustworthy adult (that we know of yet) to sit him down and try to break through the shell he formed after all those years. It's all he knows, it's all he has to work with. He has no frame of reference for friendship and love. New emotions and feelings are scary, they feel wrong sometimes. So he sticks to what he knows and does it the best he can.
The only thing that's changed is we know WHY Kaiser is how he is. I don't have it in me to hate him now that it's confirmed he's incredibly mentally ill due to his fucking awful and unstable formative years. He's a bad person, but he hasn't always been. But he's not beyond hope or help, like anyone is.
Not supporting anything he's done, just appreciating a well written character. Seeing bits of my broken past mirrored on a fucking rat tail anime man has been an experience.
#This was all typed up on my phone so please forgive me for any weird formatting#Just needed to get this out of my system TBH#I have a lot of experience with people with cluster b personality disorders and I relate a lot to Kaiser's backstory#feel free to disagree with me but if i get any comments or asks bashing mentally ill people I will fucking riot#and no i am NOT supporting his actions if that isn't clear enough#micheal kaiser#blue lock
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youre literally making up a guy to get mad at to stick it to nazis over listening to actual jewish voices. we dont need the fucking goyim defense squad making up shit to skew our jewish values. stay away from us. our posts, our culture. honest to god just stay out of any nazi discourse because you only do more harm to us than any good
"stay away from us" but I didn't approach anyone. I made a comment on a public poll and someone replied to me :)
#^ if anyones curious I said I wouldn't forgive nazis for being nazis on that one poll and someone said I'm bullying jewish people lol#SPECIFICALLY because I referenced the âi can excuse x but draw the line at yâ meme. that's the bullying#also this was like several days ago baby why are you so late?#âmaking up a guy to get mad atâ < when toddlers dont understand that other people have different real life experiences that them#It's also weird that you seem to think Black people don't get a voice in discussions abt Nazism lollllllllllllllllllllllll
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having a normal one watching Bdubs lim life tonight and thinking about how when Bdubs betrayed Tango in last life, Skizz told Tango that for the sake of team best he had to go and forgive him.
But when Bdubs boogey kills Skizz in lim life before team ties is even really formed, Skizz is allowed to have it out for Bdubs for almost the entire first half of the season, even when the clockers ally with them and it would've been easier to let sleeping dogs lie.
Tango, the perpetually extraneous and undervalued member of his alliances...the too often shoved aside and betrayed...being told it was his duty to the team to forgive bdubs and move on....
But no oneâespecially not Tangoâtried to tell Skizz to let it go.
#and like. now im thinking about how no one is ever really ride or die for tango. ever#people are allied with him but no one PRIORITIZES him#as a team rancher fan myself id be tempted to argue Jimmy is but you can just as easily point to how that was in a way self serving#and I dont just mean with the soulmate mechanic so worrying about tango was worrying about himself for jimmy#but i mean it in the way of jimmy was so worried about tango because#jimmy was worried about HIMSELF being the thing that hindered him and dragged him down#whihc is not to say that jimmy didnt also worry about tango#but it is to say that the dl rule set played heavily on jimmys insecurities and fears#he was most of the time worried about himself. YES because of how that affected tango. but also because it served his guilt complex#and so his intentions were colored by that as someone whos incredibly willing to make himself the problem whenevr he sees fit#whihc is again nothing on him hes my fave ya know i love the guy#i just mean even in double life where by design it shouldve happened tango wasnt made anyones top priority#not in the way that we come to see it across many other pairs. not in the obsessive worrying about his safety#or just in the general Being Weird About Each Other Way#sure you could argue skizz and tango last life...tango was for a while skizzs priorityâuntil skizz shifted his sights to team best#even when team best wasnt giving their all backt o him that was skizzs focus#and if tango were really his priority over the wellbeing of the team such as it was for bdubs and etho#skizz wouldnt have tried to make tango forgive bdubs after he was betrayed#skizz wouldnt have kept asking tango to give more and more to a team he got little if not nothing out of over and over.....just#GAH! NO ONES EVER DEVOTED TO TANGO!!! NO ONE EVER CHOOSES TANGO TO BE THEIR //PERSON// THEIR. HES NEVER SOMEONES TOP PRIORITY#again im nto saying teh ranchers werent devoted to each other you know i love them more than anything in the whole world#i just mean. not in exactly the way i mean....#and not completely when jimmy was so (understadnably) preoccupied with trying not to carry on his curse again#especially while attached to someone else#worm says
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he's such a loser and i love him
#listen i know this is a shitload of OC text but i wanna talk about himmm#my man caused all his own problems and then went and made them worse. good for him#he acts like he knows everything but he's actually Stupid (and gay) (and demiro asexual)#(not enough demi/ace rep tbh. especially in the dangerous fighty guy character type)#also lots of genderqueer characters who Arent androgynous bc there's not enough of that either!! including verno#(he's agender but it doesn't really come up bc there's no modern gender politics and also he's Busy. but in my heart he is not a binary man#he's the weird overpowered guy who's hiding a lot of trauma and self-hate/guilt behind Silly Anime Sparkles#except I wanted to take aim at all my least favorite tropes with him#Love Isn't A Magic Fix for mental illness! recovery isn't linear or fast!#Guy Who Sucks And Killed Lots Of People doesn't get to white-knight his way into being their savior!#like yes he gets a redemption arc but he absolutely doesn't get to be the hero to the people he wronged. and they do not have to forgive hi#...I went skimming the book for a good scene to commission and got distracted lmao#essay over I guess#tsf#long post#oc#im so normal about him i wanna publish this so bad#but i have no idea how to write a summary
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